1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:33,760 --> 00:00:36,880 NETFLIX PRESENTS 4 00:00:55,080 --> 00:00:56,760 All of these are memories. 5 00:00:58,920 --> 00:01:01,360 {\an8}-Oh shit, can we fix this? -Okay, I know how to do this. 6 00:01:01,960 --> 00:01:02,920 {\an8}No. 7 00:01:03,520 --> 00:01:05,080 {\an8}You're doing really well. 8 00:01:06,360 --> 00:01:10,400 {\an8}Small, stupid and good memories. 9 00:01:11,200 --> 00:01:14,160 {\an8}Wait, I'm in the middle of a very interesting thought. 10 00:01:17,000 --> 00:01:17,880 {\an8}Okay. 11 00:01:20,720 --> 00:01:22,120 {\an8}We're going to Montreal! 12 00:01:23,880 --> 00:01:25,960 {\an8}Oui! Très exciting. 13 00:01:27,520 --> 00:01:29,600 {\an8}Our relationship is full of them. 14 00:01:33,440 --> 00:01:35,120 {\an8}The special occasions. 15 00:01:37,040 --> 00:01:39,320 {\an8}Or in everyday stuff. 16 00:01:41,480 --> 00:01:42,960 {\an8}Doing fun things together. 17 00:01:43,040 --> 00:01:47,880 {\an8}This has been restored, but it's really still legit, the same. 18 00:01:49,120 --> 00:01:50,480 {\an8}This one is really cool too. 19 00:01:51,040 --> 00:01:54,040 {\an8}Trying to make each other enthusiastic about what you find cool. 20 00:01:54,120 --> 00:01:56,160 {\an8}-No way. -Yes, he cut in it and everything. 21 00:01:56,240 --> 00:01:57,600 {\an8}Give me more. 22 00:01:57,680 --> 00:02:02,760 {\an8}Long nights with friends, in bars, with too much beer. 23 00:02:04,880 --> 00:02:06,880 {\an8}-Oh, sweetie. -Anne. 24 00:02:07,640 --> 00:02:08,640 {\an8}Sorry. 25 00:02:09,240 --> 00:02:11,040 {\an8}Sundays with hangovers. 26 00:02:11,680 --> 00:02:13,040 {\an8}That was very fun. 27 00:02:14,680 --> 00:02:16,320 {\an8}Making big announcements. 28 00:02:16,400 --> 00:02:19,120 {\an8}That you're starting something new together. 29 00:02:19,200 --> 00:02:20,240 {\an8}Will you say it? 30 00:02:21,960 --> 00:02:24,040 {\an8}-Dad, Mom. -Yes? 31 00:02:24,120 --> 00:02:26,600 {\an8}I've got news. It's something good. 32 00:02:27,720 --> 00:02:29,040 {\an8}I'm going to Montreal. 33 00:02:29,120 --> 00:02:30,360 {\an8}-Did you get the job? -Yes. 34 00:02:30,440 --> 00:02:32,360 {\an8}-Sure? -And Anne is coming. 35 00:02:32,440 --> 00:02:34,840 {\an8}Yes, I'm flying there a couple of months later. 36 00:02:34,920 --> 00:02:38,840 {\an8}-Really? -You've found love and a career. 37 00:02:41,240 --> 00:02:42,640 {\an8}I'm also proud of you. 38 00:02:46,600 --> 00:02:48,240 {\an8}And then persevere. 39 00:02:50,960 --> 00:02:52,680 {\an8}We'll be together in a couple of months. 40 00:02:54,520 --> 00:02:56,840 {\an8}But I'm going to miss you until then. 41 00:03:08,560 --> 00:03:10,360 {\an8}No matter how stressful that can be. 42 00:03:10,440 --> 00:03:11,800 {\an8}I love you! 43 00:03:13,720 --> 00:03:15,360 {\an8}I love you too! 44 00:03:23,040 --> 00:03:24,880 {\an8}Leave familiar places behind, 45 00:03:26,040 --> 00:03:27,920 {\an8}and make new memories. 46 00:03:31,800 --> 00:03:33,240 Change is just good. 47 00:03:38,160 --> 00:03:40,160 Anyway, back to the present. 48 00:04:11,600 --> 00:04:13,000 -Hi. -Hi, come on in. 49 00:04:13,080 --> 00:04:16,480 Yes, thank you for letting me have a look. 50 00:04:16,560 --> 00:04:19,440 It's nice to get a sense of the space, you know? 51 00:04:19,520 --> 00:04:20,560 Yes, definitely. 52 00:04:20,640 --> 00:04:22,280 -Can I… -Yes. Go ahead. 53 00:04:29,520 --> 00:04:30,360 Okay. 54 00:04:31,360 --> 00:04:34,360 Yep. There goes my lovely home. 55 00:04:34,440 --> 00:04:36,160 Wonderful, a new house like this. 56 00:04:38,240 --> 00:04:43,360 Hi, can I have three beers, three gin and tonics and a mojito, please? 57 00:04:43,440 --> 00:04:44,280 Yes. 58 00:05:00,800 --> 00:05:02,040 Hi, sweetie. 59 00:05:03,040 --> 00:05:04,040 Hi. 60 00:05:04,720 --> 00:05:08,280 -Do you want a beer too? -I could use one after today. 61 00:05:08,880 --> 00:05:11,800 What? What did you say? I can't hear you. 62 00:05:11,880 --> 00:05:13,200 Where are you? 63 00:05:13,920 --> 00:05:17,520 I can't understand you. Sorry, there's a lot of people here. 64 00:05:18,040 --> 00:05:19,560 -Never mind. -What? 65 00:05:20,080 --> 00:05:21,200 I'll call you later. 66 00:05:21,720 --> 00:05:25,240 I… Okay. Yes. Right, love you. 67 00:05:31,080 --> 00:05:35,760 SORRY, I REALLY COULDN'T HEAR YOU! LOVE YOU! 68 00:05:35,840 --> 00:05:39,600 -Hi, can we have two more Salmaris? -Oh no, Max. 69 00:05:39,680 --> 00:05:41,600 Yes, you're drinking way too slowly. 70 00:05:41,680 --> 00:05:44,920 While you're still in Amsterdam, we're drinking at the Amsterdam pace. 71 00:05:45,000 --> 00:05:48,640 -I have to get up really early tomorrow. -Cut it out, will you? Thanks. 72 00:05:49,640 --> 00:05:51,760 There, cheers and thanks. 73 00:05:52,480 --> 00:05:53,520 -Yes. -Cheers. 74 00:05:54,280 --> 00:05:56,400 Guys, come watch this, this is fucking awesome. 75 00:05:56,920 --> 00:06:00,640 Huh? Jip, hello. Take some. 76 00:06:44,240 --> 00:06:45,560 Oh my God! 77 00:06:56,760 --> 00:06:57,960 Who is that? 78 00:07:04,880 --> 00:07:06,400 -That's Lou. -Who? 79 00:07:06,480 --> 00:07:07,360 Lou! 80 00:07:35,000 --> 00:07:38,200 Close your mouth. You're drooling. 81 00:07:41,240 --> 00:07:42,200 Hot, right? 82 00:07:42,720 --> 00:07:44,000 -Hot! -Yeah. 83 00:08:00,400 --> 00:08:02,000 Yes. I really want to wear that. 84 00:08:02,080 --> 00:08:03,240 Come here for a second. 85 00:08:03,880 --> 00:08:05,600 Hey, are you coming with me? 86 00:08:05,680 --> 00:08:07,600 -Where to? -To Jip's. 87 00:08:13,240 --> 00:08:16,720 Guys. Come on. Come. Are you coming? 88 00:08:16,800 --> 00:08:18,240 -Where to? -To Jip's. 89 00:08:18,320 --> 00:08:22,360 No, I have a very important meeting with my publisher tomorrow. 90 00:08:22,440 --> 00:08:24,400 Then you have plenty of time. 91 00:08:24,480 --> 00:08:26,000 No. 92 00:08:26,080 --> 00:08:28,040 -Baby! -Are you all going? 93 00:08:32,560 --> 00:08:36,360 -What in God's name are you doing? -French, or I'll lose my day streak. 94 00:08:37,320 --> 00:08:41,160 Darling, Canadian French is something completely different from French French. 95 00:08:41,240 --> 00:08:44,600 Yes, French is French. I don't have money for expensive language courses. 96 00:08:44,680 --> 00:08:47,880 Yeah, says the girl who just spent 70 bucks on beer. 97 00:08:48,520 --> 00:08:51,880 Okay, guys, off to Jip's at full trot. 98 00:08:53,200 --> 00:08:55,600 And if I want to hear bleating, I'll buy a goat. 99 00:09:05,280 --> 00:09:06,400 Yes, got it! 100 00:09:13,560 --> 00:09:16,200 THE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY TITS 101 00:09:19,080 --> 00:09:20,800 THAT'S NOT HOW IT SHOULD GO 102 00:09:20,880 --> 00:09:22,960 Soon you'll be hanging here too, An. 103 00:09:25,800 --> 00:09:29,400 Yeah, there are some truly very beautiful pieces in here. 104 00:09:29,480 --> 00:09:31,640 And sharp too. 105 00:09:32,160 --> 00:09:36,720 But I have the feeling that you lost your way a little bit. 106 00:09:40,120 --> 00:09:41,800 What do you mean? 107 00:09:41,880 --> 00:09:47,520 Well, what I mean is that when you sent us those first chapters back then, 108 00:09:47,600 --> 00:09:49,200 we were truly very enthusiastic… 109 00:09:49,280 --> 00:09:50,160 Yes. 110 00:09:50,240 --> 00:09:53,760 …and impressed with the personal and authentic nature of it, 111 00:09:53,840 --> 00:09:56,520 but you seem to have lost that a bit on the way. 112 00:09:56,600 --> 00:10:00,960 It has--sorry--become a bit uninteresting. 113 00:10:01,680 --> 00:10:04,760 It also reads as if you lost yourself a bit, is that correct? 114 00:10:06,680 --> 00:10:08,600 Well… 115 00:10:09,880 --> 00:10:12,200 Well, no, I don't actually think so. 116 00:10:16,520 --> 00:10:18,480 But the character is also searching, right? 117 00:10:18,560 --> 00:10:20,880 Yes, I get that and that is fine, 118 00:10:20,960 --> 00:10:23,040 but in its current state, we cannot publish it. 119 00:10:24,240 --> 00:10:28,200 And also, I don't think it's a bad idea to make some major improvements, right? 120 00:10:28,760 --> 00:10:31,320 I mean, the book is already in our catalog. 121 00:10:31,400 --> 00:10:35,040 Sorry, but the searching theme of the book is fine, isn't it? 122 00:10:36,000 --> 00:10:39,360 That is also part of… It's one of the characteristics of the main character. 123 00:10:39,440 --> 00:10:41,880 Yes, but your main character has no goal. 124 00:10:42,400 --> 00:10:46,000 I mean, she doesn't want to find out, it seems, what she is searching for. 125 00:10:46,800 --> 00:10:49,920 What does she want and how does she get there? 126 00:10:50,000 --> 00:10:52,160 And is she really the hero of the story? 