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[gentle music playing]
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Anita: I've been called a witch,
a slut, and a murderer.
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I've been hounded by the police
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and slandered in the press.
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Maybe people confuse me
with the characters
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I played in films.
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- [glass breaking]
- [gunshot]
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Anita: Like I'm an empty sign
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on to which they project
their fantasies
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and their shortcomings.
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But I don't need
to settle scores.
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I'm reclaiming my soul.
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[gentle music concludes]
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Anita: I write as a woman
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searching for
another adventure.
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Marlon: We're not
a nostalgic family in any way.
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Yes, we had some great times,
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and some were not that great.
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But we don't reminisce
about those sort of times.
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It just wasn't in our nature.
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My mother, especially,
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is not someone
who'd dwell in the past at all.
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Melancholy.
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Anita never suffered
from that sort of thing
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or at least
never appeared outwardly.
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She was just like, "Yeah, well,
that was that. Let's move on."
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So when she died,
me and my children
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started going through
documents and drawers
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to try to find legal papers.
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And I was really shocked
to find Anita's manuscript
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right there perfectly typed
in the box.
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Quite astonishing.
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It was important that
eventually she said something.
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And that's what it is.
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Her intention was not
to be a housewife
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or the wife of anyone really.
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Not even Keith's.
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She had bigger balls
than any of them did, probably,
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in a lot of ways.
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[gentle music playing]
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Keith: I mean, Anita,
she was a unique piece of work.
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I mean, I've never quite
figured it all out.
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Basically, I was trying
to keep up with her
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most of the time.
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And the most of the time,
it was fun.
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Anita: This isn't really
an autobiography.
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It's more like memory images.
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A traveler's tale
through a landscape
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of dreams and shadows.
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I don't think the lawyers
will like it very much.
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[gentle music concludes]
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Volker: We had no secrets
with each other.
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Anita and I, we had
quite an intense friendship.
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As soon as we saw each other,
you know,
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we rushed to each other
and hugged each other.
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And, for her,
it was so easy and uncomplicated
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because it was kind of
understood from the beginning,
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there's no sex between us.
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So let's find a different
kind of relationship.
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[upbeat music playing]
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I was looking for an actress
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that wouldn't look
like an actress.
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I asked a fashion photographer
whether he knew anybody.
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And he said, "Yes, I do."
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"I just photographed her
on the highest German mountain,
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the Zugspitze,
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and she's absolutely incredible
and wild."
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Anita had vulnerability.
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Even though she was like
a tough cookie,
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there was a really, like,
an earnest quality
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in her as well.
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I thought if she remains
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as natural as possible
in front of the camera,
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so much the better.
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I was extremely close friends
with Anita,
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but I always wondered
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- whether she had any family.
- [upbeat music concludes]
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I never really knew
what was with her father,
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what was with her mother.
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Did she have a sister
or a brother?
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She would never speak about it.
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[in French]
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[somber music playing]
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Anita: [in English] I was always
a wild child,
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rebellious,
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causing my family problems.
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They said acting
was for prostitutes.
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That I'd dirtied
the Pallenberg name.
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My father
was a classical musician.
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My mother did everything
she could to please him.
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My great-grandfather
was the painter Arnold Bocklin.
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Famous for his paintings
of bestial satyrs
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and sleeping nymphs.
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Bohemian aristocracy.
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[tense music playing]
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We lost everything
during the war.
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[plane engines roar]
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Anita: My earliest memories
are hearing airplanes
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dropping bombs.
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[bombs whistling, exploding]
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Anita: I didn't learn to walk,
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I ran.
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[distant gunshots, explosions]
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[somber music playing]
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Anita: We were moved around
in cattle cars.
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Sliding doors, chaos, heat.
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It affected me deeply.
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[somber music concludes]
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Metka: The war in Rome,
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it was a terrible period.
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So repressive in all senses.
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And the situation
at Anita's home was the same.
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The parents,
they were old-fashioned.
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Very conservative.
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No hugging, no kissing,
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no hotness of the heart.
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And I think that Anita
really couldn't stand it.
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It was not for her.
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She was done in a different way.
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She wanted to be hugged,
she wanted to have affection.
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She wanted to feel things.
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She loved to feel things.
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Anita and I were going
in the same school,
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the German school.
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We had nuns.
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German nuns. Can you imagine?
[chuckles]
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Of course,
you want to break the rules.
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And in the night,
four, five, six of us going up
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and trying to smoke cigarettes
at 16, you know?
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And they got us.
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[laughs]
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We were the devils. [laughs]
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Anita was my teacher
in everything. Always.
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She loved Fats Domino.
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And she taught me
how to do rock and roll
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with that one, two, three, four,
one, two, three, four.
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And showing with the feet.
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Dancing and pulling
and pushing.
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♪ ["Boogie Woogie Baby"
by Fats Domino plays] ♪
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♪ She's my boogie woogie baby ♪
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She was my myth.
I wanted to be her.
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I want to be Anita.
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♪ Boogie-woogie, baby
Boogie all the time ♪
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Metka: She was a sparkle.
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She was sparkling, you know?
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Where she was walking,
it was going tick, tick,
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tick, tick of sparkles
of the eyes she had.
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The way she was looking.
The smile she was having.
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The way she was moving.
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The way she moves. [chuckles]
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This was Anita.
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[song concludes]
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America, because of the jeans,
the music, the rock and roll,
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America, of course,
it was the dreamland to go.
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We really wanted to go
to America.
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All of us.
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Anita: At 19,
I escaped to New York.
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I hardly spoke any English,
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but when I got there,
I had an awakening.
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[rock music playing]
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Anita: It was 1963, the year
President Kennedy was shot.
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With a few addresses
in my pocket
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and some Italian charm,
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I slid into the downtown scene.
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I washed Jasper Johns' brushes.
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I met Andy Warhol
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and his rabbits.
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At a party, Allen Ginsberg
collected pubic hair
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from famous people.
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He didn't ask me.
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I loved the feeling
of culture exploding.
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Stash: Being in New York,
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Anita and I were great friends
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and hung out always together.
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We were grooving along
in our own scene.
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And she quickly became
a very close friend.
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I came from this
artistic family as well...
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- [rock music concludes]
- ...so we had that in common.
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Anita had an amazing life force
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an amazing joie de vivre,
you know?
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She had a view about the arts,
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about pop art,
about a lot of things.
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And, I mean,
who could look like Anita?
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[rock music playing]
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Anita: I was never
a serious model.
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I hated the hairdresser,
false eyelashes,
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and all that shit.
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But modeling sent me
all over the world.
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And it was in Munich
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that I first met
The Rolling Stones.
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It was 1965.
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[crowd cheering]
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♪ ["I'm Alright"
by The Rolling Stones plays] ♪
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♪ I wanna
Tell you something, baby ♪
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Anita: Mick wasn't dancing
in those days.
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He was still playing maracas.
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Keith was really shy.
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[crowd cheering]
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♪ 'Cause it's alright ♪
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♪ Yeah, it's alright ♪
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Anita: The concert was wild.
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♪ It's alright ♪
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Anita: Police had to push
the audience back.
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[crowd cheering and screaming]
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Mick got so scared,
he had to hide.
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I loved every minute of it.
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It sounds ridiculous, I know,
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but my friends dared me
to kidnap one of them.
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[crowd screaming]
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Anita: I got backstage
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and noticed Brian Jones
right away.
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He was the most beautiful one
in the group.
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And he had
striking intelligence.
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I offered the band some hash
and Brian said yes.
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No need for kidnapping.
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[gentle guitar music playing]
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Anita: We became inseparable.
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Everybody said
we looked like twins.
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Yeah, I believe that two people
can fall in love very quickly.
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And I think they can find out
about each other
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very quickly if they're in love.
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Anita: My doppelganger.
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My Brian.
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It was time to leave New York.
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When we moved in together,
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our flat in London became
a crash pad for everybody.
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Keith: Brian had got
this apartment
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with his new girlfriend, Anita.
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Anita was, even to us,
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who've been around.
She was incredibly intriguing.
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It was difficult
to put into words.
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Her knowledge of things
was just fantastic, you know?
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I found myself going round
to Brian's more and more,
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and not to see Brian,
of course, but to see Anita.
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Marianne: The flat
was an incredible mess.
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They never decorated it.
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I don't know what
we all found so fascinating.
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I think it must have
been Anita.
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She really brought something
to The Stones.
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She was only 23
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but I was only 18.
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[applause]
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♪ He walks along
Singing his fairy song ♪
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♪ Picking up magic
That grows at his feet ♪
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Marianne: I was making music.
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And I was acting.
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And I fell in love with Mick.
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But neither Anita nor I
wanted to be with them
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because we wanted
some of their power.
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We had our own power.
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[motorcycle engine revs]
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Stash: You know,
Anita broke through
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a sort of very sexist time.
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And she demanded that
people follow on her terms
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rather than
on anybody else's terms.
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And her influence
was a tremendous one,
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especially on Brian.
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You know, she got him far more
sophisticated than he was.
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By then, I was in London,
playing in a pop band.
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I was part of the whole
Rolling Stones scene,
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and that's when
the psychedelics come in,
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where suddenly there's this
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whole other dimension
that opened up.
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[sitar music playing]
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Anita: We started doing acid
and I stopped modeling.
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You couldn't do both,
and I loved acid.
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[ominous music playing]
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Anita: But things
got a little spooky
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when Brian started
to have bad trips.
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He saw monsters falling
out of the cupboards
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and enemies everywhere.
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He had terrible asthma
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and he started
taking amphetamines.
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STP, Mandrax,
barbiturates, Dexedrine,
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all prescription fucking shit.
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Brian: We are
in the swimming pool of a motel
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which happened to be
by the roadside and...
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Anita: He started
to become aggressive.
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Some typical Georgia idiot,
you know?
282
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And Georgia is full of idiots.
283
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man: Anything that you'd like
to say right now
284
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- before the camera rolls out?
- Goodbye.
285
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- Goodbye.
- Goodbye.
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[distorted laughter]
287
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Anita:
His sudden rages scared me.
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I had to learn
to stand my ground.
289
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Marianne: He would hit her.
290
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It was really awful.
291
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And Anita fought back.
292
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She would just
punch him straight back
293
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and really hurt Brian,
294
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'cause he was quite weedy.
295
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Brian was very weak, you know?
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That's why he was
so cruel and
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physically violent, I think.
298
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But she never complained, no.
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She just got on with it.
300
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[ominous music concludes]
301
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Anita: When I was sent
my first film script,
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he was so jealous
he ripped it up.
303
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[rattling]
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man: [speaking German]
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Anita: [in English]
I did it anyway.
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man: [speaking German]
307
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Volker: [in English]
I'd read in a newspaper
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an article about a prostitute
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who, in a brawl,
had killed her pimp...
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[in German]
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[tense music playing]
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- [glass shatters]
- [gunshot]
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Volker: ...and felt
no guilt about it,
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so she hired two guys.
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[man in German]
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Volker: [in English]
The three of them drive
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to the countryside
to dispose of the corpse.
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[in German]
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Volker: [in English] But they
have such a good time
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in the countryside
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that they forget about
the guy in the trunk.
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[in German]
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[exciting music playing]
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[chuckles]
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[yells]
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[metal clangs]
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Volker: [in English]
On the windshield,
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we had written
on a little paper,
329
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- "Fuck the message." [laughs]
- [exciting music concludes]
330
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Meaning this movie
has no meaning.
331
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I was very surprised
when one day,
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she showed up with Brian Jones
333
00:22:31,088 --> 00:22:33,352
in the small town of Munich,
a Stone.
334
00:22:35,136 --> 00:22:38,008
It was obvious
that Brian was very much
335
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depending on her affection.
336
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He was very insecure.
337
00:22:44,972 --> 00:22:47,757
Anita told me that
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Brian would like to do
the music for the film.
339
00:22:51,805 --> 00:22:53,763
Of course, I said yes.
340
00:22:54,547 --> 00:22:56,897
If you are offered
a Rolling Stone
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to score your movie,
in those days,
342
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I mean, you triple
the value of your film.
343
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At first, he was very,
very serious about it
344
00:23:08,952 --> 00:23:10,954
and he had wonderful ideas.
345
00:23:12,782 --> 00:23:14,697
But two months later,
346
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we could hardly get him
to the studio.
347
00:23:18,571 --> 00:23:22,226
He had somehow lost it.
348
00:23:24,185 --> 00:23:25,752
Keith was there,
349
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but probably to
play the guitar,
350
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and he saw how everything
was going down the drain.
351
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He started to give a hand
352
00:23:35,457 --> 00:23:38,460
and more and more took over.
353
00:23:39,026 --> 00:23:40,636
[gentle guitar music playing]
354
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Keith: Things have been running
a little fray in the band,
355
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so I thought I'd sort of
mend fences with Brian.
356
00:23:52,300 --> 00:23:54,345
And at the same time,
I have to admit,
357
00:23:54,345 --> 00:23:56,609
I found Anita fascinating.
358
00:23:58,524 --> 00:24:00,613
There's that thing
across the room, you know?
359
00:24:00,613 --> 00:24:03,659
The elephant in the room. Hmm.
360
00:24:07,141 --> 00:24:09,839
At that time, the band,
to me, was, uh...
361
00:24:09,839 --> 00:24:11,232
It was my baby.
362
00:24:13,277 --> 00:24:16,498
So, you know,
it's a very delicate situation.
363
00:24:20,981 --> 00:24:22,765
[gentle guitar music concludes]
364
00:24:25,638 --> 00:24:27,988
Anita: When Keith was there,
Brian wouldn't hit me.
365
00:24:29,598 --> 00:24:31,252
So thank God for Keith.
366
00:24:33,472 --> 00:24:35,822
Looking after Brian
became so difficult,
367
00:24:36,170 --> 00:24:37,824
I ended up downing vodka and...
368
00:24:38,215 --> 00:24:39,913
God knows what else
every night.
369
00:24:45,353 --> 00:24:48,661
[crowd cheering]
370
00:24:49,183 --> 00:24:50,532
Anita: Trouble was coming.
371
00:24:52,403 --> 00:24:55,494
Brian swallowed drugs
in front of a reporter
372
00:24:55,885 --> 00:24:57,583
and set off a wave of busts.
373
00:24:59,976 --> 00:25:02,892
reporter: A national newspaper
had tipped off the police
374
00:25:02,892 --> 00:25:04,372
that it would be
worth their while
375
00:25:04,372 --> 00:25:05,982
to raid Richards' home
for drugs.
376
00:25:05,982 --> 00:25:09,595
Jones admitted that he'd allowed
his flat in Courtfield Road
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to be used for drug taking.
378
00:25:11,118 --> 00:25:12,554
reporter:
The jury have had to decide
379
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did Keith Richard know
of the LSD,
380
00:25:14,338 --> 00:25:16,166
which police found
in his jacket pocket.
381
00:25:17,777 --> 00:25:20,475
Keith: I got busted with Mick
in my house.
382
00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:22,825
It was an acid trip.
383
00:25:22,825 --> 00:25:24,914
I mean, we were all
just coming down.
384
00:25:24,914 --> 00:25:27,177
There's a knock at the door.
385
00:25:28,614 --> 00:25:29,876
It was the law.
386
00:25:32,052 --> 00:25:35,925
So we've been busted,
and now we're out on bail.
387
00:25:35,925 --> 00:25:37,100
And, uh...
388
00:25:37,536 --> 00:25:44,281
run away was our first,
you know, manly response.
389
00:25:44,281 --> 00:25:48,459
So that was-- Let's run away
just for a bit,
390
00:25:48,459 --> 00:25:51,027
until we have
to turn up in court, you know.
391
00:25:52,638 --> 00:25:54,335
So we arranged this trip.
392
00:25:55,031 --> 00:25:56,555
"Let's go to Morocco."
393
00:25:56,555 --> 00:26:01,472
[rock music playing]
394
00:26:02,386 --> 00:26:06,652
I end up in my car
with Anita and Brian.
395
00:26:11,439 --> 00:26:14,616
It has gone from an apartment
396
00:26:14,616 --> 00:26:19,447
to this very intense car ride.
397
00:26:25,845 --> 00:26:27,194
We stopped in Paris.
398
00:26:27,194 --> 00:26:29,805
Got incredibly stoned
for a couple of days.
