1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:17,327 --> 00:00:20,296 [rock music] 4 00:00:29,477 --> 00:00:33,240 [rock music continues] 5 00:00:41,524 --> 00:00:44,906 [rock music continues] 6 00:00:44,941 --> 00:00:46,598 [wheels screeching] 7 00:00:46,632 --> 00:00:50,015 ♪ It started in a motel bed ♪ 8 00:00:50,050 --> 00:00:52,017 ♪ Then your words kept messing with my head ♪ 9 00:00:52,052 --> 00:00:53,743 Stop, stop! Stop, stop! 10 00:00:53,777 --> 00:00:58,610 ♪ And from the side of your mouth, saw the venom pouring out ♪ 11 00:01:01,199 --> 00:01:04,857 ♪ Oh, you kissed me hard, then soft and slow ♪ 12 00:01:04,892 --> 00:01:06,756 ♪ The only love that I've ever known ♪ 13 00:01:06,790 --> 00:01:07,584 Asshole! 14 00:01:08,861 --> 00:01:11,209 ♪ But secondhand smoke don't always work ♪ 15 00:01:11,243 --> 00:01:12,727 ♪ To keep a girl like me around ♪ 16 00:01:12,762 --> 00:01:15,005 [Star coughing] 17 00:01:15,040 --> 00:01:20,080 ♪ So say my name, I'm always the one to blame ♪ 18 00:01:21,943 --> 00:01:24,429 [door shuts] 19 00:01:25,913 --> 00:01:28,812 [thunder booming] 20 00:01:34,956 --> 00:01:37,683 [Star coughing] 21 00:01:41,791 --> 00:01:44,345 [Star coughs] 22 00:01:48,522 --> 00:01:53,561 [thunder booming] [Star coughing] 23 00:01:54,217 --> 00:01:56,530 [Star coughing] 24 00:02:01,431 --> 00:02:03,813 [Star sighs] 25 00:02:12,339 --> 00:02:15,065 [door creaking] 26 00:02:24,454 --> 00:02:26,767 [no audio] 27 00:02:32,669 --> 00:02:35,396 [door clunking] 28 00:02:40,539 --> 00:02:43,508 [bottles clinking] 29 00:02:46,890 --> 00:02:51,930 [door thuds] [engine rumbling] 30 00:02:54,139 --> 00:02:58,108 - [Announcer] For your livestock needs, it's Triple L Feeds. 31 00:02:58,143 --> 00:03:01,491 [somber classical music] 32 00:03:04,874 --> 00:03:07,670 [bottle clinking] 33 00:03:17,404 --> 00:03:20,890 [somber music continues] 34 00:03:30,451 --> 00:03:33,937 [somber music continues] 35 00:03:43,430 --> 00:03:46,916 [somber music continues] 36 00:03:55,511 --> 00:03:58,238 [door creaking] 37 00:03:59,584 --> 00:04:01,068 Weather's about to get bad. 38 00:04:01,102 --> 00:04:04,554 Throw your gear in the back under the tarp. 39 00:04:04,589 --> 00:04:07,212 [Star coughing] 40 00:04:13,598 --> 00:04:16,117 [door thuds] 41 00:04:23,228 --> 00:04:24,609 [thunder rumbling] 42 00:04:24,643 --> 00:04:27,336 So where are you headed? 43 00:04:27,370 --> 00:04:28,268 Dubuque. 44 00:04:30,477 --> 00:04:32,444 Ain't going that far. 45 00:04:41,591 --> 00:04:45,043 [somber music continues] 46 00:04:50,911 --> 00:04:52,982 Where are you taking me? 47 00:04:53,016 --> 00:04:54,017 My place. 48 00:04:55,398 --> 00:04:56,951 That's not okay. 49 00:04:57,780 --> 00:05:00,092 Want to get out? 50 00:05:00,127 --> 00:05:04,269 You're better off at my place than out here. 51 00:05:04,304 --> 00:05:06,340 I'm just trying to help. 52 00:05:10,689 --> 00:05:13,278 [somber music] 53 00:05:19,940 --> 00:05:22,701 [Star coughing] 54 00:05:29,984 --> 00:05:32,711 [Star coughing] 55 00:05:34,679 --> 00:05:37,371 [Star coughing] 56 00:05:46,346 --> 00:05:49,314 [door thuds] 57 00:05:49,349 --> 00:05:50,695 I'll get your things, then. 58 00:05:50,729 --> 00:05:53,525 [Star coughing] 59 00:05:58,772 --> 00:06:00,774 It's not in good shape. 60 00:06:00,808 --> 00:06:04,191 - We have that in common. I'm good here. 61 00:06:05,813 --> 00:06:10,680 - Suit yourself. [melancholy music] 62 00:06:10,715 --> 00:06:12,510 I got indoor plumbing. 63 00:06:22,347 --> 00:06:26,144 [melancholy music continues] 64 00:06:34,463 --> 00:06:38,846 [melancholy music continues] 65 00:06:38,881 --> 00:06:39,847 You hungry? 66 00:06:48,442 --> 00:06:51,031 [melancholy music continues] 67 00:06:51,065 --> 00:06:53,758 [Star groans] 68 00:06:53,792 --> 00:06:56,485 [Star coughing] 69 00:07:02,836 --> 00:07:05,563 [Star coughing] 70 00:07:11,120 --> 00:07:13,778 [Star coughing] 71 00:07:18,576 --> 00:07:21,371 [Star coughing] 72 00:07:25,203 --> 00:07:27,826 That's a blast from the past. 73 00:07:30,760 --> 00:07:32,590 All those albums. 74 00:07:32,624 --> 00:07:34,246 My mother, she... 75 00:07:35,903 --> 00:07:37,940 Just don't mess with it. 76 00:07:38,872 --> 00:07:40,218 Not to worry. 77 00:07:42,220 --> 00:07:44,774 [Star coughs] 78 00:07:52,161 --> 00:07:55,544 [silverware clattering] 79 00:08:05,415 --> 00:08:09,247 [melancholy music continues] 80 00:08:11,214 --> 00:08:12,250 Pinto beans? 81 00:08:14,355 --> 00:08:16,323 Close, but not pinto. 82 00:08:22,709 --> 00:08:23,917 What's this? 83 00:08:25,228 --> 00:08:26,506 [Logan] Bread. 84 00:08:26,540 --> 00:08:28,369 Right. You made it? 85 00:08:29,474 --> 00:08:30,682 [Logan] Try. 86 00:08:34,203 --> 00:08:36,654 [hand thuds] 87 00:08:46,456 --> 00:08:48,182 Is it bread bread? 88 00:08:50,288 --> 00:08:52,946 I don't know, it's kind of nutty. 89 00:08:52,980 --> 00:08:55,362 That's a good description. 90 00:08:59,021 --> 00:09:00,332 You got a name? 91 00:09:02,611 --> 00:09:03,508 Star. 92 00:09:06,200 --> 00:09:08,651 Made up, or your real name? 93 00:09:13,276 --> 00:09:15,313 What's yours? 94 00:09:15,347 --> 00:09:16,245 Logan. 95 00:09:19,800 --> 00:09:20,905 Where am I? 96 00:09:21,802 --> 00:09:23,424 Geographically? 97 00:09:23,459 --> 00:09:27,187 - Yeah, geographically. [coughing] 98 00:09:27,221 --> 00:09:29,603 Drink the water. Drink it. 99 00:09:31,363 --> 00:09:35,402 Arizona, near Rodeo, New Mexico, population 101. 100 00:09:37,266 --> 00:09:39,440 Seriously? 101? 101 00:09:39,475 --> 00:09:43,203 - Could be less by now. That's from last census. 102 00:09:43,237 --> 00:09:45,308 The middle of nowhere. 103 00:09:48,242 --> 00:09:51,038 Don't worry, I'll be gone first thing in the morning. 104 00:09:51,073 --> 00:09:52,764 Do I look worried? 105 00:09:54,455 --> 00:09:57,044 Where are you coming from? 106 00:09:57,079 --> 00:09:57,976 LA. 107 00:10:03,292 --> 00:10:05,190 You work around here? 108 00:10:05,225 --> 00:10:06,122 Yeah. 109 00:10:08,228 --> 00:10:09,125 Cowboy? 110 00:10:12,335 --> 00:10:13,233 Was. 111 00:10:18,203 --> 00:10:20,585 Never met a cowboy before. 112 00:10:21,690 --> 00:10:25,107 Is that what they're still called? Cowboys? 113 00:10:27,627 --> 00:10:29,007 Far as I know. 114 00:10:35,082 --> 00:10:38,361 You can sleep outside or on the couch, it's up to you. 115 00:10:38,396 --> 00:10:41,192 [chair scraping] 116 00:10:47,750 --> 00:10:50,097 [door thuds] 117 00:10:56,069 --> 00:10:58,692 [blanket thuds] 118 00:11:06,700 --> 00:11:09,599 [melancholy music] 119 00:11:17,262 --> 00:11:19,920 [light clicks] 120 00:11:29,412 --> 00:11:33,244 [melancholy music continues] 121 00:11:40,147 --> 00:11:42,771 [light clicks] 122 00:11:47,948 --> 00:11:50,606 [paws tapping] 123 00:11:52,470 --> 00:11:55,162 [cheerful music] 124 00:12:04,620 --> 00:12:08,244 [cheerful music continues] 125 00:12:09,729 --> 00:12:11,075 Pretty good, huh? 126 00:12:20,394 --> 00:12:24,053 [cheerful music continues] 127 00:12:33,442 --> 00:12:37,101 [cheerful music continues] 128 00:12:46,455 --> 00:12:50,079 [cheerful music continues] 129 00:12:59,364 --> 00:13:04,300 Hey there Gilda, Gracie. You two ready to stretch your legs? 130 00:13:13,413 --> 00:13:17,037 [cheerful music continues] 131 00:13:26,391 --> 00:13:30,016 [cheerful music continues] 132 00:13:35,607 --> 00:13:38,334 [Star coughing] 133 00:13:41,786 --> 00:13:44,513 [Star coughing] 134 00:13:49,656 --> 00:13:52,659 [melancholy music] 135 00:14:01,564 --> 00:14:04,291 [Star coughing] 136 00:14:13,438 --> 00:14:17,201 [melancholy music continues] 137 00:14:26,486 --> 00:14:30,248 [melancholy music continues] 138 00:14:39,464 --> 00:14:43,261 [melancholy music continues] 139 00:14:52,512 --> 00:14:56,309 [melancholy music continues] 140 00:15:05,490 --> 00:15:08,390 [melancholy music continues] 141 00:15:08,424 --> 00:15:11,117 [gate creaking] 142 00:15:20,471 --> 00:15:24,233 [melancholy music continues] 143 00:15:33,449 --> 00:15:37,246 [melancholy music continues] 144 00:15:46,462 --> 00:15:50,225 [melancholy music continues] 145 00:15:53,021 --> 00:15:55,506 [door thuds] 146 00:16:00,235 --> 00:16:03,100 [water splashing] 147 00:16:08,036 --> 00:16:11,004 [beans squelching] 148 00:16:18,322 --> 00:16:21,256 [melancholy music] 149 00:16:29,298 --> 00:16:30,920 Hey. Hey, you okay? 150 00:16:33,164 --> 00:16:35,615 Oh my god, what time is it? 151 00:16:36,857 --> 00:16:41,621 - It's okay, just lie there. [Star coughing] 152 00:16:42,277 --> 00:16:43,312 I'm sorry. 153 00:16:49,042 --> 00:16:50,871 You could fry an egg. 154 00:16:50,906 --> 00:16:52,218 - I really meant to be out of here. 155 00:16:52,252 --> 00:16:54,910 But God had other plans. 156 00:16:54,944 --> 00:16:56,774 You believe in God? 157 00:16:57,809 --> 00:17:00,433 It's just a figure of speech. 158 00:17:03,194 --> 00:17:05,403 What have you eaten today? 159 00:17:06,749 --> 00:17:07,647 Water. 160 00:17:10,201 --> 00:17:15,137 I feel like crap. You can dump me by the side of the road. 161 00:17:15,827 --> 00:17:17,139 I'll think on it. 162 00:17:25,492 --> 00:17:28,461 [kettle whistling] 163 00:17:37,435 --> 00:17:40,128 [water pouring] 164 00:17:42,475 --> 00:17:44,270 [Star sighs] 165 00:17:44,304 --> 00:17:45,857 Careful, it's hot. 166 00:17:50,862 --> 00:17:52,278 Mint? 167 00:17:52,312 --> 00:17:54,280 There's some mint. 168 00:17:54,314 --> 00:17:56,696 I actually grow these herbs. 