1 00:01:40,363 --> 00:01:42,114 My name is Kathy H. 2 00:01:43,408 --> 00:01:45,284 I'm 28 years old. 3 00:01:48,580 --> 00:01:50,998 I've been a carer for nine years. 4 00:01:58,381 --> 00:02:00,340 And I'm good at my job. 5 00:02:01,176 --> 00:02:03,969 My patients always do better than expected 6 00:02:04,053 --> 00:02:06,054 and are hardly ever classified as agitated, 7 00:02:07,557 --> 00:02:10,350 even if they're about to make a donation. 8 00:02:13,354 --> 00:02:15,314 I'm not trying to boast, 9 00:02:15,398 --> 00:02:18,525 but I feel a great sense of pride in what we do. 10 00:02:19,527 --> 00:02:22,237 Carers and donors have achieved so much. 11 00:02:25,617 --> 00:02:27,868 That said, we aren't machines. 12 00:02:31,414 --> 00:02:33,624 In the end, it wears you down. 13 00:02:35,418 --> 00:02:39,880 I suppose that's why I now spend most of my time not looking forwards 14 00:02:39,964 --> 00:02:42,132 but looking back, 15 00:02:42,217 --> 00:02:45,427 to The Cottages and Hailsham, 16 00:02:46,179 --> 00:02:47,930 and what happened to us there. 17 00:02:49,432 --> 00:02:50,849 Me, 18 00:02:52,185 --> 00:02:54,102 Tommy, 19 00:02:54,771 --> 00:02:57,022 and Ruth. 20 00:02:57,440 --> 00:02:59,107 (BIRDS TWITTERING) 21 00:03:00,944 --> 00:03:02,486 (ORGAN PLAYING) 22 00:03:06,074 --> 00:03:11,662 ALL: (SINGING) When we are scattered afar and asunder 23 00:03:11,746 --> 00:03:16,500 Parted are those who are singing today 24 00:03:16,918 --> 00:03:22,089 When we look back and forgetfully wonder 25 00:03:22,340 --> 00:03:27,135 What we were like in our learning and play 26 00:03:27,762 --> 00:03:32,766 Oh, the great days will bring distance enchanted 27 00:03:33,131 --> 00:03:37,854 Days of fresh air in the rain and the sun 28 00:03:38,106 --> 00:03:43,151 How we rejoiced as we struggled and panted 29 00:03:43,319 --> 00:03:50,158 Echoes of dreamland, Hailsham lives on 30 00:03:57,083 --> 00:03:58,709 Good morning, students. 31 00:03:58,793 --> 00:04:01,670 CHILDREN: Good morning, Miss Emily. 32 00:04:02,797 --> 00:04:06,925 It has come to my attention that three burned cigarettes were discovered, 33 00:04:07,302 --> 00:04:10,387 hidden behind a pot in the flower garden. 34 00:04:12,682 --> 00:04:14,850 I know that on occasion students have seen 35 00:04:14,934 --> 00:04:18,729 some of the caretakers and deliverymen smoking cigarettes, 36 00:04:18,813 --> 00:04:23,275 but I must emphasize, once again, that it is much, much worse 37 00:04:23,359 --> 00:04:26,862 for a student of Hailsham to smoke cigarettes than anyone else. 38 00:04:29,240 --> 00:04:32,617 Students of Hailsham are special. 39 00:04:34,537 --> 00:04:38,707 Keeping yourselves well, keeping yourselves healthy inside, 40 00:04:38,791 --> 00:04:40,959 is of paramount importance. 41 00:04:41,294 --> 00:04:43,253 Have I made myself clear? 42 00:04:43,338 --> 00:04:45,464 CHILDREN: Yes, Miss Emily. 43 00:04:48,259 --> 00:04:51,720 RUTH: I think, one day, I'd like five horses. 44 00:04:52,764 --> 00:04:57,476 I don't know all their names, but I know I'd like five horses. 45 00:04:57,602 --> 00:04:59,311 The best would be Thunder. 46 00:04:59,395 --> 00:05:02,564 He'd be dangerous to ride, so you can't ride him. 47 00:05:03,649 --> 00:05:05,734 You can ride 48 00:05:06,694 --> 00:05:08,320 Bramble. 49 00:05:09,072 --> 00:05:12,157 Just so long as you don't use your crop on him. 50 00:05:13,785 --> 00:05:15,827 That's pretty. 51 00:05:15,912 --> 00:05:17,329 You have it. 52 00:05:17,413 --> 00:05:18,747 (CHUCKLES) 53 00:05:19,999 --> 00:05:22,918 Look. Who's that with Miss Emily? 54 00:05:24,420 --> 00:05:26,588 Do you think it's the new guardian? 55 00:05:26,672 --> 00:05:27,839 KATHY: Miss Lucy. 56 00:05:29,384 --> 00:05:31,301 I think it must be. 57 00:05:31,386 --> 00:05:34,012 We haven't had a new guardian for ages. 58 00:05:34,597 --> 00:05:36,348 (CHILDREN CHEERING) 59 00:05:46,443 --> 00:05:49,112 CHILDREN: (CHANTING) Arthur! Arthur! 60 00:05:53,033 --> 00:05:54,534 Catch it, Tommy. 61 00:06:09,299 --> 00:06:10,675 (LAUGHING) 62 00:06:14,596 --> 00:06:16,389 (GIRLS CHATTERING INDISTINCTLY) 63 00:06:17,266 --> 00:06:19,851 Why didn't Tommy get the ball? 64 00:06:21,603 --> 00:06:23,229 Excuse me, Miss Lucy? 65 00:06:23,647 --> 00:06:25,898 Why didn't Tommy get the ball? 66 00:06:26,733 --> 00:06:27,942 When it bounced over the fence, 67 00:06:28,026 --> 00:06:29,402 it couldn't have been far from him. 68 00:06:30,070 --> 00:06:32,447 The fence is the boundary of the Hailsham grounds. 69 00:06:32,573 --> 00:06:35,241 We don't go outside the boundary, Miss Lucy. 70 00:06:35,492 --> 00:06:37,243 It's too dangerous. 71 00:06:37,703 --> 00:06:39,162 Dangerous? 72 00:06:39,246 --> 00:06:41,873 RUTH: There was once a boy who had a big row with all his friends 73 00:06:41,957 --> 00:06:44,333 and then ran off beyond the boundary. 74 00:06:44,418 --> 00:06:48,629 They found him, two days later, in the woods. Tied to a tree. 75 00:06:49,173 --> 00:06:50,756 With his hands and feet cut off. 76 00:06:51,550 --> 00:06:52,800 Dead. 77 00:06:53,594 --> 00:06:55,553 RUTH: And there was the girl who climbed over the fence, 78 00:06:55,637 --> 00:06:56,971 by the front gate. 79 00:06:57,055 --> 00:07:00,308 And when she tried to get back, she wasn't allowed. 80 00:07:00,601 --> 00:07:03,227 And then she starved. Out there. 81 00:07:03,937 --> 00:07:05,688 Right by the gates. 82 00:07:08,442 --> 00:07:09,609 Who told you these stories? 83 00:07:10,152 --> 00:07:12,195 RUTH: Everybody knows them. 84 00:07:12,446 --> 00:07:14,113 And how do you know they're true? 85 00:07:14,448 --> 00:07:15,448 Of course they're true. 86 00:07:16,033 --> 00:07:18,826 Who'd make up stories as horrible as that? 87 00:07:20,120 --> 00:07:21,913 (SCHOOL BELL RINGING) 88 00:07:26,251 --> 00:07:28,628 (CHILDREN CHATTERING INDISTINCTLY) 89 00:07:45,562 --> 00:07:48,356 Tommy, what are you doing? 90 00:07:48,649 --> 00:07:50,775 What is it, exactly? 91 00:07:50,859 --> 00:07:53,653 I think it must be a dog. Is it a dog, Tommy? 92 00:07:54,029 --> 00:07:56,572 ARTHUR: It can't be a dog. lts eyes are too small. 93 00:07:56,782 --> 00:07:59,158 I think it must be a kind of rat. 94 00:07:59,243 --> 00:08:01,035 Yes, that's it. Tommy's drawn a rat. 95 00:08:01,119 --> 00:08:02,203 It's not finished yet. 96 00:08:02,287 --> 00:08:04,288 That's right. You haven't finished the whiskers. 97 00:08:04,373 --> 00:08:06,332 Do you think Tommy's rat will be selected for The Gallery? 98 00:08:06,416 --> 00:08:07,959 TOMMY: It's not a rat. 99 00:08:10,712 --> 00:08:12,338 It's an elephant. 100 00:08:12,464 --> 00:08:14,340 GERALDINE: Children, back to work. 101 00:08:23,475 --> 00:08:25,309 (DEVICE BEEPS) 102 00:08:27,646 --> 00:08:29,355 (CHILDREN LAUGHING) 103 00:08:34,027 --> 00:08:36,571 (INDISTINCT CHATTERING) 104 00:08:44,454 --> 00:08:47,582 He's got his shirt on. His favorite polo shirt. 105 00:08:48,834 --> 00:08:51,210 RUTH: He really doesn't suspect a thing. 106 00:08:51,295 --> 00:08:52,878 (GIRLS LAUGHING) 107 00:08:53,213 --> 00:08:55,506 BOY: Looks like no one wants you, Tommy. 108 00:08:56,133 --> 00:08:57,675 (BOYS LAUGHING) 109 00:09:02,889 --> 00:09:04,265 (YELLING) 110 00:09:04,349 --> 00:09:05,933 (GIRLS LAUGHING) 111 00:09:06,810 --> 00:09:08,644 What's he doing? 112 00:09:08,770 --> 00:09:10,146 (YELLING CONTINUES) It's his own fault. 113 00:09:10,230 --> 00:09:13,691 If he learnt to keep his cool, they'd leave him alone. 114 00:09:13,859 --> 00:09:15,818 TOMMY: I hate you! I hate you all! 115 00:09:15,902 --> 00:09:17,111 GIRL: Kath... No, don't! 116 00:09:18,905 --> 00:09:20,448 (YELLING STOPS) 117 00:09:20,574 --> 00:09:21,824 (SOBBING) 118 00:09:28,248 --> 00:09:30,041 You shouldn't have... (GASPS) 119 00:09:50,062 --> 00:09:51,937 (INDISTINCT CHATTERING) 120 00:09:52,272 --> 00:09:54,106 Kathy H. 121 00:10:07,287 --> 00:10:08,954 What's this from? 122 00:10:09,623 --> 00:10:11,290 I don't remember. 123 00:10:11,458 --> 00:10:13,334 Doctor? 124 00:10:20,634 --> 00:10:22,802 It's nothing. Just a bruise. 