399
00:26:30,676 --> 00:26:32,025
[rock music concludes]
400
00:26:32,634 --> 00:26:34,897
Keith: But our aim
is to get to Tangier.
401
00:26:36,812 --> 00:26:38,118
And then one day,
402
00:26:38,771 --> 00:26:42,296
Brian falls incredibly ill.
403
00:26:44,385 --> 00:26:46,082
He was very asthmatic
404
00:26:46,082 --> 00:26:47,910
but I don't think it
was asthma.
405
00:26:48,171 --> 00:26:51,348
Brian, sometimes,
he takes so much shit
406
00:26:51,348 --> 00:26:55,570
that he just needed to be
revamped a few days
407
00:26:55,570 --> 00:26:56,745
in machinery.
408
00:26:58,268 --> 00:27:01,794
And the decision
was to leave him there.
409
00:27:05,667 --> 00:27:09,628
I presumed that Anita
would stay with Brian,
410
00:27:12,456 --> 00:27:15,111
so I was very surprised
the next day
411
00:27:15,111 --> 00:27:17,810
when Anita's going, "Let's go."
412
00:27:17,810 --> 00:27:19,463
[alluring music playing]
413
00:27:22,684 --> 00:27:24,251
Keith: And now there were two.
414
00:27:31,475 --> 00:27:34,087
Anita: At first, I felt bad
leaving Brian behind.
415
00:27:35,566 --> 00:27:38,265
But then it was a relief.
416
00:27:41,224 --> 00:27:42,835
I knew my way around Europe.
417
00:27:43,139 --> 00:27:44,663
I felt more in control.
418
00:27:52,583 --> 00:27:56,326
Keith and I smoked hash,
big spliffs and poppers.
419
00:27:58,764 --> 00:28:00,679
And we played songs,
420
00:28:01,201 --> 00:28:04,073
a secretive communication
with records.
421
00:28:13,039 --> 00:28:14,693
I couldn't hide it.
422
00:28:15,606 --> 00:28:20,307
I found him very attractive,
very sexy.
423
00:28:25,138 --> 00:28:29,533
[waves crashing, wind blowing]
424
00:28:36,062 --> 00:28:38,978
Anita: My night with Keith
was a revelation,
425
00:28:40,109 --> 00:28:42,808
to have someone loving
and tender.
426
00:28:45,636 --> 00:28:49,075
He'd look at me
and I'd melt inside.
427
00:28:57,518 --> 00:29:00,216
The next day, we tried
to pretend it didn't happen.
428
00:29:02,131 --> 00:29:03,916
We had to be really careful.
429
00:29:04,481 --> 00:29:07,354
If Brian found out,
he would kill us.
430
00:29:07,920 --> 00:29:10,749
[mellow music playing]
431
00:29:22,412 --> 00:29:25,241
Keith: Suddenly, Anita,
from just being
432
00:29:25,241 --> 00:29:26,895
this... I don't know.
433
00:29:26,895 --> 00:29:30,812
To me, at the time,
a very confusing situation,
434
00:29:30,812 --> 00:29:32,205
made everything clear.
435
00:29:35,599 --> 00:29:37,993
I was bursting in love
with Anita.
436
00:29:41,997 --> 00:29:43,694
Her independence,
437
00:29:44,086 --> 00:29:47,524
her absolute determination
to be
438
00:29:47,829 --> 00:29:49,570
whatever you'd so-call "free."
439
00:29:53,704 --> 00:29:55,968
It bewildered me to start with.
440
00:29:56,925 --> 00:29:58,753
And then I started to realize
441
00:29:58,753 --> 00:30:02,365
that both of us
were these war babies, you see?
442
00:30:04,454 --> 00:30:08,850
The war permeated
your whole upbringing.
443
00:30:13,202 --> 00:30:16,292
Anita just wanted
to fucking kick it all over.
444
00:30:16,553 --> 00:30:18,207
[mellow music concludes]
445
00:30:24,910 --> 00:30:27,347
Keith: But then by the time
we got to Marrakesh,
446
00:30:27,738 --> 00:30:29,828
Brian has rejoined us.
447
00:30:31,133 --> 00:30:33,353
Now it's getting complicated.
448
00:30:37,139 --> 00:30:39,185
Anita: Brian didn't finish
his treatment.
449
00:30:41,970 --> 00:30:43,450
Everyone was on edge.
450
00:30:47,062 --> 00:30:49,108
That night,
he picked up two prostitutes
451
00:30:49,108 --> 00:30:50,631
and told me to join in.
452
00:30:52,459 --> 00:30:53,590
I refused.
453
00:30:56,855 --> 00:30:59,727
He ordered room service
and started throwing it at me.
454
00:31:01,685 --> 00:31:04,558
Silver, cutlery, glasses.
455
00:31:05,559 --> 00:31:06,908
I was terrified.
456
00:31:11,347 --> 00:31:12,958
And that's when Keith arrived.
457
00:31:15,961 --> 00:31:18,833
He said,
"We can't go on like this."
458
00:31:20,617 --> 00:31:21,749
"Let's split."
459
00:31:27,320 --> 00:31:29,583
I can remember
our trip back to London.
460
00:31:32,194 --> 00:31:33,892
It wasn't a lover's escape.
461
00:31:38,984 --> 00:31:40,159
I was a wreck.
462
00:31:43,249 --> 00:31:44,903
We just abandoned Brian.
463
00:31:46,252 --> 00:31:47,818
We left without telling him.
464
00:31:49,211 --> 00:31:51,605
But I couldn't take it anymore.
465
00:31:58,699 --> 00:32:01,789
[seagulls squawking]
466
00:32:02,398 --> 00:32:07,926
[waves crashing]
467
00:32:11,059 --> 00:32:13,627
reporter: [in French]
468
00:32:18,327 --> 00:32:20,025
Volker: [in English]
When the picture was finished,
469
00:32:20,547 --> 00:32:23,898
we had the premier
at the Cannes Film Festival.
470
00:32:24,768 --> 00:32:27,989
- reporter: [in German]
- Yeah.
471
00:32:27,989 --> 00:32:29,382
reporter: [in German]
472
00:32:32,907 --> 00:32:36,345
reporter 2:
473
00:32:43,918 --> 00:32:47,052
[upbeat music playing]
474
00:32:47,052 --> 00:32:49,793
Volker: [in English] At first,
Anita was camera shy.
475
00:32:50,577 --> 00:32:52,753
And then quite the opposite.
476
00:32:53,014 --> 00:32:54,973
[chuckles] She loved it.
477
00:32:54,973 --> 00:32:57,627
man: [in French]
478
00:33:00,239 --> 00:33:02,806
Volker: [in English]
She did all kind of clowning
479
00:33:02,806 --> 00:33:04,460
for the photographers
480
00:33:04,460 --> 00:33:06,941
and enjoyed the whole circus.
481
00:33:12,729 --> 00:33:16,124
To walk down the red carpet
and all the glamour,
482
00:33:16,124 --> 00:33:17,778
it was fantastic.
483
00:33:19,171 --> 00:33:21,695
There was all of the entourage.
484
00:33:22,913 --> 00:33:24,524
Keith, Stash,
485
00:33:25,742 --> 00:33:27,309
a whole bunch of people,
486
00:33:27,309 --> 00:33:30,486
all dressed
in the most extravagant ways.
487
00:33:31,009 --> 00:33:32,662
man 1: Say something.
Say something groovy.
488
00:33:32,662 --> 00:33:35,404
- man 2: Say something groovy.
- Wow.
489
00:33:35,404 --> 00:33:37,102
- man 1: Oh, wow.
- man 2: Oh, wow.
490
00:33:38,364 --> 00:33:43,195
Volker: But also, of course,
as the composer of the movie,
491
00:33:43,543 --> 00:33:45,240
Brian was there.
492
00:33:48,852 --> 00:33:51,203
Stash: I found myself
in this position
493
00:33:51,203 --> 00:33:53,596
of having to go to Cannes
with Brian,
494
00:33:53,596 --> 00:33:55,294
who otherwise wouldn't go.
495
00:33:55,946 --> 00:34:00,038
Brian had an unspoken mission
to get Anita back.
496
00:34:01,213 --> 00:34:03,171
He was very contrite.
497
00:34:03,737 --> 00:34:08,220
He realized that he did
absolutely everything wrong
498
00:34:08,220 --> 00:34:10,874
during the Morocco incident.
499
00:34:12,180 --> 00:34:14,835
Anita was very kind.
500
00:34:14,835 --> 00:34:17,098
And, you know,
she could have hardened
501
00:34:17,098 --> 00:34:19,144
and said, "I refuse to see you."
502
00:34:19,883 --> 00:34:22,190
She was very tender.
503
00:34:23,061 --> 00:34:25,324
[rock music playing]
504
00:34:30,024 --> 00:34:31,460
Volker: After the premier,
505
00:34:31,721 --> 00:34:34,768
we had a wild night
of celebration.
506
00:34:36,857 --> 00:34:40,817
Everybody got stone drunk
and stoned otherwise
507
00:34:40,817 --> 00:34:43,559
and falling all over
each other.
508
00:34:45,909 --> 00:34:49,130
She was the queen of the group,
and that, she enjoyed.
509
00:34:51,089 --> 00:34:52,829
[rock music concludes]
510
00:34:53,308 --> 00:34:55,658
The day after,
late in the morning,
511
00:34:56,094 --> 00:34:59,575
I come into Anita's room
in the hotel,
512
00:34:59,923 --> 00:35:02,317
and there was Keith
having breakfast in bed.
513
00:35:03,797 --> 00:35:06,539
All I went was, "Uh-uh."
514
00:35:10,020 --> 00:35:14,590
Keith: I never really understood
quite what she saw in me.
515
00:35:18,377 --> 00:35:19,856
For some reason,
516
00:35:19,856 --> 00:35:21,815
she found me as mysterious
517
00:35:21,815 --> 00:35:23,904
and as attractive
as I found her,
518
00:35:26,776 --> 00:35:28,343
which is just incredible.
519
00:35:28,343 --> 00:35:29,910
[laughs]
520
00:35:31,346 --> 00:35:34,175
[soft rock music playing]
521
00:35:39,615 --> 00:35:41,922
reporter: [in French]
522
00:35:49,582 --> 00:35:51,279
Anita: [in English]
It was a different kind of love
523
00:35:51,279 --> 00:35:52,846
than I was used to
524
00:35:52,846 --> 00:35:55,370
and it was a good time
in my life.
525
00:35:59,853 --> 00:36:01,463
Keith was still shy.
526
00:36:01,463 --> 00:36:02,856
That's just his nature.
527
00:36:05,424 --> 00:36:08,253
I brought him out
with my Italian energy.
528
00:36:13,083 --> 00:36:15,390
Back then,
he looked like a lion,
529
00:36:15,695 --> 00:36:18,306
all natural and never
more cool.
530
00:36:23,659 --> 00:36:25,400
Keith: I was considered,
for a while,
531
00:36:25,400 --> 00:36:28,577
to be like the best dressed man
in the world.
532
00:36:28,577 --> 00:36:31,885
It was because I was wearing
Anita's clothes.
533
00:36:32,973 --> 00:36:35,018
She had an amazing eye.
534
00:36:36,542 --> 00:36:38,544
Metka: She was the leader
in fashion.
535
00:36:39,458 --> 00:36:43,113
Since Keith went with Anita,
he changed the way of dressing.
536
00:36:43,766 --> 00:36:46,073
It really changed. Fantastic.
537
00:36:46,378 --> 00:36:48,162
You see Anita on Keith.
538
00:36:53,776 --> 00:36:56,388
Anita is a charger.
She really charges you.
539
00:37:00,783 --> 00:37:02,089
Anita: When I think about it,
540
00:37:02,089 --> 00:37:04,352
in those early days,
it was fun.
541
00:37:07,225 --> 00:37:08,922
The Stones would play a town.
542
00:37:08,922 --> 00:37:10,576
Then I'd fly to meet them.
543
00:37:11,098 --> 00:37:12,534
Then I'd fly home again.
544
00:37:17,235 --> 00:37:20,803
Stash: You know, Brian always
carried a torch for Anita
545
00:37:21,151 --> 00:37:23,241
long after it was
546
00:37:23,241 --> 00:37:25,678
proven that they couldn't
get back together.
547
00:37:28,898 --> 00:37:30,465
But I think by then,
548
00:37:30,987 --> 00:37:35,078
Keith was much more confident
of his relationship with her.
549
00:37:40,432 --> 00:37:45,001
Don't you find respectable
people terribly dull?
550
00:37:45,001 --> 00:37:46,394
You're joking, aren't you?
551
00:37:46,394 --> 00:37:48,918
I've only known
the most respectable people.
552
00:37:49,310 --> 00:37:50,355
Oh.
553
00:37:51,573 --> 00:37:53,401
Anita: My career was taking off.
554
00:37:54,010 --> 00:37:57,449
I was consumed by
Marlene Dietrich, Fritz Lang,
555
00:37:57,753 --> 00:37:59,015
and all the classics.
556
00:38:00,103 --> 00:38:01,279
Krankeit: This is Krankeit,
557
00:38:01,279 --> 00:38:03,237
I want you now. Come.
558
00:38:05,631 --> 00:38:07,110
He wants me.
559
00:38:07,894 --> 00:38:09,504
Anita: I was working a lot.
560
00:38:10,375 --> 00:38:12,377
Mostly in European films.
561
00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:15,336
Pretty avant-garde
movie-making.
562
00:38:15,858 --> 00:38:17,817
The doctor says no touching.
563
00:38:18,557 --> 00:38:19,645
Disappointed?
564
00:38:19,645 --> 00:38:21,342
[laughter]
565
00:38:22,300 --> 00:38:24,911
Stash: She was a very
talented actress.
566
00:38:27,217 --> 00:38:30,133
She had a great career
ahead of her.
567
00:38:30,133 --> 00:38:31,439
[groans]
568
00:38:31,918 --> 00:38:35,269
[psychedelic music playing]
569
00:38:35,922 --> 00:38:37,837
Hello, pretty, pretty.
570
00:38:41,188 --> 00:38:42,232
Hello.
571
00:38:43,321 --> 00:38:45,801
Anita: I played a tyrant
in Barbarella.
572
00:38:46,236 --> 00:38:48,108
My idea of a quiet summer.
573
00:38:48,587 --> 00:38:50,589
Do you want to come
and play with me?
574
00:38:52,155 --> 00:38:54,506
For someone like you,
I'd charge nothing.
575
00:38:55,681 --> 00:38:57,944
You're very pretty,
pretty, pretty.
576
00:38:58,858 --> 00:39:01,208
My name isn't Pretty, Pretty.
It's Barbarella.
577
00:39:03,428 --> 00:39:05,691
[mischievous music playing]
578
00:39:05,691 --> 00:39:06,866
producer: Start.
579
00:39:08,128 --> 00:39:10,217
Volker: I was on the set
once or twice.
580
00:39:11,827 --> 00:39:15,614
Jane Fonda was the exact
opposite of Anita.
581
00:39:16,876 --> 00:39:20,880
Both incredibly good-looking
with personality
582
00:39:21,794 --> 00:39:26,276
but Jane Fonda,
a hard worker, very driven.
583
00:39:27,147 --> 00:39:29,105
And Anita just laid-back,
584
00:39:29,497 --> 00:39:32,718
but since she was intelligent,
she got away with it.
585
00:39:33,849 --> 00:39:36,722
Tell me, my fancy, fuzzy freak.
586
00:39:37,636 --> 00:39:41,074
What do think of when
you make love to Barbarella?
587
00:39:41,074 --> 00:39:43,381
[seductive music playing]
588
00:39:45,121 --> 00:39:47,341
Marianne:
Anita, in those costumes,
589
00:39:47,341 --> 00:39:49,952
she completely forgot herself.
590
00:39:50,475 --> 00:39:52,999
So I'm your little
one-eyed wench.
591
00:39:54,174 --> 00:39:56,655
I'm also The Great Tyrant.
592
00:39:57,525 --> 00:39:58,657
That's nice.
593
00:39:58,961 --> 00:40:01,268
Marianne:
So she became very imperious.
594
00:40:01,268 --> 00:40:04,532
I'm not talking about him.
I'm speaking of the angel.
595
00:40:05,098 --> 00:40:07,187
Marianne: I suppose
it was method acting.
596
00:40:07,927 --> 00:40:10,799
She really believed
she was the Black Queen.
