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ABE: Kant said human reason is troubled by
questions that it cannot dismiss,

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but also cannot answer.

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Okay, so, what are we talking about here?

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Morality? Choice?

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The randomness of life?
Aesthetics? Murder?

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JILL: I think Abe was crazy
from the beginning.

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Was it from stress? Was it anger?

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Was he disgusted by what he saw
as life's never-ending suffering?

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Or was he simply bored

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by the meaninglessness
of day-to-day existence?

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He was so damn interesting.
And different.

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And a good talker.

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And he could always
cloud the issue with words.

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ABE: Where to begin?

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You know, the existentialists
feel nothing happens

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until you hit absolute rock bottom.

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Well, let's say that when I went
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emotionally, I was at Zabriskie Point.

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Of course, my reputation,
or should I say a reputation, preceded me.

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JOE: I hear Abe Lucas is gonna be
joinin' the faculty this summer.

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JUDY: Really?

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That should put some Viagra
into the philosophy department.

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He's this really interesting guy,
but he looks totally wasted.

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I kind of like the burned-out look, though.

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Oh, my God, me too.

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Well, yeah, and he has affairs
with some of his students, I heard.

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- Really?
- Yeah, like full... Yeah.

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Abe Lucas is teaching
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for summer session.

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- Have you read any of his papers?
- Mmm-hmm.

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He's very radical.
Very original.

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You either love him or hate him, really.

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Faye Cohen knows someone who knows him,

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but she says, he had a serious depression
when his wife left him.

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The story is, she ran off
with his best friend.

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Really?

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'Cause, actually,
what I heard through the rumor mill

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was he had a breakdown
when his best friend was killed.

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He was a TV crew guy in Iraq
and he got beheaded.

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Isn't that gruesome if it's true?

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Jesus, I haven't even met the guy yet,
and I'm already jealous.

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(CHUCKLING) Jealous?
I love that you're jealous.

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That makes me feel desired.

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Oh, God, you don't have to worry.
Everybody on campus desires you.

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- Oh, come on.
- But I have you.

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I don't know, suddenly the thought of you

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coming under the spell
of some charismatic professor...

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Oh, God, you don't have to worry.
I'm under your spell.

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Good. Let's keep it that way.

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- Yeah?
- Mmm-hmm.

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Excuse me.

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Uh, do you know where Jessup Hall is?

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Yes, Jessup Hall is that building
over there, the red one.

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Uh-huh, all right.
Thank you.

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ASSISTANT: Doctor Reed?

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- Oh.
- ASSISTANT: Professor Lucas.

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- Professor Lucas, welcome to Braylin.
- Thank you.

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- Are you okay?
- Yes.

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- I'm sure you've had a long trip.
- Mmm-hmm. It was, yeah.

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- Well, um...
- Thank you.

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We've just concluded our spring semester,

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and summer's always very active at Braylin.

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(SIGHING) Uh-huh.

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We're all very happy to have you here
in the philosophy department.

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Mmm, thank you.

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This is it.

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Now, the faculty housing
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but, you know, everything you can get to.

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It's within walking distance of the campus.

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And you're really gonna like Newport.

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It's beautiful here, but it gets
a little crowded in the summer.

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That can be a drag.

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It's a small house, but
it's really comfortable.

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Um, right over here is the living room,
and there's a little kitchen that way.

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And there's a little dining room
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Upstairs...

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This way.

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Bathroom to the right.

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And this is the bedroom.
It's small, but really comfortable.

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And there's an office over there.

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I think you'll really love
the philosophy department, you know?

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It's in this old, beautiful
part of the campus.

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And there's a more modern wing,

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that's got state-of-the-art
stuff for science,

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and computer technology,
if you're into that.

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Oh, and if you want to go away,
we're just 45 minutes from Providence.

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Thank you.
Do you want a drink?

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(CHUCKLING) Oh, no! God, no.

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There's a little cocktail reception
to welcome you at 6:00.

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(INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS)

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You know, I have to tell you,
I loved your essay on situational ethics.

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Oh, I'm glad you liked it.

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It caused a little, uh, static
with the philosophy department at Adair.

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- This is my husband, Paul.
- Hey, how you doin'?

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- This is Abe Lucas, philosophy department.
- BOTH: Good to meet you.

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- Yeah.
- How you doin' on that?

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I'd like another one, please.

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- What is it?
- Vodka martini, extra olives.

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- Anything for you?
- Sure, I'll have another.

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- Uh, scotch?
- Mmm-hmm.

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- Okay.
- Thank you.

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I'm Rita Richards.
It's so good to have you here.

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Hey, if you're ever bored
and you want someone to give you

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the real lowdown of
who's fucking who at this college,

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just let me know.

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So, Kant would argue
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there is absolutely no room for lying.

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And even the smallest lie

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destroys his precious
categorical imperative.

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So, Kant would say,
if a killer came to your house,

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looking to kill the man hiding upstairs
and asked where he was,

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you'd be obliged to tell him.

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In his perfect world,
you know, you couldn't lie.

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Yeah, I can see the logic

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that if you open the
door, even just a crack,

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you accept a world where
lying is permitted.

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Uh-huh.

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Okay, then, then you'd say
if the Nazis came to your house,

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hiding Anne Frank and her family,

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and asked if anyone
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(IMITATING GERMAN ACCENT)
"Ja, the Franks are upstairs."

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I doubt it.

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Because there's a difference between

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a theoretical world of philosophy bullshit,

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and real life, you know?

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Real, nasty, ugly life

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that includes greed, and
hate, and genocide.

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Remember, if you learn
nothing else from me,

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you should learn that much of philosophy
is verbal masturbation.

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EDGAR: Have you talked to him at all?
MS. LEONARD: Mmm.

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You know, I asked him
if he wanted to eat with us.

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- I like the guy, but he's in a world...
- He likes to eat alone.

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Yeah, he's in a world all his own.

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I think he likes to keep to himself a bit.

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Uh, yeah, I guess so.

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Yeah, so, let him be. Right?

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- Could take some time.
- Right.

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ABE: Okay, Kierkegaard.

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Um...

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You know, when making everyday decisions,

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we have absolute freedom of choice.

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All right?
You can do nothing, or anything.

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And this feeling of freedom
creates a sense of dread.

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A dizzy feeling.

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Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom.

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RITA: The students love you,

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but, of course, you've raised
some eyebrows with the faculty.

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- Do you ever get discouraged teaching?
- No.

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You don't ever ask yourself
what the hell is it all about?

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Mmm-mmm.

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Another school, another batch of kids.

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Sweet kids.

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Mmm. Average kids.

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Nice, but mostly mediocre.

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They'll grow up to be those people
who shape the world with their ignorance

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or misinformation, or passivity.

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'Are you Okay?
"Hmm?

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- Are you okay?
- Yeah, yeah.

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You want to come in?
This is where I live.

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Paul's in Aspen at a symposium.
I've got great grass.

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- (CLICKS TONGUE) Some other time.
- Are you sure?

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Yeah.

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Thanks. Thanks anyway.
I'll see you.

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Tomorrow we're gonna discuss
phenomenology and Husserl.

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So, be sure you do the reading, you know?

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It can get a little complicated.

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All right?

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Hi, you wanted to see me?

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Yes, your paper was quite good.

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- Really?
- Yes.

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I read so many papers and,

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usually the students are merely
paraphrasing what they've read,

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but I found your thinking
fresh and well-presented.

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Oh, thank you.
I'm flattered.

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I have to say, I was very influenced by
your ideas on randomness and chance.

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Well, the truth is, what
I found most exciting

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was when you took issue with my ideas.

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When you disagreed with me,

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your arguments were
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(LAUGHING) Am I blushing right now?

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That's a really big compliment.
Thank you.

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Um, I did actually find
some parts of your book

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a little hard to follow though,

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and I would love if you
could explain some things to me.

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Sure, can we get out of here,
though, before I die of suffocation?

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I found your view of existence
too bleak for me.

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It was like there were
no redeeming joys or pleasures.

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Okay.

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Why are you taking philosophy?
What do you want out of it?

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Because if your goal is
to try and figure out

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what all this bullshit's about, forget it.

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You write books, you write papers.
You've done so much.

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Well, let me tell you, when I look back
at all that verbal posturing,

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my group thought we were
going to be so special.

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I marched in every bullshit
political demonstration.

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I spent six months in Darfur
getting food to starving families,

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I wind up with meningitis.

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- Mmm.
- I was in Bangladesh.

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Yeah, you know, you want to see
a difference, to save the world.

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(SIGHING) But when you see
what you're up against...

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Do you like vintage single malt?
You drink?

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You mean here?

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- Yeah.
- (CHUCKLING) Right now?

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(CHUCKLING) No, no, I couldn't.

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JILL: There was no way I could have
realized from that first conversation

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that a lot was very wrong with Abe.

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He was so damn fascinating and vulnerable,
and I must say, I found him attractive.

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I guess it helped that
he felt comfortable with me.

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I drove a cab.

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- I was a handyman in a building.
- (CHUCKLES)

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I ran an elevator.
But I always read.

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Always, always loved the Russian writers.

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Especially Dostoyevsky.
Dostoyevsky got it.

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I've read all of it.

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- Really?
- Mmm.

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JILL: Oh, I had a great conversation
with Abe Lucas the other day.

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Uh-huh.

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He said my paper was
well-organized and original.

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- All right.
- Right?

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Yeah, I can see where this is goin'.

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Oh, stop it, please.

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He's just fascinating because he's
brilliant, but he's a sufferer.

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Perfect. Great, you always
became attracted to the sufferers.

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Right? That's how we first met.

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He's a real sufferer, Roy.
You had shingles.

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(CHUCKLES)

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He was traumatized
when his best friend was killed in Iraq.

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- He was a journalist, just horrifying.
- Didn't he get his head cut off?

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His head cut off?
No, no, it was an explosion.

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ROY: Oh.

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God, it's amazing how people
embellish these stories.

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You know, Abe actually says
that people just manufacture drama

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so they can get through their lives
because they're so empty.

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Can we just change the subject
of Abe Lucas, please?

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You've been, like, singing
his praises for half an hour.

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All right, well, then,
how about I sing yours?

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- Okay. Yeah, yeah. Good.
- How's that?

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I love you in that sweater.

241
00:13:13,400 --> 00:13:15,607
Of course, you love me in this sweater.
You bought it for me.

242
00:13:15,760 --> 00:13:18,730
Well, you look great in that shade of blue.

243
00:13:18,960 --> 00:13:20,530
You really do.

244
00:13:21,240 --> 00:13:23,447
You know Abe's mother committed suicide?

245
00:13:23,600 --> 00:13:24,681
Abe again?

246
00:13:24,840 --> 00:13:27,207
I mean, can you imagine?
He was 12.

247
00:13:27,360 --> 00:13:30,011
She drank bleach!
It's so sad.

248
00:13:30,760 --> 00:13:34,367
You know, Simone de Beauvoir pointed out,
and quite correctly,

249
00:13:34,520 --> 00:13:36,761
that in a society shaped by men,

250
00:13:36,960 --> 00:13:40,123
women are seen as relative beings
existing only in relationship to men.

251
00:13:40,280 --> 00:13:42,408
- Hmm.
- You agree with that?

252
00:13:43,040 --> 00:13:45,725
- I agree with that completely.
- Mmm-hmm.

253
00:13:45,880 --> 00:13:48,804
I'm sure you've heard the rumors about you.

254
00:13:48,960 --> 00:13:52,123
That you've had a lot of
experience with women.

255
00:13:52,280 --> 00:13:54,203
You mean slept with.

256
00:13:54,920 --> 00:13:57,002
You find that fulfilling?

257
00:13:57,200 --> 00:13:59,601
Many women and one-night stands?

258
00:14:00,280 --> 00:14:02,044
I did at the time.

259
00:14:02,600 --> 00:14:05,080
It had a certain frantic quality.

260
00:14:06,320 --> 00:14:08,129
One day, it stopped being exciting.

261
00:14:09,080 --> 00:14:10,525
I couldn't find distraction anymore

262
00:14:10,680 --> 00:14:13,923
in that usually reliable
painkiller, the orgasm.

263
00:14:14,600 --> 00:14:16,045
Why not?

264
00:14:16,680 --> 00:14:19,604
I couldn't remember the reason for living.

265
00:14:20,000 --> 00:14:23,163
(SIGHING) And when I did,
it wasn't convincing.

266
00:14:23,520 --> 00:14:25,363
That sounds scary.

267
00:14:26,880 --> 00:14:29,690
It's very scary when
you run out of distractions.

268
00:14:31,000 --> 00:14:32,240
Well, what if it wasn't a distraction?

269
00:14:32,400 --> 00:14:36,246
What if you just decided
to commit yourself to one person?

270
00:14:36,760 --> 00:14:40,731
If I met someone now,
I'm too far gone to appreciate her.

271
00:14:43,360 --> 00:14:46,284
(SIGHING) I have to go to my piano lesson.

272
00:14:47,840 --> 00:14:50,047
What are you doing on Friday night?

273
00:14:51,800 --> 00:14:54,485
(SIGHING) Oh, I don't know.
Why?

274
00:14:55,280 --> 00:14:57,169
I think you should come to a party.

275
00:14:57,640 --> 00:14:58,801
- Uh...
- I do.

276
00:14:59,440 --> 00:15:01,647
Roy and I will take you.
We can go and it'll...

277
00:15:01,800 --> 00:15:03,564
There'll be music and it'll be fun.

278
00:15:03,720 --> 00:15:05,131
There's a lot of students that like you.

279
00:15:05,280 --> 00:15:07,487
- (CHUCKLES SOFTLY)
- There really are.

280
00:15:07,640 --> 00:15:09,881
And I think it's better than
just wallowing in your room.

281
00:15:10,040 --> 00:15:12,361
I don't think that's healthy.

282
00:15:12,640 --> 00:15:15,405
You should think about it.
You want to come out?

283
00:15:16,720 --> 00:15:18,449
(THUNDER RUMBLING)

284
00:15:26,080 --> 00:15:27,844
(KNOCKING AT DOOR)

285
00:15:39,160 --> 00:15:40,650
- Yes?
- Hi.

286
00:15:41,680 --> 00:15:45,321
I'm sorry for dropping in so suddenly but,

287
00:15:46,320 --> 00:15:49,449
I was shopping today at
the liquor store, and,

288
00:15:49,880 --> 00:15:53,646
I came across these two very fine bottles
of single malt scotch,

289
00:15:53,800 --> 00:15:55,245
and I got one for Paul and myself.

290
00:15:55,400 --> 00:15:58,131
And I know how much
you love single malt scotch.

291
00:15:58,280 --> 00:16:02,205
Oh, that was very thoughtful of you.
How much do I owe you?

292
00:16:02,360 --> 00:16:05,409
(CHUCKLES)
Oh, God, no, I bought it for you.

293
00:16:06,000 --> 00:16:07,570
Oh, thank you.

294
00:16:08,440 --> 00:16:12,331
You could have waited to give it to me.
You didn't have to come in the rain.

295
00:16:12,480 --> 00:16:15,245
I couldn't wait.
I was excited over it.

296
00:16:16,920 --> 00:16:18,843
Will you have one with me?

297
00:16:19,040 --> 00:16:21,168
I thought you'd never ask.

298
00:16:24,120 --> 00:16:25,963
Um... Hmm.

299
00:16:27,560 --> 00:16:28,800
What have you been doing?

300
00:16:28,960 --> 00:16:33,249
I'm trying to finish this book
I started a long time ago.

301
00:16:33,400 --> 00:16:36,563
- What's it about?
- About Heidegger and fascism.

302
00:16:37,800 --> 00:16:39,450
Just what the world needs.

303
00:16:39,640 --> 00:16:44,123
Another book about Heidegger and fascism.

304
00:16:45,440 --> 00:16:47,090
How's it coming?

305
00:16:48,080 --> 00:16:51,641
I'm blocked.
I can't write.

306
00:16:52,920 --> 00:16:54,046
Why?

307
00:16:55,680 --> 00:16:57,125
Oh, I...

308
00:16:58,240 --> 00:17:02,802
I can't write 'cause I can't breathe.

309
00:17:08,160 --> 00:17:10,162
What would get you breathing again?

310
00:17:10,720 --> 00:17:12,324
(SIGHS)

311
00:17:12,800 --> 00:17:15,121
I, you know...
The will to breathe.

312
00:17:15,280 --> 00:17:17,851
- Hmm.
- Inspiration, you know?

313
00:17:18,680 --> 00:17:20,330
You need a muse.

314
00:17:21,560 --> 00:17:24,086
I have never needed a muse before.

315
00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:26,331
(SIGHING)

316
00:17:29,520 --> 00:17:31,648
I hope you're not gonna send me
back out into the rain

317
00:17:31,800 --> 00:17:33,928
without sleeping with me.

318
00:17:35,440 --> 00:17:36,726
I'm trying to write.

319
00:17:37,200 --> 00:17:38,725
You're blocked.

320
00:17:39,200 --> 00:17:41,282
I'm going to unblock you.

321
00:17:42,360 --> 00:17:47,241
Or are you becoming infatuated with
that student you spend so much time with?

322
00:17:55,560 --> 00:17:57,369
When the hurricane hit in New Orleans,

323
00:17:57,520 --> 00:18:00,330
Abe went down there
and stayed for six weeks.

324
00:18:00,480 --> 00:18:03,404
He said the problems
were completely overwhelming.

325
00:18:03,600 --> 00:18:06,683
And the political red tape
and corruption was just a scandal.

326
00:18:07,520 --> 00:18:09,921
He couldn't believe the amount
of stupidity and greed.

327
00:18:10,120 --> 00:18:11,884
It was a scandal for George Bush.