169 00:18:06,223 --> 00:18:09,433 - Look, I'm gonna be- - Drink your tea. 170 00:18:10,744 --> 00:18:13,230 [Star coughs] 171 00:18:18,235 --> 00:18:19,443 Not good. 103. 172 00:18:21,583 --> 00:18:23,136 Shower could help. 173 00:18:27,623 --> 00:18:30,592 [melancholy music] 174 00:18:32,352 --> 00:18:35,114 [shower hissing] 175 00:18:44,399 --> 00:18:48,196 [melancholy music continues] 176 00:18:53,994 --> 00:18:56,445 [door thuds] 177 00:18:57,757 --> 00:19:00,449 Care to guess what's for supper? 178 00:19:01,968 --> 00:19:03,797 What kind of beans are these? 179 00:19:03,832 --> 00:19:06,006 Anasazi beans. Gourmet. 180 00:19:09,700 --> 00:19:12,012 Mm, actually kind of good. 181 00:19:13,324 --> 00:19:15,809 It's pretty much what you eat? 182 00:19:15,844 --> 00:19:17,086 Pretty much. 183 00:19:18,053 --> 00:19:20,676 Variety's not your thing? 184 00:19:20,711 --> 00:19:23,748 - I keep things simple. It suits me. 185 00:19:25,198 --> 00:19:28,167 Here I am, messing things up. 186 00:19:28,201 --> 00:19:29,098 Yep. 187 00:19:30,928 --> 00:19:32,964 It's just you here? 188 00:19:32,999 --> 00:19:34,725 If you don't count Nala. 189 00:19:34,759 --> 00:19:36,313 Nala? 190 00:19:36,347 --> 00:19:37,900 My dog. 191 00:19:37,935 --> 00:19:39,178 She's outside. 192 00:19:42,664 --> 00:19:43,906 I like dogs. 193 00:19:45,598 --> 00:19:48,394 [chair scraping] 194 00:19:50,672 --> 00:19:53,709 Aw! Aren't you a good girl? 195 00:19:53,744 --> 00:19:56,056 She's my therapy dog. 196 00:19:56,091 --> 00:19:57,265 Really? 197 00:19:57,299 --> 00:19:58,404 Night duty. 198 00:20:00,509 --> 00:20:02,235 You know, I think you would sleep better 199 00:20:02,270 --> 00:20:05,894 in the other bedroom tonight, so wait here. 200 00:20:11,900 --> 00:20:16,939 You miss her too, don't you? [melancholy music] 201 00:20:18,769 --> 00:20:20,322 I know. It's okay. 202 00:20:24,809 --> 00:20:25,948 Oh my gosh. 203 00:20:26,915 --> 00:20:29,469 Is this the same house? 204 00:20:29,504 --> 00:20:30,539 This is... 205 00:20:32,541 --> 00:20:34,302 Was my mother's room. 206 00:20:35,751 --> 00:20:37,477 She died a year ago. 207 00:20:38,858 --> 00:20:40,653 A year ago yesterday. 208 00:20:42,793 --> 00:20:44,104 I'm so sorry. 209 00:20:47,453 --> 00:20:51,629 I'm not sure I can sleep here. I feel like a trespasser. 210 00:20:51,664 --> 00:20:53,424 She would like that. 211 00:20:56,807 --> 00:20:58,740 [Star coughing] 212 00:20:58,774 --> 00:20:59,568 Come on. 213 00:21:06,644 --> 00:21:09,268 [Star coughing] 214 00:21:18,415 --> 00:21:22,522 [melancholy music continues] 215 00:21:22,557 --> 00:21:25,284 [Star coughing] 216 00:21:34,465 --> 00:21:38,297 [melancholy music continues] 217 00:21:43,267 --> 00:21:45,994 [Logan gasping] 218 00:21:55,383 --> 00:21:57,937 [somber music] 219 00:22:06,255 --> 00:22:08,982 [zipper rasping] 220 00:22:18,406 --> 00:22:21,892 [somber music continues] 221 00:22:25,482 --> 00:22:28,208 [Star coughing] 222 00:22:34,456 --> 00:22:37,183 [Star coughing] 223 00:22:46,468 --> 00:22:49,954 [somber music continues] 224 00:22:59,585 --> 00:23:02,967 [somber music continues] 225 00:23:12,460 --> 00:23:15,911 [somber music continues] 226 00:23:25,438 --> 00:23:28,924 [somber music continues] 227 00:23:35,828 --> 00:23:38,555 [Star coughing] 228 00:23:46,528 --> 00:23:49,358 [doors creaking] 229 00:23:58,471 --> 00:24:01,923 [somber music continues] 230 00:24:11,415 --> 00:24:14,867 [somber music continues] 231 00:24:17,594 --> 00:24:20,320 [Star coughing] 232 00:24:29,433 --> 00:24:32,954 [somber music continues] 233 00:24:32,988 --> 00:24:35,543 [Star coughs] 234 00:24:45,414 --> 00:24:48,901 [somber music continues] 235 00:24:50,937 --> 00:24:53,837 [engine rumbling] 236 00:24:57,288 --> 00:25:00,119 [birds chirping] 237 00:25:09,473 --> 00:25:12,511 [chirping continues] 238 00:25:14,996 --> 00:25:17,446 - How're you feeling? - Better. 239 00:25:18,827 --> 00:25:23,142 I've been drinking your tea. I think it's been helping. 240 00:25:24,384 --> 00:25:26,697 Sorry I'm still here. 241 00:25:26,732 --> 00:25:28,043 No, don't be. 242 00:25:29,355 --> 00:25:32,461 - Never been this exhausted my entire life. 243 00:25:32,496 --> 00:25:35,499 Never. I pretty much slept all day. 244 00:25:40,608 --> 00:25:45,440 Thanks for the sewing kit, but I bought my jeans like this. 245 00:25:45,474 --> 00:25:46,372 New? 246 00:25:47,442 --> 00:25:50,169 - Yeah. - Why would you do that? 247 00:25:51,239 --> 00:25:52,551 - You serious? Where have you been? 248 00:25:52,585 --> 00:25:54,725 It's been the fashion for years. 249 00:25:54,760 --> 00:25:56,796 I mean, mine are nothing compared to ones 250 00:25:56,831 --> 00:25:59,143 with huge holes up and down both sides. 251 00:25:59,178 --> 00:26:02,802 And they're expensive. [coughs] 252 00:26:02,837 --> 00:26:06,012 - Perfect metaphor for the times we live in. 253 00:26:06,047 --> 00:26:11,086 We gravitate toward destruction and we pay a high price. 254 00:26:11,639 --> 00:26:12,294 Good point. 255 00:26:16,782 --> 00:26:19,267 How'd you sleep last night? 256 00:26:19,301 --> 00:26:20,371 Oh my god. 257 00:26:21,959 --> 00:26:23,443 It was the best night's sleep I've had 258 00:26:23,478 --> 00:26:25,860 since I was a little girl. 259 00:26:25,894 --> 00:26:27,655 I'm not even kidding. 260 00:26:28,517 --> 00:26:29,829 I felt so safe. 261 00:26:31,831 --> 00:26:32,729 Safe. 262 00:26:36,422 --> 00:26:39,459 - It was such an unfamiliar feeling. 263 00:26:40,633 --> 00:26:43,187 Sorry, I didn't mean to go on. 264 00:26:44,326 --> 00:26:46,674 - Feel like moving around a little bit? 265 00:26:46,708 --> 00:26:50,988 Take the girls back to the corral. You can join me. 266 00:26:58,064 --> 00:27:00,653 Hello, girls. Meet Star. 267 00:27:00,688 --> 00:27:04,588 Star, meet Gilda and Gracie. Mother, daughter. 268 00:27:05,969 --> 00:27:10,387 - Never been this close to a horse before. They're so big. 269 00:27:10,421 --> 00:27:13,252 - You're from Iowa and you've never been around horses? 270 00:27:13,286 --> 00:27:15,634 Just preachers in my family. 271 00:27:15,668 --> 00:27:18,637 - You can go ahead and stroke her nose. 272 00:27:18,671 --> 00:27:23,676 She might take a bite of your hair, but that's about it. 273 00:27:24,228 --> 00:27:25,160 Oh, thanks. 274 00:27:30,959 --> 00:27:32,512 [Logan] Come on. 275 00:27:36,413 --> 00:27:39,381 [melancholy music] 276 00:27:40,624 --> 00:27:41,521 Come on! 277 00:27:50,427 --> 00:27:54,258 [melancholy music continues] 278 00:28:03,440 --> 00:28:07,271 [melancholy music continues] 279 00:28:12,725 --> 00:28:15,624 - My mother crocheted that. - Nice. 280 00:28:20,353 --> 00:28:23,771 You've lived here your whole life? 281 00:28:23,805 --> 00:28:24,703 Mostly. 282 00:28:33,470 --> 00:28:36,438 I love how it smells out here. 283 00:28:36,473 --> 00:28:37,543 It smells? 284 00:28:42,410 --> 00:28:44,964 What do you farm? Cotton? 285 00:28:44,999 --> 00:28:46,932 What makes you think I farm? 286 00:28:46,966 --> 00:28:48,692 - Oh, I just- - I do. 287 00:28:49,935 --> 00:28:51,246 But not cotton. 288 00:28:56,044 --> 00:28:57,839 So what's in Dubuque? 289 00:29:00,980 --> 00:29:02,810 I'm not sure. 290 00:29:02,844 --> 00:29:06,020 - That's a long way to go not to be sure. 291 00:29:06,054 --> 00:29:09,368 - It's not your problem. Don't worry, I'll be gone tomorrow. 292 00:29:09,402 --> 00:29:11,025 You said that before. 293 00:29:11,059 --> 00:29:12,820 - Right, actually, you know what, I'm feeling much better. 294 00:29:12,854 --> 00:29:17,100 - I'm teasing! You need to get better first. 295 00:29:17,134 --> 00:29:18,239 Another day or two should do it. 296 00:29:18,273 --> 00:29:20,137 [Star coughing] 297 00:29:20,172 --> 00:29:21,069 Or three. 298 00:29:28,318 --> 00:29:29,906 101. You're not leaving quite yet. 299 00:29:29,940 --> 00:29:32,218 Is that okay with you? 300 00:29:32,253 --> 00:29:34,703 I guess so. You don't mind? 301 00:29:37,051 --> 00:29:39,708 - If you need to do laundry sometime, 302 00:29:39,743 --> 00:29:43,471 there's a washer out back and a clothesline. 303 00:29:44,575 --> 00:29:48,303 - A clothesline? I've never used one. 304 00:29:48,338 --> 00:29:51,375 - Then you'll have to figure it out. 305 00:29:56,864 --> 00:29:59,694 [Star] What are you reading? 306 00:29:59,728 --> 00:30:01,627 "Invisible Man". 307 00:30:03,180 --> 00:30:05,286 [Star] Oh, is it recent? 308 00:30:05,320 --> 00:30:08,461 - Nope. Written before you were born. 309 00:30:09,773 --> 00:30:12,155 How old do you think I am? 310 00:30:14,433 --> 00:30:15,330 20? 311 00:30:17,056 --> 00:30:18,713 24. 312 00:30:18,747 --> 00:30:21,198 Hm. Well, you look younger. 313 00:30:25,789 --> 00:30:27,756 How old are you? 314 00:30:27,791 --> 00:30:28,688 33. 315 00:30:30,345 --> 00:30:31,830 You look older. 316 00:30:38,250 --> 00:30:41,218 So what are you running from? 317 00:30:41,253 --> 00:30:43,324 Did you say running from? 318 00:30:43,358 --> 00:30:46,879 - There's nothing wrong with your hearing. 319 00:30:48,191 --> 00:30:49,813 It's a long story. 320 00:30:54,887 --> 00:30:56,924 What are you reading? 