597
00:40:12,932 --> 00:40:15,413
Keith: I would fear for anybody
that crossed her.
598
00:40:17,937 --> 00:40:19,199
I remember once,
599
00:40:19,634 --> 00:40:22,245
I happened to say,
"Oh, that's nice."
600
00:40:22,942 --> 00:40:26,119
And she turned on me, "Nice?"
601
00:40:26,424 --> 00:40:29,383
"Nice? I hate the word nice."
602
00:40:29,949 --> 00:40:31,429
[laughs]
603
00:40:31,864 --> 00:40:33,605
[seductive music concludes]
604
00:40:40,916 --> 00:40:46,400
photographer: [in French]
605
00:40:50,622 --> 00:40:52,754
[in English] People started
treating me like a star
606
00:40:53,233 --> 00:40:54,713
and I kind of loved it.
607
00:40:56,454 --> 00:40:58,064
But whatever fame I had,
608
00:40:58,456 --> 00:41:00,762
it was nothing
compared to The Stones.
609
00:41:00,762 --> 00:41:02,764
man: [in French]
610
00:41:17,257 --> 00:41:19,128
[soft rock music playing]
611
00:41:22,915 --> 00:41:24,786
Sandy: [in English]
I was producing the film
612
00:41:24,786 --> 00:41:26,222
for Warner Bros
613
00:41:26,484 --> 00:41:27,963
called Performance.
614
00:41:28,921 --> 00:41:30,705
Very unusual movie.
615
00:41:32,315 --> 00:41:33,926
That's how I met Anita.
616
00:41:35,188 --> 00:41:37,495
She was always gonna be
in the film.
617
00:41:38,060 --> 00:41:40,106
It was written for her.
618
00:41:41,150 --> 00:41:45,067
She had a very kind of incisive
and biting sense of humor.
619
00:41:46,025 --> 00:41:48,070
She got right to the point,
you know?
620
00:41:48,070 --> 00:41:50,116
Who are you? What do you want?
621
00:41:51,683 --> 00:41:54,250
[crowd murmuring]
622
00:41:56,514 --> 00:42:00,039
Anita: The script
was very decadent, very sexy.
623
00:42:01,780 --> 00:42:04,086
When I heard Mick
was going to join the cast,
624
00:42:04,434 --> 00:42:05,566
I was wary.
625
00:42:06,306 --> 00:42:08,961
It all felt a little too close.
626
00:42:16,055 --> 00:42:17,578
Volker: Mick's character
627
00:42:17,926 --> 00:42:20,712
is a retired
rock and roll musician.
628
00:42:21,756 --> 00:42:23,149
He is a recluse,
629
00:42:23,584 --> 00:42:27,762
living in a kind of ramshackle
home in Notting Hill.
630
00:42:28,633 --> 00:42:30,939
He's got
his two girlfriends there,
631
00:42:31,200 --> 00:42:33,812
sort of ministering
to his needs.
632
00:42:34,377 --> 00:42:36,031
Do you think
I should wash my hair?
633
00:42:36,945 --> 00:42:38,381
Uh-uh. No.
634
00:42:38,860 --> 00:42:41,907
They're very happy
together as a family.
635
00:42:43,648 --> 00:42:46,781
They don't want
the outside world to come in.
636
00:42:50,437 --> 00:42:52,308
That is what happens,
of course,
637
00:42:52,570 --> 00:42:55,007
when James Fox
arrives in the house.
638
00:42:55,790 --> 00:42:57,444
He is the outside world.
639
00:42:58,053 --> 00:42:59,794
James: Oh, very nice.
640
00:43:02,101 --> 00:43:03,319
Volker: And that sets up
641
00:43:03,319 --> 00:43:06,627
this very powerful
strange relationship
642
00:43:06,627 --> 00:43:08,368
between the characters
in the house.
643
00:43:10,326 --> 00:43:11,632
What's wrong with the lights?
644
00:43:11,632 --> 00:43:14,853
Yeah. Artificial energy.
645
00:43:15,244 --> 00:43:17,333
It's pulsating into the voltage.
646
00:43:18,334 --> 00:43:20,075
Drugs were
the ultimate rebellion.
647
00:43:20,467 --> 00:43:22,251
And they were
everywhere on set.
648
00:43:23,122 --> 00:43:26,212
Not just the old hippy variety
of hashish and acid.
649
00:43:27,648 --> 00:43:30,172
We were doing cocaine
and heroin.
650
00:43:34,350 --> 00:43:36,309
James Fox
was a professional actor
651
00:43:36,309 --> 00:43:38,267
and we were intimidated by him.
652
00:43:40,705 --> 00:43:42,358
You know where I'm going, pal?
653
00:43:45,753 --> 00:43:46,798
I do.
654
00:43:49,714 --> 00:43:51,977
Anita: Like children,
we teased him.
655
00:43:54,109 --> 00:43:56,198
You never had a female feel.
656
00:43:57,504 --> 00:43:58,810
No. Never.
657
00:43:59,332 --> 00:44:00,550
I feel like a man.
658
00:44:01,334 --> 00:44:02,683
A man all the time.
659
00:44:03,553 --> 00:44:04,816
Anita: That's awful.
660
00:44:05,164 --> 00:44:06,600
He almost flipped out.
661
00:44:06,600 --> 00:44:08,210
There's nothing wrong with me.
662
00:44:09,342 --> 00:44:10,648
I'm normal.
663
00:44:11,823 --> 00:44:14,434
Anita: That brought Mick and I
closer together.
664
00:44:14,695 --> 00:44:17,393
Uh, can I use
the blower up here?
665
00:44:18,003 --> 00:44:19,613
We ain't got a blower up here.
666
00:44:20,353 --> 00:44:21,441
[chuckles]
667
00:44:21,963 --> 00:44:24,792
What in God's name
has he done to his hair?
668
00:44:26,011 --> 00:44:28,883
We've seen it. We caught it
in Hamburg. Your act.
669
00:44:28,883 --> 00:44:30,363
- Oh, yeah.
- It was fascinating.
670
00:44:30,363 --> 00:44:32,495
Anita: Mick had never done
a movie before
671
00:44:32,495 --> 00:44:34,193
and he liked my confidence.
672
00:44:35,368 --> 00:44:37,326
We were spending
more time together,
673
00:44:37,718 --> 00:44:38,980
me and Mick.
674
00:44:39,764 --> 00:44:40,808
Yes, no?
675
00:44:41,156 --> 00:44:42,244
Yes, no.
676
00:44:49,599 --> 00:44:53,168
[gentle music playing]
677
00:44:55,997 --> 00:44:57,129
Anita: The funny thing is,
678
00:44:57,129 --> 00:44:59,044
I never really
fancied Mick at all,
679
00:45:00,828 --> 00:45:04,136
but you spend eight days
lying in bed together,
680
00:45:04,136 --> 00:45:08,009
giggling and taking dope just
to produce two minutes of film,
681
00:45:08,967 --> 00:45:10,490
and what the hell
do you expect?
682
00:45:15,495 --> 00:45:17,062
Volker:
Performance was replicating
683
00:45:17,062 --> 00:45:18,585
the feeling of that time.
684
00:45:19,804 --> 00:45:22,545
Sex was something
much more casual.
685
00:45:23,590 --> 00:45:26,767
Something that you did
without any commitment.
686
00:45:30,466 --> 00:45:36,168
All of us could see Mick
had fallen in love with Anita.
687
00:45:38,083 --> 00:45:41,869
He hadn't declared it
but it was so obvious.
688
00:45:46,961 --> 00:45:48,049
Salud.
689
00:45:52,358 --> 00:45:56,971
Marianne: When Anita and Mick
did Performance,
690
00:45:57,406 --> 00:45:59,887
I knew I had to leave town.
691
00:46:00,148 --> 00:46:02,760
I knew I wouldn't be able
to handle it.
692
00:46:05,284 --> 00:46:07,982
I know Keith
had a very difficult time.
693
00:46:09,679 --> 00:46:11,290
woman: [in French]
694
00:46:14,162 --> 00:46:16,904
[in English] Well, I'm making
this while he's making that.
695
00:46:21,909 --> 00:46:23,781
Marianne:
It upset him terribly.
696
00:46:27,480 --> 00:46:31,527
He filmed himself on the outside
looking in
697
00:46:31,832 --> 00:46:34,748
at the most important people
in his life.
698
00:46:41,276 --> 00:46:43,409
It was very difficult for him.
699
00:46:45,672 --> 00:46:50,068
How Keith responds is he writes
"Gimme Shelter."
700
00:46:50,329 --> 00:46:52,026
♪ ["Gimme Shelter"
by The Rolling Stones plays] ♪
701
00:46:52,026 --> 00:46:55,334
♪ Ooh, a storm is threatening
702
00:46:55,987 --> 00:46:59,120
♪ My very life today
703
00:47:00,078 --> 00:47:03,559
♪ If I don't get some shelter
704
00:47:04,517 --> 00:47:07,085
♪ Ooh yeah,
I'm gonna fade away ♪
705
00:47:08,173 --> 00:47:11,176
♪ War, children
706
00:47:11,959 --> 00:47:13,700
♪ It's just a shot away
707
00:47:14,135 --> 00:47:15,920
♪ It's just a shot away ♪
708
00:47:16,181 --> 00:47:19,010
♪ War, children ♪
709
00:47:20,011 --> 00:47:21,751
♪ It's just a shot away
710
00:47:22,056 --> 00:47:25,364
♪ It's just a shot away ♪
711
00:47:27,975 --> 00:47:29,498
Anita:
Keith never spoke about it.
712
00:47:30,804 --> 00:47:32,240
He just stayed silent.
713
00:47:33,372 --> 00:47:35,678
The most unnerving reaction
of all.
714
00:47:37,724 --> 00:47:39,900
I was relieved
when the film ended.
715
00:47:41,162 --> 00:47:44,252
I never felt Mick's charm
the way other women did.
716
00:47:45,558 --> 00:47:48,648
In any case, all we ever talked
about was Keith.
717
00:47:48,996 --> 00:47:50,868
- [somber music playing]
- [waves crashing]
718
00:48:02,009 --> 00:48:04,925
Anita: We were never peace
and love kind of people.
719
00:48:06,579 --> 00:48:08,624
But we wanted
to reassure each other
720
00:48:08,624 --> 00:48:10,583
that everything was okay.
721
00:48:11,323 --> 00:48:13,716
So we decided to take
a trip together.
722
00:48:14,108 --> 00:48:16,632
Mick, Marianne, Keith, and I.
723
00:48:21,986 --> 00:48:23,988
Crossing the Atlantic
on a freighter,
724
00:48:24,379 --> 00:48:26,555
we must have seemed
pretty eccentric
725
00:48:26,555 --> 00:48:28,035
to the people on the ship.
726
00:48:33,171 --> 00:48:35,608
[laughter]
727
00:48:39,917 --> 00:48:43,137
Anita: We had great outfits
for strolling down the decks.
728
00:48:49,796 --> 00:48:53,843
Beautiful Marianne was always
dressed top to toe.
729
00:48:54,757 --> 00:48:59,762
Long gloves, hat, she was like
a Tennessee Williams character.
730
00:49:08,597 --> 00:49:10,991
And I was pregnant.
731
00:49:17,606 --> 00:49:20,740
Keith: The last thing I expected
from this relationship
732
00:49:20,740 --> 00:49:22,611
at that point was
733
00:49:22,611 --> 00:49:25,788
that she actually wanted
to have a child.
734
00:49:29,053 --> 00:49:33,622
I was flattered
but at the same time, I thought
735
00:49:33,971 --> 00:49:37,365
"This is gonna be
a whole new chapter, you know?"
736
00:49:39,933 --> 00:49:41,935
And I said,
"Are you sure about this?"
737
00:49:42,936 --> 00:49:45,678
And she said,
"Absolutely. Absolutely."
738
00:49:46,157 --> 00:49:49,725
"If I'm gonna have a baby,
I want you to be the father."
739
00:49:51,162 --> 00:49:54,600
And I said, "Okay. Then
we're in for it. Let's go."
740
00:50:02,216 --> 00:50:05,045
Anita: I knew it was time
to get off the hard drugs.
741
00:50:06,612 --> 00:50:08,962
To help, I got a shot
of morphine
742
00:50:08,962 --> 00:50:10,050
from the ship's nurse.
743
00:50:10,572 --> 00:50:11,878
♪ ["Sister Morphine"
by Marianne Faithfull plays] ♪
744
00:50:11,878 --> 00:50:14,011
♪ Here I lie
745
00:50:15,099 --> 00:50:19,320
♪ In my hospital bed
746
00:50:22,410 --> 00:50:26,023
♪ Tell me, Sister Morphine
747
00:50:27,067 --> 00:50:31,985
♪ When are you
Coming round again? ♪
748
00:50:33,465 --> 00:50:34,509
♪ Oh...
749
00:50:35,336 --> 00:50:38,774
Marianne: I thought of her as
Sister Morphine for the song.
750
00:50:39,558 --> 00:50:41,777
I made her into
Sister Morphine.
751
00:50:41,777 --> 00:50:46,086
I had to visualize it
to really write it, you know?
752
00:50:46,086 --> 00:50:47,870
♪ Oh, you see
753
00:50:48,828 --> 00:50:54,442
♪ That my pain is so strong
754
00:50:55,226 --> 00:50:58,577
Anita: Between Marianne and I,
there was love.
755
00:51:01,145 --> 00:51:04,017
But her relationship with Mick
wasn't working anymore.
756
00:51:05,540 --> 00:51:08,500
[seagulls squawking]
757
00:51:09,283 --> 00:51:10,763
[song concludes]
758
00:51:11,024 --> 00:51:12,765
Anita: When we arrived
in Brazil,
759
00:51:13,113 --> 00:51:16,595
Marianne didn't like the heat
or the mosquitoes.
760
00:51:17,813 --> 00:51:19,032
She decided to go home.
761
00:51:22,166 --> 00:51:24,429
Marianne: You know,
it broke my heart to do that
762
00:51:24,777 --> 00:51:26,257
but I had to leave.
763
00:51:27,823 --> 00:51:29,521
I think it was inevitable.
764
00:51:33,394 --> 00:51:35,135
Although I did love Mick,
765
00:51:35,962 --> 00:51:39,270
we were completely unsuited,
I'm afraid.
766
00:51:50,063 --> 00:51:53,110
Anita: Mick and Keith and I
pressed on to Peru.
767
00:51:58,027 --> 00:52:00,204
We had a suitcase full of money
768
00:52:00,204 --> 00:52:03,685
and we wanted to be far,
far away from everybody.
769
00:52:03,685 --> 00:52:06,123
♪ ["You Can't Always Get
What You Want"
by The Rolling Stones plays] ♪
770
00:52:06,123 --> 00:52:10,518
♪ I saw her today
At the reception ♪
771
00:52:10,518 --> 00:52:13,173
Anita: Mick tried to catch me
on my own sometimes...
772
00:52:13,173 --> 00:52:14,696
♪ A glass of wine...
773
00:52:14,696 --> 00:52:16,742
Anita: ...when Keith was drunk
and passed out.
774
00:52:17,308 --> 00:52:19,223
He'd say we should
run off together.
775
00:52:20,963 --> 00:52:22,878
But his flirtations
were half-hearted
776
00:52:22,878 --> 00:52:24,532
because he knew I was pregnant.
777
00:52:25,490 --> 00:52:27,318
That's when he started to write
778
00:52:27,796 --> 00:52:29,929
"You Can't Always Get
What You Want."
779
00:52:29,929 --> 00:52:34,063
♪ You can't always get
What you want ♪
780
00:52:35,717 --> 00:52:40,069
♪ You can't always get
What you want ♪
781
00:52:41,549 --> 00:52:46,380
♪ But if you try sometimes
Well, you might find ♪
782
00:52:46,815 --> 00:52:49,166
♪ You get what you need ♪
783
00:52:49,427 --> 00:52:52,125
♪ Ah, yeah ♪
784
00:52:52,560 --> 00:52:55,781
Keith: Anita is in a lot
of those songs. Absolutely.
785
00:52:58,000 --> 00:53:01,308
♪ And I went down
To the demonstration ♪
786
00:53:01,308 --> 00:53:03,528
Keith: She's a muse, I'm sure,
though not just for me.
787
00:53:03,528 --> 00:53:06,357
I mean, for several other
songwriters
788
00:53:06,357 --> 00:53:08,185
that I can think of.
