1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:27,192 --> 00:00:30,195 - Did you see Grandma again this week? 4 00:00:32,156 --> 00:00:35,074 - Yeah. 5 00:00:35,075 --> 00:00:37,411 - What happened? 6 00:00:38,954 --> 00:00:43,250 Ah, she said she was really worried... 7 00:00:44,752 --> 00:00:52,752 "I've had depression. I know it's hard, but I had my reasons. 8 00:00:56,430 --> 00:01:02,478 And I was like "I have it too. Of course I do. Just look at me!" 9 00:01:03,729 --> 00:01:08,901 And she said... 10 00:01:10,486 --> 00:01:17,743 "I know why... You wish you were a boy." 11 00:01:18,702 --> 00:01:22,915 And I was like "No Grandma! Of course not! 12 00:01:22,956 --> 00:01:26,001 It's nothing to do with that... 13 00:01:26,877 --> 00:01:30,464 I'm completely comfortable in my body. 14 00:01:31,131 --> 00:01:34,717 I just want to feel comfortable being a woman with short hair... 15 00:01:34,718 --> 00:01:37,345 wearing the clothes I do." 16 00:01:37,346 --> 00:01:39,597 She said "no, but don't you want to have surgery? 17 00:01:39,598 --> 00:01:42,726 Get rid of your breasts? Don't you hate your body?" 18 00:01:43,018 --> 00:01:46,897 And I was like "no, Grandma. No way!" And I kept trying... 19 00:01:47,106 --> 00:01:51,860 I kept explaining it to her for like ages! 20 00:01:52,111 --> 00:01:55,030 Then I just... 21 00:02:31,400 --> 00:02:35,737 - Ya, turn over for me? 22 00:02:41,451 --> 00:02:44,788 - Rá, lie on Yaki's tummy. 23 00:02:51,253 --> 00:02:52,921 - Higher up. 24 00:02:55,132 --> 00:02:58,093 - No, near her chest. That's it. 25 00:02:58,510 --> 00:03:01,180 - Raise the arm without the tattoo. 26 00:03:02,931 --> 00:03:05,100 - Without the red one! 27 00:03:05,851 --> 00:03:07,978 - Higher, higher. 28 00:04:11,375 --> 00:04:13,919 - I just can't let my hair grow anymore. 29 00:04:15,128 --> 00:04:19,216 I tried, I swear! 30 00:04:20,050 --> 00:04:23,303 – But when was the first time you shaved it? 31 00:04:25,764 --> 00:04:29,643 2015. After the sit-ins. It was around then. 32 00:04:30,060 --> 00:04:34,815 I arrived at the Fernão school sit-in with it shaved already. 33 00:04:34,982 --> 00:04:38,110 – I shaved mine around the time of the sit-ins too. 34 00:04:38,944 --> 00:04:42,613 - I met you when you had it short, but Lana still had it long. 35 00:04:42,614 --> 00:04:46,242 – Lana had that Emo fringe, that she hates us talking about! 36 00:04:46,243 --> 00:04:49,078 I've never been an Emo in my life. For fuck's sake! 37 00:04:49,079 --> 00:04:50,246 - But it was an Emo fringe. 38 00:04:50,247 --> 00:04:54,501 It was a fringe! People just say a fringe is an Emo thing. Come on! 39 00:04:56,003 --> 00:04:57,754 A fringe is just a fringe! 40 00:04:58,380 --> 00:05:00,548 It doesn't mean anything! 41 00:05:00,549 --> 00:05:03,176 - She even turned-off the clippers! 42 00:05:05,846 --> 00:05:07,556 - Really? 43 00:05:09,349 --> 00:05:12,977 - Hey, don't piss her off or she'll fuck up my hair! 44 00:05:12,978 --> 00:05:14,855 - I'll run trough here! 45 00:05:16,189 --> 00:05:19,026 - Lana, a bit more to the side. The other side. 46 00:05:21,278 --> 00:05:22,278 Looks nice. 47 00:05:25,824 --> 00:05:26,824 - Thanks. 48 00:05:27,701 --> 00:05:30,537 – Want me to cut yours now? – Sure. 49 00:06:15,916 --> 00:06:19,002 – After I shaved my head we broke up. 50 00:06:19,378 --> 00:06:22,089 – We met up as friends... 