1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:02,335 --> 00:00:03,294 ♪♪ 3 00:00:04,004 --> 00:00:09,718 [ Chanting in distance ] 4 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 5 00:00:09,759 --> 00:00:11,052 -♪ Delta is the one for me! ♪ 6 00:00:11,094 --> 00:00:12,971 [ Chanting ] 7 00:00:13,054 --> 00:00:16,599 -So I just have a couple of thoughts regarding 8 00:00:16,641 --> 00:00:21,479 this supposed HBO Max documentary on Bama Rush. 9 00:00:21,563 --> 00:00:24,232 -Okay, you guys, we have more tea coming through about, 10 00:00:24,274 --> 00:00:26,568 is someone filming Rush this year? 11 00:00:26,609 --> 00:00:28,486 -I have gotten a couple of reports... 12 00:00:28,570 --> 00:00:30,572 -They haven't went up against this college yet, 13 00:00:30,613 --> 00:00:32,157 and I'm telling you, you don't want to 14 00:00:32,240 --> 00:00:34,117 go up against the University of Alabama. 15 00:00:34,159 --> 00:00:37,287 -Not to be dramatic, but this HBO special 16 00:00:37,370 --> 00:00:40,623 could be the end of Greek life as we know it. 17 00:00:40,665 --> 00:00:44,711 ♪♪ 18 00:00:44,794 --> 00:00:46,838 [ Chanting in distance ] 19 00:00:46,921 --> 00:00:51,885 ♪♪ 20 00:00:51,968 --> 00:00:54,596 [ Chanting ] 21 00:00:54,679 --> 00:00:58,141 [ Overlapping chanting ] 22 00:00:58,183 --> 00:00:59,476 -Hey, y'all. -Hey, y'all. 23 00:00:59,559 --> 00:01:01,936 -Hey, welcome to day one of Rush week. 24 00:01:02,020 --> 00:01:08,985 ♪♪ 25 00:01:09,986 --> 00:01:11,488 -We're getting ready to rush. 26 00:01:11,571 --> 00:01:14,657 Like, look at the people already starting to line up. 27 00:01:14,699 --> 00:01:20,705 ♪♪ 28 00:01:20,789 --> 00:01:22,999 -[ Screams ] 29 00:01:23,041 --> 00:01:27,545 ♪♪ 30 00:01:27,629 --> 00:01:29,339 -Love it! 31 00:01:29,422 --> 00:01:31,841 ♪♪ 32 00:01:31,925 --> 00:01:35,345 -Is anybody else way too old and has too many kids 33 00:01:35,387 --> 00:01:38,515 to be this invested in Bama Rush TikTok? 34 00:01:38,556 --> 00:01:41,059 Like, if Katie does not get the Delta Zeta bid, 35 00:01:41,142 --> 00:01:42,894 she is going to be devastated. 36 00:01:42,977 --> 00:01:47,065 -I've never smoked crystal meth, but this is how I would imagine 37 00:01:47,148 --> 00:01:51,361 one would feel on a 72-hour crystal meth binge. 38 00:01:51,403 --> 00:01:53,863 -This is officially becoming a problem. 39 00:01:53,947 --> 00:01:56,991 -This is me, two days after watching Bama Rush Tok. 40 00:01:57,033 --> 00:02:00,537 [ Chanting ] 41 00:02:00,620 --> 00:02:03,206 -Bama Rush sisterhood day one OOTD. 42 00:02:03,248 --> 00:02:05,750 -Jewelry is from Vivienne Westwood, Tiffany. 43 00:02:05,834 --> 00:02:07,043 You know the vibes. 44 00:02:07,085 --> 00:02:08,962 -Blouse is from -- 45 00:02:09,045 --> 00:02:11,589 -We did it. We did it, Joe. 46 00:02:11,673 --> 00:02:15,218 -I have been picking my outfits since January. January. 47 00:02:15,301 --> 00:02:17,429 -And my shoes are Dolce Vita. 48 00:02:17,512 --> 00:02:18,930 -These earrings from -- -Amazon. 49 00:02:19,014 --> 00:02:20,473 -[ Screams ] 50 00:02:20,557 --> 00:02:22,142 -I think I'm gonna be different than everyone else. 51 00:02:22,225 --> 00:02:24,227 -Wish us luck. Roll Tide. 52 00:02:24,310 --> 00:02:26,688 -I'm gonna ask for y'all to pray for me. 53 00:02:26,771 --> 00:02:31,192 ♪♪ 54 00:02:31,234 --> 00:02:33,653 [ Crowd cheering ] 55 00:02:33,737 --> 00:02:39,951 ♪♪ 56 00:02:40,035 --> 00:02:42,412 [ Screaming ] 57 00:02:42,495 --> 00:02:46,082 ♪♪ 58 00:02:46,124 --> 00:02:48,001 -They are doing the Lord's work. 59 00:02:48,084 --> 00:02:49,502 I'm losing it! 60 00:02:49,586 --> 00:02:51,212 -Roll Tide. 61 00:02:52,422 --> 00:02:55,675 [ Women breathing hard ] 62 00:02:55,759 --> 00:03:02,766 ♪♪ 63 00:03:04,309 --> 00:03:07,520 [ Haunting music playing ] 64 00:03:07,604 --> 00:03:09,105 -Hi! 65 00:03:09,189 --> 00:03:12,859 [ Muffled cheering ] 66 00:03:12,942 --> 00:03:19,949 ♪♪ 67 00:03:22,827 --> 00:03:29,834 ♪♪ 68 00:03:32,796 --> 00:03:40,637 ♪♪ 69 00:03:42,472 --> 00:03:44,474 -Got my little finger on it, 70 00:03:44,557 --> 00:03:46,351 and I think it's my acceptance thing, 71 00:03:46,434 --> 00:03:48,728 but I don't really know -- or acceptance or decline 72 00:03:48,812 --> 00:03:50,313 or whatever it is. 73 00:03:50,355 --> 00:03:54,067 [ Exhales deeply ] Really scared. 74 00:03:54,150 --> 00:03:55,819 I'm shaking really bad. 75 00:03:55,860 --> 00:03:57,487 [ Paper tears ] 76 00:03:57,570 --> 00:03:58,697 [ Gasps ] 77 00:03:58,780 --> 00:04:00,907 [ Crying ] 78 00:04:00,990 --> 00:04:05,954 -Pretty emotional day there when we got that, so... 79 00:04:06,037 --> 00:04:07,163 [ Laughs ] 80 00:04:07,247 --> 00:04:09,958 -Oh! -Oh, my gosh! 81 00:04:10,000 --> 00:04:11,584 [ Screams ] 82 00:04:11,668 --> 00:04:13,837 -[ Chuckles ] 83 00:04:13,878 --> 00:04:16,756 -Stops here. 84 00:04:16,840 --> 00:04:18,383 Oh. 85 00:04:18,466 --> 00:04:20,844 Those are all my Alabama T-shirts, 86 00:04:20,885 --> 00:04:22,971 so the obsession is real. 87 00:04:23,054 --> 00:04:24,556 Gotta love it. 88 00:04:24,639 --> 00:04:26,349 I've had these since, some of them, like, freshman year. 89 00:04:26,391 --> 00:04:28,518 -I'm not even 100% sure how she found it, 90 00:04:28,560 --> 00:04:31,312 but once she found it, she was in 100%. 91 00:04:31,354 --> 00:04:33,148 She knew it's where she wanted to be. 92 00:04:33,189 --> 00:04:35,025 She's our first person in the family 93 00:04:35,108 --> 00:04:36,735 to do a full four-year college, 94 00:04:36,818 --> 00:04:38,695 so excited for her for that, too. 95 00:04:38,737 --> 00:04:40,488 -I can tell a million people that I'll be going 96 00:04:40,530 --> 00:04:42,490 to the University of Alabama, and they'll be like, 97 00:04:42,532 --> 00:04:44,367 "You're totally meant to go there. 98 00:04:44,409 --> 00:04:45,910 She's so bubbly and outgoing, like, 99 00:04:45,994 --> 00:04:48,204 she definitely needs to be in a sorority." 100 00:04:48,288 --> 00:04:49,664 Alabama hair ties. 101 00:04:49,706 --> 00:04:51,332 Three people, three different people 102 00:04:51,374 --> 00:04:54,878 decided to give me these for Christmas, 'cause they know. 103 00:04:54,919 --> 00:04:58,006 ♪♪ 104 00:04:58,089 --> 00:05:00,467 Probably the part of my life that I am most proud of 105 00:05:00,550 --> 00:05:02,218 is my adoption story. 106 00:05:02,302 --> 00:05:03,762 So I was adopted at four days old, 107 00:05:03,845 --> 00:05:06,806 and I started a nonprofit organization 108 00:05:06,890 --> 00:05:09,893 called Fostering Hope where I help foster children 109 00:05:09,934 --> 00:05:12,604 and foster families in the state of Illinois, 110 00:05:12,687 --> 00:05:14,773 and that's something that I'm super proud of, 111 00:05:14,856 --> 00:05:17,317 but that's just a little bit about me. 112 00:05:17,400 --> 00:05:21,696 ♪♪ 113 00:05:21,738 --> 00:05:23,782 -Let's be honest, I probably would not be going 114 00:05:23,865 --> 00:05:26,951 to the University of Alabama if it did not blow up on TikTok. 115 00:05:27,035 --> 00:05:31,790 Just because I saw it so much, so I looked into the school. 116 00:05:31,873 --> 00:05:35,543 Being in a sorority will kind of help me figure out 117 00:05:35,585 --> 00:05:38,421 who I want to be, help me be surrounded by people 118 00:05:38,505 --> 00:05:41,675 that will always have my back, no matter what. 119 00:05:41,758 --> 00:05:45,095 I've always needed a thing to be a part of, like, 120 00:05:45,178 --> 00:05:46,513 as part of my identity. 121 00:05:46,596 --> 00:05:47,931 It's been really hard for me to find, like, 122 00:05:47,972 --> 00:05:51,810 a sense of, like, you know, self-worth 123 00:05:51,893 --> 00:05:54,813 or, like, pride in something because I feel like 124 00:05:54,896 --> 00:05:57,816 I don't really know who I am, you know? 125 00:05:57,899 --> 00:06:04,906 ♪♪ 126 00:06:07,450 --> 00:06:11,287 [ Music playing from phone ] 127 00:06:11,371 --> 00:06:13,123 -Not like this. 128 00:06:13,164 --> 00:06:15,709 I remember doing a tequila shot with this DILF. 129 00:06:15,792 --> 00:06:17,377 -You had a fuckin' hard hat on. 130 00:06:17,460 --> 00:06:19,838 -Ally? -Yes? 131 00:06:19,921 --> 00:06:22,382 -I'm so sorry for whatever I did last night. 132 00:06:22,465 --> 00:06:25,427 -You actually weren't that bad. -Was I not? 133 00:06:25,468 --> 00:06:27,345 -Okay, I actually want to be president. 134 00:06:27,429 --> 00:06:28,972 So I'm gonna, like, 135 00:06:29,055 --> 00:06:30,682 work my way up in the governmental system. 136 00:06:30,765 --> 00:06:32,475 I think I'm gonna be, like, a governmental lawyer, 137 00:06:32,517 --> 00:06:33,935 like, something on that track. 138 00:06:33,977 --> 00:06:36,146 I'm not, like, 100% sure what I do to get there yet. 139 00:06:36,187 --> 00:06:38,857 -Can you tell us how many jobs you're working right now? 140 00:06:38,940 --> 00:06:42,444 -I work at a nutrition shop, so, like, Herbalife, 141 00:06:42,485 --> 00:06:44,946 and then I also work at a tanning salon. 142 00:06:44,988 --> 00:06:47,532 Oh, my therapist also called me a workaholic. 143 00:06:47,615 --> 00:06:52,287 I was like, "Whatever, girl. At least I work." 144 00:06:52,370 --> 00:06:54,456 "Hayley --" or for like, Miss USA, 145 00:06:54,497 --> 00:06:55,832 if I, like, won Miss Alabama, 146 00:06:55,915 --> 00:06:58,877 I'd be like, "Hayley Holliday, Miss Alabama." 147 00:06:58,960 --> 00:07:01,921 I did pageants like at 18 months old. 148 00:07:02,005 --> 00:07:06,426 Walking on the stage is the best feeling in the whole wide world. 149 00:07:06,509 --> 00:07:09,429 I get a high off of winning. 150 00:07:09,512 --> 00:07:13,641 [ Chanting in background ] 151 00:07:13,683 --> 00:07:17,062 -We're walking to our retreat. 152 00:07:17,145 --> 00:07:19,647 Oh, my gosh. 153 00:07:19,731 --> 00:07:23,109 Look at our retreat. 154 00:07:23,193 --> 00:07:25,445 I got into my sorority. Like, I was living the dream. 155 00:07:25,528 --> 00:07:27,030 This was, like, everything I've ever wanted. 156 00:07:27,072 --> 00:07:29,866 Like, I was, like, in the sorority with my, like, sisters 157 00:07:29,908 --> 00:07:31,034 and I had friends, 158 00:07:31,076 --> 00:07:35,121 and then I wore the wrong sorority sticker 159 00:07:35,205 --> 00:07:36,790 and got dropped. [ Chuckles ] 160 00:07:36,873 --> 00:07:38,541 ♪♪ 161 00:07:38,583 --> 00:07:40,001 -For wearing a sticker? -Yes. 162 00:07:40,043 --> 00:07:42,712 For wearing another sorority sticker. 163 00:07:42,796 --> 00:07:45,215 ♪♪ 164 00:07:45,256 --> 00:07:47,592 Like, I would rather a guy tell me that I was ugly 165 00:07:47,676 --> 00:07:49,761 than get dropped by a sorority. 166 00:07:49,844 --> 00:07:51,554 [ Laughing ] I was so humbled. 167 00:07:51,596 --> 00:07:54,140 I thought those people were my very best friends. 168 00:07:54,224 --> 00:07:57,811 Like, this was my home, this was where I belonged. 169 00:07:57,894 --> 00:08:01,898 And it does scare me going into, like, next year's Rush. 170 00:08:01,940 --> 00:08:03,400 ♪♪ 171 00:08:03,441 --> 00:08:06,820 -Oh. -'Sup? 172 00:08:06,903 --> 00:08:09,072 -Oh, probably 9:30 would be better. 173 00:08:09,114 --> 00:08:10,115 -What time are we waking up? 174 00:08:10,198 --> 00:08:13,410 -Huh? -I don't know. 175 00:08:13,451 --> 00:08:15,912 -I've actually been going to class this week. 176 00:08:15,954 --> 00:08:18,289 I'm actually in a really good mood today. 177 00:08:18,373 --> 00:08:20,834 Very rare for me. 178 00:08:20,917 --> 00:08:23,294 I feel like I didn't rush freshman year 179 00:08:23,378 --> 00:08:27,132 because I need to find my place here. 180 00:08:27,215 --> 00:08:33,972 When I first moved here, like, it was just all, like, too much. 181 00:08:34,055 --> 00:08:38,143 But I do regret not rushing. I did feel really left out. 182 00:08:38,226 --> 00:08:41,146 -When did you know you wanted to be in criminal justice? 183 00:08:41,229 --> 00:08:42,772 -Well... 184 00:08:42,814 --> 00:08:44,774 when I was in high school, 185 00:08:44,858 --> 00:08:48,278 I really wanted to be a coroner. 186 00:08:48,361 --> 00:08:50,155 [ Laughing ] 187 00:08:50,238 --> 00:08:52,449 I was very weird. 188 00:08:52,532 --> 00:08:54,784 I got interested in criminal justice 189 00:08:54,826 --> 00:08:57,787 'cause my dad was a police officer. 190 00:08:57,871 --> 00:09:01,082 I was 13 when my dad passed away, 191 00:09:01,124 --> 00:09:03,793 so I was in seventh grade. 192 00:09:03,877 --> 00:09:05,253 ♪♪ 193 00:09:05,295 --> 00:09:06,880 Yeah. 194 00:09:06,963 --> 00:09:10,925 He would be glad I'm here, but I don't know about rushing. 195 00:09:11,009 --> 00:09:12,677 He has always wanted to keep me 196 00:09:12,761 --> 00:09:15,972 in a little bubble and protect me. 197 00:09:16,014 --> 00:09:23,021 ♪♪ 198 00:09:24,981 --> 00:09:27,942 -Sororities really started along with co-education. 199 00:09:28,026 --> 00:09:32,614 In 1883, a professor at Harvard 200 00:09:32,655 --> 00:09:35,158 wrote a book called "Sex in Education." 201 00:09:35,241 --> 00:09:39,204 The basis of his argument is that if women studied, 202 00:09:39,287 --> 00:09:42,999 then the blood would go to their brains and not their ovaries, 203 00:09:43,041 --> 00:09:47,337 and that they would shrivel up and -- and the women would die. 204 00:09:47,420 --> 00:09:50,465 ♪♪ 205 00:09:50,507 --> 00:09:52,759 Imagine it's in this environment 206 00:09:52,842 --> 00:09:54,678 that these women are going to college, 207 00:09:54,761 --> 00:09:57,222 and in the face of that, they're coming together 208 00:09:57,305 --> 00:09:59,140 to form these early sororities. 209 00:09:59,182 --> 00:10:03,061 The emphasis was very much on showing that women 210 00:10:03,144 --> 00:10:05,230 could succeed in higher education. 211 00:10:05,313 --> 00:10:09,859 They were feminists in many ways before that was a word. 212 00:10:09,901 --> 00:10:11,528 ♪♪ 213 00:10:11,611 --> 00:10:13,196 And into the early 1910s, 214 00:10:13,279 --> 00:10:15,824 more and more women are coming to campus. 215 00:10:15,865 --> 00:10:19,160 The first generation has proven that they're successful. 216 00:10:19,202 --> 00:10:20,495 In the second generation, 217 00:10:20,578 --> 00:10:23,998 the sororities become more focused on parties, 218 00:10:24,040 --> 00:10:26,876 on socializing, and on showing that they are 219 00:10:26,960 --> 00:10:31,923 the best representatives of true womanhood on campus. 220 00:10:32,007 --> 00:10:34,050 The whole notion of Rush came 221 00:10:34,092 --> 00:10:38,221 because they were rushing to show themselves 222 00:10:38,263 --> 00:10:42,225 as the best sororities on campus to attract the best members. 223 00:10:42,308 --> 00:10:45,562 They would meet the trains that the new students 224 00:10:45,645 --> 00:10:47,439 were taking to get to campus, 225 00:10:47,522 --> 00:10:52,736 literally whisking them off and trying to woo and win over 226 00:10:52,777 --> 00:10:56,072 the best members of the new class. 227 00:10:56,156 --> 00:10:58,116 ♪♪ 228 00:10:58,199 --> 00:11:01,077 -So this is my Rush binder, because I have OCD, 229 00:11:01,119 --> 00:11:03,621 so it's just going to be organized by each sorority, 230 00:11:03,705 --> 00:11:04,998 with each recruitment letter, 231 00:11:05,081 --> 00:11:07,417 and then I'm probably gonna have a mock-up 232 00:11:07,459 --> 00:11:09,502 of my recruitment letter of how I'll send it out 233 00:11:09,586 --> 00:11:11,087 to each person in here as well. 234 00:11:11,129 --> 00:11:15,258 I'm definitely going to do Google slides of my outfits, 235 00:11:15,342 --> 00:11:18,345 and I'm gonna have them pre-planned and packed 236 00:11:18,428 --> 00:11:19,888 in a separate bag, 237 00:11:19,971 --> 00:11:21,806 so that way, if I still need to unpack some stuff 238 00:11:21,890 --> 00:11:24,476 after my parents leave or while I'm rushing, 239 00:11:24,559 --> 00:11:26,770 like, at night time, I can unpack that, 240 00:11:26,811 --> 00:11:29,522 but I want to have all my Rush stuff ready to go. 241 00:11:29,606 --> 00:11:32,650 -When did you know you wanted to be in a sorority at Alabama? 242 00:11:32,734 --> 00:11:35,278 -Yes, so I started watching Gracie O'Connor, 243 00:11:35,320 --> 00:11:36,571 who's on YouTube. 244 00:11:36,613 --> 00:11:37,947 It made me want to go there even more. 245 00:11:37,989 --> 00:11:40,033 She was like, so adorable and fun, 246 00:11:40,116 --> 00:11:42,077 and I was like, that looks like so much fun 247 00:11:42,160 --> 00:11:43,078 and I want that. 248 00:11:43,119 --> 00:11:45,830 -Here it is. It's my final look. 249 00:11:45,914 --> 00:11:48,625 Got this super cute tassel earrings, 250 00:11:48,708 --> 00:11:50,543 bracelets, and the necklace. 251 00:11:50,627 --> 00:11:52,170 -When Bama Rush Tok blew up, 252 00:11:52,253 --> 00:11:54,130 you know, I had plenty of people commenting, 253 00:11:54,172 --> 00:11:56,174 "Don't forget the OG, Gracie O'Connor." 254 00:11:56,257 --> 00:11:58,301 And I'm like, me? 255 00:11:58,343 --> 00:12:01,554 ♪♪ 256 00:12:01,638 --> 00:12:03,056 At the University of Alabama, 257 00:12:03,139 --> 00:12:06,101 Rush consists of four highly competitive rounds 258 00:12:06,142 --> 00:12:08,186 that give sororities and potential new members 259 00:12:08,269 --> 00:12:10,355 the chance to make the best possible impression 260 00:12:10,438 --> 00:12:11,606 on one another. 261 00:12:11,648 --> 00:12:12,899 And during these rounds, 262 00:12:12,982 --> 00:12:14,859 the sororities vote on their top PNMs, 263 00:12:14,943 --> 00:12:17,070 and the PNMs vote on their top sororities. 264 00:12:17,153 --> 00:12:18,947 They're trying to find the perfect match. 265 00:12:19,030 --> 00:12:20,782 [ Indistinct conversations ] 266 00:12:20,824 --> 00:12:23,702 -Basically what happens is there's multiple girls 267 00:12:23,785 --> 00:12:25,662 that gets to talk to one PNM. 268 00:12:25,745 --> 00:12:28,164 That amount of girls will get to vote on her. 269 00:12:28,206 --> 00:12:31,960 If she gets high enough votes or if we like her, 270 00:12:32,043 --> 00:12:34,087 then she'll come back. 271 00:12:34,170 --> 00:12:35,755 -Over the course of the week, 272 00:12:35,839 --> 00:12:38,717 the girls return to fewer and fewer sororities, 273 00:12:38,800 --> 00:12:40,593 whether they were dropped or chose to drop 274 00:12:40,677 --> 00:12:42,887 certain sororities along the way. 275 00:12:42,971 --> 00:12:44,681 -Active members are looking for girls 276 00:12:44,723 --> 00:12:46,266 that we can see futures in 277 00:12:46,349 --> 00:12:49,185 and that are going to, like, literally uphold our chapter 278 00:12:49,269 --> 00:12:51,563 and make us better in all aspects, 279 00:12:51,646 --> 00:12:53,690 whether that be grades or, like, 280 00:12:53,773 --> 00:12:56,985 how we present ourselves to the universe. 281 00:12:57,068 --> 00:12:59,029 If you're not meeting a certain criteria, 282 00:12:59,070 --> 00:13:02,365 you'll kind of just be dropped. 