328
00:18:12,040 --> 00:18:13,644
JILL: Well, Abe was right there
in the thick of it,

329
00:18:13,800 --> 00:18:15,768
trying to get something accomplished.

330
00:18:15,920 --> 00:18:19,083
And meanwhile, his wife was
falling in love with his best friend.

331
00:18:19,280 --> 00:18:21,123
- JILL'S MOM: Uh-huh.
- Can you believe that?

332
00:18:21,280 --> 00:18:23,601
Abe really, really loved his wife.

333
00:18:23,760 --> 00:18:26,570
They met on a trip to Machu Picchu
to see the ruins.

334
00:18:26,720 --> 00:18:28,643
- They both experimented with mescaline.
- (JILL'S MOM GRUNTS)

335
00:18:28,800 --> 00:18:32,168
He's actually tried every drug.
He hates them.

336
00:18:32,320 --> 00:18:35,051
He's very conservative
in a kind of liberal way.

337
00:18:35,320 --> 00:18:38,324
- It seems like he really opened up to you.
- Mmm-hmm.

338
00:18:38,480 --> 00:18:40,767
JILL'S MOM: Everyone says
he's not easy to get to know.

339
00:18:40,920 --> 00:18:42,481
Well, I definitely have not found that.

340
00:18:42,520 --> 00:18:45,251
Hey, can we just get off
the topic of Abe Lucas?

341
00:18:45,400 --> 00:18:47,164
I mean, I must say,
I'm not thrilled

342
00:18:47,320 --> 00:18:48,526
that you invited him out
with us tomorrow night

343
00:18:48,680 --> 00:18:49,727
without asking me first.

344
00:18:49,880 --> 00:18:51,609
Well, he needs some human contact, Roy.

345
00:18:51,760 --> 00:18:53,601
Otherwise, he just sits
in his room and broods.

346
00:18:53,640 --> 00:18:56,086
Yeah, but you can see
why I might be jealous, no?

347
00:18:56,280 --> 00:18:58,362
- That's silly.
- (CHUCKLES)

348
00:18:58,800 --> 00:19:00,564
Famous last words.

349
00:19:03,240 --> 00:19:04,605
I'm sorry.

350
00:19:05,680 --> 00:19:09,605
I know it must have been a disappointment,
to say the least.

351
00:19:10,480 --> 00:19:13,006
Have you tried any of the impotence drugs?

352
00:19:13,160 --> 00:19:14,889
It's not physical.

353
00:19:15,040 --> 00:19:17,008
And don't take it personally.

354
00:19:18,160 --> 00:19:21,403
I haven't been able to perform
in nearly a year.

355
00:19:22,400 --> 00:19:24,402
Have you seen a shrink?

356
00:19:25,120 --> 00:19:28,044
'Cause I know a good one for that problem.

357
00:19:29,560 --> 00:19:33,281
I keep hoping it'll come back
as mysteriously as it left.

358
00:19:33,600 --> 00:19:35,364
I'm sorry I let you down.

359
00:19:35,520 --> 00:19:38,444
No, I'm sorry.
I'm sure it's hell for you.

360
00:19:40,360 --> 00:19:42,283
Thanks for the scotch.

361
00:19:44,120 --> 00:19:45,485
(POP MUSIC PLAYING)

362
00:19:45,760 --> 00:19:47,888
(INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS)

363
00:19:52,840 --> 00:19:54,729
What are you doing over here?

364
00:19:54,920 --> 00:20:00,165
Are you having one of your morbid insights
on the transient futility of human joy?

365
00:20:00,320 --> 00:20:02,209
Is my face that grim?

366
00:20:03,400 --> 00:20:05,482
I have never seen a de Kooning
in a private house.

367
00:20:05,680 --> 00:20:08,000
- I know, so my parents got it at auction.
- It's gorgeous.

368
00:20:08,120 --> 00:20:10,009
They're just starting to collect.
They're buying so much.

369
00:20:10,160 --> 00:20:12,606
They got a Kitaj and a Warhol
at Sotheby's, like, last week.

370
00:20:12,760 --> 00:20:13,807
No way!

371
00:20:14,000 --> 00:20:15,047
I know, I know.

372
00:20:15,200 --> 00:20:17,202
JANE: April, honestly,
are you afraid of getting robbed?

373
00:20:17,400 --> 00:20:20,404
No, I mean the house
has alarms, like, all over.

374
00:20:20,560 --> 00:20:22,403
- Show them what your father keeps.
- No.

375
00:20:22,560 --> 00:20:24,761
- Come on, show them...
- I'm not gonna show it to them.

376
00:20:24,880 --> 00:20:28,441
Oh, my God. You do this, like,
every time you come over here.

377
00:20:28,600 --> 00:20:29,681
It's so weird.

378
00:20:29,840 --> 00:20:32,160
We get it, the painting is fine,
the painting is all right.

379
00:20:34,160 --> 00:20:36,128
- (ALL GASPING)
- For the burglars.

380
00:20:36,280 --> 00:20:37,645
MARK: Yes, there it is!

381
00:20:37,840 --> 00:20:39,251
- Come on, give me it, give!
- Oh, my God.

382
00:20:39,400 --> 00:20:40,925
- ROY: Is it loaded?
- This is my baby.

383
00:20:41,080 --> 00:20:43,606
- My baby? Oh, my God.
- (ALL LAUGHING)

384
00:20:43,800 --> 00:20:47,088
No, it's not loaded. It's totally...
I'm taking the bullets out.

385
00:20:47,240 --> 00:20:48,401
Do you shoot this?

386
00:20:48,600 --> 00:20:50,602
APRIL: No, my dad takes it out
into the woods sometimes.

387
00:20:50,760 --> 00:20:52,091
(OVERLAPPING CHATTER)

388
00:20:52,240 --> 00:20:53,890
DANNY: Where they play Russian Roulette.

389
00:20:54,600 --> 00:20:55,965
What's Russian Roulette?

390
00:20:56,120 --> 00:20:57,849
(ALL LAUGHING)

391
00:20:58,000 --> 00:20:59,843
What's Russian Roulette?

392
00:21:00,000 --> 00:21:01,047
- Just explain it.
- All right, fine.

393
00:21:01,280 --> 00:21:02,566
Okay, so, you take a bullet.

394
00:21:02,680 --> 00:21:04,330
(CHUCKLING) Take a bullet
and you put it in the chamber.

395
00:21:04,480 --> 00:21:07,450
- Don't demonstrate it...
- Well, I'm not gonna do it!

396
00:21:07,600 --> 00:21:09,280
So, you... Then you spin it around, right?

397
00:21:09,360 --> 00:21:10,850
And, um, you hold it up to your head.

398
00:21:11,040 --> 00:21:12,201
- You squeeze the trigger.
- JANE: Okay...

399
00:21:12,360 --> 00:21:15,330
And you have five, no, you have
five to one odds that nothing will happen.

400
00:21:15,480 --> 00:21:17,289
But if you're unlucky...

401
00:21:17,480 --> 00:21:18,891
- (LAUGHING) You're just kind of...
- Very unlucky.

402
00:21:19,040 --> 00:21:20,121
Why?

403
00:21:20,280 --> 00:21:22,601
And why do they do this,
just for money, or what?

404
00:21:22,800 --> 00:21:24,962
No, it's like, it's, the stakes are
so much higher than money.

405
00:21:25,120 --> 00:21:27,646
- It's not about money.
- For what? For what end?

406
00:21:27,800 --> 00:21:30,007
You know, you get like a real high
when you pull the trigger and...

407
00:21:30,160 --> 00:21:32,606
- Danny, stop! Put that away.
- (ALL ARGUING)

408
00:21:35,880 --> 00:21:38,167
Here, let me see this.

409
00:21:38,440 --> 00:21:39,726
I don't like guns.

410
00:21:39,920 --> 00:21:41,206
Just be careful.

411
00:21:41,400 --> 00:21:44,051
- (JANE GASPS)
- JILL: Abe, put the gun down!

412
00:21:44,280 --> 00:21:45,641
- (ALL GASPING)
- GIRL: Oh, my God!

413
00:21:46,600 --> 00:21:47,840
- (GUN CLICKS)
- (ALL GASPING)

414
00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:49,411
What the hell are you doing, Abe?

415
00:21:49,880 --> 00:21:50,927
The odds were in my favor.

416
00:21:51,280 --> 00:21:52,850
Do you think that's funny?

417
00:21:53,040 --> 00:21:54,087
- But, I mean...
- Abe, put the gun down.

418
00:21:54,240 --> 00:21:56,280
- Was it worth the risk?
- Well, not at five to one.

419
00:21:56,360 --> 00:21:58,203
Here, fifty-fifty odds.

420
00:21:58,360 --> 00:21:59,805
- Abe!
- (ALL SCREAMING)

421
00:22:01,360 --> 00:22:02,646
APRIL: Stop it, stop it!

422
00:22:02,840 --> 00:22:04,001
Stop!

423
00:22:04,160 --> 00:22:06,208
You want to kill yourself,
go to the chem lab, swallow cyanide.

424
00:22:06,360 --> 00:22:07,441
Don't do it in front of us.

425
00:22:07,600 --> 00:22:10,729
This is an existential lesson
better than in the textbooks.

426
00:22:10,920 --> 00:22:11,967
JILL: You're drunk.

427
00:22:12,120 --> 00:22:13,645
You're completely drunk.
Let's go home.

428
00:22:13,800 --> 00:22:15,006
Come on, you drink too much.

429
00:22:15,160 --> 00:22:18,846
Fifty-fifty odds is better
than most people get in life.

430
00:22:20,160 --> 00:22:23,846
Word around is your philosophy professor's
got a bit of an alcohol problem.

431
00:22:24,520 --> 00:22:27,444
Oh, boy, that's just one of his problems.

432
00:22:27,720 --> 00:22:31,520
And, you know, it's really a shame,
because he's so self-destructive,

433
00:22:31,680 --> 00:22:33,603
but he's so brilliant.

434
00:22:34,080 --> 00:22:35,764
But can I tell you what I think?

435
00:22:35,920 --> 00:22:38,446
And we're just the music department.

436
00:22:39,920 --> 00:22:41,046
Yes.

437
00:22:41,520 --> 00:22:43,682
He writes very well, very...

438
00:22:44,920 --> 00:22:45,967
Lively.

439
00:22:46,160 --> 00:22:48,447
But it's a triumph of style.

440
00:22:48,880 --> 00:22:52,009
The substance just doesn't
stand up to scrutiny.

441
00:22:52,360 --> 00:22:56,206
His ideas are romantic, but so flawed.

442
00:22:57,680 --> 00:23:02,447
I just hope you're not starting to care
for him too much, in the wrong way.

443
00:23:03,360 --> 00:23:05,408
Oh, God, no.
I love Roy.

444
00:23:07,560 --> 00:23:11,042
Although it is interesting to be around
someone so complicated.

445
00:23:11,240 --> 00:23:13,766
I fear for him, I do.
I, you know...

446
00:23:13,920 --> 00:23:16,605
Romantics think suicide is romantic.

447
00:23:21,680 --> 00:23:23,409
JILL: The truth was I was attracted to Abe.

448
00:23:23,560 --> 00:23:26,723
Despite, or was it because,
he was a lost soul.

449
00:23:27,880 --> 00:23:30,565
There was something
about his pain and sensitivity

450
00:23:30,760 --> 00:23:33,240
that tapped into my romantic fantasies.

451
00:23:33,400 --> 00:23:37,325
It was exciting going to museums
and seeing movies with him.

452
00:23:37,520 --> 00:23:39,761
He was truly an original thinker.

453
00:23:39,920 --> 00:23:43,083
The problem was he had no zest for life,

454
00:23:43,240 --> 00:23:47,564
no joy, no clear reason for living,
he said, which alarmed me.

455
00:23:48,840 --> 00:23:51,127
I wanted so much to help him.

456
00:23:51,320 --> 00:23:52,606
I've given up.

457
00:23:52,760 --> 00:23:53,807
It's all bullshit.

458
00:23:53,960 --> 00:23:56,611
You know, my bullshit book
on Martin Heidegger

459
00:23:56,760 --> 00:23:59,331
is not gonna make
a scintilla of difference to the world.

460
00:23:59,480 --> 00:24:01,608
Why do you say things like that?
How do you know that?

461
00:24:01,760 --> 00:24:03,524
I set out to be an active world changer

462
00:24:03,680 --> 00:24:07,127
and wound up a passive intellectual
who can't fuck.

463
00:24:09,040 --> 00:24:13,523
Well, Abe, maybe Rita Richards
couldn't get your creative juices flowing,

464
00:24:13,720 --> 00:24:16,291
but did you think that maybe I could?

465
00:24:16,440 --> 00:24:17,930
Uh-uh, Jill.

466
00:24:18,880 --> 00:24:20,086
Don't.

467
00:24:21,200 --> 00:24:22,645
Don't what?

468
00:24:23,080 --> 00:24:24,650
Don't do this.

469
00:24:26,640 --> 00:24:27,926
(SCOFFING)

470
00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:31,685
Well, we spend a lot of time together, Abe.

471
00:24:31,840 --> 00:24:33,365
- You know, and I...
- We're friends.

472
00:24:33,520 --> 00:24:35,045
I know it's...

473
00:24:35,480 --> 00:24:39,804
All right, well, I thought you could tell
that I cared about you.

474
00:24:39,960 --> 00:24:42,850
I mean, it's pretty obvious to everyone.

475
00:24:43,880 --> 00:24:46,008
Including your boyfriend?

476
00:24:46,720 --> 00:24:49,963
I don't... I'm not ready to make
an exclusive commitment to him.

477
00:24:50,120 --> 00:24:51,360
He's...

478
00:24:52,800 --> 00:24:55,167
- I just have a lot of questions and...
- All right, Jill.

479
00:24:55,320 --> 00:24:57,926
Maybe we're spending
too much time together.

480
00:24:58,080 --> 00:25:00,890
Maybe I shouldn't monopolize your time.

481
00:25:06,280 --> 00:25:07,930
- Okay.
- (SIGHING)

482
00:25:10,520 --> 00:25:12,045
ROY: Why are you in such a bad mood?

483
00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:14,282
Roy, I'm fine.
All right?

484
00:25:14,440 --> 00:25:16,641
Can't I just be a little bit edgy
every once in a while?

485
00:25:16,760 --> 00:25:19,525
Well, have you thought
any more about what I said?

486
00:25:19,680 --> 00:25:20,841
What?

487
00:25:21,480 --> 00:25:23,801
That after graduation, we go to London,
we move in together

488
00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:25,809
and we do our postgrad work at Oxford, no?

489
00:25:26,000 --> 00:25:28,970
(STUTTERING) It's a very
big idea and I don't know.

490
00:25:29,120 --> 00:25:30,963
I think it would be a great experience.

491
00:25:31,120 --> 00:25:32,645
Jill, stop, stop.

492
00:25:32,840 --> 00:25:35,844
Come on, you know I love you.
What's wrong?

493
00:25:36,560 --> 00:25:38,927
I just can't talk about
this right now, Roy.

494
00:25:39,080 --> 00:25:40,809
I feel very achy.

495
00:25:41,200 --> 00:25:43,362
Like maybe I'm coming down
with something, or...

496
00:25:43,560 --> 00:25:45,927
- Okay...
- I don't know, like a flu or...

497
00:25:46,080 --> 00:25:47,923
(SIGHING) All right.

498
00:25:50,520 --> 00:25:52,522
Isn't it a lovely spot?

499
00:25:53,280 --> 00:25:54,645
I love it.

500
00:25:55,800 --> 00:25:58,406
I come here when I want to be alone.

501
00:26:01,360 --> 00:26:03,328
You're looking a little glum.

502
00:26:04,400 --> 00:26:06,721
I'm sorry about this afternoon.

503
00:26:08,160 --> 00:26:11,323
I thought maybe some time had passed,
you know?

504
00:26:11,480 --> 00:26:13,687
And you took the Cialis?

505
00:26:13,920 --> 00:26:15,445
Against my better judgment.

506
00:26:16,320 --> 00:26:18,368
Can I confess something?

507
00:26:19,480 --> 00:26:24,008
When I heard you were coming here,
I'd walk along these rocks,

508
00:26:24,960 --> 00:26:29,284
and had fantasies that we'd meet
and something special would happen.

509
00:26:29,840 --> 00:26:32,730
If you're unhappy,
why can't you just up and leave?

510
00:26:33,240 --> 00:26:34,810
(SIGHING) I...

511
00:26:36,160 --> 00:26:38,003
I can't do it alone.

512
00:26:39,040 --> 00:26:40,849
You know, I just can't.

513
00:26:41,000 --> 00:26:43,367
I need somebody to leave with.

514
00:26:45,360 --> 00:26:47,442
ABE: Jill had been right
in her appraisal of me.

515
00:26:47,600 --> 00:26:49,807
I was teetering on the brink
of some kind of breakdown,

516
00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:54,130
unable to deal with my feelings
of anger, frustration, futility.

517
00:26:56,040 --> 00:26:59,203
They say that drowning
is a painless way to go.

518
00:27:00,680 --> 00:27:04,810
Despair is what Kierkegaard called
the sickness unto death, Abe.

519
00:27:05,960 --> 00:27:08,247
And you suffer from despair.

520
00:27:09,040 --> 00:27:12,010
I'm well aware of what Kierkegaard thought.

521
00:27:12,320 --> 00:27:16,609
But he was, in the end, a Christian.
How comforting that would be.

522
00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:21,004
So, are you looking forward
to your piano recital tonight?

523
00:27:21,200 --> 00:27:22,281
Did you settle on the Bach?