51 00:06:22,422 --> 00:06:23,673 and he said to me 52 00:06:23,882 --> 00:06:26,426 “Ah, Ananda, I saw you shaved your head... 53 00:06:26,760 --> 00:06:30,472 just don't become too much of a dyke, coz I still wanna go out with you, OK?" 54 00:06:31,348 --> 00:06:32,224 Men... 55 00:06:32,225 --> 00:06:36,353 "I never thought about, like, cumming with you and... 56 00:06:37,854 --> 00:06:41,024 shut the fuck up!", you know? – You should have said that! 57 00:06:41,441 --> 00:06:45,570 – I used to say to my friends I was like asexual and shit... 58 00:06:47,697 --> 00:06:51,326 and there was no way I was a lesbian... 59 00:06:51,952 --> 00:06:55,539 because I'd always been really feminine. 60 00:06:57,833 --> 00:07:01,253 I didn't think lesbians could be feminine, ya know? 61 00:07:03,463 --> 00:07:05,006 That's fucked up. 62 00:07:28,864 --> 00:07:31,866 – That's a lot of guys. – A lot of guys? 63 00:07:31,867 --> 00:07:33,827 – A lot of guys. 64 00:07:40,125 --> 00:07:46,173 – And, like, these guys aren't gonna take us seriously. 65 00:07:51,595 --> 00:07:53,472 It's the same everywhere. 66 00:07:55,932 --> 00:07:59,602 Say, like, for exemple, we had a tambourine. 67 00:07:59,603 --> 00:08:04,232 If it was a guy over here playing the tambourine he'd say "Hey, get in!" 68 00:08:04,441 --> 00:08:08,028 But he just asked for it and gave it to a guy, ya know? 69 00:08:08,153 --> 00:08:11,781 Didn't even ask if Elis knew how to play it or anything. 70 00:08:14,993 --> 00:08:19,788 There are no girls participating in the music itself, ya know. 71 00:08:19,789 --> 00:08:23,710 They just watch... It's always the same. 72 00:08:24,002 --> 00:08:26,963 He can't even play properly. 73 00:08:30,133 --> 00:08:33,136 Hey, come on! Let's put our chairs behind them! 74 00:08:33,887 --> 00:08:38,725 – Seriously, come on! – Oh, do we have to? 75 00:08:42,687 --> 00:08:45,064 – Hey, Bro, can I play the tambourine with you guys? 76 00:08:45,065 --> 00:08:46,565 – Go for it. 77 00:08:46,566 --> 00:08:47,859 – Cool. 78 00:08:48,443 --> 00:08:52,364 Anyway you're beating the shit out of it, man! 79 00:08:57,827 --> 00:09:00,287 Today I came to tell you 80 00:09:00,288 --> 00:09:04,583 That in a second your life will change 81 00:09:04,584 --> 00:09:08,838 When the world goes silent 82 00:09:09,464 --> 00:09:11,508 In silence the body speaks 83 00:09:11,758 --> 00:09:14,176 And heats up the heart 84 00:09:14,177 --> 00:09:19,391 It's easier to feel The sense of eternity 85 00:09:22,477 --> 00:09:27,274 Let feelings flourish 86 00:09:27,732 --> 00:09:31,652 And they'll make you grow 87 00:09:31,653 --> 00:09:36,241 Let feelings flourish 88 00:09:36,825 --> 00:09:40,912 And they'll make you grow 89 00:09:54,634 --> 00:09:59,139 Going out with the girls I always felt like a voyeur. 90 00:09:59,431 --> 00:10:04,935 As if I was there, watching... 91 00:10:04,936 --> 00:10:07,563 but not part of what was going on. 92 00:10:07,564 --> 00:10:12,359 So I always thought this is shit in my head... 93 00:10:12,360 --> 00:10:15,572 that I should stop being such a drama queen and then... 94 00:10:16,698 --> 00:10:22,120 I felt really lonely, like there was nobody close to me. 95 00:10:24,998 --> 00:10:30,253 Then I went to the Candomblé house and things began to get better. 