283 00:13:02,407 --> 00:13:05,910 -After the final round, PNMs choose their top sorority 284 00:13:05,994 --> 00:13:08,872 and the sororities select their new pledge class. 285 00:13:08,955 --> 00:13:10,874 -It comes down to, like, crunch time, and no one wants 286 00:13:10,957 --> 00:13:13,001 to make any decisions on anybody's girl, 287 00:13:13,084 --> 00:13:14,461 but someone has to. 288 00:13:14,544 --> 00:13:16,421 And so we're just, like, crying through the process. 289 00:13:16,504 --> 00:13:18,423 Like, it's never easy. 290 00:13:18,506 --> 00:13:19,716 That part sucks. 291 00:13:19,799 --> 00:13:21,259 [ Crying ] 292 00:13:21,343 --> 00:13:24,471 It's way more dramatic than you're thinking it is. 293 00:13:24,554 --> 00:13:26,222 [ Laughing ] Like, it's way... 294 00:13:26,306 --> 00:13:28,516 And I'm not going to tell you how hard it is. 295 00:13:28,600 --> 00:13:30,185 I'm so sorry. I can't. 296 00:13:30,226 --> 00:13:32,062 -This all leads up to Bid Day. 297 00:13:32,145 --> 00:13:34,397 The PNMs meet at Bryant-Denny Stadium 298 00:13:34,481 --> 00:13:36,900 and open envelopes containing the name of the sorority 299 00:13:36,983 --> 00:13:38,234 that they've been invited to join, 300 00:13:38,318 --> 00:13:40,278 and hopefully, it's their top choice. 301 00:13:40,362 --> 00:13:42,364 After the PNMs open their invitations, 302 00:13:42,405 --> 00:13:44,240 they run back to their forever home 303 00:13:44,282 --> 00:13:46,534 with the new sisters in their pledge class. 304 00:13:46,618 --> 00:13:48,119 ♪♪ 305 00:13:48,203 --> 00:13:50,955 -Rush has gotten so competitive over the past decade 306 00:13:51,039 --> 00:13:53,416 that I really saw a need for our services 307 00:13:53,458 --> 00:13:57,045 and what we do to help prepare girls to go through Rush 308 00:13:57,128 --> 00:14:00,465 and hopefully get them into the house of their dreams. 309 00:14:00,548 --> 00:14:04,219 -I remember when we were going through recruitment at Georgia, 310 00:14:04,260 --> 00:14:06,846 we would all be looking at what Alabama was doing. 311 00:14:06,930 --> 00:14:09,099 Yeah, they're just the trend setters. 312 00:14:09,182 --> 00:14:10,892 And I think that's why so many out-of-state girls 313 00:14:10,934 --> 00:14:13,144 decide to go to the University of Alabama and Rush. 314 00:14:13,228 --> 00:14:18,066 It's just this beast, because Greek life is 315 00:14:18,149 --> 00:14:20,151 everything at Alabama. 316 00:14:20,235 --> 00:14:24,114 -The University of Alabama is the top sorority recruitment 317 00:14:24,197 --> 00:14:26,616 in all of the country, and it's a huge school 318 00:14:26,658 --> 00:14:28,159 with tons of money rolling into it 319 00:14:28,243 --> 00:14:29,953 for their football program. 320 00:14:29,994 --> 00:14:31,955 The girls are, like, glammed to the gods. 321 00:14:31,996 --> 00:14:34,791 It sucks you in. 322 00:14:34,874 --> 00:14:37,085 -Rush at the University of Alabama 323 00:14:37,168 --> 00:14:39,671 traditionally has kind of a bad rap. 324 00:14:39,754 --> 00:14:41,965 It's kind of a cutthroat process. 325 00:14:42,048 --> 00:14:45,343 It's just uniquely, uniquely Alabama, 326 00:14:45,427 --> 00:14:48,304 which doesn't really make much sense, but... 327 00:14:48,346 --> 00:14:50,390 [ Chuckles ] 328 00:14:50,473 --> 00:14:53,685 -I'm still holding out that we're gonna be able 329 00:14:53,768 --> 00:14:54,978 to get into those houses. 330 00:14:55,020 --> 00:14:55,979 What do you think? 331 00:14:56,021 --> 00:14:58,314 -Oh. Probably not. 332 00:14:58,398 --> 00:15:01,651 Getting inside those houses is like, absolutely not. 333 00:15:01,693 --> 00:15:04,362 They're very protective of it, and rightfully so, 334 00:15:04,446 --> 00:15:08,783 because of the misconceptions that people want to expose, 335 00:15:08,825 --> 00:15:10,493 like, these sorority secrets. 336 00:15:10,577 --> 00:15:12,954 ♪♪ 337 00:15:12,996 --> 00:15:15,123 -Hey, who are you filming for? 338 00:15:15,165 --> 00:15:18,710 Okay, ma'am, I'm going to have to ask you to, like, leave. 339 00:15:18,793 --> 00:15:23,256 ♪♪ 340 00:15:23,340 --> 00:15:25,175 -Tell me more about what you hope 341 00:15:25,216 --> 00:15:27,510 to get out of being in a sorority? 342 00:15:27,594 --> 00:15:31,014 -I've had a really hard time finding someone 343 00:15:31,056 --> 00:15:33,016 that can love me no matter what. 344 00:15:33,058 --> 00:15:35,393 I have, like, my friends from school who love 345 00:15:35,477 --> 00:15:39,147 the, like, crazy fun, sneaking into school at midnight 346 00:15:39,189 --> 00:15:41,566 and jumping in the pool kind of girl. 347 00:15:41,649 --> 00:15:46,321 And then there's my family, who loves the sweet and caring 348 00:15:46,363 --> 00:15:49,199 and, you know, really involved person. 349 00:15:49,240 --> 00:15:53,495 And I feel like no one knows me fully and loves me fully, 350 00:15:53,536 --> 00:15:55,830 and I feel like that's really something 351 00:15:55,872 --> 00:15:57,707 I want with these girls. 352 00:15:57,791 --> 00:16:04,798 ♪♪ 353 00:16:06,591 --> 00:16:13,556 ♪♪ 354 00:16:15,308 --> 00:16:22,315 ♪♪ 355 00:16:23,900 --> 00:16:30,907 ♪♪ 356 00:16:32,659 --> 00:16:39,666 ♪♪ 357 00:16:41,459 --> 00:16:48,425 ♪♪ 358 00:16:49,968 --> 00:16:55,890 ♪♪ 359 00:16:55,974 --> 00:16:58,143 -[ Laughing ] 360 00:16:58,226 --> 00:16:59,769 You know what? Let's just go. 361 00:16:59,811 --> 00:17:02,439 [ Vocalizing to self ] 362 00:17:02,522 --> 00:17:05,108 -[ Over phone ] Weird? Why you being weird to me? 363 00:17:05,191 --> 00:17:07,027 [ Speaking along ] You said you wanted to get married. 364 00:17:07,110 --> 00:17:08,611 -"When I say that?" 365 00:17:08,695 --> 00:17:12,157 ♪ When you had the leg up, up, up, up ♪ 366 00:17:12,240 --> 00:17:13,783 -I have a serious question for, like, everyone, 367 00:17:13,867 --> 00:17:15,452 and everyone has to answer this. 368 00:17:15,535 --> 00:17:17,287 If you were a fruit, what kind of fruit would you be and why? 369 00:17:17,328 --> 00:17:19,164 I would be a strawberry. 370 00:17:19,247 --> 00:17:20,457 -Why a strawberry? -I don't know. 371 00:17:20,540 --> 00:17:22,959 I just -- everybody loves strawberries 372 00:17:23,043 --> 00:17:24,419 and I just, like, want to be loved 373 00:17:24,502 --> 00:17:26,504 by everybody, because I low-key, like, see -- 374 00:17:26,588 --> 00:17:29,758 Like, I don't like when people don't like me. 375 00:17:29,799 --> 00:17:31,468 -Makayla, what about you? 376 00:17:31,551 --> 00:17:33,720 -A watermelon. 377 00:17:33,803 --> 00:17:35,221 -Why? 378 00:17:35,305 --> 00:17:38,141 -Because I act hard on the outside, 379 00:17:38,183 --> 00:17:40,977 but I'm soft on the inside. 380 00:17:41,019 --> 00:17:43,355 -Aww. 381 00:17:44,481 --> 00:17:47,025 -'Cause, I mean, I moved out at 16, so... 382 00:17:47,108 --> 00:17:49,027 as soon as my dad died, I... 383 00:17:49,110 --> 00:17:50,320 [ Snaps fingers ] ...hit the hay. 384 00:17:50,403 --> 00:17:52,489 -I think that's why we also bond, too, 385 00:17:52,530 --> 00:17:54,366 because we're missing our dads. 386 00:17:54,449 --> 00:17:57,869 -Trauma bond! [ Laughing ] 387 00:17:57,952 --> 00:18:02,582 ♪♪ 388 00:18:02,665 --> 00:18:06,336 -[ Groans ] This hill! 389 00:18:06,419 --> 00:18:07,504 Dang! 390 00:18:07,545 --> 00:18:10,590 There's some fresh bodies over here. 391 00:18:10,674 --> 00:18:14,177 -Why are we seeing my dad's grave on Halloween? 392 00:18:14,219 --> 00:18:16,054 Why? [ Laughs ] 393 00:18:16,137 --> 00:18:20,183 -Oh, my gosh. Your dad's grave is so pretty. 394 00:18:20,225 --> 00:18:23,186 -My dad loved his job so much. 395 00:18:23,228 --> 00:18:26,398 Everyone talks about how he was the best police. 396 00:18:26,481 --> 00:18:29,567 My dad would even give my mom tickets. [ Chuckles ] 397 00:18:29,651 --> 00:18:33,029 He was serious about the ticket. He liked to mess with her a lot. 398 00:18:33,113 --> 00:18:35,156 My dad was such a jokester. 399 00:18:35,198 --> 00:18:41,496 Like, yeah, so he was, like...I don't know. 400 00:18:41,538 --> 00:18:42,831 [ Crying ] 401 00:18:42,872 --> 00:18:46,668 It just is exhausting having to hold everything in. 402 00:18:46,710 --> 00:18:50,213 -You don't have to. -That's how I was raised. 403 00:18:50,255 --> 00:18:51,548 -I know. I was raised the same way. 404 00:18:51,589 --> 00:18:53,174 But me and Abby are always here for you. 405 00:18:53,216 --> 00:18:55,343 -Yeah. [ Sniffles ] 406 00:18:55,385 --> 00:18:58,638 I'm just a very, like, to myself person 407 00:18:58,722 --> 00:19:00,557 about this kind of stuff. 408 00:19:00,598 --> 00:19:05,603 ♪♪ 409 00:19:05,687 --> 00:19:10,650 ♪♪ 410 00:19:10,734 --> 00:19:17,741 ♪♪ 411 00:19:18,867 --> 00:19:25,874 ♪♪ 412 00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:34,007 ♪♪ 413 00:19:35,133 --> 00:19:42,140 ♪♪ 414 00:19:43,308 --> 00:19:45,310 -Whoo! Whoo! 415 00:19:45,393 --> 00:19:47,437 -[ Speaking indistinctly ] 416 00:19:47,520 --> 00:19:49,230 ♪♪ 417 00:19:49,272 --> 00:19:51,566 [ Music gets louder ] 418 00:19:51,649 --> 00:19:58,615 ♪♪ 419 00:19:59,783 --> 00:20:02,994 ♪♪ 420 00:20:03,078 --> 00:20:09,125 ♪♪ 421 00:20:09,167 --> 00:20:14,214 ♪♪ 422 00:20:14,297 --> 00:20:15,674 -Hey, y'all. 423 00:20:15,757 --> 00:20:19,427 Alabama recruitment day three, outfit of the day. 424 00:20:19,469 --> 00:20:21,971 Shirt is a personal gift from Jeff Bezos. 425 00:20:22,055 --> 00:20:25,725 Jeans are from an internment camp in San Francisco. 426 00:20:25,809 --> 00:20:30,021 Earrings are a gift from my grandma from beyond the grave. 427 00:20:30,105 --> 00:20:32,816 Bracelets are from Applebee's and shoes are from Target. 428 00:20:32,899 --> 00:20:35,151 You know, something that's ingrained in us 429 00:20:35,193 --> 00:20:38,154 early on is that, yeah, you're a person, 430 00:20:38,196 --> 00:20:39,656 but you're a Sigma Kappa first. 431 00:20:39,739 --> 00:20:42,242 You're a woman, but you're a Sigma Kappa woman first, 432 00:20:42,325 --> 00:20:45,161 and that's a lot of what being in a sorority is. 433 00:20:45,245 --> 00:20:46,538 It's branding. 434 00:20:46,621 --> 00:20:48,707 That's, you know, every single Greek organization. 435 00:20:48,790 --> 00:20:51,167 That's kind of one of the things that we sign on to 436 00:20:51,251 --> 00:20:52,919 when we join one. 437 00:20:53,003 --> 00:21:01,594 ♪♪ 438 00:21:06,224 --> 00:21:08,518 -♪ ...for a roll call ♪ 439 00:21:08,560 --> 00:21:10,520 ♪ Queens of the Row, check ♪ 440 00:21:10,562 --> 00:21:12,188 ♪ Good grades on exams, check ♪ 441 00:21:12,230 --> 00:21:13,690 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 442 00:21:13,773 --> 00:21:15,358 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 443 00:21:15,400 --> 00:21:17,444 -Should I put on lip gloss? [ Laughter ] 444 00:21:17,527 --> 00:21:18,945 -Yeah. -Okay, ready? 445 00:21:19,029 --> 00:21:21,114 -Does it look bad on camera? -No, it looks pretty. 446 00:21:21,197 --> 00:21:24,159 -[ Lip-syncing ] Oh, no, I lost my pen. 447 00:21:24,200 --> 00:21:25,869 -With social media, with recruitment, 448 00:21:25,952 --> 00:21:29,748 people, like, literally look at you like you are in college 449 00:21:29,831 --> 00:21:32,792 majoring in sorority, almost like a little doll 450 00:21:32,876 --> 00:21:35,378 in your fake University of Alabama world 451 00:21:35,462 --> 00:21:37,630 in your little sorority doing your, 452 00:21:37,714 --> 00:21:39,341 you know, tiny little tasks. 453 00:21:39,382 --> 00:21:42,052 Everyone's putting their best out on social media. 454 00:21:42,135 --> 00:21:43,511 I'm not going to post that, 455 00:21:43,553 --> 00:21:45,764 "Oh, I -- You know, I got a C on my chem test, 456 00:21:45,847 --> 00:21:47,807 even though I studied for 12 hours. 457 00:21:47,891 --> 00:21:49,225 Boo." 458 00:21:49,309 --> 00:21:50,560 -Should we hang it over the balcony right here? 459 00:21:50,602 --> 00:21:52,395 -That's I was thinking. -That's funny. 460 00:21:52,437 --> 00:21:54,647 Like this. -Yeah, look at her. 461 00:21:54,731 --> 00:21:56,608 Three... -I can't see the phone. 462 00:21:56,691 --> 00:21:59,569 -Oh. -I lost something once. 463 00:21:59,611 --> 00:22:01,863 -That's good. That's so funny. 464 00:22:01,905 --> 00:22:04,407 - I lost something once. -[ Laughing ] 465 00:22:04,491 --> 00:22:07,243 -It's so perfect! -I lost my pen. 466 00:22:07,327 --> 00:22:09,245 -People assume what you're gonna be like 467 00:22:09,287 --> 00:22:11,081 as a woman in a sorority. -Yeah. 468 00:22:11,122 --> 00:22:12,248 "Oh, why are you trying so hard? 469 00:22:12,332 --> 00:22:13,875 Like, you should just get a husband." 470 00:22:13,917 --> 00:22:17,420 I'm not only a sorority girl. I'm a woman in a sorority. 471 00:22:17,462 --> 00:22:18,880 -Yeah. -And it's not the same thing. 472 00:22:18,922 --> 00:22:20,715 -Honestly, what makes me mad is that in our sorority, 473 00:22:20,757 --> 00:22:23,635 like, we're so understanding, and it's the people that, 474 00:22:23,718 --> 00:22:25,637 like, hate on us, and they stereotype us -- 475 00:22:25,720 --> 00:22:27,764 I'm like, y'all are the mean ones, not us. 476 00:22:27,806 --> 00:22:29,808 Like, we don't do anything. What do we do? 477 00:22:29,891 --> 00:22:33,353 Sit there and eat our chicken sandwiches together? 478 00:22:33,436 --> 00:22:34,813 Like, what? We don't do anything. 479 00:22:34,896 --> 00:22:36,981 We put a lot -- a lot of pressure on ourselves. 480 00:22:37,065 --> 00:22:40,235 -Example, right here of my sweet little girls. 481 00:22:40,276 --> 00:22:41,736 -Are you editing us? -Yep. 482 00:22:41,778 --> 00:22:43,571 So, like, let's just say... -Let me look at that. 483 00:22:43,613 --> 00:22:45,448 -...we want to make Lauren's arm smaller. 484 00:22:45,532 --> 00:22:46,950 We can go like this. 485 00:22:46,991 --> 00:22:48,410 We can make it smaller, we can make it smaller. 486 00:22:48,451 --> 00:22:49,828 Let's whiten her teeth a little bit. 487 00:22:49,911 --> 00:22:52,622 And then let's make Kaiya's head big for fun, 488 00:22:52,706 --> 00:22:54,416 just so you guys can see. 489 00:22:54,457 --> 00:22:55,792 Like, just so you can see. -You want to do me dirty? 490 00:22:55,875 --> 00:22:58,336 -Like, a child could do this. -It's so easy. 491 00:22:58,420 --> 00:22:59,796 If you want to make your waist thinner 492 00:22:59,879 --> 00:23:01,840 to make yourself feel better about posting it online, 493 00:23:01,923 --> 00:23:03,717 I understand, but the problem is, 494 00:23:03,800 --> 00:23:06,469 is that these women with millions of followers... 495 00:23:06,553 --> 00:23:07,554 -14-year-old girls are gonna look at that and be like, 496 00:23:07,637 --> 00:23:08,930 "Why don't I look that way?" 497 00:23:08,972 --> 00:23:10,598 -...post that and act like it's real. 498 00:23:10,640 --> 00:23:12,100 -The things that I say to myself and think to myself 499 00:23:12,183 --> 00:23:14,644 about my body, I would never say that to someone else. 500 00:23:14,686 --> 00:23:16,438 -You know, when you're living with other women 501 00:23:16,479 --> 00:23:18,606 and, like, you're around other women all the time 502 00:23:18,648 --> 00:23:21,776 that, you know, I think are very beautiful girls... 503 00:23:21,818 --> 00:23:25,989 You know, I would kill to look like any of my friends. 504 00:23:26,072 --> 00:23:29,325 You know, it's hard to be like, "That's okay 505 00:23:29,367 --> 00:23:30,660 that I don't look like them." 506 00:23:30,744 --> 00:23:33,538 Everyone has, like, their important qualities 507 00:23:33,621 --> 00:23:34,914 that aren't affected 508 00:23:34,998 --> 00:23:37,625 by how prettier you think your friends are 509 00:23:37,667 --> 00:23:40,503 or, like, how you want your hair to look like her hair. 510 00:23:40,545 --> 00:23:42,005 It doesn't change who you are 511 00:23:42,047 --> 00:23:46,968 and who -- like, what people really value you for. 512 00:23:47,010 --> 00:23:50,096 -Okay, great. So there's just a few more questions 513 00:23:50,180 --> 00:23:51,681 and we can, like, go through. 514 00:23:51,765 --> 00:23:53,892 -Well, interim question that has nothing to do with this, 515 00:23:53,975 --> 00:23:56,269 but just out of curiosity... -Yes? 516 00:23:56,353 --> 00:23:59,022 -Nobody in my family is even, 517 00:23:59,064 --> 00:24:01,733 like, bald from just being an older man. 518 00:24:01,816 --> 00:24:03,443 Do you put sunscreen on your head? 519 00:24:03,526 --> 00:24:04,778 -Yes! -Yes, right? 520 00:24:04,861 --> 00:24:06,613 That's what I thought. Yeah. -So much. 521 00:24:06,696 --> 00:24:09,032 So much, because, like, 522 00:24:09,074 --> 00:24:12,035 I could never get skin cancer on my head. 523 00:24:12,118 --> 00:24:14,371 -Yeah, what would you do? -This is my whole thing. 524 00:24:14,454 --> 00:24:17,248 -Right. That's terrible. 525 00:24:17,332 --> 00:24:19,209 -It's actually stressful at the beach. 526 00:24:19,250 --> 00:24:20,418 -I can... Right? 527 00:24:20,502 --> 00:24:21,920 You must have to do a hat, right? 528 00:24:22,003 --> 00:24:24,798 -With summer, yeah, I do hats and I do turbans. 529 00:24:24,881 --> 00:24:26,883 -Mm-hmm. 530 00:24:28,218 --> 00:24:32,681 -Okay, I think I know where I'm going with this. 531 00:24:32,722 --> 00:24:35,934 Between Katie, this smart, beautiful girl, 532 00:24:36,017 --> 00:24:39,604 telling me that she wishes she looked like her friends 533 00:24:39,688 --> 00:24:42,899 or she compares herself to other women 534 00:24:42,941 --> 00:24:47,153 and the endless scrolling of these OOTDs, 535 00:24:47,237 --> 00:24:48,947 it hit me. 536 00:24:50,782 --> 00:24:54,411 I feel like I rushed, too. 537 00:24:54,452 --> 00:24:56,871 And just stay with me on this -- 538 00:24:56,913 --> 00:25:00,917 in these OOTDs, these girls are showing us their earrings, 539 00:25:00,959 --> 00:25:04,671 their necklaces, their outfits that they put on 540 00:25:04,754 --> 00:25:08,591 to look like they belong in a sorority. 541 00:25:08,633 --> 00:25:13,430 And I feel like I rushed because I have alopecia 542 00:25:13,513 --> 00:25:16,850 and I wore a wig for 14 years. 543 00:25:16,933 --> 00:25:19,102 I wore a different wig every year. 544 00:25:19,144 --> 00:25:22,939 I wore a mullet, a bowl cut, a blunt cut, a body wave, 545 00:25:23,023 --> 00:25:25,608 a perm -- I wore a layered look. 546 00:25:25,650 --> 00:25:27,402 My Rush looked different. 547 00:25:27,444 --> 00:25:32,073 I was trying to get into the sorority of 548 00:25:32,115 --> 00:25:34,951 all of the girls in the world who have hair, 549 00:25:34,993 --> 00:25:39,039 and it felt like an impossible sorority to get into. 550 00:25:39,122 --> 00:25:42,625 I was going to compete for my position, 551 00:25:42,667 --> 00:25:44,252 and my wig was a secret. 