789
00:53:08,185 --> 00:53:09,751
♪ Sing it to me, honey
790
00:53:09,751 --> 00:53:13,494
♪ You can't always get
What you want ♪
791
00:53:15,017 --> 00:53:18,151
♪ You can't always get
What you want ♪
792
00:53:18,151 --> 00:53:20,632
Anita: There always has to be
some kind of friction
793
00:53:20,632 --> 00:53:21,807
between Keith and Mick.
794
00:53:23,069 --> 00:53:24,505
And they need someone
in the middle
795
00:53:24,505 --> 00:53:25,854
to bring it all out.
796
00:53:27,508 --> 00:53:29,206
Brian used to say that too.
797
00:53:30,598 --> 00:53:32,818
♪ You get what you need
798
00:53:33,210 --> 00:53:37,605
♪ Ah baby, yeah ♪
799
00:53:40,478 --> 00:53:42,044
[song concludes]
800
00:53:42,044 --> 00:53:43,655
[birds chirping]
801
00:53:44,830 --> 00:53:47,049
[bell tolling]
802
00:53:58,278 --> 00:54:01,368
Stash: He came close to the edge
many times.
803
00:54:02,674 --> 00:54:04,632
Who didn't in our group?
804
00:54:08,114 --> 00:54:13,641
But the loss of Brian,
it was a dreadful tragedy.
805
00:54:14,512 --> 00:54:16,122
[gentle music playing]
806
00:54:17,079 --> 00:54:20,213
People think of Brian
as a sort of ghost,
807
00:54:21,606 --> 00:54:24,652
but he had his own
808
00:54:24,652 --> 00:54:27,438
extraordinary outstanding
talent.
809
00:54:31,703 --> 00:54:33,922
Marianne: Although,
he was a very good swimmer,
810
00:54:34,314 --> 00:54:38,100
he had taken a lot of Mandrax
before he went in the pool.
811
00:54:39,667 --> 00:54:43,280
And Brian was very weak,
physically, anyway.
812
00:54:47,849 --> 00:54:51,592
Poor Brian. I felt very sorry.
813
00:54:51,897 --> 00:54:53,594
[gentle music concludes]
814
00:54:53,594 --> 00:54:56,075
Although it was a shock
when it actually happened,
815
00:54:56,728 --> 00:54:59,121
nobody was really
that surprised too.
816
00:54:59,557 --> 00:55:01,907
There are people...
I'm sure that everybody's got
817
00:55:01,907 --> 00:55:03,300
those things
about certain people.
818
00:55:03,300 --> 00:55:05,519
- Everybody knows people that...
- woman: Mm-hmm.
819
00:55:05,519 --> 00:55:07,042
...you just have that feeling
820
00:55:07,042 --> 00:55:10,045
that they're not gonna be
70 years old ever, you know?
821
00:55:10,045 --> 00:55:12,787
That not everybody makes it,
you know?
822
00:55:17,357 --> 00:55:20,621
Anita: I was shocked
and I felt guilty.
823
00:55:22,231 --> 00:55:25,626
He just kind of flickered out
like a light, you know?
824
00:55:29,717 --> 00:55:31,153
The last time I'd seen Brian
825
00:55:31,153 --> 00:55:33,373
was when we were all
singing together on the demo
826
00:55:33,373 --> 00:55:35,027
for "Sympathy for the Devil."
827
00:55:35,027 --> 00:55:36,855
♪ ["Sympathy for the Devil"
by The Rolling Stones plays] ♪
828
00:55:36,855 --> 00:55:38,987
♪ When the blitzkrieg raged
And the bodies stank ♪
829
00:55:39,423 --> 00:55:41,425
Anita: But I hadn't really
spoken to him since.
830
00:55:41,773 --> 00:55:43,383
♪ Pleased to meet you all ♪
831
00:55:43,905 --> 00:55:48,170
♪ Hope you guess my name
Oh yeah ♪
832
00:55:49,389 --> 00:55:52,784
Marianne: After he died,
she went kind of mad
833
00:55:53,350 --> 00:55:57,963
and she spent all her time
putting pictures up of Brian
834
00:55:58,267 --> 00:56:00,618
in the house
she shared with Keith
835
00:56:00,618 --> 00:56:02,663
and then taking them
all down again
836
00:56:02,924 --> 00:56:05,013
and then putting them
all up again.
837
00:56:06,624 --> 00:56:08,756
♪ I shouted out
Who killed the Kennedys? ♪
838
00:56:09,801 --> 00:56:11,890
Anita: I was seven months
pregnant when he died.
839
00:56:11,890 --> 00:56:13,370
[song fades]
840
00:56:15,763 --> 00:56:17,199
I started to have visions
841
00:56:17,199 --> 00:56:20,289
that Brian would reincarnate
himself as my baby.
842
00:56:20,289 --> 00:56:21,378
[eerie music playing]
843
00:56:24,468 --> 00:56:25,686
[eerie music concludes]
844
00:56:25,686 --> 00:56:27,253
Anita: It was very scary.
845
00:56:33,651 --> 00:56:37,219
My son was born in August 1969.
846
00:56:39,134 --> 00:56:43,400
He was a perfect
eight-pound baby. Healthy.
847
00:56:44,792 --> 00:56:47,012
We didn't have a name
and Keith said,
848
00:56:47,012 --> 00:56:49,057
"Marlon Brando
called up today."
849
00:56:49,318 --> 00:56:52,234
And I thought, "Marlon.
That's a good name."
850
00:56:52,626 --> 00:56:53,975
"We'll call him Marlon."
851
00:56:55,237 --> 00:56:58,240
♪ ["You Got the Silver"
by The Rolling Stones plays] ♪
852
00:56:58,545 --> 00:57:03,420
♪ Hey, babe
What's in your eyes? ♪
853
00:57:04,159 --> 00:57:09,164
♪ I saw them flashing
Like airplane lights ♪
854
00:57:09,817 --> 00:57:13,908
♪ You fill my cup, babe
That's for sure ♪
855
00:57:13,908 --> 00:57:15,388
Marianne:
Somewhere around there,
856
00:57:15,736 --> 00:57:20,567
Keith wrote on the spot
"You Got the Silver"
857
00:57:21,046 --> 00:57:22,569
and then sang it to her.
858
00:57:22,830 --> 00:57:24,528
And it was so beautiful.
859
00:57:25,703 --> 00:57:27,400
They really did
love each other.
860
00:57:27,400 --> 00:57:31,665
♪ You got my heart
You got my soul ♪
861
00:57:32,274 --> 00:57:36,801
♪ You got the silver
You got the gold ♪
862
00:57:37,932 --> 00:57:42,110
♪ You got the diamonds
From the mine ♪
863
00:57:42,589 --> 00:57:43,851
♪ Well, that's all right... ♪
864
00:57:44,112 --> 00:57:46,114
Anita: Keith was very tender
with Marlon.
865
00:57:46,463 --> 00:57:49,422
He would change him,
take him for walks,
866
00:57:49,814 --> 00:57:52,773
things that fathers
didn't always do in those days.
867
00:58:01,390 --> 00:58:04,306
Things were pretty rosy
for about three months,
868
00:58:05,220 --> 00:58:06,918
then Keith went back on tour.
869
00:58:09,529 --> 00:58:13,925
Marlon was too tiny to travel,
so we stayed behind.
870
00:58:14,229 --> 00:58:15,622
[song concludes]
871
00:58:16,057 --> 00:58:17,624
Anita: By this point,
Keith didn't care
872
00:58:17,624 --> 00:58:19,017
for me acting at all.
873
00:58:19,713 --> 00:58:22,194
He offered me money
to stop working.
874
00:58:23,151 --> 00:58:25,632
He didn't understand
it wasn't about the money.
875
00:58:26,328 --> 00:58:28,461
It was just something
I wanted to do.
876
00:58:30,202 --> 00:58:33,510
Keith, in his own way,
is very possessive
877
00:58:34,075 --> 00:58:35,729
of friends and lovers.
878
00:58:36,469 --> 00:58:40,821
He resented anything that would
take her away from him.
879
00:58:43,215 --> 00:58:46,131
Marianne: He didn't want
his woman to work at all.
880
00:58:46,131 --> 00:58:49,351
It wasn't acting, particularly,
it would have been anything.
881
00:58:51,266 --> 00:58:53,486
And I think
it was difficult for Anita.
882
00:58:53,834 --> 00:58:56,489
She was so talented
in her own right
883
00:58:57,098 --> 00:59:00,362
and sort of kept down in a way,
you know?
884
00:59:04,105 --> 00:59:06,455
[tense music playing]
885
00:59:07,500 --> 00:59:12,113
Anita: Honestly, I was confused.
I felt betrayed.
886
00:59:14,028 --> 00:59:18,076
But the rule with the boys
was "never show emotion."
887
00:59:22,646 --> 00:59:26,258
Heroin makes you feel warm,
like you belong.
888
00:59:27,259 --> 00:59:28,913
It seemed like a solution.
889
00:59:36,007 --> 00:59:38,966
I was on my own
with Marlon for months.
890
00:59:39,837 --> 00:59:43,101
I stopped breastfeeding
and I gave him bottles.
891
00:59:44,581 --> 00:59:47,322
When Keith came back,
I was very stoned.
892
00:59:52,719 --> 00:59:56,462
I went to dry out at a clinic
where they do a sleeping cure.
893
00:59:59,117 --> 01:00:02,729
You talk to a therapist
and then they knock you out.
894
01:00:03,034 --> 01:00:04,426
You sleep it off.
895
01:00:07,342 --> 01:00:09,649
I wanted so much to get better.
896
01:00:10,563 --> 01:00:12,260
I wanted to be a good mother.
897
01:00:13,958 --> 01:00:15,263
But it didn't work.
898
01:00:18,527 --> 01:00:22,444
I spent a week banging my head
against the walls.
899
01:00:25,491 --> 01:00:27,711
Eventually,
I climbed out the window.
900
01:00:29,321 --> 01:00:30,714
The great escape.
901
01:00:30,714 --> 01:00:32,541
- [tense music concludes]
- [seagulls squawking]
902
01:00:36,284 --> 01:00:37,895
While I was trying to get well,
903
01:00:37,895 --> 01:00:40,332
Marlon and Keith
had gone to France.
904
01:00:41,986 --> 01:00:44,553
The Rolling Stones
had tax problems,
905
01:00:45,424 --> 01:00:47,644
and we all became exiles.
906
01:00:49,036 --> 01:00:51,691
Our new house was right
on the Mediterranean
907
01:00:52,170 --> 01:00:54,346
and the thought of starting
a new life together
908
01:00:54,346 --> 01:00:56,870
was very appealing.
909
01:00:56,870 --> 01:00:58,698
♪ ["Shake Your Hips"
by The Rolling Stones plays] ♪
910
01:00:58,698 --> 01:01:01,658
Then Keith decided to make
a record in our home.
911
01:01:01,919 --> 01:01:04,312
[indistinct chatter]
912
01:01:08,577 --> 01:01:10,928
♪ I wanna tell you
'Bout a dance ♪
913
01:01:11,232 --> 01:01:13,234
♪ That's goin' around ♪
914
01:01:14,192 --> 01:01:16,498
Anita: Everyone wanted
to come and visit.
915
01:01:17,195 --> 01:01:19,240
We were inundated
with people arriving
916
01:01:19,240 --> 01:01:21,155
to start work on the new album.
917
01:01:21,634 --> 01:01:23,941
♪ Don't move your hands ♪
918
01:01:24,289 --> 01:01:26,291
♪ Don't move your lips ♪
919
01:01:26,987 --> 01:01:29,120
♪ Just shake your hips ♪
920
01:01:29,598 --> 01:01:31,165
♪ Do the hip shake, babe ♪
921
01:01:31,165 --> 01:01:34,212
Sandy: First time
I saw Anita with Marlon
922
01:01:34,212 --> 01:01:36,693
was in the south of France
923
01:01:36,954 --> 01:01:39,739
when they were doing
Exile on Main St.
924
01:01:39,739 --> 01:01:41,698
♪ Well, if you don't know ♪
925
01:01:41,698 --> 01:01:43,612
Sandy: Anita adored Marlon.
926
01:01:44,091 --> 01:01:46,050
Such a sweet child.
927
01:01:47,225 --> 01:01:51,011
Keith had set up a studio
in the basement,
928
01:01:51,011 --> 01:01:52,883
and it was a zoo.
929
01:01:55,886 --> 01:01:59,237
There were dozens of people
hanging around,
930
01:01:59,716 --> 01:02:02,719
taking drugs, doing whatever.
931
01:02:05,678 --> 01:02:07,767
You had no idea
who would be there
932
01:02:07,767 --> 01:02:10,248
and what state of mind
they'd be in.
933
01:02:12,816 --> 01:02:14,948
It's just a crazy atmosphere.
934
01:02:17,385 --> 01:02:18,909
[song concludes]
935
01:02:19,387 --> 01:02:21,868
Anita: I was the only one
who could speak French
936
01:02:22,216 --> 01:02:25,132
and I was over-responsible
for everything.
937
01:02:25,829 --> 01:02:27,569
It was like running a hotel.
938
01:02:28,570 --> 01:02:31,791
There were 20 to 30 people
to feed every day.
939
01:02:32,444 --> 01:02:34,359
Marlon: Mommy, Daddy.
940
01:02:34,359 --> 01:02:36,970
[sobs] Mommy.
941
01:02:37,318 --> 01:02:40,104
Anita: Follow me. Come with me.
942
01:02:41,975 --> 01:02:44,456
Marlon had all the toys
he wanted,
943
01:02:46,588 --> 01:02:48,939
but there was not
that much time for him.
944
01:02:52,116 --> 01:02:55,467
He had to be part of the music,
and he was.
945
01:02:59,123 --> 01:03:02,648
He'd be up all night sometimes
listening to people playing,
946
01:03:02,909 --> 01:03:04,302
and he'd be screaming.
947
01:03:08,045 --> 01:03:11,788
It took me a long time
but I think by then,
948
01:03:12,353 --> 01:03:14,791
I realized
that Keith's music came first.
949
01:03:15,487 --> 01:03:17,358
Everything else came second.
950
01:03:23,451 --> 01:03:26,672
Jake: We showed up at Nellcôte
in the summer of '71,
951
01:03:27,716 --> 01:03:29,153
I was eight and a half.
952
01:03:31,242 --> 01:03:32,721
My father was a drug smuggler
953
01:03:32,721 --> 01:03:35,202
and he was tasked
with bringing cocaine
954
01:03:35,202 --> 01:03:37,248
to Mick Jagger's wedding
to Bianca.
955
01:03:39,467 --> 01:03:41,339
[mellow rock music playing]
956
01:03:41,339 --> 01:03:43,471
Jake: My old man and Keith
957
01:03:43,471 --> 01:03:45,343
were all in the same
kind of scene,
958
01:03:45,343 --> 01:03:46,953
and my mother was
in that scene.
959
01:03:48,912 --> 01:03:50,696
Ultimately,
my mother didn't come
960
01:03:50,696 --> 01:03:52,480
because she was...
961
01:03:53,612 --> 01:03:57,442
recovering from a stint
in an asylum.
962
01:04:01,141 --> 01:04:03,056
I recognized, even as a kid,
963
01:04:03,056 --> 01:04:05,580
that Anita
was a force of nature,
964
01:04:06,581 --> 01:04:08,453
striking and charismatic.
965
01:04:09,976 --> 01:04:15,025
She was the alpha in the room
until Keith came along
966
01:04:15,025 --> 01:04:17,854
and then they were both
sort of co-alphas.
967
01:04:21,074 --> 01:04:22,902
Keith: Can you turn
the piano up just a bit?
968
01:04:22,902 --> 01:04:24,643
You know, just like the off...
969
01:04:25,165 --> 01:04:29,169
Mick: Charlie, did you get that?
We're gonna try that...
970
01:04:29,169 --> 01:04:31,258
Jake: Everything sort of
became nocturnal
971
01:04:31,258 --> 01:04:32,869
'cause Keith was nocturnal.
972
01:04:32,869 --> 01:04:35,132
man: Yeah, which amps
are you coming out of, Keith?
973
01:04:35,480 --> 01:04:38,265
Jake: My brother and I
would sit down there and watch.
974
01:04:38,265 --> 01:04:39,788
man: So we listen to it.