96 00:10:30,795 --> 00:10:34,174 Loneliness is something that always... 97 00:10:34,924 --> 00:10:41,221 it's one of my biggest fears in life. To be alone. 98 00:10:41,222 --> 00:10:49,222 I know there's all that about keeping yourself company. 99 00:10:50,815 --> 00:10:55,487 But at the same time I don't want to be alone. I don't want to feel lonely. 100 00:10:55,570 --> 00:11:01,325 – But this thing about being lonely by yourself... 101 00:11:01,326 --> 00:11:05,537 and feeling comfortable with that is a process that has to happen. 102 00:11:05,538 --> 00:11:08,415 But it's not something you can force. – Yeah. 103 00:11:08,416 --> 00:11:11,835 – Loneliness isn't solitude, is it? You have to be OK by yourself. 104 00:11:11,836 --> 00:11:18,425 Loneliness is when you really feel excluded and alone 105 00:11:18,426 --> 00:11:23,223 and everything around you makes you feel that way. 106 00:11:41,533 --> 00:11:48,665 When I started working I was scared coz of my hair. 107 00:11:49,958 --> 00:11:56,256 I'd always had a black power Afro. I never straightened it. 108 00:11:57,590 --> 00:11:59,926 – And your Mum never wanted you to straighten it? 109 00:12:00,635 --> 00:12:06,057 – I was lucky because my Mum was always a militant... 110 00:12:06,349 --> 00:12:09,352 – My mum was never aware of reclaiming her black identity. 111 00:12:09,356 --> 00:12:12,359 – Yeah, my mum was a rebel for her time. 112 00:12:13,148 --> 00:12:16,401 She was raised at an orphanage, you know? 113 00:12:16,422 --> 00:12:20,697 She used to run away to watch "Os Racionais" in concert. 114 00:12:20,856 --> 00:12:22,323 It was when they first started. 115 00:12:22,949 --> 00:12:27,328 So she grew up with this positive message. 116 00:12:28,580 --> 00:12:34,210 That we don't have to adhere to a white aesthetic. 117 00:12:34,836 --> 00:12:36,712 So I was lucky. 118 00:12:36,713 --> 00:12:39,257 When I was younger, I always wanted to straighten my hair. 119 00:12:39,549 --> 00:12:41,259 But she never let me. 120 00:12:41,426 --> 00:12:47,474 It didn't matter if I begged or cried or got on my knees. 121 00:12:49,350 --> 00:12:52,604 Lots of white people associate Afro hair with dirt, you know? 122 00:12:54,731 --> 00:12:58,359 So I used to compulsively wash it, like every day. 123 00:13:00,278 --> 00:13:03,573 I used to put perfume on my scalp! Can you believe it? 124 00:13:04,157 --> 00:13:08,703 Seriously! I was afraid people would think I was dirty. 125 00:13:16,878 --> 00:13:21,549 After I cut my hair and stopped straightening it, I started... 126 00:13:21,841 --> 00:13:27,013 well, at first it was a shock. I cried and didn't leave home... 127 00:13:27,055 --> 00:13:30,099 or go to school even. I didn't want to do anything. 128 00:13:30,141 --> 00:13:32,769 I couldn't look at myself in the mirror because I felt horrible. 129 00:13:33,269 --> 00:13:36,563 But now... Man... I look at the pictures from before 130 00:13:36,564 --> 00:13:40,984 it wasn't even straight. It wouldn't stay straight. 131 00:13:40,985 --> 00:13:44,696 It was just ugly. I'd say, man... look at this ugly mess. 132 00:13:44,697 --> 00:13:48,117 But today I feel better about looking at myself in the mirror. 