321 00:30:56,958 --> 00:30:58,995 - It's a book about Janis Joplin. 322 00:30:59,029 --> 00:31:00,893 - You a fan? - Huge fan. 323 00:31:02,791 --> 00:31:05,864 Not the drugs. Her passion, her guts. 324 00:31:07,279 --> 00:31:10,006 There was no one else like her. 325 00:31:10,040 --> 00:31:11,455 - Is that what you are? A singer? 326 00:31:11,490 --> 00:31:12,836 I've never met one of those before. 327 00:31:12,871 --> 00:31:16,633 Is that what they're still called, singers? 328 00:31:16,667 --> 00:31:20,568 I had that coming. [coughs] 329 00:31:22,535 --> 00:31:24,917 Is anyone looking for you? 330 00:31:26,367 --> 00:31:27,920 - You think I'm running from the law? 331 00:31:27,955 --> 00:31:30,060 No, I mean family or... 332 00:31:32,580 --> 00:31:34,996 - I have to call my aunt in Dubuque. 333 00:31:35,031 --> 00:31:36,860 Do you have a cell phone charger I can use? 334 00:31:36,895 --> 00:31:38,966 I can't find mine. 335 00:31:39,000 --> 00:31:40,726 What do you think? 336 00:31:41,969 --> 00:31:45,800 I have a phone in my bedroom. Feel free to use it. 337 00:31:45,834 --> 00:31:47,181 Thanks, but that won't help, 338 00:31:47,215 --> 00:31:50,184 because her number's in my dead phone. 339 00:31:50,218 --> 00:31:53,912 - You ever hear of a pencil? Address book? 340 00:31:53,946 --> 00:31:57,398 Like I said, I like to keep things simple. 341 00:31:59,469 --> 00:32:03,922 - Keeping things simple's never really been my thing. 342 00:32:06,372 --> 00:32:11,274 Your mother's bed's calling. [melancholy music] 343 00:32:20,455 --> 00:32:24,218 [melancholy music continues] 344 00:32:33,468 --> 00:32:37,231 [melancholy music continues] 345 00:32:42,029 --> 00:32:44,859 [cheerful music] 346 00:32:54,489 --> 00:32:58,079 [cheerful music continues] 347 00:33:07,606 --> 00:33:11,127 [cheerful music continues] 348 00:33:20,446 --> 00:33:24,036 [cheerful music continues] 349 00:33:33,459 --> 00:33:37,084 [cheerful music continues] 350 00:33:46,472 --> 00:33:50,062 [cheerful music continues] 351 00:33:59,485 --> 00:34:03,075 [cheerful music continues] 352 00:34:12,395 --> 00:34:14,742 [no audio] 353 00:34:19,057 --> 00:34:21,887 [cloth rustling] 354 00:34:25,856 --> 00:34:28,583 [Star coughing] 355 00:34:38,421 --> 00:34:41,286 [no audio] 356 00:34:41,320 --> 00:34:43,702 He's a rodeo guy, huh? 357 00:34:43,736 --> 00:34:46,187 Are you really a therapy dog? 358 00:34:50,364 --> 00:34:54,161 Hello, ladies. Anything interesting going on? 359 00:34:55,576 --> 00:34:59,269 Is this what you two do all day? Hang out, eat grass? 360 00:34:59,304 --> 00:35:01,029 Where can I sign up? 361 00:35:03,135 --> 00:35:04,032 Come on. 362 00:35:10,418 --> 00:35:13,076 [gate creaking] 363 00:35:19,151 --> 00:35:21,878 [gate clunking] 364 00:35:26,641 --> 00:35:30,162 [melancholy guitar music] 365 00:35:36,996 --> 00:35:40,586 ♪ What was I running from ♪ 366 00:35:40,621 --> 00:35:43,762 ♪ Now you're gone ♪ 367 00:35:43,796 --> 00:35:47,006 ♪ Was I running from the law ♪ 368 00:35:47,041 --> 00:35:49,768 ♪ I'm not quite sure ♪ 369 00:35:49,802 --> 00:35:54,842 ♪ At the end of the day ♪ 370 00:35:56,188 --> 00:36:01,228 ♪ I was running away ♪ 371 00:36:02,539 --> 00:36:05,680 ♪ I was running away ♪ 372 00:36:14,172 --> 00:36:17,002 [paper rustling] 373 00:36:21,972 --> 00:36:27,046 [door shuts] [melancholy guitar music] 374 00:36:30,843 --> 00:36:33,812 ♪ What was I running from ♪ 375 00:36:33,846 --> 00:36:36,918 ♪ Now you're gone ♪ 376 00:36:36,953 --> 00:36:40,025 ♪ Was I running from the law ♪ 377 00:36:40,059 --> 00:36:42,510 ♪ I'm not quite sure ♪ 378 00:36:42,545 --> 00:36:45,927 ♪ At the end of the day ♪ 379 00:36:51,036 --> 00:36:52,175 Keep going. 380 00:36:53,452 --> 00:36:55,903 I'm done. How was your day? 381 00:36:58,112 --> 00:37:00,183 About what I expected. 382 00:37:03,082 --> 00:37:04,705 How're you feeling? 383 00:37:05,878 --> 00:37:08,053 Better. Your tea's amazing. 384 00:37:08,087 --> 00:37:10,607 My energy's slowly making its way back. 385 00:37:10,642 --> 00:37:13,161 It's been five days or so? 386 00:37:13,196 --> 00:37:14,093 Six. 387 00:37:15,992 --> 00:37:18,132 You got your guitar out. 388 00:37:18,166 --> 00:37:21,894 - Felt right, for the first time in ages. 389 00:37:21,929 --> 00:37:23,724 Wow, six days? 390 00:37:23,758 --> 00:37:26,796 - Don't worry, I'm not out of beans. 391 00:37:31,007 --> 00:37:32,802 Want to ride a horse? 392 00:37:32,836 --> 00:37:34,873 - You serious? - Come on. 393 00:37:38,290 --> 00:37:41,189 [guitar thudding] 394 00:37:46,091 --> 00:37:48,818 [Star coughing] 395 00:37:58,345 --> 00:38:00,968 [somber music] 396 00:38:03,073 --> 00:38:04,005 You went in? 397 00:38:04,040 --> 00:38:05,524 Yeah. 398 00:38:05,559 --> 00:38:09,183 - This can untie in two seconds, see? 399 00:38:09,217 --> 00:38:12,186 - Sorry, guess I need knot tying lessons. 400 00:38:12,220 --> 00:38:13,670 - The girls, they like to wander. 401 00:38:13,705 --> 00:38:16,708 They can push the damn gate open with their nose. 402 00:38:16,742 --> 00:38:19,124 Like I said, I'm sorry. 403 00:38:19,158 --> 00:38:21,713 I thought I was being careful. 404 00:38:24,854 --> 00:38:28,375 I'm tired. I'm going to take a rain check. 405 00:38:29,928 --> 00:38:30,998 I'm sorry. 406 00:38:38,419 --> 00:38:41,146 I just think you'd enjoy a ride. 407 00:38:47,221 --> 00:38:49,948 [gate creaking] 408 00:38:52,053 --> 00:38:55,229 So you're gonna put your left foot in the stirrup, 409 00:38:55,263 --> 00:38:57,196 then you grab the mane with your left hand 410 00:38:57,231 --> 00:39:01,408 and the horn with your right and just spin yourself up. 411 00:39:01,442 --> 00:39:02,478 It's okay. 412 00:39:12,384 --> 00:39:14,455 [Star yelps] 413 00:39:14,490 --> 00:39:15,456 Easy peasy. 414 00:39:18,459 --> 00:39:21,013 How do you like it up there? 415 00:39:21,048 --> 00:39:24,292 - I like it so far, as long as she doesn't move. 416 00:39:24,327 --> 00:39:25,777 - You can give it a little slack, 417 00:39:25,811 --> 00:39:27,434 and you can grab hold of the horn with one hand, 418 00:39:27,468 --> 00:39:29,781 the reigns in the other, and a little tap 419 00:39:29,815 --> 00:39:31,507 with your foot will get her moving. 420 00:39:31,541 --> 00:39:32,404 Okay. 421 00:39:36,650 --> 00:39:38,376 Isn't this gorgeous? 422 00:39:39,169 --> 00:39:41,896 My favorite time of day. 423 00:39:41,931 --> 00:39:44,140 We don't get this in LA. 424 00:39:46,349 --> 00:39:50,077 - I liked watching you play guitar, singing. 425 00:39:51,181 --> 00:39:54,253 Those words were from our conversation. 426 00:39:54,288 --> 00:39:58,257 - All my songs are from my life, so yeah. 427 00:39:58,292 --> 00:40:01,191 I haven't touched my guitar in six months. 428 00:40:01,226 --> 00:40:03,849 What happened six months ago? 429 00:40:05,195 --> 00:40:08,060 - Let's just enjoy the ride, okay? 430 00:40:17,415 --> 00:40:20,901 [somber music continues] 431 00:40:22,523 --> 00:40:24,974 - That was great. - The shower? 432 00:40:25,871 --> 00:40:27,666 The horseback ride. 433 00:40:29,841 --> 00:40:31,463 Running low on your Ana-whatever beans? 434 00:40:31,498 --> 00:40:33,361 Anasazi. We're good. 435 00:40:34,466 --> 00:40:36,295 You want to hear the beans' story? 436 00:40:36,330 --> 00:40:37,227 Sure. 437 00:40:38,643 --> 00:40:43,095 - Anasazi Indians disappear from New Mexico about 900 AD. 438 00:40:44,476 --> 00:40:46,513 Those are their beans, as discovered by some old farmer 439 00:40:46,547 --> 00:40:48,756 who recently found a few in a small pot 440 00:40:48,791 --> 00:40:51,379 hidden on Anasazi sacred ground. 441 00:40:51,414 --> 00:40:53,347 So he planted them, and they grew. 442 00:40:53,381 --> 00:40:56,592 Now there's this farm in Colorado that sells them. 443 00:40:56,626 --> 00:41:00,423 And they did a DNA test, they're healthier than pinto beans. 444 00:41:00,458 --> 00:41:03,806 - Maybe I should write a song about them. 445 00:41:05,393 --> 00:41:07,499 You want to go for a walk? 446 00:41:12,159 --> 00:41:16,646 - It's been different for me with you here. Not all bad. 447 00:41:16,681 --> 00:41:21,306 The last person in this house other than me was my mom. 448 00:41:22,928 --> 00:41:24,620 What was she like? 449 00:41:25,724 --> 00:41:28,865 - She had many sides. I will stop there. 450 00:41:31,350 --> 00:41:34,077 So what happened six months ago? 451 00:41:36,632 --> 00:41:40,739 - My roommate died. Killed, I'm pretty damn sure. 452 00:41:42,810 --> 00:41:45,675 Leah was my one true friend in LA. 453 00:41:46,987 --> 00:41:48,333 That's rough. 454 00:41:49,161 --> 00:41:50,059 How? 455 00:41:50,922 --> 00:41:51,819 Opioids. 456 00:41:53,683 --> 00:41:56,479 But it was no fucking accident. 457 00:41:56,514 --> 00:41:59,551 Her asshole boyfriend was ready to move on. She wasn't. 458 00:41:59,586 --> 00:42:02,002 - That's a pretty serious accusation. 459 00:42:02,036 --> 00:42:06,006 - Fentanyl was in her system. She didn't do drugs, ever. 460 00:42:06,040 --> 00:42:08,146 You sure about that? 461 00:42:08,180 --> 00:42:11,425 - She was like me, 100% anti-drugs. 462 00:42:12,806 --> 00:42:15,187 She was black, he was white. 463 00:42:16,119 --> 00:42:17,569 He knew I suspected him. 464 00:42:17,604 --> 00:42:19,847 He threatened me, if I ever said anything to anyone. 