125 00:10:29,393 --> 00:10:31,102 LUCY: Hello. 126 00:10:31,603 --> 00:10:33,646 Kathy. Kathy H. 127 00:10:34,398 --> 00:10:36,816 Of course. Kathy H. 128 00:10:37,484 --> 00:10:39,026 Come in. 129 00:10:45,033 --> 00:10:46,575 So what can I do for you? 130 00:10:47,994 --> 00:10:49,453 Well, 131 00:10:50,288 --> 00:10:53,332 I was wondering what you said to Tommy. 132 00:10:54,459 --> 00:10:56,460 Out on the playing fields. 133 00:10:56,545 --> 00:10:58,546 I see. Oh. 134 00:10:59,464 --> 00:11:01,132 So what did I say? 135 00:11:03,677 --> 00:11:06,053 I believe I was trying to calm him down. 136 00:11:06,138 --> 00:11:08,013 Because he seemed upset. 137 00:11:08,515 --> 00:11:12,101 He explained he was often teased about sport and art, 138 00:11:12,185 --> 00:11:15,521 so I told him he shouldn't get upset about these things. 139 00:11:15,939 --> 00:11:19,567 The other children are only teasing him to get a reaction. 140 00:11:21,653 --> 00:11:24,363 And if it happens that he's not particularly good at sport or art, 141 00:11:24,448 --> 00:11:26,490 well, that doesn't matter. 142 00:11:27,284 --> 00:11:29,160 It's not so important. 143 00:11:34,875 --> 00:11:36,375 Thank you. 144 00:11:59,107 --> 00:12:00,566 Kathy. 145 00:12:03,570 --> 00:12:04,987 Aren't you sitting with the girls? 146 00:12:05,071 --> 00:12:06,071 Well, I just checked 147 00:12:06,531 --> 00:12:08,783 and I'm pretty sure I'm not sitting with the girls. 148 00:12:08,867 --> 00:12:10,117 I'm sitting with you. 149 00:12:12,412 --> 00:12:13,954 I wanted to say 150 00:12:16,208 --> 00:12:17,875 I'm sorry. 151 00:12:19,252 --> 00:12:21,253 I didn't mean to hit you. 152 00:12:22,422 --> 00:12:26,008 I mean, I wouldn't want to hit any girl. 153 00:12:28,804 --> 00:12:30,471 But particularly not you. 154 00:12:31,932 --> 00:12:34,725 Well, it was an accident, that's all. 155 00:12:36,937 --> 00:12:39,522 GERALDINE: Tommy, finish those vegetables. 156 00:12:56,957 --> 00:12:59,375 I'm not gonna get angry like that anymore. 157 00:12:59,459 --> 00:13:03,254 Because of what Miss Lucy told you, about being creative? 158 00:13:03,338 --> 00:13:04,922 How do you know about that? 159 00:13:05,006 --> 00:13:06,048 I'm nosey. 160 00:13:09,469 --> 00:13:13,681 She can't actually mean that being creative isn't important, can she? 161 00:13:13,849 --> 00:13:16,058 I mean, what about The Gallery? 162 00:13:16,142 --> 00:13:18,143 If being creative isn't important, 163 00:13:18,228 --> 00:13:20,229 then why have a gallery at all? 164 00:13:23,024 --> 00:13:24,483 I don't know. 165 00:13:29,489 --> 00:13:32,993 ...by arching her back, or perhaps with the aid of a pillow, 166 00:13:33,911 --> 00:13:35,912 the woman can arrange herself... 167 00:13:44,505 --> 00:13:46,548 (SINGING ON SCREEN) 168 00:13:51,429 --> 00:13:54,097 (SINGING) Smile 169 00:14:08,279 --> 00:14:09,696 Good morning, ma'am. 170 00:14:09,780 --> 00:14:10,947 Good morning. 171 00:14:11,032 --> 00:14:12,532 Can I help you? 172 00:14:12,617 --> 00:14:15,535 I wanted one tea, with milk and sugar in it. 173 00:14:16,287 --> 00:14:18,830 One tea. Right. 174 00:14:25,338 --> 00:14:26,880 LUCY: Tommy. 175 00:14:26,964 --> 00:14:29,549 Oh! One tea with milk and sugar in it, please. 176 00:14:29,884 --> 00:14:31,885 (CHILDREN CHUCKLING) No, Tommy. 177 00:14:34,472 --> 00:14:36,681 I want to hear your own order. 178 00:14:36,766 --> 00:14:38,433 Don't simply repeat the one you've just heard. 179 00:14:39,226 --> 00:14:42,062 What other drinks do they serve in cafes? 180 00:14:42,146 --> 00:14:43,480 Water. 181 00:14:43,564 --> 00:14:45,273 (CHILDREN LAUGHING) 182 00:14:45,566 --> 00:14:46,566 (LAUGHTER STOPS) 183 00:14:46,651 --> 00:14:47,651 (WHISPERING) Coffee. 184 00:14:47,735 --> 00:14:48,735 Coffee. 185 00:14:50,613 --> 00:14:51,905 LUCY: So, then. 186 00:14:52,782 --> 00:14:54,074 So, then, 187 00:14:55,242 --> 00:14:57,911 one coffee, please, with milk and sugar in it. 188 00:15:03,793 --> 00:15:05,126 (SOFTLY) Thank you. 189 00:15:10,716 --> 00:15:12,175 (OWL HOOTING) 190 00:15:14,136 --> 00:15:16,096 RUTH: (WHISPERING) I think Laura likes Arthur. 191 00:15:16,931 --> 00:15:19,557 KATHY: (WHISPERING) All the girls like Arthur, don't they? 192 00:15:20,434 --> 00:15:21,935 Maybe. 193 00:15:23,437 --> 00:15:24,854 I'm not sure you do. 194 00:15:26,232 --> 00:15:28,358 He's not my type. 195 00:15:28,442 --> 00:15:31,695 I think Laura and Arthur will be the first in our year to have sex 196 00:15:31,779 --> 00:15:35,240 because, if Arthur wants to, Laura wouldn't stop him. 197 00:15:35,950 --> 00:15:38,118 I'm sure you're right. 198 00:15:42,456 --> 00:15:43,915 Tommy's changed. 199 00:15:44,917 --> 00:15:46,334 Changed how? 200 00:15:47,628 --> 00:15:49,129 Just changed. 201 00:15:50,297 --> 00:15:51,673 That's all. 202 00:16:22,079 --> 00:16:24,664 EMILY: What about this one by Madeleine Kane? 203 00:16:25,041 --> 00:16:28,334 I think it shows more than technical ability. 204 00:16:28,502 --> 00:16:31,046 It gives a real insight into the child. 205 00:16:31,172 --> 00:16:34,215 Which is precisely what Marie-Claude wants for The Gallery. 206 00:16:34,300 --> 00:16:36,092 GERALDINE: Yes, I agree. 207 00:16:39,847 --> 00:16:40,930 Mmm. 208 00:16:41,474 --> 00:16:43,349 EMILY: Put these two together. 209 00:16:44,435 --> 00:16:46,061 (WHISPERING) Madame is coming. 210 00:17:36,695 --> 00:17:38,404 EMILY: Good morning, students. 211 00:17:38,531 --> 00:17:41,533 CHILDREN: Good morning, Miss Emily. 212 00:17:42,910 --> 00:17:45,620 There are several points of order today. 213 00:17:45,704 --> 00:17:49,457 The first is that our good friend, Madame Marie-Claude, is visiting us. 214 00:17:49,625 --> 00:17:53,837 She will, as usual, be carefully inspecting your artwork and poetry 215 00:17:54,004 --> 00:17:57,966 and selecting the very best pieces for inclusion in her Gallery. 216 00:17:58,384 --> 00:18:00,844 We will, of course, extend to her every courtesy 217 00:18:00,928 --> 00:18:03,596 and make her feel most welcome. 218 00:18:03,931 --> 00:18:07,517 Second point of order, a piece of good news for all students 219 00:18:07,601 --> 00:18:10,478 who have been diligent in collecting tokens. 220 00:18:10,855 --> 00:18:13,690 After studies tomorrow, there will be a sale. 221 00:18:13,774 --> 00:18:14,816 (CHILDREN CHATTERING EXCITEDLY) 222 00:18:14,900 --> 00:18:17,277 The delivery will arrive in the morning, 223 00:18:17,403 --> 00:18:19,737 and I was assured by the van driver 224 00:18:19,822 --> 00:18:23,074 that the boxes will contain a bumper crop. 225 00:18:23,534 --> 00:18:25,034 (ALL CHEERING) 226 00:18:31,292 --> 00:18:33,126 (SCHOOL BELL RINGING) 227 00:18:50,978 --> 00:18:53,396 (CHILDREN CHATTERING INDISTINCTLY) 228 00:19:01,363 --> 00:19:03,031 (CLATTERS) 229 00:19:11,332 --> 00:19:12,749 (CHATTERING EXCITEDLY) 230 00:19:12,833 --> 00:19:14,959 Is it really a bumper crop? 231 00:19:16,337 --> 00:19:19,756 I should say so. Yeah, sweetheart. It's a bumper crop. 232 00:19:20,049 --> 00:19:21,799 (CHILDREN CHEERING) 233 00:19:37,524 --> 00:19:39,442 (INDISTINCT CHATTERING) 234 00:20:24,571 --> 00:20:25,947 Hey. 235 00:20:27,157 --> 00:20:28,825 Aren't you buying? 236 00:20:29,201 --> 00:20:32,662 If you've already spent all your tokens, you can have some of mine. 237 00:20:32,913 --> 00:20:36,499 I have tokens. I was just gonna wait till the rush died down. 238 00:20:36,583 --> 00:20:39,335 I'm sure there'll be something good left. 239 00:20:40,462 --> 00:20:42,422 What's the matter, Kath? 240 00:20:46,260 --> 00:20:47,802 Well, anyway, it doesn't matter 241 00:20:47,886 --> 00:20:50,430 if you can't find anything in the sale 242 00:20:50,514 --> 00:20:54,142 because I already found you something. 243 00:20:56,854 --> 00:20:58,313 KATHY: A music tape. 244 00:20:58,397 --> 00:21:02,025 I don't know much about it, if it's much good or anything. 