127 00:10:53,440 --> 00:10:54,960 Such bullshit. 128 00:10:55,040 --> 00:10:55,920 Okay. 129 00:10:57,160 --> 00:10:58,080 But I… 130 00:11:00,320 --> 00:11:01,240 Okay. 131 00:11:01,840 --> 00:11:05,200 I know a very nice writing coach. I'll put you in touch with her. 132 00:11:05,280 --> 00:11:08,720 And I think it'd be good, Anne, for you to ask yourself, 133 00:11:09,880 --> 00:11:11,680 "What do I really want to say?" 134 00:11:11,760 --> 00:11:14,320 You need to start making some clear choices. 135 00:11:14,400 --> 00:11:18,280 So what do you, Anne Verbeek, have to tell the world? 136 00:11:38,960 --> 00:11:39,880 Hey, sweetie. 137 00:11:40,640 --> 00:11:41,920 Hey, sweetie. 138 00:11:42,440 --> 00:11:45,520 Oh shit, our timing hasn't been very good lately, has it? 139 00:11:46,160 --> 00:11:47,480 No, man, shit. 140 00:11:48,560 --> 00:11:51,320 What time is it there? Don't you have work in the morning? 141 00:11:51,840 --> 00:11:55,600 It is fucking early, but we landed a mega big contract, 142 00:11:55,680 --> 00:11:57,240 so we have the morning off. 143 00:11:57,320 --> 00:11:59,080 Cool, congrats. 144 00:11:59,160 --> 00:12:02,840 Thanks. By the way, I've finally fully decorated our home. 145 00:12:04,240 --> 00:12:06,640 Do you want to see it? See, the little kitchen. 146 00:12:07,400 --> 00:12:09,000 -Hi. -And so… 147 00:12:10,320 --> 00:12:11,320 This lamp! 148 00:12:12,000 --> 00:12:15,280 Do you remember it in that magazine, you know, of that Italian designer? 149 00:12:15,360 --> 00:12:19,840 I said to you back then, "This lamp is super expensive." 150 00:12:21,160 --> 00:12:23,080 -Hello. -Hello. 151 00:12:35,840 --> 00:12:36,960 Who was that? 152 00:12:38,080 --> 00:12:40,120 I'm just going to go to a quiet spot. 153 00:12:50,080 --> 00:12:55,200 Okay. Yeah, I originally wanted to tell you this tomorrow afternoon, 154 00:12:55,280 --> 00:12:56,280 my time, 155 00:12:56,360 --> 00:13:00,560 but, yeah, then this happens and now we're talking anyway, 156 00:13:00,640 --> 00:13:02,360 so I want to get it off my chest. 157 00:13:02,880 --> 00:13:06,120 I've started flirting with someone. 158 00:13:07,480 --> 00:13:09,840 And that was her just now. Zoey. 159 00:13:13,480 --> 00:13:14,440 That's very fast. 160 00:13:15,400 --> 00:13:16,320 An? 161 00:13:18,520 --> 00:13:19,920 Sorry, you froze. 162 00:13:21,680 --> 00:13:23,240 Where do you know her from? 163 00:13:23,320 --> 00:13:26,160 She's a friend of a colleague. 164 00:13:26,240 --> 00:13:27,120 Nice. 165 00:13:27,880 --> 00:13:28,720 Yes. 166 00:13:30,280 --> 00:13:33,400 Yes, no, yes, nice, she looks cute. 167 00:13:33,480 --> 00:13:36,000 -Quite a different type. -Yes. 168 00:13:37,720 --> 00:13:39,840 Hey, are you okay? 'Cause… 169 00:13:40,840 --> 00:13:43,240 If you don't feel comfortable, you know… 170 00:13:43,840 --> 00:13:46,040 I mean, you know what we agreed upon, right? 171 00:13:46,120 --> 00:13:47,320 Yes, no… 172 00:13:48,200 --> 00:13:52,200 …talk about it later. But in good time. 173 00:13:53,320 --> 00:13:56,440 Yes, that's fine. Yes. No, I'm completely fine. 174 00:14:03,240 --> 00:14:06,200 Just go… Sweetie, just go celebrate. Really, just go. 175 00:14:07,000 --> 00:14:08,160 Okay. 176 00:14:08,240 --> 00:14:10,920 An, I love you, right? 177 00:14:11,800 --> 00:14:13,400 You are my everything. 178 00:14:14,560 --> 00:14:15,880 I love you too. 179 00:14:20,480 --> 00:14:24,400 Okay. This is fine. 180 00:14:26,160 --> 00:14:27,400 This is our agreement. 181 00:14:39,600 --> 00:14:41,200 What?! 182 00:14:41,720 --> 00:14:45,480 Is that the big radio celesbian Jip? 183 00:14:45,560 --> 00:14:46,400 Yes! 184 00:14:47,560 --> 00:14:48,520 How are you? 185 00:14:49,960 --> 00:14:51,840 Yeah, well, stuff. 186 00:14:52,960 --> 00:14:54,320 We'll talk later. 187 00:14:54,400 --> 00:14:57,880 Sure? You know you can always talk to me about stuff, right? 188 00:14:58,600 --> 00:15:00,080 No, it's really okay. 189 00:15:00,160 --> 00:15:03,480 Hello! We're going to celebrate your success. 190 00:15:03,560 --> 00:15:06,680 -Yas. -Yas. How are you? 191 00:15:06,760 --> 00:15:09,000 Yeah, good. I'm peaking at the moment. 192 00:15:09,640 --> 00:15:11,640 I know another cishet woman. 193 00:15:11,720 --> 00:15:13,520 -Maybe you know her. -It's possible. 194 00:15:13,600 --> 00:15:15,880 It's fine as long as it's not in my face. 195 00:15:15,960 --> 00:15:18,120 Okay. Yes. I love you. 196 00:15:19,040 --> 00:15:20,960 Gay rights and stuff. Love is love. 197 00:15:21,040 --> 00:15:22,200 "Gay rights and stuff." 198 00:15:22,280 --> 00:15:24,840 -Yes, Daan, the true ally. -Well. 199 00:15:26,120 --> 00:15:30,800 Dear sweethearts, I want to toast to this amazing woman, 200 00:15:30,880 --> 00:15:35,240 my woman, because she is getting her own fucking radio show! 201 00:15:37,320 --> 00:15:38,200 Cheers! 202 00:15:38,280 --> 00:15:41,920 -Look each other in the eye. -Bad sex otherwise, yes. 203 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:43,080 Yes, we don't want that. 204 00:15:43,160 --> 00:15:46,960 Hey, but seriously, I hope you'll listen to all the fucking episodes, 205 00:15:47,040 --> 00:15:50,520 because I plan to become a fucking big platform for young artists, 206 00:15:50,600 --> 00:15:54,280 queer artists, artists of color and just fucking awesome music. 207 00:15:56,720 --> 00:16:00,440 I have already let everybody know, I stopped just shy of calling the king. 208 00:16:00,520 --> 00:16:03,520 No, but seriously, the first show will be really hard 209 00:16:03,600 --> 00:16:05,360 and Nana Adjoa is doing a live session… 210 00:16:05,440 --> 00:16:07,880 -Yes, darling. Very cool. -And Lionstorm wanted… 211 00:16:07,960 --> 00:16:10,480 I am really fucking proud of you, Jippie. 212 00:16:10,560 --> 00:16:11,680 -Yes? -Yes, really. 213 00:16:13,280 --> 00:16:16,880 And you? How was the meeting with that publisher? Do tell. 214 00:16:16,960 --> 00:16:18,680 Oh, right. 215 00:16:18,760 --> 00:16:20,400 Yeah, fine. 216 00:16:20,480 --> 00:16:23,840 I still have to do some rewriting and make some adjustments. 217 00:16:23,920 --> 00:16:27,120 -Can we read it soon? -Almost. 218 00:16:27,200 --> 00:16:31,200 We're doing something like a goodbye slash the-book-is-done party, right? 219 00:16:31,280 --> 00:16:33,120 Oh my God, you're almost leaving. 220 00:16:33,200 --> 00:16:35,240 Well, there's still a few weeks. 221 00:16:36,960 --> 00:16:38,840 Doesn't sound very enthusiastic, An. 222 00:16:38,920 --> 00:16:42,160 Yes, I am, but I just have to arrange some things. 223 00:16:43,240 --> 00:16:44,920 Okay, like what? 224 00:16:48,480 --> 00:16:50,040 Okay. Just stuff. 225 00:16:51,480 --> 00:16:54,840 -You're still going, right? -Yes, of course, hello. Yes. 226 00:16:55,360 --> 00:16:57,480 -I'm calling it. She's not going. -No? 227 00:16:58,160 --> 00:17:00,960 Okay, Jesus, guys. I'm just not super excited for a moment. 228 00:17:01,040 --> 00:17:03,080 I don't have to be like that all the time. 229 00:17:03,160 --> 00:17:05,920 I'm just tired, so chill out. 230 00:17:06,000 --> 00:17:07,440 Okay, sorry. 231 00:17:08,400 --> 00:17:11,280 It's just annoying that you act like there's something wrong 232 00:17:11,360 --> 00:17:14,200 or that I don't finish stuff. Have a little faith in me. 233 00:17:14,280 --> 00:17:17,560 -It's going well. Just fine. Really. -Okay. 234 00:17:17,640 --> 00:17:21,280 Hey, who wants something to eat? Shall I get a snack? 235 00:17:21,360 --> 00:17:23,480 Are you gonna get that for us, sweetie? Really? 236 00:17:23,560 --> 00:17:25,320 -Can I have beet balls? -Beet balls? 237 00:17:25,400 --> 00:17:27,720 -Cheese platter? -Yes, cheese platter. 238 00:17:29,880 --> 00:17:32,280 Yes. A cheese platter, I heard. 239 00:17:45,080 --> 00:17:47,640 {\an8}I'LL REALLY MISS MY FAM #FRIENDS #THELASTWEEKS #LOVE 240 00:17:47,720 --> 00:17:50,960 {\an8}LET'S CONTEMPLATE #LEAVEEVERYTHINGFORAMOMENT 241 00:17:51,040 --> 00:17:52,280 {\an8}THIS WOMAN #LOVE 242 00:17:54,720 --> 00:17:56,200 LE_LOUP IS FOLLOWING YOU 243 00:17:56,280 --> 00:17:58,120 LE_LOUP LIKES YOUR POST 244 00:17:58,200 --> 00:18:00,240 LOU - ACTIVIST - DRAG KING (THEY/THEM) 245 00:18:12,840 --> 00:18:15,520 Yeah, what does the main character want? 246 00:18:15,600 --> 00:18:19,320 Right? What is she working towards? Is there an antagonist? 247 00:18:21,880 --> 00:18:25,320 It isn't very eventful. It… Yes, it meanders. 248 00:18:25,400 --> 00:18:29,400 And there is a whole lot of talking, really quite a lot of talking. 249 00:18:29,480 --> 00:18:31,480 And it's interesting, but because of that 250 00:18:31,560 --> 00:18:34,840 it stays somewhere between plot driven and character driven. 