1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.BZ 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.BZ 3 00:00:49,171 --> 00:00:51,757 — We were co-creators. 4 00:00:56,471 --> 00:00:59,314 We moved with the creation energy. 5 00:01:05,243 --> 00:01:08,786 We have been on the Earth many, many times, 6 00:01:12,900 --> 00:01:15,271 until someone said, 7 00:01:15,814 --> 00:01:18,700 "Here, this is the place." 8 00:01:23,014 --> 00:01:25,014 And we all see 9 00:01:25,371 --> 00:01:28,657 this is in the middle of an ocean. 10 00:01:32,486 --> 00:01:34,814 With our breath, we blow 11 00:01:37,257 --> 00:01:38,643 on the ocean, 12 00:01:42,843 --> 00:01:45,714 and the land comes from beneath. 13 00:01:51,029 --> 00:01:53,771 We go on to the land and we take the stone 14 00:01:53,800 --> 00:01:55,729 and we crush it in our hands, 15 00:01:55,757 --> 00:01:57,829 and we throw it into the wind. 16 00:01:59,043 --> 00:02:01,086 And the plants begin to grow. 17 00:02:05,686 --> 00:02:09,786 And we take our fingers and we put it in the stone, 18 00:02:09,814 --> 00:02:11,400 and we make a line. 19 00:02:12,743 --> 00:02:15,114 And the rivers begin to flow. 20 00:02:18,186 --> 00:02:19,814 We are so busy 21 00:02:21,071 --> 00:02:22,900 making and creating 22 00:02:24,171 --> 00:02:26,257 a perfect place 23 00:02:26,286 --> 00:02:28,029 in the middle of nowhere, 24 00:02:29,400 --> 00:02:31,400 until someone said, 25 00:02:33,229 --> 00:02:36,557 "I love this place. I want to live here." 26 00:02:39,700 --> 00:02:42,614 But someone else said, "You cannot do this. 27 00:02:43,614 --> 00:02:46,657 To live here, you must be of flesh and bone." 28 00:02:47,200 --> 00:02:49,700 And he said, "I don't mind 29 00:02:49,757 --> 00:02:51,543 to be flesh and bone." 30 00:02:55,843 --> 00:02:56,757 And then, 31 00:02:58,429 --> 00:02:59,514 we awoke. 32 00:04:30,914 --> 00:04:33,500 — We see... a place 33 00:04:35,357 --> 00:04:39,429 of lights and darkness and colors and 34 00:04:41,543 --> 00:04:44,086 slowly, slowly coming into 35 00:04:44,114 --> 00:04:45,614 the flesh and the bones, 36 00:04:45,643 --> 00:04:48,771 we notice that we are moving, we are moving. 37 00:04:48,843 --> 00:04:50,800 A part of our vision opens, 38 00:04:50,829 --> 00:04:53,543 and we see that we are on the ocean 39 00:04:53,571 --> 00:04:55,357 and we say, 'Oh,' 40 00:04:55,571 --> 00:04:57,829 So we put our hands in the water 41 00:04:57,857 --> 00:05:01,486 and we feel the water for the first time. 42 00:05:01,529 --> 00:05:03,900 Ah! It is so warm! 43 00:05:07,171 --> 00:05:09,757 And we look ahead of us 44 00:05:09,786 --> 00:05:11,371 and we see a light. 45 00:05:14,329 --> 00:05:17,043 It almost says to us, 46 00:05:17,071 --> 00:05:20,286 — Come, come, come to the light. 47 00:05:23,000 --> 00:05:27,114 I breathe the air for the first time, 48 00:05:29,014 --> 00:05:30,343 and I cry. 49 00:08:53,814 --> 00:08:57,400 — You see a plant, the plant sees you, 50 00:08:57,429 --> 00:08:58,757 recognizes you, 51 00:09:01,571 --> 00:09:03,286 knows that you are family. 52 00:09:09,686 --> 00:09:11,900 When you see a rock, 53 00:09:11,929 --> 00:09:13,514 this rock has been there 54 00:09:13,543 --> 00:09:15,086 before humans. 55 00:09:15,629 --> 00:09:17,500 They have seen us grow 56 00:09:17,529 --> 00:09:18,986 here on Earth, 57 00:09:20,171 --> 00:09:22,300 evolve into what we are today. 58 00:09:54,529 --> 00:09:57,129 — Ko au ko te whenua, ko te whenua ko au 59 00:09:58,457 --> 00:10:00,886 I am the land, and the land is me. 60 00:10:03,414 --> 00:10:04,914 We are the land. 61 00:10:05,114 --> 00:10:09,814 The placenta is what we call Te Whenua... the land. 62 00:10:10,143 --> 00:10:12,686 You come from the placenta, 63 00:10:12,986 --> 00:10:15,900 and then you will come onto the land, 64 00:10:15,929 --> 00:10:17,771 and you'll be taught on that land, 65 00:10:17,800 --> 00:10:19,586 and you will die on that land, 66 00:10:19,614 --> 00:10:20,871 and you will return to that land. 67 00:11:09,457 --> 00:11:11,586 — Creator, Holy Mother Earth, 68 00:11:11,857 --> 00:11:14,443 holy people all around, it's me, 69 00:11:15,514 --> 00:11:18,086 and I'm coming before you on this holy day, 70 00:11:20,740 --> 00:11:23,463 reaching out to you, reaching out to my ancestors, 71 00:11:24,661 --> 00:11:26,536 reaching out to the ancestors to come. 72 00:11:29,029 --> 00:11:32,443 May I ask that you be the ones to speak here. 73 00:11:33,257 --> 00:11:36,000 Show us the truth, show us what real love is, 74 00:11:37,046 --> 00:11:40,800 and may all the stories 75 00:11:40,829 --> 00:11:43,371 serve to show us 76 00:11:44,143 --> 00:11:45,386 the way forward. 77 00:11:47,114 --> 00:11:49,529 I'm reaching out to the ancestors to come, 78 00:11:49,557 --> 00:11:51,100 I just ask you to, 79 00:11:51,129 --> 00:11:53,300 to call out to us and to sing to us, 80 00:11:53,814 --> 00:11:55,229 because we're headed your way, 81 00:11:56,343 --> 00:11:58,671 walking that beautiful, 82 00:11:58,700 --> 00:12:00,700 beauty way pathway. 83 00:12:00,729 --> 00:12:02,929 Let this storytelling be a part of that. 84 00:12:03,730 --> 00:12:06,089 All my relations. 85 00:12:31,386 --> 00:12:33,343 — Growing up on our territory, 86 00:12:33,986 --> 00:12:35,486 it was freedom. 87 00:12:35,786 --> 00:12:37,529 Our chiefs and our elders have always said 88 00:12:37,557 --> 00:12:39,143 that you must know the land 89 00:12:39,171 --> 00:12:40,800 like you know the back of your hand. 90 00:12:41,871 --> 00:12:43,414 If something is happening on the land, 91 00:12:43,443 --> 00:12:45,029 you should be able to feel it, 92 00:12:45,057 --> 00:12:46,557 on your skin, on your body. 93 00:12:50,414 --> 00:12:52,329 We're a matriarchal society, 94 00:12:52,629 --> 00:12:54,343 without mothers we wouldn't exist. 95 00:12:54,371 --> 00:12:56,457 We call this planet Mother Earth. 96 00:12:56,486 --> 00:12:57,986 That should tell you something. 97 00:13:46,414 --> 00:13:48,500 — The land to us is 98 00:13:48,529 --> 00:13:50,314 not something different from us. 99 00:13:50,629 --> 00:13:52,957 The land is me, the land is us, 100 00:13:52,986 --> 00:13:54,329 and we are the land. 101 00:13:57,971 --> 00:13:59,343 From time immemorial, 102 00:13:59,371 --> 00:14:01,457 we've lived with wildlife. 103 00:14:01,586 --> 00:14:04,543 We've accommodated them in our cultural system, 104 00:14:04,571 --> 00:14:05,829 in our clan system. 105 00:14:05,857 --> 00:14:07,729 Each and every clan has wildlife. 106 00:14:07,757 --> 00:14:10,171 Of course, we are brothers and sisters. 107 00:14:32,786 --> 00:14:35,414 — Our landscape told our stories. 108 00:14:36,943 --> 00:14:38,814 We would see the mountain ranges, 109 00:14:39,157 --> 00:14:40,700 we would see the rivers, 110 00:14:41,014 --> 00:14:42,271 we would see the trees, 111 00:14:42,300 --> 00:14:44,086 that hold it all together. 112 00:14:44,114 --> 00:14:46,486 In Australia, we call them songlines, 113 00:14:46,514 --> 00:14:48,857 and they would help us navigate across the landscape. 114 00:14:49,486 --> 00:14:50,943 So if you know your songs, 115 00:14:50,971 --> 00:14:52,229 then you know your country. 116 00:14:52,514 --> 00:14:54,643 And if you know your country, you're never lost. 117 00:14:56,557 --> 00:14:58,514 Everything has a story. 118 00:14:59,200 --> 00:15:01,071 Every behavior, 119 00:15:01,100 --> 00:15:03,557 every tree, every bird, 120 00:15:03,586 --> 00:15:05,057 every plant, every animal. 121 00:15:05,086 --> 00:15:06,957 And all of those stories are around 122 00:15:06,986 --> 00:15:09,614 love, care, respect, humility, compassion, 123 00:15:10,429 --> 00:15:12,429 and an obligation to share. 124 00:16:42,043 --> 00:16:44,043 — Let's start with the view from the shore. 125 00:16:50,086 --> 00:16:52,286 We were watching aliens come 126 00:16:52,314 --> 00:16:53,857 out of the blue. 127 00:16:58,343 --> 00:17:01,171 Native people, they had so much experience with 128 00:17:01,200 --> 00:17:03,786 the ocean, with the water consciousness. 