524
00:27:22,440 --> 00:27:23,726
- We'll figure this out.
- CAROL: I don't know.

525
00:27:23,880 --> 00:27:24,927
This is wrong.

526
00:27:25,120 --> 00:27:27,691
Are you aware of
what's going on at this table?

527
00:27:27,840 --> 00:27:28,887
ABE: What?

528
00:27:29,080 --> 00:27:32,607
- It is a messed-up situation.
- (MOUTHING)

529
00:27:32,760 --> 00:27:34,680
CAROL: And my kids
feel like I'm not comin' back.

530
00:27:34,840 --> 00:27:35,887
EVE: Aw, that's not true.

531
00:27:36,040 --> 00:27:38,930
CAROL: I know.
I don't know what to do.

532
00:27:39,080 --> 00:27:40,411
I'm at my wit's end.

533
00:27:40,560 --> 00:27:42,244
Who's the judge?

534
00:27:42,520 --> 00:27:44,249
CAROL: Uh, Spangler. Thomas Spangler.

535
00:27:44,400 --> 00:27:46,880
How'd this guy ever wind up
in family court? It's just...

536
00:27:47,040 --> 00:27:48,246
They're political appointees.

537
00:27:48,400 --> 00:27:51,200
Some are okay, but a lot of 'em are
just bums who are getting paid off.

538
00:27:51,280 --> 00:27:52,645
It's not right.

539
00:27:52,800 --> 00:27:55,929
He awards the kids to Frank.
Frank doesn't even look after them.

540
00:27:56,080 --> 00:27:57,730
- BIFF: It's true...
- Frank doesn't even want them.

541
00:27:57,880 --> 00:28:00,360
BIFF: He doesn't care about his own kids.

542
00:28:00,840 --> 00:28:02,683
CAROL: I deliver them to him,
they don't want to go.

543
00:28:02,840 --> 00:28:04,888
They're crying-
They're crying-

544
00:28:05,920 --> 00:28:07,365
What does Frank do?

545
00:28:07,520 --> 00:28:10,364
He sticks 'em in a corner
of the garage he works at.

546
00:28:10,520 --> 00:28:12,807
And they sit underground all day.

547
00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:15,526
I mean, they should be outside,
in the fresh air.

548
00:28:17,800 --> 00:28:20,007
(SOBBING) And now he's gonna
switch custody to Frank?

549
00:28:20,160 --> 00:28:22,561
- On what grounds?
- On no grounds.

550
00:28:23,200 --> 00:28:26,488
Because he's friendly in some way
with Frank's lawyer.

551
00:28:26,680 --> 00:28:28,648
(SIGHING) Switching custody
would be a disaster.

552
00:28:28,800 --> 00:28:30,131
HAL: It doesn't make sense.

553
00:28:30,280 --> 00:28:33,045
I brought in the kids' teachers,
I brought in the kids' doctors.

554
00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:34,486
It doesn't matter.

555
00:28:34,760 --> 00:28:37,206
And you're sure he can't be recused?

556
00:28:37,400 --> 00:28:40,404
CAROL: We tried.
My lawyer tried and failed.

557
00:28:42,280 --> 00:28:45,727
I can't keep payin' all these legal bills
and the judge knows it.

558
00:28:45,880 --> 00:28:48,161
So, every time I want something,
he says, "Make a motion."

559
00:28:48,240 --> 00:28:50,607
And we do, but he turns me down.

560
00:28:51,120 --> 00:28:53,566
And it's costin' me everything I got.

561
00:28:53,720 --> 00:28:55,848
- (SOBBING) And I'm gonna lose my kids.
- Aw.

562
00:28:56,040 --> 00:28:58,088
HAL: And you're sure he's cozy
with Frank's lawyer?

563
00:28:58,240 --> 00:29:01,687
CAROL: Oh, God,
they look at each other, they smile.

564
00:29:02,040 --> 00:29:05,169
(SCOFFING) I got a bad break,
drawin' this judge.

565
00:29:05,600 --> 00:29:07,443
It's just so unfair.

566
00:29:07,680 --> 00:29:10,126
(SNIFFING) I'm due in court in six weeks.

567
00:29:10,280 --> 00:29:11,884
If he doesn't postpone it again,

568
00:29:12,040 --> 00:29:15,203
which he does,
because he knows it helps Frank.

569
00:29:17,120 --> 00:29:19,726
I can't get a decent night's sleep.

570
00:29:21,000 --> 00:29:23,810
(SNIFFING) I wish I could take the kids
and move to Europe.

571
00:29:23,960 --> 00:29:26,361
I mean, I actually thought of
taking them out of the country.

572
00:29:26,680 --> 00:29:29,206
What, and hide for the rest of your life?

573
00:29:29,360 --> 00:29:31,089
You'd be a fugitive.

574
00:29:31,360 --> 00:29:35,251
I feel for you, Carol, I do.
And you're such a good mother.

575
00:29:37,200 --> 00:29:39,487
I hope the judge gets cancer.

576
00:29:41,360 --> 00:29:43,249
ABE: He won't get cancer.

577
00:29:43,400 --> 00:29:45,721
Because wishing doesn't work.

578
00:29:46,600 --> 00:29:49,922
If you want him dead,
you have to make it happen.

579
00:29:50,760 --> 00:29:51,921
But you'd never be able to pull it off,

580
00:29:52,080 --> 00:29:55,243
and even if you did,
you'd be a prime suspect.

581
00:29:56,800 --> 00:29:58,760
On the other hand,
I could kill him for you, lady,

582
00:29:58,880 --> 00:30:01,724
and no one in the world
would dream I did it.

583
00:30:01,880 --> 00:30:05,601
I could rid you of this roach
and end all your suffering.

584
00:30:06,800 --> 00:30:10,122
It was at this moment
that my life came together.

585
00:30:11,040 --> 00:30:13,088
I could perform this blessing
for that poor woman

586
00:30:13,240 --> 00:30:16,005
and no one would ever connect me to it.

587
00:30:16,800 --> 00:30:18,484
I don't know any of the parties involved,

588
00:30:18,640 --> 00:30:20,722
I have no motive,
and when I walk out of here,

589
00:30:20,920 --> 00:30:23,082
I'll never lay eyes on
any of these people again.

590
00:30:23,240 --> 00:30:25,561
All I need to know is the name.

591
00:30:26,280 --> 00:30:28,248
Judge Thomas Spangler.

592
00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:37,640
(PANTING)

593
00:30:37,800 --> 00:30:39,290
Are you okay?

594
00:30:39,600 --> 00:30:43,082
(BREATHING HEAVILY) Wow, God.
I got a little dizzy in there.

595
00:30:43,840 --> 00:30:45,444
What, you're shaking.

596
00:30:45,600 --> 00:30:47,125
- I guess, um...
- Are you all right?

597
00:30:47,320 --> 00:30:48,560
An anxiety attack or something.

598
00:30:48,600 --> 00:30:50,807
- I have medicine at home.
- Okay.

599
00:30:50,960 --> 00:30:54,169
(PANTING)
Yeah, I don't know why I feel so dizzy.

600
00:30:54,320 --> 00:30:55,765
(INAUDIBLE)

601
00:30:58,120 --> 00:30:59,770
(PIANO PLAYING)

602
00:31:04,320 --> 00:31:07,290
ABE: Everything about killing
Judge Spangler turned me on.

603
00:31:07,440 --> 00:31:10,489
The idea of helping this woman,
of taking action,

604
00:31:10,680 --> 00:31:12,360
of ridding the world of the kind of vermin

605
00:31:12,480 --> 00:31:15,131
that makes the world
an extra hell for all of us.

606
00:31:15,280 --> 00:31:18,807
I was intrigued by the creative challenge
of bringing off a perfect murder.

607
00:31:19,680 --> 00:31:23,526
It was a high-stakes risk,
but the risk made me feel alive.

608
00:31:27,720 --> 00:31:29,848
(INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS)

609
00:31:37,160 --> 00:31:40,164
- Sorry. Hey, you were great.
- Oh, thank you.

610
00:31:40,320 --> 00:31:42,402
- Thank you for coming.
- Yeah, of course.

611
00:31:42,560 --> 00:31:45,166
I've been thinking about that woman
that we overheard all day. Have you?

612
00:31:45,320 --> 00:31:48,369
- Yeah, me, too, yeah.
- It's amazing what happens to some people.

613
00:31:48,520 --> 00:31:50,648
God, I don't blame her
for wishing him dead.

614
00:31:50,840 --> 00:31:52,729
I'd be rooting for him
to have a heart attack,

615
00:31:52,880 --> 00:31:54,245
as awful as that sounds.

616
00:31:54,400 --> 00:31:57,609
No. I mean, don't you think
that there are some people that die

617
00:31:57,760 --> 00:31:58,841
and with their death,

618
00:31:59,000 --> 00:32:02,368
the world becomes
a slightly better place instantly?

619
00:32:02,560 --> 00:32:05,006
Mmm, I don't think it's
quite as simple as that.

620
00:32:05,160 --> 00:32:09,051
I mean, he could be a terrible judge,
but a decent loving father.

621
00:32:09,200 --> 00:32:11,726
- First off, he's not a father.
- How do you know?

622
00:32:11,880 --> 00:32:14,884
I was so fascinated, I couldn't help
but check him out on my computer.

623
00:32:15,040 --> 00:32:16,929
My God, you remembered his name?

624
00:32:17,120 --> 00:32:19,202
Even if he was a good family man,

625
00:32:19,360 --> 00:32:22,842
that's like those, you know,
Mafia bosses who do horrible things,

626
00:32:23,040 --> 00:32:24,760
and, what, we're supposed to cut them slack

627
00:32:24,880 --> 00:32:27,690
because they're wonderful
to their wives and children?

628
00:32:27,880 --> 00:32:31,930
You have to resist the temptation
to overthink a very clear-cut issue.

629
00:32:32,080 --> 00:32:35,971
You know, he's a rotten judge,
not impartial as he's vowed to be,

630
00:32:36,120 --> 00:32:39,090
crushing a woman and her kids
simply because he has the power to do it.

631
00:32:39,240 --> 00:32:41,049
No one can stop him.

632
00:32:41,200 --> 00:32:42,486
(SCOFFING) I mean...

633
00:32:42,640 --> 00:32:45,564
It's not that ambiguous,
even though it's ugly to say it.

634
00:32:45,720 --> 00:32:48,610
He's a roach who'd be better stamped out.

635
00:32:52,240 --> 00:32:54,288
ABE: The dizziness and anxiety
had disappeared,

636
00:32:54,440 --> 00:32:58,889
and I accepted completely, in fact,
embraced my freedom to choose action.

637
00:32:59,080 --> 00:33:00,809
I was too excited to fall asleep.

638
00:33:00,960 --> 00:33:04,726
My mind was racing with ideas,
plans to kill Judge Spangler.

639
00:33:04,920 --> 00:33:07,201
Thanks to a serendipitous encounter
with an unknown woman,

640
00:33:07,320 --> 00:33:09,641
my life suddenly had a purpose.

641
00:33:09,840 --> 00:33:13,845
When I finally did fall asleep,
I slept the sleep of the just.

642
00:33:29,920 --> 00:33:32,082
- Morning.
- WAITRESS: Morning.

643
00:33:32,280 --> 00:33:33,441
Oh, I know what I want.

644
00:33:33,600 --> 00:33:37,924
I want the orange juice, French toast,
hash browns and double bacon.

645
00:33:38,320 --> 00:33:40,527
Hey, what happened to
the usual black coffee?

646
00:33:40,680 --> 00:33:42,205
Can I help it if I'm famished?

647
00:33:42,360 --> 00:33:45,125
Well, bravo.
You want cinnamon on the French toast?

648
00:33:45,280 --> 00:33:47,282
- Yes, I want cinnamon.
- Okay.

649
00:33:47,440 --> 00:33:49,044
ABE: Hi.
RITA: Hi!

650
00:33:49,200 --> 00:33:50,486
Good morning.

651
00:33:50,640 --> 00:33:53,610
Whoa, you're full of energy this morning.

652
00:33:53,960 --> 00:33:55,121
- Yeah.
- Yeah.

653
00:33:55,280 --> 00:33:57,089
- I made a big decision last night.
- You did?

654
00:33:57,200 --> 00:33:59,282
Mmm-hmm.
To take control of my own life.

655
00:33:59,440 --> 00:34:01,169
Well, that's good.

656
00:34:01,560 --> 00:34:05,804
What prompted this reawakening?
Did you have a religious epiphany?

657
00:34:05,960 --> 00:34:08,201
I just decided it's time to stop whining

658
00:34:08,400 --> 00:34:11,404
and to take matters into my own hands
and make something happen.

659
00:34:11,560 --> 00:34:13,562
Well, that's good,
because, uh, to be honest,

660
00:34:13,720 --> 00:34:15,245
some of us here were
kind of worried about you.

661
00:34:15,400 --> 00:34:17,129
- Huh.
- You seemed at such a low point.

662
00:34:17,320 --> 00:34:19,209
The trick is not to
examine things too closely.

663
00:34:19,360 --> 00:34:22,250
Not to debate every issue,
but to go with your gut feeling.

664
00:34:22,400 --> 00:34:24,721
You know, and choosing action, to do,

665
00:34:24,880 --> 00:34:27,804
rather than to observe
and get lost in conventional clichés.

666
00:34:28,000 --> 00:34:31,641
I think I follow. Philosophy is
not a strong suit, you know, so...

667
00:34:31,840 --> 00:34:33,001
Yeah, I think I know
what your strong suit is...

668
00:34:33,160 --> 00:34:35,083
I'm a little slow.
Oh, really?

669
00:34:50,840 --> 00:34:51,841
I knew you'd love that lighthouse.

670
00:34:52,000 --> 00:34:53,760
It's one of my favorite
places in the world.

671
00:34:53,840 --> 00:34:55,524
Oh, it's so beautiful here.

672
00:34:55,680 --> 00:34:58,445
I can't help thinking of
that phrase by Emily Dickinson,

673
00:34:58,600 --> 00:35:00,011
"inebriate of air."

674
00:35:00,200 --> 00:35:02,680
To be drunk on air. (INHALING)

675
00:35:02,840 --> 00:35:05,730
Not to have to rely on single malt scotch.

676
00:35:07,200 --> 00:35:10,841
You know, you once said that
you used to fool around with poetry.

677
00:35:11,040 --> 00:35:15,409
Mmm. Yeah, I destroyed
all my poems in a fit of rage,

678
00:35:15,560 --> 00:35:19,884
when my funny, sweet friend,
this guy I grew up with my whole life,

679
00:35:20,880 --> 00:35:23,724
stepped on a fucking land mine in Iraq.

680
00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:25,291
Oh, Jesus.

681
00:35:25,880 --> 00:35:29,282
But you know, maybe if you like,
I could try writing again for you.

682
00:35:29,480 --> 00:35:31,050
I mean, I'm not very good,

683
00:35:31,200 --> 00:35:34,568
but you know,
I might enjoy trying again for you.

684
00:35:38,920 --> 00:35:41,287
You know I'm in love with you.

685
00:35:42,760 --> 00:35:44,569
ABE: You think you are.

686
00:35:44,720 --> 00:35:46,722
What you are is in love
with the romantic concept

687
00:35:46,880 --> 00:35:49,884
of being in love with
your college professor.

688
00:35:50,080 --> 00:35:54,085
The correct road for you is
with that terrific guy you're going with.

689
00:35:54,760 --> 00:35:57,127
Is that really what you think?

690
00:35:58,320 --> 00:36:00,482
I'll always be your friend.

691
00:36:00,840 --> 00:36:03,127
And even your poet laureate.

692
00:36:14,440 --> 00:36:16,090
RITA: That was fantastic.

693
00:36:16,240 --> 00:36:17,765
My God, what have you
been eating for breakfast?

694
00:36:17,920 --> 00:36:21,925
ABE: Aw. I don't deserve all the credit.
You are hot stuff, lady.

695
00:36:22,080 --> 00:36:24,686
What happened to the philosophy professor?

696
00:36:24,840 --> 00:36:27,286
Christ, you were like a caveman.

697
00:36:27,440 --> 00:36:30,444
For the first time in so long, I felt free.

698
00:36:31,000 --> 00:36:33,765
You know?
Just a limitless freedom.

699
00:36:35,640 --> 00:36:37,290
Run away with me.

700
00:36:37,440 --> 00:36:39,283
Where? To Tahiti?

701
00:36:39,440 --> 00:36:42,284
Like Gauguin?
To make love in the tropics?

702
00:36:42,440 --> 00:36:44,841
I want to leave Paul and move to Spain.

703
00:36:45,000 --> 00:36:46,445
- Yes?
- Yeah.

704
00:36:46,640 --> 00:36:48,130
Why Spain?

705
00:36:48,280 --> 00:36:50,886
I always found Spain to be so romantic.

706
00:36:51,040 --> 00:36:52,166
Hmm.

707
00:36:54,280 --> 00:36:56,965
- Now, I have a bone to pick with you.
- Yes?

708
00:36:57,120 --> 00:37:00,488
Yeah, have you been sleeping
with that student Jill Pollard?

709
00:37:00,640 --> 00:37:04,326
I've been sleeping with no one
for a year, till tonight.

710
00:37:04,520 --> 00:37:07,364
Not that I haven't tried,
as you sadly know.

711
00:37:07,520 --> 00:37:10,171
- You tried with the student?
- No, never.

712
00:37:10,320 --> 00:37:11,810
We're only friends.

713
00:37:12,000 --> 00:37:13,490
Well, because there's
talk around the school.

714
00:37:13,640 --> 00:37:15,324
Mmm, it's just talk.