552 00:25:44,294 --> 00:25:46,838 If you found out that I wore a wig, 553 00:25:46,921 --> 00:25:50,967 if you even questioned that I wore a wig, 554 00:25:51,051 --> 00:25:54,304 it would shatter me. 555 00:25:54,346 --> 00:25:59,059 So I know it's not exactly like the Alabama Rush, 556 00:25:59,142 --> 00:26:02,562 but it's like, not that different. 557 00:26:02,645 --> 00:26:05,732 -I think the competition mostly comes from 558 00:26:05,815 --> 00:26:07,817 the rankings of sororities, 559 00:26:07,859 --> 00:26:10,820 trying to get in one of those top or middle-tier houses 560 00:26:10,862 --> 00:26:14,074 and not getting into a bottom house. 561 00:26:14,157 --> 00:26:17,577 -I visited the University of Alabama, 562 00:26:17,660 --> 00:26:21,623 observing the sorority Rush parties. 563 00:26:21,664 --> 00:26:24,167 I probably saw five or six houses. 564 00:26:24,209 --> 00:26:29,172 Rush is a social stratification ritual bar none. 565 00:26:29,255 --> 00:26:30,715 Stratification in the sense 566 00:26:30,799 --> 00:26:35,095 of organizing people and groups of people 567 00:26:35,178 --> 00:26:41,935 into tiers of power, of status, of prestige. 568 00:26:42,018 --> 00:26:44,813 It's a proving ground of competitive femininity 569 00:26:44,854 --> 00:26:49,234 and the contemporary performance of the Southern belle. 570 00:26:49,317 --> 00:26:50,235 -Hey, y'all. -Hey, y'all. 571 00:26:50,318 --> 00:26:51,653 -Hey, y'all. 572 00:26:51,695 --> 00:26:52,987 -Do you think I would get into a top-tier house? 573 00:26:53,029 --> 00:26:54,489 -You wouldn't get in with those shoes. 574 00:26:54,531 --> 00:26:56,408 You got to have cute shoes. 575 00:26:56,491 --> 00:26:58,410 [ Both laugh ] 576 00:26:58,493 --> 00:27:00,286 -Who determines the rankings? 577 00:27:00,370 --> 00:27:04,374 -I have no idea, to be honest. 578 00:27:04,416 --> 00:27:07,335 Actually, I'm going to give you my potential thoughts on it. 579 00:27:07,377 --> 00:27:10,755 I think a lot of the times people like to rank -- 580 00:27:10,839 --> 00:27:13,842 and by people, I usually mean fraternity boys 581 00:27:13,883 --> 00:27:15,677 or boys in general, I feel like they're like, 582 00:27:15,719 --> 00:27:17,846 "Oh, this house has the hottest girls, 583 00:27:17,929 --> 00:27:19,222 so they're a top house." 584 00:27:19,305 --> 00:27:21,725 Like, "These freshmen are the hottest freshmen, 585 00:27:21,808 --> 00:27:23,476 so they're going to be considered a top house." 586 00:27:23,560 --> 00:27:30,150 ♪♪ 587 00:27:30,233 --> 00:27:32,235 -The potential new members are trying to get in, 588 00:27:32,318 --> 00:27:34,529 but also, these sororities are trying to get, 589 00:27:34,571 --> 00:27:35,864 like, the best girls. 590 00:27:35,947 --> 00:27:37,615 -For sure. -What does that even mean? 591 00:27:37,699 --> 00:27:39,951 -Yeah, so, the ranking system, 592 00:27:40,035 --> 00:27:42,996 I truly believe it's based on the fraternities. 593 00:27:43,079 --> 00:27:44,748 ♪♪ 594 00:27:44,789 --> 00:27:46,750 So essentially, they have a social calendar, 595 00:27:46,791 --> 00:27:48,460 and they get to mix with certain sororities, 596 00:27:48,543 --> 00:27:51,212 but it's only a limited amount, and the fraternities want to be 597 00:27:51,254 --> 00:27:53,923 mixing with the hottest sororities, of course, 598 00:27:53,965 --> 00:27:56,051 'cause, you know, they're 20-year-old males. 599 00:27:56,092 --> 00:27:59,262 So that's kind of where the ranking system comes from. 600 00:27:59,304 --> 00:28:01,973 They want to make sure the girls who are wearing their letters 601 00:28:02,057 --> 00:28:04,934 are up to their standards. 602 00:28:05,018 --> 00:28:10,148 ♪♪ 603 00:28:10,231 --> 00:28:16,821 ♪♪ 604 00:28:16,905 --> 00:28:19,699 -The hierarchy of sororities that exist here 605 00:28:19,783 --> 00:28:21,993 really determines how your experience 606 00:28:22,077 --> 00:28:24,662 in the Greek system is going to be. 607 00:28:24,746 --> 00:28:28,124 There are a lot of things that you're entitled to 608 00:28:28,208 --> 00:28:30,377 when you're in a top-tier sorority. 609 00:28:30,460 --> 00:28:31,795 You're entitled to test banks 610 00:28:31,836 --> 00:28:33,588 that are going to help you on your exams. 611 00:28:33,630 --> 00:28:36,049 You're entitled to people in your sorority 612 00:28:36,132 --> 00:28:37,926 that have better connections, 613 00:28:37,967 --> 00:28:40,845 whether their parents are richer or more connected. 614 00:28:40,929 --> 00:28:44,474 You're entitled to a male gaze 615 00:28:44,516 --> 00:28:47,769 that might be a little bit more beneficial to you. 616 00:28:47,811 --> 00:28:50,313 And so, you know, being in a bottom-tier sorority, 617 00:28:50,397 --> 00:28:53,942 I have to understand that at some point, there's nothing 618 00:28:54,025 --> 00:28:57,987 that I can do to change institutionalized rankings. 619 00:28:58,029 --> 00:29:01,908 You know, Sigma Kappa, we've done all the right things, 620 00:29:01,991 --> 00:29:04,494 but we'll never be anything but bottom tier 621 00:29:04,536 --> 00:29:07,080 for at least the next 20, 30 years, 622 00:29:07,163 --> 00:29:10,709 because that's just how it works here. 623 00:29:10,792 --> 00:29:12,836 -You guys, as far as we have heard, 624 00:29:12,877 --> 00:29:15,839 are considered like, a top-tier sorority. 625 00:29:15,922 --> 00:29:17,382 -I -- -I mean, I'm not going to lie. 626 00:29:17,465 --> 00:29:19,217 Like, whenever I tell someone what sorority I'm in, 627 00:29:19,300 --> 00:29:20,719 and they're like, "Oh, wow," that's flattering. 628 00:29:20,802 --> 00:29:22,137 -I think it's hard. 629 00:29:22,220 --> 00:29:24,347 We kind of have to tiptoe around this question, 630 00:29:24,431 --> 00:29:29,853 because we would be naive to deny that lots of people 631 00:29:29,936 --> 00:29:33,106 recognize us as a top tier -- "top tier" house. 632 00:29:33,189 --> 00:29:35,608 -But do I think there are other great sororities? 633 00:29:35,692 --> 00:29:37,485 Absolutely. -Absolutely. 634 00:29:37,569 --> 00:29:44,534 ♪♪ 635 00:29:46,995 --> 00:29:48,371 [ Dog barking in distance ] 636 00:29:48,455 --> 00:29:50,331 [ Engine shuts off ] 637 00:29:50,415 --> 00:29:53,001 ♪♪ 638 00:29:53,043 --> 00:29:57,714 -So this is basically the Shelby Taj Mahal. 639 00:29:57,756 --> 00:29:59,049 That's what my family calls it. 640 00:29:59,090 --> 00:30:02,344 But these are awards from dance competitions. 641 00:30:02,385 --> 00:30:06,139 I volunteer with children with special needs and we race, 642 00:30:06,222 --> 00:30:09,059 and the girl that I raced with got first place. 643 00:30:09,142 --> 00:30:12,395 Look, I got the Super Style award in fifth grade. 644 00:30:12,437 --> 00:30:17,150 I think Rush is a week-long adrenaline rush like no other. 645 00:30:17,233 --> 00:30:19,361 The Olympics, that's what we should call it from now on. 646 00:30:19,402 --> 00:30:23,073 I definitely think it's a sport. Definitely. 647 00:30:23,114 --> 00:30:24,449 So this is my pageant binder. 648 00:30:24,532 --> 00:30:27,202 This is my life when I competed in pageants, 649 00:30:27,285 --> 00:30:28,953 so it's kind of why I wanted to do 650 00:30:29,037 --> 00:30:31,414 the sorority Rush binder for myself. 651 00:30:31,498 --> 00:30:36,169 I will have kind of the similar things in here for Rush. 652 00:30:36,252 --> 00:30:39,839 I'll definitely have a motivation tab of just 653 00:30:39,923 --> 00:30:42,342 a ton of quotes and stuff for me to look at. 654 00:30:42,425 --> 00:30:45,720 I like the paper copy because I like to be able to feel it 655 00:30:45,762 --> 00:30:47,806 and really look at it, 656 00:30:47,889 --> 00:30:49,224 'cause sometimes when you're in the moment 657 00:30:49,265 --> 00:30:50,767 and you're stressed out and you're worried, 658 00:30:50,850 --> 00:30:54,437 you forget all the things that you've been taught. 659 00:30:54,521 --> 00:30:58,441 I feel like I fit in perfectly with the way that they dress -- 660 00:30:58,525 --> 00:31:00,318 not because I've chosen to be that way, 661 00:31:00,402 --> 00:31:03,613 but just because, like, that's who I am. 662 00:31:03,697 --> 00:31:08,952 I don't think you want to wear anything that's too scandalous, 663 00:31:09,035 --> 00:31:10,787 or as we call it, scandy. 664 00:31:10,829 --> 00:31:14,124 You don't want to, like, have a bad reputation for yourself. 665 00:31:14,165 --> 00:31:16,710 You want to keep it the three C's -- 666 00:31:16,793 --> 00:31:19,254 classy, calm, and cool. 667 00:31:19,337 --> 00:31:21,172 ♪♪ 668 00:31:21,256 --> 00:31:25,969 -The biggest thing is that, because it started so early on, 669 00:31:26,011 --> 00:31:28,847 like, maybe 1800s -- 1898. 670 00:31:28,930 --> 00:31:31,433 Zeta Tau Alpha was established in 1898. 671 00:31:31,516 --> 00:31:33,059 There's kind of like 672 00:31:33,143 --> 00:31:37,105 those really old-timey, strict rules 673 00:31:37,147 --> 00:31:38,481 of what the group is. 674 00:31:38,523 --> 00:31:40,483 -You have a lot of rules you have to follow, 675 00:31:40,567 --> 00:31:42,152 which, some of them I really agree with. 676 00:31:42,193 --> 00:31:43,445 Some of them are like, 677 00:31:43,486 --> 00:31:45,196 "Oh, are you kidding me right now?" 678 00:31:45,280 --> 00:31:47,490 -We are not allowed to drink in our letters whatsoever. 679 00:31:47,574 --> 00:31:49,159 -I don't think in any of the sorority houses, 680 00:31:49,242 --> 00:31:50,994 you can have alcohol. -Why is that, do you know? 681 00:31:51,036 --> 00:31:52,245 -It must be a Panhellenic rule, 682 00:31:52,328 --> 00:31:54,497 because fraternities are always allowed, 683 00:31:54,581 --> 00:31:57,500 and the amount of alcohol in that house is disgusting. 684 00:31:57,542 --> 00:31:59,127 [ Laughs ] 685 00:31:59,169 --> 00:32:01,296 -Another rule that I just thought was really dumb -- 686 00:32:01,338 --> 00:32:05,133 no wet hair in the house on the first floor. 687 00:32:05,175 --> 00:32:06,343 -I know there was one house 688 00:32:06,426 --> 00:32:08,261 that my roommate was in freshman year. 689 00:32:08,345 --> 00:32:11,222 She told me that they literally could not leave the dorm 690 00:32:11,306 --> 00:32:13,058 unless they had two out of three done, 691 00:32:13,141 --> 00:32:15,060 which was either you had to have your hair done, 692 00:32:15,143 --> 00:32:17,854 makeup done, or outfit on. 693 00:32:17,896 --> 00:32:20,899 -All it takes is one person to know what chapter you're in 694 00:32:20,982 --> 00:32:22,150 and like, to reach out to somebody, 695 00:32:22,192 --> 00:32:24,444 and you can be in trouble the next day. 696 00:32:24,527 --> 00:32:27,364 ♪♪ 697 00:32:27,405 --> 00:32:29,366 -Like, as far as our rules, we have just 698 00:32:29,407 --> 00:32:31,993 the longest COC in the entire universe, 699 00:32:32,035 --> 00:32:33,286 our code of conduct. 700 00:32:33,370 --> 00:32:35,372 The ones I usually get in trouble for 701 00:32:35,413 --> 00:32:37,832 are like, disrespecting a sister, 702 00:32:37,916 --> 00:32:39,709 which is such a subjective thing, 703 00:32:39,793 --> 00:32:41,211 and really makes our standards process 704 00:32:41,252 --> 00:32:42,879 kind of a joke sometimes. 705 00:32:42,921 --> 00:32:45,298 So essentially, what happens is you go to the standards meeting. 706 00:32:45,382 --> 00:32:47,217 There are six girls that like to play judge 707 00:32:47,258 --> 00:32:50,095 and they like to reiterate that 708 00:32:50,178 --> 00:32:51,930 you're innocent until proven guilty, 709 00:32:52,013 --> 00:32:53,640 but you're -- you're guilty 710 00:32:53,723 --> 00:32:55,266 until you prove yourself innocent. 711 00:32:55,350 --> 00:32:57,811 Is that my standards? [ Laughs ] 712 00:32:57,894 --> 00:32:59,896 "Specify the issue or concern." 713 00:32:59,979 --> 00:33:01,189 "Member had a video of her 714 00:33:01,231 --> 00:33:02,649 wearing her Sigma Kappa letters" -- 715 00:33:02,732 --> 00:33:03,858 misspelled. 716 00:33:03,942 --> 00:33:05,318 "The video seemed to put Sigma Kappa 717 00:33:05,402 --> 00:33:07,529 and Greek life in a negative light." 718 00:33:07,612 --> 00:33:08,988 And since coming here, 719 00:33:09,072 --> 00:33:11,449 I've changed in ways that I don't fucking like. 720 00:33:11,533 --> 00:33:12,617 Roll Tide, though. 721 00:33:12,701 --> 00:33:16,037 Did I lie? Did I lie? Did I lie? I didn't lie. 722 00:33:16,079 --> 00:33:17,914 I wasn't talking shit about Sigma Kappa 723 00:33:17,997 --> 00:33:20,125 or like, the Greek life. 724 00:33:20,208 --> 00:33:22,502 I was saying that, like, the culture at Alabama 725 00:33:22,585 --> 00:33:23,545 is fucking weird. 726 00:33:23,586 --> 00:33:26,631 And you know what? It is. So die mad. 727 00:33:26,715 --> 00:33:28,466 -♪ This is my ministry, lightweight-type chemistry ♪ 728 00:33:28,550 --> 00:33:30,427 ♪ Going to Italy, like it, you feeling me? ♪ 729 00:33:30,510 --> 00:33:32,595 ♪ Playing with my racks, a nigga attacks ♪ 730 00:33:32,679 --> 00:33:34,514 ♪ Fuck with me crucially, you catchin' disa ♪ 731 00:33:34,597 --> 00:33:36,433 ♪ Playing with my racks, a nigga attacks ♪ 732 00:33:36,516 --> 00:33:38,143 ♪ Fuck with me crucially, you catchin' disa ♪ 733 00:33:38,226 --> 00:33:39,602 -Are you serious? 734 00:33:39,686 --> 00:33:43,565 They're literally wearing someone else's sticker. 735 00:33:43,606 --> 00:33:48,111 And I got in trouble for wearing another sticker? 736 00:33:48,194 --> 00:33:50,572 Are you kidding me right now? 737 00:33:50,655 --> 00:33:52,449 ♪♪ 738 00:33:52,490 --> 00:33:55,535 I just felt like they were looking for a reason to drop me. 739 00:33:55,618 --> 00:33:58,163 Other girls went upstairs in fraternity houses. 740 00:33:58,246 --> 00:34:01,249 Other girls slept at fraternity houses, 741 00:34:01,291 --> 00:34:03,960 and they're still in the sorority. 742 00:34:04,044 --> 00:34:06,379 ♪♪ 743 00:34:06,463 --> 00:34:09,716 I know who tattled on me. I'm not going to say. 744 00:34:09,799 --> 00:34:11,634 And it's fine, like, you know, I just wish nothing 745 00:34:11,718 --> 00:34:13,720 but happiness for her and I hope she's having, like, 746 00:34:13,803 --> 00:34:17,640 the best life in DZ as she can. 747 00:34:17,724 --> 00:34:24,731 ♪♪ 748 00:34:25,607 --> 00:34:32,614 ♪♪ 749 00:34:33,031 --> 00:34:36,951 -I've been meeting every week with a sorority consultant. 750 00:34:36,993 --> 00:34:39,829 Her name's Sloan, and she's the best. 751 00:34:39,871 --> 00:34:41,122 I love her, and I feel like 752 00:34:41,164 --> 00:34:44,626 I would be absolutely lost without her. 753 00:34:44,668 --> 00:34:47,212 -You have to remember who's recruiting you -- 754 00:34:47,295 --> 00:34:50,173 19-year-olds, 20-year-olds, and 21-year-olds. 755 00:34:50,215 --> 00:34:51,675 -Yeah. -Do they... 756 00:34:51,758 --> 00:34:54,302 Are they looking for you to talk about a specific topic? 757 00:34:54,344 --> 00:34:56,846 No. No, they're not. -Yeah. 758 00:34:56,888 --> 00:34:58,348 -So what they are looking for you 759 00:34:58,431 --> 00:35:00,725 is just to stay away from five topics. 760 00:35:00,809 --> 00:35:02,560 And they're called the five B's, and that -- 761 00:35:02,644 --> 00:35:04,312 I don't know who came up with that, 762 00:35:04,354 --> 00:35:06,022 but it's just a great way for you to, like, 763 00:35:06,106 --> 00:35:07,357 kind of remember. 764 00:35:07,440 --> 00:35:08,358 So, Boys. 765 00:35:08,400 --> 00:35:09,984 It just means fraternity boys 766 00:35:10,026 --> 00:35:12,737 and talking about like, swaps or mixers or anything like that. 767 00:35:12,821 --> 00:35:15,448 But if they bring it up, it's okay to talk about it, 768 00:35:15,532 --> 00:35:18,034 just you don't want to, like, initiate that conversation 769 00:35:18,118 --> 00:35:20,578 and be like, "What fraternities do you guys hang out with?" 770 00:35:20,662 --> 00:35:23,456 The next one is Booze. Just don't talk about alcohol. 771 00:35:23,540 --> 00:35:24,749 Bible. 772 00:35:24,833 --> 00:35:27,335 All they mean is like, asking about their religion, 773 00:35:27,377 --> 00:35:29,337 what church they go to or anything like that 774 00:35:29,379 --> 00:35:30,880 puts someone in a corner. 775 00:35:30,964 --> 00:35:33,717 The next one is Bucks, so, money. 776 00:35:33,800 --> 00:35:36,511 So you don't want to be like, "Does your dad own a yacht 777 00:35:36,553 --> 00:35:39,389 off of the South of France?" or anything like that. 778 00:35:39,472 --> 00:35:41,766 Or you don't want to bring that stuff up as well. 779 00:35:41,850 --> 00:35:45,353 And the last one is Biden is what they're probably 780 00:35:45,395 --> 00:35:47,397 referring to now, and all it means is, politics. 781 00:35:47,480 --> 00:35:50,233 And again, you're more than welcome to talk about diversity 782 00:35:50,316 --> 00:35:52,485 and Black Lives Matter and if you're, you know, 783 00:35:52,569 --> 00:35:54,446 a political science major or anything like that, 784 00:35:54,529 --> 00:35:56,865 going to law school, Elle Woods, whatever. 785 00:35:56,906 --> 00:35:59,492 But you just don't want to ask them specific questions 786 00:35:59,576 --> 00:36:01,578 about their political affiliation. 787 00:36:01,661 --> 00:36:03,955 So, "What are your thoughts on inflation? 788 00:36:04,039 --> 00:36:05,498 What are your thoughts on Biden? 789 00:36:05,582 --> 00:36:07,417 Do you think Donald Trump should have won the election?" 790 00:36:07,459 --> 00:36:11,129 It just puts people in a corner and it makes them uncomfortable. 791 00:36:11,212 --> 00:36:12,922 -Yeah. -That's all it is. 792 00:36:12,964 --> 00:36:15,675 ♪♪ 793 00:36:15,759 --> 00:36:18,511 -So my experience was pretty typical, 794 00:36:18,595 --> 00:36:20,388 and I definitely had my ups and downs. 795 00:36:20,430 --> 00:36:23,475 I got dropped by a sorority I loved on Pref, 796 00:36:23,558 --> 00:36:25,268 and I was really devastated. 797 00:36:25,310 --> 00:36:26,770 I was literally crying 798 00:36:26,811 --> 00:36:30,440 in the Miller Learning Center at Georgia, 799 00:36:30,523 --> 00:36:32,776 and I wiped the mascara from under my eyes and said, 800 00:36:32,859 --> 00:36:34,778 okay, I'm going to give these two sororities one more chance, 801 00:36:34,861 --> 00:36:38,073 and Pref completely changed my mind on the sorority 802 00:36:38,156 --> 00:36:39,532 I ended up joining. 803 00:36:39,616 --> 00:36:43,286 I met this incredible woman, and she was just so fun. 804 00:36:43,370 --> 00:36:45,330 Like, it was the first time during sorority recruitment 805 00:36:45,413 --> 00:36:46,790 where I didn't put pressure on myself 806 00:36:46,831 --> 00:36:49,084 and I was just able to open up and talk to her 807 00:36:49,167 --> 00:36:50,335 and she was so fun. 808 00:36:50,418 --> 00:36:51,836 Luckily, they liked me enough 809 00:36:51,920 --> 00:36:54,714 to make sure that I was on the Bid Day list. 810 00:36:54,798 --> 00:36:56,883 -What's giving me anxiety is my anxiety, 811 00:36:56,966 --> 00:36:58,343 'cause I'm like, what if I, like, break down? 812 00:36:58,426 --> 00:36:59,678 Like, what if I have a panic attack? 