129 00:17:03,814 --> 00:17:06,157 That the ocean would tell them that there was 130 00:17:06,186 --> 00:17:08,186 another way, a different way coming. 131 00:17:19,500 --> 00:17:22,586 — The way it's told in the books is these ships arrive 132 00:17:22,614 --> 00:17:24,986 and what do they describe, that they see? 133 00:17:25,014 --> 00:17:28,143 Everything is flowering and fruiting and flourishing. 134 00:17:29,057 --> 00:17:31,514 Game is plentiful, water is sparkling. 135 00:17:32,229 --> 00:17:35,643 They even describe it as, they've come upon Eden. 136 00:17:51,657 --> 00:17:53,429 — The Western world, 137 00:17:53,457 --> 00:17:55,143 something happened over there 138 00:17:55,171 --> 00:17:56,843 when the inquisition happened, 139 00:17:56,871 --> 00:17:58,529 they were drawn away from the Earth, 140 00:18:01,443 --> 00:18:04,157 and the witches and the warlocks were all gotten rid of 141 00:18:04,186 --> 00:18:06,729 —the witches only means the wise ones of the forest. 142 00:18:09,714 --> 00:18:12,257 — These witch hunts went on for hundreds of years in Europe, 143 00:18:12,286 --> 00:18:15,400 and what that tells me is, that's how they knew what to do. 144 00:18:17,214 --> 00:18:19,000 Who was set out on those ships? 145 00:18:19,029 --> 00:18:21,457 You know, they used to make the children watch... 146 00:18:21,486 --> 00:18:25,814 the tortures, beatings, the drownings, everything. 147 00:18:25,843 --> 00:18:29,271 And, um, so that they would know, 148 00:18:29,300 --> 00:18:31,629 they would know... in their bones, 149 00:18:31,657 --> 00:18:33,529 you know, they, they, they, 150 00:18:33,557 --> 00:18:35,743 they branded that trauma 151 00:18:35,771 --> 00:18:37,300 into those children. 152 00:18:37,800 --> 00:18:39,729 They were the ones who were on the boats. 153 00:18:42,500 --> 00:18:43,957 — And at that time, 154 00:18:43,986 --> 00:18:46,700 where mourning was outlawed, 155 00:18:46,729 --> 00:18:48,471 —and if you can't mourn the dead, 156 00:18:48,500 --> 00:18:50,386 then what do you do with the energy? 157 00:18:50,414 --> 00:18:53,786 You hold it within and you don't know how to grieve anymore— 158 00:18:53,814 --> 00:18:56,057 that came over here in the ships. 159 00:18:56,086 --> 00:18:58,129 — The people who were living here 160 00:18:58,157 --> 00:19:01,171 were understanding themselves as being beauty, 161 00:19:01,200 --> 00:19:02,900 and the people who were coming from Europe 162 00:19:02,929 --> 00:19:05,271 were understanding themselves 163 00:19:05,300 --> 00:19:07,343 as being in sin. 164 00:19:10,443 --> 00:19:12,986 — They tried to say that we didn't exist, 165 00:19:13,629 --> 00:19:14,957 that we didn't have belief, 166 00:19:14,986 --> 00:19:16,400 we didn't know how to govern ourselves, 167 00:19:16,429 --> 00:19:18,171 we didn't know how to look after ourselves. 168 00:19:18,600 --> 00:19:20,429 You know, when they have the Doctrine of Discovery 169 00:19:20,457 --> 00:19:22,714 that we didn't exist until they laid eyes on us. 170 00:19:22,743 --> 00:19:24,071 — When the truth of the matter was, 171 00:19:24,100 --> 00:19:26,314 there were millions of human beings 172 00:19:26,343 --> 00:19:29,471 occupying this continent. 173 00:19:29,500 --> 00:19:31,829 Civilizations had risen and fallen here. 174 00:19:46,857 --> 00:19:49,271 — What the invading culture that 175 00:19:49,300 --> 00:19:52,600 landed here in these vessels of infestation 176 00:19:52,629 --> 00:19:55,257 so long ago, when they came here, 177 00:19:55,286 --> 00:19:58,371 they needed to disconnect people to the landscape. 178 00:19:58,400 --> 00:20:01,186 And so how do you do that? You break down their culture. 179 00:20:07,329 --> 00:20:08,414 — Remove you from the land, 180 00:20:08,443 --> 00:20:09,571 remove you from the culture, 181 00:20:09,600 --> 00:20:11,686 take you from the land, put you on reserves. 182 00:20:12,486 --> 00:20:14,443 And when you remove the people 183 00:20:14,471 --> 00:20:16,600 from the connection to the land, 184 00:20:16,629 --> 00:20:18,757 you're taking away the heart and soul of the people. 185 00:20:18,786 --> 00:20:20,786 — So the world outside came to us 186 00:20:21,971 --> 00:20:24,143 and smothered 187 00:20:25,257 --> 00:20:26,929 the people of this place. 188 00:20:28,771 --> 00:20:30,571 So as the days went on, 189 00:20:30,600 --> 00:20:34,386 we lost more and more and more and more and more, 190 00:20:35,443 --> 00:20:38,229 until we even lost ourselves. 191 00:21:25,971 --> 00:21:28,400 — Money was not our 192 00:21:28,429 --> 00:21:31,729 economic source of wealth and growth. 193 00:21:32,300 --> 00:21:33,957 It was the ability 194 00:21:33,986 --> 00:21:36,786 to have a relationship with our land 195 00:21:36,814 --> 00:21:39,014 and our sky and our sea, 196 00:21:39,043 --> 00:21:40,457 and we lost that. 197 00:22:48,300 --> 00:22:50,543 — We were taken to a concentration camp 198 00:22:50,571 --> 00:22:52,214 in the southern part of New Mexico, 199 00:22:52,243 --> 00:22:53,943 which is about a 400 mile walk. 200 00:22:54,300 --> 00:22:55,800 Very, very cruel walk. 201 00:22:55,829 --> 00:22:57,086 You know, there are stories of 202 00:22:57,114 --> 00:22:58,443 pregnant women who couldn't walk, 203 00:22:58,471 --> 00:23:01,929 were, were shot and left by the side of the road. 204 00:23:02,143 --> 00:23:05,143 Initially, the plan was out and out, 205 00:23:05,171 --> 00:23:06,343 you know, murder, you know, 206 00:23:06,371 --> 00:23:08,214 like every single one of us 207 00:23:08,243 --> 00:23:10,871 was to be exterminated, you know and, 208 00:23:10,900 --> 00:23:12,857 and that's what they say about the whole continent, right, 209 00:23:12,886 --> 00:23:15,614 that nine out of ten of the inhabitants were exterminated. 210 00:23:15,643 --> 00:23:17,014 — My great grandmother 211 00:23:17,043 --> 00:23:20,886 were survivors of some of these massacres that happened, 212 00:23:20,914 --> 00:23:23,371 so they were holding on to these stories, 213 00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:26,400 and it was so difficult for them to tell because, 214 00:23:26,429 --> 00:23:28,886 they were like four or five years old. 215 00:23:28,986 --> 00:23:32,157 And then watching the whole population of their communities 216 00:23:32,201 --> 00:23:35,158 wiped out in a day or two. So... 217 00:23:35,171 --> 00:23:37,643 there are stories about mothers 218 00:23:37,686 --> 00:23:39,979 sticking their children into hollow logs 219 00:23:40,002 --> 00:23:41,954 to protect them, you know, from the troopers 220 00:23:41,956 --> 00:23:43,823 who were coming through on horseback 221 00:23:43,829 --> 00:23:46,171 and annihilating a whole population. 222 00:23:46,563 --> 00:23:49,743 And then those children then have to grow from there, 223 00:23:49,771 --> 00:23:52,886 and to deal with that, like, how are you going to have to 224 00:23:52,914 --> 00:23:56,027 process that, and then keep that story? 225 00:24:47,029 --> 00:24:49,186 — The African bodies they were taking 226 00:24:49,214 --> 00:24:51,629 across the Atlantic, 227 00:24:52,014 --> 00:24:54,557 and their cultures and their stories, 228 00:24:54,586 --> 00:24:56,971 and their mythology and cosmology, 229 00:24:57,000 --> 00:24:59,543 became this thriving 230 00:24:59,945 --> 00:25:02,093 Afro-diasporic spirituality. 231 00:25:15,757 --> 00:25:18,586 My people are, in a sense, like dust, 232 00:25:18,614 --> 00:25:20,957 they're, they're indigenous and yet 233 00:25:20,986 --> 00:25:23,900 they are... diasporic, 234 00:25:24,243 --> 00:25:28,157 they're dispersed, they're exilic, they're ecstatic, 235 00:25:28,186 --> 00:25:29,729 they're besides themselves. 