133 00:13:48,159 --> 00:13:50,203 Now I think it's beautiful. My hair is awesome! 134 00:13:50,453 --> 00:13:57,752 – That happened to me between 4th and 5th grade. 135 00:13:59,879 --> 00:14:05,050 – I used to have it in braids, always. – Like tied up? 136 00:14:05,051 --> 00:14:09,430 My mum would make two braids and send me to school. 137 00:14:10,557 --> 00:14:13,184 Then one day my mum was really sick. 138 00:14:13,351 --> 00:14:19,899 She couldn't get out of bed. So there was no one to do my hair. 139 00:14:21,317 --> 00:14:27,907 So I had to let it down and go to school like that. 140 00:14:28,116 --> 00:14:31,160 I'd never been to school with my hair down until then. 141 00:14:32,537 --> 00:14:35,038 I remember I was really embarrassed. 142 00:14:35,039 --> 00:14:42,130 I was so ashamed I asked a teacher to go to class with me... 143 00:16:00,279 --> 00:16:01,459 What if... 144 00:16:02,954 --> 00:16:08,132 I thought of a melody for the lyrics I wrote. 145 00:16:11,251 --> 00:16:15,807 She comes from the Ocean She comes from pain 146 00:16:15,932 --> 00:16:19,727 Resistance is a woman, girl, flower 147 00:16:20,546 --> 00:16:24,524 Breakwater, break the tide 148 00:16:25,024 --> 00:16:28,361 Break the tide, woman 149 00:16:31,204 --> 00:16:35,410 Breakwater, break the tide 150 00:16:35,785 --> 00:16:38,788 Break the tide, woman 151 00:16:44,103 --> 00:16:48,297 – What if we used this as a base, but we sang two lines? 152 00:16:48,548 --> 00:16:51,718 Two of us sing this and the other two sing something else? 153 00:16:52,673 --> 00:16:55,304 It comes from within... 154 00:16:59,425 --> 00:17:05,106 Maybe the moment she figures out what she wants to share... 155 00:17:05,739 --> 00:17:08,151 and what she wants to be for people... 156 00:17:10,627 --> 00:17:15,033 a whisper, her presence is a scream. 157 00:17:16,937 --> 00:17:19,328 I thought we could say something like that. 158 00:17:20,922 --> 00:17:22,581 – It was a whisper and now it's a scream? 159 00:17:22,582 --> 00:17:26,502 – From the inside to the outside, from a whisper to a scream. 160 00:17:26,812 --> 00:17:31,466 Dressed from the inside out a whisper becomes a scream 161 00:17:31,883 --> 00:17:34,552 Let's take it from the top, from "She comes from the Ocean" 162 00:17:37,254 --> 00:17:41,559 She comes from the Ocean She comes from pain 163 00:17:41,819 --> 00:17:45,021 Resistance is a woman, girl, flower 164 00:17:46,627 --> 00:17:50,068 She comes from the Ocean She comes from pain 165 00:17:51,207 --> 00:17:54,906 Resistance is a woman, girl, flower 166 00:17:55,379 --> 00:17:57,909 Ok so... "dressed from the inside out..." 167 00:17:58,295 --> 00:18:01,579 Is that it? Is that right? If not, I'll cross it out. 168 00:19:22,282 --> 00:19:26,247 I read some research that said that our political protests... 169 00:19:27,148 --> 00:19:33,838 since 2013, left people traumatized. 170 00:19:37,341 --> 00:19:40,928 It is equivalent to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. 171 00:19:42,002 --> 00:19:43,431 PTSD... 172 00:19:43,514 --> 00:19:47,852 I have problems with loud bangs not just fireworks. 173 00:19:47,935 --> 00:19:50,438 Any loud noise that catches me by surprise. 174 00:19:51,512 --> 00:19:55,151 It always kicks off a reaction, like I get breathless and stuff. 