715
00:37:15,480 --> 00:37:18,484
People fill their lonely hours with gossip.

716
00:37:18,920 --> 00:37:21,161
Now put it out of your mind.

717
00:37:22,840 --> 00:37:24,842
ABE: My zest for life had returned

718
00:37:25,000 --> 00:37:28,482
and the driving force of this rebirth
was my rock-solid determination

719
00:37:28,680 --> 00:37:30,569
to perform a service for a mother of two

720
00:37:30,720 --> 00:37:34,247
and rid the world of
Judge Thomas Augustus Spangler.

721
00:37:34,400 --> 00:37:39,201
He lived alone on a pretty street
within walking distance to the courthouse.

722
00:37:41,200 --> 00:37:44,682
One day a week, he played bridge
with his cronies at the Pavilion Club.

723
00:37:44,840 --> 00:37:47,764
He was a member and ate there pretty often.

724
00:37:50,680 --> 00:37:53,365
Saturday mornings,
he jogged at Lippitt Park.

725
00:37:53,520 --> 00:37:56,285
He was not well-thought of as a judge
and had been censured once or twice,

726
00:37:56,440 --> 00:37:58,966
but had never been reversed
on appeal because he was smart

727
00:37:59,120 --> 00:38:01,202
and also one of the boys.

728
00:38:04,040 --> 00:38:05,804
Why continental philosophy?

729
00:38:06,200 --> 00:38:09,363
Because, you know,
continental philosophy deals with

730
00:38:09,520 --> 00:38:14,242
problems much more exciting and,
and personal than the analytic tradition.

731
00:38:14,560 --> 00:38:16,210
You know, the existentialists
were tryin' to find out

732
00:38:16,360 --> 00:38:20,570
not just what does something mean,
but what does it mean for me?

733
00:38:21,200 --> 00:38:23,202
(SCREAMING)

734
00:38:26,240 --> 00:38:30,040
I never thought I would get you
to go to an amusement park.

735
00:38:30,280 --> 00:38:32,123
Where's Roy tonight?

736
00:38:32,280 --> 00:38:33,611
Studying-

737
00:38:34,400 --> 00:38:36,971
ABE: Well, I'm mellowing in my old age.

738
00:38:37,120 --> 00:38:40,329
And now that we're here,
I'm determined to win you a prize.

739
00:38:42,840 --> 00:38:45,764
JILL: There was no question
there was something lighter about Abe.

740
00:38:45,920 --> 00:38:46,921
His spirits seemed up,

741
00:38:47,080 --> 00:38:50,766
he seemed more focused,
more optimistic, more charming.

742
00:38:50,920 --> 00:38:53,491
He said he was determined
to win me a prize.

743
00:38:53,680 --> 00:38:58,083
And after one of his standard lectures
on the impact of luck and random chance,

744
00:38:58,240 --> 00:39:01,244
he managed to pick the winning number
on his first spin.

745
00:39:01,440 --> 00:39:05,081
I want to go with my first instinct.
There's my first hunch, 17.

746
00:39:05,280 --> 00:39:07,760
Okey-dokey, here we go!

747
00:39:08,040 --> 00:39:10,566
Round, and round, and round it goes.

748
00:39:10,720 --> 00:39:14,645
And where will it stop?
Nobody knows.

749
00:39:15,600 --> 00:39:16,726
And...

750
00:39:16,880 --> 00:39:18,450
(BELL RINGING)

751
00:39:19,400 --> 00:39:20,481
Wow!

752
00:39:20,760 --> 00:39:21,841
- (LAUGHING)
- Unbelievable.

753
00:39:22,120 --> 00:39:24,088
- I won.
- You're a lucky man.

754
00:39:24,240 --> 00:39:25,810
- How did you do that?
- Luck rules the universe.

755
00:39:25,960 --> 00:39:27,291
Oh, you think so?

756
00:39:27,440 --> 00:39:31,490
Correction, not luck, chance.
We're all at the mercy of chance.

757
00:39:31,680 --> 00:39:33,489
All right, what, what do you want?
What prize do you want?

758
00:39:33,680 --> 00:39:35,489
- Um, okay...
- Anything, anything you want!

759
00:39:35,680 --> 00:39:38,490
Oh, uh, the flashlight, please.

760
00:39:38,640 --> 00:39:40,290
Flashlight?
- Yeah.

761
00:39:40,480 --> 00:39:42,482
- A nice practical choice.
- Thank you.

762
00:39:42,760 --> 00:39:45,161
- This isn't practical.
- That's not practical?

763
00:39:45,360 --> 00:39:47,124
- No, it's cool...
- I mean, look at your other options.

764
00:39:47,320 --> 00:39:48,481
You're saying that you picked a flashlight?

765
00:39:48,640 --> 00:39:49,971
- I like the color...
- Come on.

766
00:39:50,120 --> 00:39:52,600
I hate that you think I'm practical.

767
00:39:52,920 --> 00:39:55,127
(AMUSEMENT MUSIC PLAYING)

768
00:39:56,640 --> 00:39:58,165
BOTH: Whoa!

769
00:40:00,320 --> 00:40:02,004
(BOTH LAUGHING)

770
00:40:02,160 --> 00:40:05,323
- Oh, God.
- I feel like I'm on mescaline again.

771
00:40:07,880 --> 00:40:09,484
(BOTH LAUGHING)

772
00:40:10,160 --> 00:40:11,366
God, but, look.

773
00:40:11,520 --> 00:40:14,729
Even in the distorting
mirror, you look good.

774
00:40:15,480 --> 00:40:18,882
I hope you don't think
I'm some middle-class drone.

775
00:40:19,520 --> 00:40:22,000
- (CHUCKLES)
- I might surprise you.

776
00:40:22,160 --> 00:40:23,321
Yeah?

777
00:40:28,480 --> 00:40:29,561
Hey-

778
00:40:30,640 --> 00:40:33,405
No, it's a bad idea.
It's a bad idea.

779
00:40:33,560 --> 00:40:35,680
What do you mean?
I think it's a little late for that.

780
00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:38,246
(SIGHING) You have a terrific boyfriend

781
00:40:38,400 --> 00:40:41,404
and he's obviously crazy
about you and don't...

782
00:40:41,560 --> 00:40:43,801
I know.
And I love Roy.

783
00:40:44,520 --> 00:40:47,524
But it doesn't mean I'm ready
to commit to him and give up...

784
00:40:47,680 --> 00:40:49,364
Listen to me, listen to me.

785
00:40:49,520 --> 00:40:52,046
You don't want to get involved
with an extremist like me.

786
00:40:52,200 --> 00:40:53,884
- Trust me.
- Why not?

787
00:40:54,040 --> 00:40:56,327
I can be just as risk-taking as you.

788
00:40:56,480 --> 00:40:58,881
All right.
We got carried away.

789
00:40:59,040 --> 00:41:01,247
All right, let's just
forget the kiss, okay?

790
00:41:01,400 --> 00:41:02,561
What if I can't?

791
00:41:02,720 --> 00:41:07,567
Then I have to be the responsible one
and keep things from getting out of hand.

792
00:41:07,720 --> 00:41:09,051
(SIGHING)

793
00:41:10,000 --> 00:41:12,606
- Come on, let's have fun.
- (SCOFFING)

794
00:41:13,920 --> 00:41:16,002
(ELEVATOR BELL RINGING)

795
00:41:17,400 --> 00:41:19,880
JILL: I was sure Abe had feelings for me.

796
00:41:20,080 --> 00:41:22,560
But maybe it was just that
he wasn't in love with me

797
00:41:22,720 --> 00:41:24,609
the way I was with him.

798
00:41:24,760 --> 00:41:27,764
I tried telling myself the reason
he wasn't letting anything go too far

799
00:41:27,960 --> 00:41:31,123
was because a relationship
between a professor and a student

800
00:41:31,280 --> 00:41:32,520
was against Braylin's rules,

801
00:41:32,680 --> 00:41:36,924
but I knew in my heart, Abe was too
romantic to shy away from risks.

802
00:41:37,080 --> 00:41:38,969
(PIANO PLAYING)

803
00:41:39,120 --> 00:41:41,930
JILL: All I was sure of was
that as much as I cared for Roy,

804
00:41:42,080 --> 00:41:43,650
and I really did,

805
00:41:43,800 --> 00:41:46,610
I was swept off my feet by Abe Lucas.

806
00:41:46,920 --> 00:41:50,083
The more he tried not to let
anything serious happen,

807
00:41:50,240 --> 00:41:52,641
the more I wanted something to.

808
00:41:57,080 --> 00:42:00,323
ABE: I was right in thinking
the killing would be an act of creativity.

809
00:42:00,480 --> 00:42:03,484
It was artistically challenging
to plan how to do away with Spangler

810
00:42:03,640 --> 00:42:05,404
and bring it off perfectly.

811
00:42:05,560 --> 00:42:07,244
Weighing all the options,
I came to the conclusion

812
00:42:07,400 --> 00:42:09,080
that the only practical way I could do it,

813
00:42:09,120 --> 00:42:11,441
and hope to get away with it,
was to poison him.

814
00:42:11,600 --> 00:42:14,126
Careful not to leave
any record on my computer,

815
00:42:14,280 --> 00:42:15,645
I researched all the poisons

816
00:42:15,840 --> 00:42:18,446
and it was clear why cyanide
had become the popular cliché

817
00:42:18,640 --> 00:42:20,449
of mystery writers and spies.

818
00:42:20,640 --> 00:42:23,120
Cyanide would be quick and painless.

819
00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:26,689
And while it would be impossible
to obtain any legally,

820
00:42:26,840 --> 00:42:30,811
I knew where I might get some
without having to fill out any forms.

821
00:42:30,960 --> 00:42:35,124
Every stage of the way was a risk
and I must admit, exhilarating.

822
00:44:22,240 --> 00:44:23,287
Professor Lucas.

823
00:44:24,760 --> 00:44:25,807
What are you doing here?

824
00:44:26,800 --> 00:44:28,086
- Hi.
- Yeah, it's April?

825
00:44:28,240 --> 00:44:29,446
- April, yeah.
- Yeah.

826
00:44:29,640 --> 00:44:31,608
I'm doing research for
a book I'm working on.

827
00:44:32,080 --> 00:44:33,241
Well, that's cool.

828
00:44:33,440 --> 00:44:34,885
Well, I'm glad to see you're
wearing rubber gloves

829
00:44:35,000 --> 00:44:37,401
'cause, you know, a lot of those poisons
are actually pretty dangerous.

830
00:44:37,520 --> 00:44:38,681
Yes, I know.

831
00:44:38,800 --> 00:44:40,723
Actually, wait.
While I have you here...

832
00:44:40,880 --> 00:44:43,161
Can I ask you a question
on the paper I'm writing on Kant?

833
00:44:43,280 --> 00:44:45,282
Sure, sure, but can we talk as we walk?

834
00:44:45,440 --> 00:44:48,444
Yeah, so, it's due on Friday and basically,

835
00:44:48,600 --> 00:44:51,001
I just don't understand
his moral principles.

836
00:44:51,720 --> 00:44:54,007
I don't understand.
You've been in such a touchy mood.

837
00:44:54,160 --> 00:44:56,606
JILL: I'm fine,
I just don't want to go to the concert.

838
00:44:56,760 --> 00:44:57,966
Yeah, but the only reason I got the tickets

839
00:44:58,120 --> 00:44:59,600
is because you said you wanted to go.

840
00:44:59,720 --> 00:45:02,451
Well, I'm sorry, Roy.
I just had a change of heart.

841
00:45:02,600 --> 00:45:04,011
- Go with a friend.
- Yeah, I will.

842
00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:06,162
But I was looking forward
to going with you.

843
00:45:06,320 --> 00:45:09,324
Well, I just...
I'm not up to it, all right?

844
00:45:10,840 --> 00:45:13,764
I think you're losin' interest in me
because of Abe Lucas.

845
00:45:13,920 --> 00:45:17,481
Oh, God, Roy.
We've had this conversation so many times.

846
00:45:17,640 --> 00:45:18,641
He's a friend.

847
00:45:18,800 --> 00:45:21,451
I think you'd be fine
if he was more than a friend.

848
00:45:22,480 --> 00:45:24,482
- Can we please not discuss...
- But you know it's so obvious.

849
00:45:24,640 --> 00:45:26,165
It's obvious.

850
00:45:26,800 --> 00:45:27,926
You know what?

851
00:45:28,120 --> 00:45:30,327
There's nothing going on.
So, you're paranoid.

852
00:45:30,480 --> 00:45:32,130
Okay. Okay.

853
00:45:33,200 --> 00:45:35,851
Well, I'll just go to
the concert with Mike.

854
00:45:36,040 --> 00:45:38,646
Oh, you'll have fun.
Mike is sweet.

855
00:45:38,840 --> 00:45:40,046
Yeah.

856
00:45:41,320 --> 00:45:43,040
ABE: It was Judge Spangler's
jogging routine

857
00:45:43,160 --> 00:45:45,003
that gave me the idea I was looking for.

858
00:45:45,160 --> 00:45:47,891
That is, once it became clear to me
that it was a routine.

859
00:45:48,040 --> 00:45:50,327
His weekend run, his morning newspaper,

860
00:45:50,480 --> 00:45:54,485
his park bench, his container
of fresh-squeezed orange juice.

861
00:45:54,880 --> 00:45:56,166
The more I found out about him,

862
00:45:56,320 --> 00:45:59,529
I was convinced the world
would be a better place without him.

863
00:46:17,520 --> 00:46:19,921
- Here, happy birthday.
- Thank you.

864
00:46:20,080 --> 00:46:21,366
JILL'S MOM: Happy birthday!

865
00:46:21,520 --> 00:46:23,204
- Oh, thank you, oh.
- (LAUGHING)

866
00:46:23,520 --> 00:46:24,521
- Blow.
- (BLOWING)

867
00:46:25,040 --> 00:46:26,565
- Yay!
- All right.

868
00:46:26,760 --> 00:46:27,841
Okay.

869
00:46:30,520 --> 00:46:32,409
What is this gonna be?

870
00:46:34,360 --> 00:46:38,046
Roy, this is exactly the
sweater that I wanted,

871
00:46:38,200 --> 00:46:39,850
but I mentioned it months ago.

872
00:46:40,000 --> 00:46:42,002
- I thought you forgot. Thank you.
- You look so pretty in it.

873
00:46:42,160 --> 00:46:43,571
JILL: I love it.

874
00:46:43,720 --> 00:46:46,564
JILL'S MOM: So, where are you
taking her for her birthday?

875
00:46:46,720 --> 00:46:49,080
We are going to the Colonial
to see a new comedy over there.

876
00:46:49,200 --> 00:46:50,247
You know, I should actually get my things.

877
00:46:50,400 --> 00:46:51,447
Okay.

878
00:46:51,600 --> 00:46:53,568
- The political satire.
- Yeah.

879
00:46:53,720 --> 00:46:55,722
I heard that was very good.

880
00:46:55,880 --> 00:46:57,689
- We should go see that.
- Yeah, it's supposed to be great.

881
00:46:57,840 --> 00:46:59,968
JILL: My parents and Roy
gave me a birthday cake

882
00:47:00,120 --> 00:47:03,090
and some presents,
and they were all very sweet.

883
00:47:03,240 --> 00:47:04,969
But I must admit...

884
00:47:05,120 --> 00:47:08,761
I was hurt there was no
acknowledgment from Abe Lucas.

885
00:47:10,080 --> 00:47:12,765
(ALARM BEEPING)

886
00:49:27,520 --> 00:49:30,410
(PANTING)

887
00:49:35,440 --> 00:49:37,920
ABE: I got out of the park
and no one saw me.

888
00:49:38,120 --> 00:49:40,202
I never saw Spangler drink the juice.

889
00:49:40,360 --> 00:49:43,091
And while I tried to stay focused
at our weekend faculty meeting,

890
00:49:43,240 --> 00:49:45,083
my mind was a million miles away.

891
00:49:45,560 --> 00:49:48,480
NEWS REPORTER: The body of the jogger
who died of an apparent heart attack

892
00:49:48,560 --> 00:49:49,766
in Lippitt Park today

893
00:49:49,960 --> 00:49:52,361
was identified as Judge Thomas Spangler,

894
00:49:52,520 --> 00:49:55,205
a Rhode Island state
judge in domestic court.

895
00:49:55,360 --> 00:49:57,044
The news took colleagues by surprise,

896
00:49:57,200 --> 00:49:59,160
as the judge was said
to have been in good health,

897
00:49:59,240 --> 00:50:01,368
and exercised regularly.

898
00:50:01,560 --> 00:50:03,403
Judge Spangler was 61.

899
00:50:05,200 --> 00:50:07,726
ABE: Next morning,
I rushed out to get the papers.

900
00:50:07,920 --> 00:50:09,604
And there it was.

901
00:50:10,240 --> 00:50:13,289
A great feeling of accomplishment
came over me.

902
00:50:13,440 --> 00:50:16,569
I didn't write a vitriolic,
well-reasoned piece about judicial abuse

903
00:50:16,720 --> 00:50:18,360
that would wind up just so much verbiage,

904
00:50:18,440 --> 00:50:19,601
accomplishing nothing.

905
00:50:19,760 --> 00:50:22,809
I took direct action and
eliminated a cancer.

906
00:50:22,960 --> 00:50:26,442
The world was a finer place
by some infinitesimal percentage.

907
00:50:26,600 --> 00:50:28,329
The woman would never know
she had a benefactor,

908
00:50:28,480 --> 00:50:30,084
but now, at her court hearing,

909
00:50:30,240 --> 00:50:33,323
there was every chance
she'd have a fair shot.