236 00:25:32,857 --> 00:25:33,943 — On this day and at this time 237 00:25:33,971 --> 00:25:35,871 we celebrate once again 238 00:25:35,900 --> 00:25:37,743 the blessings of our ancestors, 239 00:25:38,457 --> 00:25:40,414 at the starting point, 240 00:25:40,443 --> 00:25:42,271 to where the first Africans came in, 241 00:25:42,300 --> 00:25:43,757 to the so-called New World. 242 00:25:49,900 --> 00:25:52,371 As we stand here today, it is important that 243 00:25:52,400 --> 00:25:55,014 we reach back into our own minds and our own spirit, 244 00:25:56,057 --> 00:25:58,386 to understand we are spirit of their spirit, 245 00:25:58,414 --> 00:25:59,829 we're blood of their blood, 246 00:25:59,857 --> 00:26:01,986 we're bone of the bone, and we're flesh of their flesh. 247 00:26:15,857 --> 00:26:19,071 — Africa is a continent of 55 countries, 248 00:26:19,100 --> 00:26:21,229 with thousands of different cultures, 249 00:26:21,257 --> 00:26:22,914 thousands of different dialects, 250 00:26:22,943 --> 00:26:26,071 and most of us have no idea 251 00:26:26,100 --> 00:26:28,100 where we come from. 252 00:26:29,129 --> 00:26:31,086 How many of us have 253 00:26:31,114 --> 00:26:33,543 slave owner's last names, right? 254 00:26:33,571 --> 00:26:37,529 90% of Africans 255 00:26:37,557 --> 00:26:39,786 living outside of the continent, 256 00:26:39,814 --> 00:26:42,900 they have a last name that connect them 257 00:26:42,929 --> 00:26:44,300 to ownership. 258 00:26:49,457 --> 00:26:50,957 — We had government policies 259 00:26:50,986 --> 00:26:53,443 that said that we had to assimilate, 260 00:26:53,471 --> 00:26:56,143 we had to en-whiten our people. 261 00:26:56,171 --> 00:26:58,971 So we had to take on this new invading culture. 262 00:26:59,000 --> 00:27:00,914 We had to take on their religion, 263 00:27:00,943 --> 00:27:03,114 their daily practices, so that 264 00:27:03,143 --> 00:27:05,814 we would move from the past 265 00:27:05,843 --> 00:27:07,843 into their new future. 266 00:27:53,514 --> 00:27:56,729 — Then next thing you know comes this axe, 267 00:27:58,714 --> 00:28:00,086 a weapon, 268 00:28:00,114 --> 00:28:02,529 and they start chopping down the trees. 269 00:28:02,557 --> 00:28:04,971 All the trees are chopped down in that forest. 270 00:28:05,800 --> 00:28:08,800 And then with the wood, they build a church. 271 00:28:20,586 --> 00:28:22,300 Then all the people 272 00:28:22,329 --> 00:28:24,457 who chopped down the trees gather in the church. 273 00:28:25,500 --> 00:28:30,286 And so, one of the people go down to ask them, 274 00:28:30,314 --> 00:28:31,857 — What are you doing? 275 00:28:32,257 --> 00:28:33,829 — Oh, we're talking to God. 276 00:28:35,929 --> 00:28:38,929 And so the native comes back and, and they said, 277 00:28:38,957 --> 00:28:40,914 — Why do you have to cut down 278 00:28:40,943 --> 00:28:42,857 all of the trees to talk to God? 279 00:29:01,857 --> 00:29:04,029 — Many say that we chose to, 280 00:29:04,057 --> 00:29:06,557 that we went to church for salvation, 281 00:29:06,586 --> 00:29:08,586 that they are our saviors. 282 00:29:08,614 --> 00:29:11,143 That's the role they want to have. 283 00:29:14,743 --> 00:29:16,071 In reality, 284 00:29:16,100 --> 00:29:18,014 the truth behind it all 285 00:29:18,043 --> 00:29:20,543 is that they took away food, 286 00:29:20,571 --> 00:29:23,786 they took away human rights, basic rights. 287 00:29:24,367 --> 00:29:26,264 They punished the families 288 00:29:26,271 --> 00:29:27,929 that didn't get baptized. 289 00:30:03,957 --> 00:30:05,714 — So we closed our eyes and bowed our heads, 290 00:30:05,743 --> 00:30:09,209 by the time we opened our eyes, our land was gone. 291 00:30:17,086 --> 00:30:20,043 — The colonizers came with the Bible 292 00:30:20,071 --> 00:30:21,786 and a pencil, 293 00:30:21,814 --> 00:30:23,814 and they did not give us erasers. 294 00:30:26,586 --> 00:30:28,629 The Cross 295 00:30:28,657 --> 00:30:30,657 came with schooling, 296 00:30:34,486 --> 00:30:37,486 and they worked together to create uniformity, 297 00:30:37,514 --> 00:30:39,971 to create standardization, 298 00:30:40,000 --> 00:30:42,300 to create a one-world thesis, 299 00:30:43,143 --> 00:30:46,386 and the one-world thesis is just the right environment 300 00:30:46,414 --> 00:30:48,543 for a supreme God 301 00:30:48,571 --> 00:30:51,243 who trounces all other Gods. 302 00:30:58,786 --> 00:31:02,900 Our Father Who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy name, 303 00:31:02,929 --> 00:31:06,400 Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done... 304 00:31:24,914 --> 00:31:29,882 — We see God in a different... lens. 305 00:31:30,414 --> 00:31:32,257 I see God in everything: 306 00:31:32,786 --> 00:31:34,619 in the sunlight, 307 00:31:35,286 --> 00:31:38,614 the trees that are there, the water, 308 00:31:38,829 --> 00:31:42,329 the air, the universe. 309 00:31:42,771 --> 00:31:46,186 You know, we respect that, we know that's God's work. 310 00:31:47,586 --> 00:31:50,757 It was forbidden for us to do ceremony 311 00:31:50,786 --> 00:31:53,257 or dress up... beautiful. 312 00:31:54,857 --> 00:31:56,686 It was against the law, 313 00:31:56,714 --> 00:31:59,929 we could be punished for that. 314 00:32:00,286 --> 00:32:01,871 Why they forbid that? 315 00:32:03,000 --> 00:32:04,257 'Cause they didn't believe that 316 00:32:04,286 --> 00:32:06,200 we were in touch with God, 317 00:32:06,229 --> 00:32:08,200 and all our ancestors. 318 00:32:19,414 --> 00:32:21,157 The loss of land: 319 00:32:21,771 --> 00:32:24,243 our territory, when they created 320 00:32:24,271 --> 00:32:26,343 this reservation, 321 00:32:28,143 --> 00:32:31,014 when you look outside, it's only a one mile square, 322 00:32:31,943 --> 00:32:34,029 but our traditional land is 323 00:32:34,057 --> 00:32:35,757 100 miles all around, 324 00:32:37,486 --> 00:32:39,114 and that's not natural. 325 00:33:46,157 --> 00:33:49,571 — The shamans had the responsibility 326 00:33:50,586 --> 00:33:53,057 of... this tribe. 327 00:33:54,971 --> 00:33:57,671 Responsible for the souls 328 00:33:57,700 --> 00:33:59,286 of these humans. 329 00:34:02,329 --> 00:34:04,029 — Our spiritual leader, 330 00:34:04,057 --> 00:34:05,271 he was poisoned— 331 00:34:05,300 --> 00:34:07,257 You kill the spiritual leader, 332 00:34:07,286 --> 00:34:09,157 but then how do you, how do you expect 333 00:34:09,186 --> 00:34:10,400 this community to survive? 334 00:34:12,186 --> 00:34:15,357 — They banned the art of medicine. 335 00:34:16,186 --> 00:34:18,729 A lot of our healers decided 336 00:34:18,757 --> 00:34:20,800 to close off all the portals, 337 00:34:21,529 --> 00:34:24,143 and a lot of them went underground, 338 00:34:24,171 --> 00:34:25,557 and took their knowledge with them. 339 00:34:26,714 --> 00:34:28,514 Some died with their knowledge, 340 00:34:29,500 --> 00:34:31,200 some continue to practice underground. 341 00:34:34,257 --> 00:34:37,000 — The shamans forced to 342 00:34:37,029 --> 00:34:39,414 abandon the people, 343 00:34:41,086 --> 00:34:42,371 that is a curse. 344 00:34:44,086 --> 00:34:47,000 If you do not have the link 345 00:34:47,029 --> 00:34:48,986 between you and the spirits, 346 00:34:49,014 --> 00:34:52,514 the one who can see what's wrong, 347 00:34:53,829 --> 00:34:55,371 we go on blindly. 348 00:35:02,129 --> 00:35:03,843 — So I don't really know at what point 349 00:35:03,871 --> 00:35:05,286 like this conscience grew, 350 00:35:05,314 --> 00:35:06,771 or I don't know if it was conscience 351 00:35:06,800 --> 00:35:09,471 or what was it that happened where, I mean, 352 00:35:09,500 --> 00:35:11,157 I guess what I'd like to think is that 353 00:35:11,186 --> 00:35:13,571 it was our prayers and our ceremonies 354 00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:15,471 that shifted just that, 355 00:35:15,500 --> 00:35:17,329 that place of just outright slaughter 356 00:35:17,357 --> 00:35:19,557 of every single indigenous person 357 00:35:19,586 --> 00:35:23,257 to a place of wanting to negotiate. 