975
01:04:41,355 --> 01:04:43,662
There's a broken string
on that one there, it has to...
976
01:04:43,662 --> 01:04:45,925
Jake: Everyone was just
sitting around a lot
977
01:04:46,186 --> 01:04:49,059
waiting for Keith to,
you know, come to.
978
01:04:49,059 --> 01:04:51,670
[drums rolling]
979
01:04:51,670 --> 01:04:55,239
Keith: All right.
We're about to sing here.
980
01:04:59,417 --> 01:05:02,333
Anita: By now,
Keith had a heroin habit too.
981
01:05:03,116 --> 01:05:04,901
And he was secretive about it.
982
01:05:04,901 --> 01:05:06,772
Keith: It should be
down in there.
983
01:05:07,642 --> 01:05:09,296
Anita: He would go
into the bathroom
984
01:05:09,296 --> 01:05:10,428
and shut the door,
985
01:05:10,732 --> 01:05:12,909
so you never knew
how much he was taking.
986
01:05:17,087 --> 01:05:18,958
Marlon:
Keith would invite people over,
987
01:05:18,958 --> 01:05:20,568
and they'd stay all hours.
988
01:05:21,743 --> 01:05:24,050
And it was her job
to kick them out,
989
01:05:24,572 --> 01:05:26,748
throw them out violently.
990
01:05:26,748 --> 01:05:28,707
Generally,
she'd kind of storm in
991
01:05:28,707 --> 01:05:30,970
and throw her Germanness around
992
01:05:30,970 --> 01:05:32,580
and they'd leave pretty quickly
993
01:05:32,580 --> 01:05:34,234
'cause that was something
he couldn't do.
994
01:05:34,234 --> 01:05:35,801
He could not get rid
of the hangers-on.
995
01:05:37,672 --> 01:05:39,936
They were happy to sit there
and just sort of stare at him
996
01:05:41,546 --> 01:05:42,851
while he basically snored.
997
01:05:45,332 --> 01:05:47,639
Anita became a bit
of a bodyguard.
998
01:05:51,425 --> 01:05:53,688
Jake: I have no idea
what it felt like
999
01:05:53,688 --> 01:05:59,477
to be the queen in this castle
of, you know, dissolute men.
1000
01:06:00,347 --> 01:06:02,523
But there weren't
a lot of women in the house.
1001
01:06:04,612 --> 01:06:06,179
She couldn't stand it.
1002
01:06:06,179 --> 01:06:08,007
She had to hold
the whole situation
1003
01:06:08,007 --> 01:06:09,313
in her hands.
1004
01:06:09,313 --> 01:06:11,663
And there were really
people around, I think,
1005
01:06:11,663 --> 01:06:14,057
that must have been
very annoying for her.
1006
01:06:14,057 --> 01:06:17,364
But that's the part
of being famous, no?
1007
01:06:20,454 --> 01:06:22,674
Jake: She was fierce,
1008
01:06:23,196 --> 01:06:25,982
and, you know, she would snap.
1009
01:06:27,113 --> 01:06:28,419
But not at the kids.
1010
01:06:29,681 --> 01:06:32,684
She was generous and funny
to the kids.
1011
01:06:34,512 --> 01:06:36,818
[mellow music playing]
1012
01:06:37,080 --> 01:06:40,605
Jake: And then we were there
for a month and a half or so,
1013
01:06:40,605 --> 01:06:42,259
and my mother passed away.
1014
01:06:45,566 --> 01:06:47,612
My dad sort of went
on a bender.
1015
01:06:50,267 --> 01:06:51,833
I remember her navigating it,
1016
01:06:52,399 --> 01:06:55,533
trying to figure out
what she could do
1017
01:06:56,316 --> 01:06:57,926
and, um...
1018
01:06:59,015 --> 01:07:00,407
Fuck. I'm sorry.
1019
01:07:03,410 --> 01:07:07,545
She filled the vacuum of
a surrogate parent, you know?
1020
01:07:10,113 --> 01:07:11,723
And she was lovely like that.
1021
01:07:13,986 --> 01:07:17,381
Her thing
was trying to give us joy.
1022
01:07:17,946 --> 01:07:22,168
[energetic piano music playing]
1023
01:07:23,213 --> 01:07:25,041
Jake: Anita used to dance
with the kids.
1024
01:07:28,131 --> 01:07:30,046
We'd Jumpin' Jack Flash it.
1025
01:07:32,178 --> 01:07:34,137
There was a lot of
boogie-woogie piano playing,
1026
01:07:34,137 --> 01:07:35,660
which the kids loved.
1027
01:07:37,140 --> 01:07:39,925
There were no bedtimes.
There was no structure.
1028
01:07:45,278 --> 01:07:47,976
One night, she cut a line
1029
01:07:49,630 --> 01:07:51,067
and I said, "Can I have some?"
1030
01:07:52,416 --> 01:07:54,983
And I could see her
trying to compute.
1031
01:07:55,636 --> 01:07:57,856
She said, "Okay.
Well, just this little bit."
1032
01:07:58,378 --> 01:08:01,077
So I had my first little bump
with Anita.
1033
01:08:03,601 --> 01:08:05,646
Uh, it never happened again.
1034
01:08:06,691 --> 01:08:08,214
She knew she made a mistake.
1035
01:08:11,522 --> 01:08:13,045
reporter:
In Nice, France, today,
1036
01:08:13,045 --> 01:08:15,047
police disclosed
that Mick Jagger
1037
01:08:15,047 --> 01:08:17,963
and the four other members of
The Rolling Stones rock group
1038
01:08:17,963 --> 01:08:20,835
have been charged
with illegal use of heroin.
1039
01:08:22,837 --> 01:08:24,012
A warrant was issued
1040
01:08:24,535 --> 01:08:26,711
for the arrest of guitarist
Keith Richards and his wife
1041
01:08:26,711 --> 01:08:28,104
who failed to appear.
1042
01:08:31,019 --> 01:08:32,586
Marlon: My parents,
they were quite blatant
1043
01:08:32,586 --> 01:08:33,979
about their drug use.
1044
01:08:35,067 --> 01:08:37,722
So eventually the police
were called for some incident.
1045
01:08:38,114 --> 01:08:39,419
It was very dramatic.
1046
01:08:39,419 --> 01:08:41,552
Policemen outside,
all that sort of thing.
1047
01:08:42,118 --> 01:08:44,685
There was a warrant out
for both of them,
1048
01:08:47,035 --> 01:08:49,777
and we had to leave France
pretty quickly.
1049
01:08:53,781 --> 01:08:56,480
Anita: We split before the cops
raided the house.
1050
01:08:58,873 --> 01:09:02,399
My motto was
"forward, forward, forward."
1051
01:09:02,399 --> 01:09:03,617
"Never look back."
1052
01:09:06,446 --> 01:09:09,232
Marlon: I remember having
to leave a lot of my toys
1053
01:09:09,536 --> 01:09:11,843
that were sent away,
packed up, and put in storage
1054
01:09:11,843 --> 01:09:13,366
and never sent on.
1055
01:09:14,889 --> 01:09:15,977
That's how it was.
1056
01:09:16,543 --> 01:09:19,111
Living such a shambolic
and hectic sort of lifestyle,
1057
01:09:19,372 --> 01:09:20,721
you'd lose things anyway.
1058
01:09:20,721 --> 01:09:21,809
I mean, just lose things.
1059
01:09:23,420 --> 01:09:25,857
In like three years,
we probably moved house
1060
01:09:25,857 --> 01:09:27,598
about 20 times, at least.
1061
01:09:30,731 --> 01:09:32,516
And possessions
you leave behind,
1062
01:09:32,516 --> 01:09:33,560
you never see again.
1063
01:09:35,432 --> 01:09:37,869
[melancholic music playing]
1064
01:09:51,187 --> 01:09:52,797
We couldn't go back to England.
1065
01:09:56,322 --> 01:09:58,803
The police in England,
they're always watching,
1066
01:09:58,803 --> 01:10:00,587
watching the houses...
1067
01:10:03,590 --> 01:10:06,550
I remember being very fearful
when we were living in London.
1068
01:10:06,550 --> 01:10:08,334
We'd go back to our house
in Cheney Walk
1069
01:10:08,334 --> 01:10:10,249
and they'd immediately
draw the curtains
1070
01:10:10,249 --> 01:10:12,208
and start staring out the window
all the time
1071
01:10:12,208 --> 01:10:13,209
looking for the cops.
1072
01:10:17,604 --> 01:10:18,692
Keith: There was this sort of
1073
01:10:18,692 --> 01:10:20,520
Bonnie and Clyde
thing about it.
1074
01:10:22,783 --> 01:10:26,700
I mean, we actually, literally,
were running out of houses.
1075
01:10:28,528 --> 01:10:31,488
One suitcase and a kid
zooming off
1076
01:10:31,488 --> 01:10:33,707
with cops in the trees.
1077
01:10:34,230 --> 01:10:35,709
[melancholic music concludes]
1078
01:10:37,363 --> 01:10:39,017
Keith: The reason
we're in Switzerland,
1079
01:10:39,017 --> 01:10:41,324
is it's the only country in
the world that would have us.
1080
01:10:41,324 --> 01:10:43,282
[laughs]
1081
01:10:43,282 --> 01:10:46,677
We're fucking junkies,
for Christ's sake.
1082
01:10:50,289 --> 01:10:52,291
Anita: We got a nice place
in Villars.
1083
01:10:52,770 --> 01:10:54,685
A simple little cottage.
1084
01:10:55,338 --> 01:10:58,602
A ski chalet with meadows
and a stream.
1085
01:11:04,825 --> 01:11:06,827
Marlon: One of the earliest
memories I have
1086
01:11:07,088 --> 01:11:11,049
was my sister being born
in Switzerland.
1087
01:11:13,617 --> 01:11:16,184
It was a beautiful
Sound of Music sort of day.
1088
01:11:16,968 --> 01:11:19,013
Alps, trees, sunlight.
1089
01:11:21,581 --> 01:11:23,670
The hospital was down
the mountainside
1090
01:11:23,670 --> 01:11:25,237
from where we lived.
1091
01:11:27,195 --> 01:11:29,894
I remember
running down this hill,
1092
01:11:29,894 --> 01:11:32,200
ran up to this
plate glass window
1093
01:11:32,853 --> 01:11:36,553
and in the plate glass window
was a nurse holding my sister.
1094
01:11:36,988 --> 01:11:38,772
[baby crying]
1095
01:11:39,033 --> 01:11:40,426
Marlon: It was just amazing.
1096
01:11:41,471 --> 01:11:43,124
It was wonderful
to have a sister.
1097
01:11:46,127 --> 01:11:48,434
Anita: My daughter
had a square smile
1098
01:11:48,956 --> 01:11:49,957
just like mine.
1099
01:11:51,698 --> 01:11:54,484
But her birth was traumatic.
1100
01:11:56,268 --> 01:11:58,009
She was two months early
1101
01:11:58,444 --> 01:12:00,620
and I was still trying
to get clean.
1102
01:12:02,013 --> 01:12:03,928
We laid low in Switzerland.
1103
01:12:04,320 --> 01:12:06,452
The cops couldn't get us here.
1104
01:12:07,714 --> 01:12:11,022
Angela: I was given the name
Dandelion when I was born.
1105
01:12:11,022 --> 01:12:13,372
I completely blame my brother
for that one.
1106
01:12:13,807 --> 01:12:17,289
Some evil vendetta. [laughs]
1107
01:12:17,289 --> 01:12:19,639
Having a baby sister,
maybe he was like,
1108
01:12:19,639 --> 01:12:24,252
"Yes, you shall be
named Dandelion." [laughs]
1109
01:12:24,818 --> 01:12:26,820
Maybe Marlon will tell you
his middle name.
1110
01:12:26,820 --> 01:12:28,039
Oh, for fuck's sake.
1111
01:12:28,518 --> 01:12:32,217
Marlon Leon Sundeep Richards.
1112
01:12:32,478 --> 01:12:36,482
Leon Sundeep spells LSD.
1113
01:12:38,745 --> 01:12:41,444
So I went to my father
and I told him.
1114
01:12:41,444 --> 01:12:45,622
I said, "Is this coincidence
or is this intentional?"
1115
01:12:45,622 --> 01:12:47,188
And he chuckled and he said,
1116
01:12:47,188 --> 01:12:49,277
"Your mother had
a sense of humor, didn't she?"
1117
01:12:49,843 --> 01:12:52,933
[whimsical music playing]
1118
01:13:01,942 --> 01:13:05,337
Anita: In Switzerland,
we are a normal family
1119
01:13:05,337 --> 01:13:06,512
with growing children.
1120
01:13:06,773 --> 01:13:08,296
And we are outside a lot.
1121
01:13:09,863 --> 01:13:11,082
We play
1122
01:13:11,343 --> 01:13:14,128
and we do all of the things
that families do.
1123
01:13:18,872 --> 01:13:22,441
In the winter, we are skiing
and tobogganing
1124
01:13:22,441 --> 01:13:24,312
almost every single day.
1125
01:13:26,706 --> 01:13:29,056
Marlon: Switzerland actually
was quite happy,
1126
01:13:30,406 --> 01:13:32,190
and it felt like
a skiing holiday.
1127
01:13:32,973 --> 01:13:35,193
Everyone wearing snow suits
and all that sort of stuff.
1128
01:13:37,151 --> 01:13:39,676
The ski run was down the road.
1129
01:13:41,460 --> 01:13:44,071
Literally, just walk out
the door, get up on a ski lift,
1130
01:13:44,071 --> 01:13:46,465
go up to the top, and then
you'd ski down the mountain.
1131
01:13:46,465 --> 01:13:47,901
You'd ski right to your house.
1132
01:13:50,034 --> 01:13:52,602
It was a very domestic time.
It was a very settled time.
1133
01:13:55,996 --> 01:13:58,129
Keith and Anita were really
good skiers by this point.
1134
01:13:58,999 --> 01:14:00,392
To learn to ski
when you're like
1135
01:14:00,392 --> 01:14:02,525
in the deepest depths
of addiction
1136
01:14:03,090 --> 01:14:04,701
is just unbelievable.
1137
01:14:04,701 --> 01:14:06,833
I mean, it's nothing
you'd generally take up.
1138
01:14:06,833 --> 01:14:08,661
It's not the idea of like,
"Oh, I'm gonna, you know,
1139
01:14:08,661 --> 01:14:10,358
go down a mountain every day,
1140
01:14:10,358 --> 01:14:11,969
do massive shot of heroin
1141
01:14:12,578 --> 01:14:14,580
and gonna go on the black run."
[laughs]
1142
01:14:16,060 --> 01:14:17,714
[whimsical music concludes]
1143
01:14:23,807 --> 01:14:26,374
[soft rock music playing]
1144
01:14:33,207 --> 01:14:36,384
Anita: We met these
wonderful rich boys in Geneva.
1145
01:14:40,301 --> 01:14:42,478
They turned out to be
very loyal.
1146
01:14:44,915 --> 01:14:47,221
The best friends we ever had.
1147
01:14:51,138 --> 01:14:53,053
Sandro: When I meet Anita,
1148
01:14:53,053 --> 01:14:55,360
she was a very
unpredictable person,
1149
01:14:55,360 --> 01:14:56,883
which is something I liked.
1150
01:14:57,754 --> 01:14:59,886
You know, in Switzerland,
in social dates,
1151
01:15:00,321 --> 01:15:03,107
to meet somebody unpredictable
1152
01:15:03,107 --> 01:15:07,024
is like putting
a bit adventure in your life.
1153
01:15:09,679 --> 01:15:10,723
She had values
1154
01:15:11,376 --> 01:15:13,813
and then she would throw them
out of the window in one second.
1155
01:15:14,422 --> 01:15:17,034
You know, to us, she was
somebody like dangerous.
1156
01:15:17,382 --> 01:15:18,949
You know, we loved her.
1157
01:15:18,949 --> 01:15:21,560
She created this anarchy
that we needed.
1158
01:15:22,256 --> 01:15:23,344
[soft rock music concludes]
1159
01:15:25,216 --> 01:15:27,435
I was surprised to see them
1160
01:15:27,435 --> 01:15:30,308
move into that tiny chalet
lost in Villars.
1161
01:15:31,309 --> 01:15:34,138
You know, I mean, what the hell
were they doing there?