910
00:50:36,800 --> 00:50:39,644
Yeah, of course, I read it.
It's just the most amazing thing.

911
00:50:39,800 --> 00:50:41,290
I'm stunned.

912
00:50:41,920 --> 00:50:44,924
What? No, no.
We have nothing to feel guilty about.

913
00:50:45,080 --> 00:50:47,128
I mean, he was terrible.

914
00:50:47,640 --> 00:50:49,680
Hey, listen, what are you doin' later?
Are you free?

915
00:50:49,800 --> 00:50:51,882
'Cause I think we should have dinner.
Just the two of us.

916
00:50:52,040 --> 00:50:53,883
Yeah, we'll have a wicked celebration.

917
00:50:54,040 --> 00:50:56,122
7:30? All right, perfect.

918
00:50:56,440 --> 00:50:58,886
(JAZZ MUSIC PLAYING)

919
00:51:04,560 --> 00:51:06,642
- Thank you.
- WAITRESS: You're welcome.

920
00:51:06,800 --> 00:51:09,167
I love that you order for me.

921
00:51:12,000 --> 00:51:13,286
- Cheers.
- Cheers.

922
00:51:13,480 --> 00:51:14,606
(GLASSES CLINKING)

923
00:51:18,320 --> 00:51:19,970
(JILL CHUCKLING)

924
00:51:20,120 --> 00:51:22,851
God, I, you know, I feel great tonight.

925
00:51:23,120 --> 00:51:25,691
Relaxed and happy.

926
00:51:27,240 --> 00:51:30,005
Well, it, it's supposed
to be a celebration, right?

927
00:51:30,520 --> 00:51:34,366
Although I think it is a little macabre
to suggest celebrating someone's death.

928
00:51:34,520 --> 00:51:35,601
(CHUCKLING)

929
00:51:35,840 --> 00:51:38,366
You know, life's ironic, isn't it?

930
00:51:39,120 --> 00:51:43,648
One day a person has a morass
of complicated, unsolvable problems,

931
00:51:44,440 --> 00:51:49,048
you know, the world seems black,
and her troubles seem overwhelming,

932
00:51:49,360 --> 00:51:52,443
and then, in the batting of an eye,
the dark clouds part

933
00:51:52,640 --> 00:51:54,160
and she can enjoy a decent life again.

934
00:51:54,200 --> 00:51:56,282
- It's just, it's astounding.
- Hmm.

935
00:51:56,480 --> 00:51:58,642
Sometimes, just a little thing.

936
00:51:59,200 --> 00:52:01,362
Like a sudden heart attack. (LAUGHING)

937
00:52:01,520 --> 00:52:05,002
- Or, you know, hitting the lottery.
- Right, hmm.

938
00:52:06,560 --> 00:52:09,484
I'm actually celebrating
for the second time in three days.

939
00:52:10,040 --> 00:52:11,280
Second time?

940
00:52:11,800 --> 00:52:14,485
My birthday was the day before yesterday.

941
00:52:14,880 --> 00:52:16,041
Mmm.

942
00:52:16,200 --> 00:52:17,690
No, I know.

943
00:52:18,200 --> 00:52:21,522
I knew that you knew.
I made sure that you knew.

944
00:52:22,000 --> 00:52:25,686
I was actually a little upset that you
didn't call to wish me a happy birthday.

945
00:52:25,840 --> 00:52:28,320
Aw, Jill. You know, I wanted to.

946
00:52:29,360 --> 00:52:32,569
I even got you a present
and then I thought, you know,

947
00:52:32,800 --> 00:52:34,643
I don't want you to get the wrong idea.

948
00:52:35,400 --> 00:52:37,926
What wrong idea, that you like me?

949
00:52:38,400 --> 00:52:41,324
Well, you know that I like you.
I just...

950
00:52:41,640 --> 00:52:44,086
I don't want you to have fantasies.

951
00:52:45,240 --> 00:52:46,526
Why not?

952
00:52:47,760 --> 00:52:49,603
Because you can do better than me.

953
00:52:50,240 --> 00:52:53,926
Oh, God. Really, Abe?
Don't you think I can decide that?

954
00:52:54,600 --> 00:52:56,250
All right. Here.

955
00:52:56,760 --> 00:52:58,364
Happy birthday.

956
00:52:58,600 --> 00:52:59,761
Oh, my God.

957
00:53:00,080 --> 00:53:01,730
Is this my present?

958
00:53:01,880 --> 00:53:03,086
Yeah, come on, it's nothing.

959
00:53:03,280 --> 00:53:07,001
It's not nothing, Abe!
This is beautiful.

960
00:53:08,920 --> 00:53:11,571
And it's Edna St. Vincent Millay.

961
00:53:12,120 --> 00:53:14,441
You really are a romantic, aren't you?

962
00:53:15,080 --> 00:53:18,402
I marked off the poems
I thought you'd like most, you'll see.

963
00:53:18,960 --> 00:53:20,041
Mmm.

964
00:53:20,240 --> 00:53:24,086
Well, what I know of hers,
I absolutely love.

965
00:53:24,960 --> 00:53:26,371
(CHUCKLING)

966
00:53:29,280 --> 00:53:32,409
What am I doin' sittin' here
opposite you over candlelight?

967
00:53:32,640 --> 00:53:35,450
I said I wouldn't let this happen.

968
00:53:36,120 --> 00:53:37,884
But it has happened.

969
00:53:38,200 --> 00:53:40,885
Hey, come on.
We're celebrating, right?

970
00:53:41,040 --> 00:53:42,451
It's been a pretty good day.

971
00:53:42,600 --> 00:53:43,761
You had a birthday.

972
00:53:44,280 --> 00:53:46,806
I don't wanna eat, I
wanna go to your place.

973
00:53:47,160 --> 00:53:48,161
Jill.

974
00:53:48,440 --> 00:53:49,726
I want to.

975
00:53:50,400 --> 00:53:51,731
- No.
- Yes.

976
00:53:52,800 --> 00:53:54,564
It's my birthday.

977
00:53:57,320 --> 00:54:01,325
ABE: I swore I wouldn't,
but I don't know what's come over me.

978
00:54:02,480 --> 00:54:06,610
What's come over you
is that you're finally celebrating life...

979
00:54:07,480 --> 00:54:11,690
Instead of romanticizing death
with your crazy Russian Roulette.

980
00:54:13,520 --> 00:54:16,808
(SIGHING) You have a boyfriend.
I'm not going to get in the way of that.

981
00:54:17,520 --> 00:54:20,171
Roy and I aren't exclusive,
I told you that.

982
00:54:20,520 --> 00:54:22,124
- I don't believe you.
- (SIGHING)

983
00:54:22,320 --> 00:54:23,685
Roy would say different.

984
00:54:24,360 --> 00:54:26,362
I don't wanna talk about it.

985
00:54:26,840 --> 00:54:29,207
I loved making love with you.

986
00:54:29,680 --> 00:54:31,842
Yes, it was very nice for me, too.

987
00:54:32,760 --> 00:54:34,205
Oh, it was just very nice?

988
00:54:36,680 --> 00:54:39,331
I feel like I've accomplished
something worthwhile.

989
00:54:39,480 --> 00:54:41,369
Like my life has meaning.

990
00:54:42,800 --> 00:54:45,644
Well, I'm very flattered
that you think making love to me

991
00:54:45,840 --> 00:54:47,444
has given your life meaning.

992
00:55:02,840 --> 00:55:05,730
ABE: My writing was flowing,
the creative juices unblocked.

993
00:55:05,880 --> 00:55:08,042
I was happy and enjoying
a sense of well-being,

994
00:55:08,240 --> 00:55:11,847
and I'd begun an affair with Jill,
something I'd been determined not to do,

995
00:55:12,000 --> 00:55:13,729
and yet was carried along
on the sudden momentum

996
00:55:13,880 --> 00:55:15,803
of the sheer joy of living.

997
00:55:16,400 --> 00:55:18,243
The thought that I had once been
indifferent to existence

998
00:55:18,400 --> 00:55:19,561
seemed preposterous.

999
00:55:19,720 --> 00:55:21,370
(PIANO PLAYING)

1000
00:55:28,560 --> 00:55:30,483
RITA: How is everything?
I haven't seen you.

1001
00:55:30,680 --> 00:55:33,843
Yeah, really good, you know.
Everything's just been fallin' into place.

1002
00:55:34,000 --> 00:55:35,411
- Huh.
- You look great, as always.

1003
00:55:35,600 --> 00:55:39,446
I may have some free time next week,
if you wanna, you know...

1004
00:55:39,600 --> 00:55:40,681
Uh-huh.

1005
00:55:40,840 --> 00:55:43,411
Or am I encroaching on
your other love life?

1006
00:55:43,600 --> 00:55:44,761
(CHUCKLING) Hey, give me a break.

1007
00:55:44,920 --> 00:55:46,285
JILL: Abe!

1008
00:55:46,440 --> 00:55:48,522
Hey, I tried to call you.

1009
00:55:49,600 --> 00:55:52,365
Did you see what happened?
Did you see the papers?

1010
00:55:52,520 --> 00:55:54,045
ABE: No, what?

1011
00:55:54,560 --> 00:55:56,927
Hi. Judge Spangler was murdered.

1012
00:55:58,120 --> 00:55:59,770
- What are you talking about?
- JILL: He was murdered.

1013
00:55:59,960 --> 00:56:01,928
I don't understand.
Wasn't it a heart attack?

1014
00:56:02,120 --> 00:56:05,408
Yeah, it was a heart attack,
but they did an autopsy,

1015
00:56:05,560 --> 00:56:08,211
and it wasn't cardiac
arrest, it was poison.

1016
00:56:08,360 --> 00:56:09,600
- Poison?
- Yeah. It was poison.

1017
00:56:09,800 --> 00:56:11,040
Somebody poisoned his juice.

1018
00:56:11,200 --> 00:56:12,640
- You've got to be kidding.
- I know.

1019
00:56:12,880 --> 00:56:14,769
Well, what made them do an autopsy?

1020
00:56:14,920 --> 00:56:16,445
Well, don't they always do an autopsy?

1021
00:56:16,720 --> 00:56:19,564
I think that they suspected that
it wasn't a heart attack right away,

1022
00:56:19,760 --> 00:56:22,491
and they just thought it was poison
and so they did the autopsy.

1023
00:56:22,640 --> 00:56:23,801
Who's Judge Spangler?

1024
00:56:23,960 --> 00:56:24,961
- He's a judge...
- ABE: This judge.

1025
00:56:25,120 --> 00:56:27,327
That we had overheard
someone talking about in a diner.

1026
00:56:27,480 --> 00:56:28,811
- This crazy story that some...
- Oh, yeah?

1027
00:56:28,960 --> 00:56:31,760
I don't have time for a crazy story
right now, but I will see you soon.

1028
00:56:31,800 --> 00:56:33,928
- Okay.
- I mean, can you believe that?

1029
00:56:34,080 --> 00:56:35,570
- No.
- Isn't it awful?

1030
00:56:36,560 --> 00:56:38,324
You know, he must've had a lot of enemies.

1031
00:56:38,480 --> 00:56:40,721
Well, God, I'm sure, but
we were celebrating.

1032
00:56:40,880 --> 00:56:44,009
I know, but you know,
I still can't say I'm sorry.

1033
00:56:44,640 --> 00:56:46,608
Well, who do you think it was?
Do you think it was the woman?

1034
00:56:46,840 --> 00:56:48,490
- I don't know...
- Or, one of her friends or something?

1035
00:56:48,640 --> 00:56:50,080
Well, what, what did the police say?

1036
00:56:51,160 --> 00:56:53,811
ABE: I'm Abe Lucas and I've murdered.

1037
00:56:54,760 --> 00:56:57,923
I've had many experiences
and now a unique one.

1038
00:56:58,160 --> 00:57:00,003
I've taken a human life.

1039
00:57:00,280 --> 00:57:02,328
Not in battle or self-defense,

1040
00:57:02,600 --> 00:57:06,127
but I made a choice I believed in
and I saw it through.

1041
00:57:06,440 --> 00:57:09,125
I feel like an authentic human being.

1042
00:57:10,840 --> 00:57:13,525
ABE: Today we're gonna discuss
existential choice.

1043
00:57:13,800 --> 00:57:16,326
That life has the meaning
you choose to give it.

1044
00:57:16,680 --> 00:57:19,365
And we'll examine
Jean-Paul Sartre's wonderful insight,

1045
00:57:19,600 --> 00:57:21,807
"Hell is other people."

1046
00:57:22,120 --> 00:57:24,361
(CELLO PLAYING)

1047
00:57:27,880 --> 00:57:30,326
JILL: Abe seemed
to have had a breakthrough.

1048
00:57:30,600 --> 00:57:35,527
It was as if whatever had been stifling
his deepest feelings became unblocked.

1049
00:57:48,800 --> 00:57:50,211
FEMALE TV REPORTER:
Police still have no clues

1050
00:57:50,400 --> 00:57:54,564
in the murder of Judge Thomas Spangler,
who was poisoned in Lippitt Park weeks ago.

1051
00:57:54,720 --> 00:57:55,801
At a press conference,

1052
00:57:56,000 --> 00:57:58,844
investigators told reporters
all leads have been followed up,

1053
00:57:59,000 --> 00:58:01,571
but so far there are no
persons of interest.

1054
00:58:01,720 --> 00:58:04,166
They said that speculation
that the poison had been intended

1055
00:58:04,320 --> 00:58:06,049
for someone other than Judge Spangler,

1056
00:58:06,200 --> 00:58:08,726
was just speculation and unlikely.

1057
00:58:10,840 --> 00:58:12,922
ABE: You're wearing a new perfume.

1058
00:58:13,560 --> 00:58:15,562
I love that you notice those things.

1059
00:58:15,760 --> 00:58:19,207
I've become very attuned
to the sensual joys of life.

1060
00:58:19,400 --> 00:58:22,563
Sights and sounds,
the taste of food and wine.

1061
00:58:25,600 --> 00:58:26,681
What?

1062
00:58:26,880 --> 00:58:27,927
What are you thinking?

1063
00:58:29,240 --> 00:58:31,083
Today for one very funny moment,

1064
00:58:31,240 --> 00:58:34,528
I thought it would be ironic
if you had killed Judge Spangler.

1065
00:58:34,720 --> 00:58:35,767
(BOTH LAUGHING)

1066
00:58:35,920 --> 00:58:39,288
Uh-huh, and how did I
perform that little miracle?

1067
00:58:39,520 --> 00:58:40,931
I don't know, I don't know.

1068
00:58:41,360 --> 00:58:44,125
I mean, you couldn't and you wouldn't.

1069
00:58:44,360 --> 00:58:47,364
- It's got to be hard to kill somebody.
- Mmm.

1070
00:58:47,520 --> 00:58:49,602
Especially to poison a stranger.

1071
00:58:50,280 --> 00:58:53,204
Yeah, I mean, if I had to
eliminate someone, I think I'd...

1072
00:58:53,400 --> 00:58:56,609
I don't know, use a gun or run him over.

1073
00:58:57,120 --> 00:58:59,521
I mean, cyanide's a whole other deal.

1074
00:58:59,960 --> 00:59:03,203
Was it cyanide?
The papers didn't say that.

1075
00:59:03,440 --> 00:59:06,284
I always assume anyone poisoned,
is poisoned by cyanide.

1076
00:59:06,560 --> 00:59:09,291
Oh, that's funny.
I always assume arsenic for some reason.

1077
00:59:09,480 --> 00:59:10,970
- Yeah?
- Yeah.

1078
00:59:11,280 --> 00:59:15,205
Old movies or something.
It had to be someone that knew him.

1079
00:59:15,800 --> 00:59:18,280
I mean, someone would have to
be close enough to him

1080
00:59:18,480 --> 00:59:20,767
to drop poison in his coffee.

1081
00:59:21,160 --> 00:59:22,810
Or I guess it was juice, wasn't it?

1082
00:59:23,640 --> 00:59:25,642
ABE: I enjoyed the whole conversation.

1083
00:59:26,120 --> 00:59:27,963
It was like sitting at a tense poker table,

1084
00:59:28,160 --> 00:59:30,447
holding a full house,
and chatting innocently...

1085
00:59:30,800 --> 00:59:32,325
Confident I had the winning hand,

1086
00:59:32,600 --> 00:59:36,002
but getting a thrill out of the chance
I could be beaten with a straight flush

1087
00:59:36,280 --> 00:59:37,805
or four of a kind.

1088
00:59:38,240 --> 00:59:40,004
I had a big argument with Roy today.

1089
00:59:41,840 --> 00:59:43,808
I don't like to hear that.

1090
00:59:44,640 --> 00:59:47,803
I told him that I wanted
to be honest with him.

1091
00:59:48,760 --> 00:59:52,242
And, that I still had
real feelings for him.

1092
00:59:53,160 --> 00:59:55,162
But I also have feelings for you.

1093
00:59:55,840 --> 01:00:00,482
I must say, you were special
from that very first day.

1094
01:00:02,000 --> 01:00:03,161
You are very lucky.

1095
01:00:03,320 --> 01:00:05,527
- I am very lucky.
- (LAUGHING)

1096
01:00:06,640 --> 01:00:08,051
JILL: Mmm.

1097
01:00:11,120 --> 01:00:13,521
So, what do you wanna talk about?

1098
01:00:14,360 --> 01:00:15,521
Um...

1099
01:00:17,200 --> 01:00:19,851
Look, I'm not gonna see you anymore.

1100
01:00:20,520 --> 01:00:22,081
I can't operate under these conditions.

1101
01:00:22,200 --> 01:00:26,046
I'm not just gonna wait around while
you play out your affair with Abe Lucas.