245 00:21:06,238 --> 00:21:07,697 Thank you. 246 00:21:07,781 --> 00:21:10,616 (NEVER LET ME GO PLAYING ON TAPE RECORDER) 247 00:21:13,454 --> 00:21:15,455 * Darling * 248 00:21:18,292 --> 00:21:29,136 * Hold me * 249 00:21:29,220 --> 00:21:30,804 * And never * 250 00:21:31,848 --> 00:21:35,642 * Never * 251 00:21:36,311 --> 00:21:39,938 * Let me go * 252 00:21:49,282 --> 00:21:51,533 * Darling * 253 00:21:53,661 --> 00:22:04,922 * Kiss me * 254 00:22:05,006 --> 00:22:06,882 * And never * 255 00:22:07,384 --> 00:22:11,512 * Never * 256 00:22:11,971 --> 00:22:16,683 * Let me go * 257 00:22:20,021 --> 00:22:21,688 (THUNDER RUMBLING) 258 00:22:47,799 --> 00:22:49,633 The problem is 259 00:22:50,760 --> 00:22:54,012 you've been told and not told. 260 00:22:54,848 --> 00:22:57,349 That's what I've seen while I've been here. 261 00:22:58,685 --> 00:23:00,602 You've been told 262 00:23:00,895 --> 00:23:03,522 but none of you really understand. 263 00:23:04,524 --> 00:23:08,652 So I've decided I'll talk to you in a way that you will understand. 264 00:23:12,323 --> 00:23:14,616 Do you know what happens to children when they grow up? 265 00:23:17,370 --> 00:23:21,081 No, you don't, because nobody knows. 266 00:23:23,418 --> 00:23:25,961 They might grow up to become actors, 267 00:23:26,963 --> 00:23:28,922 move to America. 268 00:23:30,675 --> 00:23:33,177 Or they might work in supermarkets. 269 00:23:33,845 --> 00:23:35,596 Or teach in schools. 270 00:23:36,681 --> 00:23:41,518 They might become sportsmen or bus conductors or racing car drivers. 271 00:23:41,769 --> 00:23:44,188 They might do almost anything. 272 00:23:46,524 --> 00:23:48,484 But with you we do know. 273 00:23:51,613 --> 00:23:53,906 None of you will go to America. 274 00:23:55,700 --> 00:23:58,660 None of you will work in supermarkets. 275 00:24:00,914 --> 00:24:03,207 None of you will do anything except live the life 276 00:24:03,291 --> 00:24:05,501 that has already been set out for you. 277 00:24:08,129 --> 00:24:10,214 You will become adults, 278 00:24:11,966 --> 00:24:13,634 but only briefly. 279 00:24:17,096 --> 00:24:18,805 Before you are old, 280 00:24:20,391 --> 00:24:22,726 before you are even middle-aged, 281 00:24:23,144 --> 00:24:26,480 you will start to donate your vital organs. 282 00:24:28,983 --> 00:24:31,485 That's what you were created to do. 283 00:24:33,988 --> 00:24:38,492 And sometime around your third or fourth donation, 284 00:24:39,577 --> 00:24:42,329 your short life will be complete. 285 00:24:44,082 --> 00:24:48,418 You have to know who you are and what you are. 286 00:24:49,379 --> 00:24:52,548 It's the only way you'll lead decent lives. 287 00:25:43,808 --> 00:25:46,977 There will be only one announcement this morning, 288 00:25:48,229 --> 00:25:49,771 which is that Miss Lucy, 289 00:25:49,856 --> 00:25:52,274 who was guardian to the fourth-year students, 290 00:25:52,650 --> 00:25:55,027 is no longer working at Hailsham. 291 00:25:55,111 --> 00:25:57,446 (CHILDREN MUTTERING INDISTINCTLY) 292 00:25:58,948 --> 00:26:01,825 A replacement will be found for her, and in the meantime 293 00:26:01,909 --> 00:26:05,912 her classes will be divided between Miss Geraldine and myself. 294 00:26:08,041 --> 00:26:10,584 It is hard, is it not, 295 00:26:11,127 --> 00:26:15,130 to continue in the face of deliberate subversion. 296 00:26:16,924 --> 00:26:20,927 There are those who seek to thwart us, this is clear. 297 00:26:21,346 --> 00:26:25,015 And we are aware that the tide is not with forward thinking. 298 00:26:25,099 --> 00:26:26,433 It never is. 299 00:26:27,602 --> 00:26:31,355 No, the tide is with the entrenched mindset. 300 00:26:31,439 --> 00:26:34,066 With values that are still unexamined. 301 00:26:36,819 --> 00:26:39,196 But I will not be coerced. 302 00:26:44,118 --> 00:26:46,286 I will not be coerced. 303 00:26:49,248 --> 00:26:51,625 And neither will Hailsham. 304 00:27:16,317 --> 00:27:18,568 (RUTH CHATTERING INDISTINCTLY) 305 00:27:56,149 --> 00:28:00,694 KATHY: I didn't understand why, after all her teasing, 306 00:28:01,696 --> 00:28:05,907 Ruth would decide that Tommy was the boy she liked most of all. 307 00:28:14,792 --> 00:28:18,170 They say girls are always mean to the boys they like. 308 00:28:21,883 --> 00:28:24,551 So maybe Ruth had liked him all along. 309 00:28:29,557 --> 00:28:32,434 Maybe I should have teased him, too. 310 00:28:46,657 --> 00:28:49,075 I kept hoping they would separate, 311 00:28:49,285 --> 00:28:53,038 like the other childhood and teenage romances at the school. 312 00:28:59,003 --> 00:29:00,545 They never did. 313 00:29:19,149 --> 00:29:20,817 (BIRDS TWITTERING) 314 00:29:34,957 --> 00:29:37,708 We were moved from Hailsham at 18 315 00:29:37,793 --> 00:29:40,211 and sent to various accommodations around the country, 316 00:29:40,295 --> 00:29:43,548 to wait until we were old enough to start the donations. 317 00:29:46,385 --> 00:29:48,177 Tommy, Ruth and I 318 00:29:48,262 --> 00:29:52,223 were sent to a collection of farm buildings called The Cottages. 319 00:29:58,063 --> 00:29:59,730 During our stay there, we were told 320 00:29:59,815 --> 00:30:03,442 that some of us would be permitted to volunteer as carers. 321 00:30:05,696 --> 00:30:09,824 But, apart from that, we'd be left largely to our own devices 322 00:30:09,908 --> 00:30:14,120 and even allowed to take day trips into the surrounding countryside. 323 00:30:19,167 --> 00:30:21,085 The Cottages were also our first contact 324 00:30:21,169 --> 00:30:24,088 with those who had not grown up at Hailsham. 325 00:30:24,339 --> 00:30:26,340 There were people from White Mansion, 326 00:30:26,842 --> 00:30:31,387 Oakhill, Morningdale and other homes I'd never heard of. 327 00:30:34,308 --> 00:30:38,019 Everyone seemed wiser and more worldly than us. 328 00:30:40,564 --> 00:30:43,524 None more so than Rodney and Chrissie. 329 00:30:43,609 --> 00:30:46,319 They'd already been at The Cottages for over a year 330 00:30:46,403 --> 00:30:49,614 and would soon be leaving for the completion centers. 331 00:30:49,698 --> 00:30:52,450 GIRL ON TV: Ricky? I don't know what you're talking about. 332 00:30:52,534 --> 00:30:54,410 Oh, I can help you out there. 333 00:30:54,494 --> 00:30:58,414 He's talking about blue eyes, blond hair, cute dimples when he smiles. 334 00:30:58,498 --> 00:31:01,208 And biceps that could crack walnuts. 335 00:31:01,293 --> 00:31:02,793 (ALL LAUGHING) 336 00:31:03,795 --> 00:31:05,713 BOY: Jennifer, get real, I saw you with him. 337 00:31:05,797 --> 00:31:09,383 Jen and Ricky sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G. 338 00:31:10,218 --> 00:31:12,762 That is so not true. 339 00:31:15,057 --> 00:31:16,557 We weren't in a tree. 340 00:31:16,725 --> 00:31:18,476 (ALL LAUGH) 341 00:31:20,604 --> 00:31:22,730 (AUDIENCE APPLAUDING ON TV) 342 00:31:34,326 --> 00:31:35,743 Hey. 343 00:31:39,790 --> 00:31:41,582 Where you going? 344 00:31:42,250 --> 00:31:44,377 I thought I'd go for a walk. 345 00:31:44,753 --> 00:31:48,756 Does that mean you want to be alone? 346 00:31:59,351 --> 00:32:00,685 (CHUCKLES) 347 00:32:19,913 --> 00:32:21,914 I'm not even saying that I'll apply to be a carer. 348 00:32:21,999 --> 00:32:24,250 Just that several people have said that I'd be good at it. 349 00:32:24,584 --> 00:32:26,460 But then Laura went around telling everyone 350 00:32:26,545 --> 00:32:29,046 that I'd been saying I was the most likely to get selected. 351 00:32:29,131 --> 00:32:30,214 That's so not true. 352 00:32:30,298 --> 00:32:31,757 So not true. 353 00:32:32,134 --> 00:32:33,718 Thank you. 354 00:32:33,802 --> 00:32:36,303 (INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC PLAYING ON RADIO) 355 00:32:36,680 --> 00:32:38,639 RUTH: I'm getting more plates. 356 00:32:40,308 --> 00:32:42,143 CHRISSIE: (LAUGHING) Is there anything left for us? 357 00:32:42,269 --> 00:32:44,270 (BOTH LAUGHING) I don't know. 358 00:32:46,648 --> 00:32:48,024 CHRISSIE: Perhaps not. 359 00:32:49,484 --> 00:32:51,736 Ruth, why do you do that thing? 360 00:32:52,487 --> 00:32:53,863 Squeezing Tommy's shoulder. 