1162
01:15:34,138 --> 01:15:36,009
And enjoying themselves,
it seemed.
1163
01:15:38,142 --> 01:15:40,100
But there was a lot of dramas.
1164
01:15:43,016 --> 01:15:46,542
Anita was sometimes furious
and screaming
1165
01:15:46,890 --> 01:15:50,371
and terrorizing everybody,
you know,
1166
01:15:50,371 --> 01:15:52,112
and throwing things around.
1167
01:15:52,112 --> 01:15:55,812
And then an hour later,
she would appear.
1168
01:15:56,639 --> 01:15:58,118
She would serve you tea.
1169
01:15:59,119 --> 01:16:02,035
She was creating
this constant chaos.
1170
01:16:05,561 --> 01:16:07,998
Keith:
If anything was bothering her,
1171
01:16:07,998 --> 01:16:10,043
she wouldn't wanna
talk about it.
1172
01:16:11,218 --> 01:16:14,570
And I'd say, "Oh, we have to
sit down and talk about this."
1173
01:16:14,570 --> 01:16:16,659
It was not an option
with Anita.
1174
01:16:16,659 --> 01:16:19,183
You know, it was, you know,
1175
01:16:19,183 --> 01:16:22,578
a plate come flying
through the room.
1176
01:16:23,927 --> 01:16:28,888
I think junk, for her,
was almost necessary
1177
01:16:28,888 --> 01:16:30,760
just to suppress the energy.
1178
01:16:32,675 --> 01:16:34,851
There was a maelstrom
in her head.
1179
01:16:35,329 --> 01:16:37,723
She was agitated by voices
1180
01:16:37,723 --> 01:16:40,508
that she couldn't control
sometimes.
1181
01:16:43,555 --> 01:16:45,905
Keith said that he was taking
a lot of drugs
1182
01:16:45,905 --> 01:16:48,908
because of the pressure
of being a Rolling Stone.
1183
01:16:53,870 --> 01:16:57,134
Anita: We were always waiting
for the drugs to arrive.
1184
01:16:58,701 --> 01:17:02,182
I would try to stop Keith
and he would try to stop me,
1185
01:17:03,793 --> 01:17:05,795
but we never stopped ourselves.
1186
01:17:08,101 --> 01:17:10,147
The straight road
had been lost.
1187
01:17:12,628 --> 01:17:14,064
Sandro: They never went to bed
1188
01:17:14,064 --> 01:17:16,632
before six or eight o'clock
in the morning.
1189
01:17:19,025 --> 01:17:22,159
They are not in a state of
taking care really of the kids.
1190
01:17:26,163 --> 01:17:28,556
Marlon was considered an adult.
1191
01:17:30,820 --> 01:17:32,648
[rock music playing]
1192
01:17:32,648 --> 01:17:33,866
Sando: One night,
1193
01:17:33,866 --> 01:17:36,216
we're all going
to see Dr. Feelgood.
1194
01:17:36,216 --> 01:17:39,524
[indistinct chatter]
1195
01:17:39,524 --> 01:17:42,440
Sando: And Anita rambles
about something.
1196
01:17:43,571 --> 01:17:47,053
And Marlon, you know,
he leans in front of the camera.
1197
01:17:47,053 --> 01:17:49,882
He says, "Mama, don't talk.
Don't talk."
1198
01:17:51,579 --> 01:17:53,886
- Mama, don't talk.
- All right.
1199
01:17:56,106 --> 01:17:58,238
Sandro: Marlon was
a commanding force.
1200
01:17:58,238 --> 01:17:59,675
[rock music concludes]
1201
01:18:00,588 --> 01:18:02,895
Sando: And he had a lot
on his shoulders.
1202
01:18:03,722 --> 01:18:06,420
A lot on his shoulders,
'cause he was sometimes
1203
01:18:06,420 --> 01:18:08,379
the man in the house.
1204
01:18:21,566 --> 01:18:24,177
Marlon: We were constantly
being left alone
1205
01:18:24,177 --> 01:18:26,092
while Keith went off on tour.
1206
01:18:27,659 --> 01:18:29,313
I think after
the first tour we did,
1207
01:18:29,313 --> 01:18:30,618
my mother found it
too exhausting
1208
01:18:30,618 --> 01:18:32,359
having a small child on tour.
1209
01:18:32,359 --> 01:18:35,101
[indistinct chatter]
1210
01:18:39,802 --> 01:18:41,107
Marlon: Being a mother,
1211
01:18:41,412 --> 01:18:43,544
she found a very
chauvinistic environment.
1212
01:18:43,806 --> 01:18:44,981
Very ugly.
1213
01:18:44,981 --> 01:18:47,157
[somber music playing]
1214
01:18:47,461 --> 01:18:49,289
[indistinct chatter]
1215
01:18:51,030 --> 01:18:52,553
Marlon: It's a very
unhealthy environment,
1216
01:18:52,553 --> 01:18:56,122
psychologically, physically,
and definitely mentally.
1217
01:18:56,601 --> 01:18:59,560
[indistinct chatter]
1218
01:19:01,475 --> 01:19:04,130
Marlon: It was only there
for the four or five people
1219
01:19:04,130 --> 01:19:06,132
who were on stage every night.
1220
01:19:08,831 --> 01:19:10,876
There was no interest
in anyone else, really.
1221
01:19:10,876 --> 01:19:15,838
[cheering]
1222
01:19:16,490 --> 01:19:19,015
Anita: The Stones had become
a corporation.
1223
01:19:21,234 --> 01:19:22,845
The guys in suits.
1224
01:19:24,368 --> 01:19:26,065
The nebula of yes men.
1225
01:19:27,632 --> 01:19:29,199
The wheel was set in motion.
1226
01:19:31,375 --> 01:19:33,246
It was a totally
different scene.
1227
01:19:34,726 --> 01:19:36,859
Marlon: The band was like
an organism,
1228
01:19:36,859 --> 01:19:38,686
a multifaceted one.
1229
01:19:39,296 --> 01:19:40,993
Jade Jagger calls it the Org,
1230
01:19:41,559 --> 01:19:43,822
or the Bus is another good word
she calls it.
1231
01:19:43,822 --> 01:19:45,215
The Bus comes first.
1232
01:19:49,697 --> 01:19:51,874
You can get off the bus,
you can get on the bus,
1233
01:19:51,874 --> 01:19:53,440
but the bus
is always going somewhere
1234
01:19:53,440 --> 01:19:54,877
and it's always on the move.
1235
01:19:54,877 --> 01:19:58,445
[laughter]
1236
01:19:58,445 --> 01:20:04,930
[indistinct chatter]
1237
01:20:04,930 --> 01:20:08,064
The Bus isn't healthy
and you have to get off it.
1238
01:20:15,114 --> 01:20:18,857
[gentle rock music playing]
1239
01:20:23,819 --> 01:20:27,257
Anita: When he came home,
Keith got stoned a lot.
1240
01:20:31,609 --> 01:20:34,177
He also spent
a lot of time sleeping.
1241
01:20:39,486 --> 01:20:41,793
But one night, we got romantic
1242
01:20:46,667 --> 01:20:48,321
and I fell pregnant again.
1243
01:20:53,152 --> 01:20:55,459
Marlon: My parents told me
we're gonna have another baby.
1244
01:20:56,416 --> 01:20:57,809
They were very excited.
1245
01:21:00,246 --> 01:21:02,118
I remember Anita thinking
it was a
1246
01:21:02,118 --> 01:21:03,554
sort of new lease on life.
1247
01:21:06,252 --> 01:21:08,254
It brought them together more,
obviously,
1248
01:21:08,254 --> 01:21:10,039
for a short period of time
at least.
1249
01:21:12,476 --> 01:21:14,870
For him, you know,
the more, the merrier really.
1250
01:21:15,914 --> 01:21:18,612
But then he didn't really
have to deal with, you know,
1251
01:21:18,612 --> 01:21:22,921
for, A, childbirth and,
you know, B, child-rearing.
1252
01:21:22,921 --> 01:21:24,314
[gentle rock music concludes]
1253
01:21:28,187 --> 01:21:30,450
Anita:
Tara was a beautiful baby.
1254
01:21:31,190 --> 01:21:32,539
I was over the moon.
1255
01:21:33,976 --> 01:21:36,630
I was constantly
with him in my arms.
1256
01:21:45,683 --> 01:21:47,859
Marlon:
Tara was born prematurely.
1257
01:21:49,992 --> 01:21:52,037
And I do remember him
coming home and seeing him
1258
01:21:52,037 --> 01:21:54,779
and then him having to go back
to the hospital quite a lot.
1259
01:21:55,345 --> 01:21:56,999
Back and forth, back and forth.
1260
01:22:01,481 --> 01:22:02,874
There were complications.
1261
01:22:03,266 --> 01:22:05,398
My parents
were very concerned about that.
1262
01:22:08,532 --> 01:22:11,448
Sandro: I remember
being at the hospital,
1263
01:22:12,492 --> 01:22:13,929
helping her out.
1264
01:22:16,627 --> 01:22:18,107
Keith wasn't around
1265
01:22:18,368 --> 01:22:20,152
and Anita was, at that time,
1266
01:22:20,587 --> 01:22:22,067
I guess a bit alone.
1267
01:22:26,724 --> 01:22:29,248
Marlon: She was supposed to have
people looking after her.
1268
01:22:30,075 --> 01:22:31,598
They just weren't,
at some point,
1269
01:22:31,598 --> 01:22:32,948
and left her on her own.
1270
01:22:34,819 --> 01:22:37,561
And I think Anita felt
abandoned by everyone.
1271
01:22:44,916 --> 01:22:47,919
[thunder rumbling]
1272
01:22:48,528 --> 01:22:51,836
Sandro: On that fatal night,
I was at a party.
1273
01:22:54,230 --> 01:22:55,971
Suddenly the phone rang
1274
01:22:56,493 --> 01:22:58,321
and I don't know
how she found me.
1275
01:22:58,321 --> 01:22:59,670
I don't know who found me.
1276
01:23:02,194 --> 01:23:04,283
She was screaming
and she was...
1277
01:23:04,675 --> 01:23:06,198
She was in a state.
1278
01:23:08,853 --> 01:23:10,333
I went to the house.
1279
01:23:11,334 --> 01:23:12,900
[suspenseful music playing]
1280
01:23:13,553 --> 01:23:17,427
This house
was just like chaos itself.
1281
01:23:19,037 --> 01:23:20,996
I tried to make Tara breathe
1282
01:23:20,996 --> 01:23:25,652
but the kid was cold and stiff.
1283
01:23:30,396 --> 01:23:32,833
I think I fainted at one point.
1284
01:23:33,312 --> 01:23:35,227
It was so difficult.
1285
01:23:36,620 --> 01:23:40,189
Anita was completely
out of control.
1286
01:23:41,451 --> 01:23:43,279
She cried. She screamed.
1287
01:23:43,279 --> 01:23:46,543
She was... She was...
it was terrible.
1288
01:23:47,065 --> 01:23:50,677
She had this animal thing
that came out, you know?
1289
01:23:50,677 --> 01:23:54,420
Like she wanted to...
She wanted him to be alive.
1290
01:23:57,467 --> 01:24:00,600
And it was an extremely
sad moment.
1291
01:24:02,515 --> 01:24:06,345
♪ ["Honky Tonk Women"
by The Rolling Stones plays] ♪
1292
01:24:09,522 --> 01:24:13,048
Marlon: Keith was in Paris
the night I believe he heard.
1293
01:24:14,571 --> 01:24:17,008
There's a bit of footage
from the concert.
1294
01:24:18,749 --> 01:24:21,186
He insisted on going
on stage that night.
1295
01:24:21,665 --> 01:24:23,797
The band, from what I gather,
was saying,
1296
01:24:23,797 --> 01:24:25,799
"No, you can't.
Your son's just died."
1297
01:24:26,148 --> 01:24:28,498
But he insisted
the show must go on.
1298
01:24:29,107 --> 01:24:31,675
I supposed he played very well.
Very, very well.
1299
01:25:00,182 --> 01:25:01,226
Mick: Yeah!
1300
01:25:04,011 --> 01:25:05,752
[melancholic music playing]
1301
01:25:08,059 --> 01:25:09,887
Anita: Tara had died
a crib death.
1302
01:25:11,671 --> 01:25:13,499
He was only 10 weeks old.
1303
01:25:17,286 --> 01:25:18,678
I was heartbroken.
1304
01:25:22,204 --> 01:25:24,945
The Swiss doctors told me
it wasn't my fault.
1305
01:25:27,078 --> 01:25:30,603
But if I'd been more together,
could I have done something?
1306
01:25:39,438 --> 01:25:41,005
Keith never blamed me.
1307
01:25:41,658 --> 01:25:42,833
He's not like that.
1308
01:25:45,314 --> 01:25:46,706
But I blame myself.
1309
01:25:48,839 --> 01:25:50,449
I had a nervous breakdown.
1310
01:25:57,456 --> 01:26:00,894
Angela: Tara, he's never...
he's never really been
1311
01:26:00,894 --> 01:26:02,331
talked about, to be honest,
1312
01:26:04,071 --> 01:26:05,595
but his memory's there.
1313
01:26:06,552 --> 01:26:09,555
But Marlon and I find it hard,
and my mom never talked about it
1314
01:26:09,555 --> 01:26:11,253
and my dad never talks about it.
1315
01:26:11,905 --> 01:26:15,213
And I think maybe now,
as we're getting older,
1316
01:26:15,213 --> 01:26:16,432
we probably should have...
1317
01:26:17,172 --> 01:26:19,957
probably could've talked to Mom
about it a bit more, but...
1318
01:26:20,653 --> 01:26:23,178
It wasn't really much
of a topic, shall we say.
1319
01:26:23,917 --> 01:26:25,832
It was never really brought up
much again.
1320
01:26:26,137 --> 01:26:27,182
It was too painful.
1321
01:26:27,921 --> 01:26:30,489
I think they just couldn't cope,
either of them.
1322
01:26:35,842 --> 01:26:38,758
Keith: I had to take Angela
and put her with my mother,
1323
01:26:40,499 --> 01:26:42,936
'cause it was
incredibly sad for us.
1324
01:26:45,330 --> 01:26:49,247
But given the circumstances,
it was the only decision.
1325
01:26:54,557 --> 01:26:56,211
Angela:
I think we were in a hotel.
1326
01:26:58,125 --> 01:26:59,518
I don't know
what hotel we were in
1327
01:26:59,518 --> 01:27:01,694
but my nan and Bill
came and picked me up.
1328
01:27:02,434 --> 01:27:04,436
And my mom was just...
She was just in bed.
1329
01:27:04,436 --> 01:27:06,569
She didn't really know
that I was leaving.
1330
01:27:06,569 --> 01:27:07,831
She didn't say goodbye.
1331
01:27:08,223 --> 01:27:11,356
She was pretty much out of it,
I would say, probably.
1332
01:27:11,835 --> 01:27:14,446
And my nan and Bill came
and got my little suitcase,
1333
01:27:14,446 --> 01:27:16,187
and that was it, I just went.
1334
01:27:19,712 --> 01:27:22,541
I don't know
what I was told at the time.
1335
01:27:22,541 --> 01:27:24,543
I think I was just going there
for a little while
1336
01:27:24,543 --> 01:27:27,329
while my mom was just
sorting herself out,
1337
01:27:27,329 --> 01:27:28,591
and my dad was as well.
1338
01:27:31,594 --> 01:27:33,726
Marlon: Angela would have been
four years old.
1339
01:27:34,205 --> 01:27:36,076
Just went on permanently
from then.
1340
01:27:38,862 --> 01:27:40,255
We were split up.
1341
01:27:42,169 --> 01:27:43,910
She stayed in England
1342
01:27:44,302 --> 01:27:46,261
and we went to live
in the States.
1343
01:27:51,527 --> 01:27:53,442
Maybe it was just a new start.
1344
01:27:53,442 --> 01:27:54,791
Maybe that sort of thing.
1345
01:27:54,791 --> 01:27:56,401
I mean,
it's somewhere different.
1346
01:27:56,401 --> 01:27:57,489
Yeah.
1347
01:28:00,362 --> 01:28:01,754
It was like a new life.
1348
01:28:04,235 --> 01:28:06,106
My idea of America
was The Brady Bunch.
1349
01:28:06,585 --> 01:28:09,327
But we were in the middle
of nowhere. Upstate New York.