813 00:36:59,761 --> 00:37:02,013 What if I start to get really nervous 814 00:37:02,097 --> 00:37:03,390 or I mess something up 815 00:37:03,473 --> 00:37:05,809 and, like, it causes me to, like, totally, 816 00:37:05,850 --> 00:37:07,268 you know, spiral? 817 00:37:07,310 --> 00:37:10,355 So I'm on medication and stuff, but just, 818 00:37:10,438 --> 00:37:13,983 do you have any tips to make me, like, less anxious? 819 00:37:14,067 --> 00:37:16,653 And I think the main thing that will cause like, anxiety 820 00:37:16,695 --> 00:37:19,614 is if like, I think I messed up or if I say the wrong thing 821 00:37:19,656 --> 00:37:21,950 and I get really like... you know, just, like, nervous 822 00:37:22,033 --> 00:37:23,660 and have a panic attack. 823 00:37:23,702 --> 00:37:26,454 Do you have any, like, tips on how to, like, not freak out? 824 00:37:26,496 --> 00:37:29,374 -Great question. So we'll have a ton of practice. 825 00:37:29,457 --> 00:37:31,459 -Okay. -We'll figure out your answers 826 00:37:31,501 --> 00:37:33,044 and practice your conversations, 827 00:37:33,128 --> 00:37:34,629 so you will be hitting your points. 828 00:37:34,671 --> 00:37:35,880 -Yeah. -Good. 829 00:37:35,964 --> 00:37:37,465 But also, the members are there to reassure you. 830 00:37:37,507 --> 00:37:38,842 You'll know if you had a good conversation. 831 00:37:38,925 --> 00:37:41,803 -Uh-huh. Yeah. -Also, I'm a phone call away. 832 00:37:41,845 --> 00:37:46,599 ♪♪ 833 00:37:46,683 --> 00:37:49,894 -I have always been, like, an anxious person. 834 00:37:49,978 --> 00:37:51,354 I would be so anxious 835 00:37:51,438 --> 00:37:54,607 that I would cry myself to sleep every night. 836 00:37:54,691 --> 00:37:56,651 I always kind of struggled, like, with my body 837 00:37:56,735 --> 00:37:58,153 and, like, with feeling confident. 838 00:37:58,194 --> 00:37:59,696 These girls would make fun of me 839 00:37:59,738 --> 00:38:01,781 every single day in the locker room, 840 00:38:01,865 --> 00:38:05,535 like, about my body and make comments while I'm changing, 841 00:38:05,618 --> 00:38:07,704 you know, comments about, like, 842 00:38:07,746 --> 00:38:10,665 not eating, like, I shouldn't eat or if I, you know -- 843 00:38:10,707 --> 00:38:13,585 wear this, then I look fat, or stuff like that. 844 00:38:13,668 --> 00:38:15,712 And [Voice breaking] it sent me 845 00:38:15,754 --> 00:38:18,256 into a really bad relationship with food. 846 00:38:18,340 --> 00:38:19,632 So for like a full year, 847 00:38:19,716 --> 00:38:22,552 I was living with, like, an eating disorder. 848 00:38:22,635 --> 00:38:24,637 And I hope by the time I'm in college, 849 00:38:24,721 --> 00:38:27,891 I will be in a lot better place, mentally. 850 00:38:27,932 --> 00:38:30,560 -Isabelle reminded me that the locker room 851 00:38:30,643 --> 00:38:33,813 is a terrifying place for a girl. 852 00:38:33,897 --> 00:38:37,400 In the summer between fifth grade and sixth grade 853 00:38:37,442 --> 00:38:40,362 at day camp, this girl -- 854 00:38:40,403 --> 00:38:44,532 let's call her Sally Steinberg -- 855 00:38:44,574 --> 00:38:46,910 cornered me in the locker room, 856 00:38:46,993 --> 00:38:50,997 and she said, "I know you're wearing a wig." 857 00:38:51,081 --> 00:38:53,208 And I said, "No, I'm not." 858 00:38:53,291 --> 00:38:56,419 And then she said, "Yes, you are." 859 00:38:56,503 --> 00:39:00,423 And it was devastating, and it was frightening. 860 00:39:00,465 --> 00:39:01,925 I was mortified. 861 00:39:02,008 --> 00:39:04,552 It felt like she was saying, 862 00:39:04,594 --> 00:39:08,306 "You're not one of us, and you'll never be, 863 00:39:08,390 --> 00:39:09,933 and I know." 864 00:39:09,974 --> 00:39:12,769 ♪♪ 865 00:39:12,852 --> 00:39:14,145 -So I, like -- 866 00:39:14,229 --> 00:39:16,106 So you know how I was talking about my eating disorder? 867 00:39:16,189 --> 00:39:17,399 -Yeah. -For years -- If I can ask -- 868 00:39:17,440 --> 00:39:18,817 Can I ask you a question? -Sure. 869 00:39:18,900 --> 00:39:20,568 -Okay, so for years, did you, like, 870 00:39:20,610 --> 00:39:22,028 stand in the mirror for, like, hours and just, like, 871 00:39:22,112 --> 00:39:24,447 look at yourself and like... I do that all the -- 872 00:39:24,489 --> 00:39:26,950 And like, even if I pass a mirror now, I'm like -- 873 00:39:27,033 --> 00:39:29,869 And I, like, have cellulite on my legs now 874 00:39:29,953 --> 00:39:31,871 from working out and stretch marks, and I'm like -- [ Sighs ] 875 00:39:31,955 --> 00:39:33,623 But, like, they're so beautiful because it shows, like, 876 00:39:33,707 --> 00:39:36,126 I'm overcoming something and growing. 877 00:39:36,167 --> 00:39:41,673 ♪♪ 878 00:39:41,756 --> 00:39:44,050 I'm just jealous of your hip flexors. 879 00:39:50,223 --> 00:39:51,975 It's like, my quads and stuff 880 00:39:52,017 --> 00:39:54,728 are bigger now 'cause like, they've got, 881 00:39:54,811 --> 00:39:58,148 like, all the muscles flowing into them. 882 00:39:58,189 --> 00:40:00,316 [ Sighs ] 883 00:40:00,358 --> 00:40:01,943 [ Groans ] 884 00:40:01,985 --> 00:40:04,029 I'll show you the before and after. 885 00:40:04,112 --> 00:40:05,405 -Yeah, show us. 886 00:40:05,488 --> 00:40:07,032 -Okay, that was a bad video, but it's fine. 887 00:40:07,115 --> 00:40:10,076 -How much do you think it has to do with looks? 888 00:40:10,160 --> 00:40:11,327 -Great question. 889 00:40:11,369 --> 00:40:13,621 This is something I have thought 890 00:40:13,663 --> 00:40:15,123 about for years, to be completely honest, 891 00:40:15,165 --> 00:40:17,959 how much looks matters during sorority recruitment. 892 00:40:18,001 --> 00:40:20,503 And I think it matters to a certain extent. 893 00:40:20,587 --> 00:40:23,757 Again, you have to be "pretty enough" to get in. 894 00:40:23,840 --> 00:40:27,761 I would say they only really, truly matter at round one. 895 00:40:27,844 --> 00:40:29,637 ♪♪ 896 00:40:29,679 --> 00:40:31,765 Just from talking to women all over the country, 897 00:40:31,848 --> 00:40:34,601 I have realized there's four main steps 898 00:40:34,684 --> 00:40:36,895 that really help women stand out. 899 00:40:36,978 --> 00:40:38,730 First one is all about getting your name out there, 900 00:40:38,813 --> 00:40:40,357 because you want people talking about you 901 00:40:40,440 --> 00:40:42,025 before sorority recruitment starts. 902 00:40:42,108 --> 00:40:45,153 The second step I always take my clients through is mindset, 903 00:40:45,195 --> 00:40:48,948 because sorority recruitment is an emotional journey. 904 00:40:49,032 --> 00:40:50,450 You immediately get in your head. 905 00:40:50,533 --> 00:40:52,452 What happened? Am I not pretty enough? 906 00:40:52,535 --> 00:40:53,787 Am I not cool enough? 907 00:40:53,870 --> 00:40:55,663 Like, why did these sororities drop me? 908 00:40:55,705 --> 00:40:58,208 The third step is the most important one, 909 00:40:58,291 --> 00:40:59,918 I believe, is small talk. 910 00:41:00,001 --> 00:41:02,837 We figure out your answers to the questions through a formula 911 00:41:02,879 --> 00:41:04,964 because there really just is a simple formula. 912 00:41:05,048 --> 00:41:08,385 And the last step is optimization strategy, 913 00:41:08,468 --> 00:41:10,136 which is just playing the game. 914 00:41:10,220 --> 00:41:12,722 Sorority recruitment's a game -- you have to know how to play it 915 00:41:12,764 --> 00:41:15,183 to keep sororities interested in you. 916 00:41:15,225 --> 00:41:16,726 If you're getting an average score, 917 00:41:16,810 --> 00:41:18,687 you're not getting invited back. 918 00:41:18,770 --> 00:41:20,814 Some girls get their second choice. 919 00:41:20,897 --> 00:41:23,692 Some girls have been dropped so much in the process, 920 00:41:23,775 --> 00:41:25,402 and they just settled. 921 00:41:25,443 --> 00:41:27,737 And some girls, they get calls right before Bid Day, like, 922 00:41:27,779 --> 00:41:31,199 saying, "You've been dropped from sorority recruitment." 923 00:41:31,241 --> 00:41:32,784 Which is hard. 924 00:41:32,867 --> 00:41:39,874 ♪♪ 925 00:41:40,625 --> 00:41:42,002 -Do I look Southern? 926 00:41:42,085 --> 00:41:44,254 Definitely there, they don't like girls 927 00:41:44,295 --> 00:41:46,006 who look "too Northern." 928 00:41:46,089 --> 00:41:47,424 I look very Northern. 929 00:41:47,465 --> 00:41:49,050 Like, that's not going to change that much. 930 00:41:49,092 --> 00:41:56,099 -Okay, I saved this one for last because, oh, it is so unique, 931 00:41:56,641 --> 00:41:58,143 and I love to be unique, 932 00:41:58,226 --> 00:42:02,272 and this is definitely just a great, unique dress. 933 00:42:02,313 --> 00:42:03,857 -Tomorrow I'm gonna go pick up 934 00:42:03,940 --> 00:42:06,818 my sorority dress for my sorority, 935 00:42:06,901 --> 00:42:08,570 and I'm rushing my sorority. 936 00:42:08,611 --> 00:42:10,030 -What sorority do you want to be in? 937 00:42:10,113 --> 00:42:13,241 -The sorority I want to be in is to not -- 938 00:42:13,283 --> 00:42:15,994 to not be discussed, because that brings bad luck 939 00:42:16,077 --> 00:42:18,038 if I tell you guys. 940 00:42:18,121 --> 00:42:20,540 Those boys are fine. 941 00:42:22,292 --> 00:42:25,754 That one -- not the one with the long things, 942 00:42:25,837 --> 00:42:30,550 but the mixed one with the curly hair. 943 00:42:30,633 --> 00:42:32,093 -No, bro. -What? 944 00:42:32,135 --> 00:42:36,473 -When we rush, it's gonna be like... 945 00:42:36,514 --> 00:42:37,807 real crazy. 946 00:42:37,849 --> 00:42:40,977 Hey. Hey! Hey, hey! Hey! 947 00:42:41,019 --> 00:42:43,855 ♪♪ 948 00:42:43,938 --> 00:42:46,608 -If you thought Alabama Rush was crazy, 949 00:42:46,649 --> 00:42:49,402 just wait until you hear about The Machine. 950 00:42:49,486 --> 00:42:51,988 -Burglary, cross burning, vandalism. 951 00:42:52,030 --> 00:42:54,532 -You are deep into it that you have found out 952 00:42:54,616 --> 00:42:56,159 about The Machine. 953 00:42:56,201 --> 00:42:57,994 Congratulations. 954 00:42:58,078 --> 00:43:05,085 ♪♪ 955 00:43:06,252 --> 00:43:09,839 -Have you guys heard of this thing, "The Machine"? 956 00:43:09,923 --> 00:43:11,341 Do you know about that? 957 00:43:11,383 --> 00:43:14,177 -For...? For sororities? 958 00:43:14,260 --> 00:43:16,680 -No, it's like, for all Greek life in Alabama 959 00:43:16,763 --> 00:43:20,809 and it's on the Internet, and I was like, what is this? 960 00:43:20,892 --> 00:43:23,895 -I don't think I know. 961 00:43:23,978 --> 00:43:25,105 [ Laughing ] 962 00:43:25,188 --> 00:43:27,565 -Like, I don't think it's an actual thing. 963 00:43:27,649 --> 00:43:29,317 -We always get asked this. 964 00:43:29,359 --> 00:43:30,902 -People ask us this all the -- 965 00:43:30,985 --> 00:43:32,487 Because it is on social media. 966 00:43:32,529 --> 00:43:33,822 -All my friends from home think... 967 00:43:33,863 --> 00:43:35,407 -They're like, ooh. -Yeah. 968 00:43:35,490 --> 00:43:36,866 ♪♪ 969 00:43:36,950 --> 00:43:38,827 -What's the deal with The Machine? 970 00:43:38,868 --> 00:43:40,286 -No, I can't talk about that. 971 00:43:40,370 --> 00:43:42,956 -Can't talk about it. -Yeah. 972 00:43:43,039 --> 00:43:44,749 -It'd ruin, like, a lot of stuff for us. 973 00:43:44,833 --> 00:43:46,835 -Even our life, honestly? 974 00:43:46,918 --> 00:43:49,045 -Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. -It's deep. 975 00:43:49,087 --> 00:43:51,381 ♪♪ 976 00:43:51,464 --> 00:43:52,716 -Mnh-mnh. 977 00:43:52,799 --> 00:43:55,301 We would never get into a sorority again. 978 00:43:55,385 --> 00:43:59,139 -No. Danger. -Okay. 979 00:43:59,222 --> 00:44:01,224 -I'm John Archibald. 980 00:44:01,266 --> 00:44:04,102 I've been a journalist in Alabama for -- 981 00:44:04,185 --> 00:44:06,229 God -- 36 years now, 982 00:44:06,271 --> 00:44:09,315 and I got my start at the University of Alabama 983 00:44:09,399 --> 00:44:11,067 because of The Machine. 984 00:44:11,109 --> 00:44:15,739 ♪♪ 985 00:44:15,780 --> 00:44:17,574 It's a secret society. 986 00:44:17,615 --> 00:44:19,242 I believe that the phrase was, 987 00:44:19,284 --> 00:44:23,038 "little is known, and what is known is secret." 988 00:44:23,121 --> 00:44:26,124 Something very similar to that. 989 00:44:27,792 --> 00:44:29,294 -So The Machine is the Greek system. 990 00:44:29,377 --> 00:44:31,212 They go synonymous, they're hand in hand. 991 00:44:31,254 --> 00:44:32,714 It's the exact same thing. 992 00:44:32,756 --> 00:44:34,174 They control everything on this campus. 993 00:44:34,257 --> 00:44:36,426 So if there's an election, The Machine's rigging it. 994 00:44:36,468 --> 00:44:39,512 If there's a Homecoming queen, it's The Machine candidate. 995 00:44:39,596 --> 00:44:42,349 You're going to look at awards and different jobs and networks, 996 00:44:42,432 --> 00:44:45,185 it's all going to The Machine kids that run their own thing. 997 00:44:45,268 --> 00:44:47,896 Even the most trivial things like football seats, 998 00:44:47,979 --> 00:44:49,272 it's going to The Machine kids. 999 00:44:49,356 --> 00:44:52,609 Every Greek house that's a member of The Machine 1000 00:44:52,692 --> 00:44:54,152 each have Machine representatives. 1001 00:44:54,235 --> 00:44:55,987 These representatives form a council that meets 1002 00:44:56,071 --> 00:44:58,948 in fraternity basements to discuss student politics, 1003 00:44:59,032 --> 00:45:00,909 and then they report back to their house 1004 00:45:00,950 --> 00:45:03,578 and their student politicians within those houses 1005 00:45:03,661 --> 00:45:05,914 and tell them how to vote. 1006 00:45:05,955 --> 00:45:08,166 -You know, I wish that I could say that I had never 1007 00:45:08,249 --> 00:45:10,251 gotten involved with The Machine in the first place, 1008 00:45:10,335 --> 00:45:12,128 but like, I did. 1009 00:45:12,212 --> 00:45:15,298 I really did try to be a good Machine senator, 1010 00:45:15,382 --> 00:45:16,883 But at the end of the day, 1011 00:45:16,966 --> 00:45:20,011 something just felt really dark and ugly about it. 1012 00:45:22,263 --> 00:45:26,810 We slowly make our way over to the Kappa Alpha house, 1013 00:45:26,851 --> 00:45:29,521 and we go downstairs into the basement, 1014 00:45:29,604 --> 00:45:31,940 and I kind of peer in and can see 1015 00:45:32,023 --> 00:45:35,068 this circle of people standing around 1016 00:45:35,151 --> 00:45:39,114 in this kind of like dingy, smelly fraternity basement. 1017 00:45:39,155 --> 00:45:41,616 I'm asking myself, "What have I got myself into?" 1018 00:45:41,658 --> 00:45:42,826 Because I'm like, number one, 1019 00:45:42,867 --> 00:45:44,285 why are we meeting in a basement? 1020 00:45:44,327 --> 00:45:46,705 Number two, why are we meeting at, you know, 1021 00:45:46,788 --> 00:45:48,581 10:00, 11:00 at night on a Tuesday? 1022 00:45:48,665 --> 00:45:49,874 What are we hiding? 1023 00:45:49,958 --> 00:45:51,376 The individual leading the meeting, 1024 00:45:51,459 --> 00:45:53,795 he was like, "This is just an opportunity for you 1025 00:45:53,837 --> 00:45:55,588 to see each other's faces. 1026 00:45:55,672 --> 00:45:56,756 This is, like, the group of people 1027 00:45:56,840 --> 00:45:59,259 you're going to be working with." 1028 00:45:59,342 --> 00:46:01,094 Up until that point, I didn't understand 1029 00:46:01,177 --> 00:46:05,181 that I was essentially going to be a figurehead 1030 00:46:05,223 --> 00:46:09,019 that was going to do what my Machine rep told me to do. 1031 00:46:09,102 --> 00:46:11,980 And, you know, every time I did something 1032 00:46:12,022 --> 00:46:14,566 that she wanted me to do, 1033 00:46:14,649 --> 00:46:16,860 I always received positive feedback. 1034 00:46:16,901 --> 00:46:18,528 I always received praise. 1035 00:46:18,570 --> 00:46:22,032 In that moment, I felt like I was doing something good, 1036 00:46:22,115 --> 00:46:24,200 but I really wasn't doing anything at all 1037 00:46:24,284 --> 00:46:26,411 except, you know, being a puppet. 1038 00:46:26,494 --> 00:46:30,290 I think it's ridiculous that sororities require you to send 1039 00:46:30,373 --> 00:46:33,084 a screenshot of your voting receipt, right? 1040 00:46:33,168 --> 00:46:35,211 Others want the e-mail of your voting receipt, like, 1041 00:46:35,295 --> 00:46:38,089 and if you don't send that in, some sororities fine you. 1042 00:46:39,299 --> 00:46:42,927 My sorority reacted very negatively to the article, 1043 00:46:43,011 --> 00:46:45,555 because The Machine is the Greek system. 1044 00:46:45,597 --> 00:46:49,934 I think it was perceived as me going against my own sisterhood 1045 00:46:50,018 --> 00:46:52,062 and my own sorority. 1046 00:46:52,103 --> 00:46:55,065 -Only a handful of independent candidates 1047 00:46:55,148 --> 00:46:59,235 have successfully gone against The Machine and beat them. 1048 00:46:59,319 --> 00:47:01,571 The university actually had to shut down 1049 00:47:01,613 --> 00:47:06,993 the Student Government Association from 1993 until 1996 1050 00:47:07,077 --> 00:47:10,330 because of The Machine's alleged activities. 1051 00:47:10,413 --> 00:47:17,420 ♪♪ 1052 00:47:17,420 --> 00:47:24,177 ♪♪ 1053 00:47:24,260 --> 00:47:29,099 -The Machine systematically made sure that a minority group 1054 00:47:29,140 --> 00:47:34,646 on campus of "elite people" who got special treatment, 1055 00:47:34,729 --> 00:47:36,231 who lived in special homes, 1056 00:47:36,272 --> 00:47:40,193 who came from the most affluent and powerful families, 1057 00:47:40,276 --> 00:47:42,737 got an advantage on everyone else. 1058 00:47:42,779 --> 00:47:45,031 It's a way better teacher of how to do 1059 00:47:45,115 --> 00:47:48,451 nefarious things for power 1060 00:47:48,535 --> 00:47:51,996 than you could ever get in a political science class. 1061 00:47:52,080 --> 00:47:55,792 But I think it's a threat to people's hopes and dreams 1062 00:47:55,875 --> 00:47:59,129 that they may not be able to fit into the crowd 1063 00:47:59,170 --> 00:48:02,716 in maybe the tax bracket they want to fit into. 1064 00:48:02,799 --> 00:48:05,093 I think the danger is not belonging, 1065 00:48:05,176 --> 00:48:08,138 it's not being one of the chosen people. 1066 00:48:08,221 --> 00:48:12,809 ♪♪ 1067 00:48:12,851 --> 00:48:14,185 -[ Singsong voice ] Okay. 1068 00:48:14,269 --> 00:48:17,063 Little update for you guys. I'm so excited. 1069 00:48:17,147 --> 00:48:20,316 We are 139 days from me 1070 00:48:20,358 --> 00:48:23,486 attending the University of Alabama and rushing. 1071 00:48:23,570 --> 00:48:27,157 It is so nice to see, like, an actual copy 1072 00:48:27,198 --> 00:48:29,993 in my hand of my sorority résumé. 1073 00:48:30,076 --> 00:48:32,078 I've had three different people proof it. 1074 00:48:32,162 --> 00:48:33,413 I need to tweak a few things. 1075 00:48:33,496 --> 00:48:35,331 I'm going to bring this light pink down. 1076 00:48:35,373 --> 00:48:38,376 And then I also have my headshot. 1077 00:48:38,460 --> 00:48:40,253 I probably look my best in this photo. 