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'He had been living in the city
for nine years,

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'and was only now coming
to think of it as home.

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'Characteristically not in a hurry,

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'but perpetually enraged
by slow foot traffic before him,

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'Philip was on this day meeting for lunch
with Mona, his ex-girlfriend,

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'whom he had dated
throughout a portion of college.

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'As with any punctual individual,
Philip loathed when people ran late,

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'which Mona typically was.

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'By the time Mona
made her way to Philip,

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'he was in a state of rage
and on the verge of storming out...

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'a reaction he was known to often have

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'towards the end
of their two-year relationship.

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'During the arguments
that led to their breakup,

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'Mona repeatedly emphasised
Philip's short fuse and poor temper

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'as key factors in no longer being capable
of tolerating his company.'

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- It's just crazy that you're late to me.
- Can we stop talking about it?

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25 minutes I'm waiting, almost 30.
It's an insult.

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Also, I have a really busy day,
so now I have less than an hour.

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Probably not even enough time
to eat anything.

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Maybe a grilled cheese for me.

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I had that the other day.
It's disgusting.

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So I'll ask you how you are, right?
Things are good?

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Things are good with me.

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Allie and I just finally found
a new roommate.

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Oh, what's-her-ass moved?

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- She got married, like, two years ago.
- Figures.

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- Is that the new book?
- Er... yeah.

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I wasn't sure you'd noticed, or heard.

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- OK.
- I'm just getting ready.

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Things are gonna be pretty crazy for me
after the release.

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In fact, this might be
the last time I'm home

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for more than a week at a time
for the next eight or possibly nine months.

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Actually, yeah, definitely.
It's just busy.

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Los Angeles in January, San Francisco...

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Powell's in Portland,
the whole West Coast thing, really.

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I'm told to expect big things out there.

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- You sound like you're bragging.
- That's because I am bragging.

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And you're doing a really hurtful job
of sounding unfazed.

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And do you know why that is?
Because you're not pretending.

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You're not interested in this or me,
not even a little.

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- Why would you say that?
- Because you never believed in me.

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- And you don't now.
- Well, good for you.

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No, not good for me. Great for me.

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You know, you told me many times,
now that I think about it, actually,

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that my goals were unreasonable
and foolhardy.

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Am I recalling this correctly?

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That my dream, the only dream I've had
since I was 14 years old,

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to write and publish a novel of my own,

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wasn't something I could just
reach out and have.

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Hard work, you tell me. Years of
working up from the bottom, you tell me.

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Well, you know something?
You were wrong.

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Dead wrong, actually.
About me and everything.

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This was for you. It's an advance copy.

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I'd even written a little note
on the dedication page and everything.

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But you know something?
You don't support me and you never did.

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So you don't get this gift from me.

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Not today, not ever. Forever.

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You were unkind,
and you tried to stray me from my path.

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And had I listened to you,
I'd be nothing right now.

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'Philip had never been one
for speaking his mind,

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'preferring instead
to bottle up his emotions,

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'eventually forgetting or utilising them
for creative inspiration.

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'However, this outpouring resulted in
Philip feeling more satisfied and content

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'than he had in some time,

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'and it was for this reason
that he immediately telephoned

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'his college roommate, Parker,

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'with the intention of delivering to him
an equally robust dressing down.'

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You blew people's minds, man.

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Now look at you. You're just a combination
of strange fucking colours.

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It was gonna be you and me, man.
Ring a bell?

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Sophomore year, creative writing seminar,
it was us versus them.

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- What the fuck happened?
- I...

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Apparently not everybody's cut out
for life in the fast lane.

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You make me want back
every minute of time I wasted with you,

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dreaming of a future we could share.

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Our declaration of principles.

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Remember this?

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Worthless now.

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I was so stupid to think you wanted it.

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I wanted it, you fucking asshole!

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I did want it.
I wanted it more than you could know.

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It's not so easy for everybody, OK?

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We can't all be as lucky and talented
as the great Philip Lewis Friedman.

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You know what, though?
I'm glad, I'm glad.

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Because if both of our goals
had come true,

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then I'd be just as much
of an insufferable piece of shit as you,

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you fuckin' Jew bastard!

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This could have been us.

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Instead, I'm all alone.

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'Returning home to the apartment
he shared with Ashley Kane,

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'his girlfriend of two years,

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'Philip found himself gripped
by uncontrollable lust,

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'temporarily forgetting the ambivalence
and negligence towards him

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'that she was increasingly incapable
of concealing,

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'as her success as a photographer
in the art world

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'led to consistent and
lucrative commercial work.'

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Hello? Ashley?

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Hello.

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Come out. I have a surprise for you.

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'For the past year,
they had been living together,

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'one advantage of which
was added stability,

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'and a clear head space for writing.'

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'Philip would credit this with allowing him
to finish his second novel,

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'which he previously believed himself
unable to complete.'

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...Parker, and I smoked him too.
I don't know what happened.

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- Parker too?
- Yeah, so...

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- Two nemesi in one day.
- Yes.

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That's pretty hot.

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- I'm really proud of you.
- Thank you very much.

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I, er... I feel... No, it's insane.

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- It's very hot.
- What is? The champagne?

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- You being mean.
- Oh.

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Not hot when you stand like that.

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- It's not hot?
- Not hot.

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You ruined it. Go back to your story.

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'Despite these recent events,

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'Philip was incapable of
experiencing happiness.

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'He counterbalanced
his feelings of love and productivity

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'with periods of extreme isolation,

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'sometimes finding
that days on end had passed

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'since last leaving the house.

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'Shortly after the rush of severing ties

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'with those he believed to be poisonous
to his mental health,

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'Philip was too crippled
with anxiety and dread

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'to go outside
for the better part of a week.

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'Philip had harboured
increasingly romantic notions

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'about what this period
in his life would mean,

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'until one day, a few months before
the publication of his second novel,

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'he abruptly became
confidently disenfranchised

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'to the point of despondency.'

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You know this should be your job.

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- So sorry about the wait.
- Ah, it's ridiculous.

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30 minutes I'm out here, 40 maybe.
I'm five away from leaving.

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- I'm sorry. What do you want me to say?
- Nothing. I'd prefer you to say nothing.

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Riley, don't hold my calls.

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I've got some bad news,
two items of good news.

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Give 'em to me in that order.

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Bad news is you're not looking at
a good review in the Times.

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What? How do we know so soon?
Who's doing it?

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Some new woman.

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- She's new.
- So what's the problem?

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She doesn't like your book.

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Fuck, I really needed that.

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- I'll take the good news now.
- Well, two things.

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First, you're going to be in the "35 Under 35"
issue of the New York Literary Review.

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- Nobody reads that anymore.
- This is something.

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It is not uncompetitive.
Don't be a baby.

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Shit.

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Other thing is,
Ike Zimmerman got back to me.

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- He liked your book, wants to meet you.
- That's huge.

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'Ike Zimmerman was one
of the most prolific American authors

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'of the 1970s and '80s.

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'His breakthrough novel,
Madness & Women,

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'sold over three million copies
in hardback alone.

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'Lesser returns
and failed genre experiments

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'gave way to the triumphant comeback
Audit in 1982.

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'Since then he published infrequently.

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'He had not completed a novel
in six years.'

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Do you wanna look in our wardrobe area?

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We can probably find you
a lighter-weight jacket.

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Let's just keep this jacket on me and take
the photograph sooner rather than later.

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We actually wanted to get a picture
of you in front of the printing press,

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and then the portrait.

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- Is that from the 1920s?
- Yeah.

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Well, I'm not, so let's skip it

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and move on over
to this yellow thing, all right?

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I know. "What an asshole."

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Would you mind standing?

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What is this for?

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Could you open it as though you're reading,
then look at me again?

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I don't wanna do that.

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- Why?
- It's a poor idea.

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Why would I be standing up
with my jacket buttoned, reading?

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- It's just a prop.
- I can see that.

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But I think it presents
a very false depiction of me.

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I'd much rather
this picture at least seem honest.

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You know, Tolkien wouldn't allow himself
to be photographed writing,

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because he didn't allow
anybody to watch him work.

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Same idea here.
Just slightly modified to suit me.

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Philip.

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I hope that wasn't too bad.

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It's always bad.
There's just degrees of bad.

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Oh, hey. How's it going?

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Mmh... good.

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We met before.

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Er... I don't think we have.

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You sure about that?

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Um... I wanted to tell you
I really liked your book.

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Those advance copies
really get around, huh?

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Anyway, the first one's better.

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Um, I haven't read it.

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I'm not some weird groupie or anything.

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No, if you were a groupie,
you likely would have read both my books.

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Are there book groupies?
Author groupies?

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Not many, but yeah.

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Hey! Quick thought I just had.

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I'm not doing any press for the book at all.
Readings, interviews. Nothing.

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- You cannot be serious.
- Oh, quite.

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That's a horrible, horrible idea.

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I don't like the idea
of being on display.

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My mind is made up.
I wanna be left alone.

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Hi, Riley.

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I think the tie is a bit much.

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I'm invited to his home.
I don't wanna look like a schmo.

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Then maybe lose the jacket.

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You know, it's 80 degrees out.

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It looks like you don't own
a more seasonally-appropriate jacket.

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I don't know, I think it looks nice.

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Yeah. Nice, just kind of sweaty.

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- Philip Lewis Friedman.
- Go get 'em.

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- OK, bye.
- Bye.

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- Pleasure.
- Good luck.

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- Thank you.
- Fix your collar.

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- Huh?
- Your collar.

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Oh. Thank you.

217
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I'd seriously consider having a better
answer to that question if I were you.

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I'm filling up notebooks,
but it's nothing but worthless garbage.

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Don't tell people that.

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Makes you look lazy and stupid.

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Got it.

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That probably came out
a lot crueller than I intended.

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But don't make being lackadaisical
and disorganised your thing.

224
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- It sends out a message that you'll regret.
- I see.

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Do you have a nice place to write?

226
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I mean, that's important.

227
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You'll find that,
if you haven't already.

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I rented a small studio.

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Does it work for you?

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No, not really. In fact, I rarely go.

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Here.

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I probably wouldn't have wanted
to hear this either

233
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when I was your age, but...

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The city.

235
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You can't get anything done here.

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It has a creative energy,
but not a productive energy.

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Quiet does not exist,
and I find that difficult.

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Do you know,
I've not written a single page

239
00:11:48,416 --> 00:11:50,749
within the city limits
these past 30 years?

240
00:11:52,000 --> 00:11:55,082
You'll need a country retreat,
if you can afford one.

241
00:11:55,958 --> 00:11:57,249
I can't.

242
00:11:59,208 --> 00:12:00,957
Well...

243
00:12:02,958 --> 00:12:06,540
Of course, I had achieved
considerably more than you by now.

244
00:12:06,666 --> 00:12:08,999
- Not to be insulting.
- Of course.

245
00:12:09,125 --> 00:12:12,290
But if I can be of any assistance,
if I can help in any way,

246
00:12:12,416 --> 00:12:14,165
just ask outright.

247
00:12:14,291 --> 00:12:16,290
Don't be shy.

248
00:12:16,416 --> 00:12:17,957
I loved your book.

249
00:12:18,083 --> 00:12:20,957
- Yeah, it was OK.
- Don't denigrate yourself.

250
00:12:21,083 --> 00:12:22,790
It's really, really good,

251
00:12:22,916 --> 00:12:25,749
and it would be a shame
for me not to read another one.

252
00:12:30,833 --> 00:12:32,332
Hello.

253
00:13:07,125 --> 00:13:10,374
It's a filthy system, the way it's structured.
You can trust me on this.

254
00:13:10,500 --> 00:13:13,124
I'm not sorry if this kills
any of your illusions about anything.

255
00:13:13,250 --> 00:13:16,415
I feel like it's my job
to tell you the honesty.

256
00:13:16,541 --> 00:13:18,165
Nobody else has.

257
00:13:18,291 --> 00:13:19,499
Nobody else can.

258
00:13:19,625 --> 00:13:22,332
It's rare to find these things out,
and also upsetting.

259
00:13:23,916 --> 00:13:26,582
These little glasses.
Let me see these things.

260
00:13:29,708 --> 00:13:32,290
Oh, yeah, we have
the exact same affectation.

261
00:13:37,208 --> 00:13:38,624
Mm-mmh...

262
00:13:39,125 --> 00:13:40,707
Ah... Emily.

263
00:13:42,375 --> 00:13:43,582
Erm...

264
00:13:44,125 --> 00:13:46,915
Seems like a less than ideal place
to carry on.

265
00:13:48,333 --> 00:13:50,499
Is it 'cause you have a girlfriend?

266
00:13:52,083 --> 00:13:54,499
You mentioned her in an interview.

267
00:13:55,958 --> 00:13:58,915
It's because it's gauche
to grope and kiss in public.

268
00:14:05,500 --> 00:14:07,290
You really don't remember
meeting me, do you?

269
00:14:07,416 --> 00:14:09,707
I had a photo shoot in that same place
when my first book came out.

270
00:14:09,833 --> 00:14:11,749
I gave you a copy of it.

271
00:14:11,875 --> 00:14:14,999
You acted like you were better than some
first-time author nobody had ever heard of,

272
00:14:15,125 --> 00:14:17,082
even though you were probably
still in college.

273
00:14:17,208 --> 00:14:19,540
I wrote my number in it, twice.

274
00:14:21,291 --> 00:14:24,374
I really honestly
don't remember meeting you.

275
00:14:24,500 --> 00:14:26,457
Sorry, but I remember you now.

276
00:14:26,583 --> 00:14:28,207
Oh, of course you do.

277
00:14:28,750 --> 00:14:30,832
OK. I'll call you.

278
00:15:00,041 --> 00:15:01,540
Where were you?

279
00:15:01,666 --> 00:15:02,915
Out.

280
00:15:05,958 --> 00:15:07,665
So, my meeting with Ike today...

281
00:15:09,583 --> 00:15:11,249
Oh, so he's Ike now?

282
00:15:11,375 --> 00:15:14,165
- With Zimmerman. How's your gin?
- How was he?

283
00:15:14,291 --> 00:15:18,665
He has a quality
that can only be described as... chrome.

284
00:15:19,250 --> 00:15:21,999
- And?
- He seems to wanna help me.

285
00:15:24,916 --> 00:15:26,332
How can he help you?

286
00:15:26,458 --> 00:15:27,915
He didn't say.

287
00:15:29,166 --> 00:15:31,665
He's got great stories.
I'd love to hang out with him again.

288
00:15:33,000 --> 00:15:34,707
Do we have plans?

289
00:15:34,833 --> 00:15:37,624
- Do we have plans when?
- Whenever.

290
00:15:39,125 --> 00:15:42,665
Yes, Philip, I'd say sometime in the
indeterminate future, we may have plans.

291
00:15:42,791 --> 00:15:43,915
Good shoot today?

292
00:15:46,750 --> 00:15:48,040
Can you just leave me alone?

293
00:15:48,166 --> 00:15:49,665
I have to do this.

294
00:15:50,833 --> 00:15:52,499
You're fucking with
other people's money here.

295
00:15:52,625 --> 00:15:54,582
Money, money, money.
What about my integrity?

296
00:15:54,708 --> 00:15:56,582
You know, I can think of
a few other important writers

297
00:15:56,708 --> 00:15:59,165
who also took a firm no-press position.

298
00:15:59,291 --> 00:16:01,249
I just wanna know that you've
thought it through thoroughly.

299
00:16:01,375 --> 00:16:02,540
I haven't.

300
00:16:02,666 --> 00:16:05,749
It's a very impulsive decision,
and I'm very pleased with myself for that.

301
00:16:10,583 --> 00:16:12,040
Philip, this is Josh Fawn.

302
00:16:12,166 --> 00:16:14,999
Josh, this is Philip,
who's being a baby and an asshole.

303
00:16:15,125 --> 00:16:17,957
Ciao. Yes, we've met before.
We've done some panels together.

304
00:16:18,083 --> 00:16:20,207
Er... I remember one of them.

305
00:16:20,333 --> 00:16:22,999
Phil, Josh is going on a promotional tour
for his new book.

306
00:16:23,125 --> 00:16:24,915
That's what responsible authors do.

307
00:16:25,041 --> 00:16:27,707
It helps them sell copies
and benefits all parties involved.

308
00:16:27,833 --> 00:16:29,374
- Noted.
- We're wanting you to cover this

309
00:16:29,500 --> 00:16:32,832
as a feature for one of several magazines,
that we're currently negotiating with.

310
00:16:32,958 --> 00:16:34,749
I just like the new book,

311
00:16:34,875 --> 00:16:36,999
and this idea came up,
and I kind of suggested you.

312
00:16:37,875 --> 00:16:39,207
- Thanks, Josh.
- Interest?

313
00:16:39,833 --> 00:16:41,374
Terms?

314
00:16:41,500 --> 00:16:43,374
You'll take whatever we can get you.

315
00:16:43,500 --> 00:16:44,999
It'll be two to three weeks.

316
00:16:45,125 --> 00:16:46,874
I assume we can get you
something like 5,000 to 8,000

317
00:16:47,000 --> 00:16:49,040
depending on where
we ultimately sell it to.

318
00:16:49,166 --> 00:16:50,707
Right in my pocket. Sounds great.

319
00:16:50,833 --> 00:16:53,957
See, when I slam a door,
life opens a window. When do we leave?

320
00:16:54,083 --> 00:16:57,332
You gonna be speaking in little turns
of phrase like that the whole time?

321
00:16:57,458 --> 00:16:58,790
I might. I don't know.

322
00:16:59,583 --> 00:17:00,957
I think this is gonna be fun.

323
00:17:02,916 --> 00:17:05,332
You wanna go sit somewhere
and talk more about it?

324
00:17:06,166 --> 00:17:08,165
I think we're pretty much
on the same page.

325
00:17:09,125 --> 00:17:10,999
Hey, thanks for doing this, by the way.

326
00:17:11,750 --> 00:17:13,915
You don't seem to give a shit
about this at all.

327
00:17:15,666 --> 00:17:17,249
Sure, I do.

328
00:17:18,375 --> 00:17:20,290
I'm a nice guy.

329
00:17:20,416 --> 00:17:23,249
Read an article about me.
I'm self-deprecating.

330
00:17:33,375 --> 00:17:35,957
No, I'm not thrilled you're going away
for over a month.

331
00:17:36,083 --> 00:17:37,415
That is why I'm acting like this.

