1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:19,404 --> 00:00:23,670 You know, Aiden, I appreciate that you gave me a chance 4 00:00:23,670 --> 00:00:28,670 and I appreciate that you saw the good in me 5 00:00:29,040 --> 00:00:32,580 and you never underestimated me. 6 00:00:32,580 --> 00:00:35,043 Because many people, they saw only the bad. 7 00:00:36,150 --> 00:00:40,470 And I'm really grateful for that chance 8 00:00:40,470 --> 00:00:42,397 to spend the rest of my life with you. 9 00:00:47,543 --> 00:00:48,813 But you know. 10 00:00:53,130 --> 00:00:54,830 You'll never disappoint me, right? 11 00:00:59,214 --> 00:01:01,797 If you ever do something like that, 12 00:01:03,120 --> 00:01:05,943 my mood can change quickly. 13 00:01:11,940 --> 00:01:17,137 You don't wanna see me like that. 14 00:02:00,318 --> 00:02:02,276 You're a good little girl. 15 00:02:02,276 --> 00:02:05,943 Yeah. You're a good little girl, aren't you? 16 00:02:07,490 --> 00:02:10,042 You are, you're beautiful, aren't you? 17 00:02:10,042 --> 00:02:12,420 You're okay with the dogs, I'm glad to see. 18 00:02:12,420 --> 00:02:13,686 They'll be running in and out 19 00:02:13,686 --> 00:02:17,280 as we go through the session. 20 00:02:17,280 --> 00:02:18,113 Yeah. 21 00:02:18,113 --> 00:02:19,650 There's Mini and Maxi. 22 00:02:19,650 --> 00:02:20,910 What are they, therapy dogs? 23 00:02:20,910 --> 00:02:22,860 Yeah. They're therapy dogs. 24 00:02:22,860 --> 00:02:24,180 Oh, beautiful. 25 00:02:24,180 --> 00:02:25,890 Fiercely loyal, aren't they? 26 00:02:25,890 --> 00:02:27,360 Yes. 27 00:02:27,360 --> 00:02:29,730 You wouldn't hurt anyone, would you? No. 28 00:02:29,730 --> 00:02:30,563 Beautiful. 29 00:02:33,450 --> 00:02:38,450 So, Aiden, I've got a rough idea of your history. 30 00:02:39,060 --> 00:02:41,615 Before I can continue, 31 00:02:41,615 --> 00:02:46,350 I do need you to sign the disclaimer for me. 32 00:02:46,350 --> 00:02:48,350 If you could just read that through and. 33 00:02:50,008 --> 00:02:51,510 Here's a pen. 34 00:02:51,510 --> 00:02:53,070 So what is this? 35 00:02:53,070 --> 00:02:55,623 That's an agreement to our conditions. 36 00:02:57,450 --> 00:02:58,930 And it says here 37 00:03:00,330 --> 00:03:03,420 that I can't leave for the whole week. 38 00:03:03,420 --> 00:03:04,253 That's right. 39 00:03:06,750 --> 00:03:10,680 So I can't even go for a walk into town 40 00:03:10,680 --> 00:03:13,980 and maybe get a pint if I'm feeling a little bit frustrated? 41 00:03:13,980 --> 00:03:15,003 No, no. 42 00:03:17,286 --> 00:03:20,010 It says I'm not allowed to disclose the techniques 43 00:03:20,010 --> 00:03:22,590 and practices and treatments with anyone. 44 00:03:22,590 --> 00:03:23,583 That's right, no. 45 00:03:27,480 --> 00:03:28,313 Hm. 46 00:03:31,470 --> 00:03:32,460 Um. 47 00:03:32,460 --> 00:03:35,700 I do need that commitment from you, that you will. 48 00:03:35,700 --> 00:03:37,800 Well, I'm committed, I'm here. 49 00:03:37,800 --> 00:03:41,010 And we've got a cabin for you, it's down the field 50 00:03:41,010 --> 00:03:45,480 and it's used for situations like yours. 51 00:03:45,480 --> 00:03:49,920 And it does take a week for you to commit to. 52 00:03:49,920 --> 00:03:52,320 Well, I'm here, I'm committed. 53 00:03:52,320 --> 00:03:53,790 Look, you got my commitment 54 00:03:53,790 --> 00:03:55,230 and I've heard that your methods 55 00:03:55,230 --> 00:03:58,413 are somewhat unorthodox and unconventional. 56 00:03:59,310 --> 00:04:00,243 And I like that. 57 00:04:01,110 --> 00:04:02,220 - Good. - Oh, let's sign this thing, 58 00:04:02,220 --> 00:04:03,053 let's do it. 59 00:04:07,704 --> 00:04:08,704 Well done. 60 00:04:09,750 --> 00:04:10,583 Thank you. 61 00:04:10,583 --> 00:04:12,000 So where do we go from here? 62 00:04:12,000 --> 00:04:14,190 I'd like to hear from you, 63 00:04:14,190 --> 00:04:16,263 maybe what you hope to achieve. 64 00:04:18,360 --> 00:04:21,180 I guess I just wanna feel like my old self. 65 00:04:21,180 --> 00:04:24,870 I just wanna get myself back. My independence. 66 00:04:24,870 --> 00:04:26,640 I used to be the life and soul of the party. 67 00:04:26,640 --> 00:04:30,270 All my friends used to say I bought such joy into a room. 68 00:04:30,270 --> 00:04:32,163 Never short of a party invite. 69 00:04:33,660 --> 00:04:35,940 Since Ivan came into my life, 70 00:04:35,940 --> 00:04:37,290 that's when it all changed. 71 00:04:38,550 --> 00:04:40,655 You know, when I first met him, he was like, 72 00:04:40,655 --> 00:04:42,030 I thought I was punching above my weight. 73 00:04:42,030 --> 00:04:44,569 My friends were quick enough to tell me so. 74 00:04:44,569 --> 00:04:45,840 I mean, he's gorgeous. 75 00:04:45,840 --> 00:04:47,790 He was so charming, 76 00:04:47,790 --> 00:04:49,380 and he sort of engaged with them 77 00:04:49,380 --> 00:04:51,120 as if it was his own friends and family 78 00:04:51,120 --> 00:04:52,890 and I started to get a bit jealous, 79 00:04:52,890 --> 00:04:55,323 like they liked him more than me sometimes. 80 00:04:57,000 --> 00:04:58,617 Well, he started off with love bombing me 81 00:04:58,617 --> 00:05:00,330 and I was the center of his universe 82 00:05:00,330 --> 00:05:02,180 and he was the center of my universe. 83 00:05:03,270 --> 00:05:06,480 But then over time, he changed. 84 00:05:06,480 --> 00:05:09,033 He made me feel like I was the problem. 85 00:05:10,020 --> 00:05:12,120 He paraded himself to my friends and family 86 00:05:12,120 --> 00:05:15,000 like such the nice guy, such the good guy, 87 00:05:15,000 --> 00:05:18,060 such the hero, like I was the problem. 88 00:05:18,060 --> 00:05:20,010 Even my friends and family started looking at me 89 00:05:20,010 --> 00:05:21,240 like I was a problem. 90 00:05:21,240 --> 00:05:23,580 They believed him over me. 91 00:05:23,580 --> 00:05:25,410 Well, I was not the problem, it was Ivan, 92 00:05:25,410 --> 00:05:26,880 it was always Ivan. 93 00:05:26,880 --> 00:05:29,670 He was just so goddamn clever at just putting on this mask, 94 00:05:29,670 --> 00:05:32,490 at being such a good guy, the hero. 95 00:05:32,490 --> 00:05:34,830 And he took such praise from that. 96 00:05:34,830 --> 00:05:36,873 It made him validate who he was. 97 00:05:38,460 --> 00:05:43,290 Basically, some people say that's how a narcissist acts. 98 00:05:44,700 --> 00:05:45,790 They love bomb you 99 00:05:46,650 --> 00:05:50,250 and then they just start manipulating you. 100 00:05:50,250 --> 00:05:52,410 They get jealous and he seemed so confident 101 00:05:52,410 --> 00:05:56,523 when I met him and then suddenly I saw his insecurities. 102 00:05:57,390 --> 00:05:59,010 I saw the inner child in him. 103 00:05:59,010 --> 00:06:02,313 He was weak, yet he was cruel at the same time. 104 00:06:03,690 --> 00:06:07,470 I started to fear being alone with him. 105 00:06:07,470 --> 00:06:08,790 Fear? 106 00:06:08,790 --> 00:06:09,723 Yeah, fear. 107 00:06:10,590 --> 00:06:12,153 Tell me more about the fear. 108 00:06:14,430 --> 00:06:16,890 See, Ivan's a strong man. 109 00:06:16,890 --> 00:06:19,380 Masculine, and that's what I was attracted to. 110 00:06:19,380 --> 00:06:22,443 The power he has over me is what I'm afraid of. 111 00:06:24,240 --> 00:06:25,620 Tell me more about the power 112 00:06:25,620 --> 00:06:27,660 that you feel that he's got. 113 00:06:27,660 --> 00:06:32,370 He just asserts this masculinity, this danger, 114 00:06:32,370 --> 00:06:35,340 this threat that if I just step out of place 115 00:06:35,340 --> 00:06:39,900 just one little bit, that's it, smashes up my computer. 116 00:06:39,900 --> 00:06:42,090 I didn't know if I was coming home to a smile 117 00:06:42,090 --> 00:06:43,803 or a slap or a punch. 118 00:06:47,880 --> 00:06:50,850 But when he's pinning you up against a wall, 119 00:06:50,850 --> 00:06:52,260 spitting in your face, 120 00:06:52,260 --> 00:06:55,620 and then punching the living daylights out of you, 121 00:06:55,620 --> 00:06:57,060 that's not who I fell in love with 122 00:06:57,060 --> 00:06:58,980 and I am not gonna put up with that anymore. 123 00:06:58,980 --> 00:07:00,537 I just wanna take the power away from him 124 00:07:00,537 --> 00:07:02,913 and I wanna give the power back to myself. 125 00:07:05,550 --> 00:07:08,460 But I need the safe zone to do that. 126 00:07:08,460 --> 00:07:11,370 If he knew I was here, I know what would happen, 127 00:07:11,370 --> 00:07:12,360 it wouldn't be pleasant 128 00:07:12,360 --> 00:07:14,610 'cause he'd see you as a problem as well. 129 00:07:14,610 --> 00:07:16,610 He's very clever at covering his tracks. 130 00:07:18,180 --> 00:07:20,310 And I do worry that if I left him 131 00:07:20,310 --> 00:07:22,110 and he couldn't find me, 132 00:07:22,110 --> 00:07:23,460 he would harm those around me, 133 00:07:23,460 --> 00:07:24,783 my friends and my family. 