1078 00:48:40,337 --> 00:48:43,131 It's honestly been really therapeutic doing this résumé 1079 00:48:43,173 --> 00:48:44,841 and just creating this. 1080 00:48:44,883 --> 00:48:46,509 I've been super stressed out with school 1081 00:48:46,593 --> 00:48:50,347 and just life in general and my anxiety has been really bad, 1082 00:48:50,430 --> 00:48:52,515 so honestly, what's been pushing me through each day 1083 00:48:52,557 --> 00:48:54,601 is reminding myself that I get to go to the school 1084 00:48:54,684 --> 00:48:57,812 that I've wanted to go to since my freshman year, 1085 00:48:57,854 --> 00:48:59,689 and I also get to rush 1086 00:48:59,731 --> 00:49:02,025 and meet a bunch of new people. 1087 00:49:02,108 --> 00:49:04,527 On the days when I feel super lonely at home, 1088 00:49:04,569 --> 00:49:07,364 that's what I think about constantly, is how I get to 1089 00:49:07,447 --> 00:49:09,199 go to a new school and meet new people. 1090 00:49:09,240 --> 00:49:12,327 So if you're feeling down right now, 1091 00:49:12,369 --> 00:49:14,662 just think of the future and think of the positive, 1092 00:49:14,704 --> 00:49:15,997 'cause that's what I've been doing. 1093 00:49:16,039 --> 00:49:18,208 Just an update for y'all. [ Laughing ] 1094 00:49:18,291 --> 00:49:21,544 [ Up-tempo music playing ] 1095 00:49:21,586 --> 00:49:26,383 ♪♪ 1096 00:49:26,424 --> 00:49:27,676 -♪ Hey ♪ 1097 00:49:27,717 --> 00:49:30,345 ♪ Am I normal enough? ♪ 1098 00:49:31,554 --> 00:49:34,391 -So why do you think you need a Rush consultant? 1099 00:49:34,474 --> 00:49:37,185 -Just 'cause I didn't have anyone in my family 1100 00:49:37,227 --> 00:49:39,270 that's been through the Rush process, 1101 00:49:39,354 --> 00:49:44,275 so going to her would help, like, get all my stuff in order. 1102 00:49:44,359 --> 00:49:47,570 So when I walk in the house, you know, like in 1103 00:49:47,654 --> 00:49:52,283 the open house or whatever, and you meet them and like, 1104 00:49:52,367 --> 00:49:54,202 I'm talking, having a conversation 1105 00:49:54,244 --> 00:49:57,455 and then I run out of, like, things to say 1106 00:49:57,539 --> 00:50:00,250 and I'm just staring back at them, like, 1107 00:50:00,333 --> 00:50:02,002 what am I supposed to do? 1108 00:50:02,085 --> 00:50:06,172 -I can help you be prepared for that awkwardness, 1109 00:50:06,256 --> 00:50:07,799 and so you're not going to have it. 1110 00:50:07,882 --> 00:50:10,468 Somebody else can be awkward. You're not gonna be awkward. 1111 00:50:10,552 --> 00:50:11,511 Just sayin'. 1112 00:50:11,594 --> 00:50:13,013 So does that answer your question? 1113 00:50:13,096 --> 00:50:14,097 That make you feel a little bit better? 1114 00:50:14,180 --> 00:50:15,348 -Mm-hmm. Yeah. 1115 00:50:15,432 --> 00:50:16,725 -So we do résumé and pictures, 1116 00:50:16,766 --> 00:50:20,311 and then we start working on your recommendations. 1117 00:50:20,395 --> 00:50:22,105 I used to be a professional photographer, 1118 00:50:22,147 --> 00:50:26,359 so I can shoot a few pictures of you today if you want. 1119 00:50:26,443 --> 00:50:29,237 Look up at me. [ Camera shutter clicking ] 1120 00:50:29,279 --> 00:50:30,947 I really want to do one with you 1121 00:50:30,989 --> 00:50:33,867 laying with your feet crossed behind you. 1122 00:50:33,950 --> 00:50:35,076 Hold on. 1123 00:50:35,118 --> 00:50:36,286 [ Camera shutter clicks ] 1124 00:50:36,369 --> 00:50:38,329 ♪♪ 1125 00:50:38,413 --> 00:50:41,708 I've lived one of their worst nightmares. 1126 00:50:41,791 --> 00:50:45,420 I can still smell the smells of the dorm room. 1127 00:50:47,839 --> 00:50:50,592 I remember this girl was sitting, 1128 00:50:50,633 --> 00:50:54,095 leaning against the wall, reading a book, like, 1129 00:50:54,137 --> 00:50:55,889 while she was waiting to find out. 1130 00:50:55,972 --> 00:50:57,182 And I was like, 1131 00:50:57,265 --> 00:50:59,434 "How can anybody be that confident 1132 00:50:59,476 --> 00:51:00,977 that they're getting in the sorority?" 1133 00:51:01,061 --> 00:51:03,480 This girl got into a sorority and I didn't, 1134 00:51:03,521 --> 00:51:06,483 and I was just weeping for hours. 1135 00:51:06,524 --> 00:51:09,569 I was embarrassed. What did I do? Am I ugly? 1136 00:51:09,652 --> 00:51:12,155 What is it about me that I can't be getting ready 1137 00:51:12,197 --> 00:51:14,366 to go to a social tonight? 1138 00:51:14,449 --> 00:51:17,160 I went back through Rush my sophomore year 1139 00:51:17,202 --> 00:51:19,162 and got my first choice, 1140 00:51:19,204 --> 00:51:22,624 but it has made me uniquely understand 1141 00:51:22,665 --> 00:51:26,503 the feelings that these girls are having. 1142 00:51:26,544 --> 00:51:31,549 I can recall that feeling just like it was yesterday. 1143 00:51:31,633 --> 00:51:35,345 From that experience, that's why I started this business. 1144 00:51:35,387 --> 00:51:37,013 Now do, like, a really big smile. 1145 00:51:37,097 --> 00:51:40,058 [ Camera shutter clicking ] 1146 00:51:40,141 --> 00:51:42,227 [ Birds chirping ] 1147 00:51:43,645 --> 00:51:46,356 [ Clicking continues ] 1148 00:51:46,439 --> 00:51:50,985 God, you are so perfect for this. 1149 00:51:51,069 --> 00:51:53,863 Hold on, one second. 1150 00:51:53,947 --> 00:51:56,658 [ Camera beeps, shutter clicks ] 1151 00:51:56,700 --> 00:51:59,202 -Everyone here thinks I'm everything but Black. 1152 00:51:59,244 --> 00:52:03,081 Like, I'm white and Black. They think I'm everything. 1153 00:52:03,164 --> 00:52:05,750 Like, this one guy thought -- Like, he was -- 1154 00:52:05,834 --> 00:52:09,212 He swore that I was just white and just really, really tan. 1155 00:52:09,254 --> 00:52:11,715 -Tan. -Yeah. 1156 00:52:11,798 --> 00:52:17,470 I was like, can you not tell, like, I'm mixed? 1157 00:52:17,554 --> 00:52:21,349 Everyone here just look at you if you have any color in you. 1158 00:52:21,391 --> 00:52:24,769 It's just, like, really awkward, I guess. 1159 00:52:24,853 --> 00:52:28,481 I feel like a black sheep. 1160 00:52:28,565 --> 00:52:31,818 If I'm too white, then I'm whitewashed, 1161 00:52:31,901 --> 00:52:35,155 but if I act too Black, then... 1162 00:52:35,238 --> 00:52:37,240 I'm not white enough. 1163 00:52:37,323 --> 00:52:38,783 Like, what am I supposed to be? 1164 00:52:38,867 --> 00:52:41,619 'Cause I'm both races. Why can't I just act myself? 1165 00:52:41,703 --> 00:52:45,081 I'm not acting a race. You can't act a race. 1166 00:52:45,165 --> 00:52:48,543 I'm just split in two, my whole life. 1167 00:52:48,585 --> 00:52:52,922 I'm just gonna be split. Society's dumb. 1168 00:52:52,964 --> 00:52:57,886 So at the University of Alabama, the Panhellenic sorority 1169 00:52:57,927 --> 00:53:00,930 are historically like, white, 1170 00:53:00,972 --> 00:53:03,266 and the Divine 9 here 1171 00:53:03,350 --> 00:53:07,437 is historically a Black sorority. 1172 00:53:07,479 --> 00:53:08,646 -What's the difference between 1173 00:53:08,730 --> 00:53:10,940 Black sororities and the white sororities? 1174 00:53:10,982 --> 00:53:15,111 -I don't really know much about the Black sororities 1175 00:53:15,153 --> 00:53:17,322 that much, 1176 00:53:17,405 --> 00:53:18,823 because I haven't actually looked into it, 1177 00:53:18,907 --> 00:53:23,912 because I just wanted to be in the other one. 1178 00:53:23,995 --> 00:53:25,246 ♪♪ 1179 00:53:25,288 --> 00:53:29,125 -To be in a D9 sorority, I feel like there is 1180 00:53:29,209 --> 00:53:31,544 a tie to history that you need to have. 1181 00:53:31,628 --> 00:53:35,215 Even had I become more comfortable 1182 00:53:35,298 --> 00:53:37,759 with who I was in a racial sense, 1183 00:53:37,842 --> 00:53:41,304 I still feel like I wouldn't fit in there, 1184 00:53:41,388 --> 00:53:43,807 because I was raised by white people. 1185 00:53:43,848 --> 00:53:46,476 I think that they would have accepted me, 1186 00:53:46,518 --> 00:53:49,604 but I wouldn't have accepted myself enough 1187 00:53:49,646 --> 00:53:51,690 to get the sorority experience 1188 00:53:51,773 --> 00:53:53,817 that I would have been happy with. 1189 00:53:53,858 --> 00:53:59,239 So in my sorority, I haven't had any overt racist experiences, 1190 00:53:59,322 --> 00:54:02,325 but I have had some weird things 1191 00:54:02,367 --> 00:54:05,328 that people feel empowered to say to me. 1192 00:54:05,370 --> 00:54:07,706 I was at chapter for formal chapter. 1193 00:54:07,789 --> 00:54:11,376 So we have to be, you know, in business casual, essentially, 1194 00:54:11,459 --> 00:54:13,712 and I... there were a group of girls, 1195 00:54:13,795 --> 00:54:16,131 and there was one girl in my sorority that, 1196 00:54:16,172 --> 00:54:18,591 she is [sighs] -- 1197 00:54:18,675 --> 00:54:21,344 she -- she wants so badly to be progressive 1198 00:54:21,428 --> 00:54:23,221 and to be like "woke" or whatever. 1199 00:54:23,304 --> 00:54:25,181 She goes, "Oh, my God, Rian, your hair is curly." 1200 00:54:25,265 --> 00:54:27,434 I'm like, "Yeah, yeah, I haven't... 1201 00:54:27,517 --> 00:54:28,685 I didn't straighten it." 1202 00:54:28,727 --> 00:54:30,687 She goes, "Did your relaxer wash out?" 1203 00:54:30,729 --> 00:54:32,772 I'm like, "Oh, my God. Oh, my God." 1204 00:54:32,856 --> 00:54:35,358 Like, what does that even mean? Like, what...? 1205 00:54:35,400 --> 00:54:37,360 It's that she, like, wants to, like, flex that 1206 00:54:37,444 --> 00:54:39,070 she, like, has an understanding of Black culture 1207 00:54:39,154 --> 00:54:40,864 and she, like, knows what a relaxer is, 1208 00:54:40,947 --> 00:54:42,157 but, like, bestie girl. 1209 00:54:42,240 --> 00:54:43,867 What? 1210 00:54:43,950 --> 00:54:46,911 The same girl, probably every time that I, like, 1211 00:54:46,995 --> 00:54:49,080 sit down and I talk to her, she's like, "Remind me. 1212 00:54:49,164 --> 00:54:50,749 Which one of your parents is white?" 1213 00:54:50,832 --> 00:54:53,418 I'm like, "It's still my mom. It is still my mom. 1214 00:54:53,501 --> 00:54:55,378 Every single time that you will ask me, 1215 00:54:55,462 --> 00:54:56,713 it's still my mom." 1216 00:54:56,796 --> 00:55:00,008 She's not getting any darker. Like what? 1217 00:55:00,091 --> 00:55:07,057 ♪♪ 1218 00:55:09,225 --> 00:55:11,561 -So I attended the University of Alabama 1219 00:55:11,644 --> 00:55:16,066 from the fall of 1983 through the spring of 1987. 1220 00:55:16,149 --> 00:55:19,527 I started law school in '87 and graduated in '90, 1221 00:55:19,569 --> 00:55:21,863 so I was there for two tours. 1222 00:55:21,905 --> 00:55:25,784 ♪♪ 1223 00:55:25,867 --> 00:55:28,787 So you would think that progress would be made more quickly, 1224 00:55:28,870 --> 00:55:32,332 that it wouldn't take until the year 2013 1225 00:55:32,415 --> 00:55:34,459 to integrate the sororities, 1226 00:55:34,542 --> 00:55:35,919 but when you think about the history 1227 00:55:35,960 --> 00:55:37,420 of the sororities themselves 1228 00:55:37,462 --> 00:55:38,797 and the history of the state of Alabama 1229 00:55:38,880 --> 00:55:41,341 and just the undercurrent of racism 1230 00:55:41,424 --> 00:55:44,594 that has been so prominent in our history, 1231 00:55:44,678 --> 00:55:47,555 it really doesn't surprise me that it took that long. 1232 00:55:47,597 --> 00:55:51,768 I didn't necessarily see it as an option or a choice 1233 00:55:51,851 --> 00:55:53,812 to rush Panhellenic. 1234 00:55:53,895 --> 00:55:59,859 I didn't see any women that look like me in those organizations. 1235 00:55:59,943 --> 00:56:03,822 -It's a busy time at Alabama. It's time for sorority Rush. 1236 00:56:03,905 --> 00:56:07,575 Girls brimming with excitement at the thought of being chosen 1237 00:56:07,659 --> 00:56:09,577 to move to Magnolia Drive. 1238 00:56:09,619 --> 00:56:11,579 But there's another group moving in -- 1239 00:56:11,621 --> 00:56:13,331 the Alpha Kappa Alphas. 1240 00:56:13,415 --> 00:56:14,791 ♪♪ 1241 00:56:14,874 --> 00:56:18,169 -We were the first African-American sorority 1242 00:56:18,253 --> 00:56:19,462 on Sorority Row. 1243 00:56:19,504 --> 00:56:21,589 We integrated Sorority Row. 1244 00:56:21,673 --> 00:56:23,383 -♪ One, two...three, four ♪ 1245 00:56:23,466 --> 00:56:27,470 ♪ A-L-P-H-A K-A-P-P-A A-L-P-H-A ♪ 1246 00:56:27,512 --> 00:56:29,889 ♪ Alpha Kappa Alpha ♪ 1247 00:56:29,973 --> 00:56:33,727 ♪ A-L-P-H-A K-A-P-P-A A-L-P-H-A ♪ 1248 00:56:33,810 --> 00:56:36,688 ♪ Alpha Kappa Alpha ♪ 1249 00:56:36,771 --> 00:56:42,318 -One night after we were at a -- at a fraternity party, 1250 00:56:42,360 --> 00:56:43,778 we were driving by 1251 00:56:43,820 --> 00:56:48,074 and we noticed a smoldering cross on the front lawn. 1252 00:56:48,158 --> 00:56:49,534 We were terrified. 1253 00:56:49,617 --> 00:56:52,996 And anger crept in later, after we got beyond 1254 00:56:53,079 --> 00:56:57,334 the shock and the dismay of the entire situation. 1255 00:56:57,375 --> 00:56:58,626 Now, I grew up in Alabama, 1256 00:56:58,668 --> 00:57:02,213 so hearing that crosses were being burned 1257 00:57:02,297 --> 00:57:04,007 is something that I grew up hearing about, 1258 00:57:04,049 --> 00:57:08,762 but I had never personally seen a cross being burned. 1259 00:57:08,845 --> 00:57:12,682 And once you see that, you can't unsee it, 1260 00:57:12,724 --> 00:57:15,185 and it sticks with you for a lifetime. 1261 00:57:15,268 --> 00:57:20,190 ♪♪ 1262 00:57:20,273 --> 00:57:25,070 ♪♪ 1263 00:57:25,153 --> 00:57:29,699 -I have come to know and love the people in my sorority, 1264 00:57:29,741 --> 00:57:33,995 and to know that they wouldn't have loved or trusted me 1265 00:57:34,037 --> 00:57:39,542 40, 50 years ago, it makes me feel upset. 1266 00:57:39,626 --> 00:57:42,879 And I -- I honestly, for my own self-preservation, 1267 00:57:42,921 --> 00:57:45,215 don't really like to think about it. 1268 00:57:45,256 --> 00:57:50,512 ♪♪ 1269 00:57:50,595 --> 00:57:54,057 [ Indistinct chatter ] 1270 00:57:54,140 --> 00:58:00,397 ♪♪ 1271 00:58:00,480 --> 00:58:07,487 ♪♪ 1272 00:58:08,196 --> 00:58:13,952 ♪♪ 1273 00:58:14,035 --> 00:58:15,620 [ Water splashing ] -Little bit more? 1274 00:58:15,704 --> 00:58:17,372 -Just a little bit more. 1275 00:58:17,414 --> 00:58:19,499 -On Bid Day, we sat outside, 1276 00:58:19,582 --> 00:58:20,834 and we could hear, like, 1277 00:58:20,917 --> 00:58:22,252 all the screams coming from the stadium 1278 00:58:22,335 --> 00:58:23,586 whenever they opened their bids. 1279 00:58:23,628 --> 00:58:24,838 And it was just crazy. -Oh, my gosh. 1280 00:58:24,921 --> 00:58:26,673 My friend sent me a snap, and he was like, 1281 00:58:26,756 --> 00:58:29,300 "The ground just rumbled." -Literally. 1282 00:58:29,384 --> 00:58:31,094 [ Indistinct chatter ] 1283 00:58:31,177 --> 00:58:32,303 -I'm gonna rush in the fall. 1284 00:58:32,387 --> 00:58:34,431 -I'm rushing in the fall, for sure. 1285 00:58:34,514 --> 00:58:38,101 And then what about Abby? -I'm not planning on it. 1286 00:58:38,184 --> 00:58:43,106 It just -- it's lot of money and a lot of time commitment 1287 00:58:43,148 --> 00:58:45,775 and just a lot of work, it seems like. 1288 00:58:45,817 --> 00:58:48,737 So there's like, almost 250 calories in my bowl, 1289 00:58:48,778 --> 00:58:50,655 because the meat and seasoning and everything. 1290 00:58:50,739 --> 00:58:52,032 -How do you know that? 1291 00:58:52,115 --> 00:58:53,742 -'Cause that's why I count out the chips, 1292 00:58:53,825 --> 00:58:56,745 so there's exactly 10 chips in my bowl. 1293 00:58:56,786 --> 00:58:58,329 -Wait, I didn't even see you do that, though. 1294 00:58:58,413 --> 00:59:01,082 -'Cause I -- when I was shaking it, I counted it out. 1295 00:59:01,124 --> 00:59:04,711 -I just have this image in my head that I need to be... 1296 00:59:04,794 --> 00:59:08,089 like, tiny, I guess, 'cause.. -You are tiny. 1297 00:59:08,131 --> 00:59:10,300 -Well, I don't -- I really don't see myself... 1298 00:59:10,342 --> 00:59:15,889 Like, when I look at myself, I see myself, like, as fat. 1299 00:59:15,972 --> 00:59:17,640 Like, I know you guys say I'm not, 1300 00:59:17,724 --> 00:59:20,977 but, like, I see myself as that and I can't help it. 1301 00:59:21,019 --> 00:59:24,898 -I feel like I would never have had an eating disorder 1302 00:59:24,981 --> 00:59:27,650 or anything if the boys growing up 1303 00:59:27,734 --> 00:59:28,985 didn't say what they said to me. 1304 00:59:29,069 --> 00:59:30,904 -Yeah, it is -- it really is the men. 1305 00:59:30,987 --> 00:59:32,739 -I feel like women are like -- 1306 00:59:32,822 --> 00:59:36,117 Like, you grow up to, like, cater to men, 1307 00:59:36,159 --> 00:59:38,495 and it's sad. 1308 00:59:38,578 --> 00:59:41,206 -Have the three of you ever gotten in a fight? 1309 00:59:42,707 --> 00:59:43,958 -No. -I don't think so. 1310 00:59:44,000 --> 00:59:45,919 -We -- like, last night, okay, 1311 00:59:46,002 --> 00:59:48,713 I get overstimulated sometimes really easily and, like, 1312 00:59:48,797 --> 00:59:50,298 I just break, like, I'm just like, 1313 00:59:50,340 --> 00:59:53,843 "Oh, my God, Stop. Like, everything just needs to stop." 1314 00:59:53,927 --> 00:59:55,887 And so last night, I got a little overstimulated 1315 00:59:55,970 --> 00:59:58,431 and I yelled at Makayla, and then she was like, "We're good." 1316 00:59:58,515 --> 01:00:00,642 [ Chuckles ] 1317 01:00:00,725 --> 01:00:03,269 It was bad, but we're good. 1318 01:00:03,353 --> 01:00:04,521 -Yeah, I wasn't listening to her 1319 01:00:04,562 --> 01:00:06,398 when she was yelling at me, either. 1320 01:00:06,481 --> 01:00:07,691 ♪♪ 1321 01:00:07,774 --> 01:00:09,859 Hardcore Southern Baptist. 1322 01:00:09,901 --> 01:00:12,070 -We're all Baptist? I didn't know that. 1323 01:00:12,153 --> 01:00:14,781 -I think when you're raised in Alabama, 1324 01:00:14,864 --> 01:00:16,199 you're kind of forced to be. 1325 01:00:16,282 --> 01:00:17,784 -I don't know, there's a lot of people in my town 1326 01:00:17,867 --> 01:00:19,077 that are, like, Presbyterian and stuff. 1327 01:00:19,160 --> 01:00:21,871 -What's your relationship with God like? 1328 01:00:21,955 --> 01:00:24,499 -I really think He's just the anchor in my life, 1329 01:00:24,541 --> 01:00:26,960 that I need to, like, keep, 1330 01:00:27,043 --> 01:00:31,172 'cause life be getting real difficult sometimes. 1331 01:00:31,214 --> 01:00:33,216 And the fact that He risked His life -- 1332 01:00:33,299 --> 01:00:35,844 like, He died for us 1333 01:00:35,885 --> 01:00:38,138 and, like, just for our sins. 1334 01:00:38,221 --> 01:00:40,098 I don't know, that's just really comforting 1335 01:00:40,181 --> 01:00:44,185 to know that someone would do that for you. 1336 01:00:44,227 --> 01:00:46,563 -[ Laughs ] Hold up. 1337 01:00:46,604 --> 01:00:47,731 Like, if I could do anything ever again, 1338 01:00:47,772 --> 01:00:49,024 it would be Rush week. 1339 01:00:49,107 --> 01:00:50,984 The experience is worth it. -Yeah. 1340 01:00:51,067 --> 01:00:56,656 -Like, because everyone talks about how, like, cool it is. 1341 01:00:56,740 --> 01:00:58,700 I just want to do it. 1342 01:00:58,783 --> 01:01:00,368 -Feet are, like, on the wall? 1343 01:01:00,410 --> 01:01:02,078 -Well, that's the thing -- Makayla does that all the time. 1344 01:01:02,120 --> 01:01:03,913 -I'm like... -You don't think it'd be weird? 