332
00:17:37,541 --> 00:17:39,374
Can we please not
talk about this in public?

333
00:17:39,500 --> 00:17:41,790
It strikes me as unlikely,
as you supported ideas like this

334
00:17:41,916 --> 00:17:44,415
when I still could have turned them down.
I need the money.

335
00:17:44,541 --> 00:17:46,874
What I said was,
it would be good for your career.

336
00:17:47,916 --> 00:17:50,457
I thought you meant "career"
with a dollar sign.

337
00:17:51,208 --> 00:17:52,374
I think we need more.

338
00:17:52,500 --> 00:17:54,582
Fireworks, shooting guns.

339
00:17:54,708 --> 00:17:56,457
Maybe we need to get arrested.

340
00:17:57,625 --> 00:17:59,290
Yeah, that might be
a little bit problematic

341
00:17:59,416 --> 00:18:01,415
for some of my younger,
more impressionable fans.

342
00:18:02,583 --> 00:18:04,290
I have a lot of those, I'm told.

343
00:18:06,041 --> 00:18:07,624
Hi.

344
00:18:07,750 --> 00:18:09,624
Ashley.

345
00:18:09,750 --> 00:18:11,124
Oh, my God. Hi.

346
00:18:12,000 --> 00:18:13,082
- Josh.
- Josh.

347
00:18:13,208 --> 00:18:14,374
Yeah.

348
00:18:14,500 --> 00:18:16,707
- Wow. How are you?
- I'm good. How you doin'?

349
00:18:16,833 --> 00:18:18,582
It was...

350
00:18:18,708 --> 00:18:21,082
- Beth's wedding?
- Beth's wedding, right.

351
00:18:21,208 --> 00:18:22,790
Wow. Was a fun night.

352
00:18:22,916 --> 00:18:24,582
I'm foggy.

353
00:18:24,708 --> 00:18:26,957
- Good to see you.
- Yeah, nice to see you as well.

354
00:18:30,416 --> 00:18:31,957
You guys know each other.

355
00:18:32,083 --> 00:18:33,415
Yeah, we fucking live together.

356
00:18:35,350 --> 00:18:36,740
Nice.

357
00:18:38,750 --> 00:18:40,624
How you take a punch, Josh?

358
00:18:41,050 --> 00:18:43,290
- Excuse me?
- I think we should get into a fight.

359
00:18:43,416 --> 00:18:45,874
For the article.
I think it'd be a neat idea.

360
00:18:47,541 --> 00:18:49,457
- Stand up, Josh.
- OK.

361
00:18:50,541 --> 00:18:53,082
- I'm gonna show you how to take a punch.
- I know how to take a punch.

362
00:18:53,208 --> 00:18:54,790
I'm gonna show you the right way
to take a punch.

363
00:18:54,916 --> 00:18:56,082
OK, hit me.

364
00:18:56,708 --> 00:18:58,457
- Where?
- Right in my stomach.

365
00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:02,124
Hit me as hard as you can,
just at my stomach.

366
00:19:03,666 --> 00:19:05,290
That wasn't as hard as I can.

367
00:19:05,416 --> 00:19:06,832
I know. I hope not.

368
00:19:06,958 --> 00:19:08,665
Hit me again. Harder. Seriously.

369
00:19:08,791 --> 00:19:09,874
- Yeah, OK.
- Go.

370
00:19:10,000 --> 00:19:11,790
- You ready?
- Yeah.

371
00:19:11,916 --> 00:19:13,665
- Harder?
- Go. Harder.

372
00:19:16,041 --> 00:19:17,165
I'm fine.

373
00:19:17,291 --> 00:19:20,207
What I did was essentially,
breathing is key.

374
00:19:20,333 --> 00:19:22,332
- Think of it as, like...
- Just hit me.

375
00:19:22,458 --> 00:19:24,082
- All right, you ready? OK.
- Yeah.

376
00:19:24,708 --> 00:19:26,040
One...

377
00:19:26,166 --> 00:19:27,582
Two...

378
00:19:27,708 --> 00:19:29,749
It's cancelled.
I'm fired, if you can believe that.

379
00:19:29,875 --> 00:19:31,499
The whole damn time, he had another guy

380
00:19:31,625 --> 00:19:33,999
and was talking to another magazine,
and just goes with that.

381
00:19:34,125 --> 00:19:36,665
It's sociopathic, is what it is.
Fucking snake.

382
00:19:36,791 --> 00:19:38,249
Feel like a real fat loser right now.

383
00:19:38,375 --> 00:19:41,457
You should use the time
doing something equally as productive.

384
00:19:42,208 --> 00:19:44,749
Well, I was actually planning
to stay home and suffer quietly

385
00:19:44,875 --> 00:19:46,790
as I can no longer afford
to do much else.

386
00:19:48,166 --> 00:19:50,749
Come to my country house. Stay with me.

387
00:19:52,000 --> 00:19:53,957
Rub two sticks together.

388
00:19:54,083 --> 00:19:55,624
Make a fire.

389
00:19:55,750 --> 00:19:58,290
I know most people expect
surprising and generous offers

390
00:19:58,416 --> 00:19:59,582
to be politely refused,

391
00:19:59,708 --> 00:20:02,040
but I might have to call your bluff
and emphatically accept.

392
00:20:02,166 --> 00:20:04,124
How does Memorial Day sound?

393
00:20:05,250 --> 00:20:06,249
That's next week.

394
00:20:06,375 --> 00:20:08,374
Yeah. Sooner the better.

395
00:20:08,500 --> 00:20:11,499
I have a girl, Melanie, up there.

396
00:20:11,625 --> 00:20:12,915
She looks after the place.

397
00:20:13,041 --> 00:20:14,707
I'll mention it to her.

398
00:20:16,750 --> 00:20:17,749
Thank you.

399
00:20:18,541 --> 00:20:19,540
Skol.

400
00:20:28,500 --> 00:20:31,540
'Philip had begun to feel
that the city was rejecting him,

401
00:20:31,666 --> 00:20:35,790
'and Ike's sudden offer of solitude
and respite was immediately appealing.

402
00:20:35,916 --> 00:20:39,374
'So much so that Philip even requested
that the invitation be open-ended,

403
00:20:39,500 --> 00:20:43,999
'and that he be allowed to stay until he felt
emotionally capable of returning to the city.

404
00:20:45,500 --> 00:20:48,790
'To Philip's surprise,
Ike considered this a terrific idea,

405
00:20:48,916 --> 00:20:50,540
'and even said so.'

406
00:20:50,666 --> 00:20:52,415
Actually, that's a terrific idea.

407
00:20:53,333 --> 00:20:57,374
I admire you for being so bold
as to come right out and ask.

408
00:20:57,500 --> 00:21:00,540
I know that sounds like
I'm being sarcastic, but I'm not.

409
00:21:05,041 --> 00:21:08,415
'Ike had begun to lose his passion
for being alone all the time,

410
00:21:08,541 --> 00:21:12,915
'and was eager to have an impressionable
young mind on which to impart his wisdom.

411
00:21:13,041 --> 00:21:14,999
'It was under these circumstances
that Philip agreed

412
00:21:15,125 --> 00:21:17,332
'to spend a portion
of his summer upstate with Ike,

413
00:21:17,458 --> 00:21:19,915
'rather than in the city with Ashley.

414
00:21:21,708 --> 00:21:23,332
'Ashley had not been the first to notice

415
00:21:23,458 --> 00:21:26,040
'Philip's increasingly
marginal role in her life.

416
00:21:26,166 --> 00:21:28,540
'It was talked about often
by friends and colleagues,

417
00:21:28,666 --> 00:21:30,707
'none of whom ever had
a relationship with Philip,

418
00:21:30,833 --> 00:21:33,957
'but grew used to hearing about him
much more than they had been lately.

419
00:21:37,916 --> 00:21:41,290
'It had been months since Ashley felt
any real connection to Philip.

420
00:21:41,416 --> 00:21:44,999
'He began to drift away while applying
the finishing touches to his new book

421
00:21:45,125 --> 00:21:46,582
'and had never come back.

422
00:21:46,708 --> 00:21:48,874
'She tried her best to ignore
the mounting signs,

423
00:21:49,000 --> 00:21:50,915
'but the more often they were
brought to her attention,

424
00:21:51,041 --> 00:21:52,540
'the harder it became.

425
00:21:52,666 --> 00:21:55,207
'The most difficult part of which
was her own increasing ambivalence

426
00:21:55,333 --> 00:21:58,415
'regarding her role in Philip's life,
or his in hers.

427
00:21:58,958 --> 00:22:00,290
'She wanted him to want her,

428
00:22:00,416 --> 00:22:02,790
'and the slowly dawning realisation
that he might not

429
00:22:02,916 --> 00:22:05,374
'was enough to push her
into emotionally unprecedented levels

430
00:22:05,500 --> 00:22:07,415
'of doubt and misdirected anger.'

431
00:22:10,083 --> 00:22:12,374
So it's cancelled,
and you're suddenly leaving again?

432
00:22:12,500 --> 00:22:13,749
Looks like it.

433
00:22:13,875 --> 00:22:15,665
God, you'd do anything
to get away from me.

434
00:22:15,791 --> 00:22:18,874
You see, it's remarks like that
that tell me I'm doing the right thing.

435
00:22:19,833 --> 00:22:21,249
Can we please talk?

436
00:22:21,375 --> 00:22:22,624
OK.

437
00:22:22,750 --> 00:22:24,207
Talk.

438
00:22:26,000 --> 00:22:27,882
Kind of figured you would say something.

439
00:22:28,008 --> 00:22:29,299
Nope.

440
00:22:29,666 --> 00:22:31,040
Actually, I do have something to say,

441
00:22:31,166 --> 00:22:33,374
and I imagine you'll not care
to hear it, and it is this.

442
00:22:33,500 --> 00:22:36,957
I'm not going to Ike's for just the week.
He invited me to stay for longer.

443
00:22:38,833 --> 00:22:40,874
- Wait, longer?
- Yeah.

444
00:22:41,000 --> 00:22:42,749
I don't understand.

445
00:22:42,875 --> 00:22:45,790
Honestly, I don't see myself
returning till July or so.

446
00:22:46,541 --> 00:22:48,332
So, you're basically leaving me
for the whole summer.

447
00:22:48,458 --> 00:22:49,832
Not if you look at it like that.

448
00:22:49,958 --> 00:22:51,790
- How am I supposed to look at it?
- Look at it like this.

449
00:22:51,916 --> 00:22:53,874
I was supposed to be gone
most of June anyway, right?

450
00:22:54,000 --> 00:22:55,124
I don't see how this is any different.

451
00:22:55,250 --> 00:22:56,624
I can't breathe here,

452
00:22:56,750 --> 00:22:58,999
and you seem to resent my presence.
Thus I'm unable to work.

453
00:22:59,125 --> 00:23:01,040
It's ugly. It's loud.
It's always moving.

454
00:23:01,166 --> 00:23:03,540
I never feel still long enough
to hold a thought.

455
00:23:03,666 --> 00:23:04,999
I feel sick out there among the people.

456
00:23:05,125 --> 00:23:07,165
I need to remedy this,
and an opportunity has presented itself.

457
00:23:07,291 --> 00:23:10,124
I'm gonna take it. I've got no money
and no hope of another advance.

458
00:23:10,250 --> 00:23:12,082
I'm doing what's best for me.

459
00:23:12,208 --> 00:23:14,415
Yeah, you're doing what you're best at.

460
00:23:14,541 --> 00:23:16,457
You're looking out for
your own self interests

461
00:23:16,583 --> 00:23:19,624
without thinking about how it might
affect me or anybody else. Typical!

462
00:23:19,750 --> 00:23:21,582
You're hardly around anyway.
You won't even notice.

463
00:23:21,708 --> 00:23:24,999
Hey, don't tell me I'm not gonna notice
that I'm alone all of a sudden.

464
00:23:26,916 --> 00:23:28,915
Why can't you do something
that involves me?

465
00:23:29,041 --> 00:23:31,624
Why can't we go somewhere together?
You know, alone or...

466
00:23:33,875 --> 00:23:36,332
Is it the money? Because I don't mind
if you need to borrow some again...

467
00:23:36,458 --> 00:23:37,457
Put your money away, all right?

468
00:23:37,583 --> 00:23:38,874
I'm not taking any money from you.

469
00:23:39,000 --> 00:23:40,749
Those days are behind me.
Forever, I told myself.

470
00:23:41,958 --> 00:23:44,124
I hope this will be good for us.

471
00:23:44,250 --> 00:23:45,624
But especially for me.

472
00:24:05,416 --> 00:24:08,124
You are selfish and unsentimental.

473
00:24:08,875 --> 00:24:11,874
- Everyone knows this about you.
- You say that like it's a bad thing.

474
00:24:12,000 --> 00:24:13,332
On the contrary.

475
00:24:13,458 --> 00:24:16,749
An admirable trait, if you ask me.

476
00:24:17,916 --> 00:24:19,665
I come from an unsupportive background.

477
00:24:19,791 --> 00:24:21,832
Yeah, I do, too, but don't cling to it.

478
00:24:21,958 --> 00:24:23,415
It'll make you lazy and angry.

479
00:24:23,541 --> 00:24:25,790
- Your work will suffer.
- I'll keep that in mind.

480
00:24:25,916 --> 00:24:29,415
And I don't believe you need to
exacerbate these instincts in yourself

481
00:24:29,541 --> 00:24:30,540
more than you already do.

482
00:24:33,416 --> 00:24:34,415
You got it.

483
00:25:05,791 --> 00:25:07,749
Ah... now, your room's out the back.

484
00:25:24,291 --> 00:25:25,707
I, erm...

485
00:25:26,250 --> 00:25:28,457
I have to go to the city
for a couple of days.

486
00:25:28,583 --> 00:25:31,790
- Do you think you'll be all right here?
- Yes, I do.

487
00:25:31,916 --> 00:25:33,249
I thought so.

488
00:26:04,541 --> 00:26:05,540
Hello?

489
00:26:06,291 --> 00:26:07,749
Dad?

490
00:26:09,083 --> 00:26:10,124
Hello?

491
00:26:12,875 --> 00:26:14,290
Are you that kid?

492
00:26:15,458 --> 00:26:17,290
You're the caretaker, Melanie?

493
00:26:17,416 --> 00:26:19,124
Dad mentioned you might be here.

494
00:26:19,250 --> 00:26:20,790
So, this comes as no surprise.

495
00:26:20,916 --> 00:26:22,624
Not to me, no.

496
00:26:25,083 --> 00:26:26,082
"Dad"?

497
00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:36,624
Beautiful sunset.

498
00:26:39,791 --> 00:26:42,165
- Productive day?
- Not particularly.

499
00:26:43,416 --> 00:26:46,082
I'm glad that he's replaced himself
with a younger surrogate

500
00:26:46,208 --> 00:26:47,665
to handle the forlorn moping.

501
00:26:49,583 --> 00:26:51,790
I'm glad it pleases you.

502
00:26:53,291 --> 00:26:54,874
He'll be back in a few days.

503
00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:56,499
I know.

504
00:26:57,041 --> 00:27:00,457
I wasn't sure if you cared about
me being here and him not.

505
00:27:00,583 --> 00:27:02,415
- I do not.
- Right.

506
00:27:02,541 --> 00:27:04,290
Because you are a guest.

507
00:27:06,583 --> 00:27:08,457
And this is probably your summer home.

508
00:27:11,583 --> 00:27:14,540
He used to bring other women here
so he could cheat on my mother.

509
00:27:17,166 --> 00:27:18,332
So, no family vacations.

510
00:27:18,458 --> 00:27:20,332
Only horrible, traumatic ones.

511
00:27:53,833 --> 00:27:55,749
You never smell cut grass in the city.

512
00:27:55,875 --> 00:27:57,499
I don't find you charming.

513
00:27:57,625 --> 00:28:00,749
You are just like him, and I hope you learn
to take responsibility for yourself

514
00:28:00,875 --> 00:28:03,457
before you destroy the lives
of people who care about you.

515
00:28:19,250 --> 00:28:20,749
This is really nice.

516
00:28:21,458 --> 00:28:22,874
Thanks, Dad.

517
00:28:24,291 --> 00:28:25,957
So, how's it been up here?

518
00:28:27,291 --> 00:28:28,540
It's been good.

519
00:28:28,666 --> 00:28:30,707
I've really enjoyed all the alone time.

520
00:28:32,541 --> 00:28:34,457
I'm sorry about the scheduling problem.

521
00:28:34,583 --> 00:28:36,790
Will you admit that you made a mistake?

522
00:28:36,916 --> 00:28:38,499
I don't think that's necessary.

523
00:28:38,625 --> 00:28:40,915
It was a simple misunderstanding.

524
00:28:41,041 --> 00:28:42,499
Could happen to anyone.

525
00:28:43,791 --> 00:28:45,124
Was anybody speaking to you?

526
00:28:45,250 --> 00:28:47,915
- I thought I was part of the conversation.
- Well, you weren't supposed to be.

527
00:28:48,041 --> 00:28:50,040
In fact, you're not even
supposed to be here.

528
00:28:50,166 --> 00:28:51,540
I am. Does that make sense?

529
00:28:51,666 --> 00:28:54,415
You are the scheduling problem
I was referring to.

530
00:28:54,541 --> 00:28:57,332
I thought you were talking about
how your father had to go back to the city.

531
00:28:57,458 --> 00:28:59,624
- Yeah, I thought so too.
- Well, I wasn't.

532
00:28:59,750 --> 00:29:01,332
You didn't make that clear, sweetheart.

533
00:29:06,958 --> 00:29:10,665
I can't process how grossly dissatisfied
I find myself feeling.

534
00:29:10,791 --> 00:29:14,249
Things I've coveted for years are mine now,
and all I feel is miserable.

535
00:29:14,775 --> 00:29:16,749
That is so cliché.

536
00:29:16,875 --> 00:29:20,082
But you know that, so I won't bother
reminding you of how silly you sound.

537
00:29:20,875 --> 00:29:23,957
Didn't you say you, erm...
you placed on some

538
00:29:24,083 --> 00:29:26,499
silly list of young so-and-so's?

539
00:29:26,625 --> 00:29:27,915
35 under 35.

540
00:29:28,041 --> 00:29:29,457
That's it. Yeah.