251 00:18:35,680 --> 00:18:37,280 I do think that you need to… 252 00:18:37,360 --> 00:18:38,640 Does she like women? 253 00:18:41,560 --> 00:18:44,040 Would Saar be jealous if I did stuff with her? 254 00:18:45,720 --> 00:18:47,800 We can also quickly… You and me… 255 00:18:50,240 --> 00:18:51,320 Fuck it. 256 00:19:01,440 --> 00:19:02,640 Anne? 257 00:19:04,080 --> 00:19:06,200 -What? -Are you listening? 258 00:19:06,720 --> 00:19:12,280 Yes, meanders. It meanders. 259 00:19:17,400 --> 00:19:19,120 Should I send Lou a message? 260 00:19:19,880 --> 00:19:22,840 Yes, of course. If Sara's got a girl in Montreal, 261 00:19:22,920 --> 00:19:24,880 then you should also be allowed to DM someone. 262 00:19:24,960 --> 00:19:27,640 -Yes, right? Yes. -Yes. 263 00:19:30,720 --> 00:19:32,960 Oh, here we go again. 264 00:20:19,040 --> 00:20:21,480 Hey, well, what should I send her? 265 00:20:21,560 --> 00:20:26,120 Or, wait… "them." It says "they them" in their bio. 266 00:20:27,760 --> 00:20:29,360 Yeah, just send something like, 267 00:20:29,440 --> 00:20:31,720 "Hey, would you like to go out for a drink some time?" 268 00:20:31,800 --> 00:20:34,120 "My girlfriend is seeing someone and I want that too 269 00:20:34,200 --> 00:20:35,920 because otherwise the balance is off." 270 00:20:36,000 --> 00:20:37,040 Please… 271 00:20:37,120 --> 00:20:39,200 "And I would rather date someone else too 272 00:20:39,280 --> 00:20:41,520 than talk about it with my girlfriend. Bye, Anne." 273 00:20:41,600 --> 00:20:42,600 Stop it. 274 00:20:47,800 --> 00:20:49,400 I will just send something like, 275 00:20:50,160 --> 00:20:52,920 "Hey, how was your weekend?" 276 00:20:54,000 --> 00:20:57,880 Very nice. That makes me very horny. 277 00:20:57,960 --> 00:21:01,120 -Lil, seriously. -Yeah, that's fine. Just send that. 278 00:21:01,640 --> 00:21:02,480 Okay. 279 00:21:05,360 --> 00:21:09,280 Yes, I still have to arrange a few things. I'm getting my passport this week. 280 00:21:09,960 --> 00:21:13,560 An, how you do everything last minute, really, I couldn't do that. 281 00:21:15,320 --> 00:21:16,600 I know, just let me be. 282 00:21:19,360 --> 00:21:20,800 How's it going with… 283 00:21:22,400 --> 00:21:23,440 -With Zoe? -Yes. 284 00:21:24,600 --> 00:21:28,560 Yes, good. Fun. We see each other once a week or something like that. 285 00:21:30,240 --> 00:21:31,480 She wants to meet you. 286 00:21:33,600 --> 00:21:37,280 Is that okay with you or would you rather not do that at all? 287 00:21:38,560 --> 00:21:42,080 Yes, no, yes, that's… Yes, fun. We can… 288 00:21:42,160 --> 00:21:43,640 we can FaceTime sometime. 289 00:21:43,720 --> 00:21:45,200 An, really? 290 00:21:45,280 --> 00:21:47,960 Really? Yeah, fun. I will tell her. 291 00:21:49,120 --> 00:21:53,120 And how are you doing? And your book? Did you hand everything in? 292 00:21:54,000 --> 00:21:55,000 Shit. 293 00:21:56,720 --> 00:21:58,440 Yes, it's fine. 294 00:21:58,520 --> 00:22:02,560 Still some minor rewrites to do, some fine-tuning and stuff. 295 00:22:04,120 --> 00:22:07,960 I'm so proud of you. You just wrote your first novel. So cool. 296 00:22:08,480 --> 00:22:09,360 Yes. 297 00:22:14,480 --> 00:22:17,920 Hey, if there's something wrong, you need to tell me, okay? 298 00:22:19,120 --> 00:22:21,360 Or if you don't feel comfortable? 299 00:22:21,880 --> 00:22:23,240 No, everything's fine. 300 00:22:27,920 --> 00:22:28,880 I love you, right? 301 00:22:31,200 --> 00:22:32,120 I love you too. 302 00:22:54,320 --> 00:22:55,160 So… 303 00:22:57,360 --> 00:23:01,600 We can only date another person if we both feel good about it. 304 00:23:07,440 --> 00:23:08,320 Yes. 305 00:23:11,160 --> 00:23:12,880 And do we want to know everything? 306 00:23:14,360 --> 00:23:17,880 I mean, maybe not if it's only sex, but what if it turns into dating? 307 00:23:18,840 --> 00:23:19,760 Well… 308 00:23:21,480 --> 00:23:24,680 Yes, I don't know. Just continue to communicate, right? 309 00:23:25,200 --> 00:23:28,920 Yes, can I have that in writing? That you will continue to communicate? 310 00:23:30,480 --> 00:23:34,320 No, I'm joking. No, but seriously, that sounds good. 311 00:23:34,400 --> 00:23:35,360 Yes. 312 00:23:36,280 --> 00:23:41,200 And also, keep voicing doubts and boundaries. 313 00:23:42,640 --> 00:23:44,080 Yes. 314 00:23:44,160 --> 00:23:45,760 And also give each other freedom 315 00:23:45,840 --> 00:23:49,320 because that is the idea behind a polyamorous relationship, right? 316 00:23:49,400 --> 00:23:50,280 Yes. 317 00:23:51,560 --> 00:23:55,320 Yeah, I think it is so good and healthy that we're doing this. 318 00:23:56,000 --> 00:24:00,080 -Right? Look at us. -Yes. 319 00:25:09,880 --> 00:25:11,640 Yeah, great. Looks good. 320 00:25:14,920 --> 00:25:17,480 No, this was still in there. 321 00:25:17,560 --> 00:25:19,360 Yeah. No problem. 322 00:25:20,240 --> 00:25:22,800 -It's 40, right? -Yes, 40. 323 00:25:41,720 --> 00:25:43,240 Oh God, how do you do this again? 324 00:25:49,720 --> 00:25:50,600 Okay. 325 00:25:51,560 --> 00:25:52,400 Hey. 326 00:25:54,960 --> 00:25:56,320 -Nice. -Yes. 327 00:25:56,840 --> 00:25:59,000 What are your pronouns? 328 00:26:00,360 --> 00:26:01,360 She/her. 329 00:26:02,040 --> 00:26:04,760 Okay, cool. Mine are they, them and their. 330 00:26:04,840 --> 00:26:06,240 I knew that from your Instagram. 331 00:26:06,320 --> 00:26:07,440 Great. 332 00:26:08,080 --> 00:26:11,040 Just like how pretty much all my exes like your photos. 333 00:26:12,000 --> 00:26:15,200 It is such a nice feeling, right, when you walk onto the stage 334 00:26:15,280 --> 00:26:17,320 and you hear everyone going like… 335 00:26:18,320 --> 00:26:21,320 I don't think I could ever do that, be a drag king. 336 00:26:21,400 --> 00:26:22,360 Why not? 337 00:26:23,480 --> 00:26:26,160 Yeah, being on that stage with everybody watching. 338 00:26:26,240 --> 00:26:28,400 And then acting all sexy. 339 00:26:28,480 --> 00:26:31,440 -Do you find it difficult to feel sexy? -Me? 340 00:26:37,680 --> 00:26:41,680 I don't know. Well, I'm not really actively thinking about it, I guess. 341 00:26:42,720 --> 00:26:46,280 Okay. When do you feel the most sexy? 342 00:26:49,720 --> 00:26:51,480 When I'm confident, I think. 343 00:26:53,160 --> 00:26:57,600 Yes, I'm not really into sexy clothing or lingerie and stuff, that… 344 00:26:58,480 --> 00:27:00,960 No, I actually never really feel sexy sexy. 345 00:27:01,680 --> 00:27:03,440 Whatever that means, but-- 346 00:27:03,520 --> 00:27:06,760 No, I can think, "I'm looking good," but sexy? 347 00:27:06,840 --> 00:27:07,680 That's… 348 00:27:08,440 --> 00:27:09,320 No. 349 00:27:10,040 --> 00:27:12,240 Sexy is quite a broad concept, right? 350 00:27:12,320 --> 00:27:16,120 It's just not all about sexy clothing or lingerie. 351 00:27:16,200 --> 00:27:19,720 -It's something different for everyone. -Yes, exactly, I think so too. 352 00:27:21,960 --> 00:27:23,680 My girlfriend, Sara, for instance, 353 00:27:23,760 --> 00:27:26,240 she likes to wear pretty lingerie and stuff, but… 354 00:27:27,400 --> 00:27:30,760 but that actually does very little for me. 355 00:27:31,400 --> 00:27:36,080 No, I find her very sexy, really, but just when she's feeling good, 356 00:27:36,160 --> 00:27:38,400 when she's making coffee in her underwear, 357 00:27:39,320 --> 00:27:42,920 when she's in total work mode on a Zoom call 358 00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:45,680 with colleagues from all over the world. That is sexy. 359 00:27:48,680 --> 00:27:49,560 But anyway, yeah. 360 00:27:51,480 --> 00:27:52,640 You have a girlfriend? 361 00:27:56,080 --> 00:27:57,200 Yes. 362 00:27:58,800 --> 00:28:01,080 Yes, but we are open, poly. 363 00:28:02,120 --> 00:28:04,080 Hey, but wait a minute, right? 364 00:28:04,160 --> 00:28:09,200 You're writing a book and then you're off to the other side of the world? Why? 365 00:28:10,320 --> 00:28:11,800 Well, that's just the plan. 366 00:28:13,720 --> 00:28:14,960 Weird plan. 367 00:28:16,360 --> 00:28:17,200 Yes. 368 00:28:18,040 --> 00:28:19,000 -Yes. -Yes. 369 00:28:21,240 --> 00:28:23,520 I just want to write a kick-ass book. 370 00:28:25,240 --> 00:28:26,440 But then… 371 00:28:28,880 --> 00:28:31,360 My publisher asked me what I actually have to say. 372 00:28:33,400 --> 00:28:34,280 Yes. 373 00:28:35,160 --> 00:28:39,240 So now I'm thinking the whole time, "What actually is my life experience?" 374 00:28:39,320 --> 00:28:44,040 "Why do I have to write a book? Is that what the world is waiting for?" 375 00:28:45,200 --> 00:28:47,040 What do you want to write about? 