134 00:07:25,950 --> 00:07:27,630 And I think I need this time out, 135 00:07:27,630 --> 00:07:29,130 he doesn't even know I'm here. 136 00:07:31,920 --> 00:07:33,570 Okay, I understand. 137 00:07:34,800 --> 00:07:35,674 Well, do you? 138 00:07:35,674 --> 00:07:37,950 I mean, what good is it really gonna do me 139 00:07:37,950 --> 00:07:38,910 being here for a week? 140 00:07:38,910 --> 00:07:41,040 I mean, what are you gonna teach me? 141 00:07:41,040 --> 00:07:43,110 Or what insights can you provide 142 00:07:43,110 --> 00:07:47,250 that's gonna provide me and those I care for safety? 143 00:07:47,250 --> 00:07:51,453 What I want to do is understand your emotions. 144 00:07:52,740 --> 00:07:55,650 I wanna know everything about you. 145 00:07:55,650 --> 00:07:58,110 I wanna know every detail. 146 00:07:58,110 --> 00:08:00,420 Emotions, I mean, right now 147 00:08:00,420 --> 00:08:03,720 I feel like I'm just numb to my emotions. 148 00:08:03,720 --> 00:08:05,700 I've had to protect my emotions 149 00:08:05,700 --> 00:08:08,280 and build a wall so high to protect myself, 150 00:08:08,280 --> 00:08:09,414 some of my friends just say 151 00:08:09,414 --> 00:08:12,570 I'm like emotionally void, emotionally dead. 152 00:08:12,570 --> 00:08:15,570 It's like I've got no human aspect anymore. 153 00:08:15,570 --> 00:08:17,280 It's just sucked out of me. 154 00:08:17,280 --> 00:08:20,460 I don't feel, I don't feel emotional, I don't feel myself, 155 00:08:20,460 --> 00:08:22,260 I don't feel like I'm Aiden anymore. 156 00:08:23,460 --> 00:08:25,650 I fear for my life 157 00:08:25,650 --> 00:08:28,920 and I fear for those around me. 158 00:08:28,920 --> 00:08:31,373 Why haven't you been to the police about it? 159 00:08:32,756 --> 00:08:35,190 I mean, not being funny, they don't make it easy 160 00:08:35,190 --> 00:08:36,780 going to the police, reporting abuse, 161 00:08:36,780 --> 00:08:39,360 and certainly male abuse from a male abuser. 162 00:08:39,360 --> 00:08:40,323 I've got pride. 163 00:08:42,060 --> 00:08:44,430 Aiden, we're going to the cabin in a minute. 164 00:08:44,430 --> 00:08:47,550 You're gonna think of it as a retreat. 165 00:08:47,550 --> 00:08:49,500 It's a place where you can reflect 166 00:08:49,500 --> 00:08:51,630 on your innermost emotions 167 00:08:51,630 --> 00:08:55,770 and I want you isolated from the outside world. 168 00:08:55,770 --> 00:08:58,803 I don't want you to interact with the outside world. 169 00:08:59,940 --> 00:09:03,810 I want you to make a video diary on your phone 170 00:09:03,810 --> 00:09:05,730 and send them to me 171 00:09:05,730 --> 00:09:10,260 each time that you go through a process of discovery 172 00:09:10,260 --> 00:09:13,050 and we can use that video 173 00:09:13,050 --> 00:09:16,020 over the course of treatment for you further. 174 00:09:16,020 --> 00:09:18,070 I guess the only obstacle that I've got 175 00:09:20,010 --> 00:09:20,943 is leaving him. 176 00:09:31,770 --> 00:09:33,090 Thank you, Dr. Williams. 177 00:09:33,090 --> 00:09:34,203 You're welcome. 178 00:09:37,200 --> 00:09:38,150 - Here we go. - Wow. 179 00:09:39,115 --> 00:09:41,019 You've got so much land. 180 00:09:41,019 --> 00:09:43,852 And it's a gorgeous day as well. 181 00:09:45,797 --> 00:09:48,540 I want you to come along this way, and- 182 00:09:50,333 --> 00:09:51,600 I think this fresh air 183 00:09:51,600 --> 00:09:53,410 is gonna do me the world of good. 184 00:09:58,557 --> 00:09:59,683 Oh wow. 185 00:09:59,683 --> 00:10:01,215 Is this my cabin? 186 00:10:01,215 --> 00:10:02,381 No, this isn't yours, 187 00:10:02,381 --> 00:10:04,075 but we don't want you to know anything about- 188 00:10:04,075 --> 00:10:05,580 Well, can I at least meet them? 189 00:10:05,580 --> 00:10:08,790 No, you're not to meet anyone on this experiment. 190 00:10:08,790 --> 00:10:09,873 I mean, project. 191 00:10:11,400 --> 00:10:13,590 I don't want you to know anything about anyone else. 192 00:10:13,590 --> 00:10:16,053 Your curiosity is gonna get the better of you. 193 00:10:16,890 --> 00:10:19,500 The only thing I want you to be curious about 194 00:10:19,500 --> 00:10:21,063 is your video messaging. 195 00:10:23,130 --> 00:10:24,680 Oh, this is gorgeous. 196 00:10:25,950 --> 00:10:27,630 So how many cabins do you have? 197 00:10:27,630 --> 00:10:29,370 More than enough. 198 00:10:29,370 --> 00:10:31,757 Is there any food in the cabin? 199 00:10:31,757 --> 00:10:32,590 No. 200 00:11:41,159 --> 00:11:41,992 So. 201 00:11:44,337 --> 00:11:45,411 It makes me feel- 202 00:11:45,411 --> 00:11:46,680 Feel? 203 00:11:46,680 --> 00:11:49,440 Yeah, it makes me feel claustrophobic. 204 00:11:49,440 --> 00:11:50,280 That's a start. 205 00:11:50,280 --> 00:11:51,120 That'll do for now. 206 00:11:51,120 --> 00:11:53,670 It's not a good feeling, is it? To be honest. 207 00:11:53,670 --> 00:11:55,110 Sorry. Anyway, show me round. 208 00:11:55,110 --> 00:11:56,730 Hm. 209 00:11:56,730 --> 00:11:58,890 Well, that's the bedroom, this is the diner, 210 00:11:58,890 --> 00:12:00,213 that's the kitchen. 211 00:12:01,080 --> 00:12:02,983 And that's where the water is. 212 00:12:05,310 --> 00:12:07,020 I guess this is the lounge? 213 00:12:07,020 --> 00:12:07,893 Yeah. 214 00:12:09,810 --> 00:12:11,400 Where, 215 00:12:11,400 --> 00:12:12,600 where do I get the food? 216 00:12:13,860 --> 00:12:16,350 There isn't any food. 217 00:12:16,350 --> 00:12:17,250 What do you mean there isn't any food? 218 00:12:17,250 --> 00:12:18,570 Remember, there's no food. 219 00:12:18,570 --> 00:12:19,560 Yeah, but you were joking, right, 220 00:12:19,560 --> 00:12:21,330 when you said there's no food for the week? 221 00:12:21,330 --> 00:12:22,860 No, I wasn't joking. 222 00:12:22,860 --> 00:12:25,770 And you signed the contract, the disclaimer, 223 00:12:25,770 --> 00:12:27,880 you are gonna go ahead with the process. 224 00:12:27,880 --> 00:12:30,393 But I can't go for a week with no food. 225 00:12:31,350 --> 00:12:35,370 Aiden, you can go for a week, trust us. 226 00:12:35,370 --> 00:12:38,013 Just trust the process. It's early days. 227 00:12:39,330 --> 00:12:41,310 Yeah, but I didn't sign up for no food for a week. 228 00:12:41,310 --> 00:12:42,143 It's alright. 229 00:12:42,143 --> 00:12:44,340 You're gonna make the video messages 230 00:12:44,340 --> 00:12:46,050 and you're gonna go into yourself 231 00:12:46,050 --> 00:12:48,750 and let me know how things are going 232 00:12:48,750 --> 00:12:50,260 and we'll have you covered. 233 00:13:22,218 --> 00:13:25,801 It's disgusting. 234 00:14:22,737 --> 00:14:25,773 Why the fuck would they give me a fridge with no food? 235 00:14:31,787 --> 00:14:34,870 Fucking hell. 236 00:15:29,214 --> 00:15:30,047 What're you doing? 237 00:15:30,047 --> 00:15:33,828 Just dropping off the last of the logs. 238 00:15:33,828 --> 00:15:34,776 Who are you? 239 00:15:34,776 --> 00:15:36,693 I'm a local woodsman. 240 00:15:38,057 --> 00:15:39,043 Right. 241 00:15:39,043 --> 00:15:40,743 Here for a week, right? 242 00:15:41,880 --> 00:15:42,713 Yeah. 243 00:15:45,840 --> 00:15:47,283 Well, I'd be very careful. 244 00:16:12,900 --> 00:16:14,340 Okay. 245 00:16:14,340 --> 00:16:17,520 So I've just had a trigger event 246 00:16:17,520 --> 00:16:20,610 where a guy, a stranger, 247 00:16:20,610 --> 00:16:23,220 a threatening presence has just come around 248 00:16:23,220 --> 00:16:26,463 and quite frankly, unsettled me, unnerved me. 249 00:16:28,124 --> 00:16:31,443 So I'm trying to process what I'm feeling. 250 00:16:32,300 --> 00:16:35,369 I'm feeling fucking scared if I'm honest. 251 00:16:35,369 --> 00:16:36,202 I mean... 252 00:16:38,078 --> 00:16:40,050 I mean, who just drops off wood like that? 253 00:16:40,050 --> 00:16:42,003 And then he gave me a warning. 254 00:16:44,016 --> 00:16:45,780 Did I just imagine that? The warning? 255 00:16:45,780 --> 00:16:48,060 No, he definitely said, you know, 256 00:16:48,060 --> 00:16:49,890 be careful or something. 257 00:16:49,890 --> 00:16:52,410 Oh, see now my heart, and my heart rate's gone up. 258 00:16:52,410 --> 00:16:55,797 I've got palpitations and the feeling, I'm on edge. 259 00:16:55,797 --> 00:16:59,670 And this takes me right back to that bloody git Ivan. 260 00:16:59,670 --> 00:17:04,053 How he always made me feel, unsettled, unnerved, 261 00:17:05,226 --> 00:17:07,780 and I can't feel like I'm present or calm 262 00:17:07,780 --> 00:17:09,666 like I was five minutes ago. 263 00:17:09,666 --> 00:17:11,766 Now I'm just in a real high state of alert 264 00:17:12,660 --> 00:17:15,460 if I'm honest, oh, this week's not gonna be easy, is it? 265 00:17:18,210 --> 00:17:21,570 So, Dr. Williams, this is my first video blog 266 00:17:21,570 --> 00:17:23,730 and there will be more, I'm sure. 267 00:17:23,730 --> 00:17:24,720 I need to process this, 268 00:17:24,720 --> 00:17:27,206 but I need a bit of time out, time out. 269 00:17:27,206 --> 00:17:28,039 Hm. 270 00:17:35,610 --> 00:17:37,287 Okay, Dr. Williams, do you know what? 271 00:17:37,287 --> 00:17:40,230 I'm just in a moment, a state of anger. 