358 00:35:25,357 --> 00:35:26,986 It was proposed that we sign a treaty. 359 00:35:32,643 --> 00:35:34,543 — Our spiritual leader, 360 00:35:34,571 --> 00:35:38,257 Olonana, was forced to sign an agreement 361 00:35:38,286 --> 00:35:40,614 for the entire Nairobi Highlands to be 362 00:35:40,643 --> 00:35:42,143 taken by the British government. 363 00:36:02,729 --> 00:36:05,100 — My ancestor, Te Ruki Kawiti 364 00:36:05,129 --> 00:36:07,257 said no, he would not sign the treaty. 365 00:36:07,286 --> 00:36:09,954 He said, "We can look after ourselves. Go away. 366 00:36:09,956 --> 00:36:11,831 Go back to wherever you come from." 367 00:36:12,271 --> 00:36:14,314 He did however, sign it in the end, 368 00:36:14,529 --> 00:36:16,657 to save his people, his tribe. 369 00:36:16,757 --> 00:36:18,757 or else they'd be wiped out. 370 00:36:20,514 --> 00:36:22,514 — And in that treaty 371 00:36:22,543 --> 00:36:24,757 it said that we would send our children 372 00:36:24,900 --> 00:36:26,400 to their schools. 373 00:36:27,357 --> 00:36:29,600 The children are growing up to be good citizens 374 00:36:29,629 --> 00:36:31,429 managers of their own homes. 375 00:36:33,086 --> 00:36:36,486 — The first schools that started here were called the Native schools. 376 00:36:36,514 --> 00:36:37,543 We were the natives, 377 00:36:37,571 --> 00:36:39,529 our grandparents were the natives. 378 00:36:40,671 --> 00:36:42,819 And you were not to speak Māori. 379 00:36:47,386 --> 00:36:50,386 — The residential school, it was their way. 380 00:36:50,657 --> 00:36:53,371 It was the priests and the nuns, 381 00:36:55,386 --> 00:36:58,714 want to take, want to make us something that we weren't, 382 00:37:00,514 --> 00:37:01,771 trying to 'civilize' us. 383 00:37:01,800 --> 00:37:04,429 We were civilized. We were civilized. 384 00:37:05,600 --> 00:37:07,686 And they were trying to civilize us, 385 00:37:08,214 --> 00:37:10,514 because we don't kill. 386 00:37:10,543 --> 00:37:13,629 Today, —look in the world— today, today, 387 00:37:13,771 --> 00:37:16,557 people kill, and they are civilized. 388 00:37:16,586 --> 00:37:19,171 — We did have a lot of fun, 389 00:37:19,200 --> 00:37:22,443 and we are sorry we are going. 390 00:37:22,657 --> 00:37:26,814 — A lot of them, a few more missions like Santa Teresa , that'd be lovely. 391 00:37:27,443 --> 00:37:30,186 I think that's what the little black kids like too. 392 00:37:33,014 --> 00:37:34,857 — Every Aboriginal family 393 00:37:34,886 --> 00:37:36,471 or indigenous family in Australia, 394 00:37:36,500 --> 00:37:38,871 is impacted from the Stolen Generation. 395 00:37:38,900 --> 00:37:42,771 They brought in that old harsh way of segregation, 396 00:37:42,800 --> 00:37:44,429 and they enforced that onto 397 00:37:44,457 --> 00:37:46,157 the indigenous population here. 398 00:37:49,714 --> 00:37:51,786 — We had to prove that we were human beings. 399 00:37:52,943 --> 00:37:55,900 They were trying to tell themselves 400 00:37:55,929 --> 00:37:57,886 that we weren't actually human beings. 401 00:37:59,029 --> 00:38:02,029 So this is when the— we shifted from just, 402 00:38:02,057 --> 00:38:04,986 you know, outright genocide to 403 00:38:05,014 --> 00:38:06,800 "Kill the Indian, save the man." 404 00:38:06,829 --> 00:38:09,157 This was the name of the campaign. 405 00:38:32,000 --> 00:38:34,000 — 1950, I came here. 406 00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:37,529 Just a little guy. 407 00:38:40,614 --> 00:38:43,414 — I came here, 1954. 408 00:38:50,457 --> 00:38:53,800 — Where you used to hear 150 kids, 409 00:38:54,571 --> 00:38:57,743 all in these yards over here, now, it's a... 410 00:38:58,543 --> 00:39:00,157 it's a silence. 411 00:39:04,629 --> 00:39:06,829 But you can hear them screaming yet. 412 00:39:26,614 --> 00:39:29,414 — We were at home, when the cattle truck 413 00:39:29,443 --> 00:39:31,186 from the residential school 414 00:39:31,714 --> 00:39:33,386 come to pick us up. 415 00:39:34,171 --> 00:39:36,500 I remember, I was seven years old. 416 00:39:36,529 --> 00:39:37,829 There was a little excitement: 417 00:39:37,857 --> 00:39:40,600 "Hey, we gonna go out. We gonna have a car ride." 418 00:39:41,786 --> 00:39:44,157 But I didn't know that trip would change 419 00:39:44,714 --> 00:39:46,300 the rest of my life. 420 00:39:56,043 --> 00:39:58,757 — Their goal, was to make 421 00:39:58,786 --> 00:40:02,414 our own culture so repulsive to us, 422 00:40:02,443 --> 00:40:04,686 that we would never think about going back. 423 00:40:04,714 --> 00:40:06,343 — We were traumatized— 424 00:40:06,371 --> 00:40:09,286 I was beaten at school for speaking my language, 425 00:40:09,614 --> 00:40:13,414 in the seventies, literally beaten. 426 00:40:13,971 --> 00:40:16,229 — "That's an evil tongue you're talking" 427 00:40:17,129 --> 00:40:19,086 —that's what she was saying to me— 428 00:40:19,114 --> 00:40:21,286 and she got these pliers, 429 00:40:21,314 --> 00:40:24,600 and grabbed the pliers and 430 00:40:24,629 --> 00:40:27,843 put it right at the very tip of my fingernails, 431 00:40:27,871 --> 00:40:32,486 and pulled my fingernails out. 432 00:40:33,086 --> 00:40:34,786 And while she was doing that, 433 00:40:34,814 --> 00:40:37,071 she was saying to me, 434 00:40:37,100 --> 00:40:40,343 "You're not supposed to be talking 435 00:40:40,371 --> 00:40:42,800 that gibberish you're talking." 436 00:40:44,857 --> 00:40:46,314 — Being exploited, 437 00:40:48,014 --> 00:40:51,729 and witness other boys being exploited, 438 00:40:54,343 --> 00:40:56,871 by people who had 439 00:40:58,243 --> 00:41:00,629 an addiction in hurting 440 00:41:00,657 --> 00:41:02,200 and touching you, 441 00:41:04,400 --> 00:41:06,186 that was the hardest part. 442 00:41:11,143 --> 00:41:12,600 — My dad went here. 443 00:41:13,886 --> 00:41:17,729 You know, my dad was an angry man, really angry. 444 00:41:20,943 --> 00:41:23,229 He was hung up in there, 445 00:41:23,257 --> 00:41:25,100 got the lash. 446 00:41:25,129 --> 00:41:28,586 My dad and his brothers, you know, 447 00:41:29,129 --> 00:41:31,914 and how many other men that resisted, 448 00:41:32,471 --> 00:41:35,300 you know, the, the priests in the school. 449 00:41:36,057 --> 00:41:38,271 He took from here his anger, 450 00:41:38,300 --> 00:41:42,971 you know, and it's in here, in the blood, 451 00:41:43,000 --> 00:41:44,786 blood memory, you know. 452 00:41:45,800 --> 00:41:50,229 And I carry that on, to my children, my son. 453 00:41:53,886 --> 00:41:56,429 Intergenerational trauma, 454 00:41:56,457 --> 00:41:58,243 I passed that to my children. 455 00:42:00,571 --> 00:42:03,243 It don't matter how much I say, "I'm sorry," 456 00:42:04,371 --> 00:42:06,200 can't take away that trauma. 457 00:42:26,614 --> 00:42:28,486 — In the first generation, 458 00:42:28,514 --> 00:42:30,843 indigenous men were killed 459 00:42:30,871 --> 00:42:32,957 and women were sexually misused. 460 00:42:32,986 --> 00:42:36,143 And in the second generation of those people who were 461 00:42:36,171 --> 00:42:39,757 defined by that, who survived those massacres, 462 00:42:39,786 --> 00:42:41,157 were forced to work, 463 00:42:41,514 --> 00:42:44,186 for tea, flour, sugar 464 00:42:44,214 --> 00:42:46,043 and alcohol. 465 00:42:46,071 --> 00:42:48,957 Alcohol was introduced in the second generation. 466 00:42:48,986 --> 00:42:50,643 And then in the third generation, 467 00:42:50,671 --> 00:42:52,629 spousal assaults started to move in. 468 00:42:52,657 --> 00:42:55,129 Some men started to hit women. 469 00:42:55,157 --> 00:42:57,857 Who did they have to take their, their distress, 470 00:42:57,886 --> 00:43:00,757 their pain, their rage, their anger out on, 471 00:43:00,786 --> 00:43:02,629 except those around them? 472 00:43:02,657 --> 00:43:04,200 Because they couldn't have taken it out 473 00:43:04,229 --> 00:43:06,429 on the colonizers, they'd have been shot, 474 00:43:06,457 --> 00:43:08,671 or they'd have been imprisoned. 