541
00:29:29,583 --> 00:29:32,165
Yeah, we didn't have crap like that
when I was your age.

542
00:29:32,291 --> 00:29:33,707
You're ahead of the game.

543
00:29:33,833 --> 00:29:36,999
Yeah, but when you were 32,
didn't you win the National Book Award?

544
00:29:38,750 --> 00:29:40,332
That's true.

545
00:29:40,458 --> 00:29:42,832
But you are not me.

546
00:29:46,250 --> 00:29:49,499
How would you like to accept
a gracious favour I've done for you?

547
00:29:50,958 --> 00:29:52,082
Depends on what it is.

548
00:29:52,833 --> 00:29:57,332
That answer is at once
both arrogant and correct.

549
00:29:57,458 --> 00:30:00,832
Don't accept too readily
something you might want.

550
00:30:01,708 --> 00:30:05,540
In any event, a friend of mine
from Lambert College got in touch.

551
00:30:05,666 --> 00:30:08,999
They're looking for an
adjunct creative writing instructor

552
00:30:09,125 --> 00:30:10,415
for the fall semester.

553
00:30:10,541 --> 00:30:12,415
I teach there occasionally, as you know,

554
00:30:12,541 --> 00:30:15,374
but usually more advanced
seminars, so...

555
00:30:16,291 --> 00:30:18,165
I find this to be beneath me,

556
00:30:18,291 --> 00:30:20,499
but it's a good opportunity for you.

557
00:30:21,416 --> 00:30:22,790
He'd like to interview you tomorrow.

558
00:30:23,500 --> 00:30:25,415
- You can take my car.
- What does it pay?

559
00:30:25,541 --> 00:30:27,124
At that level, I have no idea.

560
00:30:27,250 --> 00:30:29,874
But, hey, you haven't got
the position yet.

561
00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:32,374
I've merely placed you on their radar.

562
00:30:33,375 --> 00:30:36,207
But you're notable now, and that helps.

563
00:30:38,916 --> 00:30:40,957
We're so excited you accepted.

564
00:30:41,583 --> 00:30:43,457
The new book is really terrific.

565
00:30:44,583 --> 00:30:45,999
Oh, boy.

566
00:30:56,083 --> 00:30:58,124
I wish somebody here
would say something mean.

567
00:30:58,250 --> 00:30:59,540
- Mean?
- Or honest.

568
00:30:59,666 --> 00:31:02,582
It's unlikely that everybody here
has nothing but praise.

569
00:31:02,708 --> 00:31:05,415
It's not real.
I don't like how this is starting.

570
00:31:05,541 --> 00:31:07,165
These are decent people.

571
00:31:07,291 --> 00:31:08,957
They just want to be your friend.

572
00:31:09,083 --> 00:31:10,332
I know, that's the problem.

573
00:31:10,458 --> 00:31:11,874
Sorry to bother you again.

574
00:31:12,000 --> 00:31:13,832
- Is there trash in here?
- Yes, I'm right here.

575
00:31:34,458 --> 00:31:35,999
Hey.

576
00:31:36,125 --> 00:31:37,832
It's Philip.

577
00:31:54,583 --> 00:31:56,915
You look like you're asleep
with your eyes open.

578
00:31:58,458 --> 00:31:59,999
I didn't even see you there.

579
00:32:00,125 --> 00:32:01,790
You were looking right at me.

580
00:32:03,875 --> 00:32:06,040
You were right. This place is beautiful.

581
00:32:08,208 --> 00:32:09,999
You sure you don't want any of these?

582
00:32:10,125 --> 00:32:12,457
Brought you a whole box.

583
00:32:12,583 --> 00:32:15,124
I'd rather just look around
and stare at people.

584
00:32:17,500 --> 00:32:19,290
I was surprised you called me.

585
00:32:20,583 --> 00:32:22,832
I didn't see any way that I couldn't.

586
00:32:24,666 --> 00:32:27,582
Things are pretty hectic
with my new book and everything.

587
00:32:27,708 --> 00:32:29,540
That's pretty cool.

588
00:32:31,083 --> 00:32:33,749
No, it's not cool. It's fucking amazing.

589
00:32:33,875 --> 00:32:35,957
Do you know how few people
reach this level?

590
00:32:38,208 --> 00:32:39,457
You seem to not care.

591
00:32:39,583 --> 00:32:41,249
I really don't.

592
00:32:44,916 --> 00:32:47,374
Did you ask me here
so you could talk about yourself?

593
00:32:48,458 --> 00:32:49,957
Next question.

594
00:32:51,375 --> 00:32:53,874
Does talking about this stuff
make you feel happy?

595
00:32:54,666 --> 00:32:55,874
No.

596
00:32:56,000 --> 00:32:59,540
I find thinking about it all
to be unfulfilling and exhausting.

597
00:32:59,666 --> 00:33:00,832
Does nothing for me.

598
00:33:00,958 --> 00:33:03,207
Well, that's how the rest of your life
is gonna be.

599
00:33:03,333 --> 00:33:04,999
Unfulfilling and exhausting.

600
00:33:06,291 --> 00:33:08,290
I think success has made you ugly.

601
00:33:09,333 --> 00:33:12,332
I think you've gotten far too in touch
with your selfish instincts,

602
00:33:12,458 --> 00:33:13,999
and it's not healthy.

603
00:33:16,083 --> 00:33:17,957
But I still think about you.

604
00:33:18,875 --> 00:33:21,999
I think the guy I used to know
would have made a really great boyfriend.

605
00:33:23,041 --> 00:33:24,999
I want to take that cupcake
out of your hand right now

606
00:33:25,125 --> 00:33:27,415
and throw it
so fucking far away from you.

607
00:33:28,041 --> 00:33:31,457
Goddamn it, you make me sick.
You're just a big baby.

608
00:33:31,583 --> 00:33:34,457
Babies wanna be around sugar all the time.
No wonder you're a baker.

609
00:33:35,333 --> 00:33:36,374
You're the worst.

610
00:33:36,916 --> 00:33:39,374
I'm not successful, I'm notable.
There's a difference.

611
00:33:40,125 --> 00:33:41,415
Besides, I'm not notable, either.

612
00:33:41,541 --> 00:33:43,124
Noteworthy at best.

613
00:33:45,166 --> 00:33:47,415
I once considered you
my favourite ex-girlfriend.

614
00:33:48,291 --> 00:33:49,957
That's very sweet of you.

615
00:33:51,916 --> 00:33:54,582
Let's... let's turn this day around,
do something fun.

616
00:33:54,708 --> 00:33:57,082
Maybe, I don't know, break into a bank,

617
00:33:57,208 --> 00:33:58,415
or rob a car or something.

618
00:33:58,541 --> 00:33:59,874
- All right, let's do it.
- Let's do it.

619
00:34:00,000 --> 00:34:01,624
Got some wire hangers at my place.

620
00:34:01,750 --> 00:34:04,665
Oh, great, well, let's steal a car,
go to your place, get the wire hangers,

621
00:34:04,791 --> 00:34:06,457
come back, steal another car,
and just drive off.

622
00:34:06,583 --> 00:34:07,582
OK.

623
00:34:07,708 --> 00:34:09,790
I feel like it wouldn't be weird
for you to kiss me right now.

624
00:34:21,625 --> 00:34:25,332
Every girl's so beautiful to me.
I don't wanna think about her at all anymore.

625
00:34:25,458 --> 00:34:27,540
- You should have followed her.
- She wouldn't have me.

626
00:34:28,500 --> 00:34:30,207
And besides, she's moved on.

627
00:34:30,333 --> 00:34:32,332
And in a way, so have I.

628
00:34:33,333 --> 00:34:35,332
Just not actually, of course.

629
00:34:40,375 --> 00:34:44,249
Well, I speak from experience
when I say that it is horrible...

630
00:34:45,708 --> 00:34:49,332
to be treated in a way that only points out
how meaningless you are.

631
00:34:56,166 --> 00:34:57,832
Never thought of it that way.

632
00:35:18,875 --> 00:35:20,540
He's here.

633
00:35:20,666 --> 00:35:22,749
Yeah, he just walked into your bedroom.

634
00:35:33,666 --> 00:35:35,124
Oh, hey, how's it goin'?

635
00:35:42,083 --> 00:35:43,749
You're a monster.

636
00:35:43,875 --> 00:35:45,624
I hate you.

637
00:35:45,750 --> 00:35:48,499
Then I doubt you'll mind me
being gone through December.

638
00:35:50,208 --> 00:35:52,415
I don't even know
how to respond to that.

639
00:35:52,541 --> 00:35:55,332
I've been offered a position teaching
creative writing at Lambert College.

640
00:35:55,458 --> 00:35:57,290
I'm moving there for the semester.

641
00:36:02,416 --> 00:36:05,207
You stood in my way
when I had so many opportunities.

642
00:36:07,291 --> 00:36:09,457
I guess that's why I'm telling you
about this after I agreed to it.

643
00:36:09,583 --> 00:36:12,499
So you decided to sneak back
in the middle of the night?

644
00:36:12,625 --> 00:36:15,374
It's not the middle of the night, Ashley.
It's 10:00pm.

645
00:36:15,500 --> 00:36:18,332
Besides, I had some meetings
in the city that ran late,

646
00:36:18,458 --> 00:36:19,915
and I considered
just buying new clothes,

647
00:36:20,041 --> 00:36:22,207
but I needed to get some books
I wanted to re-read.

648
00:36:22,333 --> 00:36:23,999
Also, I want my car.

649
00:36:26,666 --> 00:36:28,457
Oh, shit, I forgot about the car.

650
00:36:29,625 --> 00:36:31,790
You haven't been moving it
for street cleaning?

651
00:36:31,916 --> 00:36:35,207
I've been gone for three weeks.
Do you know how many tickets I must have?

652
00:36:44,750 --> 00:36:47,124
I kind of would have thought
this to be beneath you.

653
00:36:47,250 --> 00:36:50,290
You know, at one time
I would have as well,

654
00:36:50,416 --> 00:36:51,790
but look at me now.

655
00:36:54,291 --> 00:36:56,040
- You're a man of contradictions.
- No, I'm not.

656
00:36:56,166 --> 00:36:57,749
Who are all these assholes?

657
00:36:58,458 --> 00:36:59,832
They're my friends.

658
00:36:59,958 --> 00:37:01,457
"They're my friends."

659
00:37:03,791 --> 00:37:05,124
Mostly.

660
00:37:07,791 --> 00:37:10,165
I got this job, this...

661
00:37:12,083 --> 00:37:14,124
This national ad campaign, so...

662
00:37:15,750 --> 00:37:17,249
We're celebrating.

663
00:37:21,416 --> 00:37:22,915
That's great.

664
00:37:23,041 --> 00:37:25,082
'Philip wished Ashley
had not reminded him

665
00:37:25,208 --> 00:37:27,332
'of how great it felt
to be proud of her.

666
00:37:27,458 --> 00:37:29,457
'His own relationship with success
had forced him

667
00:37:29,583 --> 00:37:32,499
'to grow out of feeling resentful
towards her accomplishments.

668
00:37:32,625 --> 00:37:35,707
'He was not prepared to lose
that constant stream of enthusiasm.'

669
00:37:37,083 --> 00:37:39,040
You see? You don't even need me.

670
00:37:44,458 --> 00:37:47,374
God, you really believe that, don't you?

671
00:37:47,500 --> 00:37:50,290
I'm not sure how to answer that
without making things worse.

672
00:37:52,458 --> 00:37:54,999
I supported you when
nobody gave a shit about you.

673
00:37:59,166 --> 00:38:01,249
I want you to know I regret that now.

674
00:38:03,500 --> 00:38:04,707
Good.

675
00:38:05,958 --> 00:38:08,249
I don't wanna talk to you anymore.

676
00:38:10,666 --> 00:38:15,957
So you can just...
you can be somebody else's charity case.

677
00:38:16,083 --> 00:38:19,457
- Maybe Zimmerman will take care of you.
- He already has, and he will gladly continue.

678
00:38:19,583 --> 00:38:21,040
Get out of my house.

679
00:38:21,166 --> 00:38:22,499
My house too.

680
00:38:22,625 --> 00:38:25,165
No. It was never your house.
You just lived here.

681
00:38:25,291 --> 00:38:27,415
You know, I'd like to hope
that in a few months' time,

682
00:38:27,541 --> 00:38:28,874
we'll both have some perspective on this

683
00:38:29,000 --> 00:38:30,957
and be able to move somewhere,
like forward.

684
00:38:39,000 --> 00:38:40,540
This feels irreparable.

685
00:38:41,250 --> 00:38:43,249
You accusing me of indifference?

686
00:38:48,916 --> 00:38:50,415
You don't seem to be struggling.

687
00:38:51,791 --> 00:38:53,040
I am.

688
00:38:53,166 --> 00:38:54,749
Just not in the ways that you notice.

689
00:39:03,625 --> 00:39:05,082
You need a haircut.

690
00:39:08,166 --> 00:39:09,415
I know.

691
00:39:31,291 --> 00:39:33,499
I'm pretty sure I'm missing a brush.

692
00:39:34,125 --> 00:39:36,249
I'll bet one of those models yoinked it.

693
00:39:39,416 --> 00:39:40,874
You got any plans tonight?

694
00:39:47,833 --> 00:39:50,957
Just gonna stay in,
or are you going out?

695
00:39:53,166 --> 00:39:55,415
We were together for almost three years.

696
00:39:58,041 --> 00:40:00,832
Do you want to come over?
We were just gonna make dinner at home.

697
00:40:00,958 --> 00:40:02,624
You should come.

698
00:40:02,750 --> 00:40:04,540
No, thanks. I don't want to be a burden.

699
00:40:04,666 --> 00:40:06,374
You're not being a burden.

700
00:40:06,500 --> 00:40:10,624
I couldn't tell him anything without him
getting depressed and jealous.

701
00:40:12,875 --> 00:40:14,415
Now he's gone.

702
00:40:15,250 --> 00:40:16,540
He owes me a lot of money.

703
00:40:16,666 --> 00:40:19,499
You know, when he was writing
and had no income.

704
00:40:19,625 --> 00:40:21,499
Thousands of dollars.

705
00:40:24,291 --> 00:40:26,540
I don't mean to bring you into it.
I just...

706
00:40:27,416 --> 00:40:29,957
I don't think dinner tonight's
a good idea.

707
00:40:32,000 --> 00:40:33,749
No, it's not a good idea at all.

708
00:40:39,125 --> 00:40:40,540
I'm allergic to cats.

709
00:40:40,666 --> 00:40:42,374
Can we just, like, put them down
until you're ready?

710
00:40:42,958 --> 00:40:46,040
No, 'cause then
they're likely to run away.

711
00:40:46,166 --> 00:40:48,499
And then where are we?
Stuck with no cats.

712
00:41:00,625 --> 00:41:02,165
Is everything OK?

713
00:41:03,458 --> 00:41:05,374
What is this cat's name?

714
00:41:06,375 --> 00:41:08,249
This little guy is called Prescott.

715
00:41:09,375 --> 00:41:11,040
That was my grandfather's name.

716
00:41:15,750 --> 00:41:20,290
'For the first time in years, Ashley
found herself feeling truly alone.

717
00:41:20,416 --> 00:41:22,915
'Despite being surrounded
by people most of every day,

718
00:41:23,041 --> 00:41:26,249
'she was unable to connect to them
in a way she considered meaningful

719
00:41:26,375 --> 00:41:29,165
'and found herself passing
through their lives, and her own,

720
00:41:29,291 --> 00:41:31,124
'in a state of total isolation.

721
00:41:50,625 --> 00:41:51,957
What size are these shirts?

722
00:41:52,083 --> 00:41:55,290
I don't know. Small or medium.
Try it on.

723
00:41:55,416 --> 00:41:57,624
I'll give you an ill-fitting discount.

724
00:41:57,750 --> 00:41:59,207
They seem expensive.

725
00:41:59,333 --> 00:42:00,582
Sold to the highest bidder.

726
00:42:01,708 --> 00:42:03,540
- This too.
- Yeah, why not?

727
00:42:03,666 --> 00:42:06,249
This? Throw this in.

728
00:42:06,375 --> 00:42:08,874
It's not very good, but you can use it
as a coaster or something.

729
00:42:10,333 --> 00:42:11,874
No good. Naw.

730
00:42:12,000 --> 00:42:13,957
Take the jacket too. Two for one.

731
00:42:14,083 --> 00:42:15,832
Look at that.

732
00:42:15,958 --> 00:42:17,415
You would date that man, right?

733
00:42:18,750 --> 00:42:19,749
Yeah.

734
00:42:46,375 --> 00:42:48,915
- Congratulations.
- Thank you.

735
00:42:56,458 --> 00:42:58,624
- You're late.
- Yeah.

736
00:42:58,750 --> 00:43:00,457
- It's OK.
- Yeah.

737
00:43:01,125 --> 00:43:03,040
You lost? Goddamn it.

738
00:43:03,916 --> 00:43:06,790
Well, at least there's one
pinball player in the family.

739
00:43:09,416 --> 00:43:11,165
- That's a triple take.
- Yeah?

740
00:43:12,625 --> 00:43:14,082
Is that with the spin?

741
00:43:15,416 --> 00:43:17,249
You do that... Wait, let me try.

742
00:43:18,500 --> 00:43:20,249
- You missed mine.
- Let me see it again.

743
00:43:20,375 --> 00:43:22,832
I was... We were both double-taking
at the same time.

744
00:43:23,750 --> 00:43:26,957
Hey, that was three.
That was pretty good. That was good.

745
00:43:27,083 --> 00:43:28,249
Erm...

746
00:43:28,375 --> 00:43:30,507
What do you get
if you cut a bra in half?

747
00:43:30,633 --> 00:43:33,332
- What?
- A yarmulke with a chin strap.

748
00:43:33,458 --> 00:43:35,374
- Can you guys keep it down, please?
- What?

749
00:43:35,500 --> 00:43:37,499
Can you please keep it down?

750
00:43:37,625 --> 00:43:39,999
How dare you tell me to keep it down?
I'm here with my better half here.

751
00:43:40,125 --> 00:43:41,207
Go fuck yourself!

752
00:43:41,333 --> 00:43:43,790
You can't come into my place
where I'm with my friends,

753
00:43:43,916 --> 00:43:46,374
drinking, playing pinball,
having a fun time, celebrating.