1102
01:00:28,040 --> 01:00:30,486
Yeah, I understand.
That's not fair to you.

1103
01:00:30,720 --> 01:00:34,406
Yeah, I'm just gonna move on.
Whatever happens, happens.

1104
01:00:35,880 --> 01:00:37,689
- Are you seeing somebody else?
- No.

1105
01:00:37,960 --> 01:00:42,045
But, obviously, you are, so,
I'm not gonna hold on from trying.

1106
01:00:44,000 --> 01:00:45,889
That wouldn't be fair.

1107
01:00:48,200 --> 01:00:50,487
It's too bad.
We had a good thing goin'.

1108
01:00:53,000 --> 01:00:55,048
Hey, it's my fault, Roy.

1109
01:00:57,000 --> 01:01:00,083
I'm just really not ready
to commit to one person.

1110
01:01:00,320 --> 01:01:01,481
Yeah.

1111
01:01:03,720 --> 01:01:05,722
Dinner was delicious.

1112
01:01:05,920 --> 01:01:07,521
- And this pie...
- (JILL'S MOM GIGGLING)

1113
01:01:07,600 --> 01:01:10,040
it's so nice of you to have me over.
- Well, we're happy to.

1114
01:01:10,240 --> 01:01:12,925
Particularly since Jill
always speaks so highly of you.

1115
01:01:13,240 --> 01:01:16,244
Have you two been following
the Judge Spangler murder?

1116
01:01:16,520 --> 01:01:19,091
Have we? We have a special
attachment to Judge Spangler.

1117
01:01:19,440 --> 01:01:21,408
'Cause we overheard
some people talking about him,

1118
01:01:21,680 --> 01:01:22,920
and what a rotten judge he was,

1119
01:01:23,080 --> 01:01:25,890
and we kind of rooted for him
to have a coronary or get run over.

1120
01:01:26,080 --> 01:01:28,765
I've jogged in that park with Sally Kelly.

1121
01:01:29,120 --> 01:01:31,841
You know, when I first heard about it,
I thought someone poisoned him

1122
01:01:31,880 --> 01:01:34,565
at breakfast, and it kicked in
when he was in the park.

1123
01:01:34,760 --> 01:01:36,444
But, you know, when I read
it was cyanide in his drink,

1124
01:01:36,680 --> 01:01:38,284
my theory unraveled.

1125
01:01:39,240 --> 01:01:42,369
You know, you were right, Abe.
It was cyanide.

1126
01:01:42,760 --> 01:01:44,444
- Mmm-hmm.
- You said that very early on, didn't you?

1127
01:01:44,760 --> 01:01:45,807
JILL'S DAD: That's what they said it was.

1128
01:01:46,040 --> 01:01:47,960
Yeah, well, like I said,
I always think cyanide.

1129
01:01:48,200 --> 01:01:50,407
Cyanide's the cliché
because it's so quick and fatal.

1130
01:01:50,720 --> 01:01:53,485
Arsenic takes time and is very painful.

1131
01:01:53,960 --> 01:01:55,962
None of the herbicides
are quick and dispositive.

1132
01:01:56,240 --> 01:01:58,129
I don't know anything about poisons.

1133
01:01:58,480 --> 01:02:00,130
I don't, either, just what I read.

1134
01:02:00,560 --> 01:02:02,483
Who'd wanna kill a judge?

1135
01:02:02,800 --> 01:02:04,928
Only everybody,
every person he ever ruled against.

1136
01:02:05,720 --> 01:02:08,291
But I think they looked into
everybody that knew him.

1137
01:02:08,480 --> 01:02:12,246
Including that woman that we heard,
and they were all ruled out.

1138
01:02:12,480 --> 01:02:14,767
That's why they think
it might be a sick prank,

1139
01:02:15,000 --> 01:02:16,809
or intended for someone else.

1140
01:02:17,760 --> 01:02:18,807
But it was quick-acting poison,

1141
01:02:19,000 --> 01:02:21,924
so they would have to drop it in the cup
right there in the park.

1142
01:02:22,080 --> 01:02:24,082
- JILL'S DAD: Well, that makes sense.
- Mmm-hmm.

1143
01:02:24,240 --> 01:02:25,651
But not an easy thing to do,

1144
01:02:25,840 --> 01:02:28,844
with a total stranger,
in broad daylight, in a public place.

1145
01:02:29,160 --> 01:02:31,845
Unless he was there with
someone he knew, and trusted.

1146
01:02:32,000 --> 01:02:33,525
- A friend.
- A weekend. A weekend.

1147
01:02:33,680 --> 01:02:36,001
A weekend early in the morning,
not a lot of people around.

1148
01:02:37,080 --> 01:02:38,923
Had to be someone he knew.

1149
01:02:39,080 --> 01:02:41,526
But I think they questioned
everyone that knew him.

1150
01:02:41,680 --> 01:02:44,524
- They said it was a regular orange juice?
- Mmm-hmm.

1151
01:02:44,680 --> 01:02:46,364
And he bought an orange juice
there every weekend

1152
01:02:46,520 --> 01:02:49,205
and he'd read the paper after jogging.

1153
01:02:49,840 --> 01:02:52,366
Well, then if it was routine,

1154
01:02:52,520 --> 01:02:56,525
somebody could've come around
and just dropped the poison in his cup.

1155
01:02:56,680 --> 01:02:59,160
- Someone...
- You know, he wouldn't be on a park bench

1156
01:02:59,320 --> 01:03:01,129
reading the newspaper, unless he was alone.

1157
01:03:01,280 --> 01:03:02,327
That rules out a friend.

1158
01:03:02,480 --> 01:03:04,881
How do we know it was a man?
Maybe it was a woman.

1159
01:03:05,040 --> 01:03:06,485
ABE: Oh, that's a good point.

1160
01:03:06,640 --> 01:03:08,051
Maybe he turned his back.

1161
01:03:08,960 --> 01:03:12,521
Someone appears out of the blue,
and drops something in his drink?

1162
01:03:13,120 --> 01:03:17,045
Well, aren't those take-out juices
covered with a straw?

1163
01:03:18,200 --> 01:03:22,285
Or someone could have gone to Pascal's
and gotten a juice,

1164
01:03:22,480 --> 01:03:25,563
and put the poison in it
and switched it with the judge's.

1165
01:03:25,720 --> 01:03:26,846
Hmm.

1166
01:03:27,000 --> 01:03:28,960
I'm sure the police have
run through every theory.

1167
01:03:29,120 --> 01:03:33,011
Okay, let's say the judge is
sitting in the park with his orange juice,

1168
01:03:33,200 --> 01:03:39,651
and, and along comes someone with
an exact matching cup full of poison...

1169
01:03:40,800 --> 01:03:42,404
- Who comes along?
- And...

1170
01:03:42,560 --> 01:03:45,006
- Well...
- Someone who wants to kill the judge.

1171
01:03:45,160 --> 01:03:46,207
Whoever it was,

1172
01:03:46,360 --> 01:03:48,488
would have to get the judge
to look away long enough

1173
01:03:48,640 --> 01:03:49,721
to make the switch.

1174
01:03:49,880 --> 01:03:51,405
- I mean, they'd be taking a huge risk...
- But think...

1175
01:03:51,560 --> 01:03:52,891
They would sit down next to the judge,

1176
01:03:53,040 --> 01:03:55,327
and the guy doesn't even have to know him,
he just is sitting there,

1177
01:03:55,480 --> 01:03:57,528
and the judge is drinking his juice,
you know,

1178
01:03:57,680 --> 01:04:01,685
and he sets it down next to him,
and this person is just...

1179
01:04:01,840 --> 01:04:06,084
The judge opens up his paper, and he turns
and he's covered up for just long enough.

1180
01:04:06,360 --> 01:04:08,169
Well, if he didn't know the judge,

1181
01:04:08,360 --> 01:04:10,283
why would he wanna go
to all that trouble to kill him?

1182
01:04:10,440 --> 01:04:13,205
Yeah, he'd have to be familiar with
the judge's routine, the details.

1183
01:04:13,360 --> 01:04:14,600
But that would be easy.

1184
01:04:14,760 --> 01:04:16,842
You could just stalk the judge
for a week and you would...

1185
01:04:17,040 --> 01:04:19,202
I mean, it sounds like
this was his Saturday morning ritual.

1186
01:04:19,360 --> 01:04:20,441
I like it.

1187
01:04:20,600 --> 01:04:22,967
What Jill says makes sense.
It's a well-thought out concept.

1188
01:04:23,120 --> 01:04:27,125
The judge reads the paper,
blocks his eye line, a quick switch.

1189
01:04:27,440 --> 01:04:29,090
You know, if someone
sits next to you on a bench,

1190
01:04:29,240 --> 01:04:31,242
you often turn away.

1191
01:04:31,400 --> 01:04:33,482
JILL'S DAD: I'm sure the police
are way ahead of us on all this.

1192
01:04:33,640 --> 01:04:34,801
Mmm.

1193
01:04:43,920 --> 01:04:47,208
JILL: The murder of Spangler
remained a hot tabloid issue.

1194
01:04:47,400 --> 01:04:48,481
Abe often talked about it

1195
01:04:48,640 --> 01:04:52,247
and what a blessing it was for that woman,
now that the judge was gone.

1196
01:04:52,400 --> 01:04:54,767
I didn't give any special thought to it,
until one day,

1197
01:04:54,920 --> 01:04:56,570
when I ran into Ellie Tanner, a friend,

1198
01:04:56,720 --> 01:04:58,882
that I sometimes went
horseback riding with.

1199
01:04:59,080 --> 01:05:00,491
JILL: No, no, it's fine.

1200
01:05:00,640 --> 01:05:02,483
- Okay.
- He just, um...

1201
01:05:02,800 --> 01:05:04,290
- Basically, we had this long conversation.
- Right.

1202
01:05:04,440 --> 01:05:08,081
And he said that he felt like
I wasn't being fair to him.

1203
01:05:08,240 --> 01:05:11,847
And he was right. I wasn't.
But I didn't know what to do anymore.

1204
01:05:12,400 --> 01:05:15,290
You would love Abe.
He is so interesting.

1205
01:05:15,560 --> 01:05:17,164
You know Rita Richards?

1206
01:05:17,320 --> 01:05:20,005
Oh, yes, are you gonna tell me
that she had an affair with him?

1207
01:05:20,160 --> 01:05:22,640
Because who on the faculty
has not slept with Rita Richards?

1208
01:05:22,800 --> 01:05:26,122
No, she has this hilarious theory
about Abe Lucas.

1209
01:05:26,280 --> 01:05:27,850
Oh, God, here we go.

1210
01:05:28,000 --> 01:05:31,129
She thinks he would be a good suspect
in that case of the murdered judge.

1211
01:05:31,320 --> 01:05:32,526
You know, the guy who's
all over the papers?

1212
01:05:32,680 --> 01:05:34,444
(LAUGHING) Oh, please.

1213
01:05:34,600 --> 01:05:37,524
- She's kidding.
- I mean, she's half-kidding.

1214
01:05:37,680 --> 01:05:39,364
Oh, come on.

1215
01:05:39,520 --> 01:05:41,363
How did she come to
that bizarre conclusion?

1216
01:05:41,520 --> 01:05:43,522
I don't even remember.
We were at her husband's barbecue.

1217
01:05:43,680 --> 01:05:44,801
And she starts yelling about

1218
01:05:44,840 --> 01:05:47,207
how Abe had argued
that the judge deserved to die.

1219
01:05:47,360 --> 01:05:48,600
And then something about...

1220
01:05:48,760 --> 01:05:51,206
I don't know, the aesthetics
of committing a perfect crime.

1221
01:05:51,480 --> 01:05:54,211
- Whatever, she's crazy.
- Oh, she's crazy!

1222
01:05:54,360 --> 01:05:56,124
She's nuts.

1223
01:05:56,280 --> 01:05:58,442
Hey, we should go
horseback riding again, soon.

1224
01:05:58,640 --> 01:06:01,007
- Oh, yeah, sure.
- That was fun.

1225
01:06:01,560 --> 01:06:03,528
JILL: Naturally, I didn't believe
there was any substance

1226
01:06:03,680 --> 01:06:08,561
to Rita Richards' so-called theory,
and yet, for some reason, it bothered me.

1227
01:06:09,680 --> 01:06:12,160
ABE: Here, two poems I wrote for you.

1228
01:06:12,360 --> 01:06:14,124
- You didn't.
- I did.

1229
01:06:14,840 --> 01:06:16,524
- Oh, my God.
- No, don't read them now.

1230
01:06:16,680 --> 01:06:18,001
- I'm too embarrassed.
- (SIGHING)

1231
01:06:18,040 --> 01:06:21,886
If you hate them, throw 'em away.
If they move you, they're yours.

1232
01:06:25,000 --> 01:06:26,729
That's very sweet.

1233
01:06:28,640 --> 01:06:30,688
Hey, is something wrong?

1234
01:06:31,080 --> 01:06:32,411
- No.
- No?

1235
01:06:33,200 --> 01:06:34,929
You seem a tiny bit off.

1236
01:06:35,480 --> 01:06:37,164
No, I'm just moved.

1237
01:06:37,480 --> 01:06:38,527
Without even reading them,

1238
01:06:38,720 --> 01:06:41,405
I'm just moved by the gesture
of you writing these.

1239
01:06:41,600 --> 01:06:43,409
Aw, clever student.

1240
01:06:48,000 --> 01:06:49,525
Are you sure you're okay?

1241
01:06:51,760 --> 01:06:53,762
I'm just looking at you.

1242
01:06:56,400 --> 01:06:57,765
JILL: It seemed absurd to me

1243
01:06:57,920 --> 01:07:01,561
that I could entertain even
the slightest doubt about Abe.

1244
01:07:02,200 --> 01:07:03,281
And then a week later,

1245
01:07:03,440 --> 01:07:06,603
I got a chance to hear
Rita Richards' theory firsthand.

1246
01:07:06,760 --> 01:07:08,125
I ran into her in a local bar

1247
01:07:08,280 --> 01:07:10,123
where she had been
sitting alone and drinking,

1248
01:07:10,280 --> 01:07:12,362
and was a little drunk and talkative.

1249
01:07:12,520 --> 01:07:14,090
- JILL: Hi.
- How are you, Miss Pollard?

1250
01:07:14,280 --> 01:07:16,123
- Great.
- Hi, Kim. How's it goin'?

1251
01:07:16,280 --> 01:07:18,044
JILL: Uh, can I catch up to you?

1252
01:07:18,200 --> 01:07:20,123
- Hello.
- I was just thinking about you.

1253
01:07:20,280 --> 01:07:21,281
I was just thinking about
you too, actually.

1254
01:07:21,440 --> 01:07:22,726
- You were?
- Yes.

1255
01:07:22,880 --> 01:07:24,211
- How are you?
- I'm fine.

1256
01:07:24,360 --> 01:07:26,442
I'm good.
I ran into Ellie Tanner actually.

1257
01:07:26,640 --> 01:07:29,371
And she said that
you had a theory about Abe.

1258
01:07:29,880 --> 01:07:33,248
Oh! Oh, yeah, well,
it's what's called a crackpot theory.

1259
01:07:33,440 --> 01:07:36,489
But it's not totally off the wall.

1260
01:07:37,800 --> 01:07:39,404
Well, I love a crackpot theory.

1261
01:07:39,560 --> 01:07:41,801
- Yeah, you promise you won't tell?
- You have my word.

1262
01:07:41,960 --> 01:07:44,167
You wanna hear it?
Sit down.

1263
01:07:45,480 --> 01:07:48,165
You've been following that judge
who got poisoned in the papers?

1264
01:07:48,640 --> 01:07:50,244
- Spangler? Judge Spangler
'Spangler. '

1265
01:07:50,400 --> 01:07:51,640
- Spangler, right.
- Yes.

1266
01:07:51,800 --> 01:07:54,280
Well, they don't know who did it.

1267
01:07:54,440 --> 01:07:59,401
My theory is, uh...
Abe Lucas of our philosophy department.

1268
01:07:59,560 --> 01:08:01,324
(GIGGLING) Our mutual crush.

1269
01:08:01,480 --> 01:08:04,962
Well, you...
That's, that's very, very intriguing.

1270
01:08:05,120 --> 01:08:07,691
Well, it's crazy, but it's not, you know?

1271
01:08:07,840 --> 01:08:09,649
Well, why do you think Abe?

1272
01:08:09,800 --> 01:08:12,690
- Well, once or twice, when I was alone...
- Could I have a white wine, please?

1273
01:08:12,840 --> 01:08:16,765
Let's just say in, like, a moment
of post-passionate intimacy...

1274
01:08:16,920 --> 01:08:18,285
- No, I understand...
- We'd talk, yeah.

1275
01:08:18,440 --> 01:08:20,602
- You don't have to get too graphic...
- And we both said that

1276
01:08:20,760 --> 01:08:23,445
we had experienced many things in life.

1277
01:08:23,600 --> 01:08:26,331
But one thing that he
had never experienced,

1278
01:08:26,480 --> 01:08:30,644
but wondered was
what it would be like to actually kill.

1279
01:08:30,840 --> 01:08:32,205
(LAUGHING)

1280
01:08:33,200 --> 01:08:34,690
- To kill?
- Yes.

1281
01:08:34,880 --> 01:08:38,043
Well, that sounds like
random, silly, Abe talk.

1282
01:08:38,280 --> 01:08:40,044
I mean, you know how he gets
when he's had a few.

1283
01:08:40,200 --> 01:08:41,361
- Mmm-hmm, mmm-hmm.
- He's dramatic.

1284
01:08:41,520 --> 01:08:43,284
Oh, that's exactly
what I thought, too, you know?