361 00:32:56,199 --> 00:32:57,825 I'm allowed to touch Tommy, aren't I? 362 00:32:57,909 --> 00:33:00,161 It's the way you're touching him. 363 00:33:00,245 --> 00:33:02,663 You know what I mean. It's copied from that television show. 364 00:33:03,832 --> 00:33:04,832 That's so not... 365 00:33:04,916 --> 00:33:07,460 Don't tell me "that's so not true." 366 00:33:09,463 --> 00:33:12,423 All that behavior, that's not what people do out there, in real life, 367 00:33:12,507 --> 00:33:13,758 if that's what you were thinking. 368 00:33:13,842 --> 00:33:16,927 So what? Look, it's no big deal. A lot of us do it. 369 00:33:17,012 --> 00:33:19,096 What you mean is Chrissie and Rod do it. 370 00:33:20,182 --> 00:33:22,016 Oh, Kathy. 371 00:33:24,770 --> 00:33:26,979 So that's what this is about. 372 00:33:27,939 --> 00:33:29,023 It must be really awful for you, 373 00:33:29,107 --> 00:33:30,566 surrounded by all these couples. 374 00:33:31,151 --> 00:33:34,945 I never said that. I just think it's daft. 375 00:33:35,655 --> 00:33:38,240 You copy them, and they copy from a television show. 376 00:33:38,325 --> 00:33:40,409 I'm right, aren't I? 377 00:33:41,369 --> 00:33:45,748 You don't like the fact that Tommy and I are friends with Chrissie and Rod, 378 00:33:45,832 --> 00:33:47,708 whereas you hardly speak to anyone. 379 00:33:50,712 --> 00:33:53,714 No. You're not right. 380 00:33:54,925 --> 00:33:56,801 "So" not right? 381 00:34:16,238 --> 00:34:18,072 Thank you, Mr. Keffers. 382 00:34:25,622 --> 00:34:27,039 (WHISTLING) 383 00:34:36,216 --> 00:34:37,842 (HEAVY BREATHING) 384 00:35:00,073 --> 00:35:01,740 (THUNDER RUMBLING) 385 00:35:24,639 --> 00:35:26,140 Hello, Tommy. 386 00:35:26,975 --> 00:35:28,726 Hello, Kath. 387 00:35:28,810 --> 00:35:30,144 (CHUCKLING) 388 00:35:32,189 --> 00:35:36,317 Well, don't just hover in the doorway. Come in. Join the fun. 389 00:35:37,944 --> 00:35:40,654 Didn't know you liked that sort of stuff. 390 00:35:41,948 --> 00:35:43,699 You're very welcome to them after I've finished. 391 00:35:44,159 --> 00:35:46,285 Oh, no, it's just sex stuff. 392 00:35:46,828 --> 00:35:49,663 I expect I've seen them all already anyway. 393 00:35:54,669 --> 00:35:56,086 Kathy, what are you looking for? 394 00:35:56,838 --> 00:36:00,174 What do you mean? I'm just looking at dirty pictures. 395 00:36:01,509 --> 00:36:02,593 What, just for kicks? 396 00:36:02,677 --> 00:36:05,137 I suppose you could say that, yes. 397 00:36:11,019 --> 00:36:14,480 If it's just for kicks, then you don't do it like that. 398 00:36:15,690 --> 00:36:18,317 You need to look at each picture more carefully. 399 00:36:18,526 --> 00:36:20,861 Nothing really happens if you go that fast. 400 00:36:21,154 --> 00:36:23,489 How do you know what works for girls? 401 00:36:25,700 --> 00:36:28,202 Kath, you're not looking for kicks. 402 00:36:32,165 --> 00:36:35,960 Here, give it to Ruth. See if it does anything for her. 403 00:36:50,725 --> 00:36:55,729 Hi. 404 00:36:58,149 --> 00:37:00,526 I suppose you've heard what Rod and Chrissie have been saying. 405 00:37:01,569 --> 00:37:03,070 No, I haven't. 406 00:37:08,243 --> 00:37:10,286 Well, you know that Rod and Chrissie 407 00:37:10,370 --> 00:37:11,830 have been thinking of applying to be carers, 408 00:37:11,914 --> 00:37:12,914 so they've been learning how to drive. 409 00:37:12,999 --> 00:37:13,999 Yeah. 410 00:37:14,083 --> 00:37:18,753 Well, last weekend, they went up to a town on the Norfolk coast, 411 00:37:19,547 --> 00:37:22,257 and they think they saw this person. 412 00:37:22,425 --> 00:37:23,842 What kind of person? 413 00:37:25,011 --> 00:37:26,553 A lady 414 00:37:27,722 --> 00:37:29,180 working in an office. 415 00:37:29,724 --> 00:37:30,890 And... 416 00:37:32,643 --> 00:37:34,269 What is it, Ruth? 417 00:37:36,105 --> 00:37:39,024 But they thought this person was a Possible. 418 00:37:41,402 --> 00:37:43,153 For me. 419 00:37:43,863 --> 00:37:45,196 They found your Original? 420 00:37:45,281 --> 00:37:47,615 They aren't sure, obviously, 421 00:37:47,700 --> 00:37:50,702 (EXCITEDLY) but Rodney said that the resemblance was really striking. 422 00:37:50,786 --> 00:37:53,079 Oh, my God. Ruth! I know. 423 00:37:54,332 --> 00:37:58,001 They want to drive me back up there so that I can see for myself. 424 00:37:58,127 --> 00:38:00,378 Tommy will come, but... 425 00:38:00,713 --> 00:38:02,130 Do you want me to come? 426 00:38:05,634 --> 00:38:07,594 Ruth, of course. 427 00:38:17,813 --> 00:38:21,900 So, exactly how much experience have you guys had with the outside? 428 00:38:22,777 --> 00:38:23,818 Quite a lot. 429 00:38:23,903 --> 00:38:25,320 No, we haven't. 430 00:38:26,989 --> 00:38:30,075 We did a lot of role-playing exercises at Hailsham. 431 00:38:30,159 --> 00:38:31,826 They don't count. 432 00:38:32,203 --> 00:38:35,455 RODNEY: Okay. Well, don't feel scared. 433 00:38:35,581 --> 00:38:38,583 Okay? There's really... There's nothing to it. 434 00:38:40,378 --> 00:38:42,003 We aren't scared. 435 00:38:42,838 --> 00:38:44,297 Good. 436 00:38:49,970 --> 00:38:51,930 (MUSIC PLAYING ON RADIO) 437 00:39:07,488 --> 00:39:08,947 I'll get sausage, egg and chips. 438 00:39:13,494 --> 00:39:14,619 (SOFTLY) Sausage, egg and chips, please. 439 00:39:14,703 --> 00:39:15,787 Yes, sausage, egg and chips. 440 00:39:15,871 --> 00:39:17,914 Sausage, egg and chips, me, too, please. 441 00:39:19,083 --> 00:39:22,252 Well, I suppose I'd better get sausage, egg and chips, too, then. 442 00:39:22,336 --> 00:39:26,464 Five sausage, egg and chips. Drinks? 443 00:39:29,218 --> 00:39:30,718 Five Cokes, please. 444 00:39:37,309 --> 00:39:38,893 (GIRLS LAUGHING) 445 00:39:45,234 --> 00:39:47,527 CHRISSIE: It was good. It was really good. 446 00:39:47,611 --> 00:39:48,987 (LAUGHING CONTINUES) 447 00:39:49,071 --> 00:39:50,280 What? Sorry. 448 00:39:55,035 --> 00:39:59,372 You know, there's something I've been wanting to talk to you lot about. 449 00:40:00,708 --> 00:40:03,001 The problem is that back there at The Cottages it's impossible. 450 00:40:03,085 --> 00:40:05,420 Someone's always listening in. 451 00:40:06,755 --> 00:40:08,173 CHRISSIE: So, 452 00:40:10,885 --> 00:40:13,178 someone was saying that some Hailsham students in the past 453 00:40:13,262 --> 00:40:15,930 have managed to get a deferral. 454 00:40:16,098 --> 00:40:17,599 Apparently those Hailsham students 455 00:40:17,683 --> 00:40:20,768 could have their first donation put back by three 456 00:40:21,479 --> 00:40:23,897 or even four years. 457 00:40:27,276 --> 00:40:29,277 As long as they qualified. 458 00:40:30,196 --> 00:40:32,405 If there was a boy and a girl, 459 00:40:32,823 --> 00:40:34,824 and they were in love with each other, 460 00:40:34,909 --> 00:40:38,745 really properly in love, and they could prove it, 461 00:40:39,413 --> 00:40:42,332 then they would be given a few years together 462 00:40:42,541 --> 00:40:44,959 before they began their donations. 463 00:40:48,130 --> 00:40:50,381 Where did you hear about this? 464 00:40:51,258 --> 00:40:52,634 When we were at White Mansion. 465 00:40:52,760 --> 00:40:54,928 People there were always going on about this Hailsham couple. 466 00:40:55,596 --> 00:40:57,180 When the guy was only a few weeks from donation, 467 00:40:57,264 --> 00:41:00,767 he just went to see someone. He applied, and everything got sorted out. 468 00:41:01,519 --> 00:41:05,271 I suppose you lot would know about that sort of thing. 469 00:41:05,356 --> 00:41:09,150 Being from Hailsham, you'd know how that sort of thing works. 470 00:41:09,735 --> 00:41:12,153 Who is it you go to? 471 00:41:13,155 --> 00:41:16,658 Who would we talk to if we wanted to apply? 472 00:41:25,084 --> 00:41:26,960 To be honest, I don't know what you're talking about. 473 00:41:28,796 --> 00:41:30,505 Come on. 474 00:41:32,174 --> 00:41:33,508 Do you expect us to believe that? 475 00:41:33,592 --> 00:41:36,427 Everybody knows Hailsham is special. 476 00:41:37,012 --> 00:41:38,680 So what is it? 477 00:41:39,974 --> 00:41:42,559 Why keep these things to yourself? 478 00:41:49,024 --> 00:41:51,693 There were lots of stories at Hailsham. 