754
00:43:46,500 --> 00:43:48,749
You're not welcome. Get out of here.

755
00:43:48,875 --> 00:43:50,207
Get the fuck out of here!

756
00:43:50,333 --> 00:43:53,124
I'm not kidding you.
Get the fuck out of here right now.

757
00:43:53,250 --> 00:43:55,165
I hate that man.

758
00:43:55,958 --> 00:43:57,415
Hey, sweetheart.

759
00:44:00,958 --> 00:44:02,332
What?

760
00:44:02,458 --> 00:44:03,749
What are you staring at?

761
00:44:04,958 --> 00:44:05,957
Nothing.

762
00:44:06,708 --> 00:44:08,749
- Nothing?
- Thought I smelled gasoline.

763
00:44:09,583 --> 00:44:10,832
That's me.

764
00:44:11,458 --> 00:44:13,457
- You look lost.
- I'm not.

765
00:44:13,583 --> 00:44:14,915
Wanna come hang out?

766
00:44:20,916 --> 00:44:22,999
- You want something to drink?
- Sure.

767
00:44:23,125 --> 00:44:24,624
All right, sit down.

768
00:44:32,333 --> 00:44:34,874
'When she had first spoken to
the lowlife at the bar,

769
00:44:35,000 --> 00:44:38,874
'it was the first time in four days
Ashley heard her own voice out loud.

770
00:44:41,250 --> 00:44:45,082
'She became devastatingly aware of
her own desperation, loneliness and torment.

771
00:44:45,875 --> 00:44:48,415
'Quickly she could take no more
and went home.'

772
00:45:33,491 --> 00:45:35,932
Nobody here is in pain.

773
00:45:36,416 --> 00:45:37,832
This is a no-kill shelter.

774
00:45:37,958 --> 00:45:40,749
We have plenty of available
foster parents

775
00:45:40,875 --> 00:45:45,332
who are able to take care of them
for as long as necessary to find a home.

776
00:45:49,875 --> 00:45:51,874
- Do you have any cats?
- What?

777
00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:54,040
Cats! Do you have any cats?

778
00:46:01,791 --> 00:46:04,457
This guy is really friendly. Loving.

779
00:46:07,875 --> 00:46:10,874
Do you have any black and white ones?

780
00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:15,207
Like, that resemble a panda?
Or a raccoon?

781
00:46:15,333 --> 00:46:16,915
You really care about the colour.

782
00:46:17,041 --> 00:46:18,749
Yeah, kind of.

783
00:46:25,333 --> 00:46:27,374
He chooses you.

784
00:46:30,166 --> 00:46:32,957
You want a snack? Do you want a snack?

785
00:46:33,083 --> 00:46:34,582
This is your new home.

786
00:46:35,708 --> 00:46:36,915
What do you think?

787
00:46:37,583 --> 00:46:39,582
There we go. Get familiar.

788
00:46:43,500 --> 00:46:45,457
OK, come on. Ready?

789
00:46:45,583 --> 00:46:47,082
Ready to find your bed?

790
00:46:51,291 --> 00:46:52,499
What do you think?

791
00:47:19,125 --> 00:47:20,665
- Hey!
- Hey!

792
00:47:23,500 --> 00:47:25,290
- Hey, you're here.
- I'm here.

793
00:47:25,416 --> 00:47:27,832
- How was your trip?
- Ugh, I feel sick.

794
00:47:27,958 --> 00:47:30,082
- You feel sick?
- Yeah. Oh, it's a beautiful day.

795
00:47:30,208 --> 00:47:31,207
Right?

796
00:47:38,041 --> 00:47:39,040
Place looks good.

797
00:47:39,166 --> 00:47:41,374
I'm excited you finally
get to see our renovations.

798
00:47:42,375 --> 00:47:44,207
Can't believe that excites you.

799
00:47:44,333 --> 00:47:46,582
God, you sound like a brat
who lives in a dump in New York.

800
00:47:47,375 --> 00:47:49,582
Don't be shitty. My house is not a dump.

801
00:47:50,500 --> 00:47:52,415
Wouldn't know. I've never been.

802
00:47:54,666 --> 00:47:56,499
Lots of fights happened in this room.

803
00:47:57,916 --> 00:47:59,082
Only with you.

804
00:48:05,333 --> 00:48:06,457
We're going out.

805
00:48:06,583 --> 00:48:07,915
Get yourself dressed up.

806
00:48:09,625 --> 00:48:11,790
It's gonna be a big night.

807
00:48:33,583 --> 00:48:35,332
OK, could you stop doing that?
It's really annoying.

808
00:48:35,458 --> 00:48:36,957
I planned on going away for a week.

809
00:48:37,083 --> 00:48:38,624
- You know this is important to me.
- I know,

810
00:48:38,750 --> 00:48:40,290
but it wasn't supposed
to start for 10 days.

811
00:48:40,416 --> 00:48:41,999
They changed it.
I don't know what to tell you.

812
00:48:42,125 --> 00:48:44,165
You're not being really
supportive right now.

813
00:48:44,291 --> 00:48:46,165
You know this is
an amazing opportunity for me.

814
00:48:46,291 --> 00:48:48,624
Tell me the good version
of this conversation.

815
00:48:52,625 --> 00:48:53,665
"You got the job?

816
00:48:53,791 --> 00:48:56,207
"Congratulations, Ashley.
I'm so happy for you.

817
00:48:56,333 --> 00:48:58,540
"Although I admit to being
a little disappointed,

818
00:48:58,666 --> 00:49:00,582
"I understand that these things happen.

819
00:49:00,708 --> 00:49:02,665
"I'm so proud of you, baby."

820
00:49:03,250 --> 00:49:04,624
That's basically what I said.

821
00:49:05,416 --> 00:49:06,874
I would never say that.

822
00:49:08,583 --> 00:49:10,124
I am proud of you.

823
00:49:13,333 --> 00:49:14,582
Come here.

824
00:49:14,708 --> 00:49:16,165
I wish you wanted to go out.

825
00:49:17,500 --> 00:49:19,374
I am out. I don't live here.

826
00:49:22,666 --> 00:49:23,874
Oh, I adopted a cat.

827
00:49:24,000 --> 00:49:25,749
I know. You send me pictures.

828
00:49:26,333 --> 00:49:28,374
I send them or I sent them once?

829
00:49:28,500 --> 00:49:31,874
- Oh, more than once.
- I think I'm going to name my cat Gadzookey.

830
00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:34,957
You have a little situation there.
With your...

831
00:49:35,791 --> 00:49:37,374
Oh.

832
00:49:39,208 --> 00:49:40,582
I love him.

833
00:49:41,625 --> 00:49:42,999
You should love a human.

834
00:49:49,958 --> 00:49:54,124
I just don't want him to be one of those exes
I have to see every few years.

835
00:49:54,250 --> 00:49:55,249
You know?

836
00:49:56,041 --> 00:49:57,749
He's making it really easy.

837
00:50:00,083 --> 00:50:02,374
I hate that you think this is easy.

838
00:50:02,500 --> 00:50:03,790
That's nice.

839
00:50:06,375 --> 00:50:09,249
- Should I do anything?
- No, no, no, just look that way.

840
00:50:10,208 --> 00:50:11,707
There you go. Smile.

841
00:50:12,958 --> 00:50:14,999
Think of something funny.

842
00:50:16,250 --> 00:50:17,582
Nice.

843
00:50:19,791 --> 00:50:21,040
There you go.

844
00:50:21,958 --> 00:50:23,082
It's me.

845
00:50:23,208 --> 00:50:24,999
Work it. Work it.

846
00:50:25,125 --> 00:50:27,207
Classic, but not a comedy.

847
00:50:28,416 --> 00:50:29,957
And he got 'em all!

848
00:50:31,333 --> 00:50:33,749
- You want another one?
- Not another banana joke.

849
00:50:33,875 --> 00:50:35,124
Can I take one of you?

850
00:50:35,708 --> 00:50:37,624
- So, you pull the thing back?
- Oh, it looks nice, yeah.

851
00:50:37,750 --> 00:50:40,665
- Did it click?
- Yeah. Smile a little.

852
00:50:40,791 --> 00:50:42,040
I don't feel like smiling.

853
00:50:43,208 --> 00:50:45,707
- Focus up there. You all right?
- I'm getting addicted to this.

854
00:50:45,833 --> 00:50:48,207
It's gonna be a bit fuzzy,
I have a feeling.

855
00:50:48,333 --> 00:50:51,165
- There you go. Turn that thing, don't be shy.
- They're art house.

856
00:50:58,875 --> 00:51:00,374
That sun.

857
00:51:21,750 --> 00:51:27,332
<i>Baby, I love you both night and day</i>

858
00:51:32,916 --> 00:51:38,040
<i>Baby, you throw me
so as I can't think what I should say</i>

859
00:51:43,166 --> 00:51:46,957
<i>Seeing you, I feel weak</i>

860
00:51:48,625 --> 00:51:52,457
<i>And I can hardly speak</i>

861
00:51:53,583 --> 00:51:56,999
<i>'Cause you are making me nervous</i>

862
00:51:57,125 --> 00:52:00,790
<i>Making me nervous</i>

863
00:52:00,916 --> 00:52:06,499
<i>Every time I see you on a Sunday night,
I get a fright</i>

864
00:52:12,000 --> 00:52:17,457
<i>The way I talk, behave and act,
it don't come out right</i>

865
00:52:22,250 --> 00:52:25,749
<i>I'm no kind of freak</i>

866
00:52:27,500 --> 00:52:31,749
<i>But I can hardly speak</i>

867
00:52:32,416 --> 00:52:36,124
<i>'Cause you are making me nervous</i>

868
00:52:36,250 --> 00:52:40,374
<i>Making me nervous</i>

869
00:52:42,500 --> 00:52:45,499
<i>Like an actor in the wings</i>

870
00:52:48,083 --> 00:52:51,999
<i>Like a man before he sings</i>

871
00:52:53,000 --> 00:52:57,499
<i>You know you're gonna make it if you try</i>

872
00:52:57,625 --> 00:53:01,290
<i>'Cause you are making me nervous</i>

873
00:53:01,416 --> 00:53:05,374
<i>Making me nervous</i>

874
00:53:17,916 --> 00:53:21,415
<i>You know they're gonna like you
if you try...</i>

875
00:53:22,625 --> 00:53:26,124
'Philip had returned for his winter
clothes the third week of July.

876
00:53:26,250 --> 00:53:28,665
'By early September,
Ashley had at last begun to feel

877
00:53:28,791 --> 00:53:31,249
'as though her life was her own again.

878
00:53:32,125 --> 00:53:36,749
'All signs of Philip had been erased,
save for a few irrelevant boxes,

879
00:53:36,875 --> 00:53:39,374
'allowing her to go hours,
occasionally days,

880
00:53:39,500 --> 00:53:41,832
'without being preoccupied
by thoughts of him.

881
00:53:42,916 --> 00:53:45,874
'Once, when she failed to keep him
out of her mind,

882
00:53:46,000 --> 00:53:48,040
'Ashley decided to uncover
and finally read

883
00:53:48,166 --> 00:53:51,374
'the short stories Philip had written
while in college and shortly thereafter,

884
00:53:51,500 --> 00:53:53,082
'before they had met.

885
00:53:57,250 --> 00:53:59,374
'She was sad to discover
that the stories were,

886
00:53:59,500 --> 00:54:00,832
'as Philip had always promised,

887
00:54:00,958 --> 00:54:03,249
'not of any remarkable quality.

888
00:54:03,375 --> 00:54:07,082
'Ashley felt her final remaining vestiges
of admiration for Philip slipping away,

889
00:54:07,208 --> 00:54:10,957
'although she respected his progression
from these to his recent work.

890
00:54:11,833 --> 00:54:15,832
'Ashley wondered if Philip's first novel
would have excited her as much as it once did

891
00:54:15,958 --> 00:54:18,290
'if she had read these stories
when they first met.

892
00:54:21,166 --> 00:54:22,374
'Following this episode,

893
00:54:22,500 --> 00:54:25,874
'Ashley put the stories and Philip away
for as long as she could manage.

894
00:54:26,000 --> 00:54:27,457
'By this point, the truth was

895
00:54:27,583 --> 00:54:30,374
'that she had no idea of
what he had been doing all summer,

896
00:54:30,500 --> 00:54:33,207
'nor was it of any
pressing concern to her.

897
00:54:34,500 --> 00:54:37,540
'Ashley's dedication to carrying on
with early autumn traditions,

898
00:54:37,666 --> 00:54:39,290
'ones formerly enjoyed with Philip,

899
00:54:39,416 --> 00:54:41,874
'did much to distract her
from the shifting of seasons

900
00:54:42,000 --> 00:54:44,749
'and all the connected feelings
that could come along with it.

901
00:54:44,875 --> 00:54:47,332
'Her dedication to normalcy
allowed Ashley to stave off

902
00:54:47,458 --> 00:54:49,915
'a seasonally-augmented
sense of melancholy,

903
00:54:50,041 --> 00:54:52,165
'which prevented her
from regressing back to the darkness

904
00:54:52,291 --> 00:54:54,290
'she had completely left behind.

905
00:54:56,750 --> 00:54:58,999
'Yearning for intimate interaction
detached from her work

906
00:54:59,125 --> 00:55:00,707
'and regular circle of friends,

907
00:55:00,833 --> 00:55:03,624
'and needing to spend an evening away
from Gadzookey the cat,

908
00:55:03,750 --> 00:55:06,124
'to whom she had discovered
she was mildly allergic,

909
00:55:06,250 --> 00:55:09,374
'Ashley made social plans
with her ex-boyfriend Peter.

910
00:55:09,500 --> 00:55:12,582
'They had dated for just under two years
prior to her meeting Philip,

911
00:55:12,708 --> 00:55:14,207
'and seldom saw one another,

912
00:55:14,333 --> 00:55:17,707
'so the invitation came to him
as something of a surprise.

913
00:55:17,833 --> 00:55:19,790
'The ease with which
their conversation flowed

914
00:55:19,916 --> 00:55:23,540
'made her further disdain Philip for not
only the void he had left in her life,

915
00:55:23,666 --> 00:55:27,082
'but also the energy she had decided
he routinely drained from it,

916
00:55:27,208 --> 00:55:29,665
'which she now felt being
slowly breathed back in.'

917
00:55:31,125 --> 00:55:32,415
You didn't talk about him at all.

918
00:55:34,041 --> 00:55:35,499
Got nothing to say.

919
00:55:37,083 --> 00:55:38,207
How is he?

920
00:55:38,333 --> 00:55:40,999
I did so well. Can you not ask?

921
00:55:41,583 --> 00:55:43,040
Please.

922
00:55:43,875 --> 00:55:45,624
Thank you.

923
00:55:47,208 --> 00:55:49,457
I feel him weighing on me
more in his absence,

924
00:55:49,583 --> 00:55:51,249
than I did when he was around.

925
00:55:52,166 --> 00:55:53,749
Where is he?

926
00:55:54,583 --> 00:55:56,082
He's just gone.

927
00:55:57,416 --> 00:55:59,665
It's like he was a figment
of my imagination.

928
00:56:14,166 --> 00:56:16,749
I'm fairly certain I'm not welcome here.

929
00:56:16,875 --> 00:56:18,165
Ding-ding-ding.

930
00:56:18,291 --> 00:56:21,665
It's late. I've been sitting here
waiting to make a scene for hours.

931
00:56:21,791 --> 00:56:23,374
What do you want?

932
00:56:23,500 --> 00:56:24,874
I'm very lonely.

933
00:56:25,000 --> 00:56:26,624
That's unfortunate.

934
00:56:26,750 --> 00:56:29,790
I don't like teaching creative writing
as much as I assumed I would.

935
00:56:29,916 --> 00:56:31,457
Well, you're a cruel, miserable person,

936
00:56:31,583 --> 00:56:33,999
so it makes sense you'd end up
in a miserable situation.

937
00:56:34,125 --> 00:56:35,915
What happened to my desk?

938
00:56:36,666 --> 00:56:38,082
That's my bonus desk.

939
00:56:39,291 --> 00:56:41,832
- Nobody at the school likes me.
- Nobody here likes you.

940
00:56:41,958 --> 00:56:44,124
I think I might resign and come home.

941
00:56:45,125 --> 00:56:47,124
You don't live here.

942
00:56:48,041 --> 00:56:49,582
You live upstate.

943
00:56:49,708 --> 00:56:51,249
No, I don't want that to be my home.

944
00:56:51,375 --> 00:56:54,790
It's lonely and sad
and the faculty have turned on me.

945
00:56:54,916 --> 00:56:57,790
Boo-hoo! The last few weeks
have been so hard for you.

946
00:56:58,375 --> 00:56:59,374
Whose cat is this?

947
00:57:02,500 --> 00:57:04,082
It's my cat.

948
00:57:04,208 --> 00:57:06,624
- We don't have a cat.
- Apparently I do.

949
00:57:07,625 --> 00:57:09,832
Oh, look, see? There it is.

950
00:57:09,958 --> 00:57:11,790
Come here, big boy.

951
00:57:11,916 --> 00:57:13,624
This is Gadzookey.

952
00:57:13,750 --> 00:57:15,874
Gadzookey, meet Philip.

953
00:57:16,000 --> 00:57:18,332
Don't get attached. He was just leaving.

954
00:57:22,000 --> 00:57:24,249
Do you ever make a decision
that at the time seems sound,

955
00:57:24,375 --> 00:57:26,582
but quickly reveals itself to be empty?

956
00:57:26,708 --> 00:57:28,749
Good-bye, Philip. I don't like you.

957
00:57:32,000 --> 00:57:33,457
He's kind of an asshole.

958
00:57:35,291 --> 00:57:37,165
What a strange feeling.

959
00:57:37,291 --> 00:57:39,582
So off... it's like my head is a car,

960
00:57:39,708 --> 00:57:42,207
but I can't drive fast
because there's too much traffic.

961
00:57:42,333 --> 00:57:46,999
So instead I'm just
moving very, very slowly.

962
00:57:47,916 --> 00:57:49,665
It's so hard, what I do.

963
00:57:49,791 --> 00:57:52,165
I mean, it's not at all,
and that is the joke, right?

964
00:57:53,416 --> 00:57:55,290
- God, this is so boring.
- A big joke.

965
00:57:55,416 --> 00:57:56,790
Ashley's so bored right now.

966
00:57:56,916 --> 00:57:58,915
Just go back where you came from.