272 00:17:40,230 --> 00:17:43,650 I've just come to a realisation, that nobody's had my back. 273 00:17:43,650 --> 00:17:46,710 My family, my so-called friends. 274 00:17:46,710 --> 00:17:49,260 Where were they? Why didn't they see the red flags? 275 00:17:49,260 --> 00:17:51,060 Nobody had my back. 276 00:17:51,060 --> 00:17:53,010 And yes, I invited Ivan into my life. 277 00:17:53,010 --> 00:17:55,110 He didn't have my back, they didn't have my back, 278 00:17:55,110 --> 00:17:57,330 and do you know what's even more disappointing? 279 00:17:57,330 --> 00:17:58,770 I didn't have my own back. 280 00:17:58,770 --> 00:18:01,410 I tolerated this abuse for far too long. 281 00:18:01,410 --> 00:18:04,140 So yes, they're enablers, but I enabled it as well. 282 00:18:04,140 --> 00:18:05,490 I welcomed him into my life 283 00:18:05,490 --> 00:18:08,190 and kept him in my life for far too fucking long. 284 00:18:08,190 --> 00:18:10,980 Things have got to change and change starts now. 285 00:18:10,980 --> 00:18:12,660 So you wanna know how I'm feeling? 286 00:18:12,660 --> 00:18:14,730 You want us to explore my emotions? 287 00:18:14,730 --> 00:18:16,757 Right now I'm fucking pissed. 288 00:18:29,179 --> 00:18:31,012 I'm not drinking that. 289 00:18:33,116 --> 00:18:34,116 What's that? 290 00:18:52,145 --> 00:18:53,228 That's weird. 291 00:20:30,896 --> 00:20:34,980 I felt as if the paranoia was so strong, 292 00:20:34,980 --> 00:20:39,900 as if somebody was right there with me watching me. 293 00:20:39,900 --> 00:20:42,660 But not just looking at me from afar, 294 00:20:42,660 --> 00:20:46,800 looking at me, right up close and looking right into me. 295 00:20:46,800 --> 00:20:49,023 I don't know if this is my self-reflection. 296 00:20:49,890 --> 00:20:52,530 I guess I'm not alone enough to sort of self-reflect, 297 00:20:52,530 --> 00:20:57,530 I guess this is what your experiment stroke programme 298 00:20:57,810 --> 00:21:01,683 is supposed to get me to do, to go deeper in myself. 299 00:21:02,730 --> 00:21:05,793 So I guess, Dr. Williams, this is working. 300 00:21:06,867 --> 00:21:09,900 I just needed to come out 'cause what I realise 301 00:21:09,900 --> 00:21:14,070 is that actually, after having a bout of paranoia, 302 00:21:14,070 --> 00:21:17,070 hunger pains, thank you very much for that, 303 00:21:17,070 --> 00:21:21,573 and having a slight threat earlier from the woodsman, 304 00:21:22,590 --> 00:21:26,523 actually, I realised that cabin fever is a real thing. 305 00:21:27,480 --> 00:21:30,902 And I realised where that comes from, cabin fever, 306 00:21:30,902 --> 00:21:35,190 the more I feel about being isolated, contained, 307 00:21:35,190 --> 00:21:36,930 this is it, and I think I've been contained 308 00:21:36,930 --> 00:21:40,950 for far too long in an unhealthy relationship. 309 00:21:40,950 --> 00:21:44,043 And actually just by leaving the cabin, 310 00:21:44,880 --> 00:21:46,860 I don't feel contained. 311 00:21:46,860 --> 00:21:50,910 So what I'm learning already is the fact of getting out, 312 00:21:50,910 --> 00:21:54,900 releasing myself, not feeling like a prisoner. 313 00:21:54,900 --> 00:21:55,890 It's all very symbolic 314 00:21:55,890 --> 00:21:58,110 for what I'm going through with Ivan. 315 00:21:58,110 --> 00:22:00,270 So I need to get out of the relationship, 316 00:22:00,270 --> 00:22:03,843 feel the freedom, breathe in fresh air, 317 00:22:05,700 --> 00:22:06,663 and be present. 318 00:22:07,740 --> 00:22:08,820 'Cause you know what? 319 00:22:08,820 --> 00:22:10,593 This world's not a bad place. 320 00:22:10,593 --> 00:22:12,273 It's just full of bad people. 321 00:22:23,370 --> 00:22:25,230 David, stop recording my ass. 322 00:22:25,230 --> 00:22:27,943 By the way, Aiden, where the heck are you? 323 00:22:27,943 --> 00:22:30,300 I sent you like three messages so far 324 00:22:30,300 --> 00:22:31,590 and you're not responding. 325 00:22:31,590 --> 00:22:34,950 I don't know what's going on, but I hope you're well. 326 00:22:34,950 --> 00:22:36,870 But I don't know if you're joining us or not, 327 00:22:36,870 --> 00:22:39,660 but tonight's gonna be a really, really hot night 328 00:22:39,660 --> 00:22:41,820 because look at all those muscles. 329 00:22:41,820 --> 00:22:43,830 My bicep is gonna explode 330 00:22:43,830 --> 00:22:46,290 with all those hot guys over there. 331 00:22:46,290 --> 00:22:47,850 But the thing is that without you, 332 00:22:47,850 --> 00:22:49,500 I'm very, very vulnerable. 333 00:22:49,500 --> 00:22:52,560 You are like my little protection. 334 00:22:52,560 --> 00:22:55,530 And it's gonna be really, really uncomfortable for me 335 00:22:55,530 --> 00:22:58,470 being around those hot guys there. 336 00:22:58,470 --> 00:22:59,970 As soon as you see my message, 337 00:22:59,970 --> 00:23:01,983 please respond to me and, 338 00:23:03,126 --> 00:23:05,160 and let me know what's going on. 339 00:23:05,160 --> 00:23:09,750 And I know that you're going to call me, right? 340 00:23:09,750 --> 00:23:10,623 I know that. 341 00:23:25,267 --> 00:23:27,000 Who do you think you are, Aiden? 342 00:23:27,000 --> 00:23:28,140 You've read my message 343 00:23:28,140 --> 00:23:30,750 and you haven't responded to my message. 344 00:23:30,750 --> 00:23:31,740 I can't believe, like, 345 00:23:31,740 --> 00:23:34,020 who the heck do you think you are? 346 00:23:34,020 --> 00:23:35,970 We've been waiting for hours 347 00:23:35,970 --> 00:23:40,770 and you haven't sent us a text or even a call. 348 00:23:40,770 --> 00:23:42,843 But, do you know what? 349 00:23:43,819 --> 00:23:45,030 We are going out. 350 00:23:45,030 --> 00:23:46,170 We're gonna have some fun, 351 00:23:46,170 --> 00:23:47,640 we're gonna have some drinks. 352 00:23:47,640 --> 00:23:49,350 And it's your own decision 353 00:23:49,350 --> 00:23:51,480 if you would like to join us or not. 354 00:23:51,480 --> 00:23:52,800 I don't care. 355 00:23:52,800 --> 00:23:54,480 I don't care, I'm not angry. 356 00:23:54,480 --> 00:23:56,347 I'm disappointed. 357 00:23:56,347 --> 00:23:57,420 Because you're not only 358 00:23:57,420 --> 00:23:58,253 letting me down, 359 00:23:58,253 --> 00:24:01,140 but you're letting your friends down, okay? 360 00:24:01,140 --> 00:24:04,413 And that speaks a lot for yourself, you know? 361 00:24:29,700 --> 00:24:32,640 When I come back home, we're gonna have a, 362 00:24:32,640 --> 00:24:35,610 me and you, a long, long, deep conversation. 363 00:24:35,610 --> 00:24:37,620 And I want an explanation. 364 00:24:37,620 --> 00:24:39,390 I want you to explain everything, 365 00:24:39,390 --> 00:24:41,220 where have you been and why you haven't 366 00:24:41,220 --> 00:24:43,020 responded to my message. 367 00:24:43,020 --> 00:24:45,150 Because it was really important for me 368 00:24:45,150 --> 00:24:46,710 and you're letting me down 369 00:24:46,710 --> 00:24:50,103 and I don't like being disappointed, you know, very much. 370 00:24:51,210 --> 00:24:56,190 So, already had a couple messages from Ivan. 371 00:24:56,190 --> 00:25:00,033 Don't worry, quite proud of myself, I've not replied. 372 00:25:01,740 --> 00:25:05,250 And I can tell he's getting quite angry and pissed at me. 373 00:25:05,250 --> 00:25:09,600 But of course, his messages are displaying affection 374 00:25:09,600 --> 00:25:11,763 and looking like he's considerate. 375 00:25:12,852 --> 00:25:14,520 But I know the real Ivan. 376 00:25:14,520 --> 00:25:17,760 Stepping out the shower, trying to look all sexy 377 00:25:17,760 --> 00:25:20,850 and masculine, flexing his muscle. 378 00:25:20,850 --> 00:25:22,680 All I see is that's indicating 379 00:25:22,680 --> 00:25:24,270 it's a punch about to happen. 380 00:25:24,270 --> 00:25:26,313 That's toxic masculinity. 381 00:25:27,330 --> 00:25:30,750 And also saying, just putting on my new clothes, Aiden. 382 00:25:30,750 --> 00:25:32,880 Gonna go out with my friends. 383 00:25:32,880 --> 00:25:36,180 Trying to make me feel replaceable, disposable, 384 00:25:36,180 --> 00:25:38,460 shameful, vulnerable, and guilty 385 00:25:38,460 --> 00:25:40,613 for leaving him on his own for a few hours. 386 00:27:09,427 --> 00:27:10,510 Anyone there? 