475 00:43:08,700 --> 00:43:10,657 Then there's the fourth generation, 476 00:43:10,686 --> 00:43:13,143 spousal assaults started to move to children, 477 00:43:14,329 --> 00:43:16,914 and as it moved to children, those children grew up, 478 00:43:16,943 --> 00:43:19,857 so then we had, kind of like an epidemic, 479 00:43:19,886 --> 00:43:22,843 of us internalizing our, 480 00:43:22,871 --> 00:43:25,071 our pain, our distress. 481 00:43:26,357 --> 00:43:28,614 And in the fifth and sixth generation, 482 00:43:28,643 --> 00:43:30,229 it becomes cyclic. 483 00:43:39,100 --> 00:43:41,314 — I was born from the Sodom and Gomorrah 484 00:43:41,343 --> 00:43:43,757 of my country's greed, 485 00:43:43,786 --> 00:43:46,200 the burning accumulation 486 00:43:46,229 --> 00:43:48,314 of my country's greed, 487 00:43:48,343 --> 00:43:50,671 the consummated degradation 488 00:43:50,700 --> 00:43:52,329 of my country's greed, 489 00:43:54,757 --> 00:43:57,514 Suckled on the nipple of agony, 490 00:43:57,543 --> 00:43:59,957 of my people suffering. 491 00:43:59,986 --> 00:44:03,143 Gazed into the salty, hollow eyes 492 00:44:03,171 --> 00:44:04,929 of my people suffering. 493 00:44:04,957 --> 00:44:08,214 I was raised in the fire of destruction, 494 00:44:08,243 --> 00:44:12,786 with my ancestors' blood on my hands and my feet, 495 00:44:12,814 --> 00:44:15,686 cried in the corners of the nation's darkness, 496 00:44:15,714 --> 00:44:18,714 with my ancestors' blood on my hands and my feet. 497 00:44:19,814 --> 00:44:23,657 I was raped, then married to colonial oppression. 498 00:44:23,686 --> 00:44:26,600 Split in two by the principles of hatred, 499 00:44:26,629 --> 00:44:28,800 bore the offspring of victimhood. 500 00:44:29,343 --> 00:44:32,829 Split in two by the principles of hatred, 501 00:44:32,857 --> 00:44:36,229 fed the household of internalized injustice. 502 00:44:36,257 --> 00:44:38,600 split in two by the principles 503 00:44:38,629 --> 00:44:40,786 of my country's hatred. 504 00:44:41,057 --> 00:44:44,686 In my broken raging twisted damned emptiness, 505 00:44:44,714 --> 00:44:48,257 my exile to the margins of your unconsciousness, 506 00:44:48,286 --> 00:44:51,371 my imprisonment to your broad ignorance, 507 00:44:51,400 --> 00:44:55,314 my enslavement to your single-eyed bigotry, 508 00:44:55,343 --> 00:44:57,886 my alienation to your kindness, 509 00:44:58,729 --> 00:45:01,143 I fell down to the bottom. 510 00:45:14,371 --> 00:45:16,214 — I was seven years old 511 00:45:16,243 --> 00:45:18,286 when we moved to Denmark, 512 00:45:23,971 --> 00:45:26,714 because my big sister 513 00:45:27,400 --> 00:45:31,529 had turned in my father for rape. 514 00:45:37,643 --> 00:45:40,357 As I got closer to puberty, 515 00:45:40,571 --> 00:45:43,200 my body started changing, and with that, 516 00:45:44,429 --> 00:45:46,343 I was more and more scared of him. 517 00:45:53,714 --> 00:45:57,629 The first time I was 15, 518 00:45:57,657 --> 00:46:01,243 and I had tried to commit suicide, 519 00:46:04,329 --> 00:46:08,943 and from then on I started to write. 520 00:46:08,971 --> 00:46:10,671 I didn't know at the time, 521 00:46:11,429 --> 00:46:14,471 but I started to connect with Spirit. 522 00:46:19,843 --> 00:46:21,457 — The darkness has fallen, 523 00:46:22,500 --> 00:46:25,714 and the demons stand at the uncurtained window. 524 00:46:27,186 --> 00:46:28,771 Fear is sleeping. 525 00:46:29,614 --> 00:46:31,986 The whispering voice of Myan 526 00:46:32,014 --> 00:46:33,686 gently assures me: 527 00:46:34,029 --> 00:46:36,614 "The table is being prepared, 528 00:46:36,643 --> 00:46:38,300 rest now, 529 00:46:38,329 --> 00:46:40,786 and let strength be renewed." 530 00:46:45,143 --> 00:46:47,771 This one was after my father died. 531 00:46:49,657 --> 00:46:52,286 So, my father was a pedophile. 532 00:46:54,243 --> 00:46:58,243 And so, darkness was... a time of terror. 533 00:47:00,943 --> 00:47:03,186 I remember at ten, 534 00:47:03,214 --> 00:47:05,929 praying to forget. 535 00:47:20,771 --> 00:47:23,729 — Then I had my first relationship 536 00:47:24,629 --> 00:47:26,800 and suddenly I was pregnant 537 00:47:27,986 --> 00:47:32,529 —you know, Inuit sees children as a gift 538 00:47:32,871 --> 00:47:35,957 from Sila, from ancestors— 539 00:47:36,971 --> 00:47:40,814 and... he came, 540 00:47:44,700 --> 00:47:46,571 and I remember seeing him, 541 00:47:47,257 --> 00:47:51,229 thinking... how I had been treated, 542 00:47:52,729 --> 00:47:55,057 how can anyone 543 00:47:55,314 --> 00:47:57,400 do this to a child? 544 00:47:57,429 --> 00:48:00,071 I was like that. 545 00:48:00,100 --> 00:48:02,471 How could anyone treat me so bad? 546 00:48:11,186 --> 00:48:13,943 — I began to wonder, 547 00:48:13,971 --> 00:48:15,886 how did he get there? 548 00:48:17,729 --> 00:48:22,357 What—how was he dehumanized? 549 00:48:23,843 --> 00:48:26,757 I knew, through the Indian Act. 550 00:48:26,786 --> 00:48:29,286 I knew, through Indian residential school, 551 00:48:30,857 --> 00:48:33,029 I had that understanding, 552 00:48:35,200 --> 00:48:37,529 but it seemed there were really 553 00:48:37,557 --> 00:48:39,800 big pieces I was missing. 554 00:48:42,471 --> 00:48:44,814 How is it that 555 00:48:44,843 --> 00:48:47,129 a human, a father, 556 00:48:50,386 --> 00:48:53,543 could have his heart 557 00:48:53,571 --> 00:48:57,743 and his mind, so distorted? 558 00:49:06,900 --> 00:49:10,529 — And I got weaker and weaker and weaker. 559 00:49:12,143 --> 00:49:14,229 In the end, 560 00:49:14,257 --> 00:49:16,843 I was, I had to 561 00:49:18,614 --> 00:49:20,986 let go of my child, 562 00:49:22,114 --> 00:49:24,529 because I had promised 563 00:49:24,557 --> 00:49:26,314 to never harm him, 564 00:49:27,914 --> 00:49:32,114 and I'd give my trauma to him. 565 00:49:32,143 --> 00:49:35,114 I could see the patterns come. 566 00:49:37,171 --> 00:49:39,329 And I remember laying next to him, 567 00:49:39,357 --> 00:49:42,229 while he slept for his nap. 568 00:49:42,957 --> 00:49:45,129 He was two years old, 569 00:49:46,514 --> 00:49:49,600 and I knew that when he falls asleep 570 00:49:50,443 --> 00:49:52,700 I would leave him. 571 00:49:53,286 --> 00:49:56,571 I loved him more than I loved me. 572 00:49:56,600 --> 00:50:00,014 I wanted to take care of him, I never wanted to leave him, 573 00:50:00,543 --> 00:50:01,957 but I had to. 574 00:50:04,857 --> 00:50:06,729 He should live happy. 575 00:50:08,629 --> 00:50:10,214 Not the way I lived. 576 00:50:10,929 --> 00:50:12,814 Not my childhood. Never. 577 00:50:16,186 --> 00:50:19,057 — And then finding out at 36, 578 00:50:19,086 --> 00:50:21,171 he'd been sexually abusing 579 00:50:21,200 --> 00:50:24,829 my two daughters, who were 3 and 7 at the time. 580 00:50:25,214 --> 00:50:27,629 I reported my father to the police. 581 00:50:28,529 --> 00:50:30,829 And he went to jail. 582 00:50:30,857 --> 00:50:34,529 So my children wanted to know 583 00:50:34,557 --> 00:50:37,714 about their Ya'a, about their grandfather. 584 00:50:49,657 --> 00:50:53,486 — I didn't have a chance against 585 00:50:55,414 --> 00:50:57,914 this deep, deep, deep trauma 586 00:50:57,943 --> 00:51:01,143 that goes even beyond this life. 587 00:51:01,214 --> 00:51:05,343 So, I didn't care if I lived or died anymore. 588 00:51:06,643 --> 00:51:10,686 And when I did the last suicide attempt, 589 00:51:11,871 --> 00:51:13,157 I... 590 00:51:14,400 --> 00:51:17,357 I actually got- left this world 591 00:51:17,386 --> 00:51:19,386 and went to the realm of the dead. 592 00:51:20,500 --> 00:51:22,543 I remember closing my eyes, 593 00:51:24,429 --> 00:51:27,086 and I went to a place where I thought, 594 00:51:27,114 --> 00:51:29,286 "What is this?" 595 00:51:30,671 --> 00:51:33,929 And then this peace was there, 596 00:51:34,057 --> 00:51:37,757 and this peace, I was like, 'Wow,' 597 00:51:37,786 --> 00:51:40,586 and I closed my eyes again and I felt it, 598 00:51:40,614 --> 00:51:43,943 but this time, I met something, 599 00:51:44,457 --> 00:51:46,300 and I opened my eyes 600 00:51:46,329 --> 00:51:48,829 and I had peace in this world. 