967
00:57:59,041 --> 00:58:01,499
I'm getting angry at myself,
do you understand?

968
00:58:01,625 --> 00:58:04,832
Because it doesn't even upset me
to see you like this.

969
00:58:04,958 --> 00:58:06,999
I want you to leave and leave me alone.

970
00:58:07,125 --> 00:58:10,624
I don't know why you are here,
but I'm not interested, so don't tell me.

971
00:58:10,750 --> 00:58:13,374
God, do you remember
there was a time when we just...

972
00:58:13,500 --> 00:58:16,707
We wanted to go to sleep together
and wake up together,

973
00:58:16,833 --> 00:58:18,874
every day, indefinitely.

974
00:58:19,000 --> 00:58:21,124
Now I don't even give a shit
if I ever see you again.

975
00:58:21,250 --> 00:58:23,457
I want you to leave,
and just don't come back

976
00:58:23,583 --> 00:58:25,249
and stop hurting me.

977
00:58:30,500 --> 00:58:32,957
I got asked to write a short story
about photography.

978
00:58:33,666 --> 00:58:35,207
By who?

979
00:58:36,333 --> 00:58:38,207
Oh, God, you'd be so mad if I told you.

980
00:58:38,333 --> 00:58:40,290
Isn't that what you want?

981
00:58:42,833 --> 00:58:44,707
I don't know what you want me to say.

982
00:58:45,500 --> 00:58:47,582
You used to be so exciting.

983
00:58:48,458 --> 00:58:49,999
Now you're just pitiful.

984
00:58:53,716 --> 00:58:56,582
I'm afraid you've seen
the last of me for a long, long time.

985
00:59:43,583 --> 00:59:45,415
- Hey.
- I know you.

986
00:59:46,083 --> 00:59:47,249
Do you know where he is?

987
00:59:47,791 --> 00:59:48,790
I don't.

988
00:59:50,958 --> 00:59:52,749
Do you, like, live here now?

989
00:59:52,875 --> 00:59:54,165
I still have the keys.

990
00:59:54,750 --> 00:59:57,874
No, now I live
in a depressing faculty apartment.

991
00:59:58,000 --> 00:59:59,165
How is the college?

992
00:59:59,291 --> 01:00:00,665
It's fine.

993
01:00:01,500 --> 01:00:02,999
I assumed he'd be here.

994
01:00:03,125 --> 01:00:05,374
- Seems I was mistaken.
- Yeah, that makes two of us.

995
01:00:05,500 --> 01:00:07,874
Hey, you can stay if you want to.

996
01:00:10,083 --> 01:00:11,707
That won't be necessary.

997
01:00:13,000 --> 01:00:14,457
'For reasons unclear to him,

998
01:00:14,583 --> 01:00:17,749
'the exchange with Melanie
caused overwhelming anxiety in Philip,

999
01:00:17,875 --> 01:00:19,499
'who had driven through the night
to get here.

1000
01:00:20,791 --> 01:00:24,374
'In the weeks he had spent living with Ike,
when Melanie was not around,

1001
01:00:24,500 --> 01:00:26,290
'she was never brought up
in conversation.

1002
01:00:26,416 --> 01:00:27,707
'Philip would have forgotten about her,

1003
01:00:27,833 --> 01:00:29,665
'had it not been for
the smattering of photographs

1004
01:00:29,791 --> 01:00:32,332
'that still remained in the guest room
where he slept.

1005
01:00:33,041 --> 01:00:34,582
'Sitting meekly on the couch,

1006
01:00:34,708 --> 01:00:38,999
'Melanie embodied the high cost of isolation
and detachment from loved ones.

1007
01:00:39,125 --> 01:00:40,832
'Unable to stand it any longer,

1008
01:00:40,958 --> 01:00:44,290
'Philip excused himself and returned
to his pitiful life at the college.'

1009
01:00:44,416 --> 01:00:45,999
Tell him I was here.

1010
01:01:02,250 --> 01:01:04,957
Your little protégé
stopped by yesterday.

1011
01:01:05,083 --> 01:01:08,249
He's not a protégé, he's a...
He's a friend.

1012
01:01:08,375 --> 01:01:11,332
I still haven't read his book.
I couldn't find it anywhere.

1013
01:01:12,500 --> 01:01:13,749
My copy is in the city.

1014
01:01:15,125 --> 01:01:16,582
Should I read it?

1015
01:01:16,708 --> 01:01:19,124
Well, it is remarkable.

1016
01:01:20,000 --> 01:01:22,915
He suffers a little
from being too arrogant,

1017
01:01:23,041 --> 01:01:26,207
both in his writing and as a person.

1018
01:01:26,833 --> 01:01:28,999
Oh. Match made in heaven.

1019
01:01:36,041 --> 01:01:38,874
I don't know if I can continue
to accommodate you here.

1020
01:01:41,500 --> 01:01:43,124
Why is that?

1021
01:01:46,583 --> 01:01:48,332
Because you're a pain in the ass.

1022
01:01:54,750 --> 01:01:56,749
I have to go to the city today.

1023
01:01:57,916 --> 01:01:59,290
What for?

1024
01:01:59,416 --> 01:02:00,915
See my agent.

1025
01:02:03,125 --> 01:02:05,165
- Henry?
- Henry? No.

1026
01:02:05,291 --> 01:02:07,415
Henry's not been with me for 10 years.

1027
01:02:08,333 --> 01:02:09,582
Why not?

1028
01:02:09,708 --> 01:02:12,665
Because he's a cocksucker
and a little piece of shit.

1029
01:02:13,833 --> 01:02:15,249
Oh, fuck!

1030
01:02:16,375 --> 01:02:19,374
Jesus, God Almighty.
Fucking thing. Look at this.

1031
01:02:21,250 --> 01:02:24,374
Is this a meeting about something new?

1032
01:02:24,500 --> 01:02:26,290
Hmm? Well, potentially.

1033
01:02:27,000 --> 01:02:28,457
It's complicated.

1034
01:02:29,583 --> 01:02:32,290
We're hoping for some money
from a sale of movie rights.

1035
01:02:33,458 --> 01:02:35,707
Is that woman still your editor?

1036
01:02:35,833 --> 01:02:38,249
No. She's an asshole
with no loyalty as well.

1037
01:02:40,166 --> 01:02:42,915
- What about...
- Are you here only to put me on the spot?

1038
01:02:43,041 --> 01:02:44,915
None of this is worth revisiting to me.

1039
01:02:45,500 --> 01:02:48,582
I've been betrayed by a lot
of small-minded and worthless people.

1040
01:02:48,708 --> 01:02:50,457
Do I need them to accomplish anything?

1041
01:02:50,583 --> 01:02:54,374
The answer is no.
They are altogether nothing.

1042
01:02:54,500 --> 01:02:57,999
Having once known me will always be
the most interesting thing about them.

1043
01:02:58,125 --> 01:03:00,540
Those fucking vultures
have fed off me longer

1044
01:03:00,666 --> 01:03:02,290
than any sane man would have allowed.

1045
01:03:04,916 --> 01:03:08,249
That sounds like a horrible example
to set for your little student.

1046
01:03:08,375 --> 01:03:10,624
So what? He's not my kid.

1047
01:03:17,416 --> 01:03:19,665
'Ike's time with Philip
had been rejuvenating,

1048
01:03:19,791 --> 01:03:21,332
'restoring a sense of pride and vitality

1049
01:03:21,458 --> 01:03:24,499
'that the man at one point
subsided solely upon.

1050
01:03:25,958 --> 01:03:28,540
'The adoration and attention
was something he'd not felt in years

1051
01:03:28,666 --> 01:03:31,749
'and, during the summer months,
resulted in Ike feeling stronger

1052
01:03:31,875 --> 01:03:34,249
'and more productive
than he had been in some time.

1053
01:03:36,041 --> 01:03:38,540
'When Philip departed
in late August for the college,

1054
01:03:38,666 --> 01:03:40,707
'Ike was remiss
to find himself backsliding

1055
01:03:40,833 --> 01:03:44,457
'into a familiar pattern
of boredom and tedium.

1056
01:03:45,666 --> 01:03:47,540
'His friendship with Philip
eventually served

1057
01:03:47,666 --> 01:03:50,749
'as little other than a reminder
of the absences in his life,

1058
01:03:50,875 --> 01:03:53,040
'and of their increasing
presence and volume.

1059
01:03:55,958 --> 01:03:57,790
'Seeing Philip during
the previous weekend

1060
01:03:57,916 --> 01:04:00,665
'had left Ike in an even lower
state of self-pity,

1061
01:04:00,791 --> 01:04:03,749
'as he found himself unable to produce
a worthwhile thought.

1062
01:04:03,875 --> 01:04:07,124
'So consumed was he
with the solitude and self-imposed exile

1063
01:04:07,250 --> 01:04:10,874
'he had once coveted and manufactured
for himself so meticulously

1064
01:04:11,000 --> 01:04:14,957
'but now experienced only as an
infinitely replenishing prism of regret.

1065
01:04:19,125 --> 01:04:21,457
'The companionship of Melanie
was, at best, diverting

1066
01:04:21,583 --> 01:04:24,374
'and, at worst, a constant reminder
of the multitudes of relationships

1067
01:04:24,500 --> 01:04:27,165
'Ike had gleefully sabotaged
over the years,

1068
01:04:27,291 --> 01:04:32,082
'all in the name of preserving
and feeding his increasingly insatiable ego.

1069
01:04:32,208 --> 01:04:34,582
'When she asked, he would refuse
to be open or honest

1070
01:04:34,708 --> 01:04:36,832
'about the past several years
of his life,

1071
01:04:36,958 --> 01:04:39,290
'neglecting to satisfy her curiosity
about what had become

1072
01:04:39,416 --> 01:04:42,207
'of his many friends,
acquaintances and colleagues.'

1073
01:04:54,166 --> 01:04:56,374
Nobody's seen her
since she was a teenager.

1074
01:04:58,041 --> 01:05:00,207
Well, she stopped visiting
right about then.

1075
01:05:01,166 --> 01:05:03,624
Which is just as well.
She's a pain in the ass.

1076
01:05:03,750 --> 01:05:05,124
How so?

1077
01:05:05,958 --> 01:05:07,082
She asks too many questions.

1078
01:05:09,500 --> 01:05:11,874
She used to have all those cute friends.

1079
01:05:12,708 --> 01:05:14,874
- Have any of them been by?
- I'm...

1080
01:05:15,000 --> 01:05:16,749
I'm not here all the time.

1081
01:05:22,416 --> 01:05:23,874
I used to be a lion.

1082
01:05:24,791 --> 01:05:26,249
We all did.

1083
01:05:27,416 --> 01:05:29,415
I think we've become pathetic.

1084
01:05:32,500 --> 01:05:33,915
Want to hear a funny idea?

1085
01:05:57,125 --> 01:05:59,999
Come on up, come on. Hey, come on.

1086
01:06:00,125 --> 01:06:02,874
Here, take your coat off. Here you are.

1087
01:06:03,000 --> 01:06:04,040
Yeah.

1088
01:06:04,166 --> 01:06:06,332
This is my place. My humble home.

1089
01:06:07,416 --> 01:06:08,707
I know.

1090
01:06:08,833 --> 01:06:10,582
- You want to take your coat off?
- Oh, thank you.

1091
01:06:10,708 --> 01:06:12,790
Yeah, I'll set it right here.

1092
01:06:12,916 --> 01:06:15,832
- So, er... drinks?
- Sure, of course.

1093
01:06:15,958 --> 01:06:17,999
We have some wine, red wine, white wine.

1094
01:06:18,125 --> 01:06:19,457
- Erm... red.
- Red?

1095
01:06:19,583 --> 01:06:21,040
- Norm?
- Prosecco.

1096
01:06:21,166 --> 01:06:22,707
- Ah...
- Prosecco!

1097
01:06:22,833 --> 01:06:24,582
That's fancy, Norm.

1098
01:06:28,666 --> 01:06:30,124
You know, I love movies.

1099
01:06:34,708 --> 01:06:36,582
So here's a line from a movie.
You have to guess.

1100
01:06:38,916 --> 01:06:43,957
She says to a younger man who's trying
to woo her, to flirt with her...

1101
01:06:44,083 --> 01:06:47,832
And she says to him, "You don't want me.
You want somebody young and fresh."

1102
01:06:48,416 --> 01:06:51,999
And she goes,
"Armies have marched over me."

1103
01:06:52,958 --> 01:06:54,749
- All right, guess that one.
- Right away.

1104
01:06:54,875 --> 01:06:56,207
Thank you.

1105
01:06:57,333 --> 01:06:58,999
Are we supposed to guess who said that?

1106
01:06:59,125 --> 01:07:00,582
- Well, maybe. Yeah.
- What movie?

1107
01:07:00,708 --> 01:07:02,957
- What was your name again?
- Thank you. Flo.

1108
01:07:05,291 --> 01:07:07,790
Flow gently, sweet Afton.

1109
01:07:07,916 --> 01:07:10,665
It is spoken by Rita Hayworth.

1110
01:07:10,791 --> 01:07:12,457
- Do you remember Rita Hayworth?
- Of course.

1111
01:07:12,583 --> 01:07:14,499
- Yes!
- They don't remember Rita Hayworth.

1112
01:07:16,375 --> 01:07:19,374
In a movie called Fire Down Below.

1113
01:07:19,500 --> 01:07:20,707
Hey, you know that?

1114
01:07:20,833 --> 01:07:23,207
There's snow on the roof,
but there's fire down below.

1115
01:07:23,333 --> 01:07:25,457
- Santé! Santé!
- You're French, right?

1116
01:07:25,583 --> 01:07:27,457
Come here. It's more cosy.

1117
01:07:27,583 --> 01:07:30,415
- Yeah, come on.
- Is there anyone else coming tonight?

1118
01:07:33,500 --> 01:07:34,790
Well, I'm younger than Norm.

1119
01:07:34,916 --> 01:07:38,082
Oh, I thought you said
there was a party happening.

1120
01:07:38,708 --> 01:07:40,374
Oh, I'm sorry, I... Maybe I...

1121
01:07:40,500 --> 01:07:42,040
I have a secret weapon.

1122
01:07:42,166 --> 01:07:43,624
- Oh!
- I'll go get it.

1123
01:07:44,500 --> 01:07:45,832
Just hold it right there.

1124
01:07:45,958 --> 01:07:47,957
Yeah, he's young.

1125
01:07:48,083 --> 01:07:50,499
He's not tall, but he's young.

1126
01:07:55,291 --> 01:07:57,332
Philip. Philip, get over here.

1127
01:07:58,375 --> 01:08:00,249
No, now, as quick as you can.

1128
01:08:01,208 --> 01:08:02,999
Get here now.

1129
01:08:04,291 --> 01:08:08,374
So there was these two old men
sitting in deck chairs on the beach,

1130
01:08:08,500 --> 01:08:11,332
and one of them turns to the other
and he says, "It's nice out today,"

1131
01:08:11,458 --> 01:08:13,999
and the other one says,
"Sure, I'll get mine out in a minute."

1132
01:08:17,625 --> 01:08:20,790
Hey, let's hope it's a boy! Huh?

1133
01:08:21,791 --> 01:08:23,249
Philip!

1134
01:08:23,875 --> 01:08:26,915
Come on, stand up. Oh, you are standing.

1135
01:08:27,041 --> 01:08:29,165
Come in, come in. Hey.

1136
01:08:29,291 --> 01:08:30,457
- Hey.
- Hey.

1137
01:08:30,583 --> 01:08:32,332
Oh! In you come.

1138
01:08:32,458 --> 01:08:34,874
We will be social
with these women tonight.

1139
01:08:35,000 --> 01:08:37,665
Son, you're young. Come on.

1140
01:08:38,500 --> 01:08:40,374
Huh? What are you?

1141
01:08:40,500 --> 01:08:42,082
- Old.
- Yeah?

1142
01:08:42,208 --> 01:08:43,665
Wise.

1143
01:08:43,791 --> 01:08:45,665
And also rich, which helps.

1144
01:08:45,791 --> 01:08:49,332
Yeah, one day you'll be old, wise and rich.
Now get in there.

1145
01:08:49,458 --> 01:08:52,457
Come on. Enjoy yourself!

1146
01:08:55,791 --> 01:08:58,165
Call me son, yeah? Hi, I'm Philip.

1147
01:08:58,750 --> 01:09:00,290
My name is Philip.

1148
01:09:00,916 --> 01:09:02,665
- Hello.
- Hi.

1149
01:09:04,708 --> 01:09:06,665
I know who you are,
but it's a real pleasure.

1150
01:09:06,791 --> 01:09:09,374
- An old friend of Ike's.
- How do you know each other?

1151
01:09:09,500 --> 01:09:11,332
Well, I've never met him personally,
but, um...

1152
01:09:11,458 --> 01:09:14,999
- You've heard of me.
- I've read. I've read who I think you are.

1153
01:09:15,125 --> 01:09:18,665
- Wow.
- Yeah, he's... you know who he is, correct?

1154
01:09:19,583 --> 01:09:22,332
No, should we know who he is?

1155
01:09:22,458 --> 01:09:24,374
- Yeah, he's one of the...
- I don't know whether you should...

1156
01:09:24,500 --> 01:09:26,874
- I... I write.
- He's what they call essential.

1157
01:09:27,000 --> 01:09:29,374
- A writer.
- Like the profession.

1158
01:09:29,500 --> 01:09:31,374
This guy is like, they teach this guy.

1159
01:09:31,500 --> 01:09:32,499
- You know...
- Oh, really?

1160
01:09:32,625 --> 01:09:35,624
Yeah, I'm gonna just go check
really quickly on the lord of the manor.

1161
01:09:35,750 --> 01:09:38,499
Oh! Well, get yourself a drink.
You need a drink.

1162
01:09:38,625 --> 01:09:39,874
Well, I shouldn't, probably.

1163
01:09:40,000 --> 01:09:42,165
I've already taken, like,
all kinds of strange things

1164
01:09:42,291 --> 01:09:44,124
before coming over here,
so I don't know.

1165
01:09:44,250 --> 01:09:46,332
- Good, you'll be able...
- You look very put together.

1166
01:09:46,458 --> 01:09:48,999
You handle your things well.

1167
01:09:49,125 --> 01:09:51,249
I do handle them well, but...