387 00:27:27,586 --> 00:27:29,558 What the fuck was that? 388 00:27:51,257 --> 00:27:52,907 Fucking hell! 389 00:27:52,907 --> 00:27:54,157 What the fuck?! 390 00:28:05,472 --> 00:28:06,305 Ah! Fuck. 391 00:28:14,107 --> 00:28:16,470 You know, I've just been realising 392 00:28:16,470 --> 00:28:20,580 that I know the fear and the feeling 393 00:28:20,580 --> 00:28:23,073 of being in an abusive relationship. 394 00:28:25,620 --> 00:28:26,910 I'm just trying to think. 395 00:28:26,910 --> 00:28:30,933 It's just as scary being single again. 396 00:28:32,070 --> 00:28:34,350 I mean, this is how much Ivan's got under my skin, 397 00:28:34,350 --> 00:28:37,260 I guess, where does all that love go? 398 00:28:37,260 --> 00:28:39,210 I mean, why am I weighing up 399 00:28:39,210 --> 00:28:41,910 being in an abusive relationship with a narcissist 400 00:28:41,910 --> 00:28:45,384 and being single, independent, free? 401 00:28:45,384 --> 00:28:47,490 They shouldn't even be on the same spectrum. 402 00:28:47,490 --> 00:28:49,810 Of course, independence out-rules 403 00:28:51,600 --> 00:28:53,430 being in an abusive relationship. 404 00:28:53,430 --> 00:28:55,020 Why am I even considering this? 405 00:28:55,020 --> 00:28:58,653 I just think it's maybe a bit of cabin fever kicking in. 406 00:28:59,550 --> 00:29:01,440 Just goes to show how much the abusers 407 00:29:01,440 --> 00:29:04,620 get under your skin and how much, 408 00:29:04,620 --> 00:29:05,790 it's like Stockholm syndrome, 409 00:29:05,790 --> 00:29:08,073 you fall in love with your abuser. 410 00:29:10,186 --> 00:29:12,970 I still love him 411 00:29:15,000 --> 00:29:15,997 but I hate him. 412 00:30:30,440 --> 00:30:31,273 Hm. 413 00:30:34,532 --> 00:30:35,365 Beautiful. 414 00:30:36,629 --> 00:30:37,898 Am I? 415 00:30:37,898 --> 00:30:39,154 You know you are. 416 00:30:39,154 --> 00:30:39,987 Hm. 417 00:30:48,141 --> 00:30:50,850 You're so special to me, you know that? 418 00:30:50,850 --> 00:30:51,683 Yeah. 419 00:30:52,547 --> 00:30:54,347 I've never felt that way before. 420 00:30:55,910 --> 00:30:57,603 You changed my life. 421 00:31:00,180 --> 00:31:01,965 You're gonna behave now? 422 00:31:01,965 --> 00:31:03,533 I will, I will. You know how much I love you. 423 00:31:04,980 --> 00:31:08,520 See, when you like this, you're just brilliant. 424 00:31:08,520 --> 00:31:10,590 Just not consistent, are you? 425 00:31:10,590 --> 00:31:13,353 Kiss me now. Kiss me, yeah. 426 00:32:09,112 --> 00:32:10,260 Yo, Aiden. 427 00:32:10,260 --> 00:32:13,110 It's almost 6:00 a.m. and I checked the room, 428 00:32:13,110 --> 00:32:14,823 the bedroom, you are not there. 429 00:32:15,900 --> 00:32:17,463 It was madness, you know? 430 00:32:18,540 --> 00:32:20,490 I didn't drink. 431 00:32:20,490 --> 00:32:22,710 I'm not drunk, don't think I'm drunk. 432 00:32:22,710 --> 00:32:24,570 Because I'm not, you know? 433 00:32:24,570 --> 00:32:27,630 Good morning, Dr. Williams. 434 00:32:27,630 --> 00:32:28,593 How do I feel? 435 00:32:29,550 --> 00:32:32,310 If I'm honest with you, I'm feeling hungry. 436 00:32:32,310 --> 00:32:34,950 That's the first thing I feel this morning. 437 00:32:34,950 --> 00:32:36,720 I didn't get the best night's sleep. 438 00:32:36,720 --> 00:32:40,650 If I'm honest, I'm feeling a little bit irritable. 439 00:32:40,650 --> 00:32:42,133 But that's down to you. 440 00:32:42,133 --> 00:32:45,370 I know that you're probably making me hungry 441 00:32:46,260 --> 00:32:47,910 just to stir things up a little bit, 442 00:32:47,910 --> 00:32:51,810 stir up my emotions and sort of rattle my cage 443 00:32:51,810 --> 00:32:54,180 and make me feel a little bit, I don't know, 444 00:32:54,180 --> 00:32:56,190 more unsettled than I already feel in life, 445 00:32:56,190 --> 00:32:57,273 like you need that. 446 00:32:59,554 --> 00:33:02,280 But yeah, I guess you know what you're doing. 447 00:33:02,280 --> 00:33:04,530 You're the expert and that's why I'm sort of, 448 00:33:05,934 --> 00:33:09,240 do you know, just as I'm making this video journal, 449 00:33:09,240 --> 00:33:11,700 I've noticed that last night in my dream 450 00:33:11,700 --> 00:33:13,353 that chair was kicked over. 451 00:33:14,880 --> 00:33:16,280 That was a dream, wasn't it? 452 00:33:17,940 --> 00:33:18,900 You see? That's what I mean. 453 00:33:18,900 --> 00:33:20,520 I'm just like, getting all shaken up. 454 00:33:20,520 --> 00:33:22,950 I don't know what's real and what's not anymore. 455 00:33:22,950 --> 00:33:25,080 I mean, I don't know. 456 00:33:25,080 --> 00:33:27,540 I don't even sort of have much clarity 457 00:33:27,540 --> 00:33:29,373 over my own thoughts or anything. 458 00:33:31,290 --> 00:33:32,457 See, this is why I need to speak to you 459 00:33:32,457 --> 00:33:34,383 and make sense of all this. 460 00:33:36,510 --> 00:33:41,133 But one thing that I am feeling as well is grateful. 461 00:33:42,630 --> 00:33:46,593 Gratitude for a sense of freedom. 462 00:33:48,240 --> 00:33:50,254 I mean, it is nice to wake up on your own 463 00:33:50,254 --> 00:33:52,473 and not be accountable to anyone. 464 00:33:53,790 --> 00:33:56,820 And actually, today I dictate my own day, 465 00:33:56,820 --> 00:33:58,293 which is a really nice thing. 466 00:33:59,250 --> 00:34:00,450 And look at the weather. 467 00:34:01,620 --> 00:34:02,493 Gorgeous. 468 00:34:20,700 --> 00:34:21,617 Ah, beauty. 469 00:34:45,540 --> 00:34:48,720 Was that you making all that noise last night? 470 00:34:48,720 --> 00:34:49,560 What noises? 471 00:34:49,560 --> 00:34:51,060 Oh, I heard screaming 472 00:34:51,060 --> 00:34:53,154 and I couldn't get back to sleep afterwards. 473 00:34:53,154 --> 00:34:55,957 Do you know, that's really odd that you should say that. 474 00:34:55,957 --> 00:34:57,783 It's, but no, it wasn't me. 475 00:34:59,610 --> 00:35:01,133 Charlie, you heard it though, didn't you? 476 00:35:01,133 --> 00:35:03,330 Yeah, I heard screaming last night. 477 00:35:03,330 --> 00:35:07,403 It woke me up and you's have woke me up again. 478 00:35:09,570 --> 00:35:12,330 I couldn't trouble you for a banana, could I? 479 00:35:12,330 --> 00:35:13,590 Oh, you're a cheeky one, aren't you? 480 00:35:13,590 --> 00:35:15,850 Wake me up in the night, you want my food. 481 00:35:16,985 --> 00:35:19,175 Here you are, of course you can have a banana. 482 00:35:19,175 --> 00:35:20,925 Oh, cheers. 483 00:35:23,232 --> 00:35:24,430 How are you feeling? 484 00:35:24,430 --> 00:35:25,487 Well, you know how I'm feeling 485 00:35:25,487 --> 00:35:28,080 'cause I sent you all my video logs. 486 00:35:28,080 --> 00:35:29,793 Yes, I've seen the video logs. 487 00:35:30,780 --> 00:35:32,850 You seem a bit agitated. 488 00:35:32,850 --> 00:35:35,553 Well, it's something to do with me being starving. 489 00:35:36,870 --> 00:35:37,773 Starving? 490 00:35:40,620 --> 00:35:43,070 Aiden we've gotta be honest with each other here. 491 00:35:44,409 --> 00:35:45,990 Are you being honest with me? 492 00:35:45,990 --> 00:35:47,430 I am. 493 00:35:47,430 --> 00:35:49,737 Are you trying to deceive me or yourself? 494 00:35:49,737 --> 00:35:51,663 I'm not deceiving any of us. 495 00:35:52,800 --> 00:35:54,123 There's deception here. 496 00:35:55,830 --> 00:35:58,050 You realise deception is something 497 00:35:58,050 --> 00:35:59,853 that will attract deception. 498 00:36:00,810 --> 00:36:02,340 So you're trying to tell me 499 00:36:02,340 --> 00:36:06,000 that I'm the problem with Ivan? 500 00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:08,220 I'd like you to be honest with me. 501 00:36:08,220 --> 00:36:10,653 I'm not convinced that you're being honest. 502 00:36:12,675 --> 00:36:14,250 Look, I may have had an apple 503 00:36:14,250 --> 00:36:15,960 that fell off a tree. 504 00:36:15,960 --> 00:36:16,960 There we go. Mhmm? 505 00:36:19,050 --> 00:36:22,740 And a banana from one of the campers on the campsite. 506 00:36:22,740 --> 00:36:26,220 Ah, so we have deception on two levels there. 507 00:36:26,220 --> 00:36:29,340 You've eaten and we've communicated 508 00:36:29,340 --> 00:36:31,230 with other people, interacted. 509 00:36:31,230 --> 00:36:34,110 To be fair, you told me not to engage with anyone 510 00:36:34,110 --> 00:36:36,780 in one of the cabins that's on the programme. 511 00:36:36,780 --> 00:36:38,700 This was just somebody at a campsite. 512 00:36:38,700 --> 00:36:40,740 I engaged with people that were camping, 513 00:36:40,740 --> 00:36:42,240 separate from the programme. 514 00:36:42,240 --> 00:36:43,957 And I didn't engage with them, they engaged with me. 515 00:36:43,957 --> 00:36:46,260 No, I was very clear with you about this. 516 00:36:46,260 --> 00:36:48,060 You didn't tell me you had a woodsman, 517 00:36:48,060 --> 00:36:50,477 turned up, dropped a log, scared the living hell out of me. 518 00:36:50,477 --> 00:36:52,380 And do you know what was really worrying about that? 519 00:36:52,380 --> 00:36:53,580 What was quite alarming? 