376 00:28:47,840 --> 00:28:53,080 About friendship and relationships and love and identity. 377 00:28:53,960 --> 00:28:57,200 Gender, expression, about being queer. 378 00:28:57,800 --> 00:29:01,240 Okay. What does being queer mean to you? 379 00:29:02,200 --> 00:29:03,120 I don't know. 380 00:29:03,760 --> 00:29:05,480 Or, well, I actually do know. 381 00:29:06,160 --> 00:29:10,400 Being lesbian, or being queer, and coming out 382 00:29:10,480 --> 00:29:13,080 has completely shaped me into who I am now. 383 00:29:14,160 --> 00:29:16,560 So yeah, I would never want it differently 384 00:29:16,640 --> 00:29:20,760 because it's such a big part of my identity. It's really my whole life. 385 00:29:22,240 --> 00:29:25,640 But as a queer person, I live in a heteronormative society, 386 00:29:25,720 --> 00:29:28,840 so then you approach everything automatically from you being queer. 387 00:29:28,920 --> 00:29:32,400 And I think, "Yes, I just want to tell that story." 388 00:29:34,440 --> 00:29:36,760 Show how fun it is to be queer. 389 00:29:37,760 --> 00:29:41,080 And bring people into that world because being queer is just fun 390 00:29:41,160 --> 00:29:44,400 and exciting, and complicated. 391 00:29:45,840 --> 00:29:49,960 And real and loving. 392 00:29:50,480 --> 00:29:53,360 And everything. 393 00:29:54,960 --> 00:29:57,640 Being queer is just everything. Yeah… 394 00:30:02,240 --> 00:30:05,560 Yeah, it's so much more than I imagined when I was in the closet. 395 00:30:06,560 --> 00:30:07,440 Yes. 396 00:30:08,680 --> 00:30:10,960 Well, I'm also just happy that now I… 397 00:30:12,840 --> 00:30:16,560 That I can now be proud of something that I used to be ashamed of for so long. 398 00:30:17,160 --> 00:30:19,520 So I want to just show that and… 399 00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:22,600 Yeah, that I feel so much more comfortable now. 400 00:30:24,400 --> 00:30:25,600 And why is that? 401 00:30:26,280 --> 00:30:28,000 That I feel more comfortable? 402 00:30:31,880 --> 00:30:33,120 Because of time. 403 00:30:34,280 --> 00:30:37,320 Yeah, things just take time, right? 404 00:30:37,840 --> 00:30:40,720 Yeah, and I've also become very mature, of course. 405 00:30:45,200 --> 00:30:46,240 Yes. 406 00:30:46,320 --> 00:30:48,440 YOU'VE SKIPPED YOUR FRENCH LESSON FOR 3 DAYS 407 00:30:48,520 --> 00:30:51,640 But you have to keep doing it, you have to keep trying, 408 00:30:51,720 --> 00:30:53,840 and not avoid it just because it's easier. 409 00:30:53,920 --> 00:30:58,240 Talking works, patience works, must talk… 410 00:30:58,320 --> 00:31:01,240 Okay, I sometimes take them… Stop it. 411 00:31:02,200 --> 00:31:04,920 I take them to queer lectures or films or something. 412 00:31:05,000 --> 00:31:07,080 Bring them into my world for a bit. 413 00:31:08,080 --> 00:31:12,000 Yeah, okay, but I really don't see that happening with my parents. 414 00:31:12,080 --> 00:31:13,800 Why not? Just do it. 415 00:31:13,880 --> 00:31:16,160 Yes, Lou, I'm happy for you and your parents, 416 00:31:16,240 --> 00:31:17,920 but my process is just different. 417 00:31:18,000 --> 00:31:19,240 Oh, sorry. 418 00:31:21,200 --> 00:31:25,960 But anyway, tell me your political story. 419 00:31:27,920 --> 00:31:29,000 -Yeah? -Yeah. 420 00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:31,320 -Are you sure? -Throw it at me. 421 00:31:32,800 --> 00:31:34,040 Okay, here it is, right? 422 00:31:34,120 --> 00:31:36,840 Well, we divide the world into two categories. 423 00:31:36,920 --> 00:31:38,800 That determines how we treat each other. 424 00:31:38,880 --> 00:31:41,560 Men are not allowed to cry, women can't do DIY, 425 00:31:41,640 --> 00:31:45,120 and women are actually totally subordinate anyway, right? 426 00:31:45,200 --> 00:31:47,600 That's a bizarre system when you think about it. 427 00:31:47,680 --> 00:31:49,760 That was invented by all of us together. 428 00:31:49,840 --> 00:31:55,680 Yeah, there is so fucking little freedom in what being a woman can look like. 429 00:31:56,520 --> 00:31:59,560 Exactly, and we invented everything anyway. 430 00:31:59,640 --> 00:32:02,720 Money, we invented that, we just print it like that. Bam, bam! 431 00:32:03,640 --> 00:32:05,720 The internet was invented by us. 432 00:32:05,800 --> 00:32:10,320 Language, photography, art, politics, gender constructs. 433 00:32:10,400 --> 00:32:11,440 We invented that. 434 00:32:11,520 --> 00:32:15,840 So why can we not keep inventing? Or re-inventing? 435 00:32:15,920 --> 00:32:20,080 Why is being nonbinary and wanting to break free from invented constructs 436 00:32:20,160 --> 00:32:21,920 not done for so many people? 437 00:32:22,880 --> 00:32:23,840 Yes. 438 00:32:23,920 --> 00:32:25,120 And just like language, 439 00:32:25,200 --> 00:32:29,040 it keeps renewing and that is actually the beauty of it. 440 00:32:30,000 --> 00:32:35,680 So what's the matter, tell me, with they, them and their pronouns? 441 00:32:37,520 --> 00:32:40,280 Yes, completely. 442 00:32:40,360 --> 00:32:42,280 Yeah, well, exactly that. 443 00:32:42,880 --> 00:32:44,080 Well, you got me. 444 00:32:57,040 --> 00:32:59,000 -Hey, Jippie. -Yo, An. 445 00:32:59,880 --> 00:33:01,640 Hey, are you still talking to Saar? 446 00:33:04,080 --> 00:33:06,920 -Why? -Well, I got a text. 447 00:33:07,720 --> 00:33:10,920 A text from her, that she hasn't spoken to you in a few days 448 00:33:11,000 --> 00:33:12,680 and also can't get hold of you. 449 00:33:12,760 --> 00:33:13,760 Fuck. 450 00:33:14,960 --> 00:33:16,640 I don't even have her new number. 451 00:33:17,240 --> 00:33:20,080 I never text with her, but apparently she felt the urge 452 00:33:20,160 --> 00:33:22,760 to send me a text to get hold of you. 453 00:33:22,840 --> 00:33:24,840 Yes, shit. 454 00:33:25,640 --> 00:33:29,240 What are you actually doing, man? Just talk to her. 455 00:33:31,840 --> 00:33:32,720 Yes, I know. 456 00:33:34,520 --> 00:33:36,640 Is everything else okay with you? 457 00:33:36,720 --> 00:33:39,040 Yeah, no, yeah, it's fine. 458 00:33:39,760 --> 00:33:42,280 I should really just talk to Saar. You're right. 459 00:33:43,080 --> 00:33:44,760 Yes, I am right. 460 00:33:46,840 --> 00:33:49,840 Well, sort it out, girl. 461 00:33:52,520 --> 00:33:55,520 And let's grab a beer soon. 462 00:33:56,600 --> 00:34:01,400 -We don't see each other enough, man. -Yeah, you're right. I'll text you. 463 00:34:01,480 --> 00:34:02,760 All right. Bye. 464 00:34:14,680 --> 00:34:15,560 There you go. 465 00:34:16,080 --> 00:34:17,520 -Oh my God, sweetie. -What? 466 00:34:17,600 --> 00:34:18,840 We got the house! 467 00:34:19,760 --> 00:34:22,520 Oh my God, sweetie. Our dream house? 468 00:34:22,600 --> 00:34:24,880 I know, look, with those beautiful stairs outside! 469 00:34:24,960 --> 00:34:26,280 -Yeah. -Oh my God. 470 00:34:27,760 --> 00:34:29,240 Okay, I'm going to reply now. 471 00:34:30,200 --> 00:34:31,200 -Okay. -Yes. 472 00:34:36,720 --> 00:34:37,640 Yes. 473 00:34:53,840 --> 00:34:59,480 HEY, SWEETIE. EVERYTHING ALL RIGHT? 474 00:35:09,840 --> 00:35:10,960 How about this one? 475 00:35:12,040 --> 00:35:13,080 Try this one on. 476 00:35:13,160 --> 00:35:15,000 So what you're doing now is called blending. 477 00:35:15,080 --> 00:35:18,400 I'm actually making all the lines that I've just applied softer. 478 00:35:19,520 --> 00:35:22,280 No, this seems too much… Yes. 479 00:35:23,320 --> 00:35:27,320 Drag is more than a fun fancy-dress party. 480 00:35:27,400 --> 00:35:30,280 It is a way to rebel against the norm. 481 00:35:33,800 --> 00:35:35,280 Oh my God! 482 00:35:36,840 --> 00:35:37,880 Maxie. 483 00:35:37,960 --> 00:35:41,240 -My God, you look so good. -Thanks. 484 00:35:41,320 --> 00:35:44,520 Yeah, and drag came from protest. 485 00:35:44,600 --> 00:35:46,360 That is what we owe all of this to. 486 00:35:46,440 --> 00:35:48,840 Look at the Stonewall riots, for instance. 487 00:35:48,920 --> 00:35:52,640 Drag artists and trans women of color were on the frontlines there. 488 00:35:52,720 --> 00:35:54,760 And it's just very important 489 00:35:54,840 --> 00:35:58,120 to always remember what we owe pride to, but also drag. 490 00:35:58,200 --> 00:36:02,200 Yeah, I love it. Can we take a picture? I'm totally fangirling. 491 00:36:05,640 --> 00:36:06,640 Very nice, look. 492 00:36:08,160 --> 00:36:09,400 -How beautiful. -Cute! 493 00:36:09,480 --> 00:36:10,720 Darling of mine. 494 00:36:15,080 --> 00:36:17,000 You have a naturally strong jaw line. 495 00:36:17,080 --> 00:36:18,520 -Yeah? -Yes, really. 496 00:36:19,880 --> 00:36:22,320 Would you maybe like some facial hair or something? 