1168
01:09:51,375 --> 01:09:54,957
I'm speaking of allergy medicine in this case,
'cause upstate really fucks with me.

1169
01:09:55,083 --> 01:09:56,124
All right, have yourself...

1170
01:09:56,250 --> 01:09:58,582
All right, have yourself a merry
little Christmas. I'll be right back.

1171
01:09:59,333 --> 01:10:01,249
- Good to see you.
- It's an honour.

1172
01:10:01,833 --> 01:10:02,832
- Sit down.
- Thank you.

1173
01:10:02,958 --> 01:10:03,957
Sit down.

1174
01:10:06,250 --> 01:10:07,540
What are you doing in here?

1175
01:10:07,666 --> 01:10:09,999
- They said they want you to come back.
- You fucked up.

1176
01:10:10,125 --> 01:10:11,332
- Huh?
- Get back in there.

1177
01:10:12,041 --> 01:10:14,915
I could have made that transaction
in two minutes when I was your age.

1178
01:10:15,041 --> 01:10:16,874
Twice a week. Fucking get back in there.

1179
01:10:17,416 --> 01:10:19,915
Well, it's my understanding
that was a different time.

1180
01:10:20,041 --> 01:10:21,915
Women were, you know... looser then.

1181
01:10:22,416 --> 01:10:23,957
Also much more impressed by authors.

1182
01:10:24,083 --> 01:10:26,040
Yeah, authors like me.

1183
01:10:26,166 --> 01:10:27,290
Get in!

1184
01:10:27,416 --> 01:10:28,707
You wrote that book?

1185
01:10:28,833 --> 01:10:31,499
- Well, no. No, no, no. Listen.
- Oh, my god.

1186
01:10:31,625 --> 01:10:35,207
- Can we have an autograph?
- You wanted to know about Joseph Conrad.

1187
01:10:35,333 --> 01:10:37,165
And we're back.

1188
01:10:37,833 --> 01:10:40,624
Hey, hey, how about you give us
a little tune on the piano, huh?

1189
01:10:40,750 --> 01:10:42,332
- Uh...
- Come on, come on.

1190
01:10:42,458 --> 01:10:44,749
You want a little song?
A song from Philip?

1191
01:10:44,875 --> 01:10:46,040
Georgia on My Mind.

1192
01:10:46,166 --> 01:10:48,040
More upbeat. Upbeat.

1193
01:10:48,166 --> 01:10:49,665
Let's dance. Let's dance.

1194
01:10:51,250 --> 01:10:52,915
Oh, that's it.

1195
01:11:14,708 --> 01:11:17,207
Melanie! Hey, hey, hey!

1196
01:11:18,000 --> 01:11:19,540
Look who's here! Hey!

1197
01:11:19,666 --> 01:11:20,665
- Hey.
- Hi.

1198
01:11:20,791 --> 01:11:22,374
That's my daughter, huh?

1199
01:11:23,291 --> 01:11:24,999
I hate you both.

1200
01:11:25,125 --> 01:11:27,499
- I have nothing to do with this.
- Oh, didn't you?

1201
01:11:27,958 --> 01:11:29,499
Go fuck yourself.

1202
01:11:38,375 --> 01:11:40,124
You've ruined this night for me.

1203
01:11:41,458 --> 01:11:43,499
OK, OK, OK. No, no.

1204
01:11:44,000 --> 01:11:45,499
It's over, it's over.

1205
01:11:46,291 --> 01:11:47,915
OK, you should go.

1206
01:11:49,625 --> 01:11:50,915
Go, go, go!

1207
01:12:00,083 --> 01:12:01,749
Thanks for coming.

1208
01:12:01,875 --> 01:12:03,374
- Bye.
- Bye.

1209
01:12:07,625 --> 01:12:09,790
Ike. What just happened?

1210
01:12:10,291 --> 01:12:12,374
I told you what she's like.

1211
01:12:12,500 --> 01:12:14,499
- I didn't think it was that...
- Yeah.

1212
01:12:17,625 --> 01:12:20,624
I'd completely forgotten she was here.

1213
01:12:20,750 --> 01:12:24,082
Oh, she can be such a bitch sometimes.

1214
01:12:25,750 --> 01:12:27,249
To hell with her.

1215
01:12:27,916 --> 01:12:29,457
- Norm?
- Yes, sir.

1216
01:12:29,583 --> 01:12:30,999
Little drink for the road.

1217
01:12:31,125 --> 01:12:32,874
- Thank you.
- Huh?

1218
01:12:34,333 --> 01:12:36,165
- Here.
- Oh, thank you.

1219
01:12:36,958 --> 01:12:39,332
Smell that? '25.

1220
01:12:39,458 --> 01:12:41,415
All right, the good stuff.

1221
01:12:42,041 --> 01:12:43,874
Philip, I've, er...

1222
01:12:44,000 --> 01:12:46,374
I got something special for you.

1223
01:12:46,500 --> 01:12:49,082
I don't talk to her mother anymore.
Did I tell you that?

1224
01:12:49,208 --> 01:12:51,332
I guess I just sort of assumed it.

1225
01:12:52,000 --> 01:12:54,874
She asked me about it the other day.
I didn't know what to say to her.

1226
01:12:56,041 --> 01:12:57,624
Oh, God.

1227
01:12:57,750 --> 01:13:01,082
She can be such a pain in the ass.

1228
01:13:01,208 --> 01:13:03,124
Anyway, here's to us.

1229
01:13:03,250 --> 01:13:04,915
Cheers. Philip.

1230
01:13:06,416 --> 01:13:10,082
Seems like it's just you and me left now,
Norm, huh?

1231
01:13:10,875 --> 01:13:12,290
Oh, hey.

1232
01:13:12,416 --> 01:13:14,082
I forgot to tell you.

1233
01:13:14,875 --> 01:13:16,874
I saw this the other day.

1234
01:13:17,000 --> 01:13:18,040
Hmm?

1235
01:13:18,166 --> 01:13:23,249
The guy you were supposed to do
the journalism piece on, that snake?

1236
01:13:23,875 --> 01:13:26,415
It seems he took his own life.

1237
01:13:28,458 --> 01:13:29,957
- Jesus.
- Who is it? Who's that?

1238
01:13:30,083 --> 01:13:31,457
What's he called?

1239
01:13:31,583 --> 01:13:33,707
Josh Fawn, the writer.

1240
01:13:34,916 --> 01:13:37,915
I mean, I'm glad he's dead
and all, but...

1241
01:13:38,041 --> 01:13:41,665
Doing that interview would have been
a really great opportunity for me.

1242
01:13:41,791 --> 01:13:45,499
Last interviews are hard to get,
because you never know.

1243
01:13:45,625 --> 01:13:47,915
I know this guy. I like his work.

1244
01:13:48,958 --> 01:13:50,957
- I had lunch with him recently.
- You did?

1245
01:13:51,083 --> 01:13:52,832
- I did.
- You had lunch with him?

1246
01:13:52,958 --> 01:13:55,582
- Yes.
- Lunch, and, whoo!

1247
01:13:58,916 --> 01:14:00,207
Oh, well.

1248
01:14:00,333 --> 01:14:02,915
Erm... you know, I'm looking forward
to reading your work.

1249
01:14:03,041 --> 01:14:05,374
Hey, hey, hey, don't buy a copy.
I got plenty here.

1250
01:14:05,500 --> 01:14:06,957
You can have one of mine.

1251
01:14:07,833 --> 01:14:09,582
Anyway, listen...

1252
01:14:10,875 --> 01:14:12,915
I gotta go to bed, OK?

1253
01:14:13,041 --> 01:14:15,290
Old Ikey has got to get some rest.

1254
01:14:15,416 --> 01:14:16,874
Why don't you stay here tonight?

1255
01:14:17,000 --> 01:14:20,082
I've got a meeting at the college tomorrow.
You can drive me there.

1256
01:14:20,958 --> 01:14:22,790
- Erm...
- Is that good?

1257
01:14:22,916 --> 01:14:24,374
- Yeah.
- OK.

1258
01:14:24,500 --> 01:14:26,499
- I didn't bring a toothbrush.
- Good night, everybody.

1259
01:14:26,625 --> 01:14:28,332
Good night.

1260
01:14:28,458 --> 01:14:30,207
- Night.
- Good night to you.

1261
01:14:30,333 --> 01:14:31,999
- Norm.
- Take care.

1262
01:14:32,125 --> 01:14:33,707
Was a pleasure.

1263
01:14:33,833 --> 01:14:34,957
Take care.

1264
01:14:35,083 --> 01:14:36,082
- And...
- Be well.

1265
01:14:36,208 --> 01:14:38,207
- I can, I will be.
- Oh, well, don't look at that.

1266
01:14:38,333 --> 01:14:39,915
Jesus Christ.

1267
01:14:41,250 --> 01:14:42,790
You dick.

1268
01:14:49,500 --> 01:14:51,499
- Good one?
- Good enough.

1269
01:14:54,666 --> 01:14:59,207
Even looking at the girls here
brings on a cascade of conflicting emotions.

1270
01:14:59,333 --> 01:15:02,082
They're always gonna want more
than you're prepared to offer.

1271
01:15:02,208 --> 01:15:04,957
You remember that.
You'll learn it yourself one day,

1272
01:15:05,083 --> 01:15:06,624
if you haven't already.

1273
01:15:07,958 --> 01:15:11,415
What are you thinking about?
Are you thinking about what I just told you?

1274
01:15:13,750 --> 01:15:15,207
This place looks unforgiving.

1275
01:15:15,333 --> 01:15:17,499
Suffers in comparison to the guest room.

1276
01:15:18,416 --> 01:15:20,124
Well, the offer's still on the table.

1277
01:15:20,250 --> 01:15:21,957
Don't sit on the car.

1278
01:15:24,291 --> 01:15:26,374
Listen, this isn't the city.

1279
01:15:26,500 --> 01:15:28,832
They're a different breed
of snob up here.

1280
01:15:29,791 --> 01:15:31,124
It's academia.

1281
01:15:31,250 --> 01:15:32,790
Academia nuts.

1282
01:15:34,500 --> 01:15:36,082
I fail to understand the distinction.

1283
01:15:36,583 --> 01:15:38,707
Yeah, I do, too, sometimes.

1284
01:15:38,833 --> 01:15:40,499
It's been really awful.

1285
01:15:41,791 --> 01:15:43,499
I consider you my good friend.

1286
01:15:44,250 --> 01:15:45,707
I appreciate that.

1287
01:15:46,750 --> 01:15:49,082
But you'll soon find
how little that counts for.

1288
01:15:50,166 --> 01:15:54,374
I'm not referring to myself,
but there's a lot of assholes out there.

1289
01:15:55,708 --> 01:15:58,832
Less up here than in the city,
but it's all relative.

1290
01:16:16,625 --> 01:16:20,207
You say it yourself. You don't see anybody.
You have no friendships.

1291
01:16:20,333 --> 01:16:23,790
And you have ruined every relationship
in which you ever could have found meaning.

1292
01:16:23,916 --> 01:16:25,332
Who?

1293
01:16:26,291 --> 01:16:29,290
Huh? Associates? Sycophants?

1294
01:16:29,416 --> 01:16:32,290
Who the fuck needs pissants like that?
Good riddance.

1295
01:16:32,416 --> 01:16:34,040
Me. Mom.

1296
01:16:34,166 --> 01:16:36,540
You don't know what the fuck
you're talking about, as usual.

1297
01:16:36,666 --> 01:16:39,457
Why do you assume
that she never talked to me?

1298
01:16:39,583 --> 01:16:41,874
Oh, I'm sure she was only too eager

1299
01:16:42,000 --> 01:16:45,207
to fill your head with some inane,
fictitious bullshit.

1300
01:16:45,333 --> 01:16:47,124
But one thing I know for a fact,

1301
01:16:47,250 --> 01:16:49,249
you only got one version of events

1302
01:16:49,375 --> 01:16:53,707
told from the perspective of a very sad,
very lonely, pathetic woman.

1303
01:16:53,833 --> 01:16:55,832
You insult again.

1304
01:16:56,375 --> 01:16:58,332
This is my mother you're talking about.

1305
01:16:58,458 --> 01:16:59,915
And? Go on.

1306
01:17:00,041 --> 01:17:03,332
You talk about her like she's
some leech that sucked you dry.

1307
01:17:03,458 --> 01:17:07,082
Yeah, well, she would have done,
given half the chance.

1308
01:17:07,208 --> 01:17:08,749
Her and everyone else.

1309
01:17:08,875 --> 01:17:12,082
You know, she is my biggest regret, hmm?

1310
01:17:12,208 --> 01:17:15,499
The strongest and saddest proof
that you cannot change anyone,

1311
01:17:15,625 --> 01:17:18,790
and that your first instinct about them
will always be right.

1312
01:17:18,916 --> 01:17:22,582
Yeah, well, that just proves that you
yourself can't be changed, either.

1313
01:17:22,708 --> 01:17:25,749
Yeah, well, much to my chagrin,
I prove my own point.

1314
01:17:27,250 --> 01:17:29,457
I always try to lead by example...

1315
01:17:30,208 --> 01:17:33,124
To show everyone
how I can put aside preconceptions

1316
01:17:33,250 --> 01:17:36,040
and find new feelings, new ideas.

1317
01:17:36,166 --> 01:17:38,624
But the innate ineffability
of human disappointment

1318
01:17:38,750 --> 01:17:41,374
overcomes my faith every time.

1319
01:17:41,500 --> 01:17:43,457
- So, when you belittle me...
- "Belittle you"?

1320
01:17:43,583 --> 01:17:45,540
- I didn't even fucking say anything to you.
- Yes!

1321
01:17:45,666 --> 01:17:47,915
- What are you talking about?
- "Belittle me"!

1322
01:17:48,500 --> 01:17:51,665
For my self-made disconnect
from those who want nothing from me

1323
01:17:51,791 --> 01:17:55,665
but to further their own
petty feelings of self-delusion.

1324
01:17:55,791 --> 01:17:59,874
Then you reinforce the degree to which
I saved myself from future disappointment

1325
01:18:00,000 --> 01:18:02,999
by cutting myself off
to the extent that I did!

1326
01:18:07,875 --> 01:18:09,624
Do you hear yourself?

1327
01:18:10,500 --> 01:18:11,874
'The emotions which arose

1328
01:18:12,000 --> 01:18:14,249
'from the spectacular confrontation
with his daughter

1329
01:18:14,375 --> 01:18:18,624
'enraged and excited Ike in such a way
as he no longer felt possible.

1330
01:18:18,750 --> 01:18:21,332
'Philip's unbridled respect
and reverence for his idol,

1331
01:18:21,458 --> 01:18:24,457
'compounded with his
youthful sense of rage and entitlement,

1332
01:18:24,583 --> 01:18:27,415
'had forced unwanted introspection
upon Ike.

1333
01:18:28,583 --> 01:18:31,374
'And what he saw was
a shamefully complacent old man,

1334
01:18:31,500 --> 01:18:33,540
'who had long since given up
the forcefulness

1335
01:18:33,666 --> 01:18:37,207
'that had once motivated him
to create some of his best work.

1336
01:19:04,166 --> 01:19:07,374
'The autumn months had brought about
an overwhelming sense of shame in Ike,

1337
01:19:07,500 --> 01:19:09,374
'as he tried and failed
to put out of his mind

1338
01:19:09,500 --> 01:19:12,790
'the vigour and dissatisfaction
that once drove him to succeed,

1339
01:19:12,916 --> 01:19:17,040
'replaced with frustration,
self-pity and disappointment.'

1340
01:19:35,958 --> 01:19:37,790
And of course, the frustrating thing is

1341
01:19:37,916 --> 01:19:40,624
to want to focus your energies
on something

1342
01:19:40,750 --> 01:19:44,665
that, well, at this point in my life,
should be something of an opus.

1343
01:19:44,791 --> 01:19:46,749
- A culmination.
- Right.

1344
01:19:48,583 --> 01:19:51,374
Could we swap seats?
I don't feel right sitting here.

1345
01:19:51,500 --> 01:19:54,124
I'd rather not sit in a pupil's chair
in my own office.

1346
01:19:55,333 --> 01:19:58,624
We can both sit over there,
or we can both stand.

1347
01:20:04,583 --> 01:20:06,332
I've had years of this shit.

1348
01:20:07,416 --> 01:20:09,249
How long did yours take?

1349
01:20:09,375 --> 01:20:10,749
Something like two years apiece.

1350
01:20:10,875 --> 01:20:12,915
Oh, God, I used to be faster than that.

1351
01:20:13,750 --> 01:20:16,665
Two years would be humiliating for me.

1352
01:20:16,791 --> 01:20:18,874
Well, for anyone.

1353
01:20:19,000 --> 01:20:22,957
I... I didn't mean it like that,
but you get the idea.

1354
01:20:24,525 --> 01:20:26,207
This could be so big for me.

1355
01:20:26,333 --> 01:20:29,040
Instead, I... I'm suffering here.

1356
01:20:30,166 --> 01:20:33,624
More than you could know
or I could possibly explain.

1357
01:20:33,750 --> 01:20:36,415
I just don't see anything clearly.

1358
01:20:38,916 --> 01:20:40,665
I'm trying to do my best here.

1359
01:20:41,500 --> 01:20:43,040
Oh, fuck it.

1360
01:20:44,750 --> 01:20:47,374
I should have this figured out by now.

1361
01:20:47,500 --> 01:20:48,665
Well, thank you for listening

1362
01:20:48,791 --> 01:20:51,874
to the sentimental and frustrated
ramblings of an old man.

1363
01:20:52,000 --> 01:20:54,374
- You've done a lot for me.
- I didn't do much.

1364
01:20:54,500 --> 01:20:56,249
No. But your work did.

1365
01:20:56,750 --> 01:20:58,082
That's true.

1366
01:20:58,208 --> 01:21:00,124
Bonjour, Yvette. Ça va?

1367
01:21:04,583 --> 01:21:06,957
- She's Yvette?
- Yeah.

1368
01:21:08,041 --> 01:21:10,832
'Yvette Dussart was entering
her third year on the faculty

1369
01:21:10,958 --> 01:21:14,290
'when she was informed that a young,
newly successful author from the city

1370
01:21:14,416 --> 01:21:16,165
'would be joining
the English department,

1371
01:21:16,291 --> 01:21:18,749
'which she took as a personal attack
on her territory,

1372
01:21:18,875 --> 01:21:21,874
'as it relieved her of the title
of youngest faculty member,

1373
01:21:22,000 --> 01:21:24,707
'a distinction from which she derived
no small amount of satisfaction.