1345 01:01:03,997 --> 01:01:05,915 -I don't mean it to be stretchy. 1346 01:01:05,957 --> 01:01:09,878 Like... [ Laughter ] 1347 01:01:09,961 --> 01:01:11,254 I did that too well, though. 1348 01:01:11,338 --> 01:01:13,423 -Yeah, you did. You've gone that way before. 1349 01:01:13,465 --> 01:01:15,759 -I'm like -- -No! 1350 01:01:15,800 --> 01:01:18,553 -No, me and Makayla were like -- [ Breathing hard ] 1351 01:01:18,595 --> 01:01:21,431 -We were like, "Hey." -"Heyyy." 1352 01:01:21,473 --> 01:01:23,641 Makayla was like, "George Bush!" 1353 01:01:23,725 --> 01:01:26,311 Did I tell you she did that to me? 1354 01:01:26,394 --> 01:01:30,357 [ Laughing ] 1355 01:01:30,440 --> 01:01:37,447 ♪♪ 1356 01:01:38,156 --> 01:01:45,163 ♪♪ 1357 01:01:45,705 --> 01:01:52,712 ♪♪ 1358 01:01:53,463 --> 01:01:59,678 ♪♪ 1359 01:01:59,761 --> 01:02:00,970 -♪ Hey ♪ 1360 01:02:01,054 --> 01:02:03,014 -We got roofied at a bar. [ Chuckles ] 1361 01:02:03,098 --> 01:02:04,849 So, this guy ordered us shots. 1362 01:02:04,933 --> 01:02:06,976 One of the bartenders was telling us how, like, 1363 01:02:07,018 --> 01:02:08,186 when they went back in the video footage, 1364 01:02:08,269 --> 01:02:10,814 he, like, slipped it into all of them. 1365 01:02:10,855 --> 01:02:13,400 So it's nice. We love that for us. 1366 01:02:13,483 --> 01:02:15,944 The last thing I remember is looking at Makayla, 1367 01:02:15,985 --> 01:02:19,280 and I was gone, and my, like, friend found me in the woods. 1368 01:02:19,322 --> 01:02:21,741 We took Makayla to the hospital, and she had, like, 1369 01:02:21,825 --> 01:02:23,118 drugs in her system, 1370 01:02:23,159 --> 01:02:25,161 and we don't do drugs, like, at all, 1371 01:02:25,203 --> 01:02:26,663 and I was with her the whole night. 1372 01:02:26,705 --> 01:02:27,997 But they did find him, 1373 01:02:28,081 --> 01:02:30,959 and he did get beat up really bad. [ Chuckles ] 1374 01:02:31,042 --> 01:02:33,920 -Do you think he'll get, like, criminal charges? 1375 01:02:34,004 --> 01:02:36,923 -If we -- If anybody pressed any, but I'm not. 1376 01:02:37,007 --> 01:02:38,633 I don't know, I just don't... 1377 01:02:38,675 --> 01:02:40,260 Honestly, I don't want to go through the whole court case, 1378 01:02:40,343 --> 01:02:41,970 'cause I've only been through that court case. 1379 01:02:42,053 --> 01:02:44,180 I don't want to go through it again. It's annoying. 1380 01:02:44,264 --> 01:02:47,684 -Have you been roofied before? -Mm-hmm. 1381 01:02:47,767 --> 01:02:49,436 Like, three times before. 1382 01:02:49,519 --> 01:02:52,355 [ Dogs barking in distance ] 1383 01:02:52,439 --> 01:02:54,733 -Oh, I could give you the pageant walk, but -- 1384 01:02:54,816 --> 01:02:55,984 [ Laughs ] 1385 01:02:56,026 --> 01:02:58,737 It's so, like, fierce, though. 1386 01:02:58,820 --> 01:03:03,366 ♪♪ 1387 01:03:03,408 --> 01:03:05,535 ♪ Heyyy ♪ [ Laughs ] 1388 01:03:05,577 --> 01:03:08,121 It's hard to be a perfectionist, because you want everything 1389 01:03:08,204 --> 01:03:10,540 to go in order, and sometimes it doesn't. 1390 01:03:10,582 --> 01:03:14,002 And when there's multiple things that just don't go right, 1391 01:03:14,085 --> 01:03:17,464 it really stresses me out. 1392 01:03:17,547 --> 01:03:19,174 And my adoption, like, 1393 01:03:19,215 --> 01:03:21,843 it triggers some of my depression and my anxiety. 1394 01:03:21,885 --> 01:03:24,137 When people are, like, going distant, 1395 01:03:24,220 --> 01:03:26,514 it really makes me nervous because I -- 1396 01:03:26,556 --> 01:03:28,016 I have trust issues with people, 1397 01:03:28,058 --> 01:03:32,020 and I get nervous that people are gonna leave me. 1398 01:03:32,103 --> 01:03:36,107 I accidentally found out about me being adopted. 1399 01:03:36,191 --> 01:03:38,276 I'm really close with my grandparents, 1400 01:03:38,360 --> 01:03:41,029 and my grandpa had handed me a paper, and he was like, 1401 01:03:41,071 --> 01:03:43,073 "Do you think your parents still want this paper?" 1402 01:03:43,114 --> 01:03:45,200 And I was like, "I don't think so. 1403 01:03:45,241 --> 01:03:46,701 Like, let me just read it, though." 1404 01:03:46,743 --> 01:03:48,578 I was more concerned about my homework, 1405 01:03:48,661 --> 01:03:50,080 and I'd read it after, 1406 01:03:50,121 --> 01:03:52,415 and it had talked about me being adopted, 1407 01:03:52,499 --> 01:03:55,126 and I was like -- I thought they were joking 1408 01:03:55,210 --> 01:03:56,753 and, like, I thought it was a joke, 1409 01:03:56,795 --> 01:03:58,755 so I was waiting for, like, the laughing, 1410 01:03:58,838 --> 01:04:00,298 and there was no laughing. 1411 01:04:00,382 --> 01:04:02,300 Like, he was just focused on doing his own thing. 1412 01:04:02,384 --> 01:04:04,302 He didn't even know that it said that. 1413 01:04:04,386 --> 01:04:08,765 So it -- it turned my world upside down. 1414 01:04:08,807 --> 01:04:10,266 ♪♪ 1415 01:04:10,350 --> 01:04:12,644 Basically, I thought I knew who I was, 1416 01:04:12,727 --> 01:04:14,354 and then it completely changed. 1417 01:04:14,437 --> 01:04:16,648 I've been in therapy since I was 13, 1418 01:04:16,731 --> 01:04:20,610 and then last year, I started doing some trauma treatments 1419 01:04:20,652 --> 01:04:24,614 for just trauma that I didn't even realize that I could have, 1420 01:04:24,656 --> 01:04:28,201 but it was making my anxiety and my depression so high. 1421 01:04:28,284 --> 01:04:31,955 I used to be able to not even take a test in class 1422 01:04:31,996 --> 01:04:33,623 without almost passing out. 1423 01:04:33,665 --> 01:04:36,501 So I'm really hoping that when I get to Alabama, like, 1424 01:04:36,584 --> 01:04:39,462 I can just always have an open heart and an open mind 1425 01:04:39,504 --> 01:04:44,134 and just let myself be me and not let my triggers, 1426 01:04:44,217 --> 01:04:47,303 like, affect me and take over my life there. 1427 01:04:47,345 --> 01:04:51,766 ♪♪ 1428 01:04:51,808 --> 01:04:53,351 -Just like Shelby, 1429 01:04:53,435 --> 01:04:55,979 I was really looking forward to freshman year of college. 1430 01:04:56,021 --> 01:04:57,480 It's a new beginning. 1431 01:04:57,564 --> 01:05:03,486 My big plan was that I was going to take the wig off. 1432 01:05:03,570 --> 01:05:05,989 But when I got to college, I was too scared. 1433 01:05:06,072 --> 01:05:07,615 I couldn't do it. 1434 01:05:07,657 --> 01:05:10,660 I couldn't even tell my freshman year roommate that I wore a wig. 1435 01:05:10,702 --> 01:05:16,416 So I slept in my wig every single night that year. 1436 01:05:16,499 --> 01:05:19,627 I was convinced that, if you knew I was bald, 1437 01:05:19,711 --> 01:05:22,213 you wouldn't want to be my friend. 1438 01:05:22,297 --> 01:05:26,760 ♪♪ 1439 01:05:26,843 --> 01:05:28,261 [ Turn signal clicks ] -I don't know. 1440 01:05:28,345 --> 01:05:30,722 I always said I was never going to dye my hair. 1441 01:05:30,805 --> 01:05:32,515 And then I started, like, I got highlights 1442 01:05:32,557 --> 01:05:34,100 and now I just can't stop. 1443 01:05:34,184 --> 01:05:36,728 Like, every time I love to just go lighter and lighter. 1444 01:05:36,811 --> 01:05:41,858 Every time she asks what I want, I just say, "Okay, blonder." 1445 01:05:41,941 --> 01:05:43,985 -Which one of the dates? August? -Yeah. 1446 01:05:44,027 --> 01:05:47,364 We have Open House and then Philanthropy. 1447 01:05:47,447 --> 01:05:50,158 And then there's Sisterhood Preference Day, 1448 01:05:50,200 --> 01:05:51,868 and then there's Bid Day. 1449 01:05:51,910 --> 01:05:58,500 ♪♪ 1450 01:05:58,583 --> 01:06:04,714 ♪♪ 1451 01:06:04,756 --> 01:06:07,050 -I had a whole spiritual awakening while you were gone. 1452 01:06:07,092 --> 01:06:08,343 You don't even understand. 1453 01:06:08,385 --> 01:06:09,844 During finals, I definitely had, like, 1454 01:06:09,886 --> 01:06:11,262 a blinding revelation. 1455 01:06:11,346 --> 01:06:14,099 Like, I sat myself down in front of a mirror 1456 01:06:14,182 --> 01:06:16,434 and was like, "How you've been acting lately 1457 01:06:16,518 --> 01:06:18,853 is not you, that's out of character, 1458 01:06:18,937 --> 01:06:20,480 and you need to pull it together." 1459 01:06:20,563 --> 01:06:23,441 The stuff I've been doing, like, going out how I have been, 1460 01:06:23,525 --> 01:06:27,487 you know, I shouldn't be doing that on a Wednesday. 1461 01:06:27,570 --> 01:06:29,280 I need to be focusing on my studies. 1462 01:06:29,364 --> 01:06:31,741 Like, I'm there to build my career, make money, 1463 01:06:31,825 --> 01:06:34,077 and build an empire. 1464 01:06:34,119 --> 01:06:37,414 I'm not there to see who can drink the most. 1465 01:06:37,455 --> 01:06:42,585 Like, that's just not me. I just need to grow up. 1466 01:06:42,669 --> 01:06:45,338 I'm not trying to force anything anymore. 1467 01:06:45,422 --> 01:06:47,882 ♪♪ 1468 01:06:47,924 --> 01:06:49,467 -Holliday: Hey, what are you doing? 1469 01:06:49,551 --> 01:06:50,635 -Driving. 1470 01:06:53,471 --> 01:06:55,181 Are you okay? 1471 01:06:55,265 --> 01:06:58,268 -Oh, I just wanted to talk to you. 1472 01:06:58,309 --> 01:06:59,394 I got a text last night 1473 01:06:59,477 --> 01:07:02,397 and someone was telling me about how you 1474 01:07:02,439 --> 01:07:05,942 and Kirsten were just, like, trashing me and 1475 01:07:05,984 --> 01:07:08,111 talking, like, really bad about me 1476 01:07:08,153 --> 01:07:09,654 and I just want to talk to you about that because 1477 01:07:09,738 --> 01:07:10,697 I don't really understand -- 1478 01:07:10,780 --> 01:07:12,449 -Who said that? 1479 01:07:12,490 --> 01:07:13,324 -Huh? 1480 01:07:13,408 --> 01:07:15,535 -Who said that? -Emma. 1481 01:07:15,618 --> 01:07:18,163 -If I was in your position I would be like, 1482 01:07:18,246 --> 01:07:19,831 who am I to believe Makayla 1483 01:07:19,914 --> 01:07:21,458 'cause she could just be saying that 1484 01:07:21,499 --> 01:07:23,626 and she is actually just doing that. 1485 01:07:23,710 --> 01:07:25,128 -Well. Um. 1486 01:07:25,211 --> 01:07:27,756 Kirsten literally told Emma 1487 01:07:27,839 --> 01:07:28,840 that you said 1488 01:07:28,923 --> 01:07:32,218 I was psycho and clingy. 1489 01:07:33,595 --> 01:07:35,680 And I just had one of Emma's friends -- 1490 01:07:35,764 --> 01:07:36,681 that was with her last night -- 1491 01:07:36,765 --> 01:07:38,683 confirm that Kirsten said that you said that. 1492 01:07:43,813 --> 01:07:45,231 -This is... [ Sighs ] 1493 01:07:45,315 --> 01:07:46,733 This is so annoying. 1494 01:07:49,319 --> 01:07:51,363 I just want to be out of the drama. 1495 01:07:52,739 --> 01:07:54,199 (CALL ENDS) 1496 01:07:59,037 --> 01:08:01,081 I don't know who to believe anymore 'cause 1497 01:08:01,164 --> 01:08:02,832 I feel like everyone just lies. 1498 01:08:02,916 --> 01:08:06,294 ♪♪ 1499 01:08:06,336 --> 01:08:08,797 [ Cellphone rings ] 1500 01:08:08,880 --> 01:08:12,842 [ Cellphone beeps ] 1501 01:08:12,884 --> 01:08:19,349 ♪♪ 1502 01:08:19,391 --> 01:08:20,934 -All she does is hang out with Kappas, 1503 01:08:21,017 --> 01:08:22,310 and so she just ignores me now. 1504 01:08:22,352 --> 01:08:24,354 It's just a sorority she wants to be in. 1505 01:08:24,396 --> 01:08:27,899 Well, I'm upset about it, but, like, I -- oof. Ugh. 1506 01:08:27,982 --> 01:08:30,276 I hate emotions. [ Chuckles ] 1507 01:08:30,360 --> 01:08:32,904 I do. I'm so emotionally unavailable. 1508 01:08:32,987 --> 01:08:34,656 It's so sad. 1509 01:08:34,739 --> 01:08:41,705 ♪♪ 1510 01:08:41,871 --> 01:08:45,542 [ Cellphone buttons clicking ] 1511 01:08:45,625 --> 01:08:52,632 ♪♪ 1512 01:08:53,633 --> 01:09:00,223 ♪♪ 1513 01:09:01,433 --> 01:09:04,310 -I was leaving a place, and I, like, stopped 1514 01:09:04,394 --> 01:09:05,729 'cause I heard my name. 1515 01:09:05,770 --> 01:09:07,480 Like, tell me how many people on this campus 1516 01:09:07,564 --> 01:09:09,607 have the name Holliday? Yeah, zero. 1517 01:09:09,691 --> 01:09:11,234 So I was eavesdropping. I'll be honest. 1518 01:09:11,276 --> 01:09:12,527 I was being nosy. I was eavesdropping. 1519 01:09:12,569 --> 01:09:14,237 I hear these girls and they're like, 1520 01:09:14,279 --> 01:09:15,697 "Is that Holliday girl going to rush, do you know?" 1521 01:09:15,739 --> 01:09:17,407 And then this other girl goes, "Well, I hope not, 1522 01:09:17,490 --> 01:09:19,367 since she's blacklisted from every sorority." 1523 01:09:19,409 --> 01:09:20,785 And I was like, "Alright, that's cool." 1524 01:09:20,869 --> 01:09:22,912 Like, I'm not gonna waste my time and money. 1525 01:09:22,996 --> 01:09:24,581 Like, if that is like... 1526 01:09:24,622 --> 01:09:26,374 you know, people are going to blow smoke out their butt, 1527 01:09:26,416 --> 01:09:29,419 but like, if that is true, I'm not gonna waste my money. 1528 01:09:29,461 --> 01:09:31,129 Like, there's no point. 1529 01:09:31,212 --> 01:09:33,506 I just, like, don't think mentally 1530 01:09:33,590 --> 01:09:35,175 it would be best for me to rush again, 1531 01:09:35,258 --> 01:09:36,468 like, and going through that. 1532 01:09:36,551 --> 01:09:38,261 Like, 'cause I didn't realize, I guess, 1533 01:09:38,345 --> 01:09:39,888 until my therapist pointed out, 1534 01:09:39,929 --> 01:09:42,432 like, how much of a mental, like, stress it put on me. 1535 01:09:42,515 --> 01:09:45,226 And I don't need that, because when they say, 1536 01:09:45,268 --> 01:09:47,062 like, your freshman year is a very humbling 1537 01:09:47,103 --> 01:09:48,897 and, like, growing-up experience, 1538 01:09:48,980 --> 01:09:50,940 they truly mean that. 1539 01:09:50,982 --> 01:09:56,696 ♪♪ 1540 01:09:56,780 --> 01:10:01,409 ♪♪ 1541 01:10:01,451 --> 01:10:04,120 -There has been a few nights where I couldn't sleep at night. 1542 01:10:04,162 --> 01:10:05,538 -Oh, seriously? 1543 01:10:05,622 --> 01:10:07,540 'Cause you were scared of what I was gonna -- 1544 01:10:07,624 --> 01:10:09,459 -Not really afraid of what you're... 1545 01:10:09,501 --> 01:10:11,127 -It's just how we're gonna be perceived. 1546 01:10:11,211 --> 01:10:12,712 The world we live in right now is, like, 1547 01:10:12,796 --> 01:10:14,756 very much cancel culture. -Judgmental, yeah. 1548 01:10:14,798 --> 01:10:16,675 People are going to feel how they're going to feel, 1549 01:10:16,758 --> 01:10:18,176 and I have to keep on trucking along. 1550 01:10:18,259 --> 01:10:19,594 -Yeah. 1551 01:10:19,636 --> 01:10:23,264 -I just don't want people to, like, hate us. 1552 01:10:23,306 --> 01:10:26,267 Or, like, hate me. I don't want them to hate me. 1553 01:10:26,309 --> 01:10:27,686 -Or us. -And, yeah. 1554 01:10:27,769 --> 01:10:29,646 But you're likable! 1555 01:10:29,688 --> 01:10:31,815 ♪♪ 1556 01:10:31,898 --> 01:10:34,401 -So, with Instagram and all social media, 1557 01:10:34,484 --> 01:10:35,777 we first do a pre-screen. 1558 01:10:35,819 --> 01:10:37,696 So once you register, they have your name, 1559 01:10:37,779 --> 01:10:39,531 and if they have your name, they have the ability 1560 01:10:39,614 --> 01:10:41,449 to find you anywhere -- and these girls are like -- 1561 01:10:41,491 --> 01:10:43,576 should be in the FBI, creating fake accounts 1562 01:10:43,660 --> 01:10:46,329 and, like, making sure they find you, 1563 01:10:46,371 --> 01:10:47,747 so they'll figure it out. 1564 01:10:47,831 --> 01:10:49,499 So we just want to make sure your tagged photos 1565 01:10:49,541 --> 01:10:51,918 aren't anything that would be labeled 1566 01:10:52,002 --> 01:10:54,129 as "a standard concern." 1567 01:10:54,170 --> 01:10:55,839 And I'm not seeing anything. 1568 01:10:55,880 --> 01:11:00,510 So what they'll do is they will come sit right in front of you 1569 01:11:00,593 --> 01:11:02,429 and just start talking to you. 1570 01:11:02,512 --> 01:11:04,180 Okay, so we'll start with the first question. 1571 01:11:04,222 --> 01:11:06,474 What made you pick the University of Alabama? 1572 01:11:06,516 --> 01:11:09,394 -So I'm going into advertising as my major, actually. 1573 01:11:09,477 --> 01:11:11,479 They have an amazing advertising program, 1574 01:11:11,521 --> 01:11:13,148 like, one of the best in the country. 1575 01:11:13,189 --> 01:11:15,483 -I think the biggest thing is going to be the conversations. 1576 01:11:15,525 --> 01:11:18,862 Isabelle, you know, is really good at small talk. 1577 01:11:18,945 --> 01:11:22,449 The only thing that I'm worried about is that lead of getting 1578 01:11:22,532 --> 01:11:25,452 to that next part and, like, her thinking one step ahead, 1579 01:11:25,535 --> 01:11:27,871 and that just comes from practice. 1580 01:11:29,581 --> 01:11:31,541 -Do you dye it? -Yeah. 1581 01:11:31,583 --> 01:11:35,712 Like, all that is, like, blonde now. 1582 01:11:35,795 --> 01:11:39,507 And -- But we're only doing a little bit lighter at a time 1583 01:11:39,591 --> 01:11:41,968 so it don't fall out. 1584 01:11:42,052 --> 01:11:43,470 -There is a look 1585 01:11:43,553 --> 01:11:47,849 that is well put together and showing confidence, 1586 01:11:47,891 --> 01:11:52,395 and you have to blend in without crazy sticking out. 1587 01:11:52,437 --> 01:11:55,106 You don't have to be like everybody else, 1588 01:11:55,190 --> 01:11:58,610 but you just need to not stick out. 1589 01:11:58,693 --> 01:12:02,030 Not trying to follow the crowd or the trend, 1590 01:12:02,113 --> 01:12:04,741 but while also fitting into 1591 01:12:04,824 --> 01:12:07,952 a certain kind of mold just for Rush. 1592 01:12:08,036 --> 01:12:11,956 You don't want to give sorority a reason to cut you. 1593 01:12:12,040 --> 01:12:13,625 ♪♪ 1594 01:12:13,708 --> 01:12:15,960 -What if you just naturally stick out? 1595 01:12:16,044 --> 01:12:19,005 I'm thinking about myself, because I have no hair. 1596 01:12:19,089 --> 01:12:20,590 -Right. -But, like, 1597 01:12:20,674 --> 01:12:23,468 how would you approach a situation like that 1598 01:12:23,551 --> 01:12:28,807 with somebody who just automatically stood out? 1599 01:12:28,890 --> 01:12:30,809 -There, how I would approach someone who 1600 01:12:30,892 --> 01:12:34,646 automatically stands out, and especially 1601 01:12:34,729 --> 01:12:39,609 in a place like Alabama, we have a lot of clients 1602 01:12:39,651 --> 01:12:43,988 who stand out for whatever reason, 1603 01:12:44,072 --> 01:12:47,075 but I make sure that they're willing to listen 1604 01:12:47,158 --> 01:12:48,326 and they have to trust me. 1605 01:12:48,410 --> 01:12:51,204 They have to trust that I... 1606 01:12:51,287 --> 01:12:53,707 am not going to steer them wrong. 1607 01:12:53,790 --> 01:12:56,626 If you own it, I think you're -- you're great. 