497 00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:24,200 A beard would be pretty cool. 498 00:36:28,360 --> 00:36:30,840 -Whoa, Lil, looking good. -Thanks. 499 00:36:30,920 --> 00:36:32,000 Nice dick you got there. 500 00:36:34,960 --> 00:36:37,840 -Well, gorgeous… -What? 501 00:36:37,920 --> 00:36:39,880 -And what is your name? -Jennifer. 502 00:36:40,920 --> 00:36:43,320 Okay, everyone get together for a moment. 503 00:36:44,560 --> 00:36:46,360 All right, yes. 504 00:36:46,440 --> 00:36:48,440 Join us. 505 00:36:49,560 --> 00:36:53,080 Drag is about reclaiming your space. 506 00:36:53,160 --> 00:36:54,440 Claiming space. 507 00:36:54,520 --> 00:36:57,440 Yeah, as a queer person, you're always being looked at 508 00:36:57,520 --> 00:37:00,800 and this is a way to turn that into something positive. 509 00:37:01,400 --> 00:37:03,520 Dare to take that space. 510 00:37:04,240 --> 00:37:05,080 -Yeah? -Yeah! 511 00:37:05,160 --> 00:37:06,080 -Yeah? -Yeah! 512 00:39:04,560 --> 00:39:06,400 This is so nice. 513 00:39:13,160 --> 00:39:14,240 An, what's wrong? 514 00:39:16,960 --> 00:39:17,880 Nothing. 515 00:39:22,200 --> 00:39:23,800 I just love you. 516 00:39:23,880 --> 00:39:25,080 Are you nice and drunk? 517 00:39:27,440 --> 00:39:28,560 No, but really. 518 00:39:30,320 --> 00:39:32,360 What am I supposed to do without you? 519 00:39:32,440 --> 00:39:34,800 Yeah, nothing. Without us you are nothing. 520 00:39:34,880 --> 00:39:35,880 No! 521 00:39:36,960 --> 00:39:38,400 We love you too, Annie. 522 00:39:39,760 --> 00:39:41,240 Guys, stop for a moment! 523 00:39:41,840 --> 00:39:43,000 Anne is emo! 524 00:39:44,040 --> 00:39:45,680 What is it, darling? 525 00:39:46,560 --> 00:39:49,280 What is it? No! 526 00:39:50,200 --> 00:39:51,800 Come here. 527 00:39:52,880 --> 00:39:55,560 Join us. We love you, Annie. 528 00:39:55,640 --> 00:39:57,400 Hey, darling! 529 00:39:57,480 --> 00:39:58,880 Don't cry. 530 00:39:58,960 --> 00:40:02,120 Goddamn, I love you so much too. 531 00:40:09,120 --> 00:40:12,760 Two cheese snacks, one vegetable what? 532 00:40:12,840 --> 00:40:14,680 -A vegetable croquette. -Croquette. 533 00:40:14,760 --> 00:40:15,800 -Veggie? -Veggie. 534 00:40:16,320 --> 00:40:19,480 Yes, a vegetable croquette, and Lil? 535 00:40:19,560 --> 00:40:22,360 -Deep-fried noodles. -Gross, seriously? 536 00:40:22,440 --> 00:40:24,720 -Deep-fried noodles. -And deep-fried noodles. 537 00:40:25,480 --> 00:40:27,120 -Of course, coming up. -Thanks. 538 00:40:29,840 --> 00:40:32,520 Hey, Lou is really super fun, right? 539 00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:35,480 -Yeah, she is so freaking fun. -They. 540 00:40:36,240 --> 00:40:37,640 Yes, sorry. 541 00:40:37,720 --> 00:40:39,680 And yeah, so true, right? 542 00:40:40,320 --> 00:40:42,200 Have you licked and stuff yet? 543 00:40:44,920 --> 00:40:47,800 -No. -Why? 544 00:40:48,320 --> 00:40:50,480 Well, no, I don't know if I should do that. 545 00:40:51,280 --> 00:40:53,160 -You like them, right? -Yes. 546 00:40:54,120 --> 00:40:57,240 -And you're in a poly relationship? -Yes. 547 00:40:57,320 --> 00:40:59,720 -And you're almost going to Montreal. -Yeah. 548 00:41:00,880 --> 00:41:01,720 No. 549 00:41:10,160 --> 00:41:11,360 Does Sara know that? 550 00:41:12,480 --> 00:41:13,400 No. 551 00:41:14,160 --> 00:41:15,720 What a vibrant conversation. 552 00:41:15,800 --> 00:41:18,240 No, but wait, you're not going to Montreal? 553 00:41:18,320 --> 00:41:20,160 Yes. 554 00:41:21,720 --> 00:41:22,680 No. 555 00:41:23,600 --> 00:41:25,120 Oh, guys, I don't know. 556 00:41:25,960 --> 00:41:28,440 I just don't know. 557 00:41:30,200 --> 00:41:33,840 I have to emigrate in two weeks. What the fuck? 558 00:41:34,840 --> 00:41:36,720 And I have to give up my home. 559 00:41:36,800 --> 00:41:39,000 And I still have to rewrite my entire book. 560 00:41:43,480 --> 00:41:44,840 Come crash at my house. 561 00:41:46,880 --> 00:41:50,600 -Seriously? -Yes. It'll be fun, right? 562 00:43:22,240 --> 00:43:23,200 Yes… 563 00:43:24,600 --> 00:43:25,520 What now? 564 00:43:38,400 --> 00:43:42,880 Everything okay? You seem a bit distracted or something. 565 00:43:43,800 --> 00:43:46,040 Oh, no, it's fine. 566 00:43:47,960 --> 00:43:48,800 Really? 567 00:43:52,840 --> 00:43:56,120 I've had a lot on my mind, but don't worry. 568 00:43:57,480 --> 00:44:00,600 You know you can tell me anything, right? Talk to me. 569 00:44:06,200 --> 00:44:08,720 Okay, come on. Let's get a drink. 570 00:44:12,200 --> 00:44:14,160 What was your first impression of me? 571 00:44:17,960 --> 00:44:18,960 Sweet. 572 00:44:20,400 --> 00:44:21,400 Complicated. 573 00:44:24,120 --> 00:44:26,320 Listens well, talks badly. 574 00:44:28,080 --> 00:44:30,600 Yeah? All of that from the first meeting? 575 00:44:30,680 --> 00:44:34,120 -I'm a good judge of character, right? -Sure. 576 00:44:34,840 --> 00:44:37,240 Attractive, of course. 577 00:44:38,160 --> 00:44:39,600 I was gonna say. 578 00:44:43,280 --> 00:44:45,440 And you? Of me? 579 00:44:48,360 --> 00:44:49,760 Very attractive too, of course. 580 00:44:50,640 --> 00:44:52,800 And smart. 581 00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:56,680 And interesting and honorable. 582 00:44:56,760 --> 00:44:59,760 -Honorable? -Yes. Sorry. 583 00:44:59,840 --> 00:45:02,800 No, yes, well, yes, actually, yes. 584 00:45:02,880 --> 00:45:05,080 I immediately felt at ease with you. 585 00:45:06,200 --> 00:45:10,880 Like I, yeah, could say anything without being judged. 586 00:45:11,400 --> 00:45:12,360 Yeah. 587 00:45:13,080 --> 00:45:14,200 I feel the same way. 588 00:45:17,960 --> 00:45:20,640 -I think it's a generational thing too. -Yeah? 589 00:45:20,720 --> 00:45:22,040 Yeah, for our parents 590 00:45:22,120 --> 00:45:24,960 everything was just nicely mapped out and obvious. 591 00:45:25,560 --> 00:45:28,640 -Not many uncertainties. -Yeah. 592 00:45:28,720 --> 00:45:31,400 I think they just never learned to talk about anything. 593 00:45:32,120 --> 00:45:34,040 No, well, mine certainly didn't. 594 00:45:35,680 --> 00:45:38,240 Yeah, and they never understand our problems, right? 595 00:45:38,320 --> 00:45:42,120 Because they think, "Hey, I was young once, just like you. 596 00:45:42,200 --> 00:45:43,640 -You've heard that? -Yeah. 597 00:45:43,720 --> 00:45:45,840 "And I've made it this far without any fuss, 598 00:45:45,920 --> 00:45:47,520 so you should also be able to." 599 00:45:47,600 --> 00:45:51,120 Yes. That's exactly what my parents are like. 600 00:45:52,760 --> 00:45:55,360 They just don't understand. That's it. 601 00:45:55,440 --> 00:45:57,640 No, they really don't. 602 00:45:57,720 --> 00:45:58,880 No. 603 00:45:58,960 --> 00:46:00,720 Yeah, I'm doing things differently. 604 00:46:01,600 --> 00:46:03,560 -I won't remain silent. -No. 605 00:46:03,640 --> 00:46:04,840 No. 606 00:46:04,920 --> 00:46:06,840 I also just want a family 607 00:46:06,920 --> 00:46:09,120 and I want my kids to have the feeling 608 00:46:09,200 --> 00:46:11,920 that they can tell me and each other anything. 609 00:46:12,440 --> 00:46:17,600 That there isn't always some sort of weird tension about a certain topic, 610 00:46:17,680 --> 00:46:19,600 that nobody has to bottle shit up. 611 00:46:20,600 --> 00:46:23,320 I just want there to be true love. 612 00:46:23,400 --> 00:46:25,280 Just honest love. 613 00:46:25,360 --> 00:46:29,360 No fuss, no drama, just openness. 614 00:46:33,280 --> 00:46:34,200 What? 615 00:46:35,320 --> 00:46:36,320 Come here. 616 00:47:31,560 --> 00:47:35,280 Anyway, you were talking about something very serious? 617 00:47:36,320 --> 00:47:40,720 Yeah. I just need to recover from this ambush. 618 00:47:49,240 --> 00:47:50,560 You're a good kisser. 619 00:47:51,280 --> 00:47:53,160 Well, that's a relief. 620 00:47:55,000 --> 00:47:57,320 You really turn everything into a joke, right? 621 00:47:59,160 --> 00:48:01,120 Oh, well… 622 00:48:01,200 --> 00:48:02,120 Maybe. 623 00:48:02,200 --> 00:48:03,520 Yes, maybe. 624 00:48:03,600 --> 00:48:07,400 Yeah, I mean as a kind of distraction or something, right? 625 00:48:07,480 --> 00:48:09,440 Then you don't have to be vulnerable. 626 00:48:13,240 --> 00:48:14,800 But it's also kind of sweet. 627 00:48:37,000 --> 00:48:38,920 You really are fucking sexy. 628 00:48:42,400 --> 00:48:43,640 I mean it. 629 00:48:45,440 --> 00:48:46,520 Look at you. 630 00:49:19,000 --> 00:49:19,880 Beautiful, right? 631 00:49:23,800 --> 00:49:24,720 Yes. 632 00:49:45,160 --> 00:49:46,320 Can I fuck you? 633 00:49:48,400 --> 00:49:49,600 Aren't we… 634 00:49:51,880 --> 00:49:53,720 Yeah, I mean with a strap-on. 635 00:49:58,240 --> 00:50:00,160 I've never really done that before. 