601 00:52:38,000 --> 00:52:41,286 — My children, they're the ones 602 00:52:41,314 --> 00:52:43,943 who showed me that I had to learn 603 00:52:43,971 --> 00:52:45,214 how to forgive. 604 00:52:45,557 --> 00:52:49,471 It's embracing both sides: 605 00:52:51,286 --> 00:52:53,500 it's me embracing 606 00:52:53,529 --> 00:52:56,229 my father as a pedophile, 607 00:52:57,286 --> 00:52:59,243 and myself as a victim. 608 00:53:00,871 --> 00:53:04,829 A willingness to come to a place of understanding, 609 00:53:04,857 --> 00:53:08,443 acceptance and forgiveness, 610 00:53:09,514 --> 00:53:12,643 and not the kind of forgiveness that I was 611 00:53:13,529 --> 00:53:15,771 trained to understand 612 00:53:16,071 --> 00:53:19,114 as a religious person, 613 00:53:19,814 --> 00:53:21,857 but the forgiveness 614 00:53:23,629 --> 00:53:25,629 that brings wisdom, 615 00:53:28,414 --> 00:53:31,257 so that you can be medicine 616 00:53:31,286 --> 00:53:32,986 for other people. 617 00:53:35,471 --> 00:53:37,171 — Something else came, 618 00:53:39,286 --> 00:53:43,457 this tiny flame, like in the qulleq (oil lamp) 619 00:53:43,943 --> 00:53:47,700 This tiny flame... in the igloo, 620 00:53:47,729 --> 00:53:50,643 that just lights up everything, 621 00:53:50,671 --> 00:53:52,086 it was there. 622 00:54:00,400 --> 00:54:03,143 — It's in that stillness and quietness 623 00:54:03,171 --> 00:54:05,929 that the supernatural 624 00:54:05,957 --> 00:54:09,457 shows what it is that's needed, 625 00:54:10,957 --> 00:54:13,700 and this is the mystery 626 00:54:13,729 --> 00:54:15,771 that we learn in ceremony, 627 00:54:17,771 --> 00:54:19,357 and this is forgiveness. 628 00:55:00,714 --> 00:55:02,129 That which is known in Heaven... 629 00:55:02,157 --> 00:55:04,543 — If you visited a healer priest 630 00:55:04,571 --> 00:55:06,571 in Yoruba land, 631 00:55:06,600 --> 00:55:09,014 —the Babalawo is what we will call them— 632 00:55:09,043 --> 00:55:13,000 the Babalawo would go into a divinitry space. 633 00:55:17,286 --> 00:55:20,043 I greet the divine chain of Heaven, servant to the King, 634 00:55:20,071 --> 00:55:21,900 I call upon the spirit of the gentleman 635 00:55:21,929 --> 00:55:23,929 to positively deliver... 636 00:55:41,600 --> 00:55:45,271 — When the priest makes that divination, 637 00:55:45,300 --> 00:55:47,043 they can see who you are, 638 00:55:47,071 --> 00:55:49,657 and what your obstacles in life are, 639 00:55:49,686 --> 00:55:51,814 and they then prescribe 640 00:55:51,843 --> 00:55:55,429 what initiation you need to have, 641 00:55:55,457 --> 00:55:57,286 in order to regain health. 642 00:56:01,657 --> 00:56:03,529 — In regards to your children, 643 00:56:03,557 --> 00:56:06,971 was there a difficult birth with one of them or... 644 00:56:07,000 --> 00:56:08,000 — Both. 645 00:56:08,029 --> 00:56:10,614 — Circulation has been stuck, stagnant, 646 00:56:10,643 --> 00:56:11,971 I can't move forward. 647 00:56:12,929 --> 00:56:17,014 — The Western culture very much focuses 648 00:56:17,043 --> 00:56:21,629 on the individual in terms of healing and therapy, 649 00:56:21,657 --> 00:56:24,286 instead of looking at the collective. 650 00:56:24,314 --> 00:56:26,486 — What happened to you when you were small? 651 00:56:26,514 --> 00:56:28,643 What did your parents do to you? 652 00:56:28,671 --> 00:56:31,243 And then we trace trauma along those lines. 653 00:56:31,271 --> 00:56:34,400 U.S. American psychology is premised 654 00:56:34,429 --> 00:56:36,771 on the stability of the individual 655 00:56:38,014 --> 00:56:40,971 as an isolated, dissociated self. 656 00:56:44,814 --> 00:56:46,443 — When we're trying to understand 657 00:56:46,471 --> 00:56:50,014 the trauma that our people have been through, 658 00:56:50,043 --> 00:56:51,957 the very word 'trauma' 659 00:56:52,814 --> 00:56:54,857 is building empires 660 00:56:55,757 --> 00:56:58,129 that promotes yet again 661 00:56:58,157 --> 00:57:00,786 a neoliberalistic way 662 00:57:00,814 --> 00:57:05,443 of commodifying our hurts. 663 00:58:05,929 --> 00:58:08,229 — If we look at healing 664 00:58:08,257 --> 00:58:11,171 from the perspective of, let's say, a medicine person, 665 00:58:11,200 --> 00:58:14,400 we're going to start with dealing with the imbalances. 666 00:58:15,286 --> 00:58:17,914 Because, from that perspective 667 00:58:17,943 --> 00:58:21,357 we deal with the root cause, 668 00:58:21,386 --> 00:58:24,129 instead of chasing symptoms. 669 00:58:24,157 --> 00:58:26,486 — They understand at a deep 670 00:58:26,514 --> 00:58:27,886 molecular level, 671 00:58:27,914 --> 00:58:30,214 that the individual is not the— 672 00:58:30,243 --> 00:58:33,114 is not the item of issue, 673 00:58:35,000 --> 00:58:37,043 but the self is more porous, 674 00:58:37,071 --> 00:58:40,414 the individual is a large body 675 00:58:40,443 --> 00:58:44,229 that extends beyond the boundaries of the skin, 676 00:58:44,257 --> 00:58:46,429 the individual is a terrain, 677 00:58:46,457 --> 00:58:47,714 or a territory. 678 00:58:51,929 --> 00:58:55,214 — We fail time and time again 679 00:58:55,243 --> 00:58:58,200 in mental health, and behavioral health 680 00:58:58,229 --> 00:58:59,729 in the Western community. 681 00:58:59,757 --> 00:59:01,300 We are failing people 682 00:59:01,329 --> 00:59:03,914 all over the world, and then we take 683 00:59:03,943 --> 00:59:07,657 what we are still failing, into indigenous communities 684 00:59:07,686 --> 00:59:09,800 and we want to indoctrinate them 685 00:59:09,829 --> 00:59:11,871 in the same failing system. 686 00:59:11,900 --> 00:59:14,200 — The couch is too tiny a space 687 00:59:15,200 --> 00:59:18,400 to do the work of healing, right, 688 00:59:18,514 --> 00:59:21,729 but sometimes, we have to bring something incomprehensible 689 00:59:21,757 --> 00:59:22,929 into the world. 690 01:00:14,900 --> 01:00:17,186 — I believe healing was always around us, 691 01:00:17,214 --> 01:00:19,257 no matter what age we were. 692 01:00:21,257 --> 01:00:24,429 I don't know how we understand it, but we lived it. 693 01:00:30,057 --> 01:00:33,729 As a young child, I can remember being told 694 01:00:33,757 --> 01:00:35,957 to put my hand on certain people 695 01:00:35,986 --> 01:00:38,700 and leave it in a certain space, 696 01:00:38,729 --> 01:00:39,971 and then they would say, 697 01:00:40,000 --> 01:00:42,171 "Oh, I can feel it coming through." 698 01:00:45,014 --> 01:00:47,257 It was just knowing. 699 01:00:53,043 --> 01:00:55,843 I hear the word trauma, 700 01:00:55,871 --> 01:00:57,571 I don't understand it, 701 01:00:57,600 --> 01:00:59,471 I don't see it in the body 702 01:00:59,500 --> 01:01:02,086 in the way that it's described. 703 01:01:06,743 --> 01:01:09,243 If we know how to smell the body, 704 01:01:09,271 --> 01:01:11,471 —and when I talk about smelling, 705 01:01:11,500 --> 01:01:14,586 I'm not talking about the physical odor of the body, 706 01:01:14,614 --> 01:01:17,657 I'm talking about the spiritual odor of the body— 707 01:01:18,800 --> 01:01:22,629 when we can smell that, you can 708 01:01:22,657 --> 01:01:26,157 almost smell which organ it's coming from. 709 01:01:29,957 --> 01:01:32,743 We aren't taught as children how to smell, 710 01:01:32,771 --> 01:01:34,557 we know it instinctively. 711 01:01:38,771 --> 01:01:41,514 Someone who has cancer in the chest or the breast, 712 01:01:41,714 --> 01:01:43,586 their body exudes a smell. 713 01:01:44,129 --> 01:01:47,014 Everything has to do with the physicalness of here. 714 01:01:47,043 --> 01:01:49,957 I don't see emotion. I know where it is, 715 01:01:49,986 --> 01:01:52,029 and I know what they're doing. 