1374
01:21:25,625 --> 01:21:28,749
'Philip and Yvette were only about
three years apart in age.'

1375
01:21:34,791 --> 01:21:36,749
'Prior to his arrival and introduction,

1376
01:21:36,875 --> 01:21:39,374
'Yvette had decided to act
unkind towards him,

1377
01:21:39,500 --> 01:21:41,874
'and was able to convince
several other faculty members

1378
01:21:42,000 --> 01:21:44,999
'that, in fact, a novelist
with no teaching experience

1379
01:21:45,125 --> 01:21:46,790
'did not belong among their ranks,

1380
01:21:46,916 --> 01:21:50,207
'a cunning move that created
an environment of tension and hostility

1381
01:21:50,333 --> 01:21:53,124
'before Philip appeared
for what became an increasingly painful,

1382
01:21:53,250 --> 01:21:56,040
'and humiliating orientation process.

1383
01:21:56,166 --> 01:22:00,374
'The result of her scheming was immediate
and total isolation for Philip,

1384
01:22:00,500 --> 01:22:02,832
'who routinely found himself
with nothing more to do

1385
01:22:02,958 --> 01:22:05,374
'than retreat to his small,
sad apartment every night,

1386
01:22:05,500 --> 01:22:08,749
'where he made a concerted effort
to devote himself fully to his writing,

1387
01:22:08,875 --> 01:22:11,165
'and to doing as good a job teaching
as possible.'

1388
01:22:11,791 --> 01:22:14,540
I wonder what type of style we should
be working on for these exercises.

1389
01:22:14,666 --> 01:22:16,832
I'm not sure I can answer that question.

1390
01:22:16,958 --> 01:22:18,124
In fact, I'm certain I cannot.

1391
01:22:18,250 --> 01:22:21,999
I don't have a very academic relationship
with form or style.

1392
01:22:22,125 --> 01:22:24,790
So... what is your advice?

1393
01:22:24,916 --> 01:22:27,457
The best thing I can offer is what I do,

1394
01:22:27,583 --> 01:22:31,124
which is to kinda goof around
until you find what works.

1395
01:22:31,250 --> 01:22:32,290
Besides, in my experience,

1396
01:22:32,416 --> 01:22:34,332
more than half of you
will probably abandon writing,

1397
01:22:34,458 --> 01:22:36,624
creative or the other kind,
very shortly after graduating.

1398
01:22:36,750 --> 01:22:37,749
If you haven't already.

1399
01:22:38,666 --> 01:22:41,540
I'm thinking of a few of you specifically
when I say that last part.

1400
01:22:41,666 --> 01:22:42,874
Hey, hey.

1401
01:22:43,416 --> 01:22:45,582
Are you at all qualified to be teachin'?

1402
01:22:47,666 --> 01:22:50,165
I never use the word "teach".
I always say "instruct".

1403
01:22:52,916 --> 01:22:53,957
Nice try.

1404
01:23:10,000 --> 01:23:11,999
You've made it a point
to turn others against me,

1405
01:23:12,125 --> 01:23:13,457
and I don't understand why.

1406
01:23:14,208 --> 01:23:15,499
I've not.

1407
01:23:16,708 --> 01:23:17,707
You have.

1408
01:23:17,833 --> 01:23:20,040
And as a result, I'm sad and alone...

1409
01:23:22,583 --> 01:23:24,082
I don't like it here.

1410
01:23:38,666 --> 01:23:40,874
- Hello.
- Hi.

1411
01:23:43,791 --> 01:23:46,499
I read Obidant. I really liked it.

1412
01:23:47,333 --> 01:23:49,874
- I didn't realise it had come out already.
- About two weeks ago.

1413
01:23:50,000 --> 01:23:51,332
Huh.

1414
01:23:52,458 --> 01:23:54,040
Listen, it's nothing personal, but...

1415
01:23:54,166 --> 01:23:55,999
I'm really trying to do my best up here,

1416
01:23:56,125 --> 01:23:59,249
and part of that means
not getting involved with anybody

1417
01:23:59,375 --> 01:24:02,165
in, er... say, a human way.

1418
01:24:02,291 --> 01:24:05,582
So if you'd like, you could
come visit me at my office.

1419
01:24:05,708 --> 01:24:07,207
This is not my office.

1420
01:24:13,666 --> 01:24:16,249
Please don't act like somebody
who doesn't know how to handle themselves.

1421
01:24:17,375 --> 01:24:18,915
I don't know what you mean.

1422
01:24:19,041 --> 01:24:21,707
Act as though you attend these things
all the time.

1423
01:24:21,833 --> 01:24:22,957
How?

1424
01:24:23,083 --> 01:24:25,207
Feel like you don't want to be here.
Like me.

1425
01:24:25,333 --> 01:24:26,999
See how little I wanna be here?

1426
01:24:27,875 --> 01:24:29,707
But I very much want to be here.

1427
01:24:31,166 --> 01:24:32,624
Oh, Jonathan.

1428
01:24:35,041 --> 01:24:36,540
Are you proud of me?

1429
01:24:36,666 --> 01:24:38,082
In what way?

1430
01:24:39,458 --> 01:24:40,749
Never mind.

1431
01:24:41,791 --> 01:24:44,124
You seem to have
a decent situation here.

1432
01:24:44,250 --> 01:24:46,957
- This place is just fine.
- Yeah.

1433
01:25:07,625 --> 01:25:10,499
You do not need to look away
every time you see me.

1434
01:25:14,791 --> 01:25:16,874
Was it your father
I saw you with earlier?

1435
01:25:17,000 --> 01:25:20,040
He's my uncle. Mon oncle. Like the film.

1436
01:25:21,083 --> 01:25:22,290
You look sad with him.

1437
01:25:24,416 --> 01:25:26,582
I don't think you're saying
what you think you are.

1438
01:25:27,250 --> 01:25:28,832
I meant to say...

1439
01:25:28,958 --> 01:25:32,249
When with him, it makes you look
as though you are not happy.

1440
01:25:32,375 --> 01:25:35,290
Oh. I guess that's pretty much
what you said the first time.

1441
01:25:35,416 --> 01:25:36,999
Why is this?

1442
01:25:37,125 --> 01:25:38,915
Your own family makes you unhappy?

1443
01:25:39,041 --> 01:25:41,665
I don't feel comfortable
talking to you like this.

1444
01:25:42,291 --> 01:25:44,207
- Why?
- Because we don't like each other.

1445
01:25:44,333 --> 01:25:45,915
Or you don't like me.

1446
01:25:47,250 --> 01:25:48,874
It's not like that. I mean...

1447
01:25:50,291 --> 01:25:52,249
OK, it's true that I am upset that

1448
01:25:52,375 --> 01:25:55,540
I study for years to obtain
a teaching degree, and you...

1449
01:25:55,666 --> 01:25:59,999
You just publish two slim novels
and get a job many would murder for.

1450
01:26:02,500 --> 01:26:06,749
I, however, think it is possible
we could be friendly together.

1451
01:26:07,583 --> 01:26:09,457
You encouraged the faculty
to turn on me.

1452
01:26:09,583 --> 01:26:11,249
Nobody likes me here.

1453
01:26:12,833 --> 01:26:14,249
Nobody ever talks to me.

1454
01:26:14,375 --> 01:26:17,957
We like it here.
We have family and community.

1455
01:26:18,083 --> 01:26:20,499
And you've just come here
with your new novel

1456
01:26:20,625 --> 01:26:23,999
and turned them against yourself
with your arrogance and ego.

1457
01:26:25,166 --> 01:26:27,457
You're to blame nobody
but yourself for these things.

1458
01:26:27,583 --> 01:26:28,874
I don't know how to process that.

1459
01:26:29,000 --> 01:26:31,249
I'm not sure how quickly
I can absolve you of wrongdoing

1460
01:26:31,375 --> 01:26:33,040
and shoulder the blame myself.

1461
01:26:36,041 --> 01:26:38,040
I'd like to go elsewhere and talk.

1462
01:26:38,791 --> 01:26:39,790
Speak with you more.

1463
01:26:40,708 --> 01:26:42,249
Just not standing here, outside.

1464
01:26:42,750 --> 01:26:43,957
OK.

1465
01:26:44,083 --> 01:26:45,790
Just not back in there.

1466
01:27:00,375 --> 01:27:02,040
Hello.

1467
01:27:06,125 --> 01:27:08,665
I thought it best if my students
don't ever see me out of class.

1468
01:27:09,458 --> 01:27:10,874
So, what do you do at night?

1469
01:27:11,625 --> 01:27:13,749
I stay home, I read, and I think.

1470
01:27:13,875 --> 01:27:16,499
It'll make my life harder
if people see me differently.

1471
01:27:17,250 --> 01:27:18,332
Does that make sense?

1472
01:27:18,458 --> 01:27:20,957
And you only want to be thought of
as a talented writer

1473
01:27:21,083 --> 01:27:22,665
and not as a real person?

1474
01:27:25,125 --> 01:27:26,749
Hmm, yeah.

1475
01:27:27,291 --> 01:27:29,415
Yeah. That's probably about right.

1476
01:27:30,166 --> 01:27:32,207
In fact, that's exactly right.

1477
01:27:34,541 --> 01:27:35,957
Thank you.

1478
01:27:37,666 --> 01:27:38,915
All right.

1479
01:27:43,166 --> 01:27:45,124
Be a good boy. Give me a call, OK?

1480
01:27:45,250 --> 01:27:46,749
Yeah.

1481
01:27:50,500 --> 01:27:53,040
I never had a weekend on campus
where I went to school.

1482
01:27:53,166 --> 01:27:54,374
I can't really quite adjust.

1483
01:27:54,500 --> 01:27:56,749
Last night your uncle and then me...

1484
01:27:56,875 --> 01:27:59,207
It's your first real conversation
since you arrived here?

1485
01:27:59,333 --> 01:28:02,915
Conversation that took place on or around
campus and was substantial? Yes.

1486
01:28:03,708 --> 01:28:05,790
Wow. You must be really lonely.

1487
01:28:05,916 --> 01:28:07,624
Can't see your eyes in that hat.

1488
01:28:08,708 --> 01:28:10,415
That's better. Where are you going?

1489
01:28:35,958 --> 01:28:38,124
- Are your office hours over?
- For the time being.

1490
01:28:38,250 --> 01:28:40,499
Also they're for people in classes I teach.
That's not you, is it?

1491
01:28:40,625 --> 01:28:42,957
- No, but I was hoping...
- No, it's urgent.

1492
01:28:45,750 --> 01:28:48,374
So, today we'll be learning
about the Romantic period,

1493
01:28:48,500 --> 01:28:51,665
and the impact of the French Revolution,

1494
01:28:51,791 --> 01:28:53,874
such as Jean-Jacques Rousseau and...

1495
01:28:55,625 --> 01:28:58,124
Erm... William Godwin and...

1496
01:28:59,541 --> 01:29:01,790
Erm... did anyone read it?

1497
01:29:03,875 --> 01:29:06,257
Er... we'll be also talking about the...

1498
01:29:07,616 --> 01:29:09,724
romantic themes.

1499
01:29:10,416 --> 01:29:13,624
Sorry, the cult of sensibility,
emphasising...

1500
01:29:21,100 --> 01:29:22,915
Sorry, what were we talking about?

1501
01:29:26,166 --> 01:29:29,665
Well, this is the most amount of visitors
I've ever seen during a single session.

1502
01:29:29,791 --> 01:29:31,040
And on a Friday, no less.

1503
01:29:31,166 --> 01:29:32,499
What a world.

1504
01:29:32,625 --> 01:29:34,457
One second.

1505
01:29:44,166 --> 01:29:45,165
Come right in.

1506
01:29:45,708 --> 01:29:47,582
When I was in school,
I never went to these things,

1507
01:29:47,708 --> 01:29:49,582
- so I tend to forget about them.
- That's OK.

1508
01:29:49,708 --> 01:29:51,499
I was hoping we could discuss my story.

1509
01:29:51,625 --> 01:29:53,624
Right. Which I read.

1510
01:29:53,750 --> 01:29:56,124
I think the perspective was very clear.

1511
01:29:56,250 --> 01:29:59,665
Erm... and, also, I should say that...

1512
01:30:00,708 --> 01:30:02,040
What was the title of it again?

1513
01:30:02,833 --> 01:30:05,207
I'll be honest.
That's not the main reason I'm here.

1514
01:30:05,333 --> 01:30:08,540
Thank God, because honestly,
I don't even think I've read yours yet.

1515
01:30:08,666 --> 01:30:11,082
Or any of them, for that matter,
so don't be offended.

1516
01:30:11,208 --> 01:30:13,790
I was hoping you could provide me with
a letter of recommendation

1517
01:30:13,916 --> 01:30:16,790
for an internship I'm pursuing
at Paragon Press.

1518
01:30:20,291 --> 01:30:22,082
- OK.
- Is that not possible?

1519
01:30:22,916 --> 01:30:25,374
Look, I'll say this,
and then we can proceed accordingly.

1520
01:30:25,500 --> 01:30:28,540
Number one, internships are a waste
of time, so you shouldn't bother.

1521
01:30:29,208 --> 01:30:30,707
Two, that company sucks,

1522
01:30:30,833 --> 01:30:33,207
and you wouldn't gain
any worthwhile experience there.

1523
01:30:33,333 --> 01:30:36,749
And three, I don't actually think
that I know you very well.

1524
01:30:36,875 --> 01:30:38,332
Or at all, now that I think about it.

1525
01:30:38,458 --> 01:30:41,290
So, I wouldn't be the best person
to sing your praises.

1526
01:30:41,416 --> 01:30:44,707
Where does that leave us
on the whole letter of recommendation tip?

1527
01:30:45,750 --> 01:30:47,165
I think they can be somewhat generic.

1528
01:30:47,291 --> 01:30:49,624
It's kind of a formality anyway.

1529
01:30:50,958 --> 01:30:52,290
Nah.

1530
01:30:54,875 --> 01:30:57,790
Does your publisher have
an internship programme?

1531
01:30:57,916 --> 01:31:00,124
To be honest with you, I have no idea.

1532
01:31:00,250 --> 01:31:02,415
I'm not thinking about this right now.

1533
01:31:03,875 --> 01:31:06,165
Here's a piece of paper
with some staples in it.

1534
01:31:10,416 --> 01:31:11,915
Wish I could be of more help.

1535
01:31:15,125 --> 01:31:16,790
'The semester drew to a close,

1536
01:31:16,916 --> 01:31:20,499
'and an impending sense of melancholy
and longing developed within Philip,

1537
01:31:20,625 --> 01:31:22,707
'as the promise of facing Ashley again

1538
01:31:22,833 --> 01:31:26,415
'became less of an abstraction
and more of a looming certainty.

1539
01:31:26,541 --> 01:31:29,999
'Anticipating this, and unable
to process his feelings verbally,

1540
01:31:30,125 --> 01:31:32,624
'Philip wrote and mailed her a letter,
which read...'

1541
01:31:33,458 --> 01:31:35,707
"I find myself alone again and again,

1542
01:31:35,833 --> 01:31:39,332
"and I've abandoned hope that this is
something that can or will change.

1543
01:31:39,458 --> 01:31:41,624
"I would extend my apologies
for neglecting to phone,

1544
01:31:41,750 --> 01:31:43,957
"were I not certain
that they would be rejected.

1545
01:31:44,083 --> 01:31:46,582
"I offer the honest yet
invented-sounding explanation

1546
01:31:46,708 --> 01:31:49,040
"that hearing your voice
or anything about your current life

1547
01:31:49,166 --> 01:31:51,957
"would compound my already
overwhelming sense of isolation and regret

1548
01:31:52,083 --> 01:31:54,415
"in a way I would consider crippling.

1549
01:31:54,541 --> 01:31:57,374
"My return date is set
for December the 15th.

1550
01:31:57,500 --> 01:32:00,499
"I look forward to seeing what type
of person I feel like by then."

1551
01:32:01,500 --> 01:32:03,415
'The letter was signed simply, "P".

1552
01:32:03,541 --> 01:32:06,374
'She threw it away
without ever opening the envelope.

1553
01:32:09,125 --> 01:32:10,540
'Just under four weeks had passed

1554
01:32:10,666 --> 01:32:13,249
'since Philip had last attempted
to contact Ashley,

1555
01:32:13,375 --> 01:32:15,707
'and his letters
had started being returned.

1556
01:32:15,833 --> 01:32:18,332
'The period following his collection
of midterm assignments

1557
01:32:18,458 --> 01:32:19,790
'and leading up to Thanksgiving,

1558
01:32:19,916 --> 01:32:23,749
'found Philip at long last adjusting
to his temporary life at the college.

1559
01:32:23,875 --> 01:32:27,040
'No longer fighting against his situation
and finally at peace with it,

1560
01:32:27,166 --> 01:32:30,540
'he had noticed himself making friends
where there before had been none,

1561
01:32:30,666 --> 01:32:32,165
'and experiencing feelings and emotions

1562
01:32:32,291 --> 01:32:35,624
'he had studiously blocked out
from August through late October.

1563
01:32:35,750 --> 01:32:39,290
'The result of which was his transformation
into a tolerable person

1564
01:32:39,416 --> 01:32:41,290
'for whom the faculty began to care,

1565
01:32:41,416 --> 01:32:44,415
'to say nothing of the added benefit
of winning Yvette's affections,

1566
01:32:44,541 --> 01:32:48,665
'a goal of his since he first convinced himself
of the extent to which she disliked him.'

1567
01:32:51,375 --> 01:32:52,790
I don't know
what you want me to tell you.

1568
01:32:53,458 --> 01:32:55,249
You know what I want you to tell me.

1569
01:32:56,500 --> 01:32:58,999
Oh, the situation is
becoming really irritating.

1570
01:32:59,125 --> 01:33:01,540
I have a life somewhere. Or had one.

1571
01:33:01,666 --> 01:33:03,874
I'm not sure which.
It's probably not even there anymore.

1572
01:33:04,000 --> 01:33:07,582
Then forget it. And come back home
with me for the holiday break.

1573
01:33:07,708 --> 01:33:09,999
I've nothing to do when I get back.
Also, I've nowhere to live.