479 00:41:52,653 --> 00:41:56,155 I don't think many of them turned out to be true. 480 00:42:16,802 --> 00:42:18,303 (GULLS CAWING) 481 00:42:22,891 --> 00:42:24,809 It may be down here. 482 00:42:34,903 --> 00:42:36,279 Yeah. 483 00:42:36,739 --> 00:42:38,072 That's it. 484 00:42:44,079 --> 00:42:45,955 (INDISTINCT CHATTERING) 485 00:43:04,516 --> 00:43:06,267 God, it must be her. 486 00:43:07,102 --> 00:43:09,562 Yeah, that's her. 487 00:43:09,730 --> 00:43:11,314 (INDISTINCT) 488 00:43:35,923 --> 00:43:37,548 RUTH: It's not her. 489 00:43:39,176 --> 00:43:41,177 I'm not her. No, you're not. 490 00:43:41,470 --> 00:43:42,887 It was really close, though. 491 00:43:42,971 --> 00:43:45,556 Oh, shut up, Tommy! It wasn't close. It wasn't close at all. 492 00:43:45,641 --> 00:43:48,976 And I knew it wasn't gonna be her before we even got here! 493 00:43:49,478 --> 00:43:51,187 It was never gonna be her. 494 00:43:51,313 --> 00:43:54,357 They never, ever model us on people like that woman. 495 00:43:54,441 --> 00:43:56,067 Ruth, don't. What? 496 00:43:56,694 --> 00:43:58,820 We all know it, we just never say it. 497 00:44:00,114 --> 00:44:02,407 We are modeled on trash. 498 00:44:02,533 --> 00:44:06,494 Junkies, prostitutes, winos, tramps. 499 00:44:07,121 --> 00:44:10,206 Convicts, maybe, as long as they aren't psychos. 500 00:44:11,333 --> 00:44:15,336 If you want to look for Possibles, if you want to do it properly, 501 00:44:17,506 --> 00:44:18,715 look in the gutter. 502 00:44:20,634 --> 00:44:22,635 That's where we came from. 503 00:44:50,205 --> 00:44:54,584 Hey. 504 00:44:59,673 --> 00:45:00,882 (SIGHS) 505 00:45:26,075 --> 00:45:28,076 We should go back. 506 00:46:21,923 --> 00:46:23,423 (DEVICE BEEPS) 507 00:46:44,487 --> 00:46:45,487 (DOOR CLOSING) 508 00:46:45,780 --> 00:46:47,906 (RUTH SHOUTING INDISTINCTLY) 509 00:46:49,909 --> 00:46:50,909 (THUDDING) 510 00:46:50,994 --> 00:46:53,620 RUTH: Don't tell me to calm down! 511 00:46:54,581 --> 00:46:56,915 You walked down the pier and you left me there. 512 00:46:57,000 --> 00:46:58,667 You knew I was well upset. 513 00:46:58,751 --> 00:46:59,751 (THUDDING) 514 00:47:02,338 --> 00:47:03,547 (CHIRPS) 515 00:47:11,514 --> 00:47:12,514 BOY: Out here. 516 00:47:12,932 --> 00:47:14,474 (GIRL LAUGHING) 517 00:47:17,145 --> 00:47:18,645 (DOOR OPENING) 518 00:47:20,064 --> 00:47:21,565 (DOOR CLOSING) 519 00:47:27,655 --> 00:47:32,117 Chrissie and Rod are pretty obsessed about this rumor, aren't they? 520 00:47:32,201 --> 00:47:34,161 About the deferrals? Mmm. 521 00:47:36,331 --> 00:47:39,374 I was thinking about it again last night, 522 00:47:39,876 --> 00:47:41,835 and if this rumor's true 523 00:47:43,046 --> 00:47:45,297 it might explain a few things. 524 00:47:45,673 --> 00:47:47,132 Such as? Well, 525 00:47:48,718 --> 00:47:50,135 The Gallery, for instance. 526 00:47:50,219 --> 00:47:53,931 We never got to the bottom of it, what The Gallery was for. 527 00:47:54,307 --> 00:47:56,475 Pictures, poetry and sculpture. 528 00:47:56,559 --> 00:47:58,101 Say something about yourself. 529 00:47:58,269 --> 00:48:00,437 That's the whole point about art, isn't it? 530 00:48:00,521 --> 00:48:03,774 It says what's inside of you. It reveals your soul. 531 00:48:04,233 --> 00:48:05,817 Yeah. So? 532 00:48:07,946 --> 00:48:09,154 (SIGHS) 533 00:48:15,662 --> 00:48:19,748 Suppose for a second that the rumor is true. 534 00:48:19,916 --> 00:48:23,043 That there is a special arrangement for Hailsham students, 535 00:48:23,127 --> 00:48:24,670 if they're in love. 536 00:48:25,672 --> 00:48:28,924 Well, there would have to be some kind of way 537 00:48:29,258 --> 00:48:33,261 to decide if couples are telling the truth 538 00:48:33,680 --> 00:48:36,348 and not just lying to put off their donations. 539 00:48:44,357 --> 00:48:46,858 That's what The Gallery could be for. 540 00:48:47,735 --> 00:48:50,112 In The Gallery they have everything about us they need to know. 541 00:48:50,196 --> 00:48:52,531 So if we say that we're in love, 542 00:48:54,325 --> 00:48:56,660 they can look into our souls and they can see. 543 00:48:56,744 --> 00:48:59,454 They'll know if it's real love or if it's just a lie. 544 00:49:00,623 --> 00:49:02,666 That's a strange idea, Tommy. 545 00:49:04,252 --> 00:49:05,335 What? 546 00:49:07,505 --> 00:49:10,507 No, no. I don't think that's any stranger than any other idea. 547 00:49:10,591 --> 00:49:14,011 And didn't Miss Lucy say that making art for The Gallery wasn't even important? 548 00:49:14,095 --> 00:49:15,470 Yes. 549 00:49:17,265 --> 00:49:19,474 But look what happened to her. 550 00:49:30,319 --> 00:49:32,529 Are you thinking of applying? 551 00:49:33,322 --> 00:49:34,823 With Ruth? 552 00:49:38,202 --> 00:49:39,244 No. 553 00:49:40,538 --> 00:49:41,747 It wouldn't work. 554 00:49:43,666 --> 00:49:45,083 Why? 555 00:49:52,467 --> 00:49:54,009 Because 556 00:50:02,185 --> 00:50:03,685 you forget that 557 00:50:04,854 --> 00:50:07,439 you got lots of stuff into The Gallery over the years, 558 00:50:07,523 --> 00:50:10,984 and if I applied they wouldn't have anything to go on. 559 00:50:25,416 --> 00:50:27,584 It's all just rumors and theories. 560 00:50:31,964 --> 00:50:33,423 Yeah, I know. 561 00:50:36,677 --> 00:50:38,178 Tommy. 562 00:50:56,239 --> 00:50:58,198 (BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY) 563 00:51:01,077 --> 00:51:02,285 (MOANS) 564 00:51:11,462 --> 00:51:13,421 (RUTH CONTINUES MOANING) 565 00:51:16,259 --> 00:51:17,884 (RUTH SQUEALING) 566 00:51:19,846 --> 00:51:21,054 (SIGHS) 567 00:51:25,101 --> 00:51:26,852 (NEVER LET ME GO PLAYING ON HEADPHONES) 568 00:51:26,936 --> 00:51:38,488 * Kiss me * 569 00:51:38,573 --> 00:51:41,032 * And never * 570 00:51:41,117 --> 00:51:45,579 * Never * 571 00:51:45,663 --> 00:51:49,457 * Let me go * 572 00:51:57,967 --> 00:52:00,135 * Lock my heart * 573 00:52:02,597 --> 00:52:06,057 * Throw away the key * 574 00:52:07,101 --> 00:52:09,936 * Feel my love * 575 00:52:11,230 --> 00:52:12,689 (MUSIC STOPS) 576 00:52:28,831 --> 00:52:31,333 I know what you think, Kathy. 577 00:52:34,587 --> 00:52:38,590 I know you think that you and Tommy would have made a more natural couple, 578 00:52:39,342 --> 00:52:40,842 and you believe 579 00:52:40,927 --> 00:52:44,387 that there's a chance that Tommy and I will split up some day. 580 00:52:45,848 --> 00:52:49,559 And when we do, perhaps that will be your chance with Tommy. 581 00:52:50,519 --> 00:52:52,854 Chance to do it right this time. 582 00:53:00,239 --> 00:53:02,907 But you see, the thing is, Kathy, 583 00:53:03,450 --> 00:53:06,869 although Tommy really likes you as a friend, 584 00:53:07,996 --> 00:53:10,706 he just doesn't see you that way. 585 00:53:14,878 --> 00:53:17,964 He told me about the porno magazines. 586 00:53:18,548 --> 00:53:19,924 (CHUCKLES) 587 00:53:20,759 --> 00:53:23,010 We had quite a laugh about it. 588 00:53:25,973 --> 00:53:29,767 He doesn't understand what you were doing. 589 00:53:31,853 --> 00:53:33,521 But I did. 590 00:53:37,234 --> 00:53:38,234 Oh! 591 00:53:58,088 --> 00:54:01,132 BOY: I said I'll just be five minutes. 592 00:54:06,305 --> 00:54:08,097 I want to be a carer. 593 00:54:10,142 --> 00:54:11,517 It's you who I apply to, isn't it? 594 00:54:11,601 --> 00:54:12,935 Yeah. 595 00:54:13,061 --> 00:54:15,062 I said that I'm applying. 596 00:54:17,441 --> 00:54:19,442 I'll bring the forms tomorrow, 597 00:54:19,526 --> 00:54:21,610 and that'll start the process. 598 00:54:32,956 --> 00:54:36,125 KATHY: By the time Ruth and Tommy actually did separate, 599 00:54:36,209 --> 00:54:38,336 my carer training had already begun. 600 00:54:40,547 --> 00:54:43,132 So I was hardly ever at The Cottages. 601 00:55:08,408 --> 00:55:11,577 It had never occurred to me that our lives, 602 00:55:12,079 --> 00:55:14,497 which had been so closely interwoven, 603 00:55:17,417 --> 00:55:20,002 could unravel with such speed. 