716 01:01:52,057 --> 01:01:55,814 But my job is to align this, this and this. 717 01:01:55,843 --> 01:01:57,343 When those are aligned, 718 01:01:57,371 --> 01:02:01,457 the emotion won't have any way to interrupt them. 719 01:02:07,614 --> 01:02:10,943 Healing is intergenerational, 720 01:02:10,971 --> 01:02:14,300 but it's also multi-generational. 721 01:02:14,329 --> 01:02:18,871 I see it common at a time frame 722 01:02:18,900 --> 01:02:21,729 maybe two or three elders past. 723 01:02:22,471 --> 01:02:24,800 And if we could take people back to 724 01:02:24,829 --> 01:02:26,829 just beyond that time frame, 725 01:02:26,857 --> 01:02:31,157 and weave that energy and clear it, 726 01:02:31,186 --> 01:02:34,100 then come back to here now. 727 01:02:34,129 --> 01:02:37,129 Most times it stops it going any further. 728 01:02:54,671 --> 01:02:57,843 The work we're taught is instantaneous 729 01:02:57,871 --> 01:03:03,657 if the person allows us and opens their mind up to the possibility. 730 01:03:35,571 --> 01:03:38,586 — My mom grew up Laʻau Lapaʻau, 731 01:03:38,614 --> 01:03:44,057 my dad grew up Ha, by using words to heal. 732 01:03:44,086 --> 01:03:48,829 Both of them are healers, one with herbs, one with words. 733 01:03:53,000 --> 01:03:54,957 The words of the Hawaiian people, 734 01:03:55,000 --> 01:03:57,386 they were able to bring life 735 01:03:57,414 --> 01:03:59,071 to one who is dying. 736 01:04:00,343 --> 01:04:02,214 With words, they were able 737 01:04:02,243 --> 01:04:05,443 to bring death to one who is passing. 738 01:04:08,371 --> 01:04:11,543 The ancestors had very much been a part of my life. 739 01:04:12,714 --> 01:04:15,343 Why did I become a warrior? 740 01:04:15,371 --> 01:04:18,286 When I came into the world, it came with me. 741 01:04:31,514 --> 01:04:32,857 I was in Vietnam, 742 01:04:34,314 --> 01:04:36,529 and I had an explosion that 743 01:04:36,557 --> 01:04:38,214 took away my legs. 744 01:04:39,083 --> 01:04:41,029 And all of this... 745 01:04:42,724 --> 01:04:44,537 is artificial. 746 01:04:44,942 --> 01:04:48,252 But it was this time that I began to see 747 01:04:49,111 --> 01:04:51,541 how it is that I am connected to 748 01:04:52,100 --> 01:04:54,557 ancestors that I never met. 749 01:05:04,671 --> 01:05:07,843 When this happened, I knew, in two minutes' time, 750 01:05:07,871 --> 01:05:10,486 all the blood will be out of my body, 751 01:05:10,514 --> 01:05:12,729 I will go unconscious, 752 01:05:12,757 --> 01:05:14,257 and then I will die. 753 01:05:17,157 --> 01:05:19,943 So in two minutes, I must make the words 754 01:05:19,971 --> 01:05:21,557 to make things happen. 755 01:05:22,171 --> 01:05:24,429 I closed my eyes, 756 01:05:24,457 --> 01:05:26,029 and I said to myself, 757 01:05:27,043 --> 01:05:29,629 "Come, I need your help." 758 01:05:30,786 --> 01:05:32,157 I fell asleep, 759 01:05:32,943 --> 01:05:35,314 almost instantly, 760 01:05:35,343 --> 01:05:37,800 and when I woke up, I 761 01:05:37,829 --> 01:05:40,500 I said, "Oh, I'm still here," 762 01:05:41,957 --> 01:05:44,086 and I looked at my wound, 763 01:05:44,114 --> 01:05:46,029 and it was not bleeding anymore. 764 01:05:47,343 --> 01:05:49,471 I was terribly afraid, 765 01:05:49,500 --> 01:05:52,157 now is the moment of my death. 766 01:05:52,186 --> 01:05:54,600 There is no more blood coming out of my body. 767 01:05:55,243 --> 01:05:58,743 I closed my eyes again, and fell asleep. 768 01:06:10,329 --> 01:06:13,243 And I woke up and, my goodness, 769 01:06:13,271 --> 01:06:14,686 I'm still alive! 770 01:06:15,514 --> 01:06:18,629 So I started to take my shirt off and everything 771 01:06:18,657 --> 01:06:20,957 and I started to tie up myself, 772 01:06:22,357 --> 01:06:25,557 and... it was all good, 773 01:06:26,171 --> 01:06:27,629 I didn't feel a thing. 774 01:06:34,314 --> 01:06:36,443 And I was laying in the grass, 775 01:06:36,471 --> 01:06:39,014 waiting for the helicopter to come to pick me up. 776 01:06:40,171 --> 01:06:42,000 Then I began to realize, 777 01:06:43,186 --> 01:06:46,300 "Wow, if not for them, 778 01:06:47,214 --> 01:06:48,714 I would not be here." 779 01:06:52,014 --> 01:06:54,143 So, I will tell you, 780 01:06:55,000 --> 01:06:56,243 if you call, 781 01:06:57,214 --> 01:06:58,500 they will come. 782 01:07:31,686 --> 01:07:34,057 — I come from a shamanic lineage. 783 01:07:35,786 --> 01:07:38,457 My great grandparents were shamans. 784 01:07:46,614 --> 01:07:50,243 Growing up, I had times in my life when 785 01:07:52,386 --> 01:07:54,857 I didn't know it was my ancestors, 786 01:07:54,886 --> 01:07:57,257 but they came, and I just knew, 787 01:07:58,900 --> 01:08:01,900 and I was 15, 788 01:08:01,929 --> 01:08:04,971 when I started to leave town, 789 01:08:05,000 --> 01:08:06,914 and go to the mountains. 790 01:08:19,486 --> 01:08:21,314 I got in contact with 791 01:08:21,343 --> 01:08:23,086 the source of life. 792 01:08:23,729 --> 01:08:25,314 I didn't understand it, 793 01:08:26,686 --> 01:08:29,143 but I had let go of everything. 794 01:08:29,700 --> 01:08:33,157 And that's all that was left was the spirit world. 795 01:08:45,757 --> 01:08:48,486 I had been dancing with it my whole life, 796 01:08:48,514 --> 01:08:49,900 without knowing it. 797 01:08:50,810 --> 01:08:52,982 The struggle with myself and 798 01:08:53,154 --> 01:08:54,498 not letting go of me, 799 01:08:54,506 --> 01:08:56,178 so the spirits could come. 800 01:08:56,671 --> 01:08:59,429 That's the dance. Taught me to let go, 801 01:08:59,457 --> 01:09:02,200 and I tried to hold on so I didn't break. 802 01:09:04,029 --> 01:09:06,143 To break is the only solution. 803 01:09:07,400 --> 01:09:08,814 Yeah. 804 01:09:15,471 --> 01:09:18,386 Healing is to understand who you are, 805 01:09:18,414 --> 01:09:20,457 to take away all 806 01:09:20,486 --> 01:09:22,600 that's not supposed to be there, 807 01:09:22,629 --> 01:09:26,386 all the stories that you have held on to, the emotions, 808 01:09:27,857 --> 01:09:31,186 all the heavy energies go back to where they belong, 809 01:09:31,757 --> 01:09:34,386 so that you can get your full power 810 01:09:34,414 --> 01:09:37,786 back into your body, so that there's room for your soul. 811 01:10:03,157 --> 01:10:04,829 — You were born into beauty 812 01:10:04,857 --> 01:10:06,386 as beauty for joyful life. 813 01:10:06,414 --> 01:10:07,586 That's the truth. 814 01:10:12,443 --> 01:10:14,757 — Even in our ceremonies we say, 815 01:10:14,786 --> 01:10:17,143 the ceremony house itself 816 01:10:17,171 --> 01:10:20,543 is speaking to that original order of beauty. 817 01:10:25,000 --> 01:10:27,543 Its construct is telling the story of that. 818 01:10:27,571 --> 01:10:30,414 So viscerally, when we enter that ceremony house, 819 01:10:30,443 --> 01:10:32,229 we're already in that space, 820 01:10:32,257 --> 01:10:35,014 and the beauty, or that divine order 821 01:10:35,043 --> 01:10:37,000 is sung back into us again, 822 01:10:37,029 --> 01:10:38,529 and so that when we exit again, 823 01:10:39,214 --> 01:10:40,800 we're restored. 824 01:11:01,657 --> 01:11:03,529 — You are the dreams of the forest, 825 01:11:03,557 --> 01:11:06,314 the dreams imagined you and manifested you. 826 01:11:11,757 --> 01:11:13,300 You're the dreams of the rivers, 827 01:11:13,329 --> 01:11:14,957 the mountains and of the sun. 828 01:11:16,743 --> 01:11:18,329 You are the dream of the prairies, 829 01:11:18,357 --> 01:11:20,729 the grasses, the birds and animals. 830 01:11:22,943 --> 01:11:24,400 The only thing left up to you 831 01:11:24,429 --> 01:11:26,143 is your connection to them. 832 01:11:31,757 --> 01:11:33,414 What disconnects us is when 833 01:11:33,443 --> 01:11:35,857 we begin to think of self only. 834 01:11:35,971 --> 01:11:38,357 That's disrespecting the dream that you are. 835 01:11:41,386 --> 01:11:43,229 Who needs power when you have all those 836 01:11:43,257 --> 01:11:45,457 that dreamed you into being. 