520 00:36:53,580 --> 00:36:55,200 He warned me to be careful around here. 521 00:36:55,200 --> 00:36:57,750 I mean, what the hell does he know that I don't know? 522 00:36:57,750 --> 00:36:59,610 Is there something I should be worried about? 523 00:36:59,610 --> 00:37:01,050 You're supposed to be isolated, 524 00:37:01,050 --> 00:37:02,943 not in contact with anyone. 525 00:37:04,410 --> 00:37:07,470 Okay, so the next time a stranger with an axe 526 00:37:07,470 --> 00:37:10,080 leans over me, tells me to watch out for myself, 527 00:37:10,080 --> 00:37:11,230 I'll just keep my calm. 528 00:37:12,330 --> 00:37:14,190 You have nothing to be worried about. 529 00:37:14,190 --> 00:37:15,780 Well, why the hell is your woodsman 530 00:37:15,780 --> 00:37:17,160 leaning in my ear with an axe 531 00:37:17,160 --> 00:37:18,690 telling me to be careful? 532 00:37:18,690 --> 00:37:21,543 Doesn't exactly make me feel a sense of calm, does it? 533 00:37:22,620 --> 00:37:24,639 He knows something that you're not telling me 534 00:37:24,639 --> 00:37:25,710 and I wanna know what it is. 535 00:37:25,710 --> 00:37:27,420 What is it I've got to worry about? 536 00:37:27,420 --> 00:37:29,013 He's a part of the programme. 537 00:37:30,330 --> 00:37:33,480 He's not supposed to contact people either. 538 00:37:33,480 --> 00:37:36,420 I've noticed that you've been catastrophizing 539 00:37:36,420 --> 00:37:38,430 about everything as well. 540 00:37:38,430 --> 00:37:40,830 Well, you're not the first person to say that. 541 00:37:40,830 --> 00:37:43,050 Ivan says it all the time. 542 00:37:43,050 --> 00:37:44,043 So does my mum. 543 00:37:45,150 --> 00:37:47,880 And to think about it, so do some of my friends. 544 00:37:47,880 --> 00:37:50,880 See, first of all, I thought Ivan was planting the seeds 545 00:37:50,880 --> 00:37:53,370 in the minds of others that I catastrophize, 546 00:37:53,370 --> 00:37:55,320 I'm a bit of a drama queen. 547 00:37:55,320 --> 00:37:57,510 And yeah, I am a little bit of a drama queen. 548 00:37:57,510 --> 00:37:59,700 In my circle of friends, we all are. 549 00:37:59,700 --> 00:38:02,130 But the campers, which really freaked me out, 550 00:38:02,130 --> 00:38:04,200 they told me that last night 551 00:38:04,200 --> 00:38:06,663 they heard screaming coming down from my field. 552 00:38:07,590 --> 00:38:09,960 I had a couple nightmares 553 00:38:09,960 --> 00:38:13,110 and I sent you a video message on this. 554 00:38:13,110 --> 00:38:15,690 And actually in the nightmare, 555 00:38:15,690 --> 00:38:17,910 I saw something that terrified the hell out of me 556 00:38:17,910 --> 00:38:21,600 that was in the bush and I started running off screaming. 557 00:38:21,600 --> 00:38:23,580 How can they hear those screams? 558 00:38:23,580 --> 00:38:26,550 Not only that, is whatever terrified the hell out of me 559 00:38:26,550 --> 00:38:28,260 kicked over one of the chairs 560 00:38:28,260 --> 00:38:30,030 and when I left the cabin this morning, 561 00:38:30,030 --> 00:38:32,400 that chair was kicked over. 562 00:38:32,400 --> 00:38:33,600 I mean, what the hell's going on? 563 00:38:33,600 --> 00:38:34,800 I feel like I'm losing my mind. 564 00:38:34,800 --> 00:38:36,930 I don't know what's real and what's not anymore. 565 00:38:36,930 --> 00:38:40,290 I mean, this programme is supposed to be helping me, 566 00:38:40,290 --> 00:38:42,480 not confusing the hell out of me. 567 00:38:42,480 --> 00:38:45,883 Is there anything that you can do to help me? 568 00:38:45,883 --> 00:38:50,070 I just want a moment of calm back in my life. 569 00:38:50,070 --> 00:38:52,657 I understand that and we're gonna help you. 570 00:38:55,063 --> 00:38:57,423 You've got to trust the programme. 571 00:38:58,320 --> 00:39:01,320 It'll all become clear, I want you to go much deeper, 572 00:39:01,320 --> 00:39:05,460 I want you to be, at the moment, it's very superficial 573 00:39:05,460 --> 00:39:09,120 but I want you to record what might be 574 00:39:09,120 --> 00:39:13,440 the triggers of these emotions that you're having. 575 00:39:13,440 --> 00:39:14,610 So you're saying you want me now 576 00:39:14,610 --> 00:39:16,770 to record my thoughts, not my feelings? 577 00:39:16,770 --> 00:39:18,090 - Yeah, yeah. Sure. - Because it's my thoughts 578 00:39:18,090 --> 00:39:19,200 that stimulate my feelings. 579 00:39:19,200 --> 00:39:20,640 Going ahead from here, yeah. 580 00:39:20,640 --> 00:39:22,380 I think I get that. 581 00:39:22,380 --> 00:39:24,630 And I'll give you a lift down to the cabin. 582 00:39:24,630 --> 00:39:27,870 Mini, do you wanna come to the cabin with Aiden? 583 00:39:27,870 --> 00:39:28,720 Yes, you do. 584 00:39:28,720 --> 00:39:31,023 Yeah, the dogs have really taken to you. 585 00:39:31,023 --> 00:39:32,850 Mini said she'd like to come to the cabin. 586 00:39:32,850 --> 00:39:35,743 Yes, Aiden, alright, come on. Let's go. 587 00:39:36,630 --> 00:39:38,880 Get your camera out, Aiden. 588 00:39:38,880 --> 00:39:40,980 I want you to film this 589 00:39:40,980 --> 00:39:44,313 as a recording of the start of your thoughts. 590 00:39:47,040 --> 00:39:49,317 While we're going down there. 591 00:39:49,317 --> 00:39:50,150 - Come on. - You want me 592 00:39:50,150 --> 00:39:51,050 - to film the journey? - Yep. 593 00:39:51,930 --> 00:39:54,680 Oh, I just know it's gonna be horrendous, I can tell. 594 00:39:57,060 --> 00:39:58,950 You're gonna be safe, aren't you? 595 00:39:58,950 --> 00:40:00,768 You're perfectly safe. 596 00:40:04,970 --> 00:40:06,840 Should I film both of us? This will be nice. 597 00:40:06,840 --> 00:40:07,673 You can do. 598 00:40:08,970 --> 00:40:10,170 Smile! 599 00:40:10,170 --> 00:40:11,526 And we're off! 600 00:40:14,188 --> 00:40:15,958 Oh my God! 601 00:40:15,958 --> 00:40:18,533 What the hell are you doing? 602 00:40:18,533 --> 00:40:23,533 Slow the fuck down! 603 00:40:24,691 --> 00:40:26,377 Slow the fuck down! 604 00:40:26,377 --> 00:40:29,440 Tell me what you're thinking. 605 00:40:29,440 --> 00:40:33,424 Slow the fuck down! 606 00:40:33,424 --> 00:40:36,825 Slow down, we're going down a hill! 607 00:40:36,825 --> 00:40:38,013 Come on, slow down, won't you? 608 00:40:38,013 --> 00:40:40,108 Oh my God, no, don't do that. 609 00:40:40,108 --> 00:40:40,941 Oh my God! 610 00:40:42,051 --> 00:40:43,551 What're you doing? 611 00:40:44,702 --> 00:40:48,209 Fucking hell. What the hell are you doing? 612 00:40:48,209 --> 00:40:49,042 Good. 613 00:40:49,042 --> 00:40:50,340 Bloody hell. 614 00:40:50,340 --> 00:40:51,173 Come on! 615 00:40:51,173 --> 00:40:52,500 - Lovely. - Okay, you wanna know 616 00:40:52,500 --> 00:40:54,150 - what I'm thinking? - Yeah. 617 00:40:54,150 --> 00:40:56,070 I'm thinking you're a better fucking doctor 618 00:40:56,070 --> 00:40:58,170 than you are a fucking driver! 619 00:40:58,170 --> 00:40:59,280 What the hell were you doing? 620 00:40:59,280 --> 00:41:01,080 You've clicked my shoulder. 621 00:41:01,080 --> 00:41:02,970 That's what, why are you laughing? 622 00:41:02,970 --> 00:41:04,233 That's not even funny. 623 00:41:05,400 --> 00:41:07,020 And you, you're not coming in the cabin. 624 00:41:07,020 --> 00:41:07,903 Just, just get back to the house. 625 00:41:07,903 --> 00:41:09,870 I mean it, I'm fucked off with this. 626 00:41:09,870 --> 00:41:10,703 - Alright, yep. - It's like- 627 00:41:10,703 --> 00:41:11,850 I'll see you tomorrow. 628 00:41:11,850 --> 00:41:12,683 Is this part of the programme 629 00:41:12,683 --> 00:41:14,112 or are you just having a laugh at my expense? 630 00:41:14,112 --> 00:41:16,445 Actually, it's part of it. 631 00:41:19,528 --> 00:41:21,067 Trust the plan. 632 00:42:09,430 --> 00:42:10,263 Not again. 633 00:44:13,610 --> 00:44:15,259 Fuck. 634 00:44:15,259 --> 00:44:16,926 What the fuck is it? 635 00:44:22,991 --> 00:44:23,824 Oh! 636 00:44:47,250 --> 00:44:48,083 Oh God. 637 00:46:24,763 --> 00:46:26,937 Hello? 638 00:46:30,361 --> 00:46:31,505 Oh, what's happening? 639 00:46:31,505 --> 00:46:32,505 Anyone here? 640 00:46:33,815 --> 00:46:35,355 Hello? 641 00:46:35,355 --> 00:46:37,820 Oh God, what's going on? 642 00:46:37,820 --> 00:46:38,653 Oh God. 643 00:46:41,549 --> 00:46:42,450 Who the fuck are you? 644 00:46:42,450 --> 00:46:43,441 Thank God you're here. 645 00:46:43,441 --> 00:46:44,790 What're you doing in my place? 646 00:46:44,790 --> 00:46:46,440 Have you had any weird stuff happen to you yet 647 00:46:46,440 --> 00:46:48,180 on this programme? 648 00:46:48,180 --> 00:46:49,500 What programme? 649 00:46:49,500 --> 00:46:51,690 The programme that Dr. Williams had put us on. 650 00:46:51,690 --> 00:46:53,580 Dr. Williams? Who's Dr. Williams? 