604 00:55:34,768 --> 00:55:36,227 If I'd known, 605 00:55:37,187 --> 00:55:39,522 maybe I'd have kept tighter hold of them 606 00:55:41,983 --> 00:55:45,194 and not let unseen tides pull us apart. 607 00:56:12,722 --> 00:56:14,223 (ALARM BUZZING) 608 00:56:30,657 --> 00:56:32,324 Once I began working with my donors, 609 00:56:32,409 --> 00:56:35,578 I didn't have much time to dwell on Tommy or Ruth. 610 00:56:36,580 --> 00:56:38,289 Eventually, so many years had passed 611 00:56:38,373 --> 00:56:41,125 I came to think I would never see them again. 612 00:56:41,293 --> 00:56:44,420 (INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC PLAYING) 613 00:56:48,425 --> 00:56:51,969 Many carers find themselves just going through the motions, 614 00:56:52,095 --> 00:56:56,265 waiting for the day that they can stop and become donors. 615 00:56:58,685 --> 00:57:00,186 (DEVICE BEEPS) 616 00:57:00,645 --> 00:57:04,190 But for the most part, being a carer has suited me fine. 617 00:57:06,276 --> 00:57:09,528 I quite enjoy traveling across the country, 618 00:57:09,613 --> 00:57:13,240 shuttling from center to center, hospital to hospital. 619 00:57:26,880 --> 00:57:28,339 KATHY: Here you are. 620 00:57:30,300 --> 00:57:31,800 Dark chocolate. 621 00:57:32,636 --> 00:57:35,971 If you knew how many shops I had to go to before I found those. 622 00:57:36,223 --> 00:57:39,600 I thought I wasn't allowed to eat so soon before the operation. 623 00:57:39,684 --> 00:57:42,853 Oh, you're not. But I am. 624 00:57:42,938 --> 00:57:44,063 And after the operation, 625 00:57:44,147 --> 00:57:47,107 you can wolf down the whole packet in one go. 626 00:57:52,656 --> 00:57:53,989 (SIGHING) 627 00:58:01,665 --> 00:58:04,750 KATHY: For me, the real test of being a carer 628 00:58:04,834 --> 00:58:07,962 is when a donor completes earlier than expected. 629 00:58:08,672 --> 00:58:12,007 On the second or even first donation. 630 00:58:12,425 --> 00:58:13,801 (SOFTLY) Can I just have a quick word? 631 00:58:13,885 --> 00:58:14,969 Okay. 632 00:58:16,221 --> 00:58:18,597 I was wondering who'd be working on Hannah today. 633 00:58:18,682 --> 00:58:22,017 KATHY: I'd never say I've become immune to the completions. 634 00:58:22,978 --> 00:58:25,980 But they are something I am able to live with. 635 00:58:30,360 --> 00:58:32,820 You're Hannah's carer, aren't you? 636 00:58:33,738 --> 00:58:35,489 Hannah's carer? Yes. 637 00:58:36,783 --> 00:58:40,411 I'm sorry, it's always hard, but there were complications. 638 00:58:44,541 --> 00:58:46,000 You need me to sign the release? 639 00:58:46,084 --> 00:58:47,293 Please. 640 00:58:49,504 --> 00:58:51,589 Are you going to leave now? 641 00:58:51,673 --> 00:58:53,799 We can quite easily provide you with a bed tonight 642 00:58:53,883 --> 00:58:55,384 if you've got a long drive. 643 00:58:55,510 --> 00:58:57,886 I can be back home in under two hours. 644 00:58:57,971 --> 00:58:59,597 It's always better to wake at home, isn't it? 645 00:59:09,149 --> 00:59:10,816 Is that someone you know? 646 00:59:10,942 --> 00:59:12,401 Yeah. 647 00:59:14,779 --> 00:59:16,697 Actually, we grew up together. 648 00:59:17,073 --> 00:59:18,866 Oh. How is she? 649 00:59:19,159 --> 00:59:21,035 Were you close? 650 00:59:21,161 --> 00:59:23,746 We haven't seen each other now for almost 10 years. 651 00:59:23,830 --> 00:59:28,208 Well, Ruth isn't as strong as we would hope, at this stage. 652 00:59:30,420 --> 00:59:32,379 She's done two donations. 653 00:59:32,922 --> 00:59:34,256 She has. 654 00:59:35,258 --> 00:59:36,759 You think she'll complete on the third? 655 00:59:37,636 --> 00:59:39,845 I think she wants to complete. 656 00:59:40,764 --> 00:59:45,100 And, as you know, when they want to complete, they usually do. 657 01:00:43,493 --> 01:00:44,493 (DOOR OPENING) 658 01:00:56,924 --> 01:00:57,924 (PANTING SOFTLY) 659 01:01:02,179 --> 01:01:03,847 (SIGHS IN DISBELIEF) 660 01:01:04,306 --> 01:01:05,974 Kathy. 661 01:01:12,356 --> 01:01:13,857 (RUTH PANTING) 662 01:01:16,402 --> 01:01:19,362 RUTH: I've been keeping tabs on you over the years. 663 01:01:19,613 --> 01:01:21,156 And Tommy, too. 664 01:01:21,490 --> 01:01:23,450 KATHY: What do you hear about Tommy? 665 01:01:23,534 --> 01:01:26,786 (SIGHS) That he's done his second donation, too, 666 01:01:26,871 --> 01:01:29,706 and apparently he's doing very well on it. 667 01:01:30,374 --> 01:01:31,541 Apparently he's in better shape 668 01:01:31,625 --> 01:01:34,085 than some after their first donation. 669 01:01:34,295 --> 01:01:37,046 Good old Tommy. I'm not surprised. 670 01:01:39,175 --> 01:01:41,134 Are you surprised at me? 671 01:01:43,137 --> 01:01:45,972 I expect I look a bit broken, Kath. 672 01:01:47,057 --> 01:01:48,141 (SNICKERS) 673 01:01:48,225 --> 01:01:49,893 It's okay. 674 01:01:50,186 --> 01:01:53,229 I don't think I'd want to survive my third donation, anyway. 675 01:01:53,898 --> 01:01:56,024 You hear things, don't you? 676 01:01:56,233 --> 01:01:58,193 What kind of things? 677 01:01:58,736 --> 01:02:00,528 Oh, you know. 678 01:02:03,741 --> 01:02:05,909 How, maybe, after the fourth donation, 679 01:02:05,993 --> 01:02:08,787 even if you've technically completed, 680 01:02:08,913 --> 01:02:12,081 you're still conscious in some sort of way. 681 01:02:13,000 --> 01:02:17,170 And then you find out that there are more donations, plenty of them. 682 01:02:17,254 --> 01:02:21,466 No more recovery centers. No more carers. 683 01:02:23,219 --> 01:02:25,261 Just watching and waiting. 684 01:02:27,014 --> 01:02:29,349 Till they switch you off. 685 01:02:35,189 --> 01:02:37,607 I don't think I fancy that. 686 01:02:41,612 --> 01:02:44,030 Is it the end of the day already? 687 01:02:45,407 --> 01:02:47,158 Do you know, it's funny, 688 01:02:47,243 --> 01:02:51,538 I think I've thought about you every day for the last few months. 689 01:02:51,622 --> 01:02:53,623 Hoping I'd see you again. 690 01:02:55,292 --> 01:02:58,127 Do you know, I felt sure that I would. 691 01:02:59,630 --> 01:03:04,717 Seemed impossible that I'd complete without seeing you one last time. 692 01:03:07,137 --> 01:03:09,639 It's not the last time, Ruth. 693 01:03:10,641 --> 01:03:12,517 They offered me a bed. 694 01:03:12,601 --> 01:03:14,978 I was planning on staying the night anyway. 695 01:03:15,187 --> 01:03:16,813 Well. 696 01:03:41,755 --> 01:03:44,257 RUTH: I always knew you'd be a good carer. 697 01:03:44,717 --> 01:03:46,843 Your donors are very lucky. 698 01:03:52,224 --> 01:03:55,310 Look, I was lying awake last night 699 01:03:55,394 --> 01:03:58,354 and I suddenly had an idea that we'd take a trip together. 700 01:03:58,564 --> 01:04:00,356 Where to? 701 01:04:00,858 --> 01:04:03,735 I hadn't much thought of where, just a trip. 702 01:04:08,115 --> 01:04:09,699 Although 703 01:04:11,285 --> 01:04:13,036 a place did spring to mind. 704 01:04:13,120 --> 01:04:15,622 One of the boys on the other floor was talking about it. 705 01:04:15,706 --> 01:04:17,540 It's near the Kingsfield Recovery Center. 706 01:04:18,042 --> 01:04:21,544 Is it the boat? The one left on the beach? 707 01:04:21,670 --> 01:04:23,254 You've heard about it, too? 708 01:04:23,339 --> 01:04:25,882 I heard. One of the carers who worked there. 709 01:04:29,094 --> 01:04:30,845 And do you suppose, 710 01:04:31,889 --> 01:04:35,099 if we're driving all that way, 711 01:04:35,851 --> 01:04:38,144 that we could call in on Tommy? 712 01:04:40,272 --> 01:04:41,648 (CHUCKLING) 713 01:04:42,358 --> 01:04:45,318 Told you I'd been keeping tabs on you. 714 01:04:47,029 --> 01:04:48,446 Have you seen him? 715 01:04:49,698 --> 01:04:51,032 No, not since The Cottages. 716 01:04:52,076 --> 01:04:53,701 No, neither have I. 717 01:04:59,833 --> 01:05:01,334 RUTH: How will we find him? 718 01:05:01,418 --> 01:05:04,087 KATHY: His carer said he'd be waiting outside. 719 01:05:20,938 --> 01:05:22,438 Look, there he is. 720 01:05:29,321 --> 01:05:32,532 Do you think he's recognized us through the glass? 721 01:05:34,785 --> 01:05:36,619 No, no, no. 722 01:05:36,704 --> 01:05:38,705 Let's not get out. 723 01:05:55,389 --> 01:05:56,556 KATHY: Ruth's in the car. 724 01:05:56,640 --> 01:05:57,807 Oh, right. 