636 00:50:00,680 --> 00:50:01,640 You haven't? 637 00:50:02,880 --> 00:50:05,120 We don't have to if you don't want to. 638 00:50:09,480 --> 00:50:12,080 Yes. I want it. 639 00:50:12,160 --> 00:50:13,080 Yes? 640 00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:19,120 Is this okay? 641 00:51:20,280 --> 00:51:21,160 Yeah? 642 00:51:21,800 --> 00:51:22,720 Okay. 643 00:52:11,360 --> 00:52:12,720 I want to be on top of you. 644 00:52:25,320 --> 00:52:26,360 -Fuck. -Yeah. 645 00:52:36,880 --> 00:52:37,800 Yeah. 646 00:53:00,160 --> 00:53:01,400 Oh my God. 647 00:53:09,000 --> 00:53:11,240 Oh my God. I really feel like a teenage boy. 648 00:53:12,200 --> 00:53:13,760 I've never come that quickly. 649 00:53:14,880 --> 00:53:16,200 It's lovely, isn't it? 650 00:53:26,160 --> 00:53:27,840 That was really very hot. 651 00:53:29,320 --> 00:53:30,720 You are hot. 652 00:53:30,800 --> 00:53:31,800 You too. 653 00:53:43,120 --> 00:53:46,880 I've been wanting to try that for a very long time, but I never did. 654 00:53:47,840 --> 00:53:48,720 Why not? 655 00:53:52,040 --> 00:53:53,240 I don't know. 656 00:53:56,560 --> 00:53:59,520 I had a perfectly fine sex life with Sara. 657 00:54:03,240 --> 00:54:05,200 People miss out on so much 658 00:54:05,920 --> 00:54:09,120 by not sharing their fantasies and feelings with each other. 659 00:54:10,120 --> 00:54:11,600 Yeah, so it turns out. 660 00:54:18,120 --> 00:54:21,200 The moment you entered me I almost couldn't take it anymore. 661 00:54:21,880 --> 00:54:23,000 I could feel it. 662 00:54:23,960 --> 00:54:24,840 Yeah? 663 00:54:25,760 --> 00:54:27,600 Yeah, you completely relaxed. 664 00:54:29,760 --> 00:54:31,160 You fully surrendered. 665 00:54:41,320 --> 00:54:42,320 Thank you. 666 00:54:44,080 --> 00:54:45,120 For what? 667 00:54:47,600 --> 00:54:52,160 For, well… for the sex, I think? 668 00:54:54,880 --> 00:54:57,560 No one's ever thanked me for sex before. 669 00:54:59,240 --> 00:55:01,440 Yeah. How silly. 670 00:55:03,440 --> 00:55:04,280 Sorry. 671 00:55:06,160 --> 00:55:07,760 This was just really… 672 00:55:35,040 --> 00:55:39,320 SARA MATOUK -TODAY 5 MISSED CALLS 673 00:55:39,400 --> 00:55:42,840 HEY, SWEETIE. I'M IN AMSTERDAM. CAN WE MEET THIS AFTERNOON? 674 00:55:47,480 --> 00:55:48,480 Oh my God. 675 00:55:49,840 --> 00:55:50,760 What? 676 00:55:54,000 --> 00:55:55,360 Sara is in Amsterdam. 677 00:55:56,840 --> 00:55:59,240 -I didn't know she was coming. -No, neither did I. 678 00:56:02,480 --> 00:56:04,560 -Right… -Fuck. 679 00:56:06,680 --> 00:56:08,120 You are going to her, right? 680 00:56:08,200 --> 00:56:10,280 I don't know. 681 00:56:10,360 --> 00:56:14,160 Get a grip, you're going. I think you two have enough to talk about. 682 00:56:16,320 --> 00:56:18,200 No, can't I hide with you? 683 00:56:18,280 --> 00:56:20,280 Anne, fuck you. It's your girlfriend. 684 00:56:20,360 --> 00:56:23,000 I don't want you to avoid her by being with me. 685 00:56:23,640 --> 00:56:25,080 -Here. -That was a joke. 686 00:56:25,160 --> 00:56:26,200 Yeah, funny. 687 00:56:26,920 --> 00:56:27,760 Come on. 688 00:56:34,040 --> 00:56:35,280 Just say what you feel. 689 00:56:36,840 --> 00:56:37,720 Yes. 690 00:57:14,680 --> 00:57:15,880 -Hey. -Hey. 691 00:57:50,120 --> 00:57:52,680 -I love you, right? -I love you too. 692 00:57:56,560 --> 00:57:58,760 Okay. I don't want to go to Montreal. 693 00:58:04,160 --> 00:58:05,400 You seemed to… 694 00:58:06,640 --> 00:58:08,800 Oh, did I not say that out loud? 695 00:58:11,600 --> 00:58:12,880 Come on, An. 696 00:58:12,960 --> 00:58:13,920 Anyway… 697 00:58:16,000 --> 00:58:17,680 I need to rewrite my book. 698 00:58:20,160 --> 00:58:21,120 Yes. 699 00:58:22,000 --> 00:58:24,080 They actually thought it was terrible. 700 00:58:24,680 --> 00:58:26,960 What the hell? Your book is brilliant. 701 00:58:27,040 --> 00:58:29,000 Yeah, well, they had some good points. 702 00:58:29,080 --> 00:58:31,160 Also in terms of content and style and stuff. 703 00:58:31,760 --> 00:58:33,200 I really think it's nonsense. 704 00:58:34,520 --> 00:58:36,320 Yes, but it's not. 705 00:58:37,160 --> 00:58:38,080 Okay. 706 00:58:41,520 --> 00:58:43,720 I have to stay in Amsterdam a little longer. 707 00:58:51,080 --> 00:58:52,760 To rewrite my book. 708 00:58:53,520 --> 00:58:54,400 Yeah. 709 00:59:00,560 --> 00:59:01,520 You okay? 710 00:59:02,200 --> 00:59:04,760 Yes, I'm just tired. Jet lag. 711 00:59:04,840 --> 00:59:05,760 Yeah. 712 00:59:11,720 --> 00:59:14,200 I came all the way here for you. 713 00:59:14,280 --> 00:59:16,280 Yeah, to come and get me. 714 00:59:19,360 --> 00:59:21,560 I don't think you're here just for me. 715 00:59:22,920 --> 00:59:27,080 There's a bump in the road of your plan, and I'm your bump. 716 00:59:27,160 --> 00:59:28,600 You are not my bump. 717 00:59:30,320 --> 00:59:31,360 Yes, I am. 718 00:59:32,680 --> 00:59:34,520 Sweetie, you are not a bump at all. 719 00:59:35,400 --> 00:59:37,440 Don't be so silly. Where did you get that idea? 720 00:59:39,960 --> 00:59:42,240 Sorry. I don't really know. 721 00:59:58,840 --> 01:00:00,000 I've missed you. 722 01:00:02,520 --> 01:00:03,920 I missed you too. 723 01:02:20,480 --> 01:02:22,120 Why is this so difficult? 724 01:02:28,640 --> 01:02:30,280 NOW APPLY FOR PASSPORT AT CITY HALL 725 01:03:24,440 --> 01:03:25,720 What's going on? 726 01:03:28,160 --> 01:03:29,320 Shit, man. 727 01:03:55,040 --> 01:03:56,320 She's already asleep. 728 01:03:57,520 --> 01:03:58,600 Not now. 729 01:04:00,800 --> 01:04:02,520 But when will you do it then? 730 01:04:06,360 --> 01:04:07,360 Not now. 731 01:04:10,600 --> 01:04:11,680 Or should I? 732 01:04:16,960 --> 01:04:17,920 Okay, An. 733 01:04:22,960 --> 01:04:24,720 Just say what you feel. 734 01:04:28,240 --> 01:04:29,320 Saar. 735 01:04:38,200 --> 01:04:39,120 Saar? Can we… 736 01:04:39,880 --> 01:04:41,120 -Yes? -Talk? 737 01:04:43,160 --> 01:04:44,120 Now? 738 01:04:46,760 --> 01:04:47,680 Yes. 739 01:04:52,840 --> 01:04:54,160 Wow, okay. 740 01:04:57,600 --> 01:04:58,440 Okay. 741 01:05:01,080 --> 01:05:02,080 I love you 742 01:05:02,600 --> 01:05:06,680 and you're sweet and pretty and smart and sexy and… 743 01:05:09,200 --> 01:05:11,520 But I don't want to go to Montreal yet. 744 01:05:16,920 --> 01:05:17,760 Okay. 745 01:05:18,920 --> 01:05:23,600 And I just don't know if I want to go at all. 746 01:05:27,200 --> 01:05:30,400 You want a long-distance relationship? 747 01:05:32,080 --> 01:05:33,160 No. 748 01:05:40,880 --> 01:05:41,800 Yes. 749 01:05:44,760 --> 01:05:47,160 I don't know. I just don't think I can do it. 750 01:05:48,680 --> 01:05:50,000 Are you breaking up with me? 751 01:05:53,840 --> 01:05:55,720 Yes. I think I am. 752 01:05:56,760 --> 01:05:59,160 You think? If you are, you should know for sure. 753 01:06:01,760 --> 01:06:03,160 I know for sure. 754 01:06:12,560 --> 01:06:13,800 But… Okay… 755 01:06:15,440 --> 01:06:17,520 Sorry, I don't understand. 756 01:06:19,880 --> 01:06:23,080 We had a plan. Everything was going well. 757 01:06:23,160 --> 01:06:26,080 No, Saar, you had a plan. I just had to go along with it. 758 01:06:26,160 --> 01:06:27,240 What? 759 01:06:30,960 --> 01:06:32,240 And I also met someone. 760 01:06:32,840 --> 01:06:34,400 Not that that matters. 761 01:06:34,480 --> 01:06:37,600 -Do you want to be with her? -No, them, no. 762 01:06:38,400 --> 01:06:40,320 And that doesn't matter either! 763 01:06:42,800 --> 01:06:44,840 Okay. I just have the feeling 764 01:06:44,920 --> 01:06:49,000 that I only go along with things for you 765 01:06:49,080 --> 01:06:51,800 and that I don't think at all about what I want myself. 766 01:06:51,880 --> 01:06:54,800 So you just break up with me without talking about it first? 767 01:06:54,880 --> 01:06:56,920 I am not just breaking up with you, Saar. 768 01:06:57,000 --> 01:06:59,640 I have really been having doubts for a very long time. 769 01:06:59,720 --> 01:07:01,080 Then say something. 770 01:07:01,160 --> 01:07:02,160 Yes. 771 01:07:03,600 --> 01:07:05,360 Saar, you can look at me like that, 772 01:07:05,440 --> 01:07:08,000 but you're not the easiest to talk to, you know. 773 01:07:08,080 --> 01:07:10,280 No, really. There's no space for it. 774 01:07:10,360 --> 01:07:13,440 You ask about it, but you pay zero attention to the answer. 775 01:07:13,520 --> 01:07:14,640 Jesus. 776 01:07:18,880 --> 01:07:21,160 Saar, sweetie, Saar, sorry, all right? 777 01:07:29,960 --> 01:07:30,880 It's just… 778 01:07:33,280 --> 01:07:34,640 I just don't want this. 779 01:07:37,000 --> 01:07:38,640 I don't want to go to Montreal. 