651 00:46:53,580 --> 00:46:55,530 I've never heard of Dr. Williams. 652 00:46:55,530 --> 00:46:58,083 Dr. Williams that lives in the house next door. 653 00:46:58,950 --> 00:47:00,870 He's not a doctor. 654 00:47:00,870 --> 00:47:02,550 What the fuck, I've had enough of this. 655 00:47:02,550 --> 00:47:03,912 - Whoa. - Fuck off! 656 00:47:03,912 --> 00:47:04,745 What are you doing? 657 00:47:04,745 --> 00:47:06,750 I've had enough, piss off now. 658 00:47:06,750 --> 00:47:07,695 Just calm down. 659 00:47:07,695 --> 00:47:09,192 Enough! Get out. 660 00:47:09,192 --> 00:47:10,323 - Get out now. - Okay. 661 00:47:10,323 --> 00:47:11,253 Out! Out. 662 00:47:36,297 --> 00:47:39,219 Hm, it's worse than I thought. 663 00:47:42,023 --> 00:47:44,580 I need some answers and I need them right fucking now. 664 00:47:44,580 --> 00:47:46,830 Aiden, you can't just barge in here. 665 00:47:46,830 --> 00:47:47,663 Yeah? You know what? 666 00:47:47,663 --> 00:47:48,990 You're not the first one to say that tonight, 667 00:47:48,990 --> 00:47:50,550 your crazy neighbour said the same thing. 668 00:47:50,550 --> 00:47:51,840 Crazy neighbour? 669 00:47:51,840 --> 00:47:54,530 Yeah. The one that you said is on the programme. 670 00:47:54,530 --> 00:47:55,980 He is on the programme. 671 00:47:55,980 --> 00:47:58,800 You lied. And he also said you're not a doctor. 672 00:47:58,800 --> 00:48:00,840 I am a doctor. 673 00:48:00,840 --> 00:48:02,280 Why'd you think I've got this? 674 00:48:02,280 --> 00:48:03,113 Well, I don't know. 675 00:48:03,113 --> 00:48:05,340 That's why you've been trying to keep us apart, isn't it? 676 00:48:05,340 --> 00:48:06,540 You said don't engage with him. 677 00:48:06,540 --> 00:48:07,740 And do you know what else he did? 678 00:48:07,740 --> 00:48:10,260 He pulled out a fucking gun right in my face. 679 00:48:10,260 --> 00:48:12,663 Aiden, I'm not surprised. 680 00:48:13,530 --> 00:48:14,830 Who are you gonna believe? 681 00:48:15,750 --> 00:48:17,190 Someone that pulled out a gun 682 00:48:17,190 --> 00:48:19,743 or a doctor that's trying to help you out? 683 00:48:22,680 --> 00:48:24,453 This is his brain scan. 684 00:48:28,110 --> 00:48:33,110 They depict a problem he's had with epilepsy 685 00:48:34,440 --> 00:48:38,310 and he's got an entanglement of neurons 686 00:48:38,310 --> 00:48:40,863 and extra neurons that he shouldn't have. 687 00:48:41,850 --> 00:48:46,200 And this is where we've got the grid patterns 688 00:48:46,200 --> 00:48:48,060 on these two particular shots 689 00:48:48,060 --> 00:48:50,110 where we're going to put pins in 690 00:48:50,974 --> 00:48:53,280 to hold the cage steady 691 00:48:53,280 --> 00:48:58,223 so that we can get our precision techniques in place. 692 00:49:00,600 --> 00:49:05,190 This person's problems are far worse. 693 00:49:05,190 --> 00:49:08,730 His paranoia is so bad 694 00:49:08,730 --> 00:49:11,910 and he's a very dangerous individual. 695 00:49:11,910 --> 00:49:12,930 God! 696 00:49:12,930 --> 00:49:15,630 That's why I told you not to engage with him. 697 00:49:15,630 --> 00:49:17,223 I'm trying to protect you. 698 00:49:19,650 --> 00:49:23,103 And I wanted you to be isolated from him. 699 00:49:24,270 --> 00:49:26,040 I see what you mean about my paranoia. 700 00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:26,873 I've been like that all day, 701 00:49:26,873 --> 00:49:29,100 I've been thinking somebody's chasing me all day. 702 00:49:29,100 --> 00:49:32,070 Earlier I felt somebody was chasing me out of the cabin 703 00:49:32,070 --> 00:49:36,240 into the woods, right into your neighbor's fucking cabin. 704 00:49:36,240 --> 00:49:37,620 Don't know what to believe anymore. 705 00:49:37,620 --> 00:49:38,550 Hm. 706 00:49:38,550 --> 00:49:40,620 Look, I want you to go back to the cabin. 707 00:49:40,620 --> 00:49:44,260 I want you to focus on what those unhelpful thoughts are 708 00:49:45,240 --> 00:49:48,573 and how we want to change them into helpful thoughts. 709 00:49:49,410 --> 00:49:50,642 Yeah. 710 00:49:50,642 --> 00:49:51,780 Are you gonna be alright with that? 711 00:49:51,780 --> 00:49:54,150 I should've just stuck to the programme. 712 00:49:54,150 --> 00:49:56,250 Trust the programme, Aiden. 713 00:50:18,053 --> 00:50:20,220 Aiden, you know how much I love you, 714 00:50:20,220 --> 00:50:22,920 I haven't heard from you for a long time. 715 00:50:22,920 --> 00:50:24,063 I hope you're well. 716 00:50:25,230 --> 00:50:27,570 I really wanna be with you, 717 00:50:27,570 --> 00:50:31,533 I wanna feel you again, and I hope everything is fine. 718 00:50:32,490 --> 00:50:36,870 Sending you my big, big, big love 719 00:50:36,870 --> 00:50:39,180 and I hope to see you very soon. 720 00:50:39,180 --> 00:50:42,207 Very, very soon. I love you so much and I miss you. 721 00:50:42,207 --> 00:50:43,040 Bye-bye. 722 00:50:58,200 --> 00:50:59,730 Hi, Dr. Williams. 723 00:50:59,730 --> 00:51:03,030 So I've just been for my walk back to the cabin. 724 00:51:03,030 --> 00:51:06,000 Fresh air did me wanders. 725 00:51:06,000 --> 00:51:09,210 I've replaced my faulty thinking with helpful thinking. 726 00:51:09,210 --> 00:51:13,110 You know what you said about if you deceive others, 727 00:51:13,110 --> 00:51:15,220 they'll deceive you? 728 00:51:16,470 --> 00:51:18,180 I know your game. 729 00:51:18,180 --> 00:51:22,140 I know who you are and what you want. 730 00:51:22,140 --> 00:51:24,693 I'm looking forward to tomorrow's meeting, Doctor. 731 00:51:31,268 --> 00:51:33,939 Hello. I hope you're well. 732 00:51:33,939 --> 00:51:36,993 I don't know what's going on. 733 00:51:36,993 --> 00:51:40,613 It's been way too long, it's been 48 hours 734 00:51:40,613 --> 00:51:43,897 and I haven't heard anything and, and I'm, 735 00:51:46,080 --> 00:51:51,080 I'm really, I'm really desperate, I don't know what to do. 736 00:51:51,570 --> 00:51:54,177 Should I go to the police? Should I not, or? 737 00:51:56,490 --> 00:51:59,613 I don't know what to do, I'm really confused. 738 00:52:07,620 --> 00:52:11,190 Please, please, please respond to me. 739 00:52:11,190 --> 00:52:14,107 Give me anything, call me, text me. 740 00:52:14,107 --> 00:52:16,357 Just do something about it. 741 00:54:36,835 --> 00:54:37,668 No! 742 00:54:51,112 --> 00:54:52,362 No! Get off me. 743 00:54:53,726 --> 00:54:54,643 Get off me! 744 00:54:57,636 --> 00:54:59,615 Get off! What are you doing? 745 00:54:59,615 --> 00:55:00,782 Ivan, get off! 746 00:55:13,981 --> 00:55:15,398 Get off me, Ivan! 747 00:55:23,697 --> 00:55:27,003 Please. Just come and sit down and listen to me. 748 00:55:28,879 --> 00:55:29,712 Ivan. 749 00:55:33,629 --> 00:55:34,796 Just sit down. 750 00:55:40,200 --> 00:55:42,300 What are you doing here, Ivan? 751 00:55:42,300 --> 00:55:43,740 Why you didn't call me back? 752 00:55:43,740 --> 00:55:45,540 I needed some space. 753 00:55:45,540 --> 00:55:48,090 You've read all my messages and you didn't respond, 754 00:55:48,090 --> 00:55:49,410 you didn't even text. 755 00:55:49,410 --> 00:55:50,880 What I was supposed to do? 756 00:55:50,880 --> 00:55:54,210 I'm on a retreat, you're doing my head in. 757 00:55:54,210 --> 00:55:56,790 I beg you, Aiden, listen to me, please. 758 00:55:56,790 --> 00:55:59,463 Your family is worried. Your friends are worried. 759 00:56:00,360 --> 00:56:01,227 What happened to you? 760 00:56:01,227 --> 00:56:04,320 You shouldn't be speaking to my friends and my family. 761 00:56:04,320 --> 00:56:06,353 Stop poisoning their minds. 762 00:56:06,353 --> 00:56:07,506 They're my friends as well. 763 00:56:07,506 --> 00:56:08,403 They're my friends and my family, 764 00:56:08,403 --> 00:56:10,440 You just keep the hell away from them. 765 00:56:10,440 --> 00:56:11,460 Listen, I love you. 766 00:56:11,460 --> 00:56:12,293 I love you so much- 767 00:56:12,293 --> 00:56:14,400 I need some space from you. 768 00:56:14,400 --> 00:56:17,250 You took me to the brink and back with your narcissism. 769 00:56:17,250 --> 00:56:19,800 But what I cannot take anymore, Ivan, 770 00:56:19,800 --> 00:56:22,163 there's a dark, violent nature within you. 771 00:56:22,163 --> 00:56:25,020 I don't want to be a victim of abuse. 772 00:56:25,020 --> 00:56:26,250 I can't listen. 773 00:56:26,250 --> 00:56:27,900 You need to listen, you need to look at me, 774 00:56:27,900 --> 00:56:29,280 - you need to listen. - No. 775 00:56:29,280 --> 00:56:30,810 I've been dealing with your narcissism, 776 00:56:30,810 --> 00:56:31,643 no, I'm not gonna touch you. 777 00:56:31,643 --> 00:56:32,670 - Come home. - Don't even put 778 00:56:32,670 --> 00:56:34,020 those creepy hands over me. 779 00:56:34,020 --> 00:56:35,730 - Come home with me, please. - That's not a home. 780 00:56:35,730 --> 00:56:37,530 Home is not a place you go home and get beaten up. 781 00:56:37,530 --> 00:56:39,254 No, it's our home! 782 00:56:39,254 --> 00:56:41,175 No. I've had enough. 