465 00:42:19,882 --> 00:42:23,575 - And you didn't talk to anyone, like the police? 466 00:42:23,610 --> 00:42:26,682 His brother is on the force. 467 00:42:26,716 --> 00:42:29,581 I still plan to, when I feel safe. 468 00:42:31,894 --> 00:42:34,379 Leah told me that being smart and black 469 00:42:34,413 --> 00:42:37,002 is worse than being dumb and white. 470 00:42:37,037 --> 00:42:38,901 No respect, not heard. 471 00:42:41,524 --> 00:42:44,044 Her singing was finally getting her 472 00:42:44,078 --> 00:42:47,634 the positive attention she deserved. 473 00:42:47,668 --> 00:42:49,325 We were so excited. 474 00:42:50,878 --> 00:42:53,571 And you stopped writing songs. 475 00:43:01,337 --> 00:43:02,131 Why LA? 476 00:43:05,859 --> 00:43:09,172 - I truly believed I'd find myself there, 477 00:43:09,207 --> 00:43:11,485 do my music like Janice did. 478 00:43:12,831 --> 00:43:16,559 How stupid, stupid, stupid. I was never a good fit. 479 00:43:16,594 --> 00:43:19,562 I don't sleep around. I don't do drugs. 480 00:43:19,597 --> 00:43:21,322 Janis did all that stuff. 481 00:43:21,357 --> 00:43:23,808 - Then you're not completely stupid. 482 00:43:23,842 --> 00:43:27,570 - Well, there's stupid, then there's stupid. 483 00:43:28,709 --> 00:43:31,643 - Is that the name to your next song? 484 00:43:31,678 --> 00:43:33,956 - I'm trying to have a serious conversation. 485 00:43:33,990 --> 00:43:34,888 Me too. 486 00:43:36,993 --> 00:43:40,169 - I left LA because I wasn't safe. 487 00:43:40,203 --> 00:43:42,723 If he could do that to Leah... 488 00:43:43,862 --> 00:43:46,106 I hitched a ride with a guy I thought I knew, 489 00:43:46,140 --> 00:43:48,384 headed to El Paso. 490 00:43:48,418 --> 00:43:49,627 Suddenly we're off the 10 491 00:43:49,661 --> 00:43:53,527 going I don't know where, it was scary. 492 00:43:53,561 --> 00:43:55,253 It feels safe in Dubuque? 493 00:43:55,287 --> 00:43:59,257 - Hell no, there's just no other choice. It's home. 494 00:43:59,291 --> 00:44:01,466 Well, here you're safe. 495 00:44:02,536 --> 00:44:03,606 Go figure. 496 00:44:05,608 --> 00:44:10,648 Thing is, it's clear to me that this is your space, 497 00:44:10,682 --> 00:44:13,858 and you're better off alone in it. 498 00:44:13,892 --> 00:44:15,653 You might be right. 499 00:44:16,964 --> 00:44:20,623 So, middle America, Dubuque. Why not safe there? 500 00:44:22,004 --> 00:44:25,352 - For a man of few words, you ask a lot of questions. 501 00:44:25,386 --> 00:44:28,113 You must have a story. Everybody does. 502 00:44:28,148 --> 00:44:30,184 Even if you've never left this place. 503 00:44:30,219 --> 00:44:31,289 I've left. 504 00:44:33,049 --> 00:44:36,052 You ever head to El Paso? 505 00:44:36,087 --> 00:44:37,847 I've been known to. 506 00:44:40,194 --> 00:44:41,609 If you can give me a lift, 507 00:44:41,644 --> 00:44:43,922 I can get a ride from a trucker, they're pretty safe. 508 00:44:43,957 --> 00:44:45,890 - I'll be heading to Lordsburg, New Mexico, 509 00:44:45,924 --> 00:44:47,443 before I head out to El Paso. 510 00:44:47,477 --> 00:44:51,758 There's a bus stop there. Be another week. 511 00:44:51,792 --> 00:44:54,070 - Heck, I can just walk to the road tomorrow. 512 00:44:54,105 --> 00:44:56,003 Start hitching. I don't mind. 513 00:44:56,038 --> 00:44:57,280 You in a rush? 514 00:44:57,315 --> 00:44:59,075 I told you, I don't mind you being here. 515 00:44:59,110 --> 00:45:00,939 Not yet, anyway. 516 00:45:00,974 --> 00:45:03,355 Besides, you'll be lucky if you see three cars 517 00:45:03,390 --> 00:45:05,288 going the other way all day, 518 00:45:05,323 --> 00:45:08,188 so why don't you just hang around? 519 00:45:09,016 --> 00:45:09,914 Relax. 520 00:45:12,640 --> 00:45:15,954 - Okay, thanks. I just need a truck stop. 521 00:45:15,989 --> 00:45:19,233 - I ain't leaving you at no truck stop, little lady. 522 00:45:19,268 --> 00:45:22,892 - Little lady? What movie's that from? 523 00:45:22,927 --> 00:45:25,067 It's John Wayne. 524 00:45:25,101 --> 00:45:25,999 Who? 525 00:45:28,173 --> 00:45:30,003 - I think the middle of nowhere, Arizona, 526 00:45:30,037 --> 00:45:32,005 will be good for you. 527 00:45:32,039 --> 00:45:35,422 You can write songs and sing them to me. 528 00:45:36,388 --> 00:45:37,942 I like your voice. 529 00:45:42,567 --> 00:45:45,190 I guess I can do that. 530 00:45:45,225 --> 00:45:48,159 I can even help out on your farm. I don't mind. 531 00:45:48,193 --> 00:45:52,784 - No, I work alone. Besides, you still need to recover. 532 00:45:53,992 --> 00:45:56,270 I'm gonna get supper ready. 533 00:45:57,996 --> 00:46:00,723 Thanks for the horseback ride. 534 00:46:02,276 --> 00:46:04,037 I'll never forget it. 535 00:46:09,697 --> 00:46:14,702 [somber music] [Logan groaning] 536 00:46:21,226 --> 00:46:23,953 [Logan yelping] 537 00:46:31,927 --> 00:46:34,653 [Logan gasping] 538 00:46:36,310 --> 00:46:38,761 [Logan grunting] 539 00:46:38,796 --> 00:46:41,937 [explosions booming] 540 00:46:44,663 --> 00:46:47,218 [Logan gasps] 541 00:46:56,434 --> 00:46:59,886 [somber music continues] 542 00:47:09,447 --> 00:47:12,864 [somber music continues] 543 00:47:20,320 --> 00:47:23,116 [herbs grinding] 544 00:47:32,401 --> 00:47:35,887 [somber music continues] 545 00:47:41,030 --> 00:47:42,169 Good morning. 546 00:47:43,550 --> 00:47:46,346 - You're up early. How'd you sleep? 547 00:47:46,380 --> 00:47:48,589 Fine. How about you? 548 00:47:48,624 --> 00:47:49,521 I'm off. 549 00:47:51,696 --> 00:47:52,904 Get some rest. 550 00:47:53,940 --> 00:47:55,665 Is there a choice? 551 00:47:56,874 --> 00:47:57,771 You okay? 552 00:48:01,740 --> 00:48:02,638 Always. 553 00:48:05,675 --> 00:48:09,231 [melancholy guitar music] 554 00:48:17,618 --> 00:48:21,001 [paper rustling] 555 00:48:21,036 --> 00:48:26,075 [melancholy guitar music] [Star singing indistinctly] 556 00:48:35,464 --> 00:48:39,226 [melancholy music continues] 557 00:48:48,442 --> 00:48:52,205 [melancholy music continues] 558 00:48:54,655 --> 00:48:56,692 [melancholy jazz music] 559 00:48:56,726 --> 00:49:01,766 ♪ After you've gone and left me crying ♪ 560 00:49:02,974 --> 00:49:07,392 ♪ After you've gone, there's no denying ♪ 561 00:49:08,531 --> 00:49:09,463 ♪ You'll feel blue, you'll feel sad ♪ 562 00:49:09,498 --> 00:49:11,189 - What the hell? - I was just- 563 00:49:11,224 --> 00:49:14,296 - I know who it is! I told you to leave the records alone. 564 00:49:14,330 --> 00:49:15,504 - I'm sorry, I guess I just- 565 00:49:15,538 --> 00:49:17,678 - I'm going to Lordsburg tomorrow. Be ready. 566 00:49:17,713 --> 00:49:19,025 I know, you told me. 567 00:49:19,059 --> 00:49:22,200 I'm sorry, I was just dusting, and... 568 00:49:29,794 --> 00:49:31,278 [melancholy jazz music] 569 00:49:31,313 --> 00:49:34,868 ♪ The evening sun go down ♪ 570 00:49:42,393 --> 00:49:46,052 ♪ I hate to see ♪ 571 00:49:46,086 --> 00:49:49,641 ♪ The evening sun go down ♪ 572 00:49:56,165 --> 00:50:00,790 ♪ It makes me think ♪ 573 00:50:00,825 --> 00:50:04,139 ♪ On my last go 'round ♪ 574 00:50:11,491 --> 00:50:15,805 ♪ Feeling tomorrow ♪ 575 00:50:15,840 --> 00:50:18,912 ♪ Like I feel today ♪ 576 00:50:26,782 --> 00:50:30,751 ♪ Feeling tomorrow like I feel ♪ 577 00:50:32,822 --> 00:50:35,653 [static hissing] 578 00:50:43,281 --> 00:50:45,732 Hey, sorry about yesterday. 579 00:50:46,802 --> 00:50:49,287 - Yeah, well, I don't know who you are 580 00:50:49,322 --> 00:50:50,461 or what floats your boat, 581 00:50:50,495 --> 00:50:53,843 but I'll try to remember the good things. 582 00:50:56,156 --> 00:50:58,986 - I thought we'd have breakfast at the Crossroads. 583 00:50:59,021 --> 00:51:01,265 - I'll pull off the sheets and start a load. 584 00:51:01,299 --> 00:51:04,233 - I'll do that after you're gone. 585 00:51:04,268 --> 00:51:06,787 After you're gone. That's a good name for a song. 586 00:51:06,822 --> 00:51:08,962 You can dedicate it to me. 587 00:51:08,996 --> 00:51:10,895 Already been written. 588 00:51:14,519 --> 00:51:15,969 I'm almost ready. 589 00:51:17,419 --> 00:51:19,110 It's hard leaving... 590 00:51:20,491 --> 00:51:22,113 Nala. 591 00:51:22,148 --> 00:51:23,563 Nala. 592 00:51:23,597 --> 00:51:24,667 Yep, Nala. 593 00:51:33,435 --> 00:51:35,747 [no audio] 594 00:51:38,198 --> 00:51:41,132 [melancholy music] 595 00:51:50,486 --> 00:51:54,697 [melancholy music continues] 596 00:51:54,732 --> 00:51:57,700 [perfume spritzing] 597 00:52:07,607 --> 00:52:11,266 [melancholy music continues] 598 00:52:20,413 --> 00:52:24,175 [melancholy music continues] 599 00:52:33,426 --> 00:52:37,223 [melancholy music continues] 600 00:52:43,953 --> 00:52:45,507 Wait right here. 601 00:52:53,308 --> 00:52:54,792 No fucking way! 602 00:52:57,243 --> 00:52:59,245 I guess I can't hate you after all. 603 00:52:59,279 --> 00:53:02,144 - Damn. - [indistinct] the Mud Hens? 604 00:53:02,179 --> 00:53:04,526 Yeah, my mom's from Toledo. 605 00:53:06,044 --> 00:53:07,563 Wow. So was mine. 606 00:53:13,259 --> 00:53:15,744 You going to wear it? [melancholy music] 607 00:53:15,778 --> 00:53:17,194 Sure, why not? 608 00:53:18,471 --> 00:53:19,782 Just one sec. 609 00:53:29,447 --> 00:53:33,244 [melancholy music continues] 610 00:53:41,942 --> 00:53:44,669 [door clunking] 611 00:53:48,397 --> 00:53:50,917 [door thuds] 612 00:53:50,951 --> 00:53:51,952 Bye, Gilda. 