780 01:07:39,320 --> 01:07:41,360 I don't want a polyamorous relationship. 781 01:07:42,800 --> 01:07:46,840 Yes, you do, and that is fine, but I just can't right now. 782 01:07:46,920 --> 01:07:49,800 You were fine to be with me and whatever she... 783 01:07:49,880 --> 01:07:50,720 they are called. 784 01:07:50,800 --> 01:07:53,520 Really? You think I was more than fine with that? 785 01:07:53,600 --> 01:07:56,600 I think you were enjoying it, more than with me at least. 786 01:07:57,120 --> 01:07:59,560 Yeah, at least with them I could talk, yes. 787 01:07:59,640 --> 01:08:02,320 Yes. I had really good conversations. 788 01:08:02,400 --> 01:08:05,000 -Super, An, this is really great, thanks. -Yeah. 789 01:08:06,880 --> 01:08:09,520 And since when are you against poly relationships? 790 01:08:10,440 --> 01:08:14,600 I have nothing against poly relationships. I have something against this one. 791 01:08:15,720 --> 01:08:18,920 Saar, it was a last resort for us. That's not healthy, right? 792 01:08:19,840 --> 01:08:21,120 I never wanted it. 793 01:08:21,200 --> 01:08:24,360 Why didn't you say so? We've had major conversations about this. 794 01:08:24,440 --> 01:08:25,640 You don't listen. 795 01:08:25,720 --> 01:08:28,160 You don't want to hear it. I can't talk to you. 796 01:08:28,240 --> 01:08:31,800 Talking would be a lot easier if you learned to communicate better. 797 01:08:31,880 --> 01:08:35,000 How fucking difficult is that really? I can't smell what you think. 798 01:08:35,080 --> 01:08:37,440 What a poor excuse to not have to take responsibility. 799 01:08:37,520 --> 01:08:40,120 -Really, sometimes, Saar… -Yes? 800 01:08:40,200 --> 01:08:44,200 Sometimes you have to put in more effort to have a conversation. 801 01:08:44,280 --> 01:08:45,920 Sometimes you have to observe. 802 01:08:46,520 --> 01:08:49,400 Just look at someone. Yeah, like that, good. 803 01:08:49,480 --> 01:08:51,560 I am alone in this relationship. 804 01:08:52,440 --> 01:08:55,160 What? Sorry, what kind of melodramatic-- 805 01:08:55,240 --> 01:08:58,320 No, what have you contributed to us? Seriously, name it. 806 01:08:58,400 --> 01:09:00,120 What are you talking about? 807 01:09:00,200 --> 01:09:02,480 Of course I make plans because you do nothing. 808 01:09:02,560 --> 01:09:05,400 No, because you don't ask what I want! 809 01:09:05,480 --> 01:09:06,880 Saar, that's why not! 810 01:09:06,960 --> 01:09:09,920 You only came here to pick me up. Really, I swear. 811 01:09:10,000 --> 01:09:12,200 You haven't come here to solve things, really. 812 01:09:12,280 --> 01:09:15,480 You're only imposing your own plan on me. You're fucking egotistical. 813 01:09:15,560 --> 01:09:18,040 That's what you are. You never think about what I want. 814 01:09:18,120 --> 01:09:21,040 You are such a defeatist, An. 815 01:09:21,640 --> 01:09:25,200 You think the entire world is against you. How rough you've had it. 816 01:09:25,280 --> 01:09:27,440 What the fuck do you have to complain about? 817 01:09:27,520 --> 01:09:30,160 You can be such a spoiled little white girl. 818 01:09:30,240 --> 01:09:31,120 Fuck you, Saar. 819 01:09:31,200 --> 01:09:35,280 There are worse things than a failed book and a failed relationship. 820 01:09:39,040 --> 01:09:40,520 Our relationship failed? 821 01:09:40,600 --> 01:09:41,840 This is what I mean! 822 01:09:41,920 --> 01:09:44,240 Is that what you took from that conversation? 823 01:09:44,320 --> 01:09:46,480 Oh my God, this girl, seriously. 824 01:09:46,560 --> 01:09:48,280 Do you call this a conversation? 825 01:09:50,480 --> 01:09:53,880 We're here in the middle of the night fucking yelling at each other. 826 01:09:55,600 --> 01:09:56,520 Yeah? 827 01:09:57,920 --> 01:09:59,480 Okay, we're done. Good. 828 01:10:00,400 --> 01:10:03,440 This is so fucking cowardly of you, but I'm used to that by now. 829 01:10:03,520 --> 01:10:05,280 Fine, Saar. 830 01:10:05,360 --> 01:10:07,200 That's great, call me a coward. 831 01:10:08,280 --> 01:10:09,560 Just call me a coward. 832 01:10:11,280 --> 01:10:13,920 I just feel that I'm never enough for you. 833 01:10:14,520 --> 01:10:18,040 I'm not smart enough, not ambitious enough, not sexy enough. 834 01:10:18,120 --> 01:10:21,880 That's news to me. Not sexy enough? Since when? 835 01:10:21,960 --> 01:10:24,720 -I find you very sexy. -Well, you never say it. 836 01:10:24,800 --> 01:10:27,760 And your new love surely does? God, she meets one person 837 01:10:27,840 --> 01:10:31,080 and she compares our entire relationship with that. I should have known. 838 01:10:31,160 --> 01:10:33,080 -Lou is not my love. -Lou. 839 01:10:33,160 --> 01:10:34,760 Yes, Lou, yes. 840 01:10:35,360 --> 01:10:36,200 Nice name. 841 01:10:36,280 --> 01:10:38,800 I just realized how horrible I can feel when I'm with you. 842 01:10:43,280 --> 01:10:44,520 An, I'm not doing this. 843 01:10:45,400 --> 01:10:48,800 -I won't be accused of all this. -Well, I just felt like shit. 844 01:10:48,880 --> 01:10:51,600 Maybe that's not because of me, but because of you! 845 01:11:27,480 --> 01:11:28,400 An? 846 01:11:31,600 --> 01:11:32,440 An. 847 01:11:36,760 --> 01:11:39,320 You are the first girl I fell in love with. 848 01:11:41,920 --> 01:11:44,760 The first girl I introduced to my parents. 849 01:11:46,600 --> 01:11:49,240 I want to spend the rest of my life with you. 850 01:11:51,640 --> 01:11:52,720 Anne… 851 01:12:03,960 --> 01:12:07,680 You want to be with me as long as it's on your terms, Saar. 852 01:12:07,760 --> 01:12:09,080 No, goddammit. 853 01:12:09,160 --> 01:12:13,000 Yes, really, Saar. It doesn't work. I don't want this anymore. 854 01:12:33,640 --> 01:12:34,920 I'm leaving. 855 01:12:40,320 --> 01:12:41,160 Yes. 856 01:12:41,680 --> 01:12:42,560 Okay. 857 01:13:04,960 --> 01:13:07,200 I hope you'll be a little happier, An. 858 01:13:08,800 --> 01:13:12,200 With yourself and with the world around you. 859 01:15:14,600 --> 01:15:15,640 Hey. 860 01:15:17,120 --> 01:15:18,280 Maybe grab a shower? 861 01:15:20,080 --> 01:15:21,120 No, never mind. 862 01:15:41,080 --> 01:15:42,080 Come on, darling. 863 01:15:45,440 --> 01:15:46,760 -That quickly? -Yeah. 864 01:15:50,360 --> 01:15:51,280 Yes. 865 01:16:44,520 --> 01:16:47,120 Yeah, a sad night in a bar 866 01:16:47,200 --> 01:16:49,720 and a special encounter with drag queens 867 01:16:49,800 --> 01:16:52,320 meant the beginning of Christine and the Queens. 868 01:16:52,840 --> 01:16:57,160 A beautiful first album, for everyone who could use some Chaleur Humaine. 869 01:17:10,840 --> 01:17:11,800 Annie! 870 01:17:13,000 --> 01:17:13,880 Hey, Dad. 871 01:17:23,040 --> 01:17:24,120 Well… 872 01:17:29,560 --> 01:17:31,440 Does this call for tea or whiskey? 873 01:17:34,120 --> 01:17:34,960 Whiskey. 874 01:17:43,800 --> 01:17:44,880 Here you go. 875 01:18:18,720 --> 01:18:20,720 Are you still lying on the couch? 876 01:18:23,200 --> 01:18:25,240 I went to the toilet a few times, 877 01:18:25,320 --> 01:18:27,640 and I made lunch, washed the dishes. 878 01:18:28,480 --> 01:18:32,400 Okay, Annie, a different approach. Tomorrow we'll go for a walk. 879 01:18:40,200 --> 01:18:41,040 Dad! 880 01:18:42,160 --> 01:18:43,120 Come on, Annie. 881 01:18:44,960 --> 01:18:47,040 Sometimes you just have to flip a switch. 882 01:18:47,800 --> 01:18:49,440 Or you'll never get anywhere. 883 01:18:51,040 --> 01:18:53,760 -You're one to talk. -What do you mean by that? 884 01:18:56,720 --> 01:18:59,320 Since the divorce you're no ray of sunshine. 885 01:19:00,040 --> 01:19:01,480 You never talk about it. 886 01:19:01,560 --> 01:19:03,640 Some things are difficult to talk about. 887 01:19:03,720 --> 01:19:07,360 Yeah, I know, Dad. You raised me never to talk about anything. 888 01:19:07,440 --> 01:19:08,600 Hey, Annie. 889 01:19:09,920 --> 01:19:11,040 Well, think about it. 890 01:19:11,800 --> 01:19:15,280 When do we ever talk about feelings or about deeper things? 891 01:19:17,120 --> 01:19:19,080 Why do we never talk about the divorce? 892 01:19:22,160 --> 01:19:24,800 Why does everything always have to be jovial? 893 01:19:26,320 --> 01:19:29,440 Why do I always feel that I'm saying the wrong things? 894 01:19:29,520 --> 01:19:31,640 Or that I can never quite be myself? 895 01:19:32,560 --> 01:19:35,120 Because you never taught me to talk about things. 896 01:19:37,160 --> 01:19:38,360 That's enough, Anne. 897 01:19:38,440 --> 01:19:41,000 You can't pin everything on your upbringing. 898 01:19:41,080 --> 01:19:43,320 You're an adult. Start acting like one. 899 01:19:45,200 --> 01:19:47,520 -You're in control, you know? -Oh, really? 