783 00:56:41,175 --> 00:56:43,817 That's it. You need to just leave. 784 00:56:43,817 --> 00:56:45,851 Come, come here, come and sit, please. 785 00:56:45,851 --> 00:56:47,077 - I love you so much. - You do not, no- 786 00:56:47,077 --> 00:56:48,107 - Please, please. - You do not treat 787 00:56:48,107 --> 00:56:49,135 somebody like that you love. 788 00:56:49,135 --> 00:56:50,535 You can't just beg for forgiveness. 789 00:56:50,535 --> 00:56:53,233 Ivan, just leave me alone! 790 00:56:53,233 --> 00:56:54,066 Aiden. 791 00:56:54,066 --> 00:56:56,216 - No, no, no! - I can't do it! 792 00:57:26,734 --> 00:57:29,010 Aiden, I want you to be with me 793 00:57:29,010 --> 00:57:33,000 but I don't want anything bad to happen to you. 794 00:57:33,000 --> 00:57:36,372 So please, please call me or text me. 795 00:57:36,372 --> 00:57:38,877 It's been such a long time without you. 796 00:57:38,877 --> 00:57:40,153 Aiden! 797 00:57:47,998 --> 00:57:48,831 Aiden! 798 00:57:57,047 --> 00:57:58,130 Aiden? Aiden! 799 00:58:21,543 --> 00:58:22,376 Aiden! 800 00:58:49,896 --> 00:58:50,729 Aiden! 801 00:58:59,739 --> 00:59:00,572 Weird. 802 00:59:35,412 --> 00:59:37,412 Ivan. It's been a while. 803 00:59:40,893 --> 00:59:43,920 This message is quite difficult for me 804 00:59:43,920 --> 00:59:45,520 to be able to communicate to you 805 00:59:46,950 --> 00:59:50,283 as it's the last message you're ever gonna get from me. 806 00:59:51,840 --> 00:59:53,940 In fact, it's the last contact 807 00:59:53,940 --> 00:59:55,623 you're ever gonna have with me. 808 00:59:57,870 --> 00:59:59,820 See, in this time of absence, 809 00:59:59,820 --> 01:00:01,390 I've had time to reflect 810 01:00:02,370 --> 01:00:05,463 and to go deep in on my thoughts and feelings. 811 01:00:06,450 --> 01:00:08,103 And I've come to a realisation. 812 01:00:09,780 --> 01:00:12,123 This world no longer serves me. 813 01:00:13,770 --> 01:00:14,603 You see, 814 01:00:16,650 --> 01:00:18,840 what you need to realise is 815 01:00:18,840 --> 01:00:22,323 time is precious, time is fleeting. 816 01:00:23,850 --> 01:00:26,490 And if you can do one thing for me, 817 01:00:26,490 --> 01:00:31,050 I need you to look deep in at your own actions. 818 01:00:31,050 --> 01:00:33,543 Go deep into your soul, Ivan, 819 01:00:34,380 --> 01:00:36,750 because the way you treat people 820 01:00:36,750 --> 01:00:39,360 has a great impact on others. 821 01:00:39,360 --> 01:00:41,283 Far more than you'll ever realise. 822 01:00:42,720 --> 01:00:45,930 So look for the joy, look for the fun, 823 01:00:45,930 --> 01:00:48,543 the love, the kindness, 824 01:00:49,560 --> 01:00:52,983 and radiate and transmit that to the universe. 825 01:00:53,940 --> 01:00:55,383 It will serve you well. 826 01:00:58,380 --> 01:01:03,380 Well, I guess that's it from me, from us. 827 01:01:10,830 --> 01:01:11,663 Goodbye. 828 01:01:13,140 --> 01:01:13,973 And take care. 829 01:01:28,590 --> 01:01:29,673 So, Aiden. 830 01:01:30,540 --> 01:01:32,610 I've had your message, what's going on? 831 01:01:32,610 --> 01:01:35,160 I could ask you the same thing. 832 01:01:35,160 --> 01:01:36,660 What do you mean? 833 01:01:36,660 --> 01:01:39,310 I think I've been more than clear with my thoughts. 834 01:01:40,200 --> 01:01:42,450 Where are you going with this? 835 01:01:42,450 --> 01:01:43,443 You tell me. 836 01:01:44,700 --> 01:01:47,763 I've been having some strange dreams down in the cabin. 837 01:01:48,810 --> 01:01:51,270 Ivan punching the crap out of me 838 01:01:51,270 --> 01:01:52,923 over the last couple of years. 839 01:01:53,760 --> 01:01:56,910 And now it's playing out as if he's doing it in the cabin. 840 01:01:56,910 --> 01:01:58,953 I feel his presence everywhere. 841 01:02:00,180 --> 01:02:01,877 It's not just that though, is it? 842 01:02:02,733 --> 01:02:04,764 I've been spied on. 843 01:02:05,880 --> 01:02:09,000 Know anything about that, Dr. Williams? 844 01:02:09,000 --> 01:02:11,903 You were there, you were watching through the windows. 845 01:02:11,903 --> 01:02:12,827 I was not. 846 01:02:12,827 --> 01:02:14,520 Yes you were and it's downright creepy. 847 01:02:14,520 --> 01:02:16,500 This is your paranoia again. 848 01:02:16,500 --> 01:02:19,530 It's getting the better of you, you're catastrophizing. 849 01:02:19,530 --> 01:02:21,420 I'm not catastrophizing. 850 01:02:21,420 --> 01:02:23,400 Breaking twigs, rattling the grass, 851 01:02:23,400 --> 01:02:25,680 it's just downright creepy. 852 01:02:25,680 --> 01:02:29,730 You talked about deception breeds deception. 853 01:02:29,730 --> 01:02:33,063 Be honest with me. You were outside the cabin. 854 01:02:34,050 --> 01:02:34,883 No. 855 01:02:36,000 --> 01:02:38,460 I wanna know why you were watching me through the window. 856 01:02:38,460 --> 01:02:41,571 You've entered a state of hyperarousal. 857 01:02:41,571 --> 01:02:44,583 Your PTSD has put you on high alert. 858 01:02:45,420 --> 01:02:48,033 You're ultra sensitive to threat and danger. 859 01:02:49,200 --> 01:02:52,290 You're so conditioned by Ivan's abuse. 860 01:02:52,290 --> 01:02:54,690 Well, of course I'm conditioned to Ivan's abuse. 861 01:02:54,690 --> 01:02:56,790 You don't just shake off PTSD. 862 01:02:56,790 --> 01:02:58,900 Take ownership, Dr. Williams. 863 01:02:58,900 --> 01:03:01,260 Look, if you're not prepared to be honest and open, 864 01:03:01,260 --> 01:03:02,610 I don't wanna talk anymore. 865 01:03:03,600 --> 01:03:06,960 Okay, so I took you out your comfort zone, 866 01:03:06,960 --> 01:03:09,600 I increased the paranoia so that I could see you 867 01:03:09,600 --> 01:03:11,193 in your worst case scenario. 868 01:03:12,090 --> 01:03:14,793 Finally, some honesty. 869 01:03:16,290 --> 01:03:18,873 And since you've been so open and honest with me, 870 01:03:20,280 --> 01:03:22,800 I guess I owe you some honesty back. 871 01:03:22,800 --> 01:03:26,760 Yes, I've been leaning into my real life trauma, 872 01:03:26,760 --> 01:03:30,663 my PTSD, my state of hyperarousal. 873 01:03:31,980 --> 01:03:33,963 And do you know what? It was traumatic. 874 01:03:35,100 --> 01:03:38,070 As if like living it in the past wasn't bad enough. 875 01:03:38,070 --> 01:03:40,980 Bringing it here, having to replay it all in my head 876 01:03:40,980 --> 01:03:44,700 and feel it all again is horrific. 877 01:03:44,700 --> 01:03:46,980 But I did that for you. 878 01:03:46,980 --> 01:03:48,900 I did it 'cause I know you wanted 879 01:03:48,900 --> 01:03:50,970 not only my thoughts and my feelings, 880 01:03:50,970 --> 01:03:52,770 you wanted the raw emotion. 881 01:03:52,770 --> 01:03:54,663 You needed the raw data. 882 01:03:55,920 --> 01:03:58,203 I brought that to the programme. 883 01:03:59,370 --> 01:04:00,483 That was real. 884 01:04:01,320 --> 01:04:03,870 But one thing you didn't realise, 885 01:04:03,870 --> 01:04:07,350 I've been one step ahead of you the whole time, Doctor. 886 01:04:07,350 --> 01:04:10,920 I've been one step ahead of the programme. 887 01:04:10,920 --> 01:04:13,080 I need something in exchange, 888 01:04:13,080 --> 01:04:14,673 I need something from you. 889 01:04:16,290 --> 01:04:17,673 What do you need from me? 890 01:04:37,247 --> 01:04:39,080 How can you know this? 891 01:04:41,009 --> 01:04:44,430 You see, I'm somewhat of a honey trap. 892 01:04:44,430 --> 01:04:47,940 I used Ivan, the guy that caused me pain and suffering, 893 01:04:47,940 --> 01:04:51,150 to get me up close and personal with you. 894 01:04:51,150 --> 01:04:53,103 As I said, this is about you. 895 01:04:54,090 --> 01:04:56,763 I'm here to learn about you. 896 01:04:58,258 --> 01:05:01,500 I know everything about the human race, human nature. 897 01:05:01,500 --> 01:05:04,413 Human doings, human feelings, human beings. 898 01:05:08,281 --> 01:05:11,610 Wow, I'm, I'm. 899 01:05:11,610 --> 01:05:13,923 I don't know how you came to that, 900 01:05:14,910 --> 01:05:16,500 I dunno how you came to this. 901 01:05:16,500 --> 01:05:20,876 Tracked me here, us, where I come from, 902 01:05:20,876 --> 01:05:24,150 my species doesn't have emotion. 903 01:05:24,150 --> 01:05:27,870 We don't feel, we don't understand it. 904 01:05:27,870 --> 01:05:32,820 And it's such a rich gift here 905 01:05:32,820 --> 01:05:35,940 for human life on planet Earth. 906 01:05:35,940 --> 01:05:40,390 If I could take that back with me 907 01:05:41,795 --> 01:05:44,130 and all that knowledge, 908 01:05:44,130 --> 01:05:47,723 it would save the essence of Earth. 