613 00:53:53,091 --> 00:53:56,854 Nala, you're the best dog. The very best. 614 00:53:56,888 --> 00:53:57,958 Shake. Down. 615 00:53:59,305 --> 00:54:00,202 Aw. 616 00:54:01,099 --> 00:54:01,997 Bye bye! 617 00:54:10,212 --> 00:54:12,697 [door thuds] 618 00:54:12,732 --> 00:54:14,354 You smell like my mother. 619 00:54:14,389 --> 00:54:16,114 I couldn't resist. 620 00:54:19,428 --> 00:54:23,743 I appreciate what you've done for me, by the way. 621 00:54:23,777 --> 00:54:24,951 You saved me. 622 00:54:26,642 --> 00:54:31,198 - You may not know it, but it's been a two way street. 623 00:54:32,269 --> 00:54:35,306 I'm sorry about yesterday, I just... 624 00:54:42,417 --> 00:54:43,383 Never mind. 625 00:54:52,427 --> 00:54:56,258 [melancholy music continues] 626 00:54:57,742 --> 00:55:01,090 - I don't really know anything about you. 627 00:55:01,125 --> 00:55:02,678 You know a lot about me. 628 00:55:02,713 --> 00:55:06,268 - I don't, actually, know a lot about you. 629 00:55:07,476 --> 00:55:11,100 You never told me why Dubuque isn't safe. 630 00:55:11,135 --> 00:55:14,932 - Right. Guess I'll save that for another day. 631 00:55:19,316 --> 00:55:23,492 - You don't know a lot about me, more than anyone. 632 00:55:23,527 --> 00:55:25,632 Secret stash of beans. 633 00:55:25,667 --> 00:55:27,254 Wrong. 634 00:55:27,289 --> 00:55:29,774 I don't even know what you grow on your farm. 635 00:55:29,809 --> 00:55:31,431 - I guess I forgot to mention it. 636 00:55:31,466 --> 00:55:33,606 Hemp. I grow hemp. 637 00:55:33,640 --> 00:55:34,503 Really? 638 00:55:44,479 --> 00:55:47,344 How do you know about Chinese herbs? 639 00:55:47,378 --> 00:55:49,932 - Just something I was interested in. 640 00:55:49,967 --> 00:55:52,521 It's been practiced way longer than Western medicine, 641 00:55:52,556 --> 00:55:55,766 so I figured they knew a thing or two. 642 00:56:04,464 --> 00:56:07,225 You have the Quran. Why? 643 00:56:07,260 --> 00:56:08,503 I wanted to know more 644 00:56:08,537 --> 00:56:11,368 about the people I was hired to kill. 645 00:56:15,406 --> 00:56:17,788 - Have you read it? - I have. 646 00:56:18,961 --> 00:56:20,963 Your thoughts? 647 00:56:20,998 --> 00:56:22,240 It's like the Bible, 648 00:56:22,275 --> 00:56:24,622 aimed at keeping the population in line, 649 00:56:24,657 --> 00:56:29,213 full of myths and metaphors, some history, allegories. 650 00:56:30,490 --> 00:56:32,216 You were deployed. 651 00:56:33,873 --> 00:56:35,978 Afghanistan, two tours. 652 00:56:40,914 --> 00:56:43,261 - [Star] I forgot to ask what your mom thought 653 00:56:43,296 --> 00:56:44,539 about you signing up. 654 00:56:44,573 --> 00:56:47,058 - [Logan] We got in our first fights over it. 655 00:56:47,093 --> 00:56:49,509 I'd never seen her that angry. 656 00:56:49,544 --> 00:56:52,063 - [Star] Probably afraid you wouldn't come home. 657 00:56:52,098 --> 00:56:53,858 [Logan] It was more than that. 658 00:56:53,893 --> 00:56:56,896 When I got back, she didn't like who I was. 659 00:56:56,930 --> 00:57:01,003 Her son the cowboy was an angry asshole. 660 00:57:01,038 --> 00:57:02,108 It aged her. 661 00:57:08,597 --> 00:57:11,082 [door thuds] 662 00:57:15,604 --> 00:57:18,883 [door clunking] 663 00:57:18,918 --> 00:57:22,508 - Seems like a millennium since I was here. 664 00:57:24,371 --> 00:57:27,340 - Strange, I've been coming here all my life, 665 00:57:27,374 --> 00:57:29,722 and it's never been closed. 666 00:57:29,756 --> 00:57:31,758 I hope nothing happened to Harry. 667 00:57:31,793 --> 00:57:34,071 His dad started this place. 668 00:57:35,728 --> 00:57:39,594 Well, I guess I'll just take you to El Charro, 669 00:57:41,078 --> 00:57:44,046 it's old hangout for railroad guys. 670 00:57:46,877 --> 00:57:49,500 Why do you use Chinese herbs? 671 00:57:51,813 --> 00:57:55,230 - They seem to keep my nightmares to a minimum. 672 00:57:55,264 --> 00:57:56,473 Afghanistan? 673 00:57:59,268 --> 00:58:02,479 Sorry, Logan. We can change the subject. 674 00:58:02,513 --> 00:58:06,966 - No, you know I don't want to change the subject. 675 00:58:07,000 --> 00:58:09,900 These days, it's hard to be a proud American. 676 00:58:09,934 --> 00:58:12,730 We've created so much chaos, pain. 677 00:58:14,525 --> 00:58:16,389 I contributed to it. 678 00:58:16,423 --> 00:58:17,839 God, Logan. 679 00:58:17,873 --> 00:58:22,153 - When I got back, I was angry, short-tempered. 680 00:58:22,188 --> 00:58:23,569 When I went to sleep, 681 00:58:23,603 --> 00:58:26,744 I'd have the same nightmares over and over. 682 00:58:26,779 --> 00:58:29,402 I was guilty when I was happy, 683 00:58:29,436 --> 00:58:31,922 so I just avoided being happy. 684 00:58:31,956 --> 00:58:35,235 I especially avoided the goddamn news. 685 00:58:35,270 --> 00:58:36,167 No, I'm good. 686 00:58:36,202 --> 00:58:38,342 I'm good with Nala, my girls, 687 00:58:38,376 --> 00:58:41,103 my books, my garden, beans, hemp. 688 00:58:44,106 --> 00:58:45,280 Hemp? 689 00:58:45,314 --> 00:58:47,247 - It's a miracle plant, you know. 690 00:58:47,282 --> 00:58:50,388 - I don't know much about it, except it was illegal. 691 00:58:50,423 --> 00:58:52,114 Can you smoke it? 692 00:58:52,149 --> 00:58:55,221 - You can wear it, you can eat it. 693 00:58:55,255 --> 00:58:56,774 It takes less water than cotton. 694 00:58:56,809 --> 00:59:01,814 In fact, cotton farmers benefited hugely when it was banned. 695 00:59:06,232 --> 00:59:11,237 So how was it for you, being out of touch for three weeks? 696 00:59:11,927 --> 00:59:12,997 It didn't kill me. 697 00:59:13,929 --> 00:59:16,138 Your aunt's in Dubuque? 698 00:59:16,173 --> 00:59:17,243 I hope so. 699 00:59:18,071 --> 00:59:20,142 What about your folks? 700 00:59:21,488 --> 00:59:24,043 I should keep my mouth shut. 701 00:59:30,705 --> 00:59:33,431 [door clunking] 702 00:59:35,641 --> 00:59:39,196 I told you, until I slept in your mom's bed, 703 00:59:39,230 --> 00:59:42,648 I'd forgotten what safe felt like. 704 00:59:42,682 --> 00:59:46,306 - There are other places, you know. 705 00:59:46,341 --> 00:59:48,481 Actually, I don't know. 706 00:59:55,108 --> 00:59:57,386 What are those mountains over there? 707 00:59:57,421 --> 00:59:58,974 The Chiricahuas. 708 00:59:59,872 --> 01:00:01,598 Chiricahuas? Nice. 709 01:00:04,186 --> 01:00:07,707 - Feels like a major holiday. Zip traffic. 710 01:00:09,433 --> 01:00:12,436 - Tell me about this Carl Jung guy. 711 01:00:14,714 --> 01:00:17,855 - It's pronounced Jung. You been looking at my books? 712 01:00:17,890 --> 01:00:21,721 - Right, yeah. You have a weird bunch of books. 713 01:00:21,756 --> 01:00:24,724 I mean, "Uncle Tom's Cabin"? 714 01:00:24,759 --> 01:00:28,866 - I wish we'd have talked about my books before. 715 01:00:28,901 --> 01:00:33,630 I'm serious about becoming more self aware, if possible. 716 01:00:34,458 --> 01:00:35,355 Why? 717 01:00:36,460 --> 01:00:39,670 - Just don't get along well with people. 718 01:00:45,020 --> 01:00:47,989 Should get you to Lordsburg. 719 01:00:48,023 --> 01:00:48,886 Probably. 720 01:00:51,509 --> 01:00:53,960 [door thuds] 721 01:00:55,617 --> 01:00:59,241 What's happening? It looks like a ghost town. 722 01:00:59,276 --> 01:01:03,625 - I don't have a clue. [somber music] 723 01:01:09,596 --> 01:01:11,081 Get down. Get down! 724 01:01:11,115 --> 01:01:12,358 - Logan, what are you doing? - Something's not right. 725 01:01:12,392 --> 01:01:13,946 You see the guy with the mask over there? 726 01:01:13,980 --> 01:01:15,464 No. Are you sure? 727 01:01:15,499 --> 01:01:17,535 Let's just get the fuck out of here. I'm serious, please. 728 01:01:17,570 --> 01:01:18,778 - Get down. - Logan! 729 01:01:18,813 --> 01:01:20,607 - Back up. Back up, show me your face! 730 01:01:20,642 --> 01:01:22,195 Take off the mask! Take off the mask! 731 01:01:22,230 --> 01:01:24,681 We can't because of the virus. 732 01:01:24,715 --> 01:01:25,612 Virus? 733 01:01:27,269 --> 01:01:30,548 What are you talking about? What virus? 734 01:01:34,691 --> 01:01:36,416 Polka dots, huh? 735 01:01:36,451 --> 01:01:38,177 My wife made this! 736 01:01:39,281 --> 01:01:40,144 When did all this happen? 737 01:01:41,525 --> 01:01:43,423 Are y'all from Toledo? 738 01:01:50,465 --> 01:01:51,362 Missing your beans? 739 01:01:52,294 --> 01:01:55,539 [somber music continues] 740 01:01:55,573 --> 01:02:00,509 - God, I never thought a cheeseburger could taste this good. 741 01:02:01,718 --> 01:02:04,582 - What's it called again? COVID-18? 742 01:02:04,617 --> 01:02:06,412 19, the coronavirus. 743 01:02:08,483 --> 01:02:10,968 Such a pretty name for something so evil. 744 01:02:11,003 --> 01:02:12,418 I'd heard about it, 745 01:02:12,452 --> 01:02:16,353 but it was in, like, China or somewhere, not here. 746 01:02:16,387 --> 01:02:19,321 - That restaurant I was going to take you to, El Charro, 747 01:02:19,356 --> 01:02:20,737 closed down three years ago. 748 01:02:20,771 --> 01:02:23,498 It's a cabinet shop now. 749 01:02:23,532 --> 01:02:25,017 - Guess you can't blame the virus. 750 01:02:25,051 --> 01:02:29,676 - Nope, but you can blame it on buses canceled to Dubuque. 751 01:02:31,886 --> 01:02:34,095 - I tried getting out of your hair. 752 01:02:34,129 --> 01:02:36,338 But God had other plans. 