725 01:05:57,933 --> 01:05:59,308 Hey! 726 01:05:59,768 --> 01:06:01,144 Hi! 727 01:06:02,646 --> 01:06:03,980 Hi. Hi. 728 01:06:04,314 --> 01:06:05,356 (CHUCKLES) 729 01:06:05,441 --> 01:06:06,482 How are you? 730 01:06:06,567 --> 01:06:07,650 RUTH: I'm good. 731 01:06:07,985 --> 01:06:09,193 Look at your hair. 732 01:06:09,278 --> 01:06:10,987 TOMMY: Oh, yeah. My hair. 733 01:06:15,951 --> 01:06:17,285 (CHUCKLES) 734 01:06:19,413 --> 01:06:21,748 I can't quite believe that I have you both here. 735 01:06:24,793 --> 01:06:26,377 Does it feel to you that we're back at Hailsham again? 736 01:06:26,462 --> 01:06:28,755 Like no time has passed? 737 01:06:29,381 --> 01:06:30,465 No, it doesn't. 738 01:06:30,549 --> 01:06:31,841 TOMMY: No, it doesn't at all, does it? 739 01:06:32,259 --> 01:06:35,011 It really doesn't at all. It's really weird. 740 01:06:35,137 --> 01:06:36,763 But a good weird, I think. 741 01:06:41,643 --> 01:06:45,188 I don't suppose you both heard that Hailsham was closed? 742 01:06:47,775 --> 01:06:51,027 The only schools left now, you hear they're like battery farms. 743 01:06:52,071 --> 01:06:53,696 Like Morningdale. 744 01:06:54,156 --> 01:06:57,200 I'm sure that's an exaggeration, though. 745 01:06:59,328 --> 01:07:01,537 Are you sure we're going the right way? 746 01:07:17,721 --> 01:07:19,222 It's locked, it looks like. 747 01:07:20,140 --> 01:07:21,641 No one said anything about this. 748 01:07:21,725 --> 01:07:23,476 No one said anything about a locked gate. 749 01:07:23,560 --> 01:07:26,395 Ruth, just relax. It's okay. 750 01:07:35,072 --> 01:07:36,906 Can walk through here. 751 01:08:04,935 --> 01:08:05,977 Wow. 752 01:08:19,449 --> 01:08:21,576 Hey, come on. 753 01:08:42,055 --> 01:08:43,306 (PANTING) 754 01:08:52,192 --> 01:08:53,275 (GASPING) 755 01:08:53,359 --> 01:08:54,693 (COUGHING) 756 01:09:09,209 --> 01:09:12,336 TOMMY: I wonder if that's what Hailsham looks like now. 757 01:09:14,964 --> 01:09:17,925 Do you ever hear, Kath, about any of the students from Hailsham? 758 01:09:18,009 --> 01:09:19,927 Sometimes, yeah. 759 01:09:21,429 --> 01:09:26,391 I heard that Amanda completed on her first donation. 760 01:09:27,018 --> 01:09:30,103 I think that happens more than they ever tell us. 761 01:09:30,188 --> 01:09:31,188 TOMMY: Hmm. 762 01:09:31,272 --> 01:09:35,067 Yeah, there was this guy at my care center 763 01:09:35,193 --> 01:09:40,197 who was always really scared of completing on his first donation. 764 01:09:41,407 --> 01:09:43,200 But it was all fine. 765 01:09:43,284 --> 01:09:46,203 And he's just come through his third one now, 766 01:09:46,829 --> 01:09:49,706 and he's completely all right. 767 01:09:54,837 --> 01:09:56,964 It's funny, I don't think... 768 01:09:58,049 --> 01:10:00,133 Well, I know I wouldn't have been a very good carer, 769 01:10:00,218 --> 01:10:02,261 but in a way I actually think I'm quite a good donor. 770 01:10:02,345 --> 01:10:05,055 (SNICKERS) That's what we're supposed to be, isn't it? 771 01:10:17,610 --> 01:10:19,236 I'd like you to forgive me. 772 01:10:21,864 --> 01:10:23,657 I don't expect you to. 773 01:10:24,242 --> 01:10:25,367 Forgive you for what? 774 01:10:32,667 --> 01:10:35,002 For keeping you and Tommy apart. 775 01:10:38,881 --> 01:10:42,175 Should have been you two together, I always knew it. 776 01:10:42,260 --> 01:10:44,511 As far back as I can remember. 777 01:10:46,514 --> 01:10:49,933 It wasn't just because of the rumors about deferrals. 778 01:10:54,397 --> 01:10:56,606 It was because I was jealous. 779 01:10:59,193 --> 01:11:03,322 You had real love and I didn't, 780 01:11:07,118 --> 01:11:10,454 and I didn't want to be the one that was left alone. 781 01:11:21,591 --> 01:11:23,258 It's the worst thing I ever did. 782 01:11:27,805 --> 01:11:30,140 And now I want to put it right. 783 01:11:30,516 --> 01:11:32,225 I don't know how you can do that, Ruth. 784 01:11:32,727 --> 01:11:34,144 I can 785 01:11:35,646 --> 01:11:37,314 if you two get a deferral. 786 01:11:38,316 --> 01:11:40,484 It's too late for that, Ruth. 787 01:11:40,985 --> 01:11:43,820 Way too late. It's stupid to even think about it. 788 01:11:44,030 --> 01:11:48,200 It isn't too late. Look, you'll see, both of you. 789 01:11:48,951 --> 01:11:53,497 I wanted to do this trip because I had something that I wanted to give you. 790 01:11:54,957 --> 01:11:56,833 It's Madame's address. 791 01:11:59,754 --> 01:12:03,465 That's who you apply to. That's who you have to go and see. 792 01:12:06,260 --> 01:12:08,053 How did you get this? 793 01:12:09,764 --> 01:12:13,558 It wasn't easy, but I've had years to think about what I did. 794 01:12:13,810 --> 01:12:18,188 And years to try and work out a way to make it right. 795 01:13:03,234 --> 01:13:06,445 I started doing them when we were at The Cottages. 796 01:13:06,612 --> 01:13:09,114 The day after we went to find Ruth's Possible. 797 01:13:09,240 --> 01:13:12,159 I realized that if I was ever going to apply for a deferral, 798 01:13:12,243 --> 01:13:14,494 then I'd have to show them something. 799 01:13:15,913 --> 01:13:18,915 And I've done hundreds of them over the years. 800 01:13:20,460 --> 01:13:22,127 They're wonderful. 801 01:13:22,920 --> 01:13:24,421 What? Really? 802 01:13:24,672 --> 01:13:26,089 Yeah. 803 01:13:27,675 --> 01:13:29,342 Well, thank you. 804 01:13:31,387 --> 01:13:32,971 (TOMMY CHUCKLES) 805 01:13:41,481 --> 01:13:44,608 I have never showed anyone them until now. 806 01:13:47,069 --> 01:13:49,154 They were my secret. 807 01:13:50,865 --> 01:13:53,617 Just like you and those porno magazines. 808 01:13:54,368 --> 01:13:56,036 You remember that? 809 01:13:56,454 --> 01:13:57,537 Yeah. 810 01:14:00,041 --> 01:14:01,958 Ruth said you didn't understand what I was doing. 811 01:14:02,043 --> 01:14:04,169 No, I don't think she understood what you were doing. 812 01:14:04,337 --> 01:14:06,338 She thought you were looking at the dirty pictures 813 01:14:06,422 --> 01:14:08,965 in order to find out about sex 814 01:14:09,342 --> 01:14:10,634 (SIGHING) 815 01:14:11,052 --> 01:14:14,679 and to find out what you were missing out on or something. 816 01:14:18,184 --> 01:14:19,726 I knew. 817 01:14:21,395 --> 01:14:24,523 I knew you were looking for your Original. 818 01:14:27,193 --> 01:14:30,987 I used to have these huge urges to have sex sometimes. 819 01:14:31,989 --> 01:14:34,533 And sometimes they'd be so powerful, 820 01:14:35,076 --> 01:14:36,993 I just thought I'd do it with anyone. 821 01:14:39,497 --> 01:14:42,332 So I thought that had to tell me something. 822 01:14:42,458 --> 01:14:45,252 Something about the kind of person I was modeled on. 823 01:14:47,672 --> 01:14:49,339 It's stupid, 824 01:14:50,925 --> 01:14:54,010 but I guessed the magazines would be the most likely place I'd find her. 825 01:14:56,180 --> 01:14:57,931 You know those urges are natural, don't you? 826 01:14:58,015 --> 01:15:01,560 You know all of us had them. You know that now, right? 827 01:15:15,283 --> 01:15:17,033 KATHY: "From Basrah we sailed, 828 01:15:18,452 --> 01:15:22,205 "day after day, night after night, over the sea, 829 01:15:23,332 --> 01:15:27,210 "visiting island after island and land after land, 830 01:15:28,546 --> 01:15:31,590 "selling or bartering our goods at each. 831 01:15:35,177 --> 01:15:39,639 "One day, after some weeks of sailing out of sight of land, 832 01:15:39,724 --> 01:15:42,434 "we saw an island in the sea with such fair greenery 833 01:15:42,518 --> 01:15:45,729 "that it appeared like one of the gardens of Eden. 834 01:15:46,314 --> 01:15:49,733 "At once the captain made towards this delectable land 835 01:15:49,817 --> 01:15:53,820 "and, when the anchor had been cast and the ladder lowered, 836 01:15:53,904 --> 01:15:56,740 "allowed his passengers to disembark." 837 01:16:03,372 --> 01:16:05,081 (WHISPERS) Don't stop. 838 01:18:30,937 --> 01:18:35,816 KATHY: Ruth got it right. Right street, right door, everything. 