1285
01:08:43,440 --> 01:08:44,521
It's just Abe being Abe.

1286
01:08:44,720 --> 01:08:47,451
But then my husband
saw him leaving the campus,

1287
01:08:47,640 --> 01:08:49,722
very early the morning
that the judge was poisoned.

1288
01:08:49,880 --> 01:08:51,723
Like very early, like 6:30.

1289
01:08:51,880 --> 01:08:54,804
I mean, have you ever known Abe
to get up at 6:30?

1290
01:08:55,000 --> 01:08:56,889
He barely makes it to class on time.

1291
01:08:57,880 --> 01:09:01,726
Okay, then your theory is
that he gets up at 6:30,

1292
01:09:02,040 --> 01:09:05,567
and he goes to Lippitt Park,
and he goes up to a total stranger,

1293
01:09:05,800 --> 01:09:08,883
and he drops poison
in the juice of a total stranger.

1294
01:09:09,080 --> 01:09:10,889
I mean, he didn't even know the judge.

1295
01:09:11,080 --> 01:09:13,731
He couldn't get that close, and then,
if he knew the judge, he wouldn't...

1296
01:09:13,920 --> 01:09:16,571
I mean, he just wouldn't do it.
He's radical, but he's not nuts.

1297
01:09:16,720 --> 01:09:18,688
Let me give you the final tidbit.

1298
01:09:19,200 --> 01:09:20,770
A few weeks ago, I lost my lab key.

1299
01:09:21,000 --> 01:09:24,243
Now I never lose anything,
but that key was missing from my bag,

1300
01:09:24,560 --> 01:09:27,723
and it opens all the doors
to all the lab rooms

1301
01:09:28,000 --> 01:09:31,402
that have all those
dangerous chemicals and poisons.

1302
01:09:32,080 --> 01:09:34,367
All right, Well... (LAUGHING)

1303
01:09:34,720 --> 01:09:38,247
You sure have really got
that theory down, don't you?

1304
01:09:39,000 --> 01:09:40,445
- RITA: Like I said...
- I'll think about it.

1305
01:09:40,600 --> 01:09:42,443
I'll weigh it out.

1306
01:09:45,040 --> 01:09:49,523
JILL: There was no question
I was rattled by Rita's outrageous theory.

1307
01:09:50,120 --> 01:09:52,566
I knew Abe had had a very angry reaction

1308
01:09:52,720 --> 01:09:55,564
to the judge's unfair treatment
of that poor woman.

1309
01:09:55,720 --> 01:09:59,406
And what was he doing out at 6:30
on a Saturday morning?

1310
01:10:00,120 --> 01:10:03,249
My thoughts were very
mixed-up and troubled.

1311
01:10:03,560 --> 01:10:06,723
And more devastating revelations
were to come.

1312
01:10:06,920 --> 01:10:10,641
But for the moment,
I lapsed into complete denial,

1313
01:10:11,280 --> 01:10:14,966
and told myself this was too absurd
to even contemplate.

1314
01:10:15,800 --> 01:10:19,646
I must not get carried away
with my overactive imagination.

1315
01:10:20,400 --> 01:10:22,402
And yet, a dark cloud had crossed the Moon.

1316
01:10:22,560 --> 01:10:23,607
- Hey.
- Abe.

1317
01:10:23,760 --> 01:10:25,444
What's on your mind?
What are you thinkin'?

1318
01:10:26,960 --> 01:10:28,291
Nothing.

1319
01:10:29,120 --> 01:10:31,964
I was actually, I was thinking
that I used to come here and jog.

1320
01:10:32,480 --> 01:10:35,484
You know, I'll jog with you if you want.
I'd love to get back into shape.

1321
01:10:35,760 --> 01:10:39,321
(CHUCKLING)
No, you'd have to get up very early.

1322
01:10:39,800 --> 01:10:42,644
I run early and you're a night person.

1323
01:10:43,000 --> 01:10:45,002
Yeah, well, that's why I quit last year.

1324
01:10:45,240 --> 01:10:48,687
That and no will to extend
my life, but now...

1325
01:10:51,960 --> 01:10:57,171
Rita Richards' husband actually
told me that he saw you leaving the campus

1326
01:10:57,320 --> 01:11:00,529
really early, at like 6:30 or something,
on a Saturday morning.

1327
01:11:01,920 --> 01:11:03,126
- 6:30?
- Yeah.

1328
01:11:03,320 --> 01:11:04,924
Oh, yeah, that was the morning
Judge Spangler died.

1329
01:11:05,080 --> 01:11:07,686
Yeah, I had to go to Providence for an MRI.

1330
01:11:08,000 --> 01:11:09,365
- Oh, really?
- Mmm-hmm.

1331
01:11:09,520 --> 01:11:11,841
- You didn't say anything.
- Well, I didn't want to alarm anyone.

1332
01:11:12,000 --> 01:11:14,810
It was a little benign thing,
but the doctor wanted me to check it out.

1333
01:11:14,960 --> 01:11:16,291
He didn't think it was anything horrible.

1334
01:11:16,440 --> 01:11:17,965
- I'm glad it was nothing.
- Yeah.

1335
01:11:18,120 --> 01:11:19,963
- Mmm.
- Don't worry.

1336
01:11:20,440 --> 01:11:22,283
- I'm relieved.
- Mmm.

1337
01:11:23,360 --> 01:11:27,046
JILL: It was hard for me
to keep my mind on school work.

1338
01:11:27,200 --> 01:11:29,885
I had this growing sense of anxiety.

1339
01:11:30,520 --> 01:11:34,206
And realizing I always had
a tendency to overdramatize,

1340
01:11:34,960 --> 01:11:37,566
I tried to keep my fantasies in check.

1341
01:11:37,720 --> 01:11:41,327
And still, walking home,
I passed Abe's house,

1342
01:11:41,720 --> 01:11:44,405
and knowing he would be
busy teaching all afternoon,

1343
01:11:44,560 --> 01:11:47,325
I couldn't resist doing a crazy thing.

1344
01:12:43,120 --> 01:12:46,966
Once I was inside Abe's house,
I felt I was betraying him.

1345
01:12:47,120 --> 01:12:49,407
And I felt guilty and stupid.

1346
01:12:50,440 --> 01:12:52,886
I couldn't imagine what I expected to find.

1347
01:12:53,040 --> 01:12:56,965
And yet on his desk
was a copy of Crime and Punishment,

1348
01:12:57,400 --> 01:13:00,210
with margin notes
that had Judge Spangler's name

1349
01:13:00,640 --> 01:13:02,961
and a quote of Hannah Arendt's.

1350
01:13:04,760 --> 01:13:05,966
(BALL TAPPING)

1351
01:13:08,960 --> 01:13:10,450
Oh, are you kidding?

1352
01:13:10,600 --> 01:13:12,284
(CHUCKLING) Jill!

1353
01:13:13,280 --> 01:13:14,805
- APRIL: Hey!
- Oh, hi.

1354
01:13:14,960 --> 01:13:17,645
Oh, you look so pretty.
I love your hair today.

1355
01:13:17,800 --> 01:13:19,643
- Oh, God, thank you.
- (LAUGHING)

1356
01:13:19,880 --> 01:13:21,325
- It's a mess.
- Nuh-uh.

1357
01:13:21,600 --> 01:13:23,250
Um, how's your paper coming?

1358
01:13:23,400 --> 01:13:27,485
Good, actually, thanks to Abe Lucas.
I ran into him in the chem lab,

1359
01:13:27,760 --> 01:13:29,728
and he gave me this
whole list of people to read

1360
01:13:29,960 --> 01:13:32,930
to understand those confusing points
that I was talking about, so...

1361
01:13:33,080 --> 01:13:34,491
- He was in the chem lab?
- Yeah.

1362
01:13:34,680 --> 01:13:37,729
He was there after hours.
I really startled him. I felt so bad.

1363
01:13:37,880 --> 01:13:41,009
- (LAUGHING)
- What was he doing in the lab after hours?

1364
01:13:41,560 --> 01:13:43,480
I don't know.
I think he's researching on a book,

1365
01:13:43,600 --> 01:13:45,090
or something that he's writing about,

1366
01:13:45,240 --> 01:13:48,369
like, poison or chemistry,
or one of those things, so...

1367
01:13:48,520 --> 01:13:54,289
But in the lab, all that poison
and toxic stuff is locked away.

1368
01:13:54,840 --> 01:13:56,251
Yeah, but he had a key.

1369
01:13:59,080 --> 01:14:02,801
Hey, why are you actin' so strangely? Huh?

1370
01:14:03,000 --> 01:14:04,047
What's so important we gotta go over it...

1371
01:14:04,200 --> 01:14:06,043
You killed Spangler.

1372
01:14:07,520 --> 01:14:08,885
- What?
- Didn't you?

1373
01:14:09,040 --> 01:14:10,087
- What are you talking about?
- Didn't you?

1374
01:14:10,240 --> 01:14:14,211
You got cyanide from the chem lab, and you
slipped it into his juice in the park.

1375
01:14:14,360 --> 01:14:16,727
You went to Lippitt Park,
you didn't get an MRI.

1376
01:14:16,880 --> 01:14:19,201
- Listen to yourself. Jill, it's me.
- Is that true?

1377
01:14:19,440 --> 01:14:21,363
- Don't...
- Are you nuts?

1378
01:14:21,760 --> 01:14:24,923
Don't tap dance with me, Abe!
I saw in your book.

1379
01:14:25,080 --> 01:14:27,242
I saw that you wrote,
"Spangler, the banality of evil."

1380
01:14:27,440 --> 01:14:29,249
You must've decided that
he deserved to die.

1381
01:14:29,440 --> 01:14:32,683
And so you stole Rita's keys,
and April saw you.

1382
01:14:32,840 --> 01:14:34,410
- Hey, listen, come here.
- No.

1383
01:14:34,600 --> 01:14:35,840
- Come here.
- (GRUNTING)

1384
01:14:36,040 --> 01:14:38,168
I made the choice to help that woman.

1385
01:14:38,480 --> 01:14:39,811
You had it right the other night.

1386
01:14:40,040 --> 01:14:42,327
I always said you had a
first-rate intelligence.

1387
01:14:42,600 --> 01:14:45,171
In the park?
On the bench?

1388
01:14:45,320 --> 01:14:49,484
The covering up, the...
Jesus, I felt that, Abe! I felt that!

1389
01:14:49,800 --> 01:14:51,560
I always taught you to
trust your instincts.

1390
01:14:51,680 --> 01:14:53,250
Not everything can be
grasped by the intellect.

1391
01:14:53,400 --> 01:14:55,846
If it feels right, it often is.

1392
01:14:56,000 --> 01:14:58,810
This was the meaningful act
I was searching for.

1393
01:14:59,440 --> 01:15:02,205
You can't just take it upon yourself
to take someone's life.

1394
01:15:02,560 --> 01:15:04,642
Well, I thought it was a very
reasonable thing to do.

1395
01:15:04,880 --> 01:15:06,291
She hoped he'd get cancer!

1396
01:15:06,520 --> 01:15:08,443
But what the hell is hoping?
Hoping is bullshit.

1397
01:15:08,600 --> 01:15:10,250
You see, you have to act.

1398
01:15:10,960 --> 01:15:14,362
You can't believe it was
moral, what you did.

1399
01:15:14,520 --> 01:15:16,648
- You don't think that it was moral?
- Of course I do.

1400
01:15:16,800 --> 01:15:19,087
I consider myself a moral man
who's lived a moral life,

1401
01:15:19,400 --> 01:15:22,882
who came to the aid of a woman
suffering a great injustice.

1402
01:15:23,080 --> 01:15:25,924
- So, what, are you gonna go to prison?
- No, the police are not thinking of me.

1403
01:15:26,120 --> 01:15:28,487
You gonna go to prison
for the rest of your life?

1404
01:15:28,640 --> 01:15:32,247
And they never will, because I'm a total
stranger to everybody, with no motive.

1405
01:15:32,400 --> 01:15:35,802
This will be just another unsolved crime.

1406
01:15:36,200 --> 01:15:38,168
Do you know that Rita Richards
has a theory that you did it?

1407
01:15:38,320 --> 01:15:41,563
Yes, I know, she told me.
We had a big laugh over it.

1408
01:15:43,040 --> 01:15:44,769
How could you do it, Abe?

1409
01:15:45,240 --> 01:15:47,360
Is the world a better place
without this rotten judge?

1410
01:15:47,480 --> 01:15:49,926
- Oh, my God, Jesus, Abe!
- No, I ask you.

1411
01:15:50,080 --> 01:15:52,082
- Is the world a better place...
- No, this is...

1412
01:15:52,240 --> 01:15:54,686
- Without Judge Spangler?
- I am so crushed, Abe!

1413
01:15:54,880 --> 01:15:56,530
I'm completely lost.

1414
01:15:59,280 --> 01:16:00,770
What do I do?

1415
01:16:01,040 --> 01:16:03,771
What do you mean?
Meaning what?

1416
01:16:05,120 --> 01:16:08,283
Meaning that I care about you
so much and I can't...

1417
01:16:08,440 --> 01:16:10,522
I can't go on seeing you anymore.

1418
01:16:11,480 --> 01:16:12,641
Oh...

1419
01:16:15,320 --> 01:16:17,368
Are you thinking of turning me in?

1420
01:16:17,800 --> 01:16:20,201
Yes, I'm thinking of turning you in.
Of course I am.

1421
01:16:20,360 --> 01:16:22,089
- Jill...
- But I can't do that.

1422
01:16:22,240 --> 01:16:23,440
I can't bring myself to do it.

1423
01:16:23,560 --> 01:16:25,961
You, you... This is...

1424
01:16:26,560 --> 01:16:27,846
This is crazy, Abe!

1425
01:16:28,000 --> 01:16:30,844
I'm asking you to put
our everyday assumptions aside,

1426
01:16:31,000 --> 01:16:33,571
and trust your experience of life.

1427
01:16:33,960 --> 01:16:35,769
In order to really see the world,

1428
01:16:35,920 --> 01:16:38,207
we must break with
our familiar acceptance of it.

1429
01:16:38,400 --> 01:16:43,247
The second I decided to take this action,
my world changed.

1430
01:16:43,400 --> 01:16:44,606
You saw it.

1431
01:16:44,760 --> 01:16:47,843
I suddenly found a reason to live.

1432
01:16:48,040 --> 01:16:51,681
I could make love,
I could experience feelings for you,

1433
01:16:51,840 --> 01:16:55,083
because to do this deed for this woman
gave my life meaning.

1434
01:16:56,360 --> 01:16:58,362
You have to leave, Abe.

1435
01:17:00,520 --> 01:17:03,410
You gotta go.
I can't see you ever again.

1436
01:17:04,920 --> 01:17:07,400
- I won't say anything.
- (SCOFFING)

1437
01:17:08,000 --> 01:17:09,240
I won't say anything.

1438
01:17:09,400 --> 01:17:10,447
But I...

1439
01:17:11,920 --> 01:17:16,448
I believe that you think you did
something morally worthwhile.

1440
01:17:16,640 --> 01:17:18,483
- I did!
- I do believe that. No, but I...

1441
01:17:18,760 --> 01:17:20,762
- But you can't, you can't justify it!
- Shh!

1442
01:17:21,080 --> 01:17:23,367
(WHISPERING) You can't justify it
with all this bullshit.

1443
01:17:23,520 --> 01:17:27,491
With all this bullshit,
French postwar rationalizing.

1444
01:17:27,640 --> 01:17:29,802
This doesn't...
This is murder.

1445
01:17:30,120 --> 01:17:31,281
This is murder.

1446
01:17:31,600 --> 01:17:33,648
It opens the door to more murder, Abe.

1447
01:17:34,040 --> 01:17:35,405
ABE: (WHISPERING)
Okay, okay, okay, okay...

1448
01:17:35,600 --> 01:17:38,251
I don't have the intellect
to refute these arguments.

1449
01:17:38,400 --> 01:17:39,811
I can't argue with you.

1450
01:17:40,040 --> 01:17:42,930
But you taught me to go with my instinct,

1451
01:17:43,160 --> 01:17:47,051
and I don't have to think about this.
I feel that this is no good.

1452
01:17:47,480 --> 01:17:49,084
This is murder.

1453
01:17:49,800 --> 01:17:51,211
Good job today.

1454
01:17:51,400 --> 01:17:54,244
JILL: The next few weeks
were the hardest of my life.

1455
01:17:54,440 --> 01:17:56,283
I loved Abe and truly believed

1456
01:17:56,480 --> 01:17:59,802
his misguided intention
was to do a heroic thing.

1457
01:18:00,440 --> 01:18:03,410
I argued his position
in my head over and over.

1458
01:18:03,560 --> 01:18:06,769
And at times I weakened
and felt he was an original thinker,

1459
01:18:06,920 --> 01:18:08,968
who couldn't be judged
by middle-class rules.

1460
01:18:11,160 --> 01:18:15,131
ELLIE: You seem so down lately.
Did something happen with Abe?

1461
01:18:15,280 --> 01:18:17,328
JILL: He's leaving the school.

1462
01:18:17,640 --> 01:18:19,165
I guess it's just as well.

1463
01:18:19,440 --> 01:18:21,363
How are you taking it?

1464
01:18:23,320 --> 01:18:24,731
Not great.

1465
01:18:27,400 --> 01:18:30,370
I'm sure Roy will be thrilled to hear that.

1466
01:18:30,520 --> 01:18:31,646
You know, it's so funny.

1467
01:18:31,800 --> 01:18:34,849
I used to think of Roy as wonderful,

1468
01:18:36,000 --> 01:18:38,924
but just very uninspired, compared to Abe.