753 01:02:38,237 --> 01:02:42,862 - How funny, that guy Peter's from Toledo? Small world. 754 01:02:42,897 --> 01:02:45,831 - He thought that we were a couple. 755 01:02:51,491 --> 01:02:54,632 - So, there was a gun under the seat. 756 01:02:58,119 --> 01:02:59,396 Just in case. 757 01:03:06,058 --> 01:03:07,266 Just in case. 758 01:03:13,237 --> 01:03:14,652 My name is Jane. 759 01:03:18,553 --> 01:03:21,418 - What do you want me to call you? 760 01:03:23,420 --> 01:03:25,422 You can call me Star. 761 01:03:31,014 --> 01:03:33,810 [paper rustling] 762 01:03:40,195 --> 01:03:42,922 [door clunking] 763 01:03:44,579 --> 01:03:47,064 [door thuds] 764 01:03:56,453 --> 01:04:00,250 [melancholy music continues] 765 01:04:03,115 --> 01:04:05,600 [door thuds] 766 01:04:08,603 --> 01:04:11,295 [birds chirping] 767 01:04:18,993 --> 01:04:20,857 Should last a while. 768 01:04:23,894 --> 01:04:27,691 - All those people dead in less than a month. 769 01:04:27,725 --> 01:04:29,796 - You suppose that was your situation? 770 01:04:29,831 --> 01:04:30,728 Maybe. 771 01:04:32,765 --> 01:04:36,148 Well, I survived. Guess I'll never know. 772 01:04:38,322 --> 01:04:40,393 Your Chinese herbs did their magic. 773 01:04:40,428 --> 01:04:41,878 Maybe we should spread the word. 774 01:04:41,912 --> 01:04:43,741 Nobody would listen. 775 01:04:43,776 --> 01:04:45,743 - At least you're not sick. I feel terrible- 776 01:04:45,778 --> 01:04:47,745 Stop, stop. I'm fine. 777 01:04:49,402 --> 01:04:52,336 Just goes to prove one of my mother's favorite sayings. 778 01:04:52,371 --> 01:04:56,409 You don't think God has a sense of humor, just make plans. 779 01:04:56,444 --> 01:04:59,067 Normally I'd find that funny. 780 01:05:02,036 --> 01:05:03,900 You okay being here? 781 01:05:05,625 --> 01:05:08,352 I know I'm not the best company. 782 01:05:11,838 --> 01:05:15,325 - Compared to the jerks I've been around lately, 783 01:05:15,359 --> 01:05:18,845 you're an improvement, a big improvement. 784 01:05:22,780 --> 01:05:26,129 - Oh, dammit! What was I thinking? 785 01:05:26,163 --> 01:05:27,371 I am so sorry. 786 01:05:28,269 --> 01:05:29,408 About what? 787 01:05:29,442 --> 01:05:31,203 - I was on autopilot at the store, 788 01:05:31,237 --> 01:05:34,068 and I just bought the same things I always do. 789 01:05:34,102 --> 01:05:35,138 I noticed. 790 01:05:37,002 --> 01:05:39,314 - I'll do better next time. You can make the list. 791 01:05:39,349 --> 01:05:40,660 You're brave. 792 01:05:41,903 --> 01:05:44,388 And I forgot to make bread. 793 01:05:45,458 --> 01:05:47,322 We'll make some later. 794 01:05:48,979 --> 01:05:52,086 - So where's this hemp farm of yours? 795 01:05:52,120 --> 01:05:53,742 It's not too far. 796 01:05:55,365 --> 01:05:57,643 Do you really work alone? 797 01:05:58,955 --> 01:05:59,990 Not quite. 798 01:06:02,234 --> 01:06:03,614 Meaning? 799 01:06:03,649 --> 01:06:07,894 - Meaning, best not to ask too many questions. 800 01:06:07,929 --> 01:06:11,968 - Really, Logan? You hire criminals or something? 801 01:06:18,457 --> 01:06:21,080 I'll clean up when you're done. 802 01:06:27,604 --> 01:06:28,501 Thanks. 803 01:06:29,778 --> 01:06:30,848 Smells good. 804 01:06:32,781 --> 01:06:34,300 Look. 805 01:06:34,335 --> 01:06:35,819 You first. 806 01:06:35,853 --> 01:06:38,580 - Ah, look I.. I don't know what this is- 807 01:06:38,615 --> 01:06:43,447 - I was going to say that I really don't mind you being here 808 01:06:43,482 --> 01:06:46,623 I, I think you're Godsent to 809 01:06:46,657 --> 01:06:47,796 force me to 810 01:06:47,831 --> 01:06:49,074 Godsent? 811 01:06:49,108 --> 01:06:50,247 You don't believe in God. 812 01:06:50,282 --> 01:06:51,835 I never said that 813 01:06:51,869 --> 01:06:53,906 I don't believe in religion 814 01:06:54,872 --> 01:06:56,840 Godsent, huh 815 01:06:56,874 --> 01:06:58,945 Here to make you crazy 816 01:07:00,050 --> 01:07:01,707 No, I see myself 817 01:07:03,019 --> 01:07:04,192 different with you 818 01:07:04,227 --> 01:07:07,264 I just realize you can't really know yourself 819 01:07:07,299 --> 01:07:09,128 in a vacuum. 820 01:07:09,163 --> 01:07:11,682 - All those books with all those answers 821 01:07:11,717 --> 01:07:13,132 They're not enough? 822 01:07:17,688 --> 01:07:20,312 You want to ride some horses? 823 01:07:20,346 --> 01:07:21,278 Now? 824 01:07:21,313 --> 01:07:23,039 Yeah, sunset's the best. 825 01:07:24,178 --> 01:07:25,041 Okay. 826 01:07:26,249 --> 01:07:29,424 [wind in trees] 827 01:07:34,395 --> 01:07:37,329 LA is a million years ago. [cheerful music] 828 01:07:37,363 --> 01:07:42,403 I paid my rent waiting tables, writing songs, 829 01:07:43,231 --> 01:07:45,095 waiting for my big break. 830 01:07:45,130 --> 01:07:46,959 I tried coffee shops, too. 831 01:07:46,993 --> 01:07:50,273 If three people showed, it was a crowd. 832 01:07:52,068 --> 01:07:55,140 I can't help thinking about Leah. 833 01:07:55,174 --> 01:07:58,522 She was on the cusp of making it. 834 01:07:58,557 --> 01:08:02,595 She wasn't good at men, though. That's for sure. 835 01:08:05,150 --> 01:08:08,463 - What about you, when it comes to men? 836 01:08:11,397 --> 01:08:13,537 Want to let the girls run a bit? 837 01:08:13,572 --> 01:08:17,023 It's safe, they know where they're going. 838 01:08:26,412 --> 01:08:30,658 [cheerful music continues] 839 01:08:30,692 --> 01:08:33,695 - Well, that beats riding the bus. 840 01:08:33,730 --> 01:08:35,732 That's a low bar. 841 01:08:35,766 --> 01:08:38,493 - So amazing. I wasn't even afraid. 842 01:08:38,528 --> 01:08:43,015 I trusted Gilda. Trust isn't usually my thing. 843 01:08:43,049 --> 01:08:45,604 What about me? You trust me. 844 01:08:46,915 --> 01:08:48,572 Some of the time. 845 01:08:57,271 --> 01:08:58,824 Careful, little lady. 846 01:08:58,858 --> 01:09:00,239 Just be careful. 847 01:09:09,421 --> 01:09:11,664 [no audio] 848 01:09:15,668 --> 01:09:18,326 [somber music] 849 01:09:24,988 --> 01:09:27,818 [doors creaking] 850 01:09:37,449 --> 01:09:40,900 [somber music continues] 851 01:09:50,220 --> 01:09:54,017 - What the fuck? [door slams] 852 01:09:59,816 --> 01:10:02,612 [Logan grunting] 853 01:10:11,517 --> 01:10:14,210 [door creaking] 854 01:10:23,460 --> 01:10:26,946 [somber music continues] 855 01:10:28,569 --> 01:10:31,330 [Logan laughing] 856 01:10:32,400 --> 01:10:35,990 [melancholy guitar music] 857 01:10:36,024 --> 01:10:41,064 ♪ I was walking, you knew my name ♪ 858 01:10:42,790 --> 01:10:47,829 ♪ You were talking to me ♪ 859 01:10:50,729 --> 01:10:54,388 ♪ As the days go by ♪ 860 01:10:54,422 --> 01:10:57,114 ♪ The reason why ♪ 861 01:10:58,530 --> 01:11:02,292 - Really, Logan, I'm sorry. It was an impulse. 862 01:11:02,327 --> 01:11:06,538 - Impulse? Which, slamming the door in my face, or- 863 01:11:07,608 --> 01:11:09,161 The dress. 864 01:11:09,195 --> 01:11:12,440 - That was as shock. So was slamming the door in my face. 865 01:11:12,475 --> 01:11:14,304 That was bad. 866 01:11:14,339 --> 01:11:16,341 You thought I was gone. 867 01:11:16,375 --> 01:11:20,345 - I don't know when I last wore a dress. 868 01:11:20,379 --> 01:11:22,588 I got something for you. 869 01:11:27,869 --> 01:11:29,664 It's for you. 870 01:11:29,699 --> 01:11:33,116 - How nice. You're not going to kill me. 871 01:11:33,150 --> 01:11:37,638 - [laughs] It wouldn't hold up in court. 872 01:11:37,672 --> 01:11:39,433 - What's this? - Hemp. 873 01:11:41,918 --> 01:11:46,060 - It looks harmless enough. It's quite pretty, actually. 874 01:11:46,094 --> 01:11:48,442 Is that a new song? 875 01:11:48,476 --> 01:11:50,306 You want to see it? 876 01:11:52,273 --> 01:11:55,103 [paper rustling] 877 01:12:02,007 --> 01:12:03,319 It does not take you long 878 01:12:03,353 --> 01:12:06,252 to make poetry out of a conversation. 879 01:12:06,287 --> 01:12:09,014 - Now to come up with the melody. 880 01:12:17,505 --> 01:12:19,749 [Logan sighs] 881 01:12:19,783 --> 01:12:21,751 Go work in my garden. 882 01:12:29,483 --> 01:12:33,038 Chinese herbs need to work in combination. 883 01:12:34,211 --> 01:12:36,248 Just don't ask me to pronounce the names. 884 01:12:36,282 --> 01:12:39,562 - How do you know which combinations? 885 01:12:39,596 --> 01:12:42,979 - I got nothing better to do than study. 886 01:12:44,152 --> 01:12:46,569 I'll let you pick some weeds, if you like. 887 01:12:46,603 --> 01:12:48,329 I feel so honored. 888 01:12:51,539 --> 01:12:53,748 Just toss them in there. 889 01:12:55,267 --> 01:12:57,649 No, it wasn't even open. [Star laughing] 890 01:12:57,683 --> 01:13:01,342 You missed that totally. There you go, wow. 891 01:13:08,384 --> 01:13:12,008 [Logan whistling cheerfully] 892 01:13:20,672 --> 01:13:23,329 I haven't whistled since I was a kid. 893 01:13:23,364 --> 01:13:26,781 - Pretty good at it. You can do a little jig. 894 01:13:26,816 --> 01:13:29,819 Ha! I'm not the jig type. 895 01:13:29,853 --> 01:13:32,718 Got some work to do in the corral. 896 01:13:33,892 --> 01:13:37,413 [melancholy guitar music] 897 01:13:44,350 --> 01:13:47,008 Sorry about the limited menu. 898 01:13:47,043 --> 01:13:48,907 It's nutritious. 899 01:13:48,941 --> 01:13:50,426 Once I'm out of here, 900 01:13:50,460 --> 01:13:54,568 I may never eat another bean, gourmet or otherwise. 