1608 01:12:56,668 --> 01:12:59,295 -This girl is not owning it. 1609 01:12:59,379 --> 01:13:02,841 This is me freshman year, in my wig. 1610 01:13:02,924 --> 01:13:06,511 The only time I took my wig off that year 1611 01:13:06,594 --> 01:13:09,973 would be in the privacy of the shower stall 1612 01:13:10,056 --> 01:13:11,641 in the bathroom. 1613 01:13:11,725 --> 01:13:17,689 I would take my wig off and let the water pour over my head, 1614 01:13:17,772 --> 01:13:22,027 and then I'd put my wig back on and I would wash it, 1615 01:13:22,110 --> 01:13:27,490 and I would go into my bedroom at the dorm 1616 01:13:27,532 --> 01:13:32,370 like nothing had happened, like everything was normal. 1617 01:13:32,454 --> 01:13:37,375 Eventually, my sophomore year, 1618 01:13:37,459 --> 01:13:42,797 the pain of not being myself 1619 01:13:42,839 --> 01:13:49,846 became greater than my need to fit in. 1620 01:13:51,014 --> 01:13:57,520 I finally took my wig off. It was just a simple action. 1621 01:13:57,562 --> 01:13:59,939 Just like -- Whhhh! 1622 01:14:00,023 --> 01:14:01,858 ♪♪ 1623 01:14:01,900 --> 01:14:04,527 But I felt like a thousand-pound helmet, 1624 01:14:04,569 --> 01:14:09,616 and it was the hardest thing 1625 01:14:09,699 --> 01:14:15,455 I have ever done in my entire life. 1626 01:14:15,538 --> 01:14:18,541 And I did it, 1627 01:14:18,625 --> 01:14:22,212 and I took my wig off, 1628 01:14:22,253 --> 01:14:24,214 and I never put it back on. 1629 01:14:24,255 --> 01:14:28,468 ♪♪ 1630 01:14:28,551 --> 01:14:31,221 [ Voice breaking ] And I owned it, 1631 01:14:31,262 --> 01:14:33,223 because I'm a bald girl. 1632 01:14:33,306 --> 01:14:37,102 ♪♪ 1633 01:14:37,185 --> 01:14:38,478 That's it. 1634 01:14:38,561 --> 01:14:39,896 -Hi, guys. 1635 01:14:39,979 --> 01:14:42,315 I'm rushing at the University of Alabama this fall, 1636 01:14:42,399 --> 01:14:45,402 and I'm going to show you guys what is in my Rush bag. 1637 01:14:45,485 --> 01:14:47,904 Static guard, scissors, 1638 01:14:47,946 --> 01:14:52,742 tweezers, Tide To Go pen, a first-aid kit, mints, 1639 01:14:52,826 --> 01:14:56,538 breath strips, sunglasses, portable charger, 1640 01:14:56,621 --> 01:14:58,081 and then a yoga mat. 1641 01:14:58,164 --> 01:15:00,083 And I didn't cut it in case anybody else needs a seat. 1642 01:15:00,166 --> 01:15:03,795 I wanted to be able to share with them, so I didn't cut it. 1643 01:15:03,878 --> 01:15:06,506 And that is everything in my Rush bag, so... 1644 01:15:06,589 --> 01:15:08,591 -This is the kind of woman that you want to marry. 1645 01:15:08,633 --> 01:15:11,052 This one right here, okay? 1646 01:15:11,094 --> 01:15:13,763 She is more prepared to take my three children... 1647 01:15:13,847 --> 01:15:17,934 -This girl is the equivalent of a CVS receipt. 1648 01:15:17,976 --> 01:15:20,061 I want to be stuck with this girl 1649 01:15:20,103 --> 01:15:21,604 if we're all going down. 1650 01:15:21,646 --> 01:15:24,607 Because of this girl, I'm inspired now to dive deep 1651 01:15:24,691 --> 01:15:26,151 into sorority TikTok. 1652 01:15:26,234 --> 01:15:28,653 [ Insects chirping in distance ] 1653 01:15:28,737 --> 01:15:30,864 -Now, here is a hard copy 1654 01:15:30,947 --> 01:15:32,449 of your résumé with that picture. 1655 01:15:32,532 --> 01:15:34,200 Do you like that picture? 1656 01:15:35,535 --> 01:15:39,080 That's the one you sent me. 1657 01:15:39,122 --> 01:15:40,874 -[Quietly] Yes. 1658 01:15:40,957 --> 01:15:44,002 -And that's the one that you want to use for that? 1659 01:15:45,670 --> 01:15:47,422 -Do you think we should change it? 1660 01:15:47,505 --> 01:15:48,673 -Mm-hmm. -Yeah. 1661 01:15:48,757 --> 01:15:49,966 -I think we should change it. 1662 01:15:50,050 --> 01:15:51,926 Super important that you look friendly, 1663 01:15:51,968 --> 01:15:55,138 engaging, and really excited to be doing this video. 1664 01:15:55,180 --> 01:15:58,767 Smiling the entire time you're talking. 1665 01:15:59,976 --> 01:16:03,480 It's a necessary evil, so... 1666 01:16:03,563 --> 01:16:04,773 [ Beeps ] 1667 01:16:04,856 --> 01:16:06,733 -Hi. My name is Makayla Miller. 1668 01:16:06,816 --> 01:16:08,818 I'm going through recruitment as a sophomore. 1669 01:16:08,860 --> 01:16:10,904 Authenticity is my number one core value. 1670 01:16:10,987 --> 01:16:12,822 In a sorority, like in life, 1671 01:16:12,864 --> 01:16:15,617 connecting and finding true sisterhood can only be done 1672 01:16:15,700 --> 01:16:17,285 by being authentic. 1673 01:16:17,327 --> 01:16:18,828 Respect is also a key value. 1674 01:16:18,912 --> 01:16:20,997 I think sisterhood involves [inhales deeply] -- 1675 01:16:21,081 --> 01:16:24,167 sisterhood involves respecting your sisters 1676 01:16:24,209 --> 01:16:25,627 in all they do. 1677 01:16:25,669 --> 01:16:28,088 I look forward to meeting y'all, and Roll Tide. 1678 01:16:28,171 --> 01:16:29,714 More? 1679 01:16:29,798 --> 01:16:31,049 -Oh, we're going to do a few more. 1680 01:16:31,132 --> 01:16:33,718 -I don't know if this is a little too va-va-voom, 1681 01:16:33,802 --> 01:16:35,261 but that's an option. 1682 01:16:35,345 --> 01:16:36,763 -So, do you have a different dress for each round? 1683 01:16:36,846 --> 01:16:38,181 I mean, each day of Sisterhood? -Mm-hmm. 1684 01:16:38,264 --> 01:16:40,141 -I don't have all of them yet, but I have, like, 1685 01:16:40,183 --> 01:16:42,686 ones that I've been looking at all summer. 1686 01:16:42,727 --> 01:16:45,397 I just don't want to look like everyone else either. 1687 01:16:45,480 --> 01:16:46,690 Because I know I'm gonna show up 1688 01:16:46,731 --> 01:16:48,108 wearing the same thing as someone else. 1689 01:16:48,191 --> 01:16:49,401 I do not want that. 1690 01:16:49,484 --> 01:16:52,987 Hmm, I don't know about this place. 1691 01:16:53,029 --> 01:16:57,742 It seems like a store my mom would like, though. 1692 01:16:57,826 --> 01:16:59,744 -She now sort of looks like a Disney princess. 1693 01:16:59,828 --> 01:17:00,954 -A Disney princess! 1694 01:17:01,037 --> 01:17:02,664 But taking it and wrapping it, 1695 01:17:02,706 --> 01:17:04,666 so you get some tension and, like -- 1696 01:17:04,749 --> 01:17:06,084 tension and keeping it straight. 1697 01:17:06,167 --> 01:17:07,544 That's pretty comfortable, isn't it? 1698 01:17:07,585 --> 01:17:08,962 It's not bad. 1699 01:17:09,045 --> 01:17:11,881 You could sleep with that and not look too crazy. 1700 01:17:11,965 --> 01:17:14,551 Beautiful. -I need to empty this out. 1701 01:17:14,634 --> 01:17:18,388 [ Indistinct chatter ] 1702 01:17:18,430 --> 01:17:25,437 ♪♪ 1703 01:17:25,895 --> 01:17:29,357 -Hey, guys. I am hoping you're having a great day. 1704 01:17:29,399 --> 01:17:30,775 Not a good day. A great day. 1705 01:17:30,859 --> 01:17:34,863 -It's about damn time. Rush is back, bitches! 1706 01:17:34,904 --> 01:17:38,742 -Here we go. Bama Rush, Season 2. 1707 01:17:38,783 --> 01:17:40,201 -Much like everyone else in America this week, 1708 01:17:40,243 --> 01:17:42,579 I will not be doing any work at my corporate job, 1709 01:17:42,662 --> 01:17:44,080 and instead, I will be allocating 1710 01:17:44,164 --> 01:17:47,917 every thought and conversation I have to Bama Rush. 1711 01:17:48,001 --> 01:17:54,049 ♪♪ 1712 01:17:54,132 --> 01:17:58,053 -Oh, this is my little chair. This actually goes here. 1713 01:17:58,094 --> 01:17:59,262 [ Laughing ] 1714 01:17:59,346 --> 01:18:01,806 Everyone made fun of me for this, but it's nice, 1715 01:18:01,890 --> 01:18:03,266 because we sit on my carpet, 1716 01:18:03,308 --> 01:18:05,352 so, like, if my friends are sitting on my carpet, 1717 01:18:05,435 --> 01:18:07,520 I can sit on the pink chair. 1718 01:18:07,604 --> 01:18:09,647 I'm really big on crystals. 1719 01:18:09,731 --> 01:18:11,649 It's a little piece of home, but there's like, 1720 01:18:11,733 --> 01:18:13,943 a lot of bad energy being carried on these. 1721 01:18:14,027 --> 01:18:16,154 Like, when I first got all these, I felt really happy, 1722 01:18:16,237 --> 01:18:18,156 and then just a lot of bad things happened, 1723 01:18:18,239 --> 01:18:21,451 and I just feel like I need a recharge. 1724 01:18:21,493 --> 01:18:28,500 ♪♪ 1725 01:18:30,585 --> 01:18:33,254 Two weeks before I came to the University of Alabama, 1726 01:18:33,296 --> 01:18:35,465 I was sexually assaulted. 1727 01:18:35,507 --> 01:18:39,177 ♪♪ 1728 01:18:39,260 --> 01:18:40,804 [ Voice breaking ] When it happened, like, 1729 01:18:40,887 --> 01:18:42,847 I blamed myself and blamed myself 1730 01:18:42,931 --> 01:18:44,349 and blamed myself. 1731 01:18:44,432 --> 01:18:46,851 But I was, like, you know, 1732 01:18:46,935 --> 01:18:48,728 like, that was the moment I realized, I was like, 1733 01:18:48,812 --> 01:18:51,147 I need to become my biggest protector. 1734 01:18:51,231 --> 01:18:54,984 And, you know, I feel like I'm a very trusting person. 1735 01:18:55,068 --> 01:18:56,986 And I was like, it is good to be trusting 1736 01:18:57,070 --> 01:18:58,822 and it is good to look for the best in people 1737 01:18:58,863 --> 01:19:00,323 and it's good to love others, 1738 01:19:00,407 --> 01:19:02,826 but, like, you need to protect yourself, 1739 01:19:02,867 --> 01:19:04,577 because at the end of the day, like, 1740 01:19:04,661 --> 01:19:08,331 I'm the only one that was there for myself at, like, all times. 1741 01:19:08,373 --> 01:19:12,168 And, you know, I know the person that I am, 1742 01:19:12,210 --> 01:19:15,130 and the way that people saw me was not the way I was, 1743 01:19:15,171 --> 01:19:18,216 and they treated me how they thought I was, 1744 01:19:18,299 --> 01:19:21,678 and they treated me like I was trash. 1745 01:19:21,761 --> 01:19:27,017 And I was really, really hurt. 1746 01:19:27,058 --> 01:19:28,518 And it was really hard. 1747 01:19:28,560 --> 01:19:31,104 I had a really hard few weeks before I came here, 1748 01:19:31,187 --> 01:19:33,606 because I didn't feel like myself, 1749 01:19:33,690 --> 01:19:35,900 and I would look in the mirror every day, 1750 01:19:35,984 --> 01:19:38,695 and I would just see the things that been done to me. 1751 01:19:38,778 --> 01:19:40,405 [ Sniffles, chuckles ] 1752 01:19:40,488 --> 01:19:43,033 I hate being emotional, but it's just like... 1753 01:19:43,074 --> 01:19:46,119 I feel like it was really weird, just, like, coming here, 1754 01:19:46,202 --> 01:19:47,996 because, like, literally, like, a weight was, like, 1755 01:19:48,079 --> 01:19:52,917 lifted off my shoulders, because I was free from, like, 1756 01:19:53,001 --> 01:19:58,173 all the, like, ideas about me that I had once. 1757 01:19:58,214 --> 01:19:59,883 And I saw who, like, I truly was 1758 01:19:59,924 --> 01:20:01,217 and that, like, God showed me, 1759 01:20:01,301 --> 01:20:03,803 like, who I really, truly could be. 1760 01:20:03,887 --> 01:20:08,266 ♪♪ 1761 01:20:08,350 --> 01:20:13,813 I can, like, rewrite my story. My story can start here. 1762 01:20:15,690 --> 01:20:16,941 I've been placed with a lot 1763 01:20:17,025 --> 01:20:19,569 of just really amazing female mentors. 1764 01:20:19,652 --> 01:20:21,279 My therapist, she is one of them. 1765 01:20:21,363 --> 01:20:25,408 My mom is one of them, and my church leaders are some of them. 1766 01:20:25,450 --> 01:20:28,244 All these women, like, have really just like, 1767 01:20:28,286 --> 01:20:31,331 just shown me, like, the person, like, I want to be, 1768 01:20:31,414 --> 01:20:35,293 which is exactly what Greek life is about. 1769 01:20:35,377 --> 01:20:37,587 Every single girl in all of these houses 1770 01:20:37,671 --> 01:20:41,257 has gone through some amount of struggle in their life. 1771 01:20:41,299 --> 01:20:43,468 ♪♪ 1772 01:20:43,551 --> 01:20:45,261 These are really strong women 1773 01:20:45,303 --> 01:20:47,180 who want to get involved in their school 1774 01:20:47,263 --> 01:20:49,933 and who are passionate about building each other up. 1775 01:20:50,016 --> 01:20:54,854 Like, it is a sisterhood, and that's why I want to rush. 1776 01:20:54,938 --> 01:20:56,606 ♪♪ 1777 01:20:56,648 --> 01:20:58,775 I'm "nervited" [chuckles] -- 1778 01:20:58,858 --> 01:21:01,778 which is, like, nervous and excited. 1779 01:21:01,861 --> 01:21:04,739 ♪♪ 1780 01:21:04,781 --> 01:21:06,116 -What's the thing on TikTok -- 1781 01:21:06,199 --> 01:21:07,492 have you ever watched the one that's like -- 1782 01:21:07,575 --> 01:21:11,496 [ Chanting, singing ] 1783 01:21:11,579 --> 01:21:12,831 ♪ Boom, boom, boom, boom ♪ 1784 01:21:12,914 --> 01:21:14,916 ♪ I wanna go to -- ♪ [ Both laugh ] 1785 01:21:14,958 --> 01:21:17,502 ♪ I want to go Delta Zeta... dun, dun, dun ♪ 1786 01:21:17,585 --> 01:21:18,795 It was something like that. 1787 01:21:18,878 --> 01:21:20,088 It was -- ♪ Boom, boom, boom, boom ♪ 1788 01:21:20,171 --> 01:21:24,592 -Zeta Tau Alpha. -Yup. They're huge. 1789 01:21:24,634 --> 01:21:26,428 And that's Sigma Kappa. 1790 01:21:26,511 --> 01:21:30,807 ♪♪ 1791 01:21:30,849 --> 01:21:32,308 -[ Sighs ] 1792 01:21:32,350 --> 01:21:34,686 I should have did this last night. 1793 01:21:34,769 --> 01:21:36,354 -Rachel, what's the triangle mean? 1794 01:21:36,438 --> 01:21:42,902 -The triangle is Delta and the Alpha... 1795 01:21:42,986 --> 01:21:44,404 Gamma Delta. 1796 01:21:44,487 --> 01:21:45,989 -Yeah. AGD. 1797 01:21:46,031 --> 01:21:48,992 -We're going to need, like, a whole alphabet. 1798 01:21:49,034 --> 01:21:51,327 I'm gonna carry it around with me. 1799 01:21:51,411 --> 01:21:53,663 -I found it. 1800 01:21:53,705 --> 01:21:58,376 Yes, Zaya. This one goes with that. 1801 01:21:58,460 --> 01:22:00,712 -There's a grand piano. Like, right? 1802 01:22:00,795 --> 01:22:03,882 -Yeah. So, like, the stairs are going up on either sides. 1803 01:22:03,965 --> 01:22:05,675 It's actually really pretty. 1804 01:22:05,759 --> 01:22:07,552 [ Indistinct whispering ] 1805 01:22:07,635 --> 01:22:11,348 -So I just have a couple of thoughts regarding 1806 01:22:11,431 --> 01:22:15,018 this supposed HBO Max documentary 1807 01:22:15,101 --> 01:22:16,895 on Bama Rush that's... 1808 01:22:16,978 --> 01:22:20,690 -Hulu or HBO Max, whatever it is, like, TV shows. 1809 01:22:20,732 --> 01:22:24,027 -Okay, you guys, we have more tea coming through about 1810 01:22:24,069 --> 01:22:26,613 is someone filming Rush this year? 1811 01:22:26,696 --> 01:22:28,114 -So, Bama Rush update. 1812 01:22:28,198 --> 01:22:30,700 I guess we'll address the elephant in the room real quick. 1813 01:22:30,742 --> 01:22:32,077 -So I've got to bring it to you guys, 1814 01:22:32,160 --> 01:22:33,703 but I have gotten a couple of reports 1815 01:22:33,787 --> 01:22:35,914 going back to potential people 1816 01:22:35,997 --> 01:22:38,208 or a handful of PNMs being miked up. 1817 01:22:38,249 --> 01:22:41,211 -Not to be dramatic, but this HBO special 1818 01:22:41,294 --> 01:22:43,755 could be the end of Greek life as we know it. 1819 01:22:43,838 --> 01:22:46,299 -The rumor on TikTok is that they were 1820 01:22:46,383 --> 01:22:49,928 wearing microphones in bracelets. 1821 01:22:50,011 --> 01:22:57,018 ♪♪ 1822 01:22:58,478 --> 01:23:05,485 ♪♪ 1823 01:23:05,485 --> 01:23:06,569 -Okay. 1824 01:23:06,653 --> 01:23:10,782 All the rumors are flying around here at Bama 1825 01:23:10,865 --> 01:23:12,450 about HBO or Netflix. 1826 01:23:12,534 --> 01:23:18,248 Supposedly, it's HBO that has about 20 girls they're paying, 1827 01:23:18,331 --> 01:23:22,127 and the girls will be miked up going through Rush. 1828 01:23:22,210 --> 01:23:23,753 I don't understand. 1829 01:23:23,795 --> 01:23:26,423 They're just going to have audio, if this is true. 1830 01:23:26,464 --> 01:23:30,677 They're not gonna have any visual recordings. 1831 01:23:30,760 --> 01:23:33,096 Um. 1832 01:23:33,138 --> 01:23:36,641 I don't get it. I'm quite puzzled. 1833 01:23:36,725 --> 01:23:40,603 What do they think they're going to gain by recording girls 1834 01:23:40,645 --> 01:23:41,938 going through Rush? 1835 01:23:42,022 --> 01:23:43,606 They haven't went up against this college yet, 1836 01:23:43,690 --> 01:23:46,109 and I'm telling you, you don't want to go up against 1837 01:23:46,151 --> 01:23:47,610 the University of Alabama. 1838 01:23:47,694 --> 01:23:51,364 I am not -- I'm here working. I'm a fraternity mom. 1839 01:23:51,448 --> 01:23:54,451 I wouldn't go up against the University of Alabama. 1840 01:23:54,492 --> 01:23:59,289 No way. They call them The Machine for a reason. 1841 01:23:59,330 --> 01:24:02,375 I wouldn't go up against the University of Alabama. 1842 01:24:02,459 --> 01:24:07,130 No way. They call them The Machine for a reason. 1843 01:24:07,172 --> 01:24:09,966 [ Indistinct whispering ] 1844 01:24:10,008 --> 01:24:17,015 ♪♪ 1845 01:24:19,392 --> 01:24:26,399 ♪♪ 1846 01:24:28,401 --> 01:24:32,405 -This is a rumor that started on social media 1847 01:24:32,489 --> 01:24:39,496 that has led to an article in The New York Times 1848 01:24:40,038 --> 01:24:46,711 that my film that you are watching right now 1849 01:24:46,795 --> 01:24:51,800 miked 20 potential new members 1850 01:24:51,841 --> 01:24:58,848 to record what goes on inside the walls of a sorority house. 1851 01:24:58,932 --> 01:25:02,435 Anyone who makes a movie -- I'm going to wait for sound. 1852 01:25:02,519 --> 01:25:06,022 See, the air conditioner, for example, 1853 01:25:06,106 --> 01:25:08,108 is going to interfere with our sound. 1854 01:25:08,191 --> 01:25:10,235 So we're going to hold. 1855 01:25:10,318 --> 01:25:12,195 [ Air conditioner whirring ] 1856 01:25:12,278 --> 01:25:15,990 If an air conditioner is going to interrupt 1857 01:25:16,074 --> 01:25:20,203 the quality of sound for this film, 1858 01:25:20,245 --> 01:25:24,040 putting microphones on girls in houses 1859 01:25:24,124 --> 01:25:28,503 where they're all screaming to hear each other 1860 01:25:28,545 --> 01:25:30,463 is also [Chuckling] not gonna work. 1861 01:25:30,547 --> 01:25:32,257 Just... 1862 01:25:32,340 --> 01:25:34,342 This is what we're dealing with. 1863 01:25:34,384 --> 01:25:36,678 And not only is there a New York Times article 1864 01:25:36,761 --> 01:25:37,929 about this idea, 1865 01:25:38,013 --> 01:25:40,724 later in the day, we received a letter 1866 01:25:40,807 --> 01:25:43,560 from the president of the University of Alabama, 1867 01:25:43,643 --> 01:25:47,897 and he CC'd me and basically the Feds. 1868 01:25:47,981 --> 01:25:54,988 ♪♪ 1869 01:25:56,322 --> 01:26:00,076 But who started the rumor? That's what I'm curious about. 1870 01:26:00,160 --> 01:26:03,621 These accounts don't even look real. 1871 01:26:03,705 --> 01:26:07,208 -Another rumor that goes along with all of this 1872 01:26:07,250 --> 01:26:13,381 is that a PNM has already been disqualified. 1873 01:26:13,423 --> 01:26:16,885 -[ Crying ] I kept tucking it, because -- 1874 01:26:16,926 --> 01:26:18,261 -This girl was rushing. 