1350
01:28:12,156 --> 01:28:14,724
My parents weren't getting on
very well at that point.
1351
01:28:16,900 --> 01:28:19,032
Keith was, I think,
just doing his sort of shit,
1352
01:28:19,032 --> 01:28:21,078
fucking off and disappearing
for weeks on end.
1353
01:28:23,602 --> 01:28:25,125
It was basically
a lawyered decision
1354
01:28:25,125 --> 01:28:27,432
to some degree that
they should... [whistles]
1355
01:28:27,911 --> 01:28:29,782
He was either told
to like, you know,
1356
01:28:29,782 --> 01:28:32,307
choose The Rolling Stones
or choose her.
1357
01:28:32,785 --> 01:28:33,830
You can't have both
1358
01:28:34,309 --> 01:28:36,659
because you're self-destructing
if you stay with her.
1359
01:28:38,748 --> 01:28:40,880
And I'm sure
she told the lawyers
1360
01:28:41,228 --> 01:28:42,491
to go fuck themselves.
1361
01:28:43,753 --> 01:28:45,407
And she probably threw
something at them.
1362
01:28:45,885 --> 01:28:47,539
[melancholic music concludes]
1363
01:28:55,504 --> 01:28:57,810
Theda: I moved in
with Anita and Marlon
1364
01:28:58,115 --> 01:29:01,074
in July of '78.
1365
01:29:02,685 --> 01:29:04,295
Anita hired me
1366
01:29:04,687 --> 01:29:06,993
to be the governess
or nanny for Marlon.
1367
01:29:08,168 --> 01:29:10,301
My masters was in Special Ed.
1368
01:29:10,301 --> 01:29:12,564
And it was my understanding
from Anita
1369
01:29:12,564 --> 01:29:14,392
that he was "home-schooled."
1370
01:29:14,392 --> 01:29:15,915
He had never been to school.
1371
01:29:16,176 --> 01:29:17,264
And he was eight.
1372
01:29:18,614 --> 01:29:20,485
But Marlon was amazing.
1373
01:29:20,877 --> 01:29:22,531
He was a brilliant little boy.
1374
01:29:24,097 --> 01:29:27,536
And I just tried
to normalize suburban living,
1375
01:29:27,536 --> 01:29:28,754
going to school,
1376
01:29:28,754 --> 01:29:30,756
being an eight-year-old kid
having fun.
1377
01:29:31,366 --> 01:29:33,063
[car horn honking]
1378
01:29:33,063 --> 01:29:36,196
- [indistinct chatter]
- [band music playing]
1379
01:29:36,501 --> 01:29:40,984
Theda: Anita was just
in this very small...
1380
01:29:42,551 --> 01:29:45,118
closed provincial community,
1381
01:29:45,858 --> 01:29:47,382
bored out of her mind,
1382
01:29:48,644 --> 01:29:51,516
just getting off
of the loss of a child,
1383
01:29:51,821 --> 01:29:54,519
and she was dependent
on the record company
1384
01:29:54,519 --> 01:29:56,086
for just about everything.
1385
01:29:56,913 --> 01:30:01,134
They had quite a bit
of control over her life.
1386
01:30:02,135 --> 01:30:05,661
She did not have possession
of her own passport,
1387
01:30:06,313 --> 01:30:10,317
so she was pretty much
at their mercy
1388
01:30:10,317 --> 01:30:13,886
and needed to ask permission
to travel.
1389
01:30:14,496 --> 01:30:16,106
[somber music playing]
1390
01:30:16,106 --> 01:30:18,021
Theda: She was a caged animal.
1391
01:30:21,590 --> 01:30:23,853
I think she was really angry, yeah.
1392
01:30:25,550 --> 01:30:29,075
I think the whole situation
wore her down after a bit.
1393
01:30:32,165 --> 01:30:33,515
She was very lonely up there.
1394
01:30:33,906 --> 01:30:36,431
And she befriended
this young guy.
1395
01:30:37,257 --> 01:30:39,477
He was 17, 18-ish.
1396
01:30:41,218 --> 01:30:43,263
Theda: Scott and his cousin
1397
01:30:43,655 --> 01:30:46,353
did a lot of odd jobs
around the community.
1398
01:30:48,530 --> 01:30:51,663
They seemed to
kind of be knockabouts.
1399
01:30:53,970 --> 01:30:57,147
Anita was very lenient,
very laid-back,
1400
01:30:57,147 --> 01:30:59,758
and, you know, "Help yourself."
1401
01:31:00,629 --> 01:31:03,327
They were just friends until...
1402
01:31:05,155 --> 01:31:06,417
until they weren't.
1403
01:31:07,418 --> 01:31:12,597
You know, he might not
have been a minor,
1404
01:31:13,119 --> 01:31:16,166
but, in my mind, he was just...
1405
01:31:16,514 --> 01:31:17,994
he was just too...
1406
01:31:17,994 --> 01:31:19,169
He was a kid.
1407
01:31:21,563 --> 01:31:24,957
Angela: My grandmother
kept me very sheltered
1408
01:31:24,957 --> 01:31:28,570
about my mom
and my father's lifestyles.
1409
01:31:29,266 --> 01:31:31,355
But I'd go out there
in the summer holidays
1410
01:31:31,355 --> 01:31:32,487
and see them.
1411
01:31:32,922 --> 01:31:35,315
The relationship
was definitely a bit stifled.
1412
01:31:35,707 --> 01:31:37,230
Old-fashioned, my nan would say.
1413
01:31:37,230 --> 01:31:39,842
She just didn't really see
what was, you know,
1414
01:31:39,842 --> 01:31:42,801
what was going on
or understand it.
1415
01:31:42,801 --> 01:31:44,542
And, you know, she was...
1416
01:31:44,542 --> 01:31:46,588
She was bad mom
in my nan's eyes.
1417
01:31:51,070 --> 01:31:54,160
Theda: When Keith's mom
came to visit with Angela,
1418
01:31:55,031 --> 01:31:58,164
Anita treated her
like she was made of glass.
1419
01:31:58,774 --> 01:32:00,776
She just would sit
and look at her
1420
01:32:00,776 --> 01:32:03,126
and, you know,
talk about her dress,
1421
01:32:03,126 --> 01:32:05,781
and admire her.
1422
01:32:05,781 --> 01:32:07,086
Admire her.
1423
01:32:07,086 --> 01:32:08,566
And I think she was longing
1424
01:32:08,566 --> 01:32:09,915
but she didn't wanna
get too close
1425
01:32:09,915 --> 01:32:11,264
'cause she knew
they were leaving.
1426
01:32:12,875 --> 01:32:15,355
She held a lot against Doris,
1427
01:32:16,269 --> 01:32:19,359
the reason why she didn't have
Angela with her.
1428
01:32:20,360 --> 01:32:22,362
[bus engine revving]
1429
01:32:28,499 --> 01:32:32,024
Marlon: It was the last day
of school, July 28th, 1979.
1430
01:32:32,677 --> 01:32:33,809
I was like ten.
1431
01:32:35,506 --> 01:32:37,552
I'd just finished
summer school.
1432
01:32:40,337 --> 01:32:41,599
Got off the bus.
1433
01:32:43,775 --> 01:32:46,996
No one was home really.
At least, I didn't think so.
1434
01:32:46,996 --> 01:32:48,475
[tense music playing]
1435
01:32:48,824 --> 01:32:50,521
Marlon: So I walked in,
made a sandwich.
1436
01:32:51,174 --> 01:32:52,784
Sat down, turned the TV on.
1437
01:32:52,784 --> 01:32:55,874
man: It was an exciting time
ten years ago today.
1438
01:32:56,483 --> 01:32:59,182
Marlon: Watched this ABC Special
on the moon landings.
1439
01:32:59,878 --> 01:33:02,577
Neil Armstrong: Houston,
the Eagle has landed.
1440
01:33:04,927 --> 01:33:07,451
Marlon: I didn't realize
Anita was even in the house.
1441
01:33:08,104 --> 01:33:10,149
And then I hear a loud bang.
1442
01:33:10,149 --> 01:33:11,194
[gunshot]
1443
01:33:11,586 --> 01:33:12,935
And then a scream.
1444
01:33:14,110 --> 01:33:18,375
Anita came down in a night gown,
just covered in blood.
1445
01:33:18,636 --> 01:33:21,421
Screaming, saying, "Oh, my God.
Scott's blown his head off,"
1446
01:33:21,421 --> 01:33:23,206
or shot himself
or something like that
1447
01:33:23,206 --> 01:33:24,337
and freaking out.
1448
01:33:24,729 --> 01:33:26,688
She was losing her shit.
Losing her shit.
1449
01:33:28,341 --> 01:33:30,430
I remember running upstairs
rather morbidly.
1450
01:33:32,563 --> 01:33:33,738
The TV was on.
1451
01:33:34,565 --> 01:33:36,306
They'd been watching
Deer Hunter.
1452
01:33:39,962 --> 01:33:41,877
And the Russian roulette scene
came up
1453
01:33:41,877 --> 01:33:43,269
and he decided to emulate it.
1454
01:33:44,053 --> 01:33:45,315
And, unfortunately, he lost.
1455
01:33:45,794 --> 01:33:48,318
[indistinct shouting]
1456
01:33:53,453 --> 01:33:55,107
Marlon: I remember
going around the room
1457
01:33:55,368 --> 01:33:58,458
because I was always taught
as a child to clean up.
1458
01:33:59,372 --> 01:34:01,940
If there's anything
dodgy around, get rid of it.
1459
01:34:03,289 --> 01:34:04,900
There was like
drug paraphernalia around,
1460
01:34:04,900 --> 01:34:07,206
so I kind of scooped it
into a bag or something
1461
01:34:07,206 --> 01:34:08,512
and threw it in the rubbish.
1462
01:34:09,426 --> 01:34:11,254
And then I remembered,
"Oh, shit, the pistols."
1463
01:34:12,690 --> 01:34:14,910
The guns in the house
were Keith's.
1464
01:34:16,433 --> 01:34:18,957
So I kind of took those
and put those away too
1465
01:34:18,957 --> 01:34:20,567
'cause I knew the cops
were coming.
1466
01:34:23,005 --> 01:34:24,963
And there was
25 cop cars around.
1467
01:34:24,963 --> 01:34:27,357
They hauled her off to jail,
I think, for a bit.
1468
01:34:28,793 --> 01:34:31,578
Searched the house
for dirty bits, all that.
1469
01:34:33,450 --> 01:34:35,147
Keith: It was very, very dark.
1470
01:34:37,019 --> 01:34:41,153
We were drifting
a little anyway.
1471
01:34:43,590 --> 01:34:47,246
It was at that point,
I had to actually say to Anita,
1472
01:34:47,246 --> 01:34:49,205
"I'm not living
with you anymore."
1473
01:34:51,729 --> 01:34:55,690
I really had to say, you know,
"Look, I have to leave."
1474
01:34:58,301 --> 01:34:59,998
[tense music concludes]
1475
01:34:59,998 --> 01:35:01,696
Marlon: It wasn't safe
to stay there.
1476
01:35:02,653 --> 01:35:04,089
We pretty much
moved out that night.
1477
01:35:04,089 --> 01:35:05,830
That was it.
We were out of that house.
1478
01:35:08,050 --> 01:35:11,053
She had to go off
and be coached by lawyers.
1479
01:35:14,404 --> 01:35:17,799
I was whisked off to Paris
to stay with my father.
1480
01:35:19,801 --> 01:35:22,368
The next time I saw her
was like four months later.
1481
01:35:22,368 --> 01:35:24,153
She was living in a hotel
in New York.
1482
01:35:29,114 --> 01:35:31,377
Anita: All I heard
was the click of a gun.
1483
01:35:31,377 --> 01:35:33,336
[pensive music playing]
1484
01:35:35,817 --> 01:35:40,082
Anita: It was someone's life
and I'd had my back turned.
1485
01:35:44,956 --> 01:35:46,784
I felt like some nasty person
1486
01:35:46,784 --> 01:35:49,091
who caused death
and destruction around her.
1487
01:35:56,533 --> 01:35:59,623
I slid further into the depths
of heroin addiction,
1488
01:36:03,409 --> 01:36:05,934
scoring on the streets
of Alphabet City.
1489
01:36:07,196 --> 01:36:09,633
I started stealing drugs
from my friends.
1490
01:36:15,857 --> 01:36:17,032
I sat in the Mudd Club
1491
01:36:17,032 --> 01:36:19,295
and watched my former self
on video.
1492
01:36:23,560 --> 01:36:26,563
I felt totally at the mercy
of dark powers,
1493
01:36:29,914 --> 01:36:31,307
the living dead.
1494
01:36:31,307 --> 01:36:35,615
[tense music playing]
1495
01:36:40,882 --> 01:36:44,015
Marlon: She just descended.
Descended pretty badly.
1496
01:36:47,540 --> 01:36:49,847
She painted herself
into a corner pretty much.
1497
01:36:52,110 --> 01:36:53,764
She was such a nightmare
that I think
1498
01:36:53,764 --> 01:36:55,505
basically she was
her own worst enemy.
1499
01:37:06,908 --> 01:37:07,996
Anita: In the end,
1500
01:37:08,779 --> 01:37:10,955
it was the alcohol
that brought me down.
1501
01:37:11,434 --> 01:37:13,349
[tense music concludes]
1502
01:37:13,610 --> 01:37:16,743
Anita: I was so drunk,
I'd fallen off the bed.
1503
01:37:20,225 --> 01:37:22,271
And that's where they found me.
1504
01:37:24,490 --> 01:37:26,449
[indistinct chatter]
1505
01:37:27,711 --> 01:37:28,930
Anita: But I survived.
1506
01:37:31,454 --> 01:37:33,195
I wasn't sure that I would.
1507
01:37:36,807 --> 01:37:38,200
Marlon: By that point,
especially,
1508
01:37:38,200 --> 01:37:39,854
she'd seen
enough people dying off.
1509
01:37:40,158 --> 01:37:42,508
She knew
that if she didn't clean up,
1510
01:37:42,508 --> 01:37:43,683
it would be her.
1511
01:37:44,119 --> 01:37:45,120
Yeah.
1512
01:37:49,559 --> 01:37:52,388
She went off and
did some rehab.
1513
01:37:53,911 --> 01:37:55,304
She went to one place
1514
01:37:55,304 --> 01:37:56,783
in the middle of nowhere
pretty much.
1515
01:37:56,783 --> 01:37:58,829
[birds chirping]
1516
01:37:59,090 --> 01:38:02,398
All the counselors were these
huge ex, like, military types.
1517
01:38:03,747 --> 01:38:06,663
She had to sit in the middle
of this room with her sponsor,
1518
01:38:06,663 --> 01:38:09,013
and me and my sister
and her sister.
1519
01:38:09,492 --> 01:38:12,582
And she had to read out
like a massive essay
1520
01:38:12,582 --> 01:38:15,150
she wrote to each of us with
what she'd done wrong to us
1521
01:38:15,585 --> 01:38:17,456
over the years
and apologize to us.
1522
01:38:17,456 --> 01:38:19,241
And it was heartbreaking.
It really was.
1523
01:38:20,285 --> 01:38:21,852
[brooding music playing]
1524
01:38:21,852 --> 01:38:24,159
Anita: I thought I'd broken
all the bridges.
1525
01:38:25,464 --> 01:38:28,032
I thought the children
wouldn't wanna know me anymore.
1526
01:38:31,122 --> 01:38:33,516
Angela: It's been a very
difficult journey
1527
01:38:33,516 --> 01:38:34,909
for me and Marlon.
1528
01:38:36,127 --> 01:38:39,914
Sometimes we had... my dad.
1529
01:38:39,914 --> 01:38:43,700
He sat down with me one day
and he explained it all
1530
01:38:45,441 --> 01:38:46,572
and broke down.
1531
01:38:48,879 --> 01:38:50,315
Yeah, it's hard.
1532
01:38:55,407 --> 01:38:58,933
Just, you know,
they weren't in a good place.
1533
01:39:03,198 --> 01:39:06,462
But I've never wanted
an apology.
1534
01:39:08,638 --> 01:39:11,032
I just think
if you're proving yourself
1535
01:39:11,032 --> 01:39:13,686
and changing your life
and wanting to do better,
1536
01:39:13,948 --> 01:39:16,646
I'll take that as an apology.