839 01:18:40,322 --> 01:18:43,866 We have to decide which of my drawings we're gonna take. 840 01:18:47,287 --> 01:18:49,914 Just take the best ones. Maybe six or seven of them. 841 01:18:49,998 --> 01:18:51,999 You have to help me. Yeah, I know. 842 01:18:53,835 --> 01:18:55,377 (BOTH LAUGHING) 843 01:18:58,340 --> 01:19:01,175 So, we'll just go there. 844 01:19:01,259 --> 01:19:02,301 Mmm. 845 01:19:02,385 --> 01:19:04,053 Next week. 846 01:19:04,137 --> 01:19:06,680 I'll take you out for lab tests, I'll sign you out for the whole day 847 01:19:06,765 --> 01:19:08,474 and we'll visit Madame on the way back. 848 01:19:25,158 --> 01:19:27,284 KATHY: We're going to do it. 849 01:19:29,579 --> 01:19:31,622 I thought you should know. 850 01:19:34,626 --> 01:19:36,502 You're going to apply? 851 01:19:39,256 --> 01:19:40,631 Yes. 852 01:19:46,388 --> 01:19:47,805 Good. 853 01:20:01,319 --> 01:20:02,820 (DOOR OPENING) 854 01:20:05,240 --> 01:20:06,740 (DOOR CLOSING) 855 01:20:06,867 --> 01:20:08,117 (SIGHS) 856 01:20:10,871 --> 01:20:12,496 (MONITOR BEEPING) 857 01:20:22,674 --> 01:20:24,675 (MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY) 858 01:20:25,844 --> 01:20:27,219 (MONITOR FLATLINING) 859 01:21:10,347 --> 01:21:11,847 (GULLS CAWING) 860 01:21:50,929 --> 01:21:52,805 Madame? 861 01:21:58,103 --> 01:21:59,520 Sorry. 862 01:22:00,397 --> 01:22:02,606 We didn't mean to startle you. 863 01:22:03,274 --> 01:22:05,025 We were at Hailsham. 864 01:22:09,781 --> 01:22:12,116 I'm Kathy. This is Tommy. 865 01:22:14,619 --> 01:22:16,954 We're not here to give you any trouble. 866 01:22:20,417 --> 01:22:21,875 From Hailsham? 867 01:22:21,960 --> 01:22:23,502 TOMMY: We just came to talk to you. 868 01:22:25,380 --> 01:22:27,631 And I brought you some things. 869 01:22:28,633 --> 01:22:31,510 Some things you might like for your Gallery. 870 01:22:33,680 --> 01:22:35,264 Come inside. 871 01:22:53,658 --> 01:22:55,993 (SOFT INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC PLAYING) 872 01:23:03,001 --> 01:23:04,501 (DOOR OPENING) 873 01:23:05,837 --> 01:23:07,337 (DOOR CLOSING) 874 01:23:10,759 --> 01:23:12,760 Please, wait here. 875 01:23:30,862 --> 01:23:32,654 Look, it's Hailsham. 876 01:23:34,365 --> 01:23:36,533 Kathy, it's Hailsham. 877 01:23:38,495 --> 01:23:41,205 KATHY: That's exactly how I remember it. 878 01:23:48,296 --> 01:23:49,922 Please, sit down. 879 01:24:05,230 --> 01:24:06,605 So... 880 01:24:09,818 --> 01:24:11,318 We're in love. 881 01:24:12,112 --> 01:24:14,655 And it's true love. It's verifiable. 882 01:24:15,740 --> 01:24:17,741 Verifiable. I see. 883 01:24:23,790 --> 01:24:25,290 Go on. 884 01:24:25,542 --> 01:24:26,959 Well, 885 01:24:28,628 --> 01:24:31,255 we'd heard about the deferrals. 886 01:24:33,466 --> 01:24:36,219 And we'd worked out the purpose of The Gallery. 887 01:24:37,596 --> 01:24:39,347 Tell me the purpose. 888 01:24:41,142 --> 01:24:44,227 To use our art from Hailsham 889 01:24:44,436 --> 01:24:46,771 to look into our souls, 890 01:24:47,815 --> 01:24:51,234 which would verify that we deserved a deferral. 891 01:24:51,944 --> 01:24:55,321 (CHUCKLING) But the problem is 892 01:24:55,406 --> 01:24:58,283 I was a little bit mixed up back then 893 01:24:58,367 --> 01:25:02,579 and I didn't really do any art, 894 01:25:04,248 --> 01:25:06,583 so you never took anything of mine. 895 01:25:06,667 --> 01:25:10,128 I know, I know that that is my fault 896 01:25:10,212 --> 01:25:13,423 and it is probably much too late, 897 01:25:13,507 --> 01:25:15,508 but I brought some stuff with me today. 898 01:25:21,473 --> 01:25:24,559 This is a book of stuff and... 899 01:25:36,655 --> 01:25:38,698 Other stuff here. 900 01:25:42,244 --> 01:25:43,411 (TOMMY MUMBLING) 901 01:25:43,495 --> 01:25:46,623 Some of them I've done quite recently, 902 01:25:47,666 --> 01:25:49,000 and others 903 01:25:50,961 --> 01:25:53,838 (STUTTERING) were done several years ago, so there's a real spread. 904 01:25:55,132 --> 01:25:58,426 You already have a load of stuff from Kath already. 905 01:25:58,510 --> 01:26:01,554 She got loads of stuff into The Gallery over the years, didn't... 906 01:26:01,680 --> 01:26:03,348 I'm sorry. 907 01:26:06,685 --> 01:26:08,645 I never know what to do. 908 01:26:12,566 --> 01:26:14,192 (FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING) 909 01:26:15,486 --> 01:26:17,362 I'll take it from here. 910 01:26:23,244 --> 01:26:24,911 EMILY: Thank you, George. 911 01:26:29,375 --> 01:26:31,793 Kathy H and Tommy D. 912 01:26:31,877 --> 01:26:32,877 (DOOR CLOSING) 913 01:26:33,545 --> 01:26:35,505 I remember you both. 914 01:26:36,048 --> 01:26:39,175 Kathy, a bright girl, and so creative. 915 01:26:39,468 --> 01:26:42,762 And Tommy, a big heart and terrible rages. 916 01:26:47,017 --> 01:26:48,726 You have to understand, 917 01:26:49,728 --> 01:26:54,315 Hailsham was the last place to consider the ethics of donation. 918 01:26:54,733 --> 01:26:58,111 We used your art to show what you were capable of. 919 01:26:58,779 --> 01:27:01,447 To show that donor children are all but human. 920 01:27:03,284 --> 01:27:07,245 But we were providing an answer to a question no one was asking. 921 01:27:08,831 --> 01:27:11,040 If you ask people to return to darkness, 922 01:27:11,125 --> 01:27:15,628 the days of lung cancer, breast cancer, motor neurone disease, 923 01:27:16,588 --> 01:27:18,464 they'll simply say no. 924 01:27:21,844 --> 01:27:25,138 We used to get two or three couples like you a year. 925 01:27:26,765 --> 01:27:28,683 Not so much these days. 926 01:27:28,767 --> 01:27:29,767 (CHUCKLES) 927 01:27:30,185 --> 01:27:32,687 You're the first for quite a while. 928 01:27:36,817 --> 01:27:39,110 To apply for a deferral? 929 01:27:47,536 --> 01:27:49,954 There are no deferrals, Tommy. 930 01:27:54,960 --> 01:27:59,172 There are no deferrals. And there never have been. 931 01:28:09,641 --> 01:28:13,394 We didn't have The Gallery in order to look into your souls. 932 01:28:13,812 --> 01:28:17,023 We had The Gallery to see if you had souls at all. 933 01:28:30,079 --> 01:28:31,746 Do you understand? 934 01:28:42,633 --> 01:28:44,008 Yes. 935 01:28:50,849 --> 01:28:53,684 Your drawings are very good. 936 01:28:55,020 --> 01:28:57,522 If you want, I'll keep them. 937 01:29:59,960 --> 01:30:02,086 Thank you for talking to us. 938 01:30:05,924 --> 01:30:07,675 You poor creatures. 939 01:30:09,470 --> 01:30:11,429 I wish I could help you. 940 01:31:11,365 --> 01:31:13,991 Sorry, can we stop for a second? I need to get out. 941 01:31:40,018 --> 01:31:41,561 (TOMMY YELLING) 942 01:33:56,948 --> 01:33:58,323 (INAUDIBLE) 943 01:34:21,806 --> 01:34:24,391 KATHY: It's been two weeks since I lost him. 944 01:34:55,006 --> 01:34:57,215 I've been given my notice now. 945 01:35:01,053 --> 01:35:03,722 My first donation is in a month's time. 946 01:35:12,398 --> 01:35:15,650 I come here and imagine that this is the spot 947 01:35:15,735 --> 01:35:19,654 where everything I've lost since my childhood has washed up. 948 01:35:23,618 --> 01:35:26,953 I tell myself if that were true, 949 01:35:27,789 --> 01:35:30,123 and I waited long enough, 950 01:35:31,209 --> 01:35:35,086 then a tiny figure would appear on the horizon across the field 951 01:35:35,254 --> 01:35:39,216 and gradually get larger until I'd see it was Tommy. 952 01:35:42,261 --> 01:35:43,845 He'd wave 953 01:35:44,305 --> 01:35:46,181 and maybe call. 954 01:35:48,518 --> 01:35:51,561 I don't let the fantasy go beyond that. 955 01:35:51,771 --> 01:35:53,104 I can't let it. 956 01:35:55,233 --> 01:35:59,236 I remind myself I was lucky to have had any time with him at all. 957 01:36:03,783 --> 01:36:06,034 What I'm not sure about 958 01:35:50,914 --> 01:35:55,500 is if our lives have been so different from the lives of the people we save. 959 01:36:14,085 --> 01:36:16,002 We all complete. 960 01:36:18,464 --> 01:36:22,175 Maybe none of us really understand what we've lived through 961 01:36:24,136 --> 01:36:26,680 or feel we've had enough time.