1875 01:26:18,345 --> 01:26:20,138 They caught her with a black hair tie 1876 01:26:20,221 --> 01:26:21,431 tied around her T-shirt. 1877 01:26:21,473 --> 01:26:23,516 She got kicked out of Rush 1878 01:26:23,600 --> 01:26:26,936 because they thought it was a microphone. 1879 01:26:26,978 --> 01:26:28,063 ♪♪ 1880 01:26:28,104 --> 01:26:33,401 We've never met this girl, ever. 1881 01:26:33,443 --> 01:26:36,446 -When the execs pulled me over, I immediately knew 1882 01:26:36,488 --> 01:26:38,365 that that could be the reason that they pulled me. 1883 01:26:38,448 --> 01:26:39,949 So I immediately showed them 1884 01:26:39,991 --> 01:26:42,452 and they said that they weren't "at liberty to check me" 1885 01:26:42,535 --> 01:26:44,662 or they weren't "at liberty" to look at anything. 1886 01:26:44,746 --> 01:26:47,123 So they said basically this was a final decision made 1887 01:26:47,207 --> 01:26:50,460 before I even had any chance to say anything. 1888 01:26:50,543 --> 01:26:52,420 And I called the dean of students, 1889 01:26:52,462 --> 01:26:55,840 and I called the -- Ambassador of Panhellenic, 1890 01:26:55,924 --> 01:26:58,301 and they basically said there was nothing I could do 1891 01:26:58,343 --> 01:26:59,844 and that it was a final decision. 1892 01:26:59,928 --> 01:27:02,681 ...little black thing, so I kept tucking it because... 1893 01:27:02,764 --> 01:27:09,771 ♪♪ 1894 01:27:10,480 --> 01:27:12,649 [ Indistinct whispering ] 1895 01:27:14,609 --> 01:27:18,405 -You haven't lived until you are waiting for a text message 1896 01:27:18,488 --> 01:27:20,824 from an 18-year-old girl. 1897 01:27:23,243 --> 01:27:25,120 We lost Shelby. 1898 01:27:25,203 --> 01:27:32,168 ♪♪ 1899 01:27:34,504 --> 01:27:36,423 -It strikes me as being very Southern, 1900 01:27:36,506 --> 01:27:40,301 because we have a long history of silence. 1901 01:27:40,343 --> 01:27:43,388 What's was the first rule of The Machine? 1902 01:27:43,471 --> 01:27:45,765 "What is known is kept secret." 1903 01:27:45,849 --> 01:27:47,350 No talking to the media. 1904 01:27:47,392 --> 01:27:48,852 I could probably reach too deep 1905 01:27:48,893 --> 01:27:51,688 and say that you probably represent the carpetbaggers 1906 01:27:51,730 --> 01:27:55,025 coming down to teach us what's right and wrong. 1907 01:27:55,108 --> 01:28:00,363 ♪♪ 1908 01:28:00,447 --> 01:28:02,907 -[ Sniffles ] 1909 01:28:02,991 --> 01:28:05,452 [ Sighs ] 1910 01:28:06,911 --> 01:28:11,583 I think they believe that I'm trying to ruin their tradition. 1911 01:28:11,666 --> 01:28:12,917 ♪♪ 1912 01:28:13,001 --> 01:28:14,377 And I think there's, like, 1913 01:28:14,419 --> 01:28:16,504 really good things about your traditions here, 1914 01:28:16,546 --> 01:28:18,214 and I think there's really toxic things 1915 01:28:18,298 --> 01:28:19,799 about your traditions here 1916 01:28:19,883 --> 01:28:23,762 and really confusing things about the traditions here. 1917 01:28:23,845 --> 01:28:25,764 ♪♪ 1918 01:28:25,847 --> 01:28:29,976 But I came into this like, literally, Roll Tide. 1919 01:28:30,060 --> 01:28:34,230 Now that this New York Times article has named me, 1920 01:28:34,272 --> 01:28:35,732 I'm really paranoid. 1921 01:28:35,815 --> 01:28:38,735 Like, everywhere I go, I'm looking over my shoulder. 1922 01:28:38,818 --> 01:28:42,197 Our producers are requiring that we hire a security detail 1923 01:28:42,280 --> 01:28:44,491 to be with the film's crew at all times, 1924 01:28:44,574 --> 01:28:46,368 because they're actually concerned 1925 01:28:46,409 --> 01:28:48,745 for our physical safety at this point. 1926 01:28:48,787 --> 01:28:51,539 Because if you Google "Rachel Fleit," 1927 01:28:51,581 --> 01:28:54,626 the first image that comes up is of a bald girl, 1928 01:28:54,709 --> 01:28:57,545 and I haven't seen another bald girl in Tuscaloosa 1929 01:28:57,587 --> 01:29:00,340 since I started filming here a year ago. 1930 01:29:00,423 --> 01:29:03,593 And if I'm going to keep filming with my subjects, 1931 01:29:03,635 --> 01:29:05,679 I don't know what to do. 1932 01:29:05,762 --> 01:29:12,769 ♪♪ 1933 01:29:13,144 --> 01:29:20,110 ♪♪ 1934 01:29:20,735 --> 01:29:27,492 ♪♪ 1935 01:29:27,575 --> 01:29:29,828 Do I need more curls? 1936 01:29:29,911 --> 01:29:36,918 ♪♪ 1937 01:29:39,838 --> 01:29:41,131 "This is insane. 1938 01:29:41,172 --> 01:29:44,467 This literally can't be real. Stop feeding into it." 1939 01:29:44,551 --> 01:29:46,302 What do you feel like when you see that? 1940 01:29:46,344 --> 01:29:50,473 -I don't know why they are... 1941 01:29:50,557 --> 01:29:52,851 so obsessed with it. 1942 01:29:54,519 --> 01:29:57,147 -The mike -- well, if we have mikes in there, 1943 01:29:57,188 --> 01:29:58,565 that would pick up nothing. 1944 01:29:58,648 --> 01:30:01,735 Plus, the conversations, for the most part, 1945 01:30:01,818 --> 01:30:05,697 really are, like, not that interesting. 1946 01:30:06,990 --> 01:30:09,492 What I'm looking most for is, like, not all, 1947 01:30:09,576 --> 01:30:10,952 like, the TikTok stuff. 1948 01:30:10,994 --> 01:30:14,414 And at the end of the day, I want best friends, 1949 01:30:14,497 --> 01:30:15,749 and I want to have fun, 1950 01:30:15,832 --> 01:30:18,835 like, literally helping the community, 1951 01:30:18,877 --> 01:30:20,587 which is what people don't see, like, 1952 01:30:20,670 --> 01:30:23,506 people don't see all of the good that sororities do. 1953 01:30:23,548 --> 01:30:28,053 It's not just Instagram posts or, like, pretty girls. 1954 01:30:28,136 --> 01:30:29,429 ♪♪ 1955 01:30:29,512 --> 01:30:31,014 Seven houses tomorrow, 1956 01:30:31,097 --> 01:30:34,517 and then I have two houses on the next day after that, 1957 01:30:34,559 --> 01:30:36,019 and then I have one house today. 1958 01:30:36,061 --> 01:30:38,355 So I got ten houses back. 1959 01:30:38,396 --> 01:30:43,651 -Everyone has, like, told me about how extra the girls are, 1960 01:30:43,693 --> 01:30:45,862 like, in the door song and stuff. 1961 01:30:45,904 --> 01:30:49,616 And when I saw that, I was like, what in the world? 1962 01:30:49,699 --> 01:30:52,410 Like, I was sitting there, like, laughing. 1963 01:30:52,494 --> 01:30:54,537 I was like... 1964 01:30:54,621 --> 01:30:58,833 [ Chanting, singing ] 1965 01:30:58,917 --> 01:31:01,378 ♪♪ 1966 01:31:01,461 --> 01:31:02,921 -[ Chuckles ] 1967 01:31:03,004 --> 01:31:07,550 I was like...I was like, dude, can I really do that? 1968 01:31:07,634 --> 01:31:10,845 'Cause I was like, I don't know. 1969 01:31:10,887 --> 01:31:17,769 I was talking at both houses and my lip would get stuck, 1970 01:31:17,852 --> 01:31:21,231 like, to my teeth because there is no spit in my mouth 1971 01:31:21,314 --> 01:31:23,024 because I was talking so much. 1972 01:31:23,066 --> 01:31:24,859 'Cause they give you, like, these little water bottles, 1973 01:31:24,901 --> 01:31:26,486 and I heard if you drink them, 1974 01:31:26,569 --> 01:31:28,863 that it'll, like, give you bad luck 1975 01:31:28,905 --> 01:31:31,157 for the rest of the, like, time, 1976 01:31:31,241 --> 01:31:34,661 so you might get dropped or something bad will happen. 1977 01:31:34,744 --> 01:31:36,913 So I just suffered. 1978 01:31:36,955 --> 01:31:40,041 ♪♪ 1979 01:31:40,083 --> 01:31:42,752 -I really think you're going to get your top seven. 1980 01:31:42,836 --> 01:31:44,170 -Okay. -I really think, 1981 01:31:44,254 --> 01:31:46,297 and then Pref, it all depends 1982 01:31:46,381 --> 01:31:48,258 on, like, what they're thinking. 1983 01:31:48,341 --> 01:31:55,348 ♪♪ 1984 01:31:57,058 --> 01:31:59,853 -I realize that, since being a sophomore now, 1985 01:31:59,936 --> 01:32:03,189 you don't have to be in a sorority to enjoy your life. 1986 01:32:03,273 --> 01:32:05,859 It's just me, personally, I don't think I can do it, 1987 01:32:05,942 --> 01:32:08,820 but I know other girls that love it. 1988 01:32:08,903 --> 01:32:12,782 ♪♪ 1989 01:32:12,824 --> 01:32:16,786 And when I withdrew yesterday, 1990 01:32:16,828 --> 01:32:20,790 with my Rho Chi, she was so, like, supportive. 1991 01:32:20,874 --> 01:32:23,543 She just kept telling me how she was so proud 1992 01:32:23,626 --> 01:32:26,796 that I had, like, an open mindset. 1993 01:32:26,838 --> 01:32:28,673 ♪♪ 1994 01:32:28,757 --> 01:32:31,384 In Atlanta, all the dresses looked so boring. 1995 01:32:31,468 --> 01:32:33,762 -It wasn't your style. -Yeah. 1996 01:32:33,803 --> 01:32:37,974 It felt like I was being, like, forced to like them, too. 1997 01:32:38,016 --> 01:32:39,351 It was annoying. 1998 01:32:39,434 --> 01:32:41,811 -Did you tell Trisha yet? 1999 01:32:41,853 --> 01:32:44,898 -Yeah. -What'd she say? 2000 01:32:44,981 --> 01:32:47,192 -Well, she just texted and said, 2001 01:32:47,275 --> 01:32:51,071 "Okay, I'm here if you need me. I'm always in your corner." 2002 01:32:51,154 --> 01:32:53,656 ♪♪ 2003 01:32:53,698 --> 01:32:56,326 I don't really care about disappointing anyone. 2004 01:32:56,368 --> 01:33:03,375 ♪♪ 2005 01:33:04,000 --> 01:33:10,757 ♪♪ 2006 01:33:10,840 --> 01:33:16,763 -Highlight of my day was going to AD Pi, 2007 01:33:16,846 --> 01:33:20,433 and we're just talking about making genuine conversations 2008 01:33:20,517 --> 01:33:23,186 with people and genuine friends. 2009 01:33:23,228 --> 01:33:25,855 Throughout this, like, journey, like, I've changed so much. 2010 01:33:25,897 --> 01:33:28,525 I really have, like, been finding myself as a person. 2011 01:33:28,566 --> 01:33:32,404 This feels more at home than I've ever felt in a long time. 2012 01:33:32,487 --> 01:33:34,197 ♪♪ 2013 01:33:34,239 --> 01:33:39,536 You can still feel pain and you can still be angry or sad 2014 01:33:39,619 --> 01:33:41,705 at what's been done to you, 2015 01:33:41,746 --> 01:33:45,166 and that doesn't have to go away, 2016 01:33:45,208 --> 01:33:47,502 but knowing that there's, like, a hope 2017 01:33:47,544 --> 01:33:50,880 and there's a plan and that... 2018 01:33:50,964 --> 01:33:53,842 all of the power is within you 2019 01:33:53,925 --> 01:33:57,846 and God, like, really just has given me 2020 01:33:57,929 --> 01:34:00,557 so much, like, will to live. 2021 01:34:00,640 --> 01:34:03,685 ♪♪ 2022 01:34:03,727 --> 01:34:06,980 Rush is about being yourself in these houses, 2023 01:34:07,063 --> 01:34:09,024 and I think that whatever house I choose, 2024 01:34:09,065 --> 01:34:12,360 I might not realize why I chose it in the moment, 2025 01:34:12,402 --> 01:34:14,112 or I might not realize 2026 01:34:14,195 --> 01:34:16,906 the reason for everything right away, 2027 01:34:16,948 --> 01:34:19,325 but one day, it will all click. 2028 01:34:19,409 --> 01:34:24,330 ♪♪ 2029 01:34:24,414 --> 01:34:31,421 ♪♪ 2030 01:34:32,339 --> 01:34:39,346 ♪♪ 2031 01:34:40,305 --> 01:34:47,270 ♪♪ 2032 01:34:48,480 --> 01:34:50,899 -10...9.... 2033 01:34:50,940 --> 01:34:53,109 8...7... 2034 01:34:53,193 --> 01:34:57,655 -6, 5, 4, 3... 2035 01:34:57,739 --> 01:35:00,533 2...1... 2036 01:35:00,617 --> 01:35:05,789 [ Screaming ] 2037 01:35:05,830 --> 01:35:07,624 [ All screaming ] 2038 01:35:07,665 --> 01:35:09,668 -Yes! 2039 01:35:09,751 --> 01:35:12,420 [ Indistinct shouting ] 2040 01:35:12,504 --> 01:35:18,968 ♪♪ 2041 01:35:19,010 --> 01:35:25,433 ♪♪ 2042 01:35:25,517 --> 01:35:32,148 ♪♪ 2043 01:35:32,190 --> 01:35:38,405 ♪♪ 2044 01:35:38,488 --> 01:35:41,074 -On Bid Day, all I could think about was home. 2045 01:35:41,157 --> 01:35:43,576 So I was just freaking out and crying 2046 01:35:43,660 --> 01:35:45,078 and going back to like 2047 01:35:45,161 --> 01:35:49,249 a place of self-hatred and, like, not knowing who I am. 2048 01:35:49,332 --> 01:35:53,628 And then -- this sounds so, like, weird and fake and stupid, 2049 01:35:53,670 --> 01:35:58,466 but, like, I -- literally all I could think about was AD Pi 2050 01:35:58,550 --> 01:36:00,343 and the girl, McKenna, 2051 01:36:00,427 --> 01:36:03,888 that is now, like, she was my Bid Day Big. 2052 01:36:03,972 --> 01:36:05,348 Like, she was all I could think about, 2053 01:36:05,390 --> 01:36:08,309 and I just -- she brought me this sense of hope 2054 01:36:08,351 --> 01:36:11,187 and the sense that I could, like, be myself 2055 01:36:11,229 --> 01:36:14,983 and that I finally have not just a home, 2056 01:36:15,066 --> 01:36:17,318 but a place where I belong. 2057 01:36:17,402 --> 01:36:20,947 ♪♪ 2058 01:36:21,031 --> 01:36:23,950 But now I'm here, and it's so freeing. 2059 01:36:24,034 --> 01:36:27,120 And I feel just so, like, not only at peace, 2060 01:36:27,203 --> 01:36:30,540 but, like, hopeful for the future. 2061 01:36:30,582 --> 01:36:35,045 ♪♪ 2062 01:36:35,128 --> 01:36:39,215 -I worry about the -- the reception of all of this 2063 01:36:39,257 --> 01:36:42,302 by my sorority sisters, because I think a lot of them 2064 01:36:42,385 --> 01:36:45,305 are going to understand it as like a betrayal. 2065 01:36:45,388 --> 01:36:46,556 It's like, no. 2066 01:36:46,639 --> 01:36:49,225 But I also want these organizations 2067 01:36:49,309 --> 01:36:51,269 to be less concerned with tradition 2068 01:36:51,353 --> 01:36:55,023 and more concerned with the well-being 2069 01:36:55,065 --> 01:36:57,817 and the individuality of their members. 2070 01:36:57,901 --> 01:37:00,153 I would like to join an alumna chapter, 2071 01:37:00,236 --> 01:37:02,447 if they'll have me after this. 2072 01:37:02,530 --> 01:37:04,866 [ Chuckles ] I would like to. 2073 01:37:04,908 --> 01:37:08,203 Like, the people that I met in my sorority experience 2074 01:37:08,244 --> 01:37:11,373 are just the best people I've met in my entire life. 2075 01:37:11,456 --> 01:37:18,421 ♪♪ 2076 01:37:21,132 --> 01:37:28,139 ♪♪ 2077 01:37:30,642 --> 01:37:37,649 ♪♪ 2078 01:37:40,318 --> 01:37:47,325 ♪♪ 2079 01:37:49,828 --> 01:37:51,621 -It's good to be back. 2080 01:37:51,663 --> 01:37:55,792 ♪♪ 2081 01:37:55,875 --> 01:37:58,586 How do you think you've changed since we've met? 2082 01:37:58,628 --> 01:37:59,963 -Everything about me has changed. 2083 01:38:00,005 --> 01:38:01,297 Like, my outlook on life, 2084 01:38:01,339 --> 01:38:04,134 my outlook on this school, on Greek life. 2085 01:38:04,217 --> 01:38:07,887 Like, everything. I've grown up for sure. 2086 01:38:07,971 --> 01:38:09,472 My mom used to have this photo of me 2087 01:38:09,556 --> 01:38:11,933 and I was like, throwing up a sorority sign. 2088 01:38:11,975 --> 01:38:14,310 I was like, "This is the sorority I'm going to be in." 2089 01:38:14,352 --> 01:38:17,313 When I was younger, that's, like, all I wanted to do. 2090 01:38:17,355 --> 01:38:19,399 But I just want to be my own person. 2091 01:38:19,482 --> 01:38:22,777 And I feel like they all try to mold us to be, like, one person. 2092 01:38:22,861 --> 01:38:25,697 ♪♪ 2093 01:38:25,780 --> 01:38:26,990 -What do you think now, 2094 01:38:27,073 --> 01:38:29,784 being on the other side of Rush? 2095 01:38:29,868 --> 01:38:31,870 -Well, I think it... 2096 01:38:31,953 --> 01:38:33,913 Like, when you're born, 2097 01:38:33,997 --> 01:38:37,417 you automatically are wanting to belong, 2098 01:38:37,500 --> 01:38:40,003 'cause you're just sitting there, crying, 2099 01:38:40,086 --> 01:38:42,130 you're wanting, like, comfort, 2100 01:38:42,172 --> 01:38:46,009 like, when you just got out of this womb to this scary life. 2101 01:38:46,092 --> 01:38:48,094 So what else are you supposed to do? 2102 01:38:48,178 --> 01:38:52,015 You're always going to need to want something. 2103 01:38:52,057 --> 01:38:53,516 You're just going to sit there. 2104 01:38:53,558 --> 01:38:56,019 ♪♪ 2105 01:38:56,102 --> 01:38:58,688 -[ Laughing, screaming ] 2106 01:38:58,730 --> 01:39:02,901 -[ Screaming ] 2107 01:39:02,984 --> 01:39:06,696 [ Screaming continues ] 2108 01:39:06,738 --> 01:39:09,866 ♪♪ 2109 01:39:09,949 --> 01:39:12,035 -Seriously, we're making a memory. 2110 01:39:12,077 --> 01:39:13,953 -This is a -- This is a core memory. 2111 01:39:14,037 --> 01:39:16,915 -Core? -Yeah, co-o-o-re. 2112 01:39:16,998 --> 01:39:24,005 ♪♪ 2113 01:39:24,673 --> 01:39:32,263 ♪♪ 2114 01:39:33,682 --> 01:39:36,559 -♪ If you a ZTA at the University of Alabama ♪ 2115 01:39:36,601 --> 01:39:40,897 ♪ Please come to the stage for a roll call ♪ 2116 01:39:40,939 --> 01:39:42,482 ♪ Queens of the Row, check ♪ 2117 01:39:42,565 --> 01:39:44,401 ♪ Good grades on exams, check ♪ 2118 01:39:44,442 --> 01:39:46,111 ♪ You can't go a day, check ♪ 2119 01:39:46,194 --> 01:39:47,821 ♪ Without saying "ZLAM," check ♪ 2120 01:39:47,904 --> 01:39:49,781 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2121 01:39:49,864 --> 01:39:51,241 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2122 01:39:51,282 --> 01:39:52,951 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2123 01:39:53,034 --> 01:39:54,494 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? ♪ -♪ Yeah ♪ 2124 01:39:54,577 --> 01:39:56,538 -♪ Shout-out to Malik ♪ -♪ Yeah ♪ 2125 01:39:56,579 --> 01:39:58,164 -♪ Shout-out Momma Deb ♪ -♪ Yeah ♪ 2126 01:39:58,248 --> 01:39:59,958 -♪ Hottest on the Row ♪ -♪ Yeah ♪ 2127 01:40:00,041 --> 01:40:01,751 -♪ Top house every year ♪ -♪ Yeah ♪ 2128 01:40:01,835 --> 01:40:03,420 -♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2129 01:40:03,503 --> 01:40:05,171 -♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2130 01:40:05,255 --> 01:40:06,923 -♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2131 01:40:07,007 --> 01:40:08,508 -♪ Where them ZTAs at? ♪ 2132 01:40:08,591 --> 01:40:11,302 ♪ If you a ZTA at the University of Alabama ♪ 2133 01:40:11,386 --> 01:40:15,849 ♪ Please come to the stage for a roll call ♪ 2134 01:40:15,932 --> 01:40:17,434 -♪ Queens of the Row, check ♪ 2135 01:40:17,517 --> 01:40:19,185 ♪ Good grades on exams, check ♪ 2136 01:40:19,269 --> 01:40:20,854 ♪ You can't go a day, check ♪ 2137 01:40:20,937 --> 01:40:22,814 ♪ Without saying "ZLAM," check ♪ 2138 01:40:22,897 --> 01:40:24,274 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2139 01:40:24,357 --> 01:40:25,984 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2140 01:40:26,067 --> 01:40:27,736 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2141 01:40:27,777 --> 01:40:29,237 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? ♪ 2142 01:40:29,279 --> 01:40:31,823 ♪ Zeta Tau Alpha, throw your crowns up, hey ♪ 2143 01:40:31,906 --> 01:40:36,286 ♪ She in Zeta Tau Alpha, throw your crowns up, hey ♪ 2144 01:40:36,327 --> 01:40:38,288 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2145 01:40:38,329 --> 01:40:40,123 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2146 01:40:40,165 --> 01:40:41,833 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? Yeah ♪ 2147 01:40:41,916 --> 01:40:43,168 ♪ Where them ZTAs at? ♪ 2148 01:40:43,251 --> 01:40:46,838 -OOTD! Okay, we... we both have 2149 01:40:46,921 --> 01:40:49,799 these cute Zeta shirts from Zeta. 2150 01:40:49,841 --> 01:40:54,763 ♪♪ 2151 01:40:54,846 --> 01:40:56,514 [ Music fades ]