1537
01:39:23,218 --> 01:39:26,656
Sandro: In NA,
when you're in recovery,
1538
01:39:27,918 --> 01:39:29,702
we look back at our past,
1539
01:39:30,529 --> 01:39:33,010
we look at everything
that we've done,
1540
01:39:33,402 --> 01:39:35,056
and assess it.
1541
01:39:35,056 --> 01:39:37,232
We don't judge it
but we assess it,
1542
01:39:37,232 --> 01:39:40,931
and we don't leave anything
behind closed doors.
1543
01:39:45,544 --> 01:39:47,155
When Tara died,
1544
01:39:48,286 --> 01:39:51,202
it must have been
extremely difficult for Anita.
1545
01:39:53,552 --> 01:39:56,294
Keith certainly wasn't
a father in the...
1546
01:39:56,991 --> 01:40:00,037
in the normal sense of the word.
1547
01:40:00,037 --> 01:40:02,170
[birds chirping]
1548
01:40:05,738 --> 01:40:08,089
Sandro: To me, she was one
of The Rolling Stones.
1549
01:40:09,438 --> 01:40:12,006
She certainly
was one of the boys.
1550
01:40:14,486 --> 01:40:17,489
But nobody was there
to help her.
1551
01:40:19,578 --> 01:40:21,493
She had a lot of strength and...
1552
01:40:21,493 --> 01:40:23,713
I mean, I don't know
how she survived so long.
1553
01:40:23,974 --> 01:40:25,410
[brooding music concludes]
1554
01:40:32,417 --> 01:40:35,464
Anita: I would like to bring
Tara's ashes to Rome,
1555
01:40:35,986 --> 01:40:37,379
to the family grave.
1556
01:40:42,906 --> 01:40:44,864
Can I lay to rest the ghosts
1557
01:40:45,256 --> 01:40:47,606
that have haunted me
for so many years?
1558
01:40:54,048 --> 01:40:55,440
I still feel young,
1559
01:40:55,919 --> 01:40:59,879
but I look in the mirror
and I realize that I'm not.
1560
01:41:00,228 --> 01:41:04,145
[gentle guitar music playing]
1561
01:41:04,667 --> 01:41:06,060
Anita: I started writing.
1562
01:41:08,497 --> 01:41:10,238
It was difficult at first
1563
01:41:11,500 --> 01:41:14,068
but the memories
came flooding back.
1564
01:41:18,202 --> 01:41:20,596
I knew I had
to understand myself
1565
01:41:20,596 --> 01:41:22,337
and the people I grew up with,
1566
01:41:22,902 --> 01:41:25,122
and not be daunted
that everyone else
1567
01:41:25,122 --> 01:41:26,993
thinks of them as giants.
1568
01:41:32,477 --> 01:41:34,523
I don't regret anything.
1569
01:41:38,657 --> 01:41:40,181
All the fires I had
been through
1570
01:41:40,181 --> 01:41:42,531
had been like a cleansing,
1571
01:41:44,054 --> 01:41:46,578
and fires are extraordinary.
1572
01:41:51,017 --> 01:41:53,846
But I've gotta get my own thing
going again.
1573
01:41:57,502 --> 01:42:00,157
She really had two acts
in her life,
1574
01:42:00,157 --> 01:42:04,074
and the first act was
very different from the second.
1575
01:42:04,640 --> 01:42:06,685
To her credit,
she got herself together.
1576
01:42:07,077 --> 01:42:10,428
I mean, not many people did.
My old man certainly didn't.
1577
01:42:11,212 --> 01:42:13,953
She got herself together.
She got sober, you know?
1578
01:42:13,953 --> 01:42:15,477
She got the wake-up call.
1579
01:42:23,224 --> 01:42:26,270
Marlon: I think the desire
to not be a victim saved her.
1580
01:42:29,055 --> 01:42:30,448
She wanted to achieve things.
1581
01:42:34,191 --> 01:42:36,802
By the time I was
at secondary school,
1582
01:42:37,412 --> 01:42:39,849
she was just much more
involved in my life.
1583
01:42:42,112 --> 01:42:44,288
And that's when she started
to go to college.
1584
01:42:45,246 --> 01:42:47,161
So we were both students.
It was quite funny.
1585
01:42:48,423 --> 01:42:51,861
She said it wasn't easy
being that person in there.
1586
01:42:51,861 --> 01:42:54,907
But she said it was great,
and she worked really hard.
1587
01:42:55,821 --> 01:42:57,606
I think that gave her
a great deal of confidence.
1588
01:42:57,606 --> 01:42:58,824
A great deal of confidence.
1589
01:42:58,824 --> 01:43:00,130
She was so proud of herself,
1590
01:43:00,130 --> 01:43:01,523
and we were all very
proud of her.
1591
01:43:02,654 --> 01:43:04,961
I have this picture of her
with her hat
1592
01:43:05,222 --> 01:43:06,789
and her certificate,
1593
01:43:06,789 --> 01:43:09,618
grinning, when she graduated.
[chuckles]
1594
01:43:11,272 --> 01:43:13,187
[gentle guitar music concludes]
1595
01:43:13,491 --> 01:43:16,320
Kate: Yeah, she talked a lot
about going to art school.
1596
01:43:17,539 --> 01:43:19,889
I think she probably
found herself,
1597
01:43:19,889 --> 01:43:21,456
like her true self,
1598
01:43:22,196 --> 01:43:23,414
'cause there was nothing,
1599
01:43:23,849 --> 01:43:25,503
you know,
none of that Stones thing.
1600
01:43:25,503 --> 01:43:28,767
She was a student.
She was with other students.
1601
01:43:28,767 --> 01:43:30,334
And she was just like Anita.
1602
01:43:31,161 --> 01:43:34,730
I didn't know her when
she took drugs, so... But...
1603
01:43:37,123 --> 01:43:39,517
she was so interesting
without them.
1604
01:43:40,301 --> 01:43:42,172
[rock music playing]
1605
01:43:42,172 --> 01:43:43,956
Marlon: Anita loved Kate.
1606
01:43:45,306 --> 01:43:47,438
She, you know,
took a lot of inspiration
1607
01:43:47,438 --> 01:43:48,831
from the young people
she was with.
1608
01:43:48,831 --> 01:43:50,746
She loved hanging out
with young people.
1609
01:43:51,529 --> 01:43:54,576
And Kate sort of credited her
with her style.
1610
01:43:58,319 --> 01:44:00,146
And that's when she got
this reputation
1611
01:44:00,146 --> 01:44:01,539
as a fashion icon.
1612
01:44:08,677 --> 01:44:11,723
Kate: I knew about Anita,
like, as an icon.
1613
01:44:12,681 --> 01:44:16,250
She was one of my heroes
before I met her.
1614
01:44:18,687 --> 01:44:20,341
man: She is a historical figure.
1615
01:44:21,690 --> 01:44:22,821
She's Anita Pallenberg
1616
01:44:23,213 --> 01:44:26,651
and this is a woman
who has lived a very intense
1617
01:44:26,651 --> 01:44:27,913
and dangerous life.
1618
01:44:31,830 --> 01:44:33,484
She had the best style.
1619
01:44:34,137 --> 01:44:37,662
I mean, I still try to
recreate that stuff. [chuckles]
1620
01:44:39,142 --> 01:44:42,537
It was the original
bohemian rock chick
1621
01:44:44,452 --> 01:44:47,281
that people
still aspire to today.
1622
01:44:50,284 --> 01:44:52,851
Anita did not agree
with plastic surgery.
1623
01:44:52,851 --> 01:44:56,464
She thought it was naff,
very unchic.
1624
01:44:59,162 --> 01:45:01,512
She just had such
a strong personality.
1625
01:45:02,034 --> 01:45:03,297
She didn't give a fuck.
1626
01:45:05,299 --> 01:45:07,649
And she was everything
you want a rock star to be.
1627
01:45:07,649 --> 01:45:10,739
[laughs] Or like just the...
1628
01:45:10,739 --> 01:45:13,263
For me, everything you want
a woman to be.
1629
01:45:16,397 --> 01:45:19,530
Keith: You know, we are talking
about a one-off here.
1630
01:45:22,359 --> 01:45:24,143
What I loved about Anita was...
1631
01:45:24,143 --> 01:45:28,539
Well, there's a naturalness
about how she operated
1632
01:45:29,323 --> 01:45:31,890
and a sort of... almost
an innocence about it,
1633
01:45:31,890 --> 01:45:35,720
even in its most
Machiavellian form.
1634
01:45:40,334 --> 01:45:42,336
She was my woman. [laughs]
1635
01:45:42,945 --> 01:45:45,339
We stuck together
through a lot.
1636
01:45:47,689 --> 01:45:50,779
But it was
a total experiment really,
1637
01:45:52,171 --> 01:45:55,174
and it was a hell
of an experience,
1638
01:45:55,174 --> 01:45:57,742
but she made a man
out of me, and...
1639
01:46:03,618 --> 01:46:06,534
My dad's always said that,
"I've always loved your mom
1640
01:46:06,534 --> 01:46:08,231
but I just couldn't
live with her,"
1641
01:46:08,231 --> 01:46:10,581
which, I'm sure, she probably
would say the same
1642
01:46:10,581 --> 01:46:12,627
about him at the time as well.
[chuckles]
1643
01:46:13,149 --> 01:46:14,542
[soft rock music playing]
1644
01:46:18,197 --> 01:46:19,851
Anita: Keith's a decent guy.
1645
01:46:24,247 --> 01:46:27,250
He's no angel,
but neither am I.
1646
01:46:30,427 --> 01:46:32,908
We've been through too much
together to fight.
1647
01:46:38,914 --> 01:46:41,656
He says he's probably
gonna die on stage.
1648
01:46:47,923 --> 01:46:51,448
His truth is different
to my truth.
1649
01:46:51,448 --> 01:46:53,407
[soft rock music concludes]
1650
01:46:54,059 --> 01:46:57,367
[indistinct chatter]
1651
01:46:57,715 --> 01:46:59,848
[dramatic music playing]
1652
01:47:00,892 --> 01:47:02,894
Anita: It's funny how life
comes around.
1653
01:47:06,985 --> 01:47:08,770
I started acting again.
1654
01:47:10,336 --> 01:47:11,512
Where's my change?
1655
01:47:11,512 --> 01:47:12,687
What, it's $50 a piece?
1656
01:47:12,687 --> 01:47:14,471
Change?
Take your change in coconuts
1657
01:47:14,471 --> 01:47:16,430
I used to wipe your ass,
for Christ's sake.
1658
01:47:16,430 --> 01:47:17,735
Well, we're even then.
1659
01:47:27,223 --> 01:47:29,225
Get off home,
back to your mommy.
1660
01:47:29,617 --> 01:47:31,880
The moment, yeah. Oh, my God.
1661
01:47:35,361 --> 01:47:36,972
Well, it's pretty heavy.
1662
01:47:38,887 --> 01:47:42,760
I never thought I could look
even remotely like the Queen.
1663
01:47:42,760 --> 01:47:44,327
But they managed to...
1664
01:47:44,327 --> 01:47:45,589
Even now, the other day,
1665
01:47:45,894 --> 01:47:49,375
I saw it on TV and I said,
"My God, I look like her."
1666
01:47:54,946 --> 01:47:58,863
Like, I don't know, I felt part
of a social structure and such.
1667
01:47:59,298 --> 01:48:01,083
Having lunch
at the Queen's house
1668
01:48:01,083 --> 01:48:03,346
at Buckingham Palace
and all of that,
1669
01:48:03,346 --> 01:48:05,740
it's just, for me,
it's not where I come from.
1670
01:48:07,219 --> 01:48:09,526
And James Fox
from Performance...
1671
01:48:10,788 --> 01:48:12,224
Do you like my physique?
1672
01:48:13,051 --> 01:48:15,097
...he and I end up
in bed again.
1673
01:48:16,359 --> 01:48:18,013
You think people will come?
1674
01:48:19,667 --> 01:48:20,929
Of course, they will.
1675
01:48:23,497 --> 01:48:26,412
They will come to see
the greatest show on Earth.
1676
01:48:28,632 --> 01:48:30,721
The scene in bed with James Fox,
1677
01:48:30,721 --> 01:48:33,158
we kind of did that
very kind of quietly,
1678
01:48:33,158 --> 01:48:36,553
because we both kind of
were traumatized
1679
01:48:36,553 --> 01:48:38,120
by the way we look.
1680
01:48:39,730 --> 01:48:42,254
Obviously,
we've both grown older,
1681
01:48:42,254 --> 01:48:44,082
so we gotta play it all
very down
1682
01:48:44,082 --> 01:48:46,737
and didn't do any kind of
crazy things in it.
1683
01:48:46,737 --> 01:48:48,304
And so, that's fine.
1684
01:48:48,304 --> 01:48:49,523
It's just fine.
1685
01:48:52,134 --> 01:48:55,137
I hope I haven't cleaned
my dirty laundry in public,
1686
01:48:58,749 --> 01:49:02,405
but writing this has helped me
emerge in my own eyes.
1687
01:49:06,670 --> 01:49:11,196
Reading over what I've written,
I get a lump in my throat.
1688
01:49:16,811 --> 01:49:21,032
But it doesn't need to be
a doom and gloom kind of story.
1689
01:49:22,468 --> 01:49:29,345
[rock music playing]
1690
01:49:29,780 --> 01:49:34,219
[cheering]
1691
01:49:34,219 --> 01:49:37,309
[cheers and applause]
1692
01:49:46,492 --> 01:49:47,842
[shatters]
1693
01:49:52,368 --> 01:49:53,978
[rock music concludes]
1694
01:49:57,678 --> 01:50:03,597
♪ ["I Am the Fly"
by Wire plays] ♪
1695
01:50:21,702 --> 01:50:22,746
♪ Crawling
1696
01:50:24,748 --> 01:50:28,317
♪ Over your window
You think I'm confused ♪
1697
01:50:29,579 --> 01:50:32,234
♪ I'm waiting
For the divergent wasp ♪
1698
01:50:33,278 --> 01:50:35,541
♪ To complete my current ruse
1699
01:50:37,543 --> 01:50:39,633
♪ You use a plate-glass
screen ♪
1700
01:50:41,330 --> 01:50:43,811
♪ To protect my chosen target
1701
01:50:45,160 --> 01:50:47,466
♪ But there's
An air-pellet hole ♪
1702
01:50:48,380 --> 01:50:50,905
♪ I can crawl through to you
1703
01:50:53,864 --> 01:50:56,780
♪ I am the fly in
the ointment ♪
1704
01:50:56,780 --> 01:50:59,870
♪ I can spread more disease
Than the fleas ♪
1705
01:50:59,870 --> 01:51:04,222
♪ Which nibble away
At your window display ♪
1706
01:51:07,312 --> 01:51:10,446
♪ Yes, I am the fly
In the ointment ♪
1707
01:51:10,446 --> 01:51:13,536
♪ I shake you down
To say please as you ♪
1708
01:51:13,536 --> 01:51:16,713
♪ Accept the next dose
Of disease ♪
1709
01:51:19,716 --> 01:51:25,722
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly
1710
01:51:25,722 --> 01:51:29,160
♪ Fly in the,
Fly in the ointment ♪
1711
01:51:31,946 --> 01:51:37,952
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly
1712
01:51:37,952 --> 01:51:41,259
♪ Fly in the,
Fly in the ointment ♪
1713
01:52:02,193 --> 01:52:08,025
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly
1714
01:52:08,286 --> 01:52:11,768
♪ Fly in the,
Fly in the ointment ♪
1715
01:52:14,292 --> 01:52:17,382
♪ Yes, I am the fly,
I am the fly ♪
1716
01:52:17,382 --> 01:52:20,298
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly
1717
01:52:20,298 --> 01:52:23,737
♪ Fly in the,
Fly in the ointment ♪
1718
01:52:26,652 --> 01:52:32,528
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly
1719
01:52:32,528 --> 01:52:36,271
♪ Fly in the,
Fly in the ointment ♪
1720
01:52:38,577 --> 01:52:41,624
♪ Yes, I am the fly,
I am the fly ♪
1721
01:52:41,624 --> 01:52:44,583
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly
1722
01:52:44,583 --> 01:52:48,196
♪ Fly in the,
Fly in the ointment ♪
1723
01:52:50,894 --> 01:52:52,766
♪ I am the fly