900 01:19:47,600 --> 01:19:51,160 I'm sorry if we used to talk very little about certain things. 901 01:19:51,240 --> 01:19:53,600 If you want to change things, change them. 902 01:19:54,760 --> 01:19:57,720 It's not always your environment. Sometimes it's you. 903 01:19:57,800 --> 01:19:59,680 You are the cause of your own problems. 904 01:20:00,880 --> 01:20:04,600 And yes, that's unpleasant and vulnerable to admit, 905 01:20:04,680 --> 01:20:06,400 but that's what we should do. 906 01:20:10,000 --> 01:20:11,400 Are you walking away now? 907 01:20:12,120 --> 01:20:15,520 -Well, that is very mature. -No, I fancy a drink. 908 01:20:15,600 --> 01:20:18,600 Fine, you go have a drink. I'm going home. 909 01:20:29,520 --> 01:20:31,720 EVERYTHING OKAY? 910 01:20:54,600 --> 01:20:56,840 Sorry, Annie. I shouldn't have walked away. 911 01:21:01,520 --> 01:21:02,720 I'm sorry too. 912 01:21:06,080 --> 01:21:06,960 How do you feel? 913 01:21:07,040 --> 01:21:09,880 Dad, we don't have to suddenly talk about feelings. 914 01:21:09,960 --> 01:21:13,360 No, I mean it. You're clearly down in the dumps. 915 01:21:13,440 --> 01:21:14,800 What can I do? 916 01:21:18,480 --> 01:21:19,400 Nothing. 917 01:21:19,920 --> 01:21:21,880 Okay, but what can you do yourself? 918 01:21:22,400 --> 01:21:25,120 What makes you happy or relaxed? How do you unwind? 919 01:21:26,560 --> 01:21:28,400 Writing, I think. 920 01:21:30,360 --> 01:21:31,480 Do that, then. 921 01:21:32,320 --> 01:21:36,560 Yes, I'm doing that already. I'm rewriting my entire book. 922 01:21:36,640 --> 01:21:38,160 Well, continue doing that. 923 01:21:38,920 --> 01:21:39,880 Yes. 924 01:21:44,040 --> 01:21:46,000 Would you like to read a bit soon? 925 01:21:49,280 --> 01:21:50,840 I'm curious what you think. 926 01:21:51,480 --> 01:21:53,120 Yes, I would love to. 927 01:21:59,960 --> 01:22:01,440 Who's in it then? 928 01:22:02,400 --> 01:22:04,080 Well, everybody, basically. 929 01:22:04,680 --> 01:22:08,080 But with different names and it has been dramatized a bit. 930 01:22:09,040 --> 01:22:10,040 Sounds fun, man. 931 01:22:12,360 --> 01:22:13,840 So your friends as well? 932 01:22:14,640 --> 01:22:16,320 What am I like in it? 933 01:22:17,920 --> 01:22:21,200 You are the best friend 934 01:22:21,280 --> 01:22:24,960 and the main character doesn't pay her the attention she deserves 935 01:22:25,040 --> 01:22:27,000 because she's always there for her. 936 01:22:27,080 --> 01:22:29,960 And for that the main character should apologize. 937 01:22:32,200 --> 01:22:33,360 Are you apologizing? 938 01:22:36,640 --> 01:22:37,480 Yes. 939 01:22:39,120 --> 01:22:40,080 Sorry. 940 01:22:41,520 --> 01:22:43,720 Thanks. It's okay. 941 01:22:44,600 --> 01:22:46,560 You were there for me when I wasn't doing well 942 01:22:46,640 --> 01:22:48,920 and I'm here for you. 943 01:22:52,040 --> 01:22:53,440 Love you, Jippie. 944 01:22:53,520 --> 01:22:55,880 All right. I love you too. 945 01:23:05,440 --> 01:23:06,320 And… 946 01:23:08,600 --> 01:23:09,440 Us? 947 01:23:10,880 --> 01:23:11,720 Yes. 948 01:23:12,240 --> 01:23:14,840 It was fun, right? 949 01:23:16,840 --> 01:23:18,240 Yes. 950 01:23:19,040 --> 01:23:23,000 Yeah, I'm not looking for anything romantic. 951 01:23:23,600 --> 01:23:26,640 I think you're great and fun to hang out with, 952 01:23:26,720 --> 01:23:29,360 but I'm just not looking for anything more right now. 953 01:23:33,640 --> 01:23:34,480 Yes. 954 01:23:35,560 --> 01:23:37,000 No, same here, I think. 955 01:23:39,960 --> 01:23:42,600 Sorry, I think it is so chill how direct you are. 956 01:23:42,680 --> 01:23:45,040 I would've beaten around the bush for weeks. 957 01:23:45,120 --> 01:23:47,680 I know. That's why I said it. 958 01:23:53,560 --> 01:23:57,320 And I just found out that I was lost myself, 959 01:23:57,400 --> 01:24:01,280 and that I could not entirely be myself in my relationship with my ex 960 01:24:01,360 --> 01:24:03,280 and also with my parents and stuff. 961 01:24:03,960 --> 01:24:06,760 And there are a lot of positive things in there as well. 962 01:24:06,840 --> 01:24:10,600 It's very personal. I mean, all my friends are in it. 963 01:24:10,680 --> 01:24:12,040 It's super queer. 964 01:24:12,920 --> 01:24:16,800 It has actually become kind of a collection of memories. 965 01:24:18,160 --> 01:24:21,760 And you were right about the searching and who was the hero of the story. 966 01:24:22,880 --> 01:24:28,240 Well, I have just been subconsciously sabotaging my own life. 967 01:24:29,360 --> 01:24:32,600 I have taken everything for granted. 968 01:24:35,280 --> 01:24:38,720 But, okay, yes, I'm behind this book 100%, 969 01:24:38,800 --> 01:24:42,880 so if you don't like it, then I just don't know what to do anymore. 970 01:24:42,960 --> 01:24:44,560 Then it's over. 971 01:24:45,480 --> 01:24:46,400 Anne. 972 01:24:47,320 --> 01:24:48,800 I really liked it. 973 01:24:51,560 --> 01:24:52,480 -Really? -Yes. 974 01:24:52,560 --> 01:24:55,040 It's still searching, but with a goal. 975 01:24:55,720 --> 01:24:59,320 And you feel how personal it is, but it's also very relatable. 976 01:25:00,440 --> 01:25:01,880 You've found your story. 977 01:25:03,320 --> 01:25:05,320 Well, I'm glad. 978 01:25:06,040 --> 01:25:07,880 -And the title? -Yes. 979 01:25:08,680 --> 01:25:12,480 It's about who the main character is in relation to the people around her. 980 01:25:13,280 --> 01:25:14,520 Hence the… 981 01:25:14,600 --> 01:25:15,640 I understand. 982 01:25:27,400 --> 01:25:28,920 Hey! Hi. 983 01:25:33,480 --> 01:25:34,760 Annie! 984 01:25:37,640 --> 01:25:39,960 -Hey. Shantay, you stay, dick. -Yes. 985 01:25:40,040 --> 01:25:41,320 What's all this then? 986 01:25:41,400 --> 01:25:45,000 Yeah, well, we had originally organized a going-away party for you, but… 987 01:25:45,600 --> 01:25:47,880 So now it's an Anne-is-staying-here party. 988 01:25:47,960 --> 01:25:50,320 And hopefully an Anne-finished-her-book party. 989 01:25:50,400 --> 01:25:52,640 Oh God, I love you so much. 990 01:25:52,720 --> 01:25:54,080 And your book? 991 01:25:54,680 --> 01:25:56,640 Yes, my book is being published! 992 01:25:58,680 --> 01:25:59,520 Cheers. 993 01:26:01,080 --> 01:26:03,160 To you, dear An, and to your book, 994 01:26:03,240 --> 01:26:07,320 which you, of course, owe entirely to us because, well, we are all in it. 995 01:26:07,400 --> 01:26:08,680 Yes, well, yeah. 996 01:26:08,760 --> 01:26:10,800 -Cheers! -Cheers! 997 01:26:11,880 --> 01:26:12,960 Thanks, darlings. 998 01:26:13,040 --> 01:26:14,120 I've made skewers. 999 01:26:14,200 --> 01:26:15,320 No, you didn't… 1000 01:26:26,920 --> 01:26:27,920 Dear Saar, 1001 01:26:29,520 --> 01:26:33,320 our last night together has become a bad memory 1002 01:26:33,400 --> 01:26:34,520 and I don't want that. 1003 01:26:37,720 --> 01:26:40,800 I want to hold on to our beautiful memories so badly. 1004 01:26:44,760 --> 01:26:48,040 But I also think different things make us happy. 1005 01:26:48,640 --> 01:26:50,040 And that's okay. 1006 01:26:51,800 --> 01:26:53,160 I'm happy now. 1007 01:26:54,760 --> 01:26:55,920 At home, 1008 01:26:56,000 --> 01:26:57,120 in Amsterdam, 1009 01:26:57,640 --> 01:26:58,720 with my friends. 1010 01:27:02,520 --> 01:27:05,880 I hope that you are too. 1011 01:27:07,280 --> 01:27:09,840 And sorry for the things I said, 1012 01:27:10,400 --> 01:27:12,880 or maybe didn't say. 1013 01:27:12,960 --> 01:27:15,240 I know how frustrating I can be. 1014 01:27:17,680 --> 01:27:20,280 {\an8}I have become better at it, at talking. 1015 01:27:21,640 --> 01:27:24,800 I mean, I'm still bad at it, but better. 1016 01:27:26,280 --> 01:27:30,840 I hope that you're also busy investing in new memories. 1017 01:27:32,520 --> 01:27:36,800 My mom said that recently, that the best investment that you can make 1018 01:27:36,880 --> 01:27:38,240 is in memories. 1019 01:27:41,000 --> 01:27:42,520 So that's what I'm doing. 1020 01:27:49,200 --> 01:27:51,000 Three, two, one… 1021 01:27:52,880 --> 01:27:54,840 No! 1022 01:27:55,680 --> 01:27:57,440 And I really am feeling better. 1023 01:27:58,960 --> 01:28:00,520 I rewrote my book. 1024 01:28:01,480 --> 01:28:03,440 And yes. 1025 01:28:04,920 --> 01:28:07,680 You are inevitably in it. 1026 01:28:23,160 --> 01:28:24,600 I hope that you like it 1027 01:28:25,520 --> 01:28:29,200 and also recognize our fun and nice moments in it. 1028 01:28:30,360 --> 01:28:33,680 -Hey. Wow, so nice that you're here. -Yeah, congratulations. 1029 01:28:35,760 --> 01:28:39,560 Anyway, read it or don't. 1030 01:28:43,880 --> 01:28:45,760 I hope you're doing well. 1031 01:28:48,240 --> 01:28:49,240 Much love.