901 01:13:55,534 --> 01:13:57,260 Since we're on the subject, 902 01:13:57,294 --> 01:14:01,989 tell me something you've learned from one of your books. 903 01:14:03,162 --> 01:14:04,716 You want anything? 904 01:14:04,750 --> 01:14:07,028 You avoiding my question? 905 01:14:12,655 --> 01:14:15,036 We weren't on the subject. 906 01:14:16,037 --> 01:14:18,212 I know, but we are now. 907 01:14:21,249 --> 01:14:22,147 Seriously. 908 01:14:23,804 --> 01:14:26,082 Why does getting to know yourself matter? 909 01:14:26,116 --> 01:14:30,880 I mean, you're a recluse, and from what I can tell, 910 01:14:30,914 --> 01:14:34,780 happy to stay that way, so why all the effort? 911 01:14:34,815 --> 01:14:37,921 - The human condition doesn't interest you? 912 01:14:37,956 --> 01:14:40,821 - I haven't given it much thought. 913 01:14:43,651 --> 01:14:46,689 - I got this book, "The Body Keeps the Score". 914 01:14:46,723 --> 01:14:48,104 It's by this Dutch shrink 915 01:14:48,138 --> 01:14:52,557 who's writing about the effects of trauma on the brain. 916 01:14:52,591 --> 01:14:56,250 He says that the brain is the only organ 917 01:14:56,284 --> 01:14:59,046 that changes because of experience. 918 01:14:59,080 --> 01:15:00,668 Physically? 919 01:15:00,703 --> 01:15:02,152 And at any age. 920 01:15:05,397 --> 01:15:08,434 PTSD, it's a brain disorder. 921 01:15:08,469 --> 01:15:09,884 That's why it's so hard to overcome. 922 01:15:09,919 --> 01:15:12,300 It's more than psychological. 923 01:15:12,335 --> 01:15:15,683 And for kids that have been traumatized, 924 01:15:17,513 --> 01:15:19,411 I won't even go there. 925 01:15:20,516 --> 01:15:23,277 - You don't have that book on your shelf. 926 01:15:23,311 --> 01:15:25,521 It's in my room. 927 01:15:25,555 --> 01:15:27,695 Maybe I should read it. 928 01:15:34,495 --> 01:15:38,913 God, I could sure use some ice cream right about now. 929 01:15:48,440 --> 01:15:51,581 [chirping continues] 930 01:16:01,487 --> 01:16:04,732 [Logan laughing] 931 01:16:04,767 --> 01:16:06,320 Which hand? 932 01:16:06,354 --> 01:16:08,564 - My mom used to do that. - Hurry! 933 01:16:08,598 --> 01:16:09,565 That one! 934 01:16:11,705 --> 01:16:12,982 Are you kidding me? 935 01:16:13,016 --> 01:16:15,812 I was making a joke! Where'd this come from? 936 01:16:15,847 --> 01:16:19,782 - I guess you never opened the freezer. 937 01:16:19,816 --> 01:16:20,921 French vanilla? 938 01:16:20,955 --> 01:16:22,267 It's my mom's favorite. 939 01:16:22,301 --> 01:16:24,614 Been sitting in the freezer for over a year. 940 01:16:24,649 --> 01:16:27,168 - Are you serious? Tastes fine to me. 941 01:16:27,203 --> 01:16:28,445 It's frozen. 942 01:16:29,515 --> 01:16:32,380 - I can't believe this. You don't want any? 943 01:16:32,415 --> 01:16:34,417 I'll save it for you. 944 01:16:38,628 --> 01:16:40,285 Heading to Lordsburg today. 945 01:16:40,319 --> 01:16:43,495 I told you things I'd never told anyone. 946 01:16:43,529 --> 01:16:45,359 I figured I wasn't ever going to see you again, 947 01:16:45,393 --> 01:16:46,843 so what the hell? 948 01:16:48,500 --> 01:16:53,125 I thought it would feel uncomfortable, but I was wrong. 949 01:16:54,299 --> 01:16:57,164 - Are you leading up to something? 950 01:16:58,268 --> 01:16:59,166 My mom. 951 01:17:02,859 --> 01:17:06,311 We had a very close relationship, 952 01:17:06,345 --> 01:17:09,625 but it was not always easy, not for me. 953 01:17:10,522 --> 01:17:11,385 She 954 01:17:13,767 --> 01:17:14,630 was a... 955 01:17:23,190 --> 01:17:27,608 Lady of the night, that's what she called it. 956 01:17:27,643 --> 01:17:30,024 That's how she supported us. 957 01:17:31,439 --> 01:17:32,406 That swing? 958 01:17:35,754 --> 01:17:39,585 When I was a boy, I'd be sent to my room, 959 01:17:39,620 --> 01:17:44,142 but I'd sneak out the window and I'd come watch my mom 960 01:17:45,799 --> 01:17:46,662 with men, 961 01:17:48,008 --> 01:17:49,872 so many different men. 962 01:17:54,393 --> 01:17:56,637 And it squeaked then, too. 963 01:18:02,470 --> 01:18:06,543 I never sat on that swing until you came. 964 01:18:06,578 --> 01:18:08,131 Kind of noticed. 965 01:18:14,413 --> 01:18:16,174 - That restaurant I was going to take you to earlier, 966 01:18:16,208 --> 01:18:17,106 El Charro? 967 01:18:20,834 --> 01:18:24,216 My mother was very popular there. She... 968 01:18:25,321 --> 01:18:28,669 It's where the old railroad men hung out. 969 01:18:30,533 --> 01:18:32,466 She'd eat with them, 970 01:18:32,500 --> 01:18:35,952 and then she'd just bring them back here. 971 01:18:38,921 --> 01:18:41,233 Then she'd drive them back. 972 01:18:44,340 --> 01:18:47,101 Sometimes she'd bring three home. 973 01:18:50,622 --> 01:18:53,280 My father was one of those men. 974 01:18:55,282 --> 01:18:58,043 My mother was 38 when I was born. 975 01:19:00,977 --> 01:19:03,704 She was loving to you, though? 976 01:19:06,776 --> 01:19:08,985 I was her one true love. 977 01:19:16,786 --> 01:19:19,720 She bought me a pony, then she bought me a horse. 978 01:19:19,755 --> 01:19:21,722 She'd take me to rodeos, you know? 979 01:19:21,757 --> 01:19:23,966 It was just the two of us. 980 01:19:25,346 --> 01:19:27,107 - It's not that traumatic for you after all. 981 01:19:27,141 --> 01:19:28,764 No, no, it was... 982 01:19:31,180 --> 01:19:36,116 It was plenty traumatic. I'm not kidding myself about that. 983 01:19:40,637 --> 01:19:45,263 To see my mom with all those men all over her, come on! 984 01:19:54,341 --> 01:19:56,481 Quite the story, Logan. 985 01:19:57,896 --> 01:20:02,867 Here I thought Afghanistan was the source of your PTSD. 986 01:20:03,937 --> 01:20:06,802 - That's just the source of my nightmares. 987 01:20:16,466 --> 01:20:19,676 - [Star] Nice to have a loving parent. 988 01:20:22,472 --> 01:20:25,027 [Logan sighs] 989 01:20:34,933 --> 01:20:37,211 [no audio] 990 01:20:47,152 --> 01:20:48,084 You okay? 991 01:20:52,019 --> 01:20:54,780 - Strange it was the swing that made you feel uncomfortable, 992 01:20:54,815 --> 01:20:56,610 not the other bedroom. 993 01:20:57,956 --> 01:21:01,201 - I never saw what went on in there. 994 01:21:01,235 --> 01:21:05,032 Didn't occur to me till I was older that anything did. 995 01:21:05,067 --> 01:21:10,003 It was all about that swing. [melancholy jazz music] 996 01:21:18,494 --> 01:21:22,670 [melancholy music continues] 997 01:21:22,705 --> 01:21:27,744 ♪ My heart is sad and I'm all alone ♪ 998 01:21:28,607 --> 01:21:33,647 ♪ My man's treating me mean ♪ 999 01:21:34,820 --> 01:21:38,790 ♪ I regret the day that I was born ♪ 1000 01:21:39,618 --> 01:21:44,520 ♪ And the man I ever seen ♪ 1001 01:21:45,383 --> 01:21:49,974 ♪ My happiness is less today ♪ 1002 01:21:51,182 --> 01:21:52,079 ♪ My heart is broke, that's why I say ♪ 1003 01:21:52,114 --> 01:21:53,667 That was a pleasant surprise. 1004 01:21:53,701 --> 01:21:55,703 - Little lady, you outdid yourself. 1005 01:21:55,738 --> 01:21:58,741 Bessie would agree, that was quite the performance. 1006 01:21:58,775 --> 01:22:01,468 You consider me your biggest fan. 1007 01:22:04,264 --> 01:22:07,370 - That did me in. Guess I'm not 100% yet. 1008 01:22:07,405 --> 01:22:11,754 - As far as I'm concerned, you're 200%. 1009 01:22:11,788 --> 01:22:15,137 I was a total jerk the other day. I'm sorry. 1010 01:22:15,171 --> 01:22:17,967 - It's okay. - It's not okay. 1011 01:22:18,002 --> 01:22:20,487 Just went to autopilot again. 1012 01:22:22,006 --> 01:22:26,182 Mother used to entertain her gentlemen friends with Bessie. 1013 01:22:26,217 --> 01:22:28,426 And you keep the albums? 1014 01:22:29,841 --> 01:22:30,911 Of course. 1015 01:22:33,258 --> 01:22:36,641 - I don't even know your name, but, 1016 01:22:36,675 --> 01:22:39,126 I think I'll call you Trixie. 1017 01:22:43,372 --> 01:22:45,305 I'm not sure how I feel about you, 1018 01:22:45,339 --> 01:22:49,033 but I think you live life on your own terms. 1019 01:22:51,587 --> 01:22:53,382 Is that a good thing? 1020 01:22:56,626 --> 01:22:58,594 What's your plan for today? 1021 01:22:58,628 --> 01:23:01,666 - I think I'll teach myself Swahili. 1022 01:23:03,288 --> 01:23:05,187 Swahili? Are you serious? 1023 01:23:05,221 --> 01:23:06,774 Ha! Of course not. 1024 01:23:06,809 --> 01:23:09,915 - You think you're funny. - I am funny. 1025 01:23:18,683 --> 01:23:20,892 - So why don't we check what's going on with the virus? 1026 01:23:20,926 --> 01:23:24,620 Like, when can we start living a normal life again? 1027 01:23:24,654 --> 01:23:28,900 - You really want to go back to your normal life? 1028 01:23:28,934 --> 01:23:30,833 This is normal for me. 1029 01:23:35,493 --> 01:23:39,773 - I'm not suffering, but I can't stay here forever. 1030 01:23:45,848 --> 01:23:48,402 Well, you might consider it. 1031 01:23:50,404 --> 01:23:53,373 - Don't. Don't even think about it. 1032 01:23:55,478 --> 01:23:58,033 [Logan sighs] 1033 01:24:07,490 --> 01:24:10,597 [chirping continues] 1034 01:24:16,534 --> 01:24:17,431 Here. 1035 01:24:21,159 --> 01:24:23,886 I think I pulled a Logan. Sorry. 1036 01:24:30,789 --> 01:24:35,587 Been talking to your mother. She's worried about you. 1037 01:24:35,622 --> 01:24:37,693 - Yeah? You're talking to my mother? 1038 01:24:37,727 --> 01:24:40,454 I see. What's she worried about? 