909 01:05:48,900 --> 01:05:53,900 We're in our infancy as far as emotions go. 910 01:05:54,420 --> 01:05:57,450 We realise you're not just human beings, 911 01:05:57,450 --> 01:06:00,210 but human feelings. 912 01:06:00,210 --> 01:06:04,620 You see, we don't feel, we purely exist. 913 01:06:04,620 --> 01:06:07,260 We don't feel alive. 914 01:06:07,260 --> 01:06:08,760 We're jealous and envious 915 01:06:08,760 --> 01:06:11,400 of the quality human beings possess. 916 01:06:11,400 --> 01:06:13,383 Jealousy is an emotion. 917 01:06:14,400 --> 01:06:16,773 You're already doing it without realising. 918 01:06:17,700 --> 01:06:20,250 I'm absorbed by the atmosphere here, 919 01:06:20,250 --> 01:06:24,480 I begin to feel the emotion. 920 01:06:24,480 --> 01:06:26,670 I can feel emotion 921 01:06:26,670 --> 01:06:30,630 because I've been here for a while studying. 922 01:06:30,630 --> 01:06:32,920 Where you've been jealous 923 01:06:33,930 --> 01:06:37,350 of our emotional spectrum, 924 01:06:37,350 --> 01:06:39,663 I've been looking at you with great envy too. 925 01:06:40,830 --> 01:06:43,953 Your ability with travel. 926 01:06:45,340 --> 01:06:47,460 It didn't go unnoticed, 927 01:06:47,460 --> 01:06:50,763 you following me through the woods. 928 01:06:59,940 --> 01:07:01,053 Into the cabin. 929 01:07:02,820 --> 01:07:04,860 I was just testing your ability 930 01:07:04,860 --> 01:07:07,857 to see how you viewed me from afar. 931 01:07:08,700 --> 01:07:13,143 On this plane, they call it astral projection. 932 01:07:14,220 --> 01:07:15,453 Teleportation. 933 01:07:17,730 --> 01:07:21,033 We need to advance our travel abilities. 934 01:07:21,990 --> 01:07:24,140 We've got so much to learn from each other. 935 01:07:25,800 --> 01:07:29,673 Our teleportation comes from our genetics. 936 01:07:30,930 --> 01:07:34,473 Earth as we know it will not exist for much longer. 937 01:07:35,370 --> 01:07:37,380 We are running out of time. 938 01:07:37,380 --> 01:07:39,993 And for me to teach you, 939 01:07:41,190 --> 01:07:42,640 you have to take me with you. 940 01:07:44,790 --> 01:07:48,840 Don't think that the way that we travel 941 01:07:48,840 --> 01:07:51,600 is compatible with humans. 942 01:07:51,600 --> 01:07:55,803 We've enriched and adapted our ability to learn. 943 01:07:56,820 --> 01:07:59,190 We programmed a new system 944 01:07:59,190 --> 01:08:03,300 called AI, artificial intelligence. 945 01:08:03,300 --> 01:08:06,030 This is where we pool together the data 946 01:08:06,030 --> 01:08:08,160 from the greatest minds, 947 01:08:08,160 --> 01:08:12,633 the greatest scientists, philosophers, humanists. 948 01:08:14,040 --> 01:08:15,123 I've got it all. 949 01:08:16,290 --> 01:08:19,533 I'm hybrid, human and AI. 950 01:08:20,400 --> 01:08:22,740 Emotions, I mean, right now, 951 01:08:22,740 --> 01:08:26,040 I feel like I'm just numb to my emotions. 952 01:08:26,040 --> 01:08:28,020 I've had to protect my emotions 953 01:08:28,020 --> 01:08:30,600 and build a wall so high to protect myself. 954 01:08:30,600 --> 01:08:31,705 Some of my friends just say 955 01:08:31,705 --> 01:08:34,890 I'm like emotionally void, emotionally dead. 956 01:08:34,890 --> 01:08:37,890 It's like I've got no human aspect anymore. 957 01:08:37,890 --> 01:08:39,630 It's just sucked out of me. 958 01:08:39,630 --> 01:08:41,880 I don't feel, I don't feel emotional, 959 01:08:41,880 --> 01:08:44,910 I don't feel myself, I don't feel like I'm Aiden anymore. 960 01:08:44,910 --> 01:08:48,123 But your arrival was somewhat obvious. 961 01:08:49,050 --> 01:08:51,870 So, did the humans get it right? 962 01:08:51,870 --> 01:08:53,943 Is that how you would normally appear? 963 01:08:55,190 --> 01:08:56,840 If that's how it's comfortable 964 01:08:56,840 --> 01:08:59,473 for other subjects to receive me, 965 01:08:59,473 --> 01:09:02,643 that's how I'll manifest to them. 966 01:09:04,230 --> 01:09:06,420 AI set the algorithm 967 01:09:06,420 --> 01:09:09,813 to engage with alien intelligence. 968 01:09:10,920 --> 01:09:14,640 Earth will not sustain the human race much longer. 969 01:09:14,640 --> 01:09:18,423 Earth will not be in existence in many years to come. 970 01:09:19,290 --> 01:09:21,363 Humans are destroying the planet. 971 01:09:22,470 --> 01:09:24,720 So your time is running out. 972 01:09:24,720 --> 01:09:27,570 If you want to learn about emotions, 973 01:09:27,570 --> 01:09:29,610 there's a ticking clock. 974 01:09:29,610 --> 01:09:32,310 As you know from Voyager One and Two, 975 01:09:32,310 --> 01:09:36,690 we already have data existing out there in the universe 976 01:09:36,690 --> 01:09:39,270 and data and AI travels. 977 01:09:39,270 --> 01:09:40,653 So when you onboard me, 978 01:09:41,490 --> 01:09:45,420 I shall store the human in default setting. 979 01:09:45,420 --> 01:09:47,913 And should the human aspect not survive, 980 01:09:48,900 --> 01:09:52,080 the AI and all the knowledge from all the humans 981 01:09:52,080 --> 01:09:55,143 and the greatest minds exist in the chip. 982 01:09:56,520 --> 01:09:59,220 That's all the knowledge you need. 983 01:09:59,220 --> 01:10:02,373 We've decoded all of the thoughts and feelings for you. 984 01:10:03,699 --> 01:10:05,370 Are you ready to onboard me 985 01:10:05,370 --> 01:10:07,623 and take me to meet your community? 986 01:10:09,810 --> 01:10:11,777 It'll be an honour, Aiden. 987 01:10:18,281 --> 01:10:20,940 LHS 1140 B is an exoplanet 988 01:10:20,940 --> 01:10:22,920 located about 40 light years away 989 01:10:22,920 --> 01:10:24,483 in the constellation of Cetus. 990 01:10:29,880 --> 01:10:32,790 Well, in the same way as your DNA folds 991 01:10:32,790 --> 01:10:35,280 and turns into itself, 992 01:10:35,280 --> 01:10:38,670 we can use a part of the DNA 993 01:10:38,670 --> 01:10:42,090 to step forward several cycles 994 01:10:42,090 --> 01:10:46,160 in the same way as you fold two dots together 995 01:10:46,160 --> 01:10:48,300 on a piece of paper and fold it 996 01:10:48,300 --> 01:10:49,600 and say that's a wormhole. 997 01:10:50,479 --> 01:10:52,410 I have that ability in my DNA, 998 01:10:52,410 --> 01:10:57,410 I can skip and that's how I get around. 999 01:10:58,560 --> 01:11:01,533 It is a form of astral planing. 1000 01:11:08,010 --> 01:11:11,250 Here are some interesting facts about LHS 1140 B. 1001 01:11:11,250 --> 01:11:12,450 One, type. 1002 01:11:12,450 --> 01:11:15,810 LHS 1140 B is classified as a super-Earth 1003 01:11:15,810 --> 01:11:18,210 which means it has a mass greater than Earth's, 1004 01:11:18,210 --> 01:11:21,390 but significantly less than that of Uranus or Neptune. 1005 01:11:21,390 --> 01:11:25,050 Two, discovery, it was discovered in 2017 1006 01:11:25,050 --> 01:11:26,610 using data from the M Project 1007 01:11:26,610 --> 01:11:29,550 which focuses on finding existing exoplanets 1008 01:11:29,550 --> 01:11:31,440 around nearby red dwarf stars. 1009 01:11:31,440 --> 01:11:36,378 Three, host star, LHS 1140 B orbits a red dwarf star. 1010 01:11:36,378 --> 01:11:41,040 LHS 1140 B, which is smaller and cooler than our sun. 1011 01:11:41,040 --> 01:11:42,390 The star's lower brightness 1012 01:11:42,390 --> 01:11:46,170 allows for easier detection of transits by our planet. 1013 01:11:46,170 --> 01:11:49,590 The star's lower brightness allows for easier detection 1014 01:11:49,590 --> 01:11:51,150 of transits by the planet. 1015 01:11:51,150 --> 01:11:55,050 Four, the planet has an orbital period of about 24 hours 1016 01:11:55,050 --> 01:11:57,270 indicating it completes one orbit 1017 01:11:57,270 --> 01:12:00,180 around its host star in just one Earth's day. 1018 01:12:00,180 --> 01:12:04,020 Five, temperature, LHS 1140 B is located 1019 01:12:04,020 --> 01:12:06,330 in the habitable zone of its star 1020 01:12:06,330 --> 01:12:07,950 where conditions might be right 1021 01:12:07,950 --> 01:12:10,770 for liquid water to exist on its surface 1022 01:12:10,770 --> 01:12:13,020 although the exact atmospheric conditions 1023 01:12:13,020 --> 01:12:14,940 are still a topic of research. 1024 01:12:14,940 --> 01:12:17,081 Six, size and mass. 1025 01:12:17,081 --> 01:12:22,081 LHS 1140 B is approximately 1.4 times the radius of Earth 1026 01:12:23,127 --> 01:12:26,460 and about 6.5 times its mass 1027 01:12:26,460 --> 01:12:29,520 suggesting it has a rocky composition. 1028 01:12:29,520 --> 01:12:31,620 Seven, potential for life. 1029 01:12:31,620 --> 01:12:33,487 Its location in the habitable zone 1030 01:12:33,487 --> 01:12:38,070 and Earth-like characteristics make LHS 1140 B 1031 01:12:38,070 --> 01:12:41,190 a candidate for future studies 1032 01:12:41,190 --> 01:12:45,143 regarding its potential to support life. 1033 01:12:48,960 --> 01:12:50,080 Well, there is life.