175 00:19:55,672 --> 00:20:01,199 One of the protests was really traumatic for Lana and me 176 00:20:01,622 --> 00:20:08,372 it was the cause of my anxiety and panic attacks and stuff. 177 00:20:09,269 --> 00:20:15,630 It was with the school kids when we closed-off a street. 178 00:20:17,924 --> 00:20:22,053 And suddenly the police arrived with stun grenades. 179 00:20:22,763 --> 00:20:26,390 So we ran away and closed-off another street and then... 180 00:20:26,470 --> 00:20:30,770 The riot police arrived, with military and others. 181 00:20:31,950 --> 00:20:34,147 Man, there were so many police that day... 182 00:20:34,148 --> 00:20:36,525 six helicopters in the sky. 183 00:20:37,568 --> 00:20:40,862 They had guns pointing at us and they'd cut us off. 184 00:20:40,863 --> 00:20:43,658 So they surrounded us at this narrow street. 185 00:20:43,870 --> 00:20:46,869 – You know those shields? – The ones the riot police use? 186 00:20:46,994 --> 00:20:51,415 Yeah, they surrounded us and made a circle. We had to kneel. 187 00:20:52,083 --> 00:20:55,544 Everyone was on the floor with their hands up. 188 00:20:56,221 --> 00:20:58,005 – All high school kid? – Yeah. 189 00:20:58,702 --> 00:21:01,633 Then they started throwing grenades in the middle of the circle. 190 00:21:01,634 --> 00:21:03,052 Lots of grenades 191 00:21:03,188 --> 00:21:09,725 Lana passed out and then me and about 10 of us... 192 00:21:29,865 --> 00:21:34,708 Get out of the Ocean, my mermaid And come play by yourself 193 00:21:34,709 --> 00:21:37,919 Get out of the Ocean, my mermaid Get out of the Ocean 194 00:21:37,920 --> 00:21:39,462 And come play in the sand 195 00:21:39,463 --> 00:21:44,302 Get out of the Ocean, my mermaid And come play by yourself 196 00:22:32,059 --> 00:22:33,559 – Guys, happy New Year! 197 00:22:33,852 --> 00:22:35,143 – Happy New Year. 198 00:22:35,144 --> 00:22:37,104 – Wow, what a sudden goodbye. 199 00:22:37,267 --> 00:22:39,106 – Hey, not even a hug? 200 00:22:39,367 --> 00:22:42,818 – We're staying here together for the countdown to midnight. 201 00:22:43,241 --> 00:22:45,112 – What time is it? 202 00:22:45,959 --> 00:22:51,327 I'm going to ask Oxalá Oxalá is my guide 203 00:22:53,579 --> 00:22:58,042 It was Oxalá who sent you 204 00:23:00,240 --> 00:23:04,382 So much searching with no answers 205 00:23:04,423 --> 00:23:08,594 So much searching with no answers 206 00:23:17,968 --> 00:23:20,480 – One minute left! – One minute! 207 00:23:20,481 --> 00:23:22,441 – ¡Un minuto! – Put your earphones on. 208 00:23:25,347 --> 00:23:29,365 I've come to open the doors 209 00:23:29,944 --> 00:23:33,744 Love has brought me here 210 00:23:35,139 --> 00:23:41,419 All the hate in this house turn around and don't look back 211 00:24:18,592 --> 00:24:22,209 I've come to open the doors 212 00:24:22,697 --> 00:24:26,255 Mother nature brought me here 213 00:24:27,212 --> 00:24:30,592 Bless your sons, my God 214 00:24:30,593 --> 00:24:33,804 Bless Earth, Fire, Water and Air 215 00:24:52,326 --> 00:24:56,243 – I think we're going to be lucky, coz we started off singing, right? 216 00:24:58,857 --> 00:25:01,873 – Lots of luck for us. Lots of axé. 217 00:25:01,874 --> 00:25:03,208 – I love you all a lot 218 00:25:03,209 --> 00:25:04,417 - I love you too. 219 00:25:04,418 --> 00:25:06,712 – Lots and lots and lots.