1039 01:24:42,387 --> 01:24:47,151 - I'm not sure yet, but I don't even know her name. 1040 01:24:47,185 --> 01:24:49,498 You psychic or something? 1041 01:24:53,226 --> 01:24:55,780 Well, her name's Dixie. 1042 01:24:55,814 --> 01:24:58,610 I thought she said Trixie. 1043 01:24:58,645 --> 01:25:02,062 - You're freaking me out. - Good. 1044 01:25:02,097 --> 01:25:05,721 - Today it's your turn. - For what? 1045 01:25:05,755 --> 01:25:08,275 - [Logan] Tell me things about you, you keep avoiding. 1046 01:25:08,310 --> 01:25:10,381 Don't you have a farm to farm? 1047 01:25:10,415 --> 01:25:12,141 I took the day off. 1048 01:25:14,178 --> 01:25:16,559 Or maybe you'd love to learn 1049 01:25:18,699 --> 01:25:22,186 how to saddle a horse right about now. 1050 01:25:22,220 --> 01:25:23,670 That's my vote. 1051 01:25:25,258 --> 01:25:27,398 [Star grunts] 1052 01:25:27,432 --> 01:25:32,196 I don't think I could swing this up and over like you do. 1053 01:25:37,580 --> 01:25:39,030 [melancholy music] 1054 01:25:39,064 --> 01:25:42,999 - Next the cinch. Not too loose, not too tight. 1055 01:25:43,034 --> 01:25:45,692 Before you get on, you want to double check it. 1056 01:25:45,726 --> 01:25:49,558 Gilda likes to blow up her belly when you first cinch her. 1057 01:25:49,592 --> 01:25:53,286 After she relaxes, it gets double tightened. 1058 01:26:02,502 --> 01:26:06,264 [melancholy music continues] 1059 01:26:14,445 --> 01:26:17,724 [melancholy music continues] 1060 01:26:17,758 --> 01:26:20,692 - Logan, I should have told you before, 1061 01:26:20,727 --> 01:26:22,798 but my body's off limits 1062 01:26:24,317 --> 01:26:25,697 to men, all men. 1063 01:26:27,872 --> 01:26:30,599 My father, 180 from your mother. 1064 01:26:33,118 --> 01:26:35,914 Jeffrey Epstein of Dubuque. 1065 01:26:35,949 --> 01:26:37,088 Who's that? 1066 01:26:38,227 --> 01:26:39,124 Bad guy. 1067 01:26:41,126 --> 01:26:45,061 - So where do you see yourself in the future? 1068 01:26:45,096 --> 01:26:46,925 Single? With a woman? 1069 01:26:48,582 --> 01:26:52,552 - Not a woman. I don't travel down that lane. 1070 01:26:52,586 --> 01:26:55,624 Makes things a lot simpler, I guess. 1071 01:26:56,728 --> 01:26:59,766 I don't have a clue about my future. 1072 01:27:01,354 --> 01:27:04,080 - It's not much, but I thought I had all I needed 1073 01:27:04,115 --> 01:27:06,186 until you waved me down. 1074 01:27:08,015 --> 01:27:11,226 - Funny, I don't remember it that way. 1075 01:27:17,093 --> 01:27:21,339 I think I'd like a kid, though, someday. Maybe two. 1076 01:27:22,513 --> 01:27:25,067 I hated being an only child. 1077 01:27:25,101 --> 01:27:26,241 I loved it. 1078 01:27:29,313 --> 01:27:33,040 You still haven't told me about your future. 1079 01:27:37,459 --> 01:27:39,840 What kind of tree is this? 1080 01:27:41,014 --> 01:27:41,980 Tamarisk. 1081 01:27:44,224 --> 01:27:48,401 - It's beautiful. We don't get them in Dubuque. 1082 01:27:48,435 --> 01:27:52,163 - Reason enough to consider my almost offer. 1083 01:27:59,204 --> 01:28:02,587 [cheerful guitar music] 1084 01:28:06,764 --> 01:28:11,320 ♪ Leah was a girl I wanted ♪ 1085 01:28:11,355 --> 01:28:16,325 ♪ She was strong while I was kind ♪ 1086 01:28:18,707 --> 01:28:21,537 ♪ We played on the same old team ♪ 1087 01:28:21,572 --> 01:28:26,301 ♪ And we chased the same old dreams ♪ 1088 01:28:26,335 --> 01:28:28,648 I'm working on Leah's song. 1089 01:28:30,615 --> 01:28:34,274 That's what it's called, Leah's Song. 1090 01:28:34,309 --> 01:28:36,034 Did I inspire you? 1091 01:28:37,588 --> 01:28:38,451 You did. 1092 01:28:44,974 --> 01:28:47,425 - When you talked about your future, 1093 01:28:47,460 --> 01:28:49,738 you didn't mention the word music. 1094 01:28:49,772 --> 01:28:52,361 You're not giving up, are you? 1095 01:28:52,396 --> 01:28:56,158 - God, no. Even if I have to wait tables forever. 1096 01:28:56,192 --> 01:28:58,540 I'll always write and sing. 1097 01:28:58,574 --> 01:28:59,713 I just thought you wanted to know- 1098 01:28:59,748 --> 01:29:01,094 Right, right. 1099 01:29:02,337 --> 01:29:05,340 I just think with those songs and your voice, 1100 01:29:05,374 --> 01:29:07,652 it's just a matter of time. 1101 01:29:08,584 --> 01:29:10,862 - You think? - I know. 1102 01:29:10,897 --> 01:29:12,899 I won't let you give up. 1103 01:29:15,246 --> 01:29:20,216 - You won't let me give up, here, in the middle of nowhere? 1104 01:29:21,425 --> 01:29:24,635 Nowhere, closest town, population 101? 1105 01:29:27,948 --> 01:29:29,536 Thanks for the compliment, 1106 01:29:29,571 --> 01:29:33,195 but the other bedroom's calling me. 1107 01:29:33,229 --> 01:29:35,370 You really talk to my mom? 1108 01:29:35,404 --> 01:29:38,442 - I do. In fact, she's expecting me. 1109 01:29:40,478 --> 01:29:42,100 Please just stay. 1110 01:29:44,379 --> 01:29:48,624 Please just stay, just a little while longer. 1111 01:29:48,659 --> 01:29:49,556 Please. 1112 01:29:59,394 --> 01:30:02,500 [chirping continues] 1113 01:30:11,785 --> 01:30:13,753 Now would be a good time- 1114 01:30:13,787 --> 01:30:14,685 To what? 1115 01:30:16,411 --> 01:30:18,689 To tell me about Dubuque. 1116 01:30:20,415 --> 01:30:22,796 You don't give up, do you? 1117 01:30:28,595 --> 01:30:30,804 I ran away five years ago. 1118 01:30:32,392 --> 01:30:34,014 Yes, to get famous, 1119 01:30:35,360 --> 01:30:37,086 but mostly to escape 1120 01:30:41,159 --> 01:30:42,782 my father raping me 1121 01:30:45,543 --> 01:30:49,098 while telling me we were doing God's work. 1122 01:30:50,686 --> 01:30:52,826 He was a pastor, like I said. 1123 01:30:52,861 --> 01:30:54,000 Jesus, Star. 1124 01:30:55,657 --> 01:30:58,004 Did your mother know? 1125 01:30:58,038 --> 01:31:01,214 - I don't know, she left when I was 11. 1126 01:31:02,767 --> 01:31:04,700 Did you hear from her? 1127 01:31:07,807 --> 01:31:08,601 Never. 1128 01:31:14,883 --> 01:31:16,643 Was she a good mom? 1129 01:31:26,239 --> 01:31:28,068 When she was sober. 1130 01:31:33,280 --> 01:31:36,076 - How old were you when it began? 1131 01:31:38,251 --> 01:31:39,148 10. 1132 01:31:43,670 --> 01:31:44,878 It gets worse. 1133 01:31:49,504 --> 01:31:53,231 He assured me that we were doing God's will, 1134 01:31:55,682 --> 01:31:57,304 and I believed him. 1135 01:31:57,339 --> 01:31:59,237 He was a pastor, right? 1136 01:32:00,515 --> 01:32:03,518 So as awful and as painful as it was, 1137 01:32:04,864 --> 01:32:08,350 I was proud, maybe even a little smug, 1138 01:32:08,384 --> 01:32:11,905 that at my age, I was fulfilling God's will! 1139 01:32:13,838 --> 01:32:15,012 I'll be gone sooner rather than later. 1140 01:32:15,046 --> 01:32:16,945 I'd want me gone, too. 1141 01:32:18,153 --> 01:32:19,223 It's okay. 1142 01:32:21,743 --> 01:32:23,779 I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. 1143 01:32:27,438 --> 01:32:30,579 - I've never told anyone this before. 1144 01:32:34,065 --> 01:32:37,586 [melancholy guitar music] 1145 01:32:44,559 --> 01:32:49,564 ♪ I've been knocked down my whole life ♪ 1146 01:32:50,772 --> 01:32:54,741 ♪ Windows closed, doors shut tight ♪ 1147 01:32:54,776 --> 01:32:57,882 ♪ But you shone out from the crack, ♪ 1148 01:32:57,917 --> 01:33:02,956 ♪ Now you're calling to come out♪ 1149 01:33:05,683 --> 01:33:10,619 ♪ You're my best friend in disguise ♪ 1150 01:33:11,793 --> 01:33:16,349 ♪ My soulmate from another time ♪ 1151 01:33:17,212 --> 01:33:18,903 ♪ 'Cause I was running away ♪ 1152 01:33:18,938 --> 01:33:21,906 ♪ Now I'm here to stay ♪ 1153 01:33:21,941 --> 01:33:26,980 ♪ You picked me up in your pickup truck ♪ 1154 01:33:28,119 --> 01:33:32,089 ♪ There's nothing for us to say ♪ 1155 01:33:32,814 --> 01:33:35,368 ♪ We were running away ♪ 1156 01:33:44,204 --> 01:33:47,173 [melancholy music] 1157 01:33:48,830 --> 01:33:52,212 ♪ As the days go by ♪ 1158 01:33:52,247 --> 01:33:55,319 ♪ The reason why ♪ 1159 01:33:55,353 --> 01:34:00,427 ♪ I fall for you ♪ 1160 01:34:01,739 --> 01:34:06,779 ♪ I see you, I see only you ♪ 1161 01:34:08,125 --> 01:34:13,095 ♪ As I'm walking around the room ♪ 1162 01:34:14,614 --> 01:34:17,859 ♪ So much is clear in my eyes ♪ 1163 01:34:17,893 --> 01:34:21,276 ♪ You're the one that brightens up the night ♪ 1164 01:34:21,310 --> 01:34:26,384 ♪ You bring me to life ♪ 1165 01:34:28,041 --> 01:34:33,081 ♪ I knew you now and then ♪ 1166 01:34:34,254 --> 01:34:38,707 ♪ You keep me warm until the end ♪ 1167 01:34:39,881 --> 01:34:44,886 ♪ Oh, I loved you from the very first moment ♪ 1168 01:34:46,508 --> 01:34:49,097 ♪ You made me laugh ♪ 1169 01:34:49,131 --> 01:34:54,171 ♪ Now and then ♪ 1170 01:34:56,829 --> 01:35:01,868 ♪ I see you, I see only you ♪ 1171 01:35:03,076 --> 01:35:08,116 ♪ As I'm walking around the room ♪ 1172 01:35:09,565 --> 01:35:12,914 ♪ So much is clear in my eyes ♪ 1173 01:35:12,948 --> 01:35:16,400 ♪ You're the one that brightens up the night ♪ 1174 01:35:16,434 --> 01:35:21,508 ♪ You bring me to life ♪ 1175 01:35:22,786 --> 01:35:27,825 ♪ I see you, I see only you ♪ 1176 01:35:28,999 --> 01:35:33,900 ♪ As I'm walking around the room ♪ 1177 01:35:35,660 --> 01:35:39,043 ♪ So much is clear in my eyes ♪ 1178 01:35:39,078 --> 01:35:42,460 ♪ You're the one that brightens up the night ♪ 1179 01:35:42,495 --> 01:35:45,809 ♪ You bring me to life ♪