1574
01:33:10,125 --> 01:33:12,165
I don't work here permanently.
Only you do.

1575
01:33:13,416 --> 01:33:15,207
I'm sure you can get
one more semester of work.

1576
01:33:15,333 --> 01:33:17,124
Hang on while I put
my head in this sweater.

1577
01:33:17,250 --> 01:33:18,790
Keep going.

1578
01:33:18,916 --> 01:33:20,124
It is possible.

1579
01:33:20,250 --> 01:33:21,957
A lot that would need to change
for that to happen.

1580
01:33:25,291 --> 01:33:27,707
Are we still going to Ike's for Thanksgiving?
What are we bringing?

1581
01:33:28,291 --> 01:33:30,207
- Really?
- Yeah.

1582
01:33:36,791 --> 01:33:39,790
You know what? Why don't you stay
at your own apartment tonight?

1583
01:33:39,916 --> 01:33:42,749
My apartment is sad
and has improper heating,

1584
01:33:42,875 --> 01:33:46,165
which you know
because we're standing in it right now.

1585
01:33:48,500 --> 01:33:49,915
Oh!

1586
01:33:58,333 --> 01:34:00,915
So, you don't want to be
trapped by academia.

1587
01:34:01,041 --> 01:34:05,082
There are some people over there
who I wish I could still call my colleagues.

1588
01:34:05,625 --> 01:34:07,915
They didn't want this life
for themselves.

1589
01:34:08,041 --> 01:34:09,874
I told this to our boy here.

1590
01:34:10,000 --> 01:34:12,082
You know, you have to be very careful.

1591
01:34:12,875 --> 01:34:16,540
Don't believe too strongly
the structures they put in front of you.

1592
01:34:18,000 --> 01:34:19,207
This is good advice.

1593
01:34:19,333 --> 01:34:21,290
For you more so than him, though.

1594
01:34:22,416 --> 01:34:23,790
Excuse me.

1595
01:34:29,291 --> 01:34:31,332
You seem ill-equipped
to deal with someone like that.

1596
01:34:31,458 --> 01:34:33,332
We began by hating one another.

1597
01:34:33,458 --> 01:34:35,457
I think we're coming back
down the other side now.

1598
01:34:36,291 --> 01:34:37,665
That's a very potent image.

1599
01:34:37,791 --> 01:34:39,332
You should write it down and use it.

1600
01:34:39,458 --> 01:34:41,665
I came up with it on the silent,
excruciating drive over here.

1601
01:34:41,791 --> 01:34:44,374
- I'm glad you approve.
- Oh, I do, indeed.

1602
01:34:45,791 --> 01:34:47,124
I should go check on her.

1603
01:34:48,041 --> 01:34:49,665
Excuse me.

1604
01:34:57,458 --> 01:34:59,082
I think you're being rude to Ike.

1605
01:35:00,125 --> 01:35:02,082
I'm glad his feelings are so important.

1606
01:35:04,541 --> 01:35:06,374
I think I need to leave.

1607
01:35:09,291 --> 01:35:10,749
You said you wanted to meet him.

1608
01:35:11,458 --> 01:35:12,624
Besides we just got here.

1609
01:35:14,000 --> 01:35:15,540
Why don't you leave me alone?

1610
01:35:23,708 --> 01:35:26,415
My uncle, who you saw in passing,

1611
01:35:27,500 --> 01:35:28,499
raised me

1612
01:35:29,125 --> 01:35:31,915
because both of my parents
were killed in a car accident.

1613
01:35:32,875 --> 01:35:34,499
Why are you telling me this?

1614
01:35:42,083 --> 01:35:44,790
Because I want you to
contextualise my sadness.

1615
01:35:46,250 --> 01:35:48,665
Put whatever you're going through
into perspective.

1616
01:35:50,416 --> 01:35:52,040
My mom was pregnant at the time.

1617
01:35:52,666 --> 01:35:53,707
Seven months.

1618
01:35:54,458 --> 01:35:56,040
I was on the news.

1619
01:35:57,375 --> 01:35:59,374
I'm telling you this
to hurt you right now,

1620
01:35:59,500 --> 01:36:01,249
because you're trying
to make me feel bad,

1621
01:36:02,083 --> 01:36:03,749
horrible even,

1622
01:36:03,875 --> 01:36:05,499
which I don't appreciate.

1623
01:36:07,208 --> 01:36:08,874
But I never will...

1624
01:36:09,541 --> 01:36:10,999
Because nothing ever feels bad

1625
01:36:11,125 --> 01:36:13,249
once you learn
what that emotion is capable of.

1626
01:36:15,416 --> 01:36:17,665
Now let's not make a big deal about it.

1627
01:36:17,791 --> 01:36:19,332
I usually don't.

1628
01:36:20,500 --> 01:36:23,249
But you really forced my hand on this.

1629
01:36:24,208 --> 01:36:25,957
Do you know that expression?

1630
01:36:26,791 --> 01:36:28,290
"Forced my hand"?

1631
01:36:29,666 --> 01:36:31,249
It's one of my favourites.

1632
01:36:54,833 --> 01:36:57,207
- She seems difficult.
- She is. Very.

1633
01:36:58,208 --> 01:37:00,832
Well, you're putting her
in an ugly situation.

1634
01:37:00,958 --> 01:37:02,832
What with you trying
to have two girlfriends.

1635
01:37:04,500 --> 01:37:06,249
That's a tawdry way to phrase it.

1636
01:37:07,733 --> 01:37:11,665
You... You have one living in a house
that you share with her in the city

1637
01:37:11,791 --> 01:37:13,540
and another one up here
that you're living with.

1638
01:37:14,666 --> 01:37:16,415
Yeah, I can see the appeal.

1639
01:37:17,250 --> 01:37:19,374
I practically invented it.

1640
01:37:19,500 --> 01:37:21,915
But I did it better than you.

1641
01:37:22,541 --> 01:37:24,415
Nobody hated me then.

1642
01:37:24,541 --> 01:37:28,124
I could enjoy it. Until later, of course,
when it all came crashing down.

1643
01:37:28,250 --> 01:37:32,165
But by then, I had
my escape all planned.

1644
01:37:32,291 --> 01:37:35,790
You see, you haven't put enough thought
into something as delicate as this.

1645
01:37:36,541 --> 01:37:39,707
Ever since I was a teenager,
I wanted to fall in love with a French girl.

1646
01:37:42,666 --> 01:37:44,082
I'm proud of you, boy.

1647
01:37:47,250 --> 01:37:52,499
You'll find yourself
referring to this experience often

1648
01:37:52,625 --> 01:37:56,332
when you opt to pull your head
out of your own ass and get back to work.

1649
01:37:56,458 --> 01:37:58,957
Can you offer any suggestions
about what I should do until then?

1650
01:37:59,666 --> 01:38:01,332
Well, I could.

1651
01:38:02,083 --> 01:38:04,499
But this really belongs to you.

1652
01:38:05,625 --> 01:38:07,374
You'll find a solution.

1653
01:38:08,250 --> 01:38:09,749
I gave you the '25, by the way.

1654
01:38:10,458 --> 01:38:12,082
Oh, thank you.

1655
01:38:13,708 --> 01:38:17,499
The way I see it,
you have two possible scenarios.

1656
01:38:17,625 --> 01:38:20,832
Either you abscond to France
with a girl you just met three months ago,

1657
01:38:20,958 --> 01:38:22,749
thus becoming a cliché,

1658
01:38:22,875 --> 01:38:26,124
leaving the city in disgrace
and your former life in shambles,

1659
01:38:26,250 --> 01:38:30,790
or you'll return to your kind,
successful, tolerant,

1660
01:38:30,916 --> 01:38:34,374
and probably very attractive
girlfriend in the city.

1661
01:38:34,500 --> 01:38:36,165
Immerse yourself in work,

1662
01:38:36,291 --> 01:38:38,999
and become miserable for eternity.

1663
01:38:39,916 --> 01:38:42,999
Two fine options,
as far as you're concerned.

1664
01:38:43,125 --> 01:38:45,457
You're lucky to have them already,
at your age.

1665
01:38:54,500 --> 01:38:55,790
You're a good friend, Ike.

1666
01:38:56,333 --> 01:38:58,249
It's an honour to say that I know you.

1667
01:39:00,666 --> 01:39:04,290
Don't make yourself any more miserable
than you need to be.

1668
01:39:04,416 --> 01:39:06,082
Leave that to the women you love.

1669
01:39:07,000 --> 01:39:09,499
That's what they're
pretty much there for.

1670
01:39:10,500 --> 01:39:12,624
In my experience.

1671
01:39:21,375 --> 01:39:24,457
I believe that I'll need to return home
to the city at some point.

1672
01:39:25,375 --> 01:39:27,790
It's highly likely that I'll realise
I made a huge error,

1673
01:39:27,916 --> 01:39:29,874
at which point I might try
to return to this place

1674
01:39:30,000 --> 01:39:32,082
to see if you'd ever
still care about me.

1675
01:39:33,708 --> 01:39:37,249
I'm fairly certain that what I just said
is exactly what's gonna happen.

1676
01:39:39,250 --> 01:39:42,207
I can't believe you still think
that's your decision to make.

1677
01:39:43,041 --> 01:39:45,749
Just trying stuff out to see
what the right thing to do is.

1678
01:39:55,166 --> 01:39:56,665
Thank you.

1679
01:40:03,000 --> 01:40:05,207
'Philip left the college
much as he arrived,

1680
01:40:05,333 --> 01:40:08,874
'alone and devoid of meaningful
connections with anybody else.

1681
01:40:11,208 --> 01:40:14,999
'His time spent there would come to be
regarded as adequate by the administration,

1682
01:40:15,125 --> 01:40:17,499
'who subsequently invited him back,

1683
01:40:17,625 --> 01:40:19,749
'an offer which he would
repeatedly decline,

1684
01:40:19,875 --> 01:40:21,332
'until he heard several years later

1685
01:40:21,458 --> 01:40:25,582
'that Yvette had gotten a tenure job
at another school further north.

1686
01:40:25,708 --> 01:40:28,124
'He eventually returned to teach
several more semesters

1687
01:40:28,250 --> 01:40:32,207
'at increasingly-irregular intervals
as the publication of his work allowed.'

1688
01:42:15,958 --> 01:42:17,707
My key is broken.

1689
01:42:21,500 --> 01:42:24,915
'He returned home to the city
and was refused decency by Ashley,

1690
01:42:25,041 --> 01:42:27,040
'who had made the decision
that Philip would not be allowed

1691
01:42:27,166 --> 01:42:29,999
'to re-enter either her home
or her life,

1692
01:42:30,125 --> 01:42:33,249
'having come to the realisation
that she would no longer invest in somebody

1693
01:42:33,375 --> 01:42:35,999
'who would routinely cause her
to feel terrible.

1694
01:42:36,958 --> 01:42:38,415
'Without so much as noticing,

1695
01:42:38,541 --> 01:42:42,499
'Philip had lapsed into his usual pattern
of destructiveness and self-sabotage,

1696
01:42:42,625 --> 01:42:44,790
'forever ruining
yet another relationship,

1697
01:42:45,666 --> 01:42:49,499
'while Ashley explained all the reasons
he was no longer welcome to Philip,

1698
01:42:49,625 --> 01:42:51,957
'he found himself thinking back
on a quotation,

1699
01:42:52,083 --> 01:42:54,999
'which he had hoped to one day use
as the opening of a novel,

1700
01:42:55,125 --> 01:42:57,332
'or perhaps just a chapter.

1701
01:42:57,458 --> 01:43:01,374
"'Nothing lasts forever," he thought,
"and we both know hearts can change."'

1702
01:43:01,500 --> 01:43:02,957
You're wrong. I know what you need.

1703
01:43:03,083 --> 01:43:06,790
Open the door. Let me show you.
Let me show you that you're wrong.

1704
01:43:08,458 --> 01:43:09,790
It's OK.

1705
01:43:10,708 --> 01:43:12,415
I'm not angry with you anymore.

1706
01:43:23,500 --> 01:43:25,374
'Philip's thoughts then turned to Ike,

1707
01:43:25,500 --> 01:43:27,749
'alone in his isolated home
in the woods,

1708
01:43:27,875 --> 01:43:30,082
'a lifetime of enemies
and scorched earth

1709
01:43:30,208 --> 01:43:33,749
'forcing him into a quasi-involuntarily
self-imposed exile.'

1710
01:43:35,416 --> 01:43:38,624
'He recalled the lessons learned
from Ike's novels about character,

1711
01:43:38,750 --> 01:43:40,540
'sense of place and dialogue,

1712
01:43:40,666 --> 01:43:43,874
'before realising that his hero
and new friend had imparted Philip

1713
01:43:44,000 --> 01:43:46,374
'with more than either of them
had realised,

1714
01:43:46,500 --> 01:43:48,665
'for better or worse.

1715
01:43:49,875 --> 01:43:51,540
'Staring down at the small creature,

1716
01:43:51,666 --> 01:43:55,124
'Ashley's emotions were at last
completely hers to control.

1717
01:43:55,250 --> 01:43:58,290
'Gadzookey had a home, food,
and one very good friend,

1718
01:43:58,416 --> 01:44:01,665
'who cared more about him
than anything or anyone else.

1719
01:44:01,791 --> 01:44:03,957
'He needed nothing more to be content.

1720
01:44:10,250 --> 01:44:13,749
'Rejected by both Ashley and Yvette,
Philip walked off on his own,

1721
01:44:13,875 --> 01:44:16,582
'with only the faintest notion of
where to move forward from this,

1722
01:44:16,708 --> 01:44:18,499
'the low point of his adult life.

1723
01:44:19,916 --> 01:44:22,290
'And while he would remain
close with Ike,

1724
01:44:22,416 --> 01:44:23,957
'a friendship that proved essential

1725
01:44:24,083 --> 01:44:27,707
'to the eventual completion
and publication of several more novels,

1726
01:44:27,833 --> 01:44:31,290
'and later achieve an enviable
level of wealth and success,

1727
01:44:31,416 --> 01:44:36,082
'from this day forward, Philip would never
invest so much of himself in anybody else,

1728
01:44:36,208 --> 01:44:40,999
'instead living the rest of his life unwilling
to so much as consider emotional honesty,

1729
01:44:41,125 --> 01:44:44,165
'and deeply wary of those
who attempted to get close to him,

1730
01:44:44,291 --> 01:44:49,165
'a pattern of behaviour that ultimately
left him an isolated and emotionless spectre,

1731
01:44:49,291 --> 01:44:51,999
'forever remaining a mystery,
even to himself.'

1732
01:44:53,916 --> 01:44:55,582
<i>You've given me a true love</i>

1733
01:44:55,708 --> 01:44:58,290
<i>And every day I thank you, love</i>

1734
01:44:59,250 --> 01:45:02,249
<i>For a feeling that's so new</i>

1735
01:45:02,375 --> 01:45:05,457
<i>So inviting, so exciting</i>

1736
01:45:06,458 --> 01:45:11,040
<i>Whenever you're near, I hear a symphony</i>

1737
01:45:11,166 --> 01:45:14,165
<i>A tender melody</i>

1738
01:45:15,041 --> 01:45:17,415
<i>Pulling me closer</i>

1739
01:45:17,541 --> 01:45:20,165
<i>Closer to your arms</i>

1740
01:45:20,291 --> 01:45:22,165
<i>Then suddenly</i>

1741
01:45:22,291 --> 01:45:25,290
<i>Ooh, your lips are touching mine</i>

1742
01:45:26,791 --> 01:45:29,749
<i>A feeling so divine</i>

1743
01:45:29,875 --> 01:45:32,499
<i>Till I leave the past behind</i>

1744
01:45:33,625 --> 01:45:36,374
<i>I'm lost in a world</i>

1745
01:45:37,125 --> 01:45:39,665
<i>Made for you and me</i>

1746
01:45:52,500 --> 01:45:54,665
<i>Whenever you're near</i>

1747
01:45:55,625 --> 01:45:58,915
<i>I hear a symphony</i>

1748
01:45:59,041 --> 01:46:02,082
<i>Play sweet and tenderly</i>

1749
01:46:02,916 --> 01:46:05,790
<i>Every time your lips meet mine</i>

1750
01:46:05,916 --> 01:46:09,165
<i>Now, baby, baby, baby</i>

1751
01:46:09,291 --> 01:46:12,207
<i>You bring much joy within</i>

1752
01:46:12,750 --> 01:46:15,832
<i>Don't let this feeling end</i>

1753
01:46:15,958 --> 01:46:19,415
<i>Let it go on and on and on</i>

1754
01:46:19,541 --> 01:46:22,790
<i>Now, baby, baby, baby</i>

1755
01:46:22,916 --> 01:46:26,207
<i>Those tears that seem my eyes</i>

1756
01:46:26,333 --> 01:46:29,374
<i>I cry not for myself</i>

1757
01:46:29,500 --> 01:46:34,415
<i>But for those who never felt
the joy we felt</i>

1758
01:46:34,541 --> 01:46:36,374
<i>Whenever you're near</i>

1759
01:46:36,500 --> 01:46:39,499
<i>I hear a symphony</i>

1760
01:46:40,000 --> 01:46:43,124
<i>Each time you speak to me</i>

1761
01:46:43,250 --> 01:46:47,499
<i>I hear a tender rhapsody of love</i>

1762
01:46:47,625 --> 01:46:49,749
<i>Now, baby, baby</i>

1763
01:46:49,875 --> 01:46:53,374
<i>As you stand holding me</i>

1764
01:46:53,500 --> 01:46:56,707
<i>Whispering how much you care</i>

1765
01:46:56,833 --> 01:47:00,999
<i>A thousand violins fill the air</i>

1766
01:47:01,125 --> 01:47:03,540
<i>Now, baby, baby</i>

1767
01:47:03,666 --> 01:47:06,707
<i>Don't let this moment end</i>

1768
01:47:06,833 --> 01:47:10,165
<i>Keep standing close to me</i>

1769
01:47:10,291 --> 01:47:13,290
<i>Ooh, so close to me</i>

1770
01:47:13,416 --> 01:47:17,082
<i>Baby, baby, baby, baby</i>

1771
01:47:17,208 --> 01:47:20,374
<i>I hear a symphony</i>

1772
01:47:20,500 --> 01:47:23,665
<i>A tender melody</i>

1772
01:47:24,305 --> 01:47:30,397
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