837 01:11:45,486 --> 01:11:47,286 You are also mystery. 838 01:11:47,314 --> 01:11:50,057 You are that dream, the dream of the mystery. 839 01:11:55,314 --> 01:11:57,857 — Creator, Mother Earth, 840 01:11:57,886 --> 01:12:00,514 thank you for the food You've given us today. 841 01:12:02,371 --> 01:12:04,043 Thank you for the women. 842 01:12:04,486 --> 01:12:08,029 Thank you for the men to protect them. 843 01:12:08,057 --> 01:12:10,471 Allow us to be part of your grace. 844 01:12:31,986 --> 01:12:34,114 — When we go into the sweat lodge, 845 01:12:34,143 --> 01:12:35,886 we're neither male or female, 846 01:12:48,357 --> 01:12:51,614 we're going into the womb of Mother Earth, 847 01:12:51,643 --> 01:12:54,386 we're going for cleansing, 848 01:12:54,414 --> 01:12:57,414 we're going for connection to all that was good, 849 01:12:57,443 --> 01:12:59,900 from our ancestry. 850 01:13:02,314 --> 01:13:04,529 It's like in ceremony, 851 01:13:04,557 --> 01:13:07,143 when we finally reach 852 01:13:07,171 --> 01:13:10,086 reach for it with everything 853 01:13:10,114 --> 01:13:12,029 to cling to it, 854 01:13:12,057 --> 01:13:14,186 it takes us to the other side. 855 01:13:15,243 --> 01:13:18,114 It takes us into sacred ceremony. 856 01:14:38,143 --> 01:14:41,329 — We connect to Mother Earth by putting the ocre on our bodies 857 01:14:41,357 --> 01:14:43,000 to reinforce that connection. 858 01:14:43,486 --> 01:14:46,600 — We're wearing the blood and bones of our ancestors, 859 01:14:46,629 --> 01:14:48,586 the old people that have been put in the ground, 860 01:14:49,657 --> 01:14:50,986 that have become the ground. 861 01:14:58,529 --> 01:15:00,157 You're dancing 862 01:15:00,186 --> 01:15:01,929 with people that have been here for thousands 863 01:15:01,957 --> 01:15:03,414 and thousands of years. 864 01:15:05,414 --> 01:15:06,757 And we become those people. 865 01:17:40,629 --> 01:17:42,829 — They failed to take my language away, 866 01:17:42,857 --> 01:17:44,986 my language is my wisdom. 867 01:17:56,657 --> 01:17:58,329 You can never erase it. 868 01:18:01,514 --> 01:18:02,929 — In the Lakota language, 869 01:18:02,957 --> 01:18:04,714 there is no true word for love, 870 01:18:06,157 --> 01:18:08,743 but accept love as no beginning and no ending. 871 01:18:10,586 --> 01:18:12,800 Mahashani means "you are my skin." 872 01:18:15,514 --> 01:18:17,143 I, I cherish my language 873 01:18:17,986 --> 01:18:20,529 and anything that's left from it 874 01:18:21,071 --> 01:18:22,529 not to define, 875 01:18:22,557 --> 01:18:24,886 but to interpret the spirituality of earth. 876 01:18:25,900 --> 01:18:28,529 — It's not just for each native nation 877 01:18:28,557 --> 01:18:31,643 to retrieve or, you know, remember that language, 878 01:18:31,671 --> 01:18:34,457 but that vibration and that understanding, 879 01:18:34,486 --> 01:18:36,357 that paradigm 880 01:18:36,457 --> 01:18:38,629 is key for human presence 881 01:18:38,657 --> 01:18:40,571 on this whole planet, I would say. 882 01:18:42,543 --> 01:18:44,957 — We are gifts from the stars, 883 01:18:44,986 --> 01:18:46,486 we have become Earth beings. 884 01:18:48,071 --> 01:18:50,357 Our responsibility is about 885 01:18:50,386 --> 01:18:53,914 having to learn how to have peace with Earth. 886 01:18:54,314 --> 01:18:55,614 We haven't learned how to live with the Earth, 887 01:18:55,643 --> 01:18:57,429 we're still living on the Earth 888 01:18:57,457 --> 01:18:59,986 politically, mentally, physically, 889 01:19:01,457 --> 01:19:03,157 religiously, 890 01:19:03,543 --> 01:19:06,543 we're still living on the Earth as domination. 891 01:19:08,743 --> 01:19:10,543 — We live in a civilization that says 892 01:19:10,571 --> 01:19:12,400 Get well, get well, get well. 893 01:19:12,429 --> 01:19:14,286 It's about you, it's about you, it's about you. 894 01:19:14,314 --> 01:19:16,643 It's about what you can take from the dreaming world 895 01:19:16,671 --> 01:19:19,257 and apply to your own self. 896 01:19:19,286 --> 01:19:22,700 It's about your notion of what's right. 897 01:19:22,729 --> 01:19:24,629 It's about your sense of righteousness." 898 01:19:24,657 --> 01:19:26,000 And what this does 899 01:19:26,029 --> 01:19:28,129 is that it exteriorizes 900 01:19:28,157 --> 01:19:29,657 the flow of the river, 901 01:19:30,643 --> 01:19:33,100 and it blinds us 902 01:19:33,129 --> 01:19:34,586 in a death trap. 903 01:19:37,586 --> 01:19:39,014 Our nervous system 904 01:19:39,043 --> 01:19:41,586 is not limited to our bodies. 905 01:19:42,314 --> 01:19:44,814 The nervous system is forests 906 01:19:44,843 --> 01:19:47,514 and rivers and mountains, 907 01:19:47,543 --> 01:19:48,957 and the past, 908 01:19:48,986 --> 01:19:50,229 and the yet to come. 909 01:20:28,529 --> 01:20:32,029 — The word decolonized is not enough. 910 01:20:32,057 --> 01:20:33,643 That, this is a curse. 911 01:20:35,014 --> 01:20:38,729 So to deconstruct, to decolonize, 912 01:20:38,757 --> 01:20:40,671 is about reversing. 913 01:20:44,014 --> 01:20:46,514 Our medicine people would say, 914 01:20:46,543 --> 01:20:49,371 "You cannot reverse a curse." 915 01:20:49,700 --> 01:20:51,857 A curse can only be transformed. 916 01:20:53,414 --> 01:20:55,700 — Only colonized people 917 01:20:56,043 --> 01:20:57,371 colonize people. 918 01:20:58,557 --> 01:21:01,143 It's not just Inuit that needs to heal, 919 01:21:01,171 --> 01:21:03,586 not just the colonized. 920 01:21:03,614 --> 01:21:07,071 The colonizers need even more healing than we do. 921 01:21:10,457 --> 01:21:12,414 A person in pain 922 01:21:12,443 --> 01:21:14,614 reacts to the world in pain, 923 01:21:17,757 --> 01:21:20,929 a person in peace reacts with peace. 924 01:21:20,957 --> 01:21:23,086 That's why we need to heal, 925 01:21:23,257 --> 01:21:25,586 so we do not bleed out on each other. 926 01:21:29,357 --> 01:21:31,986 Now the white people are looking for 927 01:21:32,014 --> 01:21:35,343 help amongst the indigenous natives and the aboriginals 928 01:21:35,371 --> 01:21:37,871 because they do not remember. 929 01:21:37,900 --> 01:21:40,657 We Indigenous people can help. 930 01:21:40,686 --> 01:21:42,686 Use my roots to dive 931 01:21:42,714 --> 01:21:44,457 into your own culture. 932 01:21:45,800 --> 01:21:48,957 Because I can awaken my ancestors, 933 01:21:49,114 --> 01:21:50,514 I did that in a ceremony, 934 01:21:50,543 --> 01:21:51,757 so could you. 935 01:21:54,014 --> 01:21:55,471 We have a birthright, 936 01:21:57,229 --> 01:21:58,943 we have a heritage. 937 01:22:01,243 --> 01:22:03,614 It's still yours to take. 938 01:22:47,857 --> 01:22:50,357 — Holy people all around, it's me 939 01:22:50,586 --> 01:22:52,886 coming before You on this holy day. 940 01:22:52,914 --> 01:22:54,700 I just want to give thanks, I want to give thanks, 941 01:22:54,729 --> 01:22:56,100 I want to give thanks. I want to give thanks 942 01:22:56,129 --> 01:22:57,343 for this beautiful life, 943 01:22:57,371 --> 01:22:59,157 I want to give thanks for this beautiful home, 944 01:22:59,186 --> 01:23:02,729 I want to give thanks for this Mother Earth, 945 01:23:03,957 --> 01:23:06,329 so powerful, so beautiful, 946 01:23:06,357 --> 01:23:08,014 you placed us in paradise. 947 01:23:28,443 --> 01:23:30,029 Open the soil of the hearts 948 01:23:30,057 --> 01:23:32,386 for something new to grow 949 01:23:32,414 --> 01:23:36,000 from the seeds of all of these powerful stories, 950 01:23:36,029 --> 01:23:38,071 some of them very hard stories, 951 01:23:39,357 --> 01:23:41,600 to release them, to 952 01:23:41,629 --> 01:23:44,043 to feel heard, to feel seen. 953 01:23:45,014 --> 01:23:47,714 And that's such a huge part of, of the healing. 954 01:24:53,386 --> 01:24:55,257 In beauty, it is finished, 955 01:24:55,286 --> 01:24:58,871 in beauty it is finished, in beauty it is finished, 956 01:24:58,900 --> 01:25:01,471 in beauty it is finished, Aho.