1469
01:18:40,440 --> 01:18:41,885
And now I'm starting to think that

1470
01:18:42,040 --> 01:18:45,283
I've really been more
suited for Roy all along.

1471
01:18:46,680 --> 01:18:49,923
I guess I'm not as cutting edge
as I imagined myself.

1472
01:18:56,240 --> 01:18:57,810
Is it true?

1473
01:18:58,280 --> 01:19:00,408
I heard that Abe is moving on.

1474
01:19:00,840 --> 01:19:02,205
JILL: Yes.

1475
01:19:02,360 --> 01:19:05,330
- Yeah, that's true.
- I'm going to miss him.

1476
01:19:05,640 --> 01:19:10,009
I guess he found Braylin a little tame
for his restless temperament.

1477
01:19:11,880 --> 01:19:14,406
He's thinking of moving to Europe.

1478
01:19:15,000 --> 01:19:16,684
Can I tell you something?

1479
01:19:17,200 --> 01:19:18,361
Sure.

1480
01:19:19,040 --> 01:19:21,646
I wish he'd go to Spain
and take me with him.

1481
01:19:22,440 --> 01:19:23,566
Hmm.

1482
01:19:25,560 --> 01:19:28,325
You know, he said that
you two had a pretty big laugh

1483
01:19:28,480 --> 01:19:30,642
over your theory that
he was the Lippitt Park killer.

1484
01:19:30,800 --> 01:19:32,768
(CHUCKLING)
We did have a good laugh over it.

1485
01:19:33,480 --> 01:19:35,847
And yet, if it turned out
to be that he did it,

1486
01:19:36,040 --> 01:19:40,807
you know, I'd be surprised,
but not stunned.

1487
01:19:41,360 --> 01:19:43,124
Not flabbergasted.

1488
01:19:45,800 --> 01:19:48,371
I'd still let him take me to Spain.

1489
01:19:50,320 --> 01:19:52,209
ABE: I played out
my last few weeks at Braylin

1490
01:19:52,360 --> 01:19:54,886
and made plans to go off
to Europe to teach.

1491
01:19:55,160 --> 01:19:57,811
I Still felt justified in what I'd done.

1492
01:19:57,960 --> 01:20:00,486
I felt that I'd experienced
something unique and deeper,

1493
01:20:00,640 --> 01:20:03,405
from all my social
protests or charity work.

1494
01:20:03,560 --> 01:20:06,643
I'd helped a family and hurt no one,
but he who deserved it.

1495
01:20:06,800 --> 01:20:09,280
A man who took advantage
of his power to hurt others.

1496
01:20:10,440 --> 01:20:12,966
I knew Jill would never betray me.

1497
01:20:13,200 --> 01:20:15,806
But then things took on a new twist.

1498
01:20:16,280 --> 01:20:19,409
Well, there goes my theory.
I guess I'll never work for the FBI.

1499
01:20:20,280 --> 01:20:21,361
What does it say?

1500
01:20:21,720 --> 01:20:23,165
JILL'S DAD: "Police are certain
they have the person

1501
01:20:23,320 --> 01:20:25,288
"who poisoned Judge Thomas Spangler,

1502
01:20:25,480 --> 01:20:28,609
"the family court judge
who was murdered in Lippitt Park.

1503
01:20:28,800 --> 01:20:31,690
"The alleged killer, Albert Podesta,
a medical laboratory worker,

1504
01:20:31,840 --> 01:20:35,447
"had access to the same kind of cyanide
that was used in the murder.

1505
01:20:36,400 --> 01:20:39,210
"Podesta, who denies
he had anything to do with it,

1506
01:20:39,360 --> 01:20:41,727
"had testified before
Spangler two years ago,

1507
01:20:41,880 --> 01:20:46,169
"and had been enraged with the judge for
his ruling in a case against his brother.

1508
01:20:46,360 --> 01:20:49,603
"If convicted,
Podesta faces life imprisonment."

1509
01:20:51,800 --> 01:20:54,610
JILL: What do you plan to do about this?

1510
01:20:55,200 --> 01:20:56,770
(CLEARS THROAT)

1511
01:20:56,920 --> 01:20:58,160
I don't know.

1512
01:20:58,640 --> 01:21:00,290
You don't know?

1513
01:21:00,640 --> 01:21:04,531
Oh, surely, you're not gonna let an
innocent man take the rap for you, Abe.

1514
01:21:04,760 --> 01:21:07,491
I've been up and back over this
since I heard the news.

1515
01:21:07,640 --> 01:21:09,802
"Up and back"?
What does that mean?

1516
01:21:09,960 --> 01:21:12,884
It means that I tried to bring off
the perfect crime,

1517
01:21:13,040 --> 01:21:14,680
and apparently, I succeeded all too well.

1518
01:21:14,800 --> 01:21:17,644
Okay, well, what about all your talk
about moral high ground?

1519
01:21:17,800 --> 01:21:19,882
Look, I need to think this out, all right?

1520
01:21:20,040 --> 01:21:21,963
What is there to think about?

1521
01:21:22,120 --> 01:21:24,441
An innocent man
is about to have his life ruined.

1522
01:21:24,600 --> 01:21:26,887
Okay, I'll give myself up.

1523
01:21:27,040 --> 01:21:28,485
Is that what you want?

1524
01:21:29,000 --> 01:21:30,764
Isn't that what you want?

1525
01:21:30,960 --> 01:21:36,171
I mean, all this talk, talk, talk,
about doing the right thing,

1526
01:21:36,360 --> 01:21:38,124
and what's best, and...

1527
01:21:38,320 --> 01:21:40,846
Okay, if they don't see
that they're making a mistake

1528
01:21:41,120 --> 01:21:43,407
and let him go in a few
days, then I'll just...

1529
01:21:43,560 --> 01:21:45,449
I'll fuckin', I'll turn myself in!

1530
01:21:45,640 --> 01:21:50,123
I haven't been able to
live with myself as it is!

1531
01:21:50,280 --> 01:21:51,441
And this is a...

1532
01:21:51,600 --> 01:21:54,570
We're talking about an innocent man
that's gonna be prosecuted for this!

1533
01:21:54,760 --> 01:21:58,606
I know, I agree! Let me just see
if my luck holds out,

1534
01:21:58,760 --> 01:22:02,082
and they come to realize that
they made a mistake, you know?

1535
01:22:02,280 --> 01:22:05,250
Because I mean... Look at me!

1536
01:22:05,440 --> 01:22:09,126
- I'm not gonna fuckin' make it!
- I know, I understand. I get...

1537
01:22:10,120 --> 01:22:12,043
You have to do it by Monday, though, Abe.

1538
01:22:12,200 --> 01:22:14,680
You got to do it by Monday,
or else I'm gonna have to do it.

1539
01:22:14,840 --> 01:22:16,001
- I'm gonna have to do it.
- You stop that.

1540
01:22:16,200 --> 01:22:17,929
- You don't have to do anything, all right?
- Abe...

1541
01:22:18,120 --> 01:22:19,724
Just give me till Monday, please?

1542
01:22:19,880 --> 01:22:22,121
Look at me, please?
Just give me till Monday?

1543
01:22:22,320 --> 01:22:24,049
Okay? I promise.

1544
01:22:24,320 --> 01:22:26,800
- First thing in the morning on Monday.
- Okay, okay.

1545
01:22:27,000 --> 01:22:29,321
You have to do it, Abe, or I will do it.
I will do it.

1546
01:22:29,480 --> 01:22:32,404
You don't have to do anything, I promise.

1547
01:22:33,680 --> 01:22:35,444
God damn it, Abe.

1548
01:22:41,960 --> 01:22:44,327
ABE: But I had no intention
of giving myself up.

1549
01:22:44,600 --> 01:22:47,001
A few months ago,
my life meant nothing to me.

1550
01:22:47,160 --> 01:22:49,811
I got no enjoyment out of it, no pleasure.

1551
01:22:49,960 --> 01:22:53,043
I'd have been fine if that
little game of Russian Roulette ended it.

1552
01:22:53,200 --> 01:22:56,761
But since I planned and executed
the elimination of Judge Spangler,

1553
01:22:56,920 --> 01:22:59,161
my life had taken a new turn.

1554
01:22:59,320 --> 01:23:00,890
I understood why people loved life

1555
01:23:01,080 --> 01:23:03,526
and saw it as something
joyous to experience.

1556
01:23:03,680 --> 01:23:05,569
I did get pleasure out of living.

1557
01:23:05,720 --> 01:23:09,042
I didn't want to commit suicide,
or spend my remaining days behind bars.

1558
01:23:09,200 --> 01:23:13,524
I wanted to live, to teach, to write,
to travel, to make love.

1559
01:23:15,560 --> 01:23:17,164
That night, I went to bed with Rita,

1560
01:23:17,320 --> 01:23:21,450
and even entertained the thought
of takin' her with me to Europe.

1561
01:23:22,760 --> 01:23:25,331
I would leave Paul in a minute.

1562
01:23:29,400 --> 01:23:32,244
Are you serious?
About Europe, really?

1563
01:23:33,600 --> 01:23:35,125
What if I was?

1564
01:23:39,680 --> 01:23:42,047
I couldn't believe it.
That's, um...

1565
01:23:42,240 --> 01:23:44,083
it would be a dream.

1566
01:23:44,360 --> 01:23:47,807
And start over in Rome or Spain or...

1567
01:23:50,040 --> 01:23:51,280
London?

1568
01:23:52,200 --> 01:23:54,123
ABE: The police had their suspect.

1569
01:23:54,280 --> 01:23:56,965
Rita Richards, who was never really
serious about suspecting me,

1570
01:23:57,120 --> 01:24:01,330
would see it was another man
and that her crackpot theory was crackpot.

1571
01:24:01,480 --> 01:24:04,404
The morality of letting someone take
the rap troubled me greatly,

1572
01:24:04,600 --> 01:24:08,241
but paled against the hardwiring
of my natural will to survive.

1573
01:24:09,280 --> 01:24:12,648
Europe with Rita was beginning
to have an exciting ring to it.

1574
01:24:12,800 --> 01:24:15,883
Her passion for love and lust
was contagious.

1575
01:24:16,560 --> 01:24:18,961
Only one thing stood in the way.

1576
01:24:19,320 --> 01:24:24,201
I had a few days before Jill would insist
I clear the wrongfully accused man.

1577
01:24:24,480 --> 01:24:27,370
Was there a way to keep her from talking?

1578
01:24:27,640 --> 01:24:32,407
I guess she was right when she said
that one murder opens the door to more.

1579
01:24:35,440 --> 01:24:38,250
Jill, I never stopped caring about you.

1580
01:24:38,760 --> 01:24:41,525
It was you who wasn't sure how you felt.

1581
01:24:41,960 --> 01:24:43,849
I was so stupid, Roy.

1582
01:24:44,920 --> 01:24:46,763
I was so stupid, I'm...

1583
01:24:47,000 --> 01:24:50,607
If you say you never want to see me again,
I'll honestly say, I deserve it.

1584
01:24:50,880 --> 01:24:53,121
But what happened
to make you change your mind?

1585
01:24:53,280 --> 01:24:55,681
I don't want to talk about Abe.

1586
01:24:55,920 --> 01:24:57,490
I'll never understand him.

1587
01:24:57,640 --> 01:25:01,440
That's fine. I never wanted to talk
about him the whole time, anyway.

1588
01:25:02,920 --> 01:25:05,321
(WHISPERING)
God, you're too understanding.

1589
01:25:05,480 --> 01:25:07,369
You should be angrier with me.

1590
01:25:07,520 --> 01:25:10,842
Jill, I'm so in love
with you, but I just...

1591
01:25:11,040 --> 01:25:13,850
I just feel like there's something
that you're keeping from me.

1592
01:25:15,320 --> 01:25:17,288
I'll tell you on Monday.

1593
01:25:17,840 --> 01:25:19,001
Okay.

1594
01:25:19,240 --> 01:25:20,969
- All right?
- Okay.

1595
01:25:21,760 --> 01:25:23,524
On Monday, you'll know everything,
I promise.

1596
01:25:23,720 --> 01:25:24,881
Okay.

1597
01:25:26,440 --> 01:25:28,204
(THUNDER RUMBLING)

1598
01:25:29,800 --> 01:25:32,610
I never believed we'd actually break up.

1599
01:25:33,120 --> 01:25:36,010
I'm sad to say, but the time has come.

1600
01:25:36,680 --> 01:25:40,810
And we need to talk about arrangements.

1601
01:25:44,040 --> 01:25:46,202
This is a big step for me.

1602
01:25:47,880 --> 01:25:50,042
You've known all along
I've wanted to live abroad.

1603
01:25:50,200 --> 01:25:51,850
Yes, yes, but...

1604
01:25:53,320 --> 01:25:55,368
- I want you to reconsider.
- Please.

1605
01:25:55,520 --> 01:25:57,010
- Please.
- No.

1606
01:25:58,000 --> 01:26:00,890
Let's just talk about the details, okay?

1607
01:26:18,400 --> 01:26:20,402
(ELEVATOR BELL RINGING)

1608
01:26:55,840 --> 01:26:58,525
ABE: Her death would have
to look like an accident.

1609
01:26:58,680 --> 01:27:01,763
And I ran through all the ones
she might have and it hit me.

1610
01:27:01,920 --> 01:27:06,687
My brief time running an elevator during
my college days might now pay off.

1611
01:27:07,120 --> 01:27:11,409
Funny how often your best ideas
come under pressure of a deadline.

1612
01:27:12,200 --> 01:27:13,565
It was perfect.

1613
01:27:13,720 --> 01:27:15,609
Saturday was her piano lesson.

1614
01:27:15,760 --> 01:27:19,970
Most of the offices were closed. There
was very little action in the building.

1615
01:27:20,120 --> 01:27:22,327
I couldn't make it look like
the elevator had been tampered with,

1616
01:27:22,480 --> 01:27:24,562
but I knew enough
how to make it seem broken.

1617
01:27:24,760 --> 01:27:26,125
(THUDDING)

1618
01:28:20,120 --> 01:28:21,201
Hi.

1619
01:28:23,600 --> 01:28:25,887
- What are you doing here?
- Hi.

1620
01:28:26,480 --> 01:28:28,005
- Hi.
- I just...

1621
01:28:28,160 --> 01:28:31,130
I wanted to talk to you
before I go to the police.

1622
01:28:31,320 --> 01:28:33,561
All right, if it's about anything other
than turning yourself in,

1623
01:28:33,720 --> 01:28:35,722
- I don't want to talk about it, all right?
- No, no...

1624
01:28:35,880 --> 01:28:37,882
I see no other way. I just...

1625
01:28:38,080 --> 01:28:40,208
I want to apologize
for all the trouble I've caused.

1626
01:28:40,360 --> 01:28:42,362
I mean, I just... I can't believe this.

1627
01:28:42,520 --> 01:28:44,329
Oh, God. Oh, Abe.

1628
01:28:46,040 --> 01:28:48,327
Oh, it's a nightmare, I know.

1629
01:28:48,960 --> 01:28:53,124
I don't see any other way
than just telling them the whole story.

1630
01:28:53,320 --> 01:28:55,641
What? That I murdered a judge?

1631
01:28:55,800 --> 01:28:57,450
I know. I'm going to stand behind you.

1632
01:28:57,640 --> 01:29:00,325
- I will, as a friend.
- No, it won't matter, you know?

1633
01:29:00,520 --> 01:29:01,681
It's premeditated murder.

1634
01:29:01,840 --> 01:29:03,922
I mean, I don't...
They'll put me away for life.

1635
01:29:04,080 --> 01:29:07,004
No, maybe they won't.
Hey, maybe with a good lawyer.

1636
01:29:07,160 --> 01:29:10,369
- We don't know.
- Come on, who are we kidding?

1637
01:29:10,520 --> 01:29:14,081
- (ELEVATOR BELL RINGING)
- You know, I just, I can't...

1638
01:29:14,680 --> 01:29:16,045
(SIGHING)

1639
01:29:16,400 --> 01:29:18,926
- (GRUNTING)
- (GASPING)

1640
01:29:19,120 --> 01:29:20,485
(SCREAMING)

1641
01:29:24,600 --> 01:29:26,602
(ELEVATOR BELL RINGING)

1642
01:29:27,360 --> 01:29:29,169
(MUFFLED SCREAMING)

1643
01:29:32,800 --> 01:29:34,165
(GRUNTING)

1644
01:29:35,640 --> 01:29:37,130
(ELEVATOR BELL RINGING)

1645
01:29:37,280 --> 01:29:38,725
(GRUNTING)

1646
01:29:40,920 --> 01:29:42,649
(SCREAMING)

1647
01:29:44,240 --> 01:29:45,651
(THUDDING)

1648
01:29:46,640 --> 01:29:48,563
(GASPING)

1649
01:30:15,680 --> 01:30:17,284
JILL: With the passage of time,

1650
01:30:17,440 --> 01:30:20,649
the awful vividness
of what I had experienced,

1651
01:30:20,800 --> 01:30:25,328
gradually, very gradually,
grew less and less traumatic.

1652
01:30:26,840 --> 01:30:30,845
It helped having a boyfriend
who was so loving and supportive.

1653
01:30:31,680 --> 01:30:35,207
Every now and then,
I reflected on the whole episode.

1654
01:30:35,400 --> 01:30:39,883
And with hindsight, gained some
perspective about life and love,

1655
01:30:40,080 --> 01:30:42,048
and who I was.

1656
01:30:43,640 --> 01:30:46,484
I even experienced,
for one terrifying moment,

1657
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the closeness of